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kimboo-york · 5 months ago

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I've had three (3!!!) separate friends all ask me over the past week "What are you doing to nourish yourself?"

Because I'm obviously stressed out and ridden with anxiety, I guess.

I had no answers for them, because even "fun" things stress me out and/or exhaust me these days. My attention span is scatter shot. My ability to relax is not functioning. Working has become its own solace, in all the wrong ways.

Until I realized that what I need, and will never get, is a day off.

Not a day off from work, that's too easy. I mean a day off from life. A day off from adulting. A day where someone else takes care of me.

A day where I don't have to worry about walking or feeding the dog; or cooking myself food; or washing the resulting dishes; or checking the mail; or doing another load of laundry; or the cost of groceries; or how to beg a ride to go shopping (as I don't have a car).

But I don't have a spouse (or two) and I live alone. Normally I'm very happy this way but for right now, I just want want a goddamn break.

#kimboo's musings #it takes a village #and I have great friends #but it's not the same #as having a partner or close family who cares about you #who can step in and do The Thing while you recuperate #it's all on me #and I'm tired #and before the pro-natalists get on my case for being childless #let me point out that if I did have children #I would not ask this of them #children are not born to be your housemaid #and if you have a child just so you have someone to look after you when you get old #you are a jerk

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