#and common sense shouldve answered the question before it was asked

[dellovestorant]

What. a. fucking. idiotic. question.

[aremiies]

❥ love starved.

pairings: todoroki x gn!reader

prompt: “i cant stop thinking about you.”

warnings: mentions of ptsd/trauma, swearing and as always fluff and bad writing.

not my gif !

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you and todoroki had a bond.

a special bond.

it wasn’t like the other bonds you had with the rest of class 1-a... it was like you two had your own language only you, yourselves, could understand. you two understood each other, having gone through similar childhoods, there were things you two did or said that only two understood; and you loved that. you loved having someone who you could relate to, who you could talk to— open up to when you desperately needed a shoulder to lean on. and todoroki? todoroki felt the same, he’d never had someone that truly understood him the way you did. of course he’d never admit it, but you were truly his best friend. you transferring to UA was, quite literally, one of the best things that’d ever happened to him.

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“class, we have a transfer student coming from the states, please do your best to be kind and make them feel welcomed.” mr.aizawa introduced you. you looked at the students in front of you, they all seemed friendly enough, but there was a specific person who caught your eye. 

todoroki.

you two locked eyes and you gave him a small smile. he gave a slight nod in response, looking away not long after and in return, you were left looking at the side of his face— the left side of his face. you tilted your head in confusion at the scar that decorated his face distinctly, but shrugged it off, not wanting to seem rude. eventually, you were seated in between jirou and sero, just three seats away from the scarred boy you’d soon call your friend.

when lunch time rolled around, uraraka made it her mission to get you to sit with the dekusquad. of course, you were in no position to say no; who else would you sit with then? after grabbing your lunch from the line, you followed the girl to the table where she and her friends sat. you were greeted two heads of green hair, one head of blue and— red and white?

you let your eyes, once again, make contact with the blue and brown ones from earlier. there was something about his gaze that was just so familiar...

“hi! you’re y/n, you sit kind of across from me in class.” midoriya smiled brightly at you which made your nerves calm a little.

“yes, i am... and i guess i do. i didn’t really look at who i was sitting around, so i didn’t see you behind me... ha, sorry.” you smiled sheepishly and sat down next to uraraka. eventually, you and the rest of the teens had properly introduced yourselves and began making small talk. it was mostly them trying to get to know you, but soon enough they got the sense that maybe you didn’t like to talk about yourself, so they stopped asking questions. you were quiet for the rest of the lunch period, letting the others do the talking. it was better this way, you much better at listening.

a few months later, dorms were established in UA you didn’t hate the idea, but the curfew thing was kind of a drag. you could deal with it, though. it was late at night and although it was well past curfew and well past midnight, you couldn’t fall asleep to save your life. sighing, you slid your feet into your favorite pair of slippers and opened your door as silently as you could, making your way to the common area. upon entering, you spotted a figure standing at the window and let out a sharp gasp, automatically thinking it was a staff member. the person turned their head towards you and gave it a tilt, “y/n.”

you furrowed your brows, “t-todoroki?” the voice was all too familiar.

the boy nodded, walking closer to you, “are you unable to sleep as well?”

“yeah,” you replied taking a few steps towards the window, “when i was home and couldn’t sleep, i would go outside to my front porch and look out at the stars until i got sleepy... though, now, since we can’t go outside past curfew, i figured this would have to do.”

“it seems we have something in common then...” there was a pause before todoroki spoke again, “would you... would you like to talk with me? until we get tired?”

you smiled and nodded, “yes, i’d like that.” and for the next two hours, the two of you talked about any and everything you could think of. and from then on, anytime the two of you were suffering from lack of sleep, you’d call each other to watch the stars.

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speaking of not being able to sleep, that was how your current night was going. you sighed and turned over to open your phone, looking for todoroki’s contact. you pressed the green call button, and put the phone up to your ear.

almost immediately, the call was answered by a certain blue and brown eyed boy, “hello?”

you smiled at how fast the call was answered, “hi. i’m guessing you can’t sleep either?”

“nope,” todoroki sighed slightly before continuing, “i’m guessing you’d like to watch stars?”

“please?” you mused, he could hear the smile in your voice from the other line.

“common area in three minutes.” todoroki instructed, hanging up soon after. just like any other time, you slid your feet into your slippers and made your way to the common area. when you got there, todo was already there, sitting on the floor next to the window.

“hey,” you whispered walking up to him.

“hello.” he greeted back.

you turned to the window and looked at midnight sky above, “the stars are pretty tonight, don’t you think?”

todoroki nodded, “yes. they’re very pleasing to look at... and so are you.” he trailed off.

“hm?” you furrowed your brows, looking away from the sky to look at the boy with a look of confusion.

blushing, todoroki turned away, composing himself soon thereafter, “y/n. i have something to tell you.”

you nodded, “okay, go ahead.”

“okay. i have this problem... and it involves... you?” he admitted.

your heart dropped and your eyes widened, “m-me? i’m sorry todoroki, did i do something wrong?”

todoroki grabbed your hand in attempt to calm you down, “no, y/n, you did nothing wrong... i’ve just... lately i’ve been having an issue. i... i cant stop thinking about you.” he confessed.

your felt your face immediately go hot, “to-todoroki i-!”

“i’ve asked my friends what it might mean, because when i’m around you, my heart rate starts to speed up and i feel... warm. do you want to know what they told me?” he asked.

you nodded.

“they told me... they told me that those are symptoms of love. and so i thought about it, because i’ve never felt these things before, y/n. but now, i feel it’s been long enough for me to say this confidently,” todoroki tightened his grip on your hand, “y/n, i’m... i think... i’m in love. with you. but love is a two person thing. it has to be mutual; and so i guess i’m asking, y/n, do you love me too?”

you felt yourself get teary eyed, and without another thought, you threw yourself onto the love starved boy in front of you. you clung onto him, the moon illuminated your persons. “i do. i love you too, todoroki.”

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i’m sorry if this was a bit awkward, but i honestly (just like any other fic) didn’t know how to end it. ily though, take care of yourself, k? i hope you enjoyed :) (in retrospect, i feel like this shouldve been a shinsou fic 😀)

[missbbjean]

Dear You

You said you liked me, you would constantly say it at the most random of times or that you missed me a girl you have never meant before and how could you possible miss me? but then you explained that you missed hearing my voice, it was relaxing to hear and being able to talk to someone tell them about your day and what bothered you and having that someone not reinsure you of anything but just be there to listen with no judgment. I felt so happy like an idiot for being able to hear that and for being that person for you to talk to but you were also that person for me. For 2 years we talked one year over the comment section of each others pictures on IG and here and there over the DMs of IG then in early 2016 we talked almost everyday over the DMs on IG  and then in late February you gave me your number we talked from then on texting and calling. Somewhere around March you already said you wanted to meet but i told you how impossible that was giving the distance between us but in December last year you brought up buying my plane ticket i told you how bad id feel about that because i know it wouldnt be cheap, you didnt bring it up again after that till sometime of this year in February and i wanted to meet you so bad that i agreed to it. So we planed for March but as time got closer for me to go to where you are there was still no message about a plane ticket i grew worried and upset and you never answered my calls or texts. It was the day i was supposed to go down there and nothing nothing from you i cried to my mom for hours so upset, 23 day pass its april now and i get a DM from you over IG like you couldnt really text or call you had to DM over IG like wtf but we talked about it and i shouldve brought up my concerns and what bothered me but i didnt because i didn want to fight i didnt want to argue and like you said "its not like we're together so who am i to say whats you can and cant do" you said you liked me and that you wouldnt mind pursuing more but not with out some sort of proof that i was interested in just you and not multiple people, my proof was facing my biggest fear just for you but i guess that wasn’t proof enough and everything before or after wasn’t either. you then said "again were not together but i dont think youre that interested in me if youre openly giving everyone the same attention " but we talked some more and we had things figures out but i shouldve brought up the fact that you were doing the same giving the same open attention to many other girls, i on the other was not giving that attention like you said i was it was just some 19yr old that left comments on my pictures and my only responses back were ever " thank you, lol, okay or hahah" but yours on girls pictures were stupid kissy heart eye emojis and comments like "damn girl look at you, so beautiful, so pretty, hot" and the list goes on but i bit my tongue because like you said we weren't together and i didnt want to seem i dont know possessive, i know now i shouldve spoke up. but you called the next day asking if we could start where we left off of and i asked with us talking or me coming down there and you said with me coming down there and that same night you bought the plane ticket and everything, there really was no going back and i was so excited that i couldnt sleep at all. I thought finally im going to meet this guy whos been nothing but nice and sweet to me, who ive had nothing but great conversations with where i could just be 100% me. but throughout all of april you still continued with commenting things on other girls pictures again i didnt want to start a fight before i came down there and i had planed to say something well i was there but i didnt want to start something because well id have no wheres to go and lord knows i have anger issues. We spend 4 days together i became sure that yeah i really like this person and maybe even love a little. but when i came home everything fell apart. 2 days go bye and i dont hear from you not even a single text but yet you're on social media multiple times throughout the day and commenting dumb shit AGAIN on girls pictures. we talk on saturday and i bring it up finally and you ask why it was an issue with the 19 yr old commenting what he did on my pictures and you said well its obvious and i said no tell me and you asked why and i said tell me why it was an issue and you said well because I LIKE YOU. so i said if you like me so much why are you commenting dumb shit on girls pictures over IG and you asked "who like you really dont know and i dont remember usernames and your excuse was "well the reason i was asking who is because its probably a client"and i asked "really come on now" and you continue with "well its my job their my client its my job to make them feel pretty or beautiful"like yeah thats youre job when their in you chair not for you to do over social media and like really is it normal for you to comment on your clients half naked pictures?? come on now get real. we end the conversation that night with you saying that wed talk about it more but we never did. sunday goes bye and monday comes around i didnt hear from you  but sometime during the day you unfollow me and i get confused more than ever. here you are or were telling me you like me and everything fly me down there to meet you spend that time together and for what what reason, what was the point! days go by i dont hear from you Thursday I tell you we need to talk something serious and you tried to make me feel stupid for it but you never called and you ignored my call we dont talk till Friday when i see you liking a whole bunch of these girls pictures on IG and i mean pictures from early 2016 and late 2015 like duuuude really and then i see theres a recent post from her and just so happened that in the video shes spinning around in a chair and i notice the background, its your room and then you walked in. I call you that night pissed off and you start off with a "hey!" like every things fine and dandy and continue to say "yeah sorry i havent talked to you in a while theres been a lot going on with work i ve been really busy and i could even lose my job" and i was like "oh so busy that yet you had time to be home during the day with a girl in your room" and again you go "well who" like as if you dont know just how many girls have you had over in your room since damn man. so i tell you the usuername because well this time i remembered it and you go "well let me look that up right now" like ohhhhhh COME ON! you know exactly who stop playing dumb and then you say "well we have mutual friends in common" i told you ones that havent ment her in person dont count and so you say "well my parents were home nothing happened" i told you i was there and your parents were home and shit happened so dont give me that and then its :well if it bothers you so much ill stop talking to her" i told you im not the kind of person who tells you who you can and can not talk to but it should be common sense of what your doing is going to bother me or piss me off because here you are or were telling me you like me and everything had me come down there and you sleep with me and all that and yet here you are doing this like really?!?! you say we'll talk about it but again we dont and im just left with more questions and im more upset and you clearly knew that you just didnt and dont care. Sunday i call and call and call because we have something to discuss we talk about it as much as we can and theres nothing that can be done about it that was clearly established. So again i bring up the other issues hoping to get those cleared up more and i ask what was the point of all this and where do i stand now but all you have to say is "well i just got home and i need to go inside ill talk to you more about this" an all i can say is "and then this happens, do you really get everything i just said do you understand" you said yes and i asked really because it seems like it just went right over your head and you said it didnt that we would talk about it. but guess what we never did and i never heard from you again. its been 2 months now since you ruined me and turned my world upside down. and im now wondering just how many other girls have you done this to, how sincere were you with all you said tome, did you even really like me or was i nothing more than a 4 day fuck?..you used me. and yet i cant forget any of it, i wish i could be like you and just forget it all and forget a person like they dont exist as if it never happened. but i cant and it hurts so much to know that i cant erase you from me or my memory and i just want to go back and never agree to it to meeting you not if i knew id end up hurt again after so many years of keeping myself shut up from the world of dating or feelings and i thought i could let down my guard and allow myself to fall again and to think that a guy i told all that to that knew of how i was treated before and everything to a guy who treated me like no other who took me on my first date and i know i shouldve listened to my family i shouldve seen the signs but i thought it would all be okay but i didnt just get a life lesson or burned in the "world of love" i got something far worse. and you continue on like every things fine...im upset with me and im most of all upset with how you handled this. you thought by ignoring or avoiding me that it will go away but it wont and youve only made it worse. I just dont understand why you couldnt be the adult that you so claim to be or to be a man and just fucking be vocal about things like i told you from the very start, why couldnt you just say something like "hey you know it was great meeting you but i dont like you like i thought i did" or something, you think by ignoring or avoiding someone and playing victim that people will get the hint or that it will solve everything but it wont and it doesnt it just makes you a coward and childish. and i cant believe that after everything youve done and put me through with how youve treated me that theres a part of me that still likes you when i should hate you with everything i am but unfortunately it takes more effort to hate then it does to like and you cant just go to hating someone with the snap of your finger it unfortunately doesnt work like that...trust me ive tried.

[likeabulletyoucanhurtme]

This be another horror-ish film Stir of Echoes

I decide I want to watch films from listicles and stupid articles posted from facebook. I decide to do reviews/re-action blogs/liveblog posts, not because of the film but just if I have time/effort to put in. The only thing I know about this one is that it's a supernatural horror and has Kevin Bacon in it. Creepy child humming and it's not even loaded in the screen yet; I'm betting it's all her fault. Sorry little one you must be possessed or something. Under 10yr old is in a bath, but talking to the camera and not Kevin Bacon (who's playing an acoustic guitar, because reasons). I don't think it's breaking the fourth wall, he be talking to a ghost or something. Yeah he just asked if it hurts to be dead, and the camera turns to reveal there's no-one there.... thought it'd’ve taken longer for that reveal tbh Kevin Bacon goes downstairs to find pyjamas and gets told he's going to have another child, just kinda leaving the kid upstairs talking to ghosts; no biggie Sister-in-law seems more worried about the star sign of the baby, but the only two people she can think of is Einstein and Shirley Manson...oh the days before Wikipedia could fill peoples heads with useless nonsense Little boy's in bed and Kevin Bacon goes in to turn off his lamp, like whoever put the kid in bed should've done that no? And the kids like 7ish why does he need a baby monitor Ah, because all three responsible adults are actually leaving the boy in bed alone to go to a party across the street. No locked doors or nothing... istheirlastnameMcCann?? I hope the wife's not going to be drinking at this party, and wonder how she's gonna keep her new pregnancy a secret while abstaining? There's missing kid posters on a lamppost, I wonder if that's relevant to the plot or just something there when they filmed? Hope the monitor's not 2-way, they're now talking about operating on people under hypnosis... Now Kevin's gonna get hypnotised by the sister-in-law, maybe it's not the kid that's gonna get possessed after all? The hypnosis dream world is cool, the way it responded to the script and everything turning black is simple but effective Now he's going to sleep at 1.11, aren't you supposed to be making wishes at that time? An hour and 15 minutes later his wife's horny and wakes up to have sex, like you might as well she's not gonna get more pregnant now is she. The wife was wearing a blue housecoat in bed and one of her boobs keeps falling out, but always the same one? Like they cant show two because censors so only make her right breast visible guys, hide the left one! Kevin's lying back having visions of blood and a fingernail being ripped off like sorry but you're obviously not that good hen He has to tell her to stop three times before she actually gives up trying to keep him in the mood like that's sexual assault my dear, spousal rape is a thing you know He just pulled a tooth out but was apparently just imagining it so no tooth fairy money for him :( Being possessed or seeing visions is apparently very dehydrating Ghost girl sits beside him when he turns the TV on and says "You can hear me can't you?" but I only know that because of the subtitles because no we can't really hear you. But I suppose people would be too freaked by the jump scare to notice what she's saying He's going back upstairs but he's left the TV on which is very irresponsible and only gonna increase his electricity bills. Jake (the son) is awake and just standing at the top of the stairs like the creepy little shit that he is Kevin's calling the sister in law from a phone halfway up a pole where he's fixing the wires but I'm betting they're probably not allowed to use that for personal calls Sister in law apparently told him to be more open-minded. So not posession but more sixth sense so far. Except he's no Bruce Willis, wonder which one came out first ((nb, this was second by like a month so not really ripping off but I bet that stole a lot of the thunder)) Jake tells his mum about a babysitter saying "Samantha told me" and points to an empty chair...come on, if you were listening to him you'd figure this one out already! No explanation of how long-dead Samantha knows the names of current babysitters that might be free though. Maybe her afterlife is spent keeping current with the neighbourhood goss? Babysitter knocks on the door and screen turns red, this does not look good for you dear. Screen turned red another twice, yeah that's a definite signal you're gonna be screaming soon. Kevin keeps hearing the warning sound every time he sees a red light though, like on cars and not connected to the babysitter so maybe she'll be fine and he's the one that's getting it? Kids at the high school football game trying to sneak beers in by tying them to a rope and having someone else drag it up over the wall....like the crowd and the nearby police car don't know whats going on? Kevin just drank some of his friends vodka which is ok because they're of legal age to drink, but not ok because he is now publicly intoxicated  Babysitter's reading The Shrinking Man which is not about possession or ghosts but a sci-fi horror... Jake's been caught talking to himself on the baby monitor, like surely if you were a ghost you'd get him to turn his set down or off no? Babysitter seems to know who Samantha is and that Jake can't be talking to her, maybe Samantha doesn't know about babysitters but was her friend irl? Apparently the appropriate response to this is to kidnap Jake... Kevin knows he's being kidnapped somehow and is close enough to run all the way home but not close enough to stop her. She gets stopped at the police station and an unreasonably shouty policeman somehow sorts things out Samantha is babysitters missing/kidnapped/well-now-we-know-shes-dead sister and she took Jake to see her mum who works at a train station Jake's mum finally twigs that Jake mentioned a Samantha so maybe she was actually listening to him, if not noticing that he was pointing at an empty space Kevin Bacon and his wife are now questioning their child back home, but he's now playing with dinosaurs and humming like he's finally decided to stop talking about his ghost friend just out of spite Jake gets possessed long enough for Samantha to tell them to talk to her instead...but then Samantha doesn't respond or show up so that was a bit of pointless direction. Now he's sitting on the couch turning the TV off and on as if trying to recreate the first time he saw Samantha but she's suddenly all shy There's a street party and the guy that no-one likes keeps calling Samantha a retard and gets called out for it :) Fight starts and a randomer just spills half his beer onto the street like not planning to join the fight just a bit clumsy lol Kevin's friend is in his house the next day, tells him "they" are gonna kill him and his wife and just leaves to sit on his porch like...could you be more vague? And how did you get in the house? Kevin goes to the friends house, friend's son has a gun, points it at Kevin but shoots himself...because reasons? Ah, dream, ok. But now as ever things are gonna happen in the same way so more of a vision. Kevin's picked up on it as soon as he only has one work shoe...like I'm sure that’s kinda common but well done for realising it normally takes people a lot longer Friend isn't in the house this day, maybe it was a warning and he's a ghost too? He's now went to the friends house but the door was locked this time and friend's son just shot himself. The dad is still alive though... Jake hears bagpipes when walking by a cemetery and thinks its beautiful? Like I'm Scottish mate and I don't think it's a particularly beautiful instrument tbh, its not really meant to be Jake says the graveyard is cool, I don't know if its cause he's been talking to a ghost or if he's just naturally creepy Policeman from the bagpiped funeral knows Jakes different and gives the mum his card, and he and Jake call each other by their first names as if seeing ghosts also lets you see peoples real names?? Kevin's finding it hard to write a song on his guitar but like if you're not gonna get inspiration whilst being haunted you should give up lol Mum goes to see policeman instead of Kevin which is extremely stupid because she can't see ghosts so he probably wont be able to help her much Jakes trying to watch The Mummy (the 50s one not the Brendan Fraser one) and gets told no, not because hes too young but hes seen it before and had nightmares lol Mum's trying to talk to Kevin and getting annoyed when he doesn't answer, ignoring the fact he has large headphones in and volume up so loud she can hear it from the doorway, typical woman thing Their kitchen has a trapdoor down to a basement wheir their boiler is and there's not even a lock on it, with a young child that seems very unsafe Samantha's turned Jake's TV over to Night Of The Living Dead...like his mum shouldve just kept it on the Mummy Kevin with headphones is suddenly in a freezing cold empty house with Samantha and she's freezing him to death, which is not gonna get her what she wants so seems counter productive Babysitters putting up posters for Samantha so yes the posters seen earlier are related-knew it! Kevin's trying to get the sister in law to hypnotise him again but interrupts an obvious lesbian one night stand she's trying to have Mum goes crazy and asks Kevin what he's doing when quite clearly he's digging...kinda obvious... Says she's going to call the police and Kevin says tell them what, like I get you cant see ghosts and probably don't think she's buried in your garden, but you can't call the police and say your husbands digging arrest him please? There's a letter from mum's brother about their granny and Kevin knows she's already dead, like his ESP isn't just connected to Samantha but he can also know other things somehow? Ok he's not going to grannys funeral because he's busy digging, yeah now he is being an asshole but it was her being unreasonable earlier Kevin kicked a bucket and broke a window, I'm not sure if he was meant to but it was funny Now he's digging upthe basement instead of his garden because the concrete floor is actually a better place to hide a body-less chance of being found I've decided the friends son is involved else why would he kill himself? Kevin tells his wife everythings fine when in actuality he's now tore up the floorboards, which I don't see how that helps him with the basement but hey why not? Jake tells his mum he doesn't wanna go home because of feathers like thats very unspecific and helpful but cheers And now after ripping up his garden, hall floorboards and concrete basement floor, turns out the body was in the basement chimney...see if she'd just been a bit more specific with her directions instead of just telling him to dig Now he's uncovered the body and is touching it like you should really be calling the police and get CSI into this shit Touching the body's giving him the flashback of her last moments and how she died which, yeah was due to the friend's son Friend's son and another teenager were getting drunk in the house when it was empty, tried to take advantage of the heavier, slower girl and when she said no turned into assault and rape She fell and broke her tooth and scraped her fingernail trying to get away which explains the earlier minging parts Then they suffocated her to Paint It Black...which is kinda appropriate song for the occasion Two teenage twats like that though would not have known how to build a chimney around the body so I'm betting the landlord knew Kevin's going to warn his friend before calling the police and they walk back to Kevin's house in the rain, his friend has a jacket but doesn't put it on which is kinda stupid... The friend knows! And was holding a gun under the jacket!!  But has now shot himself instead of Kevin. Landlords turned up and his son was the other person that killed Samantha and he definitely knows. This father-son doesn't look like they're gonna commit suicide though Landlord tells his son to have a drink and then they attack Kevin, not sure why he had to have a drink first though? Wife's turned up honking the horn of the car like bitch if there's ever at any point in this film you need to be an impatient bitch its now - go save your husband!! Still not sure of the feathers that Jake warned her about though.... Friend isn't dead! Comes up from the basement to shoot landlord and son! Dunno what the shot earlier when he was in the basement alone was about then? Landlords gun lets off a stray shot which goes through the floorboards, through Jake's bed and pillow....and there's feathers flying around Jakes room. Ok then maybe thats what he meant? Now the friend stands in the living room and says the line about they were gonna kill Kevin and his wife, it was a premonition too. Ghost Samantha's now putting her jacket on and walking away, finally put to rest :) Now they're moving house which seems like an unnecessary expense for a family expecting a second child, and put it this way at least they now know there's no dead bodies in the floorboard of that house at least. They might have to do this all again at another house... Jake can still hear ghosts as the car goes by, not sure if Kevin's still open though? And all the dreams/premonitions/visions make sense and were related to Samantha in some way...apart from knowing about his wife's gran. Howd he know that?