#and because of previous history anytime im too sick to eat my brain starts being Unhelpful | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

theninjazebra · 3 months ago

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The problem with anxiety as you get older and meaner is that you know it's mostly a lie. It's a different schedual not a lion, it's a meeting a group of new people not a lion, etc.

BUT

Sometimes it's a warning signal about the danger in you, not the world around you.

And this is inconvenient because there isn't helpful tickertape coming out of my ear saying "it's just the stress, apply (3) rotations of trashy pop album of choice to brain and power through" or "WARNING system overload imminent. Psychotic depression, intense suicidal thoughts, and self harm likely should you proceed."

Like, it'd be helpful, is what I'm saying.

#my brain is fine and rational #but this shitty flesh sack is useless #i dont think it would all be so bad but ive been sick and existing off caffeine and glittery eyeshadow #and because of previous history anytime im too sick to eat my brain starts being Unhelpful #anyway. panic attacks before work are fine and normal.#id just quit but i lost my teens and twenties to tragedy dysfunction and mental illness #i want a life and i need $$ or at least stable employment to get it #so its worth not fucking this up #oversharing on a tuesday morning xxx

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