#and as I took my evenin dose I caught myself wondering if the fact that I feel better half an hour after this med might just be correlation

[stardustedknuckles]

You know that weird feeling once you know something is wrong with you and maybe even the nature of it but you're still Not Sure, Really. Like you tell people you have it, you defend it vehemently to doctors so you get your treatment, but you can be years into taking medication for that condition and some asshole part of you is still sometimes like "maybe I lied really well or didn't take into account other symptoms that could point to something that doesn't require meds and I'm actually just a big baby using a crutch someone else couldn't get." Willing to bet this is a feeling other people know too.