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o-wyrmlight · 3 years

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1, 5, 11 and 25 for the writer asks !!

Oh wow, that's a lot. Thank you so much!!!

1) Is there a story you're holding off on writing for some reason?

I actually have multiple stories that I'm holding off on writing. For the most part, all of them are original stories, and original stories are a lot harder to plot out than fanworks because fanworks give you a base to go off of.

Examples of stories I'm holding off on are: Wheelchair Horror (placeholder name), the Waypoint Foundation (may change that name at some point, since it conflicts with a pre-existing company/cause that already exists), and Defining Utopia, among a few others that I can't recall at the moment.

I also have multiple fandom stories that I haven't gotten around to writing, whether it be due to loss of interest, lack of time, or knowing that I wouldn't be able to finish it. It's an issue that I really do want to work on.

5) Character you were most surprised to end up writing

It's hard to speak for the past, to be honest. I wrote a lot of Meta Knight way back in the day when I was in the Kirby fandom, but I'm not sure if I was surprised. More recently, I can say that I was surprised to find that I liked writing the Pale King bastard (affectionately derogatory) when my hyperfixation was still on Hollow Knight.

Most recently, I'm surprised that I've been writing Dark Cacao as much as I have been. Maybe I shouldn't be surprised, since he follows the same patterns for characters I like writing, but I sort of initially assumed I'd default to Pure Vanilla Cookie instead.

11) What aspect of your writing do you think has most improved since you've started writing?

Everything /j. In all seriousness, I feel like my ability to be more concise has definitely improved. In the past, I would ramble on for paragraphs and paragraphs, but over time, I've learned to keep it more contained when need be.

I've also improved a lot in my dialogue, I'd like to think--dialogue has always been an issue for my. I'm more interested in purple prose than I am in people talking to each other, but progress has been made over the last... probably 10 years or so.

25) Copy/Paste a few sentences or a short paragraph that you're particularly proud of.

I know this is technically multiple paragraphs, but highkey I seriously love this scene from Hurts Like War. It just. Exposes what wry, snarky brand of humor my interpretation of Dark Cacao has (Mind the tags if you're interested in reading the full story, please):

"I'm sorry for coming here so late at night," [Pure Vanilla] murmurs, voice soft like a lullaby. "I hope I'm not interrupting anything." Dark Cacao chews the food already in his mouth and swallows, staring down at him dispassionately. Perhaps he should be angrier that this cookie saw him in such a vulnerable state, but he's far too tired at this point. Besides, he is the one who helped him. He would remember that scent anywhere. For a moment, Dark Cacao looks over his shoulder back into his room, as if looking for whatever that ‘interruption’ may be. It doesn't exist, of course. Nothing other than food, sleep, and to finish reading a book against his nightstand. He turns back to Pure Vanilla and silently waits, door largely closed and blocking the view into most of his room.

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lathal-a · 5 years

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TAGGED BY : @inmournfulnumbers TAGGING : Anyone who wants to do it

— BASICS.

▸ IS YOUR MUSE TALL / SHORT / AVERAGE ? Iveani is 5′3″, so she’s on the short side, but not so short that it’s unusual, especially for an elf.

▸ ARE THEY OKAY WITH THEIR HEIGHT ? Yeah, she’s fine with it, but she doesn’t like it either. She genuinely doesn’t care one way or the other about it.

▸ WHAT’S THEIR HAIR LIKE ? Her hair is a bright copper color that she loves. It’s pretty inside, but it really shines in the sunlight, where you can see the very subtle blonde highlights. Her hair has a tiny bit of a wave to it. In Inquisition, it’s medium-long, going about halfway down her chest. At this length, she finds having her hair down to be really distracting. If she’s in a situation where she doesn’t care much how she looks, she’ll pull it into a messy ponytail, braid, or bun. If she does care how she looks, she’ll french braid the front parts so that the braids go back, to the back of her head, to get them out of her face, and she’ll leave the rest loose. Sometime between Inquisition and Trespasser, though, she decides taking care of her hair is more trouble than it’s worth and she chops it to chin length. She takes good care of it, so it’s very soft and silky.

▸ DO THEY SPEND A LOT OF TIME ON THEIR HAIR / GROOMING ? Depends on the situation. If she’s out on the field, no. She’ll use nice products with what time she does spend with it, but she doesn’t want to slow anyone down. (Plus, it’s really hard to do your hair while camping.) At Skyhold, she spends more time with it, making sure to keep it in good condition.

As far as general grooming goes, she does really love nice bath products. They’re one of the few luxuries she really allows herself to indulge in. This does extend to lotions and hair products, despite not strictly being bath products, so her skin is usually super soft. Her favorite product is a Honeysuckle and Jasmine scented bath oil, and she uses it a lot. Other scents she likes are gardenia, vanilla, honey, and strawberries, though not necessarily together.

▸ DOES YOUR MUSE CARE ABOUT THEIR APPEARANCE / WHAT OTHERS THINK ?

Yes, but she cares about practicality more. So she enjoys chances where she gets to wear pretty clothes, jewelry, and makeup, but she doesn’t usually get a chance to because they usually just get in the way. The other luxury that she allows herself to indulge in is pretty lingerie (both underwear and pajamas). This allows her to have time where she feels pretty and feminine but doesn’t get in the way of anything, even if no one else gets to see her during that time.

That being said, she does know she’s attractive. Not in a very vain or stuck up way, but she knows. She uses it to her advantage at times, although she’s sometimes hesitant. She’ll do it more in her companion verse, since as Inquisitor, her title gives her more advantages than her beauty, so she doesn’t feel the need to. At the same time, she can also be a little more nervous about it in her companion verse because she worries about the risk of sexual assault more.

As far as what other people think goes, yes, she does care. She cares a lot. Probably too much. She won’t necessarily notice when someone dislikes her if they don’t say so outright, but it really bothers her when she does know.

— PREFERENCES.

▸ INDOORS OR OUTDOORS ? Outdoors ▸ RAIN OR SUNSHINE ? Sunshine ▸ FOREST OR BEACH ? Forest ▸ PRECIOUS METALS OR GEMS ? Gems ▸ FLOWERS OR PERFUMES ? Flowers ▸ PERSONALITY OR APPEARANCE ? Personality ▸ BEING ALONE OR BEING IN A CROWD ? In a crowd ▸ ORDER OR ANARCHY ? Order ▸ PAINFUL TRUTHS OR WHITE LIES ? Painful truths ▸ SCIENCE OR MAGIC ? Magic ▸ PEACE OR CONFLICT ? Peace ▸ NIGHT OR DAY ? Day ▸ DUSK OR DAWN ? Dawn ▸ WARMTH OR COLD ? Warmth. ▸ MANY ACQUAINTANCES OR A FEW CLOSE FRIENDS ? Close friends ▸ READING OR PLAYING A GAME ? Reading

— QUESTIONNAIRE.

▸ WHAT ARE SOME OF YOUR MUSE’S BAD HABITS ? Babe fidgets all. the. time. She also gets easily distracted. And she’s TERRIBLE at taking care of herself. She forgets to eat unless there are people around a lot, in which case she’ll just eat whenever they do. She has a lot of trouble sleeping. It can take her hours to fall asleep. Once she falls asleep, she tends to wake up a lot in the middle of the night. When she does fall asleep and stay asleep, she gets nightmares. It sucks all around. Even if she didn’t have the sleeping troubles, her natural schedule seems to be sleeping once from around 11 am - 3 pm and then again from about 11 pm - 3 am. This is fine in a dalish camp (I hc that elves aren’t diurnal), but since she has to work with humans, she needs to force herself to have a more normal sleeping schedule, adding to her problems. So if she was left entirely up to her own devices she’d probably end up eating like once a day and sleeping about 3 hours a night, which isn’t ideal.

▸ HAS YOUR MUSE LOST ANYONE CLOSE TO THEM ? HOW HAS IT AFFECTED THEM ?

Not until she loses her clan. It hits her hard. She doesn’t like showing that she’s upset, because she has this idea in her head that since she’s a symbol of hope to so many, she can’t ever let that mask slip, but it’s bad. After all, for all intents and purposes, they were her family. They were there for her when no one else was, and are still some of the only people who she feels 100% comfortable with. She stayed holed up in her room for days, not eating or sleeping. She self harmed in ways she knew wouldn’t leave any marks (so people wouldn’t worry), because she felt like she needed to be punished somehow. It just Wasn’t Good all around and it takes her a long time to even begin to heal.

▸ WHAT ARE SOME FOND MEMORIES YOUR MUSE HAS ? Times with her clan. Having so much available to learn was thrilling to her, especially since it was the first time she really felt connected with her people. Getting the opportunity to be a kid for a little while. Learning that there was joy in life, and things that made life really worth living for. She holds time spent with her best friend, Faron, especially close. They used to do everything together. Starting her first relationship. She has many fond memories, even though they start later than most. She gets to be very good at finding joy in everyday situations.

▸ IS IT EASY FOR YOUR MUSE TO KILL ? It depends on the situation. If they attack first, or they’re actively, willingly hurting other people, then yes. It’s very easy to defend herself or the people around her in that situation. If they’re in a position where they seem more helpless, though, it’s different. Even if she knows they deserve death, it’s very difficult for her to actually kill them. What could be even worse on her, though, is situations where it’s less clear. Maybe someone was manipulated into attacking, for instance, or misled to believe that their actions are right. The uncertainty of those situations drives her crazy. They’re what make killing weigh so heavily on her. By the time Inquisition ends, she feels like she can never really be pure again because of how many she’s had to kill.

▸ WHAT’S IT LIKE WHEN YOUR MUSE BREAKS DOWN ? Depends on the reason for it? If it’s a general, stress is building up and there’s no way around it, she tends to get a lot more emotional than usual. She continues to try to bottle it up, but she ends up exploding eventually. This usually results in a lot of crying, although she’s started yelling over it before (and then felt bad afterwards, because she REALLY doesn’t like people yelling).

I’m not sure if PTSD stuff counts as a breakdown. She’s not great at telling when something is coming on. Dissociation where she feels like her body is a machine and she’s just controlling it is pretty common, and doesn’t alarm her. Dissociation where she feels like she’s floating above her body and just watching what’s going on would be more of a cause for alarm, but the only thing I can think of that would trigger that is sex when she isn’t properly communicating her needs (assuming her partner cares). It’s flashbacks that are really the problem. She tends to shut down while they’re happening and it takes her a minute to be able to get herself together enough to get out of that situation. She has methods of grounding herself that work when she remembers them, though, but when they happen, she often forgets those methods.

▸ IS YOUR MUSE CAPABLE OF TRUSTING SOMEONE WITH THEIR LIFE ? Yes. She figures that no one can really survive alone, so being able to trust people is essential. She also tries her best to believe the best out of everyone, which leads to her being pretty trusting.

▸ WHAT’S YOUR MUSE LIKE WHEN THEY’RE IN LOVE ? She’s very affectionate. She likes cuddling and kissing and all of that fluffy stuff. She really, really tries to make enough time for them. It’s very easy for her in the beginning because she tends to hyperfixate on new relationships, but gets harder over time, because of her schedule and the fact that hyperfixations shift. She also generally is more attentive to their needs and tries her best to support them as much as she possibly can.

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