#and bc im in a northern state i dont have any gun stores nearby

[noisy-weasel]

Mega unpopular opinion but I don't think there's anything wrong or abnormal about depression/suicidal ideation and I wish it wasn't so hated. Like let's be honest being depressed and suicidal when the world is like this is more normal than not being depressed and the truth is a lot of the time ppl who are depressed are never going to get better. Like I 100% know I will never get better and will kill myself someday but I can't say that because anyone who isn't depressed actually believes I can get better so they can't be okay with me dying. But if they spent a moment in my head they'd probably hand me the gun themselves. Because the truth is I'm not going to get better, I'm too old to get to where I'm supposed to be career+life wise even if I did get better, and it would only improve my family's lives if I was dead. These are FACTS and no one but me realizes that. Like fuck man what I wouldn't give to just have physician assisted suicide for depression. It would be so much cheaper than pills and therapy (cause come on dude, how the actual fuck is a depressed person supposed to find 200$/wk for therapy indefinitely). Basically I genuinely don't believe we should be trying to stop people from killing themselves when the reasons we want to kill ourselves aren't going away so obviously society doesn't actually care about a depressed persons well-being and just has a religious outlook about how sad god would be about it and it's not fair