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liddolwhynot2000 · 5 years ago

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Leaving

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Summary: And even if the two of you were friends, she told herself, it hardly mattered. He was, despite his very vocal protests, friends with Hange, another woman. So one more to the list was no matter of concern.

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Pairings: Levi/Reader, Levi/Petra

Genre: Angsty, One Sided Love, Levi ends up happy for once

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Levi sat in his office, glaring down at the table full of paperwork. Usually he had a better work ethic then this, completing his work neatly and on time. Today, however, his mind was rather jumbled up. No matter how much he wanted to, he couldn't bring himself to fully focus on the words sprawled on the paper infront of him.

Instead, all he could think about was how, a few days back, Petra had confessed her undying love and devotion to him. He had awkwardly tried to turn her down, only for her to beg him to actually think about it before making a decision. She had insisted that she could break down his walls, if only he would give her a chance.

That had been before they had faced an attack from Marley, so he hadn't bothered to give her offer more then a moments notice, dismissing any notions of romance and too busy with trying to keep his brats alive. But now, he was seriously considering her words. Not the idea of being with her, but the idea of just having someone.

He had spent so much of his life alone. He hadn't felt a warm embrace since the loss of his mother. But maybe, maybe he could actually have a companion. Someone to settle down with, someone who could support him.

Petra would be easy to settle down with, if he was willing to abandon everything that made the idea of being with her uncomfortable. Like the age difference. He was in his early thirties and Petra had just turned twenty. Even though she was the one pushing for the relationship, it still made him feel like a creep. And he knew everyone would point fingers at him, especially since he was her superior officer and she was directly in his squad. Even if he decided to not give a flying fuck about that, the idea of opening his heart to someone who he would probably send to their death at one point was uncomfortable for him.

Sighing, he decided he would turn her down firmly the next time he saw her. There was no reason for him to indulge her, he harboured no romantic feelings for her and it was best she got over her little crush as soon as possible. He would try to be nice as he could about it.

Mind made up, he went back to work.

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Petra stood infront of her captain's office door, wanting nothing more then to go inside, but too scared to. She had confessed to him in the spur of the moment and was now afraid of facing rejection from him. Although a part of her, the part that was hopelessly in love with him, refused to give up.

It was well known that Captain Levi wasn't the type to take any sort of lover. In fact, someone had even passed a rumour that during his health inspection, he had checked the box for sexual partners as none. Of course, that rumour had also been promptly strangled to a graceless death once he got wind of it and made the entire survey corps run till they dropped. Everyday. For a week.

She knew he was hardly what one considered attractive, and that the attention and admiration he got from his title often withered away because of his stone cold personality. But she neither cared for his looks, nor his rank.

She was one of the few people who had noticed his kindness. The way he went out of his way to help his comrades, whether it was on the battlefield or giving advice. The fact that he gathered momentos of their fallen cormades. How he often carried expeditions on his back to lower the death rate. All those little things that others failed to notice, she had. And all of it made her fall hopelessly in love with him.

She could tell he thought that spending the rest of his life on his own and dying on the battlefield was his fate, but she would do everything possible to convince him otherwise.

Resolving herself to convince him, she knocked. The door creaked open, and peering in, she realized he wasn't in his office. Suddenly she remembered that most of the soldiers had gone out to drink, she figured he must have gone along with them.

Shrugging, she decided it would be best to approach him the next day and decided to go to sleep early rather then seek him out right now.

She had no idea how much she would regret not going to the bar that night.

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The bar was packed. Levi scrunched up his nose in disgust at the sight before him. Rowdy soldiers laughed and sang together. The smell of booze wreaked in the air and someone was playing the guitar.

He had been dragged into this filthy place by Hanji. All the soldiers had the night off and wanted to enjoy it to the fullest. The only reason Levi had allowed Hanji to drag him in here was because he refused to let the 104th cadets drink. It was entertaining to snatch the glass of alcohol out of their hands, watch them fume, turn around and then falter at the sight of their captain being the culprit.

Once Eren and his little group left the bar, Levi decided his job of torturing the brats was done, and left a little while after them. He had initially wanted to leave the moment they had, but Hanji had decided to play her usual game of pointing out random, pretty girls in hopes of inticing him to 'getting some'. Once she got desperate at his constant rejection and started highlighting men, he tripped her and left at the speed of lightning.

Walking slowly in the darkness, he let himself enjoy the peace and quiet. The Survey Corps headquarters were always loud. Something was always going on. Whether it was training, mission plans, Hanji, the brats wreaking havoc or Eren accidentally transforming for the unteempth time, he could never enjoy any genuine quietness.

The sound of a struggle broke him out of his thoughts, eyes narrowing as he turned to the source.

'Let go of me-I said let mph GO-'

'Come on we just wanna have some fun-'

He inched closer to the alleyway. Spotting three men surrounding a struggling woman, pulling at her clothes, the sight had his blood boiling. The image of another woman, older, being pulled at by men too strong for her, just like this, flashed through his mind.

Without a second thought, he lunged.

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The next day, the Survey Corps headquarters was rather quiet. Over half the soldiers nursed hangovers and pretty much died at anything louder then a whisper. The former 104th cadets, who had been upset at not getting to drink, suddenly felt glad. The faces of their superior officers gave away exactly how horrible they felt.

Petra chuckled at the sight of her cormades and their pathetic state, relieved that she hadn't gone out, sothe newbies wouldn't see her in this less-then-decent condition as well.

'Umm, excuse me?'

Almost half the room turned towards the door. A woman stood there, her long hair tied in a braid and holding a basket full of goodies in her hand.

'I'm here to visit someone. I was hoping someone could guide me to him. '

Armin, closest to the door, smiled pleasantly and approached her. The rest of the room returned to their business of trying to look alive despite feeling the opposite inside. No one else bothered hearing what was going on, although Petra couldn't help taking note of their visitor.

You were clearly a civilian and, Petra had to admit, quite the beauty. Wearing a white button up shirt with a light green vest on top and a long brown skirt. A rather plain look, but it suited you nonetheless.

Armin began leading you away, and Petra realised she hadn't learned who you were visiting. Oh well, it was almost time to give the captain his tea. The mystery could be solved later.

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Holding a tray with tea, some biscuits and two cups, she knocked on the door. She could hear muffled noises, it was probably Commander Erwin or Hange inside with him. She smiled to herself, glad that she had brought more then one cup.

Once given permission, she entered, and found herself rather startled by the sight infront of her.

For once, the captain wasn't seated at his desk. He sat on the couch, casually leaning back, one leg crossed over the other, an arm splayed on the top right of the sofa. On his left, sat the pretty woman who Armin had led away. The basket she had brought with her had been opened, and its contents, which included cookies and box's of tea, were strewn about on the table infront of them.

'Oi put the tea down already.'

Snapping out of her thoughts at the Captain's voice, Petra swallowed roughly, trying to keep her expression neutral and set the tray down. She began to reach for the kettle to pour it for him, all the while trying to not give into curiousity and the ugly feeling in her gut by looking at the woman occupying the other end of the couch. A part of her sorely wished she had only brought one cup instead of two.

'There's no need to pour it for me. You can leave now'

'B-but captain I always-'

'There's no time. We have patrol in the afternoon, go tell the others and prepare accordingly. If I find anyone slacking off because of last night, I'll kick the shit out of them'

There was no room to even think about disobeying that tone, so, with a clear 'Yes sir!', she stiffly saluted him and left the room. Each step felt strangely heavier then the last.

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When Petra had joined the Survey Corps, one of her favorite activities had easily been horse riding. It was relaxing for her, even on patrol. The light breeze that accompanied it made her feel fresh and it was good excercise too. She often got lost in her thoughts during this time. Although, not for the first time, her thoughts were centered around the man leading the patrol.

She didn't contemplate how strangely handsome he looked with his hair swishing back and forth like that. Nor did she think of ways to get him to accept her. Today, she could only mentally question him.

Who were you? How long had you known each other? Were you a friend? Or a fan? Wait no, Captain Levi didn't entertain fans, no matter how attractive. The two of you had clearly met before. Were you his lov-

Petra slammed the brakes on that thought before it could finish, calming herself. She was getting too out of hand and wild with her assumptions. You had likely been an aquantince of some sort. Nothing more.

And even if the two of you were friends, she told herself, it hardly mattered. He was, despite his very vocal protests, friends with Hange, another woman. So one more to the list was no matter of concern.

Determined to shut out the voice in her head that alluded to that you being something more then a friend, Petra nudged her horse fiercely. She simply wasn't use to him being even slightly friendly towards other women. That's all.

The strange burning in her chest never quite left.

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Later, she learned that you had come to thank him. Captain Levi had saved you from some thugs last night. Relieved, she told herself to not think about you anymore. Clearly, your visit had been a one time thing and Captain had just been polite. She doubted she would see you again. And so, she carried on with her life, dismissing all her thoughts about you.

Three months later, they had returned from a mission and stopped for a while in the civillian district that came before their headquarters. Everyone dispersed, with Eld dragging Gunther away to the flower shop to buy something for his fiance and Eren and his group heading to a food stall. After Olou made another attempt at hitting on her and bit his tongue, Petra promptly went looking for the Captain.

She figured he was probably at some tea stall, trying different tea's. Or maybe buying cleaning products. Humming, she strolled along the road, eyes scanning the crowd. He had turned her confession down, but she was still determined to let him know that she cared. Maybe spending some time with him would reassure him that she was serious? She was willing to wait for him as long as necessary.

When she finally found the person she had been looking for, her heart dropped in her stomach.

Captain Levi was sitting at a little cafe, drinking tea, just like she had thought he would be. However, he wasn't alone. You, dressed smartly in a knee length yellow dress, sat next to him. The two of you appeared to be peacefully chatting and sipping tea, clearly interacting with more familiarity then two strangers were supposed to possess towards each other. An indication that this wasn't a just a coincidental second meeting. Or third.

Petra hadn't cried since her first expedition, something she was proud of. She had faced deathly situations on a mothly basis since then and had refused to shed a single tear. But right now, as she turned on her heel and walked away with as much dignity as she could muster up, she really wanted nothing more then to sob into her pillow.

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The next time she saw you again was about nine months after the 'Cafe Incident'. The Survey Corps had returned from a deadly mission. They had accomplished their goal, but some had sustained some injuries, fortunately incurring no loss of life. The biggest one of the injuries was captain Levi. He had gotten wounded while protecting Mikasa. The girl had gone off on her own again and nearly gotten killed.

After the doctor had looked him over and bandaged his wounds, he had been put on a week of bed rest. He had tried to vehemently argue against it, but Commander Erwin had put his foot down and ordered him to do nothing for the entire week or be suspended.

All the members of squad Levi had taken turns bringing him food and changing his bandages. Even a guilty Mikasa had helped out, shamefully apologising to Captain Levi.

Of course, it was only when it was Petra's turn, that you chose to visit captain. Entering the room, with a tray of bread, soup and some water, she could only feel relieved that the Captain was asleep and that you were sitting far away from him on the couch while reading a book. Food containers were neatly set on the table, filled with stew and boiled vegetables.

When the door opened, you looked up and then smiled at her. The smile faded when Petra set the tray down and began talking.

'You shouldn't be here'

'Excuse me?'

Maybe it was because she was feeling petty, or jealous, or both really. But she couldn't stop herself from misusing the rules to make you go away.

'Civillians aren't allowed here on work days. And they certainly aren't allowed to bring food here. You need permission from the commander or the Captain'

It was a lie really, the entire week after a mission like this was usually considered unofficially off, hence there was no need to get permission. Several soldiers often recieved visits from concerned family members during this time. Petra knew that well. You, however, did not, and looked confused.

'I-Levi never mentioned that- He told me I'm listed as his emergency contact and that means I don't need permi-

'I checked the list. There's no name there'

Another big, fat lie. Your name had been discreetly added to his file a month ago. Petra had bitterly discovered it while delivering the file to Commander Erwin and had accidentally opened it beforehand.

'Are you sure? I signed the form, if you could please check agai-'

'I'm sorry but there's no name there. Please leave and take your things with you. You need specific permission and an actual relation to the soldier to visit'

Okay, she was officially a petty bitch. The part of her that felt ashamed at her own behaviour was easily overcome by the part of her that was sick and tired of being indirectly rejected by Captain Levi for this- this woman. She couldn't help feeling victorious as you made to gather your things.

'She doesn't need to go anywhere'

Petra's eyes widened, while you stopped your movements and immediately rushed to his side, asking him how he was feeling. He answered lowly, voice hoarse from sleep, assuring you that he was fine.

Like a thief caught stealing, Petra made to leave the room as silently as possible. As she shut the door, she briefly made eye contact with Captain Levi, whose usually emotionless eyes had morphed into a dark glare. He obviously hadn't missed out on what she had tried to do and if that last look had been anything to go by, she was in some major trouble.

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Levi calmly ate his stew, enjoying the fresh and rich flavour. You had made it for him, hence why he couldn't help savouring it even more. You had left a while ago, after he had made you leave. You ou couldn't stay overnight and he wasn't comfortable with you walking in the dark by yourself.

With a slight smile, he mulled over your existence. You had been a part of his life for a year now and he honestly hadn't expected things to turn out the way they had when he first you.

You, the crying, shivering girl he had walked home that night, had now become the most important person in his life.

And, Levi scowled, you had just been majorly disrespected by one of his subordinates. He had expected better from Petra. She had allowed her personal feelings to get in the way of being a professional comrade and had misquoted official guidelines.

He had initially been furious and had wanted to punish her immediately. However, you had insisted on finding out what the matter was and had stopped him from acting out in anger. It was solely because he had you calming him down that he hadn't taken any drastic steps.

You had been the voice of reason, pointing out to him about how young Petra was, and how to her, she had watched her first love pretty much fall into the arms of another woman. She was just a young girl who couldn't bottle up her feelings properly yet. Professionally punishing her now would only lead to more outlandish behaviour. Her feelings were something she would grow out of, or at least learn to control. Any official repercussions would lead to a bad mark on her record and would probably make the matter worse. His usual style of dealing with brats just wouldn't work this time.

With a heavy sigh, he leaned into the pillows, wondering where he had gone wrong. He had rejected Petra firmly when had found the chance, which had been a day after meeting you. He had tried to be gentle about it, not wanting to hurt his comrade and had thought she was mature enough to not take it too personally. Obviously, he had been wrong.

While Petra hadn't approached him with any more confessions, he had caught her looking at him with that weird, longing expression more times then he was comfortable admitting. Her feelings had begun to interfere with her behaviour, and that was intolerable. No matter what you said, he would have to do something about this sooner or later.

The solution came to him a week later.

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Petra stood in Commander Erwin's office, shoulders straight, arms in a firm salute. She could hardly believe her ears.

'I-I'm being promoted sir?'

'Eventually, yes. You and the rest of the senior members of Levi squad will support Section Commander Hange and train new squads formed from the 105th and 106th cadet corps. The end result will be four squads, each led by one of you, giving you the rank of Captain in about a year. The rest have already been informed.'

She stared in awe, not sure if this was real. She had walked in here, nervous, expecting an official warning for her behaviour with the woman whose-name-she-refused-to-even-say-in-her-mind. It had been four months since then, and captain Levi hadn't said a word to her about it, only assigning Sasha in her place to bring him tea in the morning. She had figured her punishment had been the unnaturally long wait for it and that the Commander would rip her a new one for making the Survey Corps soldiers look disgraceful in front of civillians. After all, the Military Police and the Garrisons were the ones lacking discipline, while the Survey Corps was reknown for being the prim and proper gorup.

With a determined smile, she profusely thanked the Commander, feeling genuinely grateful and excited at the prospect of leading the next batch of soldiers.

'The Special operation Squad has been officially disbanded. All four of you will head to the Northern Survey Corps headquarters with the cadets-'

Her eyes widened, heart plummeting.

'-and train them to respond to severe situations in that area. The military there was far too unprepared for Rod Reiss's Titan attack. It Marley attacked from there, we wouldn't be able to withstand it'

'Sir the northern branch..?'

She hadn't mean to interrupt him, but the words had left her mouth before she could stop them. Erwin raised an eyebrow at her, his expression cool and tone even, but still sharp enough to make her wince.

'Is there a problem officer Ral?'

'No sir!'

'Good. Prepare to head out in a week's time. After a year, they give soldiers the oppurtunity to settle their family in the civillian areas. So make sure to fill out the paperwork for it.'

With one last salute, Petra made to leave, only to stop dead at the Commanders voice. This time it was dry and toneless, but the threat was clear in it.

'One last thing, Officer Ral. Do try to behave respectfully and professionally around the family members of the higher ups there. Not everyone is as forgiving as Captain Levi. Some would end your career in minutes.'

Unable to look him in the eye, she bowed her head in agreement.

'Dismissed, Officer Ral. Have a safe trip and work hard. '

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After fleeing to the safety of female barracks and finally finding herself alone, she let go of her somber demeanour and let the tears of humiliation loose.

Her promotion wasn't about her doing a good job so far. In fact, it was a way of saying that she wasn't doing her current job well enough. She had known that some soldiers would be sent to the Northern areas to improve the military there, but had figured Captain Miche and his squad would take on that responsibility.

The only way she and the rest of her squad had been nominated for it would be if Captain Levi had suggested them. And for the life of her, she couldn't figure out why. Besides the incident with you, she had still been dutiful as ever. Everything done on time and as efficiently as possible. So why had Captain decided to punish her like this. Sending her away from all her cormades, uprooting her career so carelessly. Just why.

Wiping her eyes, she realized she would just have to ask him herself.

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'This isn't punishment Petra'

'But Captain, it feels like it is-'

'No, you dumb brat. If this was punishment, why would the rest of the squad be going with you? Why the hell are they so happy, frolicking around like little high-as-fuck shits huh? It's because it's a fucking honour. All of you are being assigned to build and lead the Northern military forces. A military that hardly exists, you shit heads are going to built it from scratch. And here you are whining in front of me, like a petulant little brat'

She gazed at him, wide eyed. Opening her mouth to talk, she immediately shut up as he glared fiercely at her.

'Stop holding yourself back because of your...'feelings' for me. You're more then this. You've done a damn good job on the field and this is your reward. Now get out of my office, go pack and then fucking celebrate your promotion with the rest of those hormonal brats. Understood? Good. '

With a wave of his hand, he dismissed her. He could only hope his words had gotten through to her and that she understood that he truly hadn't meant to punish her.

Shoulders slumped, she walked down the hallway to her room. Captain Levi's words had cleared her head, however, Petra thought to herself sadly, the sight of you nursing your swollen, clearly pregnant stomach, while Armin and Mikasa helped you up the stairs, had made a far stronger impact.

It really was a good thing she was leaving.

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A/N: I read too many fanfics about Levi breaking the readers heart for Petra 😤😤. So, I decided I would (realistically) break Petra's heart. Not for the reader. But, for reasons that make sense, rather then Levi rejecting Petra specifically for the reader. Also, Levi is in his mid thirties and reader is at least 27. I kinda wanna make a part that explores the hints of Levi and Readers relationship I gave in this, but I don't know if anyone would want to read that. My asks are open, so please ask away. I hope y'all enjoyed this!

#levi attack on titan #levi ackerman #levi aot #levi-x-reader #one sided crush #attack on titan #levi x reader #snk levi #levi reader

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paypay0315 · 4 years ago

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The Space Between (4)

She didn't sleep a wink last night. These nightmares are becoming too much for her and all she wants is for it to end.

But she has to keep pushing through or she want be able to defeat the Titans. "HARMONY!" She hears her name being called out, she wakes up.

Was she asleep? She really was that tired.

"WHY ARE YOU SLEEPING!?" Her commander screams in her face.

She immediately stands straight up giving her best form she could think of. "AM I BORING YOU CADET?!!"

"N-NO SIR!!" She stutters.

"IF YOU WANT TO SLEEP THEN YOU MIGHT AS WELL LEAVE THIS PLACE NOW!!!" he screams again this time up in her face.

"YES SIR! I UNDERSTAND BUT I WANT TO BE HERE SIR!!"

"WELL THEN ACT LIKE IT!" She can feel the spit starting to hit her face.

He walks away and to be honest she was honestly scared at how fast his mood can change.

......

Pushing this cart was alot harder then what she thought it would be. How does he expect them to push this cart with two cases of water in them? She huffs trying to control her breathing but its no use she feels like she could pass out at any moment.

Before she could take another breath the cart immediately starts to fall down from the hill. She strains her arms to try and pick the cart back up. "It's your fault" she heard a faint voice

No not this again.

"You're weak" she heard it again she looked behind her and saw Jean.

"What did you just say?" She questioned him.

"Huh?! I didn't say anything?" He points his eyebrow up.

She turns around with confusion written all over her face. Is she going crazy?

It gets harder for her to push up the cart since it just got knocked back down almost all the way to the bottom of the hill.

She's pretty much the only person who hasn't succeeded in getting the cart up to the top except for Eren of course but that's not a surprise there.

She struggles to even pick the cart back up and by the time she gets half way, time is up.

She failed...... again.

She can't keep going on like this.

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Training becomes a lot harder for her. She can't even seem to keep her eyes open long enough to do any of the training. Ever since she started having nightmares again she hasn't slept at all. How will she ever do anything if she is letting stupid dreams get to her?

She starts to become weaker everyday and Eren notices. From the very beginning Eren kept an eye on everyone, he only did that because he wanted to test everyone's abilities to see if he can get stronger than them.

At the very beginning Harmony was on the top of many, she went through each training session in a blink of an eye and now it seems as though she can't even keep up? What's wrong with her?

Not that he cares or anything. He watches her struggle trying to pick up the cart for the second time. Why can't she pick it up?

"Hey Eren!" Armin calls out to him and knocks him out of his trance. "Hey can you please help!" Armin struggles to breathe while picking up the cart.

"Oh yes sorry" He says and picks up the cart all the way to the top of hill. When he looks down he sees Harmony at the bottom once again.

.......

After training was done all the cadets just went to bed after the tiring day they have had.

"Hey Eren!" Armin calls out to him.

"Yes?"

"What's up with you? Today you were out of it" Armin asks him.

"Nothing, and I wasn't out of it, what are you talking about?"

"I'm just saying, everytime I saw you, you were looking away" Armin says.

He noticed that?

"You were staring at Harmony" Eren becomes shocked at how much he noticed. Was he that obvious?

Eren face starts to heat up. "Didn't me and Mikasa tell you not to let her get to you, besides she's not doing very good right now so what's the problem?" He asks.

Is that what he thinks this is?

"That's not..... I mean-" he doesn't even know what to say.

What was he doing with her? Does he hate her still? Did he truly even hate her to begin with? After all he is just a kid who wants to kill Titans and anyone who stands in his way will get pushed back down. That's what Harmony was to him..... at first.

Someone who was in his way, but clearly something has changed. What was it? Pretty much all of there interactions with each other have been them yelling at eachother or calling each other names. But what changed?

The one time he felt like he saw the real Harmony. That's what changed. That day in the Tavern when they were cleaning. That felt so long ago, but he can't stop thinking about it. He can't stop thinking about how pretty she looked under the stars or how nice she treated him. And he couldn't also get it out of his head that he knows her from somewhere but where? That day at the Tavern he actually got a real good look at her that time.

And he noticed how she actually has a small dot on the right side of her lip, he's surprised he can see it even from her smooth dark skin. But it was very cute. And how her hair looked soft, he swears he has seen her before but he doesn't know from where.

"What is it?" Armin interrupts his dazing.

"L-Look it's nothing, and it's really none of your business Armin" Eren spits.

"I know but...... don't you think you are being a little bit..... mean" Armin struggles to say.

"Huh?!"

"I mean- I don't see what's got you so worked up about her? We are all here for the same thing are we not?"

"Yeah, but she's rude and she punches every chance she gets, she's loud and she doesn't even acknowledge me as a human being!" Eren almost screams. What was he saying? Does he still hate her?

"Maybe because you don't acknowledge her as a human being either"

Eren doesn't say anything back to that. He was...... right. So then he doesn't hate her? Lord this is so confusing. It makes his head spin.

"Maybe being a little nicer to her will change who she is..... and maybe you guys can actually work together on things" Armin suggests.

Eren still doesn't say anything back. What can he say? Armin was right.

Armin always had a way with his words. And he always knew how to calm Eren down when the time was right. He doesn't want to or rather he is too stubborn to admit it but he wants to maybe possibly....... be friends with her.

Will she even accept him as such? He at least has to give it a try right?

......

She walks outside to get some more fresh water from the well when she sees Eren at the same well.

Great.

She can't let him stop her from getting water. Cmon Harmony just go up there.

She takes slow steps just in case he notices her too early and she will have to start a conversation with him. But it's too late because once he is done getting the water he turns around quickly and sees her there.

They stare at eachother once again and don't say anything to one another.

It's quiet. A bit too quiet.

It's so quiet you can hear the sweat coming from Erens forhead drop on the floor. And it's honestly getting really awkward at this point. Usually the two will be yelling at each other but neither one of them has said anything. Why is it weird all of a sudden? She thinks.

"Can I help you?" Eren breaks the silence.

"No, actually you can't!" she growled.

Is she angry with him?

She walks up to the well not breaking her eye contact with him until she drops her pot in the well.

Remember Eren, just treat her like a human being.

"So u-umm nice weather we are having right?" He says with a sly smile.

Eren what the fuck is wrong with you? He immediately regrets even saying anything but she doesn't even say anything back to him. Is she ignoring him?

"Y-yeah that's a pretty dumb question" he laughs it off but tension starts to fill the air. She still isn't saying anything back.

"Piss off will you!" she snapped.

Eren sometimes lets his anger get the best of him and all of a sudden he gets furious at the lack of respect he is receiving. He just doesn't understand why she's being such a bitch to him.

"Did I do something?" He asks.

She tries to ignore him but he just kept on bugging her with the same question.

"Can you please leave me alone!" She almost screams.

"Look i'm just asking a question, I don't know what i did to make you so angry"

What you are doing is talking so much. She thinks.

"I just wanna know what the hell I did? I told you I didn't want any distractions-"

"Excuse me?" she interrupts him.

"Oh, i'm sorry. Am i distracting you Eren?" She folds her arms around her chest.

He stutters. "Look, I just mean that I can't have an annoying little witch pestering me all the time when i'm trying to-"

"WHAT THE HELL DID YOU JUST CALL ME?!!" She immediately yells out.

"STOP DOGDING MY QUESTION!! I ASKED YOU WHY YOU HATE ME?!" He matches her volume.

"THIS! BECAUSE YOU JUST INSULATED ME!!" She screams.

"I ONLY INSULATED YOU BECAUSE YOU CALLED ME A LITTLE GRIMMLIN"

"ITS NOT MY FAULT YOU LOOK LIKE ONE-" She yells and picks up her fist once again about to punch him.

"HEY!" someone yells at the both of them and they stop.

It's their commander.

"What the hell are yall out here yelling for?!" People are trying to sleep!!" He yells.

They don't say anything.

"If I see you guys out here past bedtime again both of you will be KICKED OUT!" he yells at the end and walks back into his room.

They are both silent. This isn't how Eren pictured it at all.

Well that was a total fail. Armins plan sucked. She still was treating him like shit. Why should he have to be nice to her? Why couldn't she be nice to him?

He doesn't understand women at all.

How could she let that little man get to her like that? She's better than this.

She didn't fail to notice though how for the first time Eren was trying to actually talk to her, but why? She also didn't fail to notice how he has changed in some way, she doesn't know how but she feels it.

.....

Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you. Happy birthday to Harmony, Happy Birthday to you" The small crowd sang.

"Okay sweetie now blow out your candles" A young women said.

The little girl blew out her candles and laughed after wards because of her excitement about eating cake.

She loved cake.

Her mother cut the cake for her and she dug into it using her hands and mainly her mouth. Everyone around her laughed at how cute she was.

"Can you believe she is now seven years old?!" the woman almost cried.

"I know where did the time go?" An older man said.

Yes. Where did the time go?

"You're weak" the little girl turns around and looks at her family.

The little girls eyes go wide at the picture she is seeing. Her families eyes are not even in their face. It's like they have gone black.

"You're weak" the girls mother points at her.

"If only you hadn't been so weak, we wouldn't have died" the father comes up to her. He bends down and grabs her face and starts squeezing it.

"DADDY STOP IT!" The little girl cries out.

"You're weak" he says again.

Stop it. Stop it. Stop it!

She wakes up. Another nightmare.

When she wakes up she sees she's in the Tavern. When did she get here?

"You sure were sleeping good" Someone says in front of her she looks over and sees her annoying roommate.

"Are you sure you got enough sleep?" She asked.

"Yeah..... I was just shutting my eyes for a minute" Harmony tells her.

"We've been here for an hour and you have been alseep the whole time" Sasha says with a stuff face full of food.

"Maybe you should eat all that food first before you talk, it's disgusting" Harmony nagged.

Sasha doesn't even care she stuffs her face with more food. What is wrong with this girl? Doesn't she have a stomach?

"You should eat as well Harmony" Sasha suggests.

"Oh and a question, why is your skin so dark?"

Did she seriously just ask that? Harmony honestly doesn't even know the answer to the question herself.

"I-I" Harmony stutters out.

"You haven't been eating either" Sasha doesn't progress on the last question.

Thank god.

"Have you been watching me or something?"

"No and yes I mean you are my room mate, I notice things...... like how you use your trauma to hurt Erens feelings" She says with a smile on her face.

"Huh?!"

"Are you gonna eat that?" She points at the bread next to Harmony and she shakes her head no, Sasha has never grabbed anything so quickly in her life. She grabs Harmony's bread and stuffs it in her mouth. "Well we all have noticed Harmony" she says.

"And to be honest I think it's wrong, you see I understand you lost your family but that doesn't mean you have a right to bully people" She doesn't even stutter when she says this stuff. It seems like she has been wanting to tell her for a while.

But Harmony can't stand any of it. Who the hell does she think she is?

"What the hell do you know about me?" Harmony spits.

"I'm just saying, the past couple of weeks Ive noticed Eren has refrained from being mean to you so maybe you should stop being mean to him" She gulps down her water.

Harmony just sits there and watches her like she is watching an animal eat.

"I have no idea who the hell you think you are, but you don't know me. So I would refrain from trying to tell me about my life!" She almost yells.

"I'm just saying-"

"I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE SAYING BUT ITS NOT TRUE!!"

Sasha stops eating.

"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU KNOW ABOUT ME???!!"

"You're weak" she hears again.

Everyone in the Tavern starts to hear her.

"YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH!!"

"You're weak"

Her head starts pounding again. "IM NOT WEAK!"

She throws the food along with the table on the floor about to pounce on Sasha. "HARMONY" She hears a familiar voice call out to her and she looks over, she sees it's Eren.

She looks at him softly and she calms down. But that doesn't stop her from walking out the Tavern.

Sasha was right. That's why she got so angry because she knows she is right but once again she will not admit that.

.....

She finds herself outside again. Ever since the first night she did it she can't seem to stop. It calms her. Thinking about 'the big toe' star. She has no idea why that's the star that calms her down but it does.

The story touched her heart more than she liked to admit. It was cute in a way.

She just wants her mind to be clear for once. Since she can't seem to sleep she comes out here to clear her mind. It helps in more ways than one.

She's just so tired. She's tired of all of it. She's tired of the fighting she's tired of this world, this place. She doesn't even feel like being in training anymore.

She just wants to see her family again.

But the one person who's mind cant stop running is Erens. He's watching her again.

He just wanted to see if she was alright especially after the incident earlier, okay maybe he is some what fond of her but that's only because the past two years he has gotten to know her. But he just can't stop thinking about her and he has no idea why. It's honestly driving him crazy. One minute he wants to hit her in the face and the next he just wants to see if she is okay.

He hates feeling like this. So confused on everything. But it's also because he can't stop thinking about how he may know her from somewhere. But where?

He knows he has seen her from somewhere.

"Staring at people is rude you know?" He hears her say. Did she know he was here?

"Oh- ummm..... s-sorry I wasnt trying to"

"It's fine" she looks his way. Wait what?

She didn't yell at him? "You aren't going to call me a gremlin or yell at me?"

"No, i'm..... too tired" she looks down.

She seems sad. And she looks like she had been crying. He notices some stains on her cheek and how puffy her eyes are.

"Are you okay?"

"Are those the only words that come out of your mouth?" She asked clearly annoyed at the question.

"N-no, look I just wanted to see if you were okay, your outburst earlier......"

"Yeah?"

He takes a deep breath. "You seemed more aggressive then usual" he says all in one breath.

She looks over at him she honestly should feel offended but at this point she just feels numb.

She looked up at the stars once again, and doesn't even answer his question because she doesn't even know if she is okay.

"Why are stars so pretty?" She asked Eren. He looked over at her looking up at the stars.

This was the Harmony that he wanted to get to know, the Harmony that was soft and kind. Why was she always hiding this side? He thought. Its nice.

"Oh I don't know, you know i've always wondered how they got up there" He says. "It's something i wanna do though"

"Go see the stars? How would you even get up there?" She smiles.

He shrugs his shoulders. "I don't know, so where do you wanna go?"

"What?"

"Like what's the one thing you've always wanted to see or go to?"

"Ive always wanted to go to the ocean" she tells him.

"What?'

"Ive heard from my grandparents that the ocean is pretty, that the water is always cold and how blue it is" she smiles at the memory.

He looks her way. "I wanna go to the beach, I wanna watch the waves, I wanna go beyond the wall"

She sighs, "OH- I even heard that there are animals in the water too, isn't that so cool?!!!" She cheered. She was so excited she started to clap her hands at the memory of her grandparents that told her these stories.

She's so cute, "My friend, Armin.... he told me about it, his parents went past the wall before they died"

"Really?" Her eyes glow at that, Eren's cheeks start to turn into a faint pink. Shes really cute.

"Y-Yeah, he had a whole book explaining these things, his parents made it"

"You have to show me" she beamed.

"Oh... well we dont really have it anymore"he sighs.

"Why not" she pouts.

"The attack... on my hometown.... it got lost...."

Oh yeah.... he still doesnt know that she was there that day. The attack.

If that attack didnt happen she will be able to see the book of the sea. Hell if that didn't happen she would still have her grandparents here to tell her these stories. If only she hadn't been so weak. If only she had just been stronger. It was all her fault.

"Its your fault" it all comes crashing down on her hard. Her head starts banging once again.

"You're weak"

She doesnt know why this keeps happening to her. Is it the lack of sleep? The lack of food?

She puts her hands on her head to stop the trobbing that is happening but it doesn't work it feels like the pounding is actually getting the louder the more she does it.

"AHHH!" she yells out in pain. And she falls off the well and she hits her back on the floor.

Eren runs to her side and tries his best to lift her up, "Harmony are you okay?" he asks panic in his voice.

She keeps holding her head but its no use, "GET OFF OF ME!" she pushes Eren off of her.

"Hey what the hell!" he yells at her but he stops when he starts to see she stopped screaming. Was she in pain?

He just sees her curled up in a ball rocking back and forth saying, "it's your fault" "you're weak"

Her eyes are wide open and she looks like she is just about to lose it.

"Harmony-" he reaches to touch her shoulder.

"GET AWAY FROM ME!" she pushes her self up getting into a fighting position.

She sees them, the Titans, they are there.

She holds her head again trying to stop the images from coming.

"DAD NO!" She yells out. Eren doesn't know what to do. He just stares and watches her fight the air.

"Harmony-" he says again. She can't hear him all she can hear is buildings being crushed and screaming.

"No go away!" She yells. It's like she can't even hear him. What's going on with her? She keeps punching the air like someone is in front of her but there is no one there.

He runs up to her to try and grab her arms to make her stop.

"HARMONY!"

"NO!!! GO AWAY!"

"HARMONY!" he yells louder than he has ever before and all of a sudden she stops. She stops struggling to get out of his hold and she looks him in the eyes.

She seems so scared, so lost. It's like she's in there but she's trapped and she wants to be freed.

"Eren-" is the last thing she says before she passes out.

......

When she wakes up she gets confused on how she ended up here because she doesn't remember anything.

"Oh, so youre alive?" Sasha asks.

"What?"

"Well last night you looked like you were dead" she poked her cheek.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean you were all passed out like" she starts to imitate exactly what she did "And Eren even had to carry you back here"

"Eren carried me?"

"Yeah, he did. He carried you all the way here. Ah so sweet!"

Harmony doesn't refrain from showing her confused look. What the hell happened last night?

.......

Another day of training for her. She wouldn't lie and say she wasn't getting tired of the same old stunts being pulled.

"Today class we will be doing something different today...... we will be sparring" the bald man shouts. The whole class rumbles with excitement and so does she.

Finally some real action.

"I will give you a partner for the remainder of your training, here is the list"

He puts a paper out in front of the class.

Harmony runs towards it hoping she gets a good partner that helps her training.

When she looks at the list her eyes go wide because she got the one person she couldn't even look at.

Eren Yeager.

Why? Why of all people did it have to be him?

Why couldn't she get someone else?

She hasn't spoken or even looked at Eren since..... that night. She doesn't even remember what happened and she honestly doesn't even want to know.

"Sir I think there has been some mistake!" She tells him.

"There has been no mistakes maam" he tells her.

"No, you see I can't work with him" she points towards Eren who doesn't even realize she is talking about him.

"This was the list I made and it's final if you have a problem with it then you can leave and never return to the Military Training again" he spits.

"B-but Sir!"

"No buts, This is final! Now get to work!" He shouts.

This is just great. She hopes she will be able to handle herself while training with him. Knowing him she probably won't but she can't let him distract her from her goal.

They get in there standing positions ready to start. They stare at one another for a quick moment and Harmony takes off.

She reaches back her arm and punches him right in his face knocking him down to the ground.

Maybe that was a bit too personal but she doesn't care.

"Hey, what the hell man!" Eren yells out in pain.

"What? Are you hurt by one little punch?" She smirkes.

His eyebrows furry. "No, but I think you're forgetting we are just sparring" he informs her.

"Whatever, if you can't handle my punches what makes you think you will be able to handle a Titan" she was challenging him.

She has a point.

He picks up his hands again and gets in his fighting position. This time he is the one to take the first punch but he misses it because she dodged it.

"Too slow, pretty boy" she smirked again and another punch landed right on his nose.

He falls to the ground once again. This time he struggles to get back up but he eventually does.

"What the hell is your problem?" He asks.

"My problem is you!" She yells out.

"What did i do?"

She doesn't answer because she doesn't know what her problem is.

"Look just fight me" she says.

He swings and she blocks and punches him right in his stomach.

"You dont need to punch so hard!" he screams in pain. "What the hell is wrong with you?!""

"I told you"

Before she can swing again he catches her arm and holds one in the air, when she uses her other arm to try and hit him he also catches that one and puts it beside the other arm. Shes now locked in place and can't get out.

They are face to face and breathing heavy. "I asked you, what the hell is your problem?" This was a different type of Eren. He wasnt just mad, his whole aura had changed into this dominate man. He wasn't asking, he was demanding her to answer.

He looked down on her, and she saw his eyes up close for the first time.

She eventually used her strength to let go of his hold and push him away and on the ground.

"You think you can come in here and talk about what happened that day like you just won some prize for going through it" she spits.

That day? Does she mean the attack?

"What?!" Eren says while standing back up.

"A lot of people died that day...."

She swings at him but she misses "alot of people lost there families.... lost there loved ones" She swings again but she misses once again. Eren notices her swings are starting to become a lot weaker the more she talks.

"I lost......" she stops swinging

She starts to take deep quick breaths, she can no longer think. Its like every thing from that day comes crashing down on her, everything that she was holding back comes out. The tears that she had built up in her come down like a water fall.

Erens eyes go wide when he realizes shes crying.

"I LOST EVERYTHING THAT DAY!!!" she screams so loud everyone in training turns and looks at her.

"I LOST MY MOM *she swings and misses again* "I LOST MY DAD" she swings.

This time Eren grabs ahold of her arm again and holds it in place, she swings her other arm and Eren grabs that one as well she got caught in the same position she was before. She tries her best to get out of his hold but fails.

"THEY ARE GONE!!!! She says spit coming out her mouth. "and they arent coming back." she says soflty. She puts her down, more tears start to stream down her face she can barely even see because of how blurry her eyes have become.

Tears still streaming down her face she stops once again because now all she can see is the images pictured in her head from that day. The images that she tried so hard to get out of her head.

The image of her mother dying, how her father sacrificed himself to save her, her grandparents. Everyone was gone.

"AHHHH" she screams in pain because of the pounding in her head. Eren catches her from falling on the floor when her legs give out.

"They are all gone!" she yells out.

"MAKE IT STOP, MAKE IT STOP!" she cries out.

Eren looks like he might cry as well. He's never seen her suffer this much before.

She looks up at Eren but she doesn't realize Eren is there. "It's all my fault" she says before she slowly passes out...... again.

Everyone in the training just looks at her wondering what had happened. Everyone was quiet, not knowing what to say or do.

All they see is Eren picking her bridal style and taking her to her to rest up.

........

She was there that day? The day the Titans attacked. Why didnt he see it? Why didnt he know?

All the times he told the story of the attack must of have triggered her. He hates this. He hates how hurt she is because of this. If only he had seen, he would have helped her. The last thing he wants to do is hurt someone who has been through the same thing as him.

But then he remembered something it finally hit him where he had seen her from.

........

He remembered her parents, he remembered how she would always give him bread when he was hungry. Her parents owned a bakery and they would always give him milk to bring back home. They seemed so sweet and kind.

He has to apologize for everything.

......

When she wakes up she sees, she is in her room once again. What happened?

Oh yeah, she passed out again.

"Oh, you're okay. I was so worried about you." Sags runs over to her to give her some food and water.

"Sorry I ate some of the bread" Harmony looks down and sees most of it all gone. She quickly sets down her food on the bed.

"Thank you" Harmony says softly. Sasha clearly tells something is still bothering her.

"Im guessing things didnt go good with Eren?" she asked

"What?"

"Well everyone pretty much saw saw what was happening, did you even take my advice?"

"Your advice was shit" she spits.

Sasha just looks at her, she was clearly offended by what Harmony had just said and she couldnt help but feel heartbroken by the comment. Sasha was a nice person, yes she was dumb but she was always there for Harmony.

She doesnt know why but she felt a stinge of guilt in her heart when she saw the girl form a small pout and put down her head.

"Ummm... look, things with Eren are complicated...." she stuttered.

...

"Yeah it seemed pretty tense" she said back.

Now that harmony was sitting there she didnt realize what exactly had happened. She had completely forgot she had a mental breakdown in the middle of training out in the open. She can't help but feel a little embarrassed by it now and she honestly doesn't want to step foot out this room anymore. But all those feelings that she felt finally feel washed a way out of her.

But she finally realizes what Sasha has been saying this whole time. She didn't realize she was holding it all in like that. She thought she could just bury it down and forget about it eventually but she never did. She never wanted to.

All that anger that was bottled up inside of her finally feels free. And she can't help but feel terrible at the way she treated Eren. She never once even gave him the light of day all because of what she went through.

Should she apologize? She doesn't know, her head starts to spin at the confusing decisions she has to make. Since that day she has been alone, she never really talked to anyway. Her pride was too big and so was her ego.

She tries to wash it all away once again, she stands up about to walk out the door leaving Sasha there, but she stops at the door knob.

"Maybe you were right Sasha" she says aloud. Sasha looks up from eating the rest of the bread that was in the plate and Harmony turns towards her.

"You were right about everything." Tears start to well up in her eyes again and she tries her best to not let them loose. "Maybe I was a bit mean to Eren- I mean i dont know..... I just" tears start to come down again and before she can finish her next sentence Sasha runs off the bed and hugs her.

"Im sorry, i dont know what happened but I am truly sorry about what happened to your family I know if they were here today they would be so proud of you"

Harmony shivers in her touch, she hasn't felt this close to someone in years. She hasn't felt the warmth of someone in years. She feels like a child, she feels like this is her first time experiencing this at all.

Sasha deepens the hug and for a moment Harmony felt safe. She felt like she could be free from the anger that had built up in her all this time. She slowly puts her arms around her to complete the hug and they stay there a lot longer.

.......

"Now everyone get into your partners I assigned you with and start killing titans!"

Great. Another day with Eren.

She sighs. She hasn't spoken to him since the day she went all crazy. She honestly doesn't want to. She doesn't know what to say.

"Eren-" Mikasa calls out to him.

"Yes?"

"If she even thinks about hurting you i'll hurt her back, don't forget to tell me" Mikasa nose flares.

"Mikasa i'm okay she's not gonna hurt me" Eren tells her more aggressively.

Eren walks up to her more determined then usual. "Are you ready to kill Titans partner?" he has a big bright smile on his face. And of course something has changed. She didn't want this to happen. Why couldn't they just keep there regular banter going? Why did he even have to say anything to her?

"The team with the most cuts in the Titans neck wins, alright now everybody....... start!" Their commander yells.

And everyone jumps up in the air ready to take down anything that stands in their path including Harmony.

Flying through the air she notices the first Titan on her right but she sees Connie trying to get their first. She speeds up as much as she can but it's no use she isn't going to make it. He's too fast.

But she doesn't give up she keeps pushing through only until she sees Eren from the corner of her eye right beside Connie. Eren pushes himself off of a tree branch and it makes him go farther than Connie and he slices it. That's one point for their team.

She huffs put in anger at how slow she was to reach his neck.

Next one she will do better.

The next three times she got all of them.

They now have 4 points in total. They were in the lead but not for long though because Mikasa and Armin come around the corner with a total of 10 points.

Eren and Harmonys eyes go wide. "Did he just say 10?!" Eren gulps.

How is Mikasa beating her?

She swings from MOD gear onto one of the last Titans. She has to make this, if she doesn't her and Eren will lose. She will lose.

She pushes her self off of a tree branch and sees Mikasa flying towards it as well. She has to hurry this time. She realizes her and Mikasa are almost getting close to one another.

Mikasa is purposely doing it though. The more she scoots back the more she gets closer. Eventually Harmony has no where to back up to because she hits a tree and her MOD gear snaps back into her pouch.

She starts to fall from the air. Did she purposely try to kill her?

She might be a bit dramatic but the fall was very long and there was nothing on the ground to help her land softly. Before she could close her eyes she was stopped and her hand was being grabbed.

When she looked up she saw..... Eren.

He saved her. He had her hand tight and pulled her up with all the strength he could conquer up. When he pulled her up there faces almost touched eachother. Maybe he used to much strength.

And they looked at eachother and for the first time she actually saw his face up close and more personal.

And for the first time Eren wasn't calling her names but he was actually helping her. Is this what Sasha was talking about all this time? How he had been nicer towards her.

If he knew who Harmony was at the beginning he wouldn't have even called her those things. This is how he wants to repay all those times he did.

He hasn't even apologized to her because he doesn't know how to. But he does know that she didn't deserve what she went through, he will kill all the Titans just to make her suffering stop.

Harmony looked at him closely. Were his eyes really that green? They looked beautiful in a way.

What? No Harmony stop. She pulled her hand away from his and backed up away from him. She gulped and eventually pushed herself off the tree they were just on and she quickly goes back to the task at hand.

She didn't want to look back. But for some reason her heart was racing, and it wasn't because of her fall but something else.

What was it?

.....

218 cadets managed to make it to graduation. Including Harmony.

It was such a long road but she finally did it. She finally did what she came here to do and that was be apart of the survey Corps. She smiles brightly.

A lot of people were shocked at how big her smile was and Connie even laughed at it but she didn't care because she was happy. For the first time in forever she was happy.

It was a strange feeling to have because it's something she hadn't felt in so long. But she can now finally get her revenge.

.....

He didn't realize how fun doing this with his friends was. He is so glad that he had Armin and Mikasa and everyone esle by his side to fight the good fight.

"EREN CONGRATULATIONS ON MAKING TOP 5!" One of his fellow cadets yelled out to him.

"THANK YOU!" He yells back.

He can't believe he even got top 5. Well he can, he did train hard for it. But even though he is smiling and laughing it up with his friends he still feels weird...... he feels like something is missing.

Like there was something missing he looks around and he doesn't see the one person he wanted to tonight.

"Hey Sasha have you seen Harmony?" He asks her.

"Oh yeah, she stayed behind to just do some cleaning I guess" Sasha slurs her words because her mouth is filled with food.

Why didn't she come? He quickly grabs an extra plate of food and is about to run out the Tavern when he stopped by Mikasa.

"Eren, where are you going?" She asks him.

"No where! Mikasa let go!" He tries to swing his arm out of her hold but she brings it back down.

"You can't possibly be going to Harmony, especially after how she treated you" she tells him.

"Mikasa stop it! You are not gonna stop me from seeing her!" He now swings his arm so hard he almost gets knocked on the floor. But Mikasa doesn't stop him further because Armin holds her back.

As Eren is walking out the Tavern he tries a figure out a way to actually apologize to Harmony. It's been months since they have even spoken to each other the way they used to. Now was time for a change.

He knocks on her door slowly and she opens it.

"Eren? What are you doing here?" She asks.

"Oh umm..... Well I-I didn't see you at the celebration so umm I just wanted to see if you were okay" He stutters.

"Oh- yes umm I'm fine, I-I was just cleaning the room a bit more, living with Sasha, she king of leaves food everywhere" She laughs and so does he but the laughs start to die down and it starts to get really awkward.

"So- umm i brought you this before Sasha could eat the rest of it"

"It looks like she did already" Harmony takes the napkin off the plate that reveals a half eaten bread and all the corn being gone.

"I must have grabbed the wrong plate, let me go get-" He freak ti leave but Harmony stops him.

"No, No Eren really it's fine. It's not the first time Sasha has eaten my food before." They both laugh again and once again it starts to become really awakes cause of the long silences.

Eren runs the back of his head. "So I'm-" they both say at the same time.

They both give off a small smile. "You can go first" Eren speaks.

"Umm look, Eren i'm so sorry. For everything. The way i treated...... was horrible. I should have never treated you that way, I was just throwing my trauma into you and it wasn't right-"

"N-No Harmony I should be apologizing to you" Eren interrupts her.

"I'm the one in the wrong, if i had known you went through something like that as well I would have never said anything about that day. It clearly triggered you when i was talking about it, and for that Im sorry"

"Eren it's okay really, thank you though....... how about we just start over. We never got to have a decent relationship now did we?"

Eren shakes his head. "Yeah let's do that"

"Hi, My name is Harmony"

"Hello, Harmony my name is Eren" They both shake eachothers hands and laugh at the sarcasm in their tones.

She walks out the porch with the food in her hand and she sits down and looks at the stars.

"Are you gonna come look at the stars with me?" She asks Eren. He rushes over and sits right next to her.

They both end up sharing the half eaten bread and laugh all night. She didn't realize Eren was this funny. She always saw him as some hard working, determined kid but she never saw him as a clown type. Though he was a bit dumb at times.

She wishes she could have seen this Eren from the very beginning but she is glad that she is seeing it now. That night was honestly the best night of her life.

......

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eremiie · 4 years ago

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GWHAJWJWJQKQKQOW NOT ARMIN SAYING THAT EREN HAD BAD GAME THATS SO TRUE. like armin would purposely say something to try and break eren’s ego which would cause eren to somewhat SPIRAL. i don’t want to say that he would hate armin but i just think that he wouldn’t view armin the same along with what you said about their friendship wouldn’t be the same. eren would maybe view armin just as a ‘friend’ and not an genuine friend, like the tension there.

SPEAKING of tension ugh mikasa and annie. annie would be bothered obv because armin was upset with mikasa causing her to be upset with mikasa while mikasa would be upset that her and armin aren’t close but she would not give a shit about how annie thinks about her because she doesn’t feel like her friendship between her and armin is her business.

like she wouldn’t be harsh or rude in any sense but she would make it clear and be like “i understand that you are upset with me because of armin and i’s past fight but it isn’t something you need to get included in as his girlfriend. you’re good for him and i would prefer that you don’t get involved in our problems in order to maintain yours and his relationship” OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT IDK IM NOT THAT GOOD AT ANALYZING CHARACTERS. and yes it’s still me armin slander anon 💌

HE WOULD AND WHEN MIKASA SCOLDS HIM ABOUT IT HE ACTS LIKE HE DOESN’T KNOW WHAT SHE’S TALKING ABOUT AND PLAYS IT OFF AS HIM JUST TELLING EREN HE NEEDS TO STOP BEING A HOE.... mikasa reluctantly agrees and armin of course being the little menace goes about his day like he didn’t just shrink eren’s ego— eren literally get’s so mad and is like yk what fuck yall and whines about it to literally everyone he comes across and they’re like “i mean eren... he’s not wrong” and eren goes into that stage where he thinks he doesn’t have any real friends and is like “dont hmu💔” like.... sir get it together, umm... yeah, thats emo eren arc for you😀👍🏾

#armin asks!#armin slander anon

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liddolwhynot2000 · 5 years ago

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Decisions Of a Capricorn

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Summary: Levi Ackerman woke up one fine morning. In the past. Shit.

Genre: Angst, lets-change-shit, drama, liddol romance (Levixhappiness)

Warning: Manga spoilers

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Chapter 1: Admit it

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Summary: As a Capricorn, patience and determination are amongst your most well known qualities. Although no one is immune to occasional frustrations, you attempt to be understanding and calm in all your dealings.

Alternatively, Levi tries to make sense of what the hell is going on and tries not to chose violence.

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What. the. Fuck.

This couldn't be happening, it seriously couldn't. Was it a dream? No, he had punched his fist into a wall, pinched himself but still, it all felt too real. Maybe he was in some sort of fucked up heaven? Whatever the case, he felt ready to throw hands with whatever deity had done this to him.

With a shaky breath, Levi began to calm himself and sort through the situation. His fingers were back, he could see from his left eye again. There weren't any scars on his face nor any bandages on his chest. Levi was, by all means, back to his prime. Which would be great news really, except he was apparently five fucking years in the past. At least he thought it was five, considering the very much alive faces of his Special Ops Squad.

He had woken up, disorientated, expecting to either be bleeding out or in hell with Erwin. The sight of his impeccably clean office had made him pause. When he had heard a knock on the door and automatically told the person to come in, he had damn near short circuited at the sight of a very much alive Eld, strolling in with a cup of steaming tea.

What. The. Fuck.

Years of dealing with Hange and titans and the bullshit called life had hardened Levi to the point he could keep his expression neutral infront of the teen. He listened as Eld prattled on about duties and nodded along, not trusting himself to speak lest he shatter the world he had ended up in.

'.. Captain we'll be leaving for the castle today with Eren..'

Eren. Eren fucking Yeager. Oh God, he was going to kick this brats ass. Even if this likely was nothing more then an illusion, he would whoop Eren to hell and back for the shit he had put them through-

'Umm- captain?'

Snapping out of his vivid strangling Eren fantasies, he composed himself.

'We'll leave shortly. Prepare for the journey.

'Yes Sir!'

On second thought, Levi thought as he leaned back in his chair, whatever deity had thrown him here might deserve a little thanks. He owed Yeager a black eye. Scratch that, he owed both Yeagers a black eye. Well, in Zeke's case it was more of a blade through his throat. Maybe he could at least achieve that in his dream world.

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'.... So the mission plan is..'

Levi had spent the last 5 years missing his dear friend. He had truly cherished Erwin, and hadn't enjoyed his own part in the man's death. But, he had forgotten how tedious and boring meetings with him were. Just how did the man go on and on about this crap and not lose his mind? And how had he ever listened along and not bashed someone's, preferably his own, head on the wall?

Sipping his tea, he silently wondered how long this was going to last. The weird fantasy he was stuck was exceptionally accurate, not a thing out of place. It was almost as if it was all real. But he knew better then to delude himself, and so was only really playing along until he was back in his own time. Or world. Or whatever. The figuring out what-the-hell-is-going-on was more of Hange's thing. Speaking of which, Levi paused mid sip as someone kicked the door open, interrupting Erwin mid speech.

'....Ness and his squad are in the right-'

'ERWWWIINNNN'.

Levi perked up. Just a few hours ago, he had seen the exuberant woman burn to death. One of his closest friends was suddenly alive and well and absolutely fi-

'PLEASE LET ME EXPERIMENT ON EREN PLE-'.

And, just as obnoxiously loud as ever, he chuckled to himself. He watched as she enthusiastically shook Erwin, demanding Eren for herself. The usually composed blonde commander looked like he wished he was the commander of any other military branch as he fended her off. Moblit could only try and fail to pull her away.

This Hange looked just as youthful she had been before becoming commander. Her eyes bright, arms flailing around like a tornado, voice screeching higher then it should be legal. It was the Hange that had been missing for quite some time now-replaced by an overburdened, tired version of herself. It felt good to see her rampaging around and giving Moblit heart problems and probably reducing his lifespan. Just like the old times.

'Hey shitty four eyes.'

'Hi Le..vi..'

Hange trailed off, clearly stunned. Erwin raised an eyebrow at him while Levi nonchalantly set his tea cup down.

'What? You constipated?'

'No, it's just, you never say hi to me..'

'Yes I do.'

Hange went on as though she hadn't heard him.

'....While smiling like that.'

Oh. That explained alot. Levi hastily corrected his expression, he had gotten too caught up in his relief of seeing Hange alive and actually smiled at her. Said woman, however, was suddenly in his face, hand resting on his forehead.

'Do you have a fever? What if this is a side effect of titan shifters on short people-'

'Shut the fuck up four eyes.'

'And he's back to normal. So, Erwin, I need Eren to myself for-'

'Hange- you're talking too fast-'

'Section Commander please calm down-'

'....We have so many experiments to conduct. What if there are titans attracted to Eren? What if he gives off pheremones and they want to MATE with him?'

The entire room went silent. Moblit looked like his soul had left his body, Erwin and Levi stared at her in disbelief. The former looked ready to hand in his resignation to God for his existence and the latter looked irritated.

Thankfully, Erwin spoke up first, before Levi could attempt to throw Hange out the window.

'That's enough. We won't be putting him through experiments that we know have no basis-'

Levi watched as Erwin began lecturing a pouting Hange. He poured a cup of tea and nudged it towards Moblit, who tossed him a grateful look.

A part of him wanted to smile, happy to be back with the people he cared about. To have his comrades alive and well in front of him. It gave him a sense of peace that he hadn't had in a long time.

But, ever the pessimistic, he dashed his own hopes.

None of this was real.

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It was an effort, but through sheer will power, Levi managed to curb his violent urge to beat the shit out of Eren. Instead, he allowed them to make their journey to the castle, feeling hazy and distracted. His squad and Eren chattered as he rode ahead on his horse. He could vaguely make out Olou obnoxiously picking on Eren and biting his tongue. Just like the last time he had been there.

He couldn't bring himself too look at them for too long, the horrifying scenes of their deaths would start flashing in his mind. Too long his nightmares had consisted of the deaths of the people riding alongside him. He often darkly imagined that they had blamed him. For not getting there in time. For not telling them about the female titan. For being a useless, shitty captai-

Levi cut off that train of thought. Not now. Not when they were in front of him, so full of life.

Seeing his squad, alive and bickering like usual, it was too good of a sight to pass up. Olou childishly imitating him, Eld and Gunther poking fun at Petra and Olou, Eren floundering about as though he wasn't planning on mass murdering billions of people in five years. It made him miss them even more, knowing none of what was happening was actually happening.

He had spent years mourning his comrades. When Paradise had begun advancing in technology, when they had seen the ocean and explored what was on the other side of it, he had missed all of them. Achieving so much without them had always left him feeling a little empty.

How long was this journey going to last? How long would he spend in this fantasy world? Why was he even here? Maybe he was still alive and hallucinating about the people of his past. This was all in his head, the dying dreams of a useless old man taking his last breathes. As they reached the castle, he immediately gave orders for cleaning the filthy place.

He would mourn his own failures later.

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Later at night, Levi sat in his chair, feeling his frustration return to him full force. Dream world or not, it didn't change how useless he had become. Losing to that shitty monkey, getting so brutally injured, unable to contribute a damn thing to the battle. Armin had gotten kidnapped right in front of his eyes, Connie had nearly died and Mikasa of all people had to save him . He was the one those idiots called humanity's strongest yet he had been nothing but cannon fodder. A burden.

He hadn't been able to do shit for them. Zeke was still alive, a horde of shitty titans with limitless energy were blocking their way to Eren, they had no supplies and no way of leaving the battlefield without Armin. An absolutely pathetic situation--and it had been all his fault.

If only he had killed Zeke back in the forest. If he had chopped his head off and burned his body to ashes, none of this would have happened. Eren had needed Zeke to activate the rumbling, without him, none of this would have happened. So many lives had been lost because of that monkey, turned into mindless titans and slaughtered. Commander Pixis, Nile..

And he was the one who let it get that far.

Rather then ending the entire battle in a flash- he had made a mistake. A mistake that had cost them too much. His own abilities and the lives of his comrades. He would never be able to sleep in peace again.

With Zeke dead, they would have had time. Eren would need Historia for the rumbling and would have had to wait till she gave birth. They could have talked things through--or sealed Eren up or even given Eren's power to someone else. Anything would have been better then the senseless genocide Eren had launched.

A part of him also questioned if he was to blame for Eren lashing out like this. Coming up with such a plan, going against the military.. Why had Eren not trusted him? He hadn't been the nicest but, Levi felt a pang of hurt as thought about how much he had sacrificed for Eren. His comrades and their lives had been reduced to less then dirt particles, to keep Eren alive. Only for him to turn on them so easily. If Eren and Zeke had been really working together, did that mean he had known Zeke would try to kill him? Was there anything he could have done to change the outcome of all of this? Just where had he messed up with Eren and lost track of him? Despite all the questions plaguing him, he knew he couldn't undo the past. Dwelling on it like this was doing him no favours.

And now, here he was, despite his failiures, in tip top shape, completely okay. Yet he wasn't where he was needed. His brats were fighting for their lives and here he was fantasising about a better life as though he hadn't just damned all the others.

Scowling fiercely, he forced himself to calm down. Nothing would make how miserable he was feeling go away. He could only wait for himself to wake up and face his reality. Hopefully, he would be the only casualty in the mission. He wasn't sure he could look any of them in the eye again if he lived and one of them hadn't. Sasha's death had already been too much for him.

His headache wouldn't go away, so he went to make himself some tea. Only, he found himself stopping short at the sound of someone sniffling. Levi discreetly approached the source of the sound.

Remus Ferguson

The brat had been in the survey corps for about a year now. If Levi recalled right, he had lost his girlfriend in the last expedition, which explained the tears so late at night. Remus himself would die when the female titan attack-

Wait.

What. The. Fuck.

He hadn't seen this before. Everything so far, every interaction, it had occurred before. But this hadn't. He hadn't seen remus crying last time. He had known of Remus crying up a storm at night, courtesy of his squad members. But he hadn't witnessed it first hand.

Watching the teen sob, he began rationalising the events of today.

If he was in some self constructed fantasy world, why wasn't it all happy? Why were there still titans? Why was anyone in pain? Where were Isabel and Farlan? He knew he had never wanted to see any of his comrades in pain. Unless...this wasn't just a dying man's fantasy..

If he had to fantasise about a happier time in his life, wouldn't it be with his mother? He had always known that the one thing he had wanted most in the past twenty something years was to feel his mother's warmth again. To hear her sweet voice sing him a lullaby to sleep. So if he really was dying, why see this? Why be back at a time where everything was just okay? Why not a time where he was actually happy?

In fact, why not a world where he everyone he wanted to be alive was alive? Rather then a dream, it felt like he had been plucked from one time period and left to live his life from another one...

His mind raced as he finally reached a conclusion, and without a second thought he fled back to his room, too shocked to acknowledge his new discovery.

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A knife had been Levi's companion in life far longer then any other human being. His mother, Kenny, Isabel, Farlan, Erwin, Hange and all his other comrades had come and gone. But knives had been consistent. Constant.

Even after he had escaped the clutches of the underground and its lawlessness, he had always carried one with him. It made him feel safe, knowing he had weapon-- even if it was virtually useless while fighting titans. Of course, Erwin hadn't known about it. It was the one thing he wasn't willing to be talked out of, even by Erwin.

Although, Levi mused to himself, Erwin would have been justified in taking it away if he could see him right now, pointing said weapon at his arm, ready to slice.

If he actually bled, if he was still sitting here, bleeding but alive and well, he would admit his findings to himself and move forward, just as he always had. He would accept the situation, no matter how crazy it seemed, and plan accordingly.

Resolving himself, he slid the knife.

Ten minutes later, Levi finally admitted it.

He had travelled back in time.

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A/N: So this idea got stuck in my head, because I rewatched AOT and realized a bunch of stuff that could be changed. I picked Levi because he's my favorite. There's going to be more parts for this--where Levi just changes everything. And it'll basically end up a happier AOT. And yes, I plan on giving Levi some romance in this too, because this boi deserves it 😤. It won't be complete happiness and fluff, because I plan on it being realistic. I also don't know if anyone would actually like this but the urge to write it was too great. So, till next time!⭐

#AOT #snk #Attack on titan #Levi ackerman #Time travel #manga spoilers #They all deserve better #Isayama won't let them be happy :(#Action #Liddol romance #Let's change it all pls

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