#and dont just make her a woman who's super masculine. make her feminine as well.

[jason-todd-is-a-real-mood]

THE TAGS 🤌🤌🤌 SO TRUE

Let her be a femme fatale let her be a nerd let her be strong, ressourceful, vulnerable and naive. Look at emma frost look at felicia hardy in spiderman this is what we want ! Create a new fighting style and weapons that suit her personnality and physical abilities ! Do not recycle animations from male protagonists !

GIVE US FASHIONNABLE OUTFITS TOO ! EVIE AND AYA'S ROBES ATE JACOB AND BAYEK'S THERE I SAID IT !

Evie had 1000000x more drip than jacob while walking and running around !

After basim i need a female assassin.

No more " you can choose" . Give me a woman born in the brotherhood like the frye but let me see her grow up in it. Childhood training mission. First kill. Introduction to the council and the creed. Being "brainwash" in believing she is doing good.

Or make her a commoner, a child brought into the creed and who realize that all the people at the top of the brotherhood are often aristocrats who never had to let go of their freedom to live the next day.

Let her be devoted to the cause let me see her be even a bit naive in what she believes.

Then let her grow like you let ezio and altair do. Make her cocky but also wise. Not just a living punchlines machine or a disapproving female figure. Do not make her relation to a man the core of her story.

Show her question what she is doing. Make her afraid of being shun by the brotherhood, the only thing, the only rules and life she ever knew. Let her fight for what she knows is a good cause but not what she believes in anymore. Let her loose and get hurt.

Let her rebuild herself. Let her be friend with historic people who are more than cameo and merchants npc and show her what fighting from freedom can mean. What living for yourself can mean.

Show her habits. Show her discovering small pleasures in life that are seen wasteful as an assassin : Her favourite food. Her favourite book.

Make her assassin robes evolve as her fashion tastes and identity evolve too.

[officialspec]

can you pleeeeease post your dm sexuality/gender hcs on here.... 🥺 i don't have a twitter but i wanna know. it's like a pandora's box to me now i'm like scratching at the door. let me in

heres the link 2 the thread (mild spoilers btw) ill post a transcript under the cut for ppl who dont have twitter

first off i think laios relationship to sex is super removed for like 50 reasons without even getting into his actual sexuality

he grew up in a place with very repressed ideas about sex and has a lot of fear about asserting his presence in situations

his special interest takes precedent over any social interactions he has and the level of closeness he feels towards people

he has a hard time figuring out his feelings towards other people both bc hes autistic and bc he has freaky deviantart fetishes that make sex in his mind a very abstract concept <- this one is me projecting mostly

that aside, i feel like gender-wise hes attracted to ppl so infrequently it may as well be entirely case-by-case

the idea of him being gay appeals to me from the 'raised with traditional values he Does Not fit into/hasnt begun to question it yet' perspective, i lauve characters who put a lot of stock into performing a role thats expected of them and fail miserably for unknown (gay) reasons

from his perspective tho i dont think he would ever really label himself anything. hes going to pride parades in the shirt+shorts Ally Fit to clap for his friends

hes also 'cis by indifference' imo... i love tmasc laios hcs it just doesnt mesh w his personal history to me. i do think hes got some kind of therian gender thing going on (not trans or nb but a secret third thing) but i cant see him changing anything abt his appearance/pronouns to accommodate that post-canon. hes just doin his thang

falin is in a similar boat for gender. i LOOVE tfem falin but the village repression thing has been bugging at me so i dont think i subscribe to it anymore (canon purist sorry) BUT if u hold that hc i am clapping and cheering regardless

instead i was propagandised to a while back and i LOVEEE the idea that being fused w a male dragon and the residual traits she has after being revived have given her a type of gender euphoria she didnt realise she was missing. a little boygirl swagger if u will

sexuality-wise i also dont think she would care to label herself, shes a lesbian by virtue of only being interested in One woman and zero other people. without marcille i do think shes still exclusively attracted to women, and i like to imagine she might experiment around a bit during her travels post-canon (pre-relationship). hearing abt it might put marcille on the news though

marcille is very simple That is a transfem lesbian. she cant get pregnant, shes obsessed w being femme and all that combined w her half-tallman struggles to be seen as 'properly feminine' by elf standards reads very transfeminine to Me. also her bookboy crush REEKS of comphet its not subtle

i think a more comfortable marcy might have the space to experiment w being elf butch like her manga boys but thats mainly self indulgence for me. utena could have saved her

senshi is gay his whole thing is abt not being able to perform dwarven masculinity to a proper standard (soft hearted, not as strong or rugged as his peers) which is like gaycoding 101. also hes a bear. homosexuality be damned by boy can work a grill

adding onto this i rly think senshi got some type of euphoria from being an elf in the changeling chapters. he was feeling himself so much i think he was using it as an outlet to have fun being a little fem and fruity without needing to justify it. do u understand

i dont have any particular opinions abt him gender-wise beyond that. his bulge is an essential part of his character design but i also saw a transmasc senshi a couple days ago that made me nod my head thoughtfully so i could go either way

chilchuck is cis and bisexual this is just canon. not even just his old man crush on senshi altho i do think thats very funny but they put his ass on a cover themed like hes in a dating sim with all the men and women in the cast and then slapped it in front of a chapter called "bicorn". i simply cant pass up that kind of overt signaling. its so fucking funny what else is there to say truly

izu to ME is a transmasc aroace lesbian (this one has the least basis in canon i just know it to be true) shes a little genderfluid with it nd uses he/she i think. i like to imagine she consistently uses masculine personal pronouns to refer to herself either way tho (boku, ore)

i think izutsumis gender/sexuality is entirely secondary in priorities to her body dysphoria. she has a lot of learning and acceptance 2 do before that kind of self discovery is on the docket and in my mind eschewing gender on some level is part of that. get sillay

shuro is cishet but at least he feels bad about it. next listen listen to me i dont think he would ever actually examine this but i need u to put on ur tin foil hat with me for one second. i think estrogen could have saved her. i have more thoughts on this but im not gonna propagandise too much on this post just know that im right

kabru is a transmasc bisexual this is also practically text. his whole thing of being treated like a doll by milsiril to put in pretty dresses, plus i think it would be pretty easy for him to stealth in the west since tallmen are seen as inherently more masculine than elves

(i also think changing genders is just more common for elves. theyre androgynous enough that it wouldnt be hard and like who in their right miiiiind would be the same gender for 500 years. dwarves too)

i think he started presenting as male socially in the west but didnt need to consider medical transition until he moved to a more mixed culture where other races might see him as a woman

i dont have to explain the bisexual part. have u seen him

namari is a butch bisexual this is just canon straight up. shes not transmasc but i think the default settings for dwarven women is like 4 years of T regardless. shes a hit at all the local cruising spots despite her renfaire nerdisms i know this

and just bc im thinking abt em kiki and kaka are identical and kiki is tfem :} theyre both attracted to women but kaka is a sub so i forgive him

THATS ALL 4 NOW theres a lot of characters so i cant have thoughts abt all of them at once but i hope this was good. im right about everything forever as per usual

[yanderespamton78]

ive been kinda hesitant to make an actual post about this for a while because I don't want to start a fight or have people think I'm transphobic but no one else is talking about it and i need to SPEAK MY TRUTH. so. transmasc bive angers me more than anything else ever. Its sexist and dare i say misogynistic.

you guys could probably infer that a bit from the dni and how my friends keep sending me asks that just say "transmasc bive" but you still do not fully know why so i will tell you :3

quick disclaimer here!! i do not mind people headcanoning characters as trans!!! that woman is a transwoman? cool! that duck is transmasc? why not!! the fallen god posessing a rock is transmasc? its not hurting anyone!! but that masculine woman is not a man FUCK OFF. the masc woman can be a trans woman but im not allowing transmasc.

okay lets start off with my main point. how funny that people only tend to headcanon the masc woman character as a man. isnt that interesting. i have not once seen a transmasc split or STAT or mozelle. admittedly ive seen a transmasc melanie shoutout to that person but i have seen like 5 people who hc bive, the masc woman, as transmasc and one person who has headcanoned a femme character as transmasc.

fascinating isnt it. do you think shes just too masculine to be a woman? do you think a woman shouldnt have rights to her womanhood simply because she doesnt look feminine enough? because she does stereotypically "masculine" things like not caring about her appearance and not keeping on top of her hygiene? interesting.

id like to add something i really like about bive is the fact that shes a woman, because literally EVERY other batshit crazy character ive ever seen is a man. spamton, adrian pimiento, Adi Singh. honestly just look for any kinda insane character and theyll be a man 4/5. but someting i like about regretevator is when making characters the developers dont really think about gender and it means that characters of all genders are well written and entertaining and its great!!!!

and you could argue that there are plenty of butch woman characters in media, and you wouldnt be wrong. i could name plenty off the top of my head, but almost all masc woman characters are cool butch super strong super intimidating women. Susie Deltarune, Vi Arcane, Rosa B99, Undyne Undertale, yada yada. we need our butch loser representation please

and on a more personal note, I WANT A CHARACTER WHO IS MY GENDER!!! my gender identity is something very specific that i never have really gotten a grasp of, and ive definitely never had a character to compare it to. It can best be described as "boygirl thing" and that is more or less bive!!! and you could argue "oh im transmasc i want a character who is my gender" SHE CAN STILL BE TRANS!!! TRANSFEM PEOPEL EXIST!!! YOU WANT A TRANSMASC CHARACTER THEN CHOOSE A MAN CHARACTER TO MAKE TRANSMASC OR CHOOSE A TRANSMASC CHARACTER!!! GREGORIAH EXISTS???? BOOM GENDER RIGHT THERE TAKE HIM AND LEAVE BIVE ALONE!!

i am saying this as a masculine woman who gets misgendered daily!!! shocker! women can be women without being buff and cool or being feminine and pretty!!! who couldve guessed!!! women can be women when just being themself with short hair and trousers and baggy clothes!! ooooo gender non conformityyy scaarryyyy

okay thats it. this was probably a bit dramatic and a bit mean but this is a subject i feel very passionately about (both in the transmasc bive aspect and in the "women dont have to be feminine to be women" aspect.)

in conclusion: just make bive transfem. trans woman dont have to look like women either you know.

[alltheselights]

I agree with you on everything and I love your clearsightedness, except one thing. I think youre right that LTHQ/Sony don't want Larries around as unconditional fans because we support Louis too hard, so we have to be taught in regular bursts not to trust him and hate him instead. I think HSHQ/Sony do want Larries around because we also support Harry hard and we're very handy to defend his queerness when he's playing all sides against the middle and getting shit for supposed queerbaiting from normals and other fanbases. We're gonna to be super useful for getting SM hype when MP drops and defending H from claims he shouldn't have taken the role because hes not gay. But Louis, they do need Louis to keep Larry going just enough (he is kind of necessary for that) and lets be real, make Harry's image more approachable and relatable for us, but they dont want him to come anywhere near reaching his potential as an artist as we've seen proved conclusively by now. This is just more of the same old bullshit they always pull to drag him back down and damage him again because the tour went far too well. Its the same shit. The same people. The same tactics. Damaging syndicated articles, and fandom sabotage 'from his own mouth' except it's always a version of Louis that doesnt exist when you actually see or hear him. It's about us , about Larries, and how easily we can be made to turn on him but only if we never turn on Harry. I really think thats what its all about now.

I actually do think you have a point here, so I’ll add this to what I said - maybe HSHQ do want Larries around, but they want us fully in the background while they continue to cater to his solo fanbase and especially to the locals, who they want listening to his music, buying his album, and attending his concerts. Hardcore fans are important, but those locals are the reason his streaming and overall sales numbers are so high and it’s hard to sustain that interest.

You know, I’ve noticed more and more lately how this side of the fandom's view of Harry strays further and further from the general public view every single day. For example, I constantly see people talking about how het Harries and locals only like “sexy” Harry and how they must HATE the rest of Harry’s stage behavior and clothing. In reality, people have known how Harry acts and dresses for a long time and it adds to their attraction to him. I don’t get how people haven’t picked up on this considering Harry has become MORE popular with the general public and expanded his mostly female fanbase since Vogue. I try to avoid Harry and Louis content on TikTok, but often when it pops up, I find people talking about how Harry was “written by a woman” because he’s masculine while still being in touch with his feminine side and he’s sexy without being threatening. These aspects of Harry’s image that many Larries claim het Harries or the general public hate are actually a huge part of peoples’ perfect boyfriend fantasy of him, and both Harry and HSHQ know that.

It’s just extremely frustrating to watch people come up with excuses and alternative meanings to very clear, unsubtle lyrics (e.g. I bring the pop to the cinema, if you’re getting yourself wet for me, choke her with a sea view), make excuses for certain types of behavior or ignore it entirely (so much of Harry’s stunt content never even makes it to Tumblr, I’ve noticed, while all of Louis’ does), or blame everyone around Harry and then turn around and spew vitriol toward Louis immediately when something happens. Especially considering what the consequences of all of this stuff are for Harry (his career is on the rise) and what the consequences are for Louis (nothing has improved for him in terms of promo or public image even after his sold out world tour).

It’s just hard to watch how Louis gets punished by his fans when he gets nothing out of this shit. This quote you said toward the end: “It’s about us, about Larries, and how easily we can be made to turn on him but only if we never turn on Harry.” You’re right. And it’s horrible.

[volfoss]

hi teehee kof rant (mai centric bc i have a problem etc) below the cut and all that

burden of being a mai fan is having to see a million horrible pieces of content in each kof game (and fatal fury too my god) but it genuinely drives me insane how they write her in a lot of the games. like its 50% of the woah shes a conventionally attractive woman and thats all the character development and depth shes given. Any other time its just maybe 45% "kyaa andy" and 5% lets have her have a nice time w her team. now like. im biased due to hating andy (due to how he really treats her a lot of the time and just how her character is so so based around him instead of letting her be an actual character)

now i know that its like a part of her character that shes super in love w andy and SUPER feminine (other than the ending for fatal fury special where she remarks that she needs to be less masculine) but it really feels like SNK just poured all the budget and effort into seeing how sexy they could make her/the physics of her animation (again iykyk). esp considering her development section on the wiki (of heres who her boobs and ass are based off of, how when they introduced her ""swaying bosom", the developers were awestruck". like i understand fully that they are trying to yk. make her a sex symbol (which worked a little too well imo). it really bled into how a fair bit of fans treat her as just a hot body and never really consider her personality or literally anything other than how her clothes fit or how they can make her outfit worse.

but it really to me feels that the devs were like ok. 4 traits should work: mean to other women sometimes (mostly over appearance), SUPER irrational (which i dont believe but im also like. overthinking pro here, ill elaborate later if i remember), in LOVE with andy, and hot. occasionally they try and throw in a bimbo angle. i feel they really ignore a lot of things they COULD touch on (ie literally ANYTHING with her past, how she gets along w literally anyone on andys team outside of andy (we again. get tiny hints of it but rly not much), or literally ANYTHING outside of the few traits we very vaguely get.

so many of her endings are just either SO andy centric or just her getting drunk. and thats literally it. not even to get into the team stories which are normally a bit better (96's has made me INSANE for weeks tho) but esp 99, that was really disappointing. that one really felt like they were treating her as a footnote and butt of the joke (which happens a lot of people being like wow girl you are crazy about andy) but it feels like in some of the endings (2003 comes to mind, where you get a tiny hint of woah theyre putting in that she cares about her friends and then its like no lol actually its just all about andy)

again i understand how the way that she is written doesnt really allow for a really good read on her as a character (her personality section on the wiki is fucking abysmal. tldr of it is wow shes cheerful, 2 full paragraphs dedicated to how much she loves andy, shes a "traditional and ideal japanese beauty" and like. a tiny note on how she gets along w the womens team/terry and joe). but she really does have more than that of just genuinely being a very kind person and very goofy, as well as a very talented and dedicated person.

so what rly irks me (this is not number one but girls need to get their thoughts on her past out somehow and by god im doing it here) is how her past isnt really ever touched on except for tiny hints here and there. sure we get info on how her grandfather trained her and the tiniest inkling of stuff on her parents (that theyre dead) and how andy came to train with her grandfather when they were both pretty young. but they really dont ever elaborate on how her grandfather basically passing all of her training off to his friend (who is yk. a canonical creep and lecherous old man trope to a T) and training andy impacted her. we never learn how she handled her parents death. or even her grandparents death. or even the enormous weight of being the last shiranui ninja. its all focused on wow lol she fell in love w andy super early on and thats IT really. MI2 (pretty sure. might have been MI 1) does go into a tiny bit of detail on her grandfather training her to move silently and bribing her into that with anything she really ever wanted, and how that even impacted her with the beginning of MI2, where she uses training from her grandfather to throw the letter at Andy, catching him by surprise. but we really dont get a lot of introspection on that in really any of the mainline games (or manga that ive read, all of the ones ive read just have her plotlines be the same as the game (of half andy and half woah hot lady)

not to mention again in the 96 team stories, she mentions that after King says she also cannot participate in KOF, she says this:

^ which literally lines that drive me insane that they NEVER elaborate on. surely her childhood had to be lonely with her being an only child (presumably) and it not really mentioning any friends she has outside of the womens team and a TINY bit of terry and joe. which god. there could have been SO much potential with her and terrys relationship. we literally could have had besties but instead its normally used for a joke of wow mai is SO scary about andy oh nooo. and same w joe. i think tbh the fatal fury movie honestly nailed how i would have their relationship in an ideal world, with them just teasing each other and being a bit bitchy but in a fun friendship way yk?

in regards to the womens team i do normally enjoy how they handle the stuff with her and them, its VERY clear she cares about and loves yuri and king, and even chizuru (i hold the 96 ending SO close to my heart tbh) and just literally if they could pass the bechdel test for literally once in their life, it would be ideal.

mai just genuinely has a lot of potential in terms of writing and literally if u just go through her quotes its just really clear to see she doesnt get that potential ever explored (esp in some of the fatal fury stuff, where shes having to fend men off from touching her or hitting on her.)

tldr snk hire me i understand her etc

[blackbutler-readerinsertsandjunk]

You dont have many requests for Mr. Charles Grey?? I'm shocked! That guy is too awesome 👌Well,if requests are still open and you don't mind, may I ask for an imagine or sth for him with a ditzy but super intelligent inventor fem S/O who works directly under the Queen and invents a variety of stuff,from medical to outright weaponry.Maybe the Queen sends her on a dangerous mission and Grey has to protect her but she wanders around and gets in trouble?Idk,mais Monsieur Charles Gris est un amour 💖

Mais oui, il est très très très beau et charmant!! Je l’aime beaucoup!!! ❤️

CHARLES GREY

Oh, he adores her, but… but why does she have to go off on her own like this?! Ugh. She’s making his job so much harder! Of course, she’s very lucky he’s here to keep her safe. When all’s said and done, he doesn’t really mind taking care of her like this. It gives him the chance to be the big manly protector, which is quite clearly a plus as far as he’s concerned.

He pretends not to be interested in anything she happens to be inventing at the moment, and will often act annoyed when she prattles on about her current work. But the truth is, he’s amazed that a woman can be so smart and good with her hands to create all these things. He secretly loves listening to her talk about whatever she’s working on. Surely, Her Majesty couldn’t have found someone more capable to work as her inventor.

Whatever trouble this woman manages to get herself into, Grey will most likely end up bursting in at just the right moment. Although it’s not usually intentional, especially when someone he cares about is in danger, he has this strange sense of timing. It makes his entrance all the more dramatic and a huge relief to (Name). She’s surely in good hands with him and if she didn’t know that before, she does now!

She should be prepared to thoroughly grill him and patch him up. Grey is very concerned with appearing traditionally masculine for the Victorian era, and he overcompensates mainly because (whether others have the same opinion or not) he thinks he physically has very soft, borderline feminine features, so he has to make up for it by acting tough. This leads to him hiding any wounds he might have received while rescuing (Name). Once she manages to get it through his thick head that nobody else is around, so he doesn’t have to keep up appearances, he’ll probably relent and let her fix him up. She can expect plenty of grumbling about, “I could have done this myself” and “I’m not weak; I don’t need you to take care of me” and so on.

… The best way to shut him up is a kiss. As much as he wants to keep up that strong facade, he very much enjoys being treated gently in private. It’s something of a treat, and to have affection lavished upon him like that will soften him very quickly as long as there’s nobody else around to see it.

Obviously, whenever (Name) needs to travel anywhere in or outside of England, Grey will request that he be the one to accompany her! Not only does he truly want to keep her safe… he definitely relishes those intimate moments where they’re all alone together.

[mopwateramune]

Toxic Masculinity.

Dave Strider, the same boy who took care of himself so well even abuse couldn't get to him, the same one who kept up his air of masculinity to one up his bro through hardwired irony, was the boy who allowed himself to let his hair grow.

During the first year, he worked tirelessly to maintain his image, as there was essentially no privacy on the meteor for him to sing instead of rap his shitty raps. Dave would cut his hair every month, he wore his shades to bed, he got up at the slightest movement from the other side of the room, vents banging with an echo of a far away time with blackest of hatred and the putrid scent of flat soda. He would go on about how he was "the man", and he always had the rock.

Of course, as years do, that one passed. Strider soon realised he was safe. And thus, he let go, if slightly. One thing was for sure: he rocked longer hair, especially when he straightened it. Those two things he did for the first two months. Then, he "ironically", as he called it, allowed Rose to paint his nails. He wore it proudly, but with a false mask of a lie, a world of lies he built up to keep himself safe.

In the second year, he finally allowed Kanaya to do some.. touch ups, on him. For the first time ever, he put on make-up, or rather, allowed someone else to put make-up on him. He didn't know or understand how to feel during the process, but he sat through it until the she-blood was done. Terezi even did his hair with hairbands, as he let her, while Vriska sat legs crossed and arms folded across the room, nodding to this moment. He went to the respite block, stood in front of the full length reflection board, and he was. He was. At first, there was shock, given, but then he realised something: he liked this.

To rid of something so ingrained within you it hurt to take it out in just two years is like ripping off a Bandaid stuck onto a scar with super glue. He saw himself, and he knew that the way he was raised, he shouldn't admire himself the way he did. He shouldn't be like this. Karkat then slowly walked into the room, and stood in place, shuffling a bit to stay in place.

"DAVE.. ARE YOU OKAY?" concern alarmingly present. Karkat wasn't being stuck up, or even ironic this time with him. He was.

Dave fell to his knees.

"WOAH, WOAH! ITS OKAY, YOU DONT NEED TO WEAR THIS, YOU CAN TAKE IT OFF!"

Dave bawled for the first time in years. He sobbed and sobbed and let it all out of him, all the fucked up pain he repressed, all the shitty gears in his chest that kept him rolling with a life destined to make him who he had to be for the game. The many years of abuse for something he liked, but knew in Bro's eyes it was a weakness to own unironically. Femininity.

After thirty minutes, he calmed down, while Karkat rubbed circles into Dave's back and hugged his shrunken form curled up into a welcoming lap, a loving chest.

"IT'S OKAY, YOU CAN TAKE ALL OF THAT OFF NOW. YOU DONT LIKE IT, I GET IT! YOU DONT HAVE TO BE-" Dave interrupted him.

"no, no, you dont get it," he sniffed, rubbing his ruined make-up from his snotty nose, "i love this" his normal, subtly whiny tone taking over him. Still on his bullshit, but it keeps him comforted, the air of his normality.

Karkat smiled a little bit, if only for a moment, and let his head fall. Dave picked himself up, and Karkat followed suit. However, something changed within them both. Karkat couldn't take it anymore, and ran to Dave to take his face into his hands. They shared a rough kiss, Vantas careful not to break Strider's gentle human skin with his teeth. And Dave teared up again, smiling, kissing back.

The last year into the journey on the meteor, Dave was slowly getting used to being himself. He was telling the whole truth, and everyone was sure he could do that, and would do that. No more smarmy, sassy remarks, nor quips about how "hot" a woman was, knowing what he was into. He was just happy, and he wasn't allowed to be anything else, unless he needed to heal to become happier. Rose was given the same treatment, and so was Karkat. It was known that Dave needed this the most.

Dave, long hair tucked into a bun atop his head, nails painted, shades alchemised into circles instead of classy aviators, still with the gift of difference John gave him. He wasn't a girl, not a boy, but Dave Strider. And no one was going to change how he loved himself.

He grabbed Karkat's hand and kissed him on the cheek, rubbing fingers with a single thumb. Karkat smiled bigger than ever, loving the moment for what it was. Rose held Kanaya close, arm around her waist. Terezi making faces at Vriska, and Vriska cackling all the same at the facial mockeries. Gamzee was inside of the fridge, zoning out with the tins of sopor he was given to keep his shitty clown powers at bay. And all was. Everyone was.

Toxic masculinity and forced femininity all the same was thrown aside for something bigger, and for the forces ahead the players were prepared with weapons of their own. All it took was three years on a meteor and three years on a ship, one year stuck on planets.

The epic battle to win against the same forces that fucked them all up.

[lairofsentinel]

that bi post is interesting- i guess i have a third pov tho. ive seen some people use bi in a "new" way, to mean stuff like "attracted to women and nb people", "to men and nb people" or "attracted to several genders but not necessarily all" and so on, but also to mean, yeah, pan. and ngl thats cool. i think bi's pretty much a neat catchall for multisexuals of all kind, a bit like how queer is a catchall for anyone not cis or straight, and historically bi even used to group ace people too.

i reread your tags three times and actually it seems that we agree- i guess im just tempted to say that while everyone agrees on the meaning of pan, some people however use it differently to reflect their experience better. but unlike most people i dont view it as a bad thing but way more as something great because people can talk about their experience without feeling bound by, well, limits and definitions and blah i guess ? and as a trans person i find this great and important, not transphobic

Hello there,

thank you for sharing your pov.

I mean, the “new” way sure has a lot to do with “in which country you live”. Here, where I live, people is not using bi-pan in any new different way. But I've seen/read certain strange uses online. [the funniest use and also the only one that annoyed me was, time ago, when some weird straight people started to say: “I'm bisexual, but I only like men/women”.... like... what? How that bisexuality works? XD, but anyway, I'm nobody to go as a gender/sexuality police. Pft, I can't even speak English properly in a discussion. xD]. Also, years ago, some weird people started to say that pansexuality included trans people, while bisexuality no, so they kind of enforced the concept that “bisexuality ” had a transphobic root in its own... which is stupid, since statistics shows that trans people has quite more chances to be in a relationship with a bi/pan partner than a gay/hetero one... so.... soooooo......really crazy the way people spread misinformation. 

The meaning of the tags... well... it's long: I can't be anything else but chill about the enormous amount of words that LGBT community has crafted along these last years, because sure, we all want to have the exact right word for us, to condense all our complexity in a single word XD. But let's be honest, no way that would happen, ever. So, until people “discovered” [or more like accepted] that gender and sexuality are a spectrum and are more complex than 3 or 4 words, we developed a lot of words along the way, and made use of the same word with several different uses, making of this world a more complex one [because we are never satisfied with our own :P]. And I'm not even counting on the fact of those “re-appropriated” words that were a slur previously, back in time, such as queer. Those words are a whole lot of mess. 

Two simple examples:

A friend of mine at work is a bisexual woman [happily married with her wife

Another case: I, for example, feel super weird with labels. I'm nb, I give a fuck to any word of any gender. But I live in a Spanish speaking country and.... the HELL with the strongly gendered languages... I keep jumping from masculine to feminine or using the “new” neutral forms with -e [that all puritans hate and fight me for that]. But still yet, I keep using the word gay [in English, because at least it's more neutral than any other], because for the world, I'm a gender that can't be hidden once I speak [you know, damn voice] and I kind of be attracted to people of the “same” gender that everyone attaches to me [I said it in that way, because I'm more like a demy-gay, but forget to use demisexual here, nobody knows shit XD]. So... the obvious, shortest way, and efficient way to get rid of that problem every time I have to deal with that [aka, some person asks me with a reasonable argument that doesnt make me to toss them away], it's the word gay. But again, not even that means what it usually means, in my case. But again, imagine explaining all this shit, all the time, every time someone asks me with good reasons?. No way, I'll get bored of all that jabber.

So, these 2 single examples are to explain that... well, LGBT identity words, today, are a mess. Especially if you start adding those trans-masculine and trans-feminine and a lot of extra adjectives.... to me it's more confusing to understand what that person truly is, but what it's clear with that is that such person has a complex identity that wants to be acknowledged. So, if I know this, and if it's relevant for some valid [aka non-creepy] reason, I would ask to understand exactly the shade they mean, so I can acknowledge them properly. Because every gender and sexuality is a mess by its own. We will never get one single word that can embrace it wholly. I know some lucky people got it, they are gay, and cis, or trans and hetero and they are super fine with that...and I'm happy for them, they don't need extra explanations for describe their genders and sexualities xD.

That's why my tags were like that. Pansexuality appeared some decades ago [it's a super young word], specially in countries that are not USA [which it is the country that everything usually revolts around, here in tumblr]. Pan is a super new word, that mostly young people would be more inclined to use. It's more meaningful for young people [maybe. This is not a must. More like an average estimation.]

It's like queer. The oldest LGBT people, with USA-background, will probably hate it to use it. They attached to that word a slur shade that pierced their lives, it's too harmful even to use as a re-appropriated word. Yet, young people love it. Specially people without usa-background. Some of them can't even fathom the hard history meaning behind it.  

Well, queer word, outside the history, is a whole mess in its own XD. What does a person mean when they say that they are queer? Are they gay? Are they trans? Are they nb? . Nobody knows. And it's ok, the clear meaning in that word is “look, I'm not cis and/or hetero”. And that's the way it works. I like to use it sometimes too, now that it has been popularised in the South hemisphere thanks to the influences of Butler. 

So, yeah, we agreed, anon. XDI tried to say the same as you in my messy tags. I wrote that because sometimes I find such a nerdrage about the **chastity** or the **purity** of languages with this mess of words, or the annoyance of people that don't know the 52 labels at our disposal to describe the LGBT experience. And I simply say that it's okay not to know all of that, and not to force or stress into picking one, because most probably, you will not get it completely explained in one single word, since words, despite being 52, are limited, and sexuality and gender is a whole mess with flavours, colours and shits, that—even worse—may change with time xD.

So... the most mature attitude I think someone can take about this mess is to relax about those labels, pick the ones they think fits better for them, and understand that everyone has their own gender/sexuality, and that label may not suffice, so, when it's relevant, it's ALWAYS important to speak honestly. Yeah, all this textwall could never enter into the tags. xD.

[karak9]

Another stupid long post about how I don't know my own fucking gender

This is honestly just copied and pasted from a yt comment I made on an older vid and I figured I'd share it here bc tumblr loves this shit I guess lol. God damn I've been questioning my gender for so long and ik rn im prob not still in the best position to be thinking about deep life shit like where I am mentally and im dealing with a lot in my life and also very insecure about potentially being trans bc a lot of my friends don't seem like they would be very accepting and my bf is only really into girls. I asked him how he would feel if I was nonbinary or looked like a boy and he just said he wasn't totally sure but he's only attracted to girls :c he's the sweetest bf in existence and im honestly so afraid of losing him, so aside from obviously not wanting to deal with all the other trans shit, I definitely hope im not trans bc I don't wanna lose him. Anyways, ill start with my childhood I guess. I was always super tomboyish. My older sisters (im the youngest sibling btw) were always p tomboyish so maybe I kinda got it from them but I kinda felt like I was more tomboyish than them? I felt like I was the most boyish girl I knew, like even meeting other tomboy girls in elementary school I felt like I couldn't really relate to them or like they couldnt relate to me enough idk. I also remember once making up a song about being like so tomboyish that I was basically a boy or something along those lines and sang it to my best friend at the time who I copied like all the fkin time (it honestly wasnt healthy lmao I didn't have good parents, also I think I started making up songs bc she did that and I wanted to like impress her), but she thought it was stupid and weird so I just forgot about it and moved on. I was embarrassed to even enjoy playing with dolls or play dress up games online and was determined to play masculine games like runescape (even tho I ended up doing girly shit in runescape anyways lmao) and considered myself one of the guys. In 5th grade when I started needing to wear a bra I absolutely didn't want to, tho some girls in my class thought it was weird I didn't wear a bra when they found out and that made me more insecure about it, but since then I've p much only worn sports bras. I have bought some more normal bras bc I wanted to look attractive in them for my SO or whatever but I still highly prefer my sports bras and can't stand wearing the other ones unless I have to bc my sports bras aren't clean lmfao. I always hated talking about genitalia and breasts n shit but that could just be bc of how I was raised and how my family was always so strict and such radical Christians and anything sex related was a sin, idk if its dysphoria or not. I've never rlly liked my chest and hated showing cleavage like so god damn much and still do but maybe that's the same thing or maybe I just want smaller boobs and that's it idk??? Like I'd want to appear to have a completely flat chest at least, idk if I'd want to actually like have a guy chest or not? Also huge issue with ppl seeing me naked or touching my boobs but again idk if that's gender related or just a normal issue I have. Tho I had a friend in high school (a girl, a very weird lewd girl) who would occasionally grope my chest randomly and it wasn't a huge issue but kinda made me uncomfortable and more aware of my chest. I really like when I wear big hoodies or when I lean over so my shirt kinda poofs out and it looks like I have a flat chest underneath. Though im not super uncomfortable with my boobs, like normally ill want nothing to do with them but I don't mind my SO touching them especially if they're really into it. I wouldn't say im rlly dysphoric about between my legs either, like yeah I think its weird and I hate monthlies and stuff but I think that's normal. I think if i woke up one day and had a dick I would be fine with it, I'd prob even enjoy it tbh lmao. I once had a dream that i was, well, a male dog like,,, ya know, with a female dog, and not to sound weird af (hey we were both dogs ok) but I think i kinda enjoyed it? I don't really remember any other dreams where I remember actually having a dick or feeling it but I've had several dreams as a male person, but p much all of them were like, I was seeing through a character's eyes or smth, not really that I was a guy, so idk if that's normal. I have the same dreams about being other girl characters, I'd say its split about 50/50. Because of this game community im in, a lot of ppl assume im a guy, and a lot of people still think im a guy and I haven't really bothered to correct them but idk if I find it more enjoyable bc its funny or if I enjoy not being referred to as female for once. I'll admit I feel most comfortable referred to as they/them, like without a doubt, if I could go by only 1 set of pronouns for the rest of my life it would be they/them. But ik that's not enough to call myself trans. I definitely wouldn't want to be 100% male. Like if I imagine myself as a grown man vs a grown woman id prob choose to be a woman. I don't like my voice but I think that's mostly just bc I sound 10 years younger than I actually am, and wouldn't really want a deep/masculine voice. Like a "tomboy" voice would be fine if that makes sense? I don't want facial hair or want to have a masculine body, I like that I have curves and soft skin and small hands. Personally I like my hair long bc its soft and people love it, but sometimes I kinda wish I had short hair and could pass as a boy. Like I'd wanna be a typical cute kpop boy ngl lmfao. I like the whole cute androgynous/feminine boy look and wish I could pull it off. Tho I also like really girly things sometimes and am okay being seen as a girl, i just want to be cute and attractive. Ik whether im trans or not I like being a mix of feminine and masculine, tho I admit in the past I've been kinda insecure bc I used to be super sure I was nb and thought me liking girly things and wanting to still havd long hair and wear girly clothes made me seem like "not trans enough" or whatever. But i guess here I am questioning myself again anyways. If I am nb, it sucks that ill never really be able to be openly myself and all but I've accepted by now that I kinda have to pick a binary and choose what I want to be seen as for the rest of my life, and im ok with being female. There are some things I dont like about my body whether they're really gender related or not but I can't afford to transition and wouldn't like most of the effects of T and am afraid of surgery and not sure I want top surgery enough to ever get it anyways, but I think if we lived in a perfect world and I could magically change my body at will and I wasnt afraid of judgment or being unattractive or whatever, I'd probably want to look androgynous and itd be cool to be able to change my genitalia at will lmao. If I had to choose 1 genitalia over the over I honestly have no idea what I'd choose but I have no desire to ever get bottom surgery, at the same time tho I honestly wanna someday get surgery or w/e to never be able to get pregnant. I just could not handle pregnancy or giving birth and I don't even like babies and breast feeding sounds awful so if I ever have kids they will be adopted 100% and most likely be older and like not newborn babies lmfao, babies are honestly so weird to me and they stink and cry and they're so fragile and im so afraid of like dropping them when I hold them lmao. But I like my nieces and nephews and I like being the cool aunt (is there a gender neutral version of aunt/uncle?) who lets them use my art supplies and helps them do fun stuff even if I get tired of them sometimes lol. Idk if that's gender related either but yeah I guess. This if kind of a more recent thing but I often say I'd make a great bf kinda as a joke bc of how I am in relationships like being the stereotypical sweet bf type who makes things for their partner a lot and wants to be their knight in shining armor and their protector and all that, but again prob not rlly trans related lmao just thought I'd throw that out there I guess. So when I was 17 was when I really started getting into trans stuff, prior to that I mostly just learned from my parents that trans ppl were "against god" and all that bs, and eventually started realizing lgbt+ isn't as bad as my family said and later realized I was bi. But anyways I met an agender person online when i was 17ish and I'd never heard it before and thought it was really interesting and asked them how you know you're agender bc after hearing their explanation of it i thought it described how I felt, but ofc they weren't transmed and just described it as being like a deep feeling or whatever and since then i started calling myself agender (and switched between a few labels but basically nonbinary) until my transmed friend told me I was ridiculous and that I wasn't trans, and honestly he was a huge dick but im a huge pushover lmao and I thought well he's trans so he must know what he's talking about, and though I felt discouraged about it I stopped calling myself nonbinary. Then I began questioning it again after not too long and basically since then I've been questioning my gender off and on. I'm now 22 and god I fucking hope im cis but also I feel like a part of me doesn't want to be cis if that makes sense?? Idk if that's because I don't like being a girl for some weird deep reason I don't know about despite being pretty sure I've gotten a lot of my feelings and their reasons behind them figured out, or if it's because I am trans and dont want to force myself to pretend im a girl 100% forever. At the very least, whatever the fuck my gender is, I want to continue going by they\them wherever I can and pretending to be a boy to strangers online and I'd love to cosplay male characters and bind and occasionally just dress masculine for the hell of it and probably wear sports bras for the rest of my life. I feel like in a way I cang possibly be trans because I can live with all of those things and be fairly comfortable still being seen as female for the rest of my life. But idk, I have bpd and other mental shit so sometimes im not great with my feelings (tho I do try really hard to identify all of my feelings/emotions and stuff) but at the same time bpd can cause weird identity shit so maybe its just a weird mix of a bunch of crap and im not actually trans but just weird and tomboyish enough to question my gender for 5 years and still be unsure. Also I know a lot of ppl suggest talking to a therapist/psychologist/whatever professional and trust me I would love to but I can't currently and am unsure when ill be able to bc they're expensive and I live in the middle of fucking nowhere so finding a decent therapist around where I live rn is going to be very difficult. Also, I have fucking crippling social anxiety lmao like I'd be so afraid to open up about this stuff even to a professional. So if anyone could suggest anything online that could help that would be amazing

[deluminatorillustrator]

I saw the post you reblogged saying it's okay to ask dumb questions...how did you know you identified as they/them? Bc i am afab and am about a 2 or 3 on the futch scale, 1 being femme and 5 being butch in how i present. I wish i was more masculine though, bc despite how i present, I don't always feel like a woman. Ig id cinsider myself a demigirl? But idk for sure and idk how i feel about pronouns and idk im just a mess and dont get how or when I'll know any of this in terms of myself

  Okay firstly, I’m sorry this answer is so long.

  Honestly, figuring out what I identified as was a long, long process. I spent a lot of my youth just confused about why I had to present a certain way and feeling like I didn’t fit in as well as I should, gender-role wise. But then I was lucky enough to attend a college that was really lgbtqa+ positive! I even took a class called “lgbt history” which was amazing. That, combined with the information I learned through the internet, led me to feel a lot better about myself!

  For the first year/second year of my college experience I was exactly where you’re at. I thought maybe I was a demigirl, because sometimes I felt feminine, sometimes I felt masculine. People around me seemed so sure of their pronouns and I was just... confused. It was super easy for me to label my sexuality, (I’m bi) but difficult for me to label my gender, which only made it even more confusing. I was afraid to talk to people about it. I’m still the type of person where I just don’t care what pronouns people use for me, because I don’t want to have to correct them or make them feel bad.

  In (I think?) 2015, I was first introduced to the term genderfluid. It took a while for me to understand it, honestly, because I had never seen gender as a spectrum. As soon as I did though, it just clicked. I knew that was me. I think the day it really hit me was a day I was out with my partner, and someone mistook me for a cis boy. I realized I was totally happy with being seen as male. Finally my weird feelings about being a girl on some days while it felt right on other days made sense. I didn’t HAVE to be a girl every day if I didn’t want to. FINALLY, finally, I felt better about myself, more confident. I came out to my closest friends and my partner in 2016, once I felt like I had figured it out, and they were both super supportive about it. Both of them said something along the lines of seeing it coming, haha. I started going by “they/them” mostly because I didn’t want it to be difficult for others to have to switch pronouns back and forth for me. After a while, it became sort of my default. Gender is confusing and weird and mostly made up by society anyway, so why bother following rules?

  Fast forward to now- I’ve been identifying as genderfluid for 2 years! Crazy! I’m masculine much more often than I’m feminine, but I do still feel feminine some days. Most of the time, though, I’m just? Me. Which is why I still go by they/them. I know some people use pronouns like xe/xem or ze/zir for that, but for me I just like they/them better. I’m sure this is not how everyone feels about it, but for me, they/them lets me just kind of float free of gender norms and be whatever I want. They/them can be feminine, masculine, androgynous, or neither. Personally I think you should just find something that feels right for you. Don’t worry about how long it takes or what criteria fits best, just find something that feels nice. For me it took most of my life, I was a really late bloomer, I guess, and all of those years were filled with awkward questions and confusion.

  I guess basically my advice is not to put too much pressure on yourself to find the right label. It might take some time, but eventually the right identity will come to you. Just continue to be yourself, let yourself explore and you’ll figure it out. Some people figure it all out when they’re really young, and some don’t. It’s your life and your path, so don’t be so hard on yourself while you’re on the journey! One day when you have it all figured out, you’ll be able to look back and be glad you spent time letting yourself explore the possibilities.

  And if you’re worried about taking too long, idk if this helps, but I have a relative who didn’t figure out she was a trans lesbian until she was in her 50s, and she’s super happy with where she’s at! Sometimes you need a longer journey to figure out who you are. And that’s okay. Keep looking, keep exploring, keep loving yourself no matter what. You’ll figure it out

[theskyexists]

empress ki

are these koreans gonna go as far as to let this man fall for who he thinks is just some young cool guy?

i mean - they’re not chinese so

this is kinda silly lol. if she really wanted to be let go she could have just punched him. i guess that would have gone too far

this RANDOM assassin almost kills them - he disappears. we good. no worries.

where are her own men????

NOOOOO don’t ruin it

why the fuck would she have developed a feminine slap? i think theyre gonna ruin it. like contact with a male love interest will just forcibly feminise you

ok no she came up with an excuse

god - an openhanded slap from another man lol i can see how that might be quite offensive

she just chills in the crown prince’s bath no prob lol. ok so she locked the door

she just let herself get fuckin shot for this lol

this episode moves super fast but thats fun but i still don’t know how the king and the crown prince are related. the whole hostage thing really messed things up

i just realised that i love the bro/bro mlm stuff if its actually m/f. LOL.and I KNOW it’s going to only last one fuckin episode bc we’re gonna go right back to misgyny and chattel slavery especially for women but yknow

does she remember him?? did she send the bandana? i dont know on which side she really is.

yeah ofc shes the bandana guy. i mean - DUH.

WHY RISK YOUR OWN MEN - WHAT WAS THE PLAN

is this spy gonna get her bandana now???

or are these not her own guys?? THEY ARE

is she playing the king?? like - im still trustworthy though!!!! (or at least my men are) but how could she think to rely on the crown prince???

oh no the cool big sword moustache guy!!! why would he be the spy for the king????????????? what is there to gain??????? HE’S NOT THANK GOD

YES!!!! I LOVE THEM. ‘hit me’ BAM *violently and romantically perches over him to almost stab him*

aww haha the king is attached to seung nyang. too bad you’re an evil bastard she wants to destroy

i can’t quite tell why revealing the salt location drop off point is important or not. i guess it was just and only a test.

was that the guy in blue who volunteered to be shot at? : ‘( ah it’s not.its just some nobody. I guess she couldn’t have known who knew of her blue bandana so she had to hide it. But couldn’t she have told this guy from the very beginning when they were alone?

did the official guard not get told that more people were coming???? LOL. that’s one fuckin mess

HEROIC HORSERIDING YEAAAAAAAA did she not think of a reason for being alive? ‘kill me’ OH MY GOD hahahahaa. smart but so risky (it turns out that the crown prince is the crown prince but the king is the brother of his dad’s)

is there something you want? I THOUGHT YOU WANTED MONEY oh my god this guy is gambling it all lol. oh no, he’s gonna make it too.

it’s always the ‘unrightful’ people that get villainised for wanting power

what the fuck her dad’s gonna kill all her friends and make her into a sex slave? jezus christ how dark (i read a synopsis that she gets sent to yuan after all somehow). on who’s fucking authority? couldn’t they have gotten at the very least a letter from the goddamn ‘auditor’ to protect them

oh my god. just wear your fucking ring on the outside of your goddamn clothes. that was so FUCKING close

wow that was a pretty realistic breakdown

GO SEE HIM HELLO!!!!

she became a fucking COP TO SEE HIM HOLY SHIT LOL

JUST SHOW HIM THE FUCKING RING

did she just leave her band of boys behind???

dude why is this series romance blocking me what the fuck

gotta show that Yuan is backward through furs and beads!!

i do love that this series had the guts to start off with heartbreak. but also to let the female protagonist be a big bi....amorous...?

this show somehow made me feel sympathetic towards a stinkin imperial rich kid. he didn’t ask to be born into a family that would become his death

‘young boy’ *is literally at least 40*

the KING has only 10 men to spare? really?

he’s gonna let his servant get fucking murdered in his stead? yikes. ok so that wasn’t his PLAN no. poor servant guy

so they got her a MATCH - a dirven and smart and powerful king. and a soft and unexperienced and endangered future emperor.

this is so much my fucking THING it’s insane. i don’t even mind that the king is kinda ...average looking.

and she kicks his ASS LOL. and he falls ultimately deeply in love with her. this is incredible.

i wonder if she’s going to hold the death of his servant against him

they didn’t even take his head? stupid. oh i guess that’s for the traitors.

SHE STILL DOESN’T GET ITS REALLY HIM. I THOUGHT SHE WAS SMART

really - she lets the fucking chief get the credit. are you fucking kidding me? fuck this. be smarter! hate having to say that to a character. Be! smarter!

now he gets to be WHY HIDE FROM YOUR BOYFRIEND WHAT THE FUCK. if this is gonna be the whole fuckign show i can’t take it.

im gonna need to know if she keeps fucking hiding. stop hiding! STOP. stop hiding from the important men in your life! what the FUCK. stop hiding from your dad. Stop HIDING FROM YOUR FUCKING BESTO BOYFRIEND

the prince isn’t even upset about his servant’s demise

fucking finally somebody found out seung nyang was the ONE

I love Strong King - I love vulnerable future Emperor

he’s just a stupid indoctrinated kid! somebody should explain to him all the horrors that have been done to people in his name!

we have a sequence in which she’s done great deeds, gets called in, is concerned about how she slapped the important person around lol

we’re gonna get teh exact same for Togon one day

jezus christ that’s a very romantic thing to say to a cool and heroic young guy who saved your skin twice, king. are you - i n l o v e? a lil bromance perhaps?

awww he’s so damn happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

she’s like - fuck. wish she stayed a little more ruffian though. wheres the fucking swagger!

how am i so into this m/m ship. LOL. im really into this stronk man and rogueish ‘boy’ bonding through hardship crisis crossing all rank

im up for her teaching the prince compassion and horror and the way of the world though

I KNOW this is soon going to devolve into a palace drama though so that fucking sucks

why is the emperor a young guy and the brother an old guy. was the emperor the preferred son? from the preferred wife?

has she never heard a guy pee??? i thought she lived with soldiers and shit

why the fuck is she carrying his excrement to the sea when she’s his BODYGUARD. this went differently than i thought

he literally is alone. there is no shift of the guard with him. hello?

what the fuck is this lax bodyguard shit. you need at LEAST two so one can sleep while the other guards.

everytime she bathes im like - ALARM ALARM

this jimbo traitor is so stupid lol

commander - just approach this stupid idiot. be the dad you want to be.

you could just become his son!!! hello????

so you really care about the peoplle huhg? thats why you keep selling off women?

oh my god. is the prince also falling in love with this ‘boy’? who embodies the masculine ideal? GOD I LOVE THIS SO MUCH im gonna cry when this is over and she ends up a fucking maid

this romantic fucking epic music as they struggle in a petty fucking competition in teh surf jlsjLKFJSDLJ:FLDSF I LOVE THIS

SHE VIOLENTLY PERCHES ABOVE THIS GUY TOO. ROMANTIC MUSIC

the koreans KNOW what is good. THEY KNOW.

oh this poor guy. please let this guy meet poor people. like. idk. the stolen women made into slaves and shit

yeah yeah they bond without him knowing about losing a parent and wanting revenge

the king is like, MY BOY!! that’s MY boy!! hands off!!!! that’s my dearest bromance boy friend!!!!

oh no - shes going to have to choose who to ride with lol

oh nooooooooo Seung Nyang don’t hurt King boyfriend !

‘he will not take Seung Nyang, will he?’  i had to double take there

I FINALLY understand the appeal of all unassailable men in romance. god, my brain is weird.

give seung nyang to me. dsjfpawejfeawjfljsdkljldsjflkdfsa dude. no. i know this is a love triangle but it is just within good if they do THIS moment right

the prince is a horrible shit

nooooo seung nyang please don’t hurt the king!!! he loves you!!!!

‘why am i burning up inside?’ YOU LOVE HIM!! YOU LOVE SEUNG NYANG!!! you love this guy!!! the koreans are daring lil mfs

where is the ruffian guy with the moustache and big sword?? he was the king’s left hand man when he wasn’t king yet.

the actress has really feminised Seung Nyangs mannerisms and way of movement past few eps (oh it’s a dream)

oh my god they’re no-homo-ing this through a dream. he just FEELS like Seung Nyang is a woman!!! that’s why he’s attracted!!! lol

seung nyang loses her dad. prince doesn’t notice. jezus

he impressed some dudewith his self-righteous dragon heaven propaganda. goddddd. the prince truly does not care how many people have already died for him. WHEN will he become likeable instead of hilariously piteous

just absolutely devastating end scene. shitty k-pop outtro.o hgod

will the prince finally - through seung nyang realise that actaully it fucking sucks that people keep being horribly harmed and killed for his sake?

JEZUS CHRIST I AM ON EPISODE 5 wHAT THE FUCK THIS IS LIKE 60 episodes long. oh my god no.

the thing i like about this show is that she looks believably like a very feminine boy for korean standards.

they keep playing him as childish, selfish and incompetent. but like, soooo many people DIED FOR HIM

hwo didn’t they kill bayan for obviously killing their own guard lol

finally she confronts him with the regular people!!!

what is lord jang doing with them

wow the commander’s beard is long. they been going for a while

well he is suffering - but can’t she get to him through words. make him a better person?

he is asking an important question. ANSWER IT GODDAMNIT

thsi ‘warming’ is so ridiculous haahahaha

*has full view of covered breasts* ‘he is definitely a boy!!!!’

i don’t know what sexuality politics this is - probably very bad ones - if you’re a straight man then you’re attracted to some fundamental femaleness in women!! or something

why is a bite mark evidence

god - these powerful people have enormous egos. they must, it is bred in them.i deserve power and when it is taken from me it sucks so much i can’t breathe!!! well uh yeah - everybody feels that way you ain’t special

she looks so sick

feels empathy for the first time ever. what a wonderful fantasy. that somebody could teach a prince empathy

*goes into town completely uncovered in royal robes which haven’t been weathered at all* ok

‘why did you hide you are a woman?’ what COMPLETE AND UTTER MALE NONSENSE

WOMEN ARE GETTING DRAGGED OFF TO BE SEX SLAVES AND YOU ASK THAT??? ‘sure, im sure you had your reasons’

WHAT FUCKING IDIOT

53:50

so she gets him in and then he betrays her? lol. but does it really matter? the king won’t be tried, there’s no reason for goryeo to be annexed. seung nyang won’t die. etc. he might as well go back to his deadly golden cage without endangering himself.

is it for her dad that she asks this of him? he faints, eh that’s a fine way out.

cant she hug a king back when he hugs her????? come ON

he almost killed his fucking son. these people are so CRAAAYYYZY

*leaves the people most likely to turn on him behind with the prince*

why does he have to reveal this?? what are the stakes here??”

goryeo’s soldiers???????????? what the fuck. i thought he was gonna come up with something clever like - pirates or something. not just ‘oh it was a random weirdo band of soldiers’ no -  ‘under the orders of the king’

WHAT. hes throwing teh whole country to the wolves. if seung nyang doesn’t kill him ill be surprised. seung nyang better get him for this for a thousand fucking years.

so he’s even personally betraying seung nyang. for a tiny chance at power. damn. wow. damn wow.

jezus what a fucking way to leave your daughter! making your last exchange putting yourself down as a father. DUDE. could have ended shit in a better way!

anyway literally cried twice about her losing her dad already

anyway so they both die in her arms. great.

yeaaaaaaah swearing to kill him. good. too bad it’s gonna be like 50 eps of palace maid shit and the prince barely got a taste of poverty

really wonder how traumatising this whole - is revealed as a woman and transferred to the empire as a sex slave thing is going to be - for me i mean

‘he’s probably living well in his homeland’  - how could you trust that your orders will be followed???

this is completely unrealistic wow

doesnt she get a fucking horse

who the fuck was park bhu - the undercop?

oh apparently laughing ugly is an indication of evil for a woman. laughing maniacally is an indication of evil for a man

her archnemesis is gonna unmask her as a woman in public? i think i might have to quit this show at this exact moment.

aaand.....guess ill have to quit.

ok that wasn’t so bad

how did they have women’s silks and makeup with them

she’s literally a martial artist warrior and she can’t fight a rapist attacker with her hands free?

oh god. she’s gonna be all feminine now bc she looks like a girl. oh god. i feel kinda sick.

SHE SUDDENLY DOESN’T HAVE ANY BANGS ANYMORE BUT LONG HAIR

THAT COMB WAS MAGICAL

some classic ‘female body weak’ sexism. love getting that from the beau

i know they’re trying to make danashiri seem unsympathetic but she’s saying fuck you to sexism here. then again it’s because she’s a spoiled elite brat

they really are made for each other

holy shit. this series just goes on and on and on and on and on. i can’t do this.

[chimcharstar]

ANSWER 1 THROUGH 65 HO

65 Questions You Aren't Used To

WPOOOOO LETS GO 

Y E E T

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

nnnnooooooo. its called holding onto my last marble.

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

1. sometimes i can freak myself out going to the bathroom at night but bro. i take walks at like 11pm or whenever the hell i please. and i LIKE IT.

3. The person you would never want to meet?

i would not care to meet dick face

4. What is your favorite word?

worm

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

well darn i dont really knowwww!!!!!!! the big jungle one from minecraft. but i love weeping willows of course.

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

i didnt think

7. What shirt are you wearing?

my pyjama shirt from new vegas. las vegas. oh my god. not that i went there. my friend did. ive been wearing it for 3 days now. because its fine.

8. What do you label yourself as?

androgynouOOUUSSSSSSS i heard it described the most accurately for me as “in between blue and pink, purple is a blend while not being either of them.” yes this SPECIFICALLY. i could never be feminine while female presenting, but now that im usually read as masculine i go around seeming gay as fuck. and even though this sounds like heresy considering how i instinctively want to throat punch people who feminize me, i have comfortably considered myself a woman lately ONLYYYYYYYY BY being as butch as a butch can possibly butch. maybe without the cars. i would NEVER go by she/her NEVER NEVER NEVER. like there literally are butch women who go on T and use he/him pronouns. that brings me euphoria too and i find people reallllyyyyyy get mind-bent at this point. i really also get irritated at the idea that identifying with both lessens one or the other... thats why i like the purple thing so much. like im 100% of the thing. i was watching on queer eye, once, there was this part where all these women met up and one of them who was really masculine was saying how “a woman can look like this too” and i was like “i am probably crying for an important reason right now” and sometimes i feel attraction to women that is nOT of the ManTM just... i can do what i want. 

but my point is it’s like im only happy if i have a blend. theres even a particular quality of it i can put my finger on, like a rugged, handsome feel... and then a flamboyant, passionate feel... mix em all up... 

9. Bright room or dark room?

BRIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT 

GUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

transition juice, or fucking around with cs paint with some gentle existential dread

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?

this one, because my life is not hell, and i know a few basics about adulting now

12. Who told you they loved you last?

the sister. i said it for damage control because she had blown a fuse the other day. i was being very fake on purpose because i’m not being vulnerable with someone who will blow up. when she says it all i feel is pain. like cold paralyzing needles in my soul. i cant say i love you to her and mean it, even if i want to. honestly i wish people would say this to me. the most i love yous i remember are from family members putting band aids on the wreckage of our relationships, so i can feel a little twang of guilt and longing for what could have been and should have been. and feel like i should be doing something more. and feeling awkward because you both know they fucked up and it’s the elephant in the room. and i can feel their confusion and sickness causing them pain, feeling that pain for them. 

13. Your worst enemy?

hmmm. anyone who made me feel like less than i am. anyone 

14. What is your current desktop picture?

cherry blossoms and a city at night that i stole off the internet

15. Do you like someone?

like like crushes right? i fucking wish. i am so god damn sick of myself. i dont feel fuck or shit for anyone. its a fucking wasteland. yes im on T so i want to fuck anything that moves. and yet? can i please have some feelings? please may i have some feelings? not aesthetic appreciation. not moral, personality appreciation. or even just a deep respect and compassion. these are all fine things of course. but cant someone just drive me crazy? cant i have that extra spice of life? cant i just have a little bit of happy crazy? i will know a perfectly lovely person and ill WANT to have feelings for them. but i FUCKEN DONT. I DONT!!!! SHIT!!!!! WHAT IS THE MEANIGN?!?!??!??!?!1 i have fucking YET to meet anyone im more obsessed with than some really gay ocs. come on universe!!!! bring it!!! poor oscar. poor fucking oscar. whatever wavelength im vibing on man you are not on it. i wish you were on it. i wish you were on it oscar. you are hot you are hot with your bike oscar. and the rose quartz i gave you. the rose quartz you wanted. but i feel no authentic electric connection to you. i feel like all i just see is how your brain works with a coolheaded certainty. all i do is analyze what you are wearing so i can be as hot as you. maybe id like to draw you. and girls from work. you are so beautiful and amazing. i see you in bikinis on instagram. and im like oh beauty standards. look at you go, adhering to them. my heart rate goes right along at the same old pace. dont tell me this is principles. does someone have to smell bad? like edward cullen?? CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE JUST SEDUCE ME?!!!?? ID LOVE SOME EXTRA WILL TO LIVE! THEN MY STORIES WILL BE BETTER!!!! see this is the whole problem

16. The last song you listened to?

what am i to you by finn the human or actually that asgore fight song that i do not know the context of and dont want to until i play the game for myself

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

i would save this button for a karen.

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

jk rowling. every time i see her face in a news article about why her bland new transphobia anvil book is pretty bland without addressing the raging transphobia in it and around it, i take a minute and contemplate shoving a pie in her face, and agonizing that i cannot do it from this distance.

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?

a... slave? is this a kink thing? im fucking laughing this is going to be so honest. probably a toxic person from my past i have unresolved sexual tension with, especially since i was in my abused kid shell and was a huge doormat so now im all vengeful with issues. since this is totally something i am open to considering right now i would like to browse this concept’s menu

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

yknow what? yknow what? i am just going to say all of me. i am feeling very body positive right now. i often feel isolated as fuck because of trans stuff and male body standards, but thats Also What Makes Me Special :) i like me, i like my face, i think i am very cool and unique, and i can walk fast.

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

GOD DAMN IT THIS FUCKING QUESTION AGAIN

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

yes. but it’s a secret.

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

deep sea creatures. idk. even if its small and not even ugly. i just lose my fucking mind. i jump out of my chair. i get the heebies and the jeebies.

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

okay. chicken. cheese. something spicy so it wont be boring. a fuck ton of veggies so i can be healthy. and some olives, fuck olive haters.

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

IM GOING TO GIVE IT TO MY LANDLORD <3

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

mexico city to see what all my friends are talking about.

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

............................................................................

w    h       y

okay. i would go around tasting a bunch of fucking. really fancy old wines. listen i dont really drink okay. but with a very fancy old wine i can go around with a like, glass and look really sophisticated and tell gay things to gay people. hello boys. so id find one that strategically i would like the most for the rest of my life and choose it. and if its expensive i can sell it.

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?

i would stick a bell in the middle of it and all of us have to go there at six o’clock and throw bread at each other and fuck.

29. What is your favorite expletive?

cunt. i dont really use it ever, but boy it can pack a punch! 

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

that means my trees because theyre living things? good. my phone. i need it to function. everything else i have on the clouds and i can just write on a napkin if i really need.

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

:( 

i wanna say nothing because the good and the bad made me who i am and all that. and they’re learning experiences and healthy stuff. but some of my sisters abuse that has destroyed my psyche, literally just ruined my life, it would make things easier if that hadnt happened.

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!

WHAT I WANNA KNOW MORE ABOUT THIS LIFE STOP TELL ME HOW I GET THERE

Okay i’m moving to... greece and i’m going to study ancient greek everything and live right on the edge of the sea where the water’s lapping the doorsteps. and im gonna learn greek by immersion

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

i am not surprised whatsoever death is a cool entity.

probably someone who died really sadly and too soon in my life (no one close to me thank god) but just as a service to society

34. What was your last dream about?

wolves with bombs were chasing me around a giant university. it was all part of the game. i was trying to protect some people... soldiers were chasing me... i was hiding under the floor... hiding from authorities and war are VERY common dreams for me

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?

Writer? Yes. am i saying that to sound full of myself? no. i am fighting very hard to maintain some self-confidence. i have done some writing recently and i am proud as fuck of myself. i caught myself thinking, “now that was banging, i know that was banging.” and so i just admitted it to myself.

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

nooooot reeeaaaalllyyyyyy. i went in an ambulance for my face swelling up! still dont know if i needed to. still think i was allergic to the person i was talking to at the time. seriously when i stopped talking to them the hives went away. they literally gave me hives sdjfnskjndsjknfkjsfnjskdnfdsjknfjknf

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

yes

38. What is the color of your socks?

they have inuyashas on them

39. What type of music do you like?

dark, longing, aching, angry, raw, disappointed, serious, low songs that get intense as fuck.

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

sunrises for the concept, sunsets for the looks

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

you know what? i dont really like milkshakes. they dont feel good in my tummy even if it’s not my stomach having a fucking meltdown.

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)

the fuck is football

43. Do you have any scars?

yes, most of them are from dermatillomania, two big cool-looking ones on my hands from touching a cookie sheet without an oven mitt and pouring microwaved coffee all over my thumb because literally every inch of the counter had a foot of dishes on it and i didn’t simply heat up the water normally because everything was dirty

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

i want to be a psychologist and an author

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

id like a dong please

46. Are you reliable?

yeeeeeesssssss...... but the adhd wins sometimes

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

future self: even if you’re in a worse off place than where i am right now, don’t regret anything, don’t beat yourself up. sometimes it’s realistic to have hope. you don’t have to be hard on yourself all the time just because it’s familiar and natural to you. so stop thinking “if i see a note from my past self ill be filled with rueful self awareness”

48. Do you hold grudges?

yes. i feel like im saving my soul a little and taking some power back when i am able to say “that hurt, that was wrong, and you don’t get access to me anymore, i don’t have to forgive you” it’s admitting that my own pain is real so i can listen to and protect myself. i wish i was more of a forgiving person but i spent too much time trying to forgive unorganically for the sake of being moral that i just can’t, can’t can’t now. it hurts so existentially and i deserve better. time for me to be mean and hold grudges. a little mean is okay.

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

a DOG  CAT????????

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

“doesn’t having a human-shaped robot with smoke coming out of it in the corner of your shop scare you late at night?”

“yes, sometimes i see it and jump a little”

51. Are you a good liar?

yes, when i’m dedicated. getting my birth certificate back? oscar worthy

52. How long could you go without talking?

i live like this lmao

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?

once upon a time i had bangs. and a bob cut

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

yes bitch

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

yes bitch i can do a convincing british accent but i don’t want to broadcast that fact because being british is cringe and plus my name is gordon and im already trans and interested in cooking and my greatest fear is that people think i am trying to become him when i am deeply offended when people assume i make personal decisions for anyone other than myself. no one has ever actually voiced this theory to me but it haunts me late at night. i can honestly probably do any accent if i listen to it for a little bit. i find it very easy to imitate sounds and like individual speaking styles to the point of stealing them even when i dont want to. like actually this is something that just comes to me easily i think.

56. What do you like on your toast?

fuck toast. i make a grill cheese. cheese and garlic.

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

i tried digitally painting a generic girl who ended up looking really simliar to someone i went to school with only i made the eyes way too small and i would show you except it’s too much work

58. What would be you dream car?

vw bug with giant monster wheels, black with flames, big booming stereo. eyelashes in a drag way. ill run pickup trucks off the road

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

i sang in the shower back when i felt free to annoy everyone in the house. oH WAIT IT DOESNT ANNOY PEOPLE WHO ARE KIND TO ME

...........

they taught me i was annoying. ANYWAY. i am too shy to sing in the shower but id love to. i dont really do anything unusual except that i take really long in there but yknow im not actually doing what people think im doing when i take long. im literally just sitting there decomposing, head empty.

60. Do you believe in aliens?

yes, of course, i have been telling everyone theres water under mars since day one and now look. now look

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

yes. im a sagittarius and clearly it is needed because CLEARLY theres no other fucking sagittariuses

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

G, because my name starts with that and i’m just great. really, i like... it has a chonk to it. like a reliable chonk to it

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

YKNOW WHAT? im going with dragons because of the fantasy, fire breathing and so on but yknow for my wip i was going to have both dragons and dinosaurs at a reptile like shelter

64. What do you think about babies?

i think they should be loved and nurtured, but they are too much work for me to want for myself at this point of life, and you should definitely read some manuals before having one if you can because people can and do mess this the fuck up

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.

you didn’t ask anything here so im just going to tell you something. i am going to tell you that i have always been so hell bent on writing even when i hate it because sometimes when things are going well i feel like i am just so in another world and i feel like im doing something im really really supposed to do. it is such a euphoria and it has an effect on my whole aura. i really wish i had never made myself stop but we can’t change the past so i shall just have to never stop again.

THANKS HOOOOO

[awkwardlytimednosebleed]

Answer the questions!!!!!!!!!

I cannot believe you are making me do all of them i had to get m laptop for this. but i love you still so here we go I dont know how to put things under a cus so sorry to anyone that must scroll past this.

1. How do you define your sexuality? bi

2. At what age did you first realize that you like girls? 9 ish

3. How out are you? out to everyone but family4. At what age did you first come out? 21ish?5. Who was the first person you came out to? 

How did they take it? hayley i think she was pissed i didnt tell her sooner but in a loving way love you girl sorry abt not being open haha6. Has coming out lost you any friends? nope i have good ass friends7. What is your current relationship status? single8. How many gay friends do you have? i have like 3 or 4 bi/pan friends 1 or two lesbian friends9. How many male friends do you have? like 210. Have you ever cut your hair super short? i just cut it super short!11. How often do you wear flannel? almost every day oops12. How much do you like cats? a lot13. Do you like skirts and dresses? i get moods where i do14. Do you like high heels? no15. Do you have any tattoos? If so, how many and where? no but i want one16. How accurate is your gaydar? pretty darn shitty17. Have you ever been to a gay bar or a gay club? no18. How do you feel when plutonic female friends refer to each other as girlfriends? im ok with it19. Have you ever had a crush on a straight girl? HAHAHAHAHAHA yes20. Ellen or Portia? ellen21. Is your nose pierced? no22 Would you ever want to get married? yes23. Will you wear a dress for your wedding? yes but also converse24. Would you ever want to give birth? does anyone actually want that? i wld want a child25. Have you ever watched The L Word? no26. Have you ever dated a guy? yes27. How do you feel when someone uses the word gay to mean stupid, dumb, or boring? annoyed28. How many rainbow items do you own? 2?29. Have you ever been to a pride festival? no30. Have you ever celebrated National Coming Out Day (October 11)? no31. Have you ever participated in the National Day of Silence? no32. Have you ever worn a woman’s suit? ya like a pantsuit33. Have you ever worn any men’s clothing? ya34. Do you eat meat? ya35. Do you consider yourself a feminist? ya36. Who is your favorite LGBT celebrity? Stephanie Beatriz37. Are you religious at all? ish38. How often do you find yourself trying to sneak a peak or staring at a cute female? lol too often39. What is your ideal first date? bokstore date bookstore date bookstore date40. Are you comfortable with terms such as lezzie, lesbo, or dyke? no but because im not a lesbian so i dont feel like i have a right to those words41. How outdoorsy are you? i like to hike42. In general, has being out affected your relationships with other females?no43. How much makeup do you typically wear? none44. Have you ever been in a long distance relationship? ya45. Are you more feminine or more masculine? feminine46. How long is the longest relationship you’ve been in? Are you still with that person? 3.5 years? ad no47. Have you and a girlfriend ever been mistaken for sisters? ive never had a girlfriend :(48. Do you think it is possible for someone to truly be a 50/50 bisexual, or is the percentage always skewed in favor of one gender? Its possible. i think i dont have the right to define anyone elses sexuality49. Have you ever wished you were completely straight? ya in the dark days50. Do you watch any lesbian YouTubers? rose and rosie51. Do you like wearing combat boots or Doc Martins? converse52. Have you ever been hit on by another female? no? 53. How athletic are you? HA54. How many girlfriends have you had? 0 :((55. What is your opinion of septum/bull nose piercings? no56. What does equality mean to you? treating everyone with respect 57. If you are not a full blown lesbian, about what percentage of the time do you find yourself attracted to other females? 100% have you seen girls58. Have you ever shared clothes with a girlfriend? :((((59. Have you ever liked or dated a girl with the same name as you? :((((60. How flirty are you? I get scared and I say fun facts about penguins instead.61. Are you a virgin? ya62. Do you listen to any LGBT musicians such as Tegan and Sara, Melissa Etheridge, or Chely Wright? ya63. Have you ever been told that you are too pretty to be gay? no64. Have you ever been discriminated against because of your sexuality? If so, please explain. I mean my parents are biphobic so they dont know but no?65. Have you ever driven an SUV or a pickup truck? no66. Are you or have you ever been a tomboy? no67. Agree or disagree: Everyone is at least a little bit gay. disagree68. What personality trait are you most attracted to? intelligence/kindness69. Boobs or butts? butts70. Beer or wine? beer71. Do you have a favorite lesbian movie? DEBS72. From 1-10, how attractive are muscular women? 1073. From 1-10, how attractive are women who wear glasses? infinity74. From 1-10, how attractive are women who are covered with tattoos?975. From 1-10, how attractive are curvy/plus-size women? 1076. From 1-10, how attractive are women with short hair? 1077. From 1-10, how attractive are masculine butch women? 1078. From 1-10, how attractive are highly intelligent women? infinity79. From 1-10, how attractive are tall women (i.e. around 6 feet or taller)? 1080. Have you ever been on your period the same time as a girlfriend? :(((81. Has a girl ever dumped you for a guy? :( but also :) because that sounds shitty82. Do you carry a purse? occasionally83. Do you have any LGBT relatives? not thati know of but statistically i have to84. Have you ever pretended to be completely straight? ya85. Would you ever date a trans girl? ya86. How well do you think LGBT women are portrayed in television? meh87. Have you ever had a crush on a woman who’s much older than you? no88. Do you have any celebrity crushes? many89. Do you have any opinions on LGBT people in the military? they should be allowed to do and participate in the same things as everyone else.90. Do you believe in love at first sight? no91. Would you ever have a threesome? If so, would a guy be included? in theory yes to both92. Where do you think is the best place to meet a potential lover? at school93. Is there such a thing as “good” lesbian porn? i have no idea94. Have you ever had a one night stand? no95. How often do you wear a bra? always in public rarely at home96. Have you ever been part of a softball team? no97. If you could live your life all over again, would you still be attracted to other women? yes98. What stereotype about LGBT women do you disagree with the most?  that theyre confused or going through a phase99. What advice would you give a girl who is struggling to figure out her sexuality? dont get hung up on labels just live your truth 100. What advice would you give a girl who is struggling to come out?  your safety is the most important thing please be safe

[the-green-nymph-blog]

Questions for LGBT ladies!!

1. How do you define your sexuality? Pansexual 2. At what age did you first realize that you like girls? 9 3. How out are you? Very lmao 4. At what age did you first come out? 11 5. Who was the first person you came out to? How did they take it? My best friends, they were sososo supportive 6. Has coming out lost you any friends? No, but falling in love with one did 7. What is your current relationship status? Single 8. How many gay friends do you have? Pretty much all of my friends are gay  9. How many male friends do you have? 3 10. Have you ever cut your hair super short? Yeah 11. How often do you wear flannel? Once a week?? I only own one 12. How much do you like cats? I love cats 13. Do you like skirts and dresses? Yes! 14. Do you like high heels? Yeah and I wish I owned more pairs 15. Do you have any tattoos? If so, how many and where? 2, both on my wrist 16. How accurate is your gaydar? pretty damn accurate 17. Have you ever been to a gay bar or a gay club? no 18. How do you feel when plutonic female friends refer to each other as girlfriends? I Hate It 19. Have you ever had a crush on a straight girl? all the fn time 20. Ellen or Portia? Portia 21. Is your nose pierced? Yep 22 Would you ever want to get married? Im not really sure 23. Will you wear a dress for your wedding? Yeah 24. Would you ever want to give birth? No 25. Have you ever watched The L Word? Parts of it 26. Have you ever dated a guy? Yeah 27. How do you feel when someone uses the word gay to mean stupid, dumb, or boring? Its fucking aggrivating  28. How many rainbow items do you own? one 29. Have you ever been to a pride festival? no 30. Have you ever celebrated National Coming Out Day (October 11)? Yep! 31. Have you ever participated in the National Day of Silence? Yeah 32. Have you ever worn a woman’s suit? No  33. Have you ever worn any men’s clothing? pretty much 70% of my clothes are mens 34. Do you eat meat? occasionally  35. Do you consider yourself a feminist? yes 36. Who is your favorite LGBT celebrity? Demi Lovato 37. Are you religious at all? No  38. How often do you find yourself trying to sneak a peak or staring at a cute female? most of the time 39. What is your ideal first date? coffee or movie 40. Are you comfortable with terms such as lezzie, lesbo, or dyke? yeah whatever a person wants to call themselves 41. How outdoorsy are you? i dont fw bugs 42. In general, has being out affected your relationships with other females? sometimes people are uncomfy around me 43. How much makeup do you typically wear? a lot 44. Have you ever been in a long distance relationship? yeah 45. Are you more feminine or more masculine? both 46. How long is the longest relationship you’ve been in? Are you still with that person? 6 months, no 47. Have you and a girlfriend ever been mistaken for sisters? no  48. Do you think it is possible for someone to truly be a 50/50 bisexual, or is the percentage always skewed in favor of one gender? yeah its absolutely possible 49. Have you ever wished you were completely straight? no  50. Do you watch any lesbian YouTubers? rose and rosie 51. Do you like wearing combat boots or Doc Martins? yep  52. Have you ever been hit on by another female? yeah 53. How athletic are you? lmao not really  54. How many girlfriends have you had? 5 55. What is your opinion of septum/bull nose piercings? i have one so i love it 56. What does equality mean to you? acknowledgine and accepting peoples differences, and not treating each other differently bc of those differences 57. If you are not a full blown lesbian, about what percentage of the time do you find yourself attracted to other females? just bc im not a lesbian doesnt mean i can’t be attracted to other females 100% of the time  58. Have you ever shared clothes with a girlfriend? yah 59. Have you ever liked or dated a girl with the same name as you? no  60. How flirty are you? very 61. Are you a virgin? no  62. Do you listen to any LGBT musicians such as Tegan and Sara, Melissa Etheridge, or Chely Wright? yeah 63. Have you ever been told that you are too pretty to be gay? yeah  64. Have you ever been discriminated against because of your sexuality? If so, please explain. just bullied online  65. Have you ever driven an SUV or a pickup truck? no 66. Are you or have you ever been a tomboy? no  67. Agree or disagree: Everyone is at least a little bit gay. yes 68. What personality trait are you most attracted to? love of animals 69. Boobs or butts? butts  70. Beer or wine? wine 71. Do you have a favorite lesbian movie? But I’m A Cheerleader? 72. From 1-10, how attractive are muscular women? 8 73. From 1-10, how attractive are women who wear glasses? 9 74. From 1-10, how attractive are women who are covered with tattoos? 100 75. From 1-10, how attractive are curvy/plus-size women? 10 76. From 1-10, how attractive are women with short hair? 9 77. From 1-10, how attractive are masculine butch women? 8 78. From 1-10, how attractive are highly intelligent women? 10 79. From 1-10, how attractive are tall women (i.e. around 6 feet or taller)? 10 80. Have you ever been on your period the same time as a girlfriend? yeah 81. Has a girl ever dumped you for a guy? yeah 82. Do you carry a purse?  yeah 83. Do you have any LGBT relatives? no  84. Have you ever pretended to be completely straight? no  85. Would you ever date a trans girl? yeah 86. How well do you think LGBT women are portrayed in television? very poorly 87. Have you ever had a crush on a woman who’s much older than you? no  88. Do you have any celebrity crushes? demi lovato 89. Do you have any opinions on LGBT people in the military? they should be allowed to fight for what they believe in 90. Do you believe in love at first sight? yeah 91. Would you ever have a threesome? If so, would a guy be included? yeah and sure why not 92. Where do you think is the best place to meet a potential lover? tinder tbh 93. Is there such a thing as “good” lesbian porn? eeeeeeeh yeah 94. Have you ever had a one night stand? no but im tryna 95. How often do you wear a bra? all the time (except sleeping) 96. Have you ever been part of a softball team? no  97. If you could live your life all over again, would you still be attracted to other women? yeah 98. What stereotype about LGBT women do you disagree with the most? they’re all butch or man-haters 99. What advice would you give a girl who is struggling to figure out her sexuality? dont feel pressured to label yourself, be who you want to be 100. What advice would you give a girl who is struggling to come out? take your time and make sure your’re comfortable, dont let anyone force you to do something youre not ready to do

[the-reactionist]

MORE work for you, Teal

i wanna make the most use of you; by following your teachigns and gettig to know the laguage you use to express the truths of present;

pls, look into emanuil, and look into me more too: here is a list of all my tumblr blogs, some fo them are very personl; the most being the erctionist and my crazy self’s notes - the blog about my passion for emo [emanuil]

i want to tell you stories i know and have been through so that you help both em and teh people in them, as well as gain mor eknowledge about today’s humans;

you remind me very much of my neighbor who is a national champion of bularia in hockey; i had sex with him a few times and he ahs helped me immenesely in many different ways;

i have past of sexual abuse and beign in a sexual cult/sect here in  bulgaria; a mindfuck place which seemed as heave back then, ot like your death cult where you received torture - i received brainwashing and scapegoating; and i was sacrificed brutally ‘for the gerater good’ [fuckers!!]

my neighbour is your age - im 30now he is 34; he lost his mother to a car accident when he was 14 and he took care of his young brother, raised him, mad ehim a hockey player and himself into the bulgarian national team, ad even participated in olympic games with the bg hockey team; he is super athletic and sexy, but he can’t care for himself;

he has developed a great motehrhood and femininity about him but he is constantly beign tricked by people because he puts hsi trust onto them unhealthily;

i started havig sex with him because i want to help him; i want to care of him; to cuddle him; to mother him, so that he feels appreciated an dthen goes and attracts a woman to spend the rest of his life with;

in teh same way i wanna exert my passion oto your character, so taht you get all taht i ca offer, and use it for yourself; that said, i am mainly doing this for myself, because i am universal and we are connected and i want for enlightenment and greatness energies to aboud on the earth; selfishness, as i said already -_-

can you help me help my neighbour; i have sexual trauma issues and i cant be passionate enough, as he needs to see himself being sexually adored and made sex to; he is gorgeous - much like yourself; athletic , bautifully and carefully built body, but a lerner’s mid and heart, too; he is a coach and wants to become a fireman, too; so he is a good kid; i want him to believe fully in himself, as do fat babies - babies that are well nourished are usually fat; afterwards they slim down;

i want him, as well as you - in the absolutely sam eway, so feel loved i your body so s to heal your earthly trauma and be a better version of you; and there is no time to waste - let’s work on these things together; i want to hold space of grounded acceptance for you in exchange of you gettig to know my troubles and my mind - i have committed seppukku onto myself to undertsand lust and abuse of sexuality and abuse of te feminine sexual energy - i defiled myself using a marker, scarrig the insides of my vagina; my eighbour and his teammate re the first boys i have had sex with, and that was last year - i was 29;

before that i was sexually abused and attemptedly dominated by a sexs cult leader - i was 21 and he was 50 when we had intercourse; and he was the first person i have been with;

before taht i was very confident in my heart but because of the self-rape i performed, i became virtuoslly shy in appearance around men; yet this was no virtue at all becaus ei started exploring the world of pornography and pleasign myself while i was uanble to open up to boys, especially when they approached me; i like that about myself, though - because it was a demonstartion of the rush of emotions and hormones tyhat went throyugh me every time my dreams came exactly true - as usually happened - tehe men i liked approach me, and my tongue gets tied; but still i learn from that; even though i would have rathered to have had sex and interactions with them when they had approached me, to gain physical confidence in myslef; but that me would have been a perfect woman; in teh sense of being attuned of her sexuality - a woman who owns her sex; as is the boy i love - he owns his sexuality;

my relation to my mentally ill abusive motehr leadme to commit seppukku on myself and i have deep sexual trauma and mindfuck and that leads me to choices that diminish my greatness and i am easier to control;

i am great; i used to be very powerful in my early teenage sexuality, and as a child; but the family i come from is very dark and i eed to work with you on that as well when i have the power to tell teh tale; these historic stuff need to be cleansed

so i need intense mnipura/root chakra healing; this is what i damaged when i fucked myself forcefully with the marker pen; the scaral chakra is now purified -it’s a long story; i dont feel like going into detail right now;

i don’t know how to ask for help with that but it is preventing me from accomplishing my destiny as a human being; and i find strenghts in my choices of action because i desire to stay on top of the game in taht regard; yet i truth i believe it was a mistake to abuse myself this way, and it was scary and crazy; and i did it because my moter hatedme and didn’t want me in hte first place; so here is an extreme form of scapegoatign for you

i desperately need to heal my manipura/root chakra wound[eergetic] and move on; to fully embrace MY scared masculine and bland it with my scared feminine which my person that i love has opened very strongly in him; or he has the sacred maculine maybe, i am not sure because i can’t soemtimes tell fully well stuff with my genitalia, because of the abusive rape onto them, and i get mixed signals and confusion; so sorry; i need much help in that regard;

whenever i contact your energy, i get dreams releasing trauma stored in my clitoris - trauma of sexual abuse both from teh past, and from my waking life - so it’s stored memory in the body, as well as the memory of when i was a youg girl and i stuck that plastik shit into my yoni, bruising her from within;

i need to love-talk with you about sexuality; please, let me book another appointment with you for thatl i thik this is my main problem here; i see quan yin spirit protecting my femininity whe i think of this; when i did it i wasn’t thinking at all, i just acted in response to the signals my spiteful’parents’ were sending to me

i need love and i need to heal my shame for myself for abusing my own self; i am lso angry with myselffor abusig myself; so it’s mixed and taht is a recipy for disater in energy terms

thankyou!

[tumblunni]

Huh! An Idea!

Hey I just heard about a very cool-seeming anime called (I think?) Rehibilitaion Of An MMO Junkie! It seems really nice cos its one of those stories about hikkomori (I think thats the japanese word for it?)- depressed people who stay at home all day and are socially anxious about going out in public. LOL RELATEABLE, AMIRITE? no but seriously beyond just Jokes, this is a very sad modern manifestation of a timeless mental illness, and i know these feelings well and i wish people could have less stigma about this and instead just give these people the help they need. And that’s why i love this anime concept, cos its a sympathetic take on one of these people as a protagonist, and how videogames as escapism can be A Good Thing and how long distance relationships Are Also Good. Like wtf, subverting all the cliches at once?? Its a really cute looking romance story of her meeting a guy online via vidjagaems, and their love being absolutely real and pure, and it rekindling her will to live and helping her find the courage to take more risks in real life and start the road to recovery. And then they work thru all their various issues as a couple and meet up in real life and have a happily ever after! :D

Now okay, that sounds really cool and I ABSOLUTELY want to watch this show and I will make more posts about it when I do! But also it gave me a bit of a story idea so i’m gonna ramble!!!!!

Okay so kind of a wasted potential thing here is how it has a plot about the two halves of the couple playing as the opposite gender online and like.. nothing is done with it? Nothing really creative or relevant to like.. gender. It just seems like a weird way they could invoke LGBT imagery but technically not be LGBT I guess? Like neither character is trans or has any deep reason for playing that character except ‘my fave colour is pink and people would make fun of me if they knew i was a dude’ and ‘i wanna play a hot guy cos i was kinda lonely and drunk when i saw this MMO’. But then a lot of stuff about it kinda feels like the writers were.. not predjudiced against LGBT or anything?? like the lady protag has NO angst about getting a crush on a seemingly female player, it seems perfectly acceptable in-universe and nobody even mentions homophobia. And there’s a pair of characters that for all extents and purposes looks like a gay couple for half of the game its just like a footnote that one of them is female in real life. So like I don’t know if this was someone being overly careful to censor stuff while still hinting at it, or like if it was never intended to look LGBT and it was all a weird accident?? But anyway thats why it made me go WTF THERE WOULD BE SO MUCH POTENTIAL IN AN LGBT MMO ROMANCE and hey here we go!

THE IDEA TIME what if there was an anime about someone who plays a (presumed) cis dude in an mmo who is actually a trans dude irl? so you could have the same plots about keeping a secret and having a big difference between real and internet personas, but also it could be a wish fullfillment persona and the plot could be less about ‘i’m lying about myself’ and more about ‘the only place i can be the real me is online’. And how sad that is and then how triumphant it could be at the end to be able to be himself in the real world too! and also like... its already coincidental enough that two people would fall in love in an mmo and then end up to be living in the same neighbourhood in real life. so if this anime has me have to believe that silliness, its not too silly to say that two trans people could bump into each other in an mmo! have a trans man and a trans woman who meet as their online personas without knowing either of them is trans, and then their adventures online forming their relationship, learning about each othr, and like meeting a bunch of other LGBT players and forming a guild to fight discrimination in the mmo community?

Also it could be interesting to maybe combine this with the ‘trapped in an mmo world’ genre? Like it’d be extra cool to be a trans dude who’s like.. one of the only people who doesnt want to escape the MMO world. And people could think he’s just a childish jerk who’s addicted to the fantasy life, not knowing about his secret reason he loves this new life. So maybe his personality could be a very ordinary and cute looking dude whose personality is like.. absolutely fearless monster battle man! Like everyone else’s mmo avatars are all super idealized cliche buff and hot people and his is just as close as he could get to his real self but post transition. So he’s five foot tall and chubby and has big ol soulful dragon ball Z krillin eyes and then his job class is something unfitting like gladiator or barbarian with an axe twice his body size! And then in retrospect that’s the most cliche masculine class so maybe the female lead could be a not cliche feminine class, so it doesnt seem like I’m making any statement? cos ‘youre not trans if you dont act stereotypically your gender’ is a real issue within the community, sadly. Oh! Maybe! Maybe theyre both buff classes! But like he could be a tank type that protects his allies and she’s just a regular warrior with no extra functionality. Or another DPS class like thief or black mage? But I like the idea of two very shy and adorable people who both prefer buffness, and then having kind of a badass hero role amoungst their guild and the plot itself. Like, winning the actual battles against bosses is less of a challenge than conquering their various real life worries and being emotionally ready to return home at the end of the journey. Its like a slice of life hiding as an action show! Except you still do see action, its just all comparatively effortless like one punch man. Oh and maybe while male lead made his avatar look just like himself but post transition, female lead’s avatar is kind of an exaggerated ideal stereotypical female thing? Because she’s self concious about being very tall and not very curvy and stuff, even post transition. And like she’s angsting about being forced into further cosmetic plastic surgery that she doesn’t really want, to get a body that she doesn’t really want, but feels like she HAS to have. Like maybe she has some sort of friend in real life who’s like a Fedora Wearing Fake Nice Guy who keeps trying to get her to give in and date him like ‘you’ll never get anyone else’, and trying to make her change herself. Negging champion of utter hateability!

And then female lead could be kind of a mentor role to male lead because she’s post transition, and motivates him to believe that someday he’ll be able to transition too and he doesn’t need to stay trapped forever in a fake world in order to be himself. And he could also be the same mentor role to her because he’s like... happy? Well, obviously he isn’t 100% happy because that’s his whole problem, but he doesn’t have the same social anxiety issues and he’s more confident in his anxiety without worrying that he’s wrong and he really is a girl, etc etc. Like he’s at peace with being trans and his obstacle is just feeling like he’ll never pass successfully without surgery, and never be able to get that surgery. It took him ages to even get on HRT, possibly because of something like being trapped in an abusive family that didnt aknowledge his gender? or possibly just because of being in a country where he’d need a lot of money to get the treatment he needs, or because of struggling to find a good doctor? So anyway now he’s just started HRT and he expected everything to be okay now, but he’s getting frustrated how long it’s taking to have the amount of visual change he needs to be respected by his coworkers and stuff, and now he’s had some sort of other money emergency and he may not be able to get top surgery in the end. So at the time of starting this MMO he was really un-optimistic about his future and looking for an escape. And she was looking for a similar escape because she didnt have any support group while transitioning, and had got trapped into an abusive relationship with this other dude that was making her feel like a fake woman who’d never be loved by anyone except him. So she was considering giving in and falling into his trap, and that’s her reason to be terrified of going back to the real world... And so they both are all OH MY GOD YOURE SO AMAZING I’M SO TRASH about each other, and they help teach each other two different aspects of self love that they were missing, and they make a bunch of other friends in the LGBT community, and generally find the love and support they always needed! And then in the end they could go back to the real world and move in together and slap negging man in the face, and keep in touch with all the other guildmates and create a better community for all queer folks playing this game! Woo! And also maybe the final scene could be like ‘wow we havent seen you guys for ages’ ‘yeah we were so busy with the wedding, we couldnt play!’ and then the guild’s wedding gift to them was saving up for a rare ingame item that lets you re-customize your character, and female lead makes one that looks closer to her real life appearance cos now she’s happy with herself! and then we pan out and see that male lead now also looks totally identical to his ingame self, and he did manage to transition in the end! ...and then i dunno, cliche anime everyone looks at the camera and jumps and the theme tune plays, lol