#and between that awareness and my general intelligence i don't just leap headfirst into things like this without a care

[spicebiter]

i see the sleep doctor today!! hopefully he's as respectful as my pcp and actually takes me seriously. especially because i filled out the new patient forms based on how i feel now that i'm sleeping in a way that feels normal, and because some doctors get really pissy when you have your own theories on what's going on with you i worry that he'll disregard it completely and make me start from square one. I don't mind documenting the way i sleep currently to back up the N24 theory but if he tries to make me go back on a 24 hour sleep cycle and wait to see how much i feel like shit when doing that before medicating me, seeing that i feel even worse actually, and THEN considering other theories..... honestly i'd rather just see someone else. if there's really no way around it i suppose i could do it just to get it done and over with but he could literally just talk to my pcp and hear from her just how much my sleep has been a problem for the past year or two alone rather than making me suffer. i'm not gonna play games like that as if i'm an idiot just because i don't have a medical license