#and aph austria i headcanon has the same illnesses as i do so he Gets It and advocates for me when i cant for myself | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

gandalf-theslay · 6 years ago

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If you haven’t had to come up with intricate stories for yourself while putting yourself into a fictional story in order to feel loved by a family wholly and completely then idk how I’m gonna relate to you

#normally its aph wngland and aph france being my fathers who are loving and supportive of me being gay n disabled #or aph austria and aph hungary being my parents and they love me and treat me like a humn being snd they listen to me and respect me #and aph austria i headcanon has the same illnesses as i do so he Gets It and advocates for me when i cant for myself #or its me with Generic Average Family and aph belarus is my gf and we just cuddle a bunch #but recently its like #kodlak whitemane found me in whiterun and took pity on me bc i was smol and disabled and decided to raise me as his own #and hes just super kind and tells me i have the fighting spirit of the companions but i fight a different battle than the rest #and idk just the thought of having loving oarents that support you and wanted you to be in their life #idk its comforting even if its a fantasy #until i remind myself that its merely a coping strategy that i use to help fill holes and gaps on my life that have been left there #by the people who were supposedbto make sure those holes never formed in the first place #then i get really depressed and more empty than before and i just cry the kind of cry thag makes your chest and pinkies hurt snd your nose #and upper lips go numb #personal

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