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draconicace · 15 days ago

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aah!! aah!! anxiety spiral over cars. got too long with no paragraph breaks so it goes under a readmore. out of kindness

took a shower and then just sat there thinking about how much freedom i could have if i could drive and how to be able to drive. increasing my ankle stability so i don't lose control of my foot and die. improving my adhd so i don't get distracted by a butterfly or perhaps a playful bird and die. improving my autism so i don't get overwhelmed by sensory information and all the things i have to remember while driving so i don't have a panic attack and cause a ten-car pileup and die. improving my situational awareness so i don't kill someone and also die. going to the eye doctor to figure out why my vision's getting worse so i can read signs in the distance and see other cars so i don't kill someone or die or get arrested. finding an instructor who is kind and patient enough to teach a toddler who is terrified of scissors how to use them because the scissors are a deadly metal machine that kills multiple people every single day. that's where i'm at

#aiden's monologuing #it sucks so fucking bad not being able to drive #but cars suck. i hate cars. everyone should light their cars on fire and make them explode. also they should be fun colors #why are all cars nowadays monochrome where the fuck is your whimsy. how do you find it in the walmart parking lot i hate all of you #i want TRAINS. i want BUSSES. i want BICYCLE LANES and SIDEWALKS. government officials would rather i die #here are the options: i find a magical fairy instructor who gives me the ability to drive in exchange for something precious of mine #or i move to a city with workable public transit and never leave it ever #also somehow have to afford a place to live near the public transit. because if you are even a little bit outside of some cities. nope.#even if i got a bike around here i'd have to ride it on five lane roads and highways because the south is allergic to infrastructure #actually i think it's illegal to ride bikes on highways. sucks. rough.#searching online and seeing 'do deep breathing exercises' what if i made all gasoline disappear and replaced it with coca-cola #and every single car had sugar chunks inside of it that destroyed the internal parts forever and ever and ever!!!!#anyway. i'm gonna go watch two australian men do terrible things to cars and see if they can still drive it up a steep hill. therapy for me

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