#and calm myself down but i'm already crying bc of guard

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uh oh!!! spent too much time comparing fic stats!!! made myself sad!!!!

[kaveuh]

Hi, your izumi comforting s/o after a toxic relationship was so neat, so may I ask for kaoru who comforts his s/o in a similar situation but instead it's her parents who are toxic? Like their marriage is messed up and her father was negligent and harsh towards his wife which makes s/o deeply traumatised and is scared that she will end up in the same situation as her mom? When he asked her one day on a date why she's so fidgetty and jumpy with him she bursts out crying and shaking and tells him about her family? I'm sorry if it's oddly specific, thank you very much.

"IT’LL BE OKAY, I'M HERE." kaoru hakaze.

author’s note — happy birthday kaoru my little scrimbly.. also i may have gotten carried away with this just bcs🔥🔥

genre — angst, hurt/comfort, fluff

warning(s) — toxic household, mental breakdowns, invalidation of self-trauma

kaoru notices and remembers all these little things about you— from your features, to your silly little hobbies, etc. which is why it didn't take long for your boyfriend to realize how you'd always fidget when he's around you. he chose to brush it off, reasoning with himself, such as: 'maybe she's just nervous.' or 'maybe it's just a habit.' etc.

until it was getting out of hand. kaoru was not aware of your situation at home, no one else was. besides yourself, of course. instead, he ended up overthinking it. was he the problem? are you uncomfortable with him? is it because he used to be a playboy back in highschool?

you chose to forget about your home life. however, your constant fidgeting, being on-guard at all times was something that you can’t help. it was exhausting. you were perfectly content with how things were— with kaoru being completely oblivious about your life at home and treating you normally like a normal boyfriend would. you didn’t think he would notice and ask you so suddenly about it.

"[name], am i making you uncomfortable?" kaoru came to a stop, facing towards you with a stern expression and stiff posture.

it was a surprise. you, flabbergasted didn’t know how to answer his question. 'what did he mean by that?' your date was already coming to an end. you had fun, but what made him suddenly ask that question? you began to overthink. what you experienced at home began to flash through your mind.

"i don't mean to pry or anything, but if anything's wrong, then you can tell me. i won't judge you or—" he stopped upon seeing your glassy eyes. if there was one thing in this world that you wanted to avoid at the moment, that would be crying. kaoru panicked, looking around as he gently took you to a more private space. kaoru sighs, scooching down to your level (as you ended up doing so the moment you arrived).

you wanted to disappear. you didn't want anyone to worry— let alone, kaoru, who had already lost his mother and had a shitty mother worry about you. after all, he has it worse than you, right?

"[name]," the blonde called out, visibly choosing his words carefully as to not upset you any further. "may i touch you?" he asked, smiling softly as he saw your nod. kaoru moved closer to wrap his arms around your trembling body. "it'll be okay, i'm here." he cooed, holding you until you had calmed down a bit. "i won’t force you to tell me what's wrong. but, if ever, i'll be here to listen. it's not good to bottle things up, you know?"

you sniffed, wiping the remaining tears as a result of your breakdown. "okay," you began, leaning into his touch as you proceeded to tell him everything— from your childhood to present. kaoru did as he said: he listened. he was patient, no matter how much you paused to cry, no matter how much you were slurring. he stayed and listened.

"[name], i can’t promise you anything in terms of me being able to help. but i can promise you that i can be any type of support you need. you deserve so much, and i can never, ever, imagine myself hurting you like that." he took a deep breath, before taking a water bottle out of his bag, opened it and handed it to you.

"you don't have to believe me now, heck, i wouldn't even blame you if you can't trust my words. but i mean it— i may not be the best with comforting, but i can assure you that i'll take care of you."

you finally looked at him, rubbing your puffy eyes as he caressed your cheek. "i trust you…" kaoru’s eyes lit up, his gaze softening. "thank you, kaoru."

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[Translation] Otona no Meruhen Vol 8: 「Tsukiyo no Hime ～Juusha no Kare～」

Four years later, and I still haven't found a translation (・∀・) so I decided to translate it myself, with the help of google translate and raw intellectual power =u= This is literally my first translation ever so excuse me if I have any mistakes o.o This took me a ridiculous amount of time to translate oof Tora is just really cute here~ Other than the moe gap ouo So yeah this is what I am doing at the end of the year. Uhh anyways if you're reading this, I hope you enjoy!

Oh yeah, this is R18. So uh, that's your warning before you decide to continue.

Synopsis: https://dauriculaire.tumblr.com/post/164589798250/%E5%A4%A7%E4%BA%BA%E3%81%AE%E3%83%A1%E3%83%AB%E3%83%98%E3%83%B3%E5%92%8C-%E6%9C%88%E5%A4%9C%E3%81%AE%E5%A7%AB-%E5%BE%93%E8%80%85%E3%81%AE%E5%BD%BC-otona-no-meruhen-wa

大人のメルヘン和 「月夜の��� ～従者の彼～」 CV: 一重細目 (???)

Track 1: Meeting (出会い) [0:05] P.. Pleased to meet you! I am Tora. My name was given to me by your father. Starting from today, I will also be living here. I look forward to working with you! Eh? But.. I-Is that okay? For me to call you 'Sis'.. Uwahah..! That makes me happy! Then, please feel free to call me Tora! Yes, I'll be in your care as well! Oh! That reminds me! This! It's for you Sis. It's a flower I found on the way here. It's really pretty, so I want to give it to you. Yes. I'm happy to know that you're pleased with it. No, I'm glad! I get to see Sis's laughing face.. From now on, I'll continue to make you smile a lot okay? [1:46] Sis... hic gulp ..Can I please sleep together with you? I had a terrible dream... [2:17] I really hate the rain. It.. scares me so much. Sis.. you're so warm. Yes, I feel more calm now. Are you sure? Is it really okay for me to sleep here..? Okay~ ( ꈍᴗꈍ) Sis.. really is warm. And.. smells nice. ...It calms me down.

Track 2: Attendant (従者) [0:12] Oh? Sis~! Ugh.. O-Ouch.. Huh–? I won't cry! I'm a man after all..! I'm fine. There's really nothing to worry about! It will surely heal soon even if you leave it alone. More importantly! I wanted to eat some peaches since earlier so.. would you like to eat together? Certainly! Sis, you like peaches right? That's good (. ^ ᴗ ^.) Then, I left them over there, so let's eat them together! [1:05] Here, eat up~ Ehehehe, looks delicious~! Peel off the skin and.. Uh? *cute frustration noises* ..Ugh.. It won't peel off. Uh? Here. Thank you so much! Ehehee~! Well then, thanks for the food! Mm~! Tasty.. Oi? Where is it? Please stop, I can do that much myself. Jeez Sis.. You're so quick to treat me like a kid! Again, I'm not a kid. [2:03] This presence.. Again? These days, it seems highly rumored that there's an extremely beautiful princess that lives around here. More importantly.. doesn't it seem like they're taking way too much trouble just to catch a glance? ..A-Ah! No, it's nothing. So Sis, would you like to eat the rest inside? It's too sunny here and it's a little hot. *frustratedly grumbles* Isn't it a good idea? Let's please go inside already! Hurray! Okay, go inside now quickly. [2:54] Eeee..! Kk.. Jeez, even if I said I was okay.. (⇀‸↼‶) Ngh.. It hurts, but I'll do my best. Sis? I.. want to be your attendant. Actually, I have already asked your father about it. I.. really want to protect you. That's– It's... A-Anyways! Your father already gave his permission. That's why, I'll always from now on, be by your side! To guard you. So now, all I need is your permission Sis. Eh? Me too. I also think of Sis as my real sister. That's why I call you as such. But I truly want to protect you. Please. [4:06] Can't.. I? I want to stay by your side... In that case, it's fine right? That's good! Ah, likewise. I look forward to working together. If you feel like something is troubling you or anything, please feel free to tell me okay?

Track 3: On a Rainy Night (雨の夜は) [0:05] The moon is rather obscured today isn't it? There are more clouds out than usual. Rain? Ah, I see. It might start raining soon huh..? Eh? Are you sure? Ah no, but earlier today, I just said that I would start protecting you Sis. Yes.. I'm still not good with rain. Uah! Please keep it a secret from your father alright? If he knows that I'm sleeping with you at this age.. It's a bit embarrassing.. Downright miserable. But it's hard for me to overcome. [0:57] Sis, do you know why I came here? I was actually abandoned by my parents. We didn't have any money at home. No food neither. So.. maybe, they had no other choice but to throw me out. I remember that I was asked to do it first but... Since the birth of their new child, I told myself, "I'm sure that they could live a better life than now." Around that time, your father took me with him.. He told me that he understood my situation because he too was also poor. Yes. Although now, it looks like he's become more wealthy since you came here Sis. That's why I too, am able to live together with you both like this. Everyday is fun, and I get to eat enough food and have a full stomach. I'm really happy here. [2:04] Yet.. On a rainy day, I almost always end up being reminded of it. My family and.. When I went to say goodbye, because it was also raining that night. That's why, when I first came here, I-I thought it would all just be temporary. I was scared. The tears wouldn't stop flowing out. Oh! Now, it's not as bad as it used to be. Though, it still makes me feel a little lonely but, I'll probably... overcome it soon right? Ah, the rain is already starting to pour isn't it? Sis? Is it really okay with you? You won't make fun of me for acting childish? [3:13] Tonight, I feel like I'll be able to sleep well~ Of course. Heh~ Sis.. I love you.

Track 4: Moon Viewing (月見) [0:03] Sis~! Oh, so you were here all along. Sis! You have a visitor. Hah.. I thought you would say that. I declined it, don't worry. Well, I guess it won't work if you don't agree to it. I'll tell them that you don't feel particularly well. Even so, that person was quite an item– (T/N: I think he was insulting the person? Like, 'nakanaka' meant 'good' but shibutsu meant 'useless thing' so like, I think he meant that the person had a kinda stuck-up personality as a high status person maybe?) Ah nothing! They're quite tenacious aren't they? Is it that you just got used to giving out refusals? I'm talking about the marriage proposals. A jeweled branch from Hōrai, two robes made of Chinese fire-rat skins, the Buddha's stone begging bowl. After that, a cowry shell born from a swallow, and the pearl from the dragon's neck was it? “If you succeed in bringing it to me, I shall accept your proposal for marriage,” you said. Those things you mentioned.. do they even exist? So Sis can be a mean person too I see~ [1:11] Well, thanks to that, most of your suitors gave up. A few haven't, yet you seem to be doing as well as ever. That said, you're around the age where you should think of getting married, your father said. Then, do you not plan on getting married to anyone? Ah..! What a relief.. Nothing. I think you're truly beautiful Sis. That's why it isn't strange to think that everyday, someone would come to ask for your hand in marriage. Please don't say that! I meant that.. Sis is as lovable on the inside, as well as the outside. So please, never change yourself. Sis, you're beautiful just the way you are. Ehe~ Well then, I have something to do, so I'll be off for a bit. Oh yeah. Tonight, let's go for a stroll again together okay? [2:41] Sis, please be careful of where you step. Huwah.. You can see the moon really well over here. You like the moon a lot, don't you Sis? Nowadays, you often look up at it during the night. Yesterday you came to see it. Today as well. Not at all. I'll just watch you while you watch the moon. Ehehehe~ Should I stop? (・∀・)? [3:21] I like the moon as well. But lately, it makes me feel a bit envious. I mean, because you'd usually only stare so intently when you watched over me. No, nothing. Maybe it's jealousy or something, not about what you're– I'm just worried. One day, some man will take Sis somewhere away from here.. I understand. Women are supposed to– have the obligation to get married. But, still, I don't want you to marry anyone Sis..! I'm sorry for being selfish. Heh? Is that true? ..Really? You, really won't marry anyone, you'll promise me that? I'm glad! Sis please.. stay as my sis forever okay? Hey, Sis? I'm still not that much taller than you; I'm not strong either. I've still got a long way to go before I become a man but, if I.. grow taller than you, and train more so that my martial arts are second to none. Maybe then I... [5:27] O-On second thought, that's enough for now! If that time comes then I'll be sure to tell you. Just for now, let's watch the moon for a little bit longer?

Track 5: Promise (約束) [0:09] The emperor.. hah.. I heard that the emperor wanted to.. hah.. see you in person..! That, is it really true? It is.. isn't it. I have also heard from your father. And the rumor was spreading like wildfire. Even.. out on the streets..! Of course! I undoubtedly believe your words. But, you.. with such a person.. You're being ordered to against your will right!? I hate it. Sis you haven't even.. you haven't even met him– having to get married to someone just like that..! I KNOW but–! [1:04] Why? Can you really say that? You can still refuse the emperor if you have any valid reason. Sis, you're.. hiding something from me aren't you? I have noticed ever since before. While looking up at the moon, Sis you.. always seemed to be thinking about something. And with that.. I've been pretending not to notice. Please tell me. What on earth are you hiding from me? Sis..! Please. I beg you, please tell me the truth! [2:03] Go back.. to the moon..? What do you mean? Sis are you.. not a person from this world? No way. It can't be— You're saying.. the truth? Then, you are here now.. to atone for your sins as some divine punishment? What sin did Sis even commit to get sent here? Why-!? Is it a sin to have a longing for this world? “It's an unclean place,” they said? P-Please wait! Your sin, when will it be forgiven? ..The next full moon? Isn't that already tomorrow?! *random thunder strike* That's... cruel. I couldn't even keep my promise when I said I would protect you. When I said, we'd stay together-! No matter what.. Yet, you knew you were going back to the moon eventually so you lied when we did that promise didn't you? ..Even if this world is unclean, I don't want you to go back. [3:37] What? I see. It wasn't.. my fault huh? You liar! Even ever since we first met Sis.. you would always–! Make excuses like that.. And now, you're going to leave me as well..! No stop, I don't want to hear it anymore! Sis I... I HATE you!

Track 6: (Four Times in a Row If Someone Knows The Title, Pls Tell Me :,)) (私が貴女を) [0:13] W-What do you want? ..I'm not crying. Please leave me alone! You won't be here after tomorrow anyways. You don't really care about me, do you? Because that's just the way it is isn't it?! You'll be.. gone tomorrow after all right? Just like back then. Please stop it. I really don't care anymore. Hurry. The moon, or wherever, why don't you just go? Sis is.. a pure and untainted moon dweller, is that right? Liar! You're still trying to deceive me, even though you're going to go back eventually..! Night after night, you would always stare at the moon like that. Rather than spending time here, you wanted to return to the moon right? If you really mean it, would you stay with me? Don't go back. Just.. stay with me. [1:41] In that case, you just have to get rid of it. From what you said, only pure things can exist on the moon right? Then... I'll gladly defile you. After that, you'll have no choice but to stay here. You said you would stay with me no matter what. You said you would.. keep our promise didn't you? That you won't leave.. and that you'll stay here. Well then, It would be fine.. if I tainted you right? Even if this is the only way I can think of, will you come to hate me? That.. Of course, it's obvious. I don't want you to keep treating me like a kid. So now.. 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 look at me properly. [3:21] This smell of yours. I like it a lot. Back then when I used to sleep together with you, being surrounded by your scent while I slept.. It comforted me. But now, it's.. even stronger than usual. I wonder why? Even your body too. It's hotter than usual. Would it be okay if I touched you more directly? Soft.. Since it's your first time being touched like this, aren't you.. a little nervous? But I want to touch you more. In all of the places, that no one's ever touched before. Here. And your chest too. Can I use my fingers? When I touch here, it would stiffen a bit. It's slowly getting erect.. Uah..! You don't have to! Please don't hide yourself. I want to see everything. Your body. And your cute expressions. 𝘈𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘪𝘵. I want to see every inch of you. So, won't you turn over here? That's good.. Even though you seem embarrassed, you don't really mind right? Then, can I.. kiss you? Your lips are really soft.. U-Um.. Can I put my tongue in this time? *one protagonist-induced silence later* If you stay silent, I'll take it as affirmation you know. I already warned you right? Well then, I honestly, really like it so.. I won't ask you again another time. Why? Does it.. feel so good? This is bad.. I'd rather stop speaking. Why is it this sweet? Your lips~ [7:57] It hurts. The more I do this with you, the more my feelings start to overflow. I like you. I like you a lot. I love you! I know.. we have to do this now so I can protect you, but I don't want it to be like this. But! You'll be gone if we don't. Maybe if we had more time.. because, right now I'm still not– I'm not sure I could satisfy you. I'm sure.. I wouldn't.. be able to. But I.. already am a man? But, really? Am I really enough for you? Then, one more time. Like earlier. Please let me.. do it again. [9:57] Ah.. My apologies. I should have untied the obi belt earlier. Your kimono is all wrinkled. Aww.. Too bad. It's pretty dark because it's night. This place, I can't see it very well. I wanted to see! A little bit. But, you're fine with it since it's less embarrassing right? Then I have no complaints if it's like this. I can't see very well. But I can still tell. From the sound. If you're ready, is it okay if I? Ah.. Does it embarrass you? But it's okay. Right now, these sounds, and the cute voice you make.. no one else will be able to hear it except me. Since the rain will completely mask every sound so.. I usually hate the rain. Yet when I'm here with you, even the sound of rain seems comforting. It's quite strange. Should we already? Me too.. I want it to feel good. I'll enter slowly, okay? [14:04] It hurts doesn't it?

I'm really sorry! B-But whimper I can't... endure it for much longer.. I want to move already. I-I didn't know.. doing this.. felt so– good..! I am-! really.. s-sorr~! I can't stop! I'm sorry..! *starts to cry a little* W-What should I..? Already... I'm going to cum! [16:08] .. I apologize. Please wait! It's still.. not enough so... Uuh this.. still might not be sufficient. You too, right? Besides... More of you. I want to taint you more. This alone may not be enough yet. This time, it seems a bit less tight.. than before. That's why– it'll be.. ff~fine..! All the places. That make you feel good. Please tell me. What's wrong? Are you feeling good too? If I touch your chest like this.. Or here, it twitches whenever I tease it with my fingers. Just now, you tightened a bit. Then, I'll play with you even more here okay? It.. came out a lot. If it's mine, or if it's yours, I'm not really sure.. But, a lot's coming out of you. [19:42] I want to stay connected with you.. like this forever. Your insides.. feel warm, and surprisingly nice. I really want to stay with you like this forever. I love you. Sis..! [21:06] Sis! Sis–! Kuh.. Ahh~! Don't leave! Forever.. just stay with me...! Please. I'm coming... -again! May I? Too– Too much~ I'm already at my... -limit! Cumming! [22:46] Maybe... I can die now..? U-uuh.. Please wait! Don't move yet. I don't want to pull it out.. yet. This, wanting to stay connected with you. Is it not good? Why? I want to do more... and more. Because! When was it supposed to be again? Tomorrow? I can't wait so long. Hey, Sis.. I still haven't heard you voice your response yet. What do you truly think of me? I want to hear it properly. Yes, that. The words you said just now. One more time; please tell me again. Mm.. I can't hear you very well. One more time. Me too! I like you. I love you~! [24:24] Mm... Uhm. As I thought, for now, can we do it just one more time? Is it no good? You still have it in you so.. you can tell right? For tonight, just one more time and that's it. Please? Pretty please. Sis~ Hehe, you used to falter so easily like that whenever I acted cute. Ehe, I remember! Moreover, I have to fill you with more and more of me. Because I won't let you go back to the moon. So.. it's okay right?

Track 7: Whether It's Sunny or Rainy (雨でも晴れでも)

Track 7: Whether It's Sunny or Rainy [0:06] Are you looking at the moon again? In the end, you weren't taken away after all. As I thought, was it because of me? Is it possible that– you regret it? Hah~ Thank goodness. At least now, I can see you next to the moon like this. Just a bit later and I would've started to hate it. (‘=u=) [0:43] Oh! Ahh, I don't hate the rain anymore! For the longest time now, you'd always stay by my side and hold me close on days that were rainy. Now I actually quite look forward to them. Ah–! How can you say such a thing? How cruel. Personally, whether it's sunny or rainy. I wouldn't mind as long as I get to sleep together with you at night. [1:15] Is it okay.. for tonight as well? Because! Since that night, I always think of that time with you. What I feel towards you; I can't control it so easily. I want to.. touch you, so much that it's unbearable. "Someone will see"? Who would be able to see us? Gee, even though it's already this late.. ..Ahh.! By that, do you mean the people who come just to be able to see you? Thinking about it, it would probably be fine to let them look all they want! Then I'm sure; they'll have no choice but to understand that you're mine and mine only. So... if you insist so much, shall we confront them and intimidate them into leaving? [2:29] Nn..! Hah~ I understand. In that case, why don't we go to your room instead. Yes, that's right. It's a place where nobody would be able to see us right? Here, please stand. I'll pull you up. Come on, let's go!

Track 8: Bonus (おまけ) [0:03] Oh? Please wait! The kids have finished their training just now. Certainly. It is a bit hard, but teaching kendo to children is pretty fun. The children learn really quick. It's like there's nothing else for me to teach them huh? I also want to have my own child as soon as possible~ Pffft— Hehehmm~! Why did you get so red? [0:37] Listen. About that promise we made in the past, do you still remember? "When I grow taller than you, and my strength becomes second to none. If that time comes, then I would have something to tell you." [Kids: Teacher~!!!] Hah.. Yes, I can hear you all. Hehe~! Well then, let's continue this again later. In your room. [1:28] Oh? Ahh.. did you wake up? Yes, I came to visit you~ Didn't I tell you earlier today? "Let's continue this in your room." But actually, tonight's not a usual visit. I came to formally propose to you. Of course; I'm serious. Three days from today. I'll come back here to finally tie the knot with you. It will be proof that we are officially married. Then we'll eat mochi together on the third day okay? (T/N: “In the Heian period, mochi was often used in Shinto events to celebrate childbirth and marriage. In this period, it became customary in the aristocratic society for the bride and groom to eat mochi together at the bride's house three days after the wedding.”) I already managed to fulfill it; I grew much taller than you. And now, I've become strong. What's your reply? I've become a man who is second to none. Yes. Now that I am more confident in myself than back then, I want to be a man who can stand beside you. I desperately trained everyday. Even while sweating, I did my best. [2:46] Do you need time to give an answer? Then, please choose me. Get married with me. For three days. I'll come here every night from today until you say yes. Please. Allow me to make you happy. *you pull him in and kiss him* [3:48] ..I like you. You really are.. beautiful even at a glimpse. I can't. I can't take my eyes off of you for a moment. [4:44] Are you still embarrassed? If so, should I take mine off too? If we're both like this, you won't have to be embarrassed. Go ahead. Please feel free to look more closely~ What's wrong? After I went through the trouble of taking it all off. I want you to see. No matter where, or even, how I grew up. It's completely different from when I was a kid. You're bright red~! Then again, I don't think you'd be able to really understand just by looking at it would you? Here, give me your hand. Do you understand? It's now slightly muscular and a bit more stiff than it used to be right? The way your body is now is also completely different from back then. Here, your chest too. Please let me touch it. Even your arms. [5:59] Look at this! Do you know that you're getting fat? Geheh..! Fuhehe~ Hah.. I''m really sorry! You were just so cute, that I wanted to bully you a bit. It looks like our roles from back then have reversed hasn't it? That's true. Because, as long as I called you 'Sis', you would continue to see me as a younger brother right? But I wanted you to see me as a man. That's why I stopped calling you 'Sis'. It saddens you..? So that's how you feel. That's not true. I am me of course. I'll stay by your side 'till the end of time. I mean, I'm still in here in front of you aren't I? [7:02] If you're that worried.. you're free to check. My existence, my being. Feel more of me. [8:21] It's already starting to get a little wet. Is it okay if I lick it? That's no good~ Please don't move your hips too much. Otherwise, I can't lick it properly. I understand that your hips tend to move ��𝘶𝘪𝘵𝘦 expressively whenever you feel good but.. *chuckle* It's a lot more wet.. than before. Is it okay, if I put it in now? Please relax alright? It always... feels really.. uh..! amazing–! inside of you.. Today.. more than ever.. I want– to get the most! out of it. I'll raise your legs for you. Can you feel it–? That it's going.. much deeper–! than usual? Do you have, any idea..

uhh.! how.. deep it's going? Look! This part of me.. has also become a bit–! more than it used to be right? But even if we don't do it everyday, just even until tomorrow. Maybe it's not too excessive if you're enjoying it this much I guess~? (?) I've always dreamed of making it this far. That I'd.. finally have the advantage over you. I won't.. let you treat me like a kid anymore! Now, it's my turn to take care of you. Well then~ Come on! Let out more of your moans–! That cute voice of yours~! Let me hear more of it. I'm going to.. come–! [14:44] I like you so much. I love you. I won't let anyone else have you; I won't let you be taken to anywhere else. If the moon still hasn't given up on you then.. I'll continue to taint you, no matter how many times it takes. I'll fill more of you with me. For three days and three nights, I'll dote on you lots~ okay?