#and also isnt it superficial of me to have a crush on her? all i know is that shes beautiful she speaks spanish so well and that shes quiet

[elainsgirl]

does azriel care for elain? because azriel didnt think elain being capable of being subjected to darkness. he didnt care when when elain was put into the cauldron because he was looking at mor. he didnt care when elain was withering away and was glad that he didnt have to guard her. he didnt care about when elsin was vomiting in terror. yes, he took the potatoes from her but still at the dinner, he was staring longingly at mor at the table. he didnt offer his condolences when her dad died. he would sacrifice himself for feyre and nesta too. theyre friends. he only started wanting her when nesta and cassian hooked up, because he was still longing for more in acofas. theres no way they can be endgame because there isnt emotional support and believing in eachother.

Hey anon, how are you doing? Thanks for the ask.

Azriel’s concern of Elain scrying mirrored Cassian’s concern. Scrying isn’t a minor thing- it’s dangerous & the effects unknown. We know the cauldron was able to lure Elain in easily, who knows the affects scrying can have. I think it was valid. I would only have seen it as toxic if he outright said no to elain about helping out.

Generally speaking…Az showing concern - since he didn’t actually stop elain from scrying or helping out - which side note: If he had chimed in & agreed w Nesta - this would have been the perfect way to break up & end elriel in the book & bonus, anyways

Azriel showing concern = caring about Elains safety. Just like Cass did w Nesta.

Wasn’t Azriel - like everyone else, incapable of doing anything? Don’t forget he was also shot & poisoned but regardless, I know im one of the few elriels who don’t believe elriel were set up to be endgame in acomaf. I was reading acomaf going “yep, elucien and moriel are clearly endgame” so Az looking at Mor during the Hybern scene made sense for me…she was his Li at that time. Elain and Az weren’t set up to be romantic, im not that bothered about what Az did or didnt do during acomaf. I don’t remember Cassian offering his verbal condolences to Nesta when their father died during acowar? Correct me if im wrong. ACOFAS was the book where its clear Elain & Azriel are beginning to develop feelings/a crush is blooming between them. If we got to ACOFAS, where elain and az were making heart eyes at each other - I would be concerned. For me that would show, they’re rebounds and have superficial feelings.

Anon, Azriel loved Mor for 500 years. That love and longing (which I think it’s his way of wanting to feel worthy by her after she slept w his brother) isn’t just going to disappear in thin air. It’s going to take time to move on - which is healthy. Even for Elain, her still reeling back from Grayson in ACOFAS & mourning her life lost in ACOFAS, is healthy. If she wasn’t feeling these things and just went straight too wanting Az - I would then say her feelings for Azriel are surface level & a distraction

But we see Az still wanting Mor. Elain still mourning Gray in acofas and that’s not bad for elriel. No one is claiming Az fell completely in love with Elain during acofas but its clear there were some feelings, a beginning to their relationship. I completely side-tracked, anyways, all these characters would sacrifice themselves tbh.

But Az chose to go save Elain, he wasn’t waiting for anyone else to come, “Im getting her back” Azriel is a skilled warrior, he would have been so useful in the war yet he chose to be irrational and save Elain instead. He clung Elain to his chest, despite dripping blood. And clearly he wouldn’t sacrifice himself for anyone as when the valkryies are taken- Az shows minimal concern and carries on with his job. He doesn’t show the same level of care as Cassian. Its like “chill bro, we trained them. Theyll be fine, lets go” So..I disagree. He wouldn’t save just about anyone.

. Azriel gave Elain TT, he could’ve said “dont worry feyre, Ill protect elain” but instead chose to give elain HIS weapon so she had the means to protect herself - that is the definition of believing in someone.

Azriel took Elain to the gardens. No one asked him too. Azriel listened to elain, her visions and understood what she became. Azriel was the one who stayed up talking to elain about HER hobbies. Azriel, knowing Elain was uncomfortable bcs of Amren, made a joke to take the attention of her. All of these show he does in fact care about Elain. As for emotional support - elriel - quite like Nessian in their book - aren’t fully fleshed out yet, that is the point of the romance book - to develop them further and im sure within the elriel book, we will get lots of moments where Azriel emotionally supports Elain.

Disagree. Azriel wanted Elain pre-acosf, they had moments before Nessian became an offical, public couple.

Elriel very much are endgame. Their foundation is so strong, going back 3-4 books of Mass showing us how well they suit each other, how alike they are, going out of their way for each other, the way they help each other out, can read the other so easily and can’t forget the attraction they feel. No other current potential couple has the same level of effort/groundwork. If elucien is next - they are lacking a lot of foreshadowing & significant moments.If gwynriel are next - again, sorely lacking in foreshadowing, romantic scenes + being paired together in the books.

[imaginespazzi]

BESTIE! It is good to have you back around. Anything new or just crushed w school work?

First of all, happy W Playoffs Semifinals Day 1 ! And lets go Liberty! (though in all honesty I like all the teams left overall). Cant wait to watch and Im just hoping for no sweeps after the 1st rd provided no 3rd game. Which, if youll allow a soapbox moment, all the series should be at least 5 games and automatically have games at both places! Hill I will die on

Argh. Yeah my final Mystics thought/sentiment basically boils down to ~well better than nothing~ Really curious to see the rules/system the leagues organizes re expansion along w the next draft! Ok slightly surprised by Curt getting the axe but was really floored by Spoon. I guess those organizations seem known for some odd, not necessarily beneficial decision making though.

Its so odd to see her in action in Kentucky gear! Superficial, and maybe Im still just adjusting, but I feel like the VT colors suit her appearance more than the royal blue. I do feel like the weirdness and finality of the change is probs kinda hitting Kitley as official practices for next wcbb season begin, so funny that you mentioned. In fact I saw somewhere on here that she was listening to what was formerly her "Georgia" playlist recently. Though w this girl and her emo ways w music, I dont really know how much meaning to quite attribute to that. And at least just going off my personal observation within the general world of college athletics, this is def the time of year where the recognition of change/a fresh start really sets in for players. And Im sure its true in a sense for Liz, as she realizes that its the fall but for the first time she isnt going back to school. Would think that the playoffs and knee rehab are a providing a decent distraction though!

GH Ch 10 🤌. Possessive Stephie was a great laugh and the beginning of Pookie dramatics + contract discussion have me eager for the next read! (Uncle Drew 🥹)

BESTIE HI so I'm like years too late to answering this but hey at least I'm here!

Lmao choosing tonight to answer this is actually really funny cause in hindsight you did get half of your wish! The Liberty made is so fun to root for them in the semis and have now decided they are going to make is so difficult to root for them in the finals. I was a little conflicted to begin with an after this first final...yeah maybe I need to cool off lmao.

Also a great day to answer this cause we do know the rules now and well....was that late run that established absolutely nothing worth only having ~10% of a chance of getting Paige Bueckers, Mike??? T-Spoon getting the Axe was an insane choice and I have no idea what the Sky is thinking with that. Curt was also such a random choice but mayhaps LA will get Stephanie White now (I say because I can't stand the idea of her going to the Fever)

It's definitely strange not seeing her in the VT uniform and the blue is pretty but just doesn't feel like her yet. And while not the biggest thing, I'm sure it's one of those tiny changes that adds to Liz probably feeling a little bittersweet about this whole time.

Ah yes...the next read that I totally have made so much progress on mmhm

[dumbbitchfrommars]

i really wonder what the context was of my last post. cause if it was about the girl who had a crush on me thats unfortunate. but if its someone else im gagged. im such a baddie. idk. idk. i think recently ive been in such a defensive state. like im waiting for something bad to happen at the hands of another person, and im expecting the absolute worst from them. i want to see the best but i also dont want to get hurt. i dont know where this stemmed from. i guess my people pleasing has gotten out of hand, because it hasnt been succeeding. 

my job is kind lowering my vibration beyond repair. i weirdly enjoy it though? i dont know. i must be too in my masculine. and of course, completely disconnected from my spirit and higher self. i cant bring myself to talk to my sister cause i know we will only trigger eachother. 

so here i am. sitting in the silence. tired of it all. 

i cant even bring myself to physically write in my journal. and working out isnt as meditative as it used to be. though im so glad i can still get my ass up and do it. its not as fun and exciting. i kinda feel guilty for sexualising myself and loving my own body. literally, yesterday i was trying to force myself to be comfortable with my skin out, that i ruined my opportunity for a relaxing walk. the entire time i was self conscious and felt like the entire world was watching me. completely uncomfortable. 

my anxiety is in a rough period at the moment. i dont even smoke weed anymore. that used to be such a spiritual practice for me and now im afraid of it. im kinda afraid of everything. especially people. 

its weird, because i seem like i love people. i tell myself im good because i am so social at work, and i perform well and i connect with customers. but in reality, i cant hold onto any kind of relationship. if i do it has to be superficial or im uncomfortable. 

i think if i shifted my focus to the good things about the relationships i do have, and the things that make me happy and comfortable and at peace, these issues im creating wont seem so huge anymore. its always like that. i should talk to my psych about all of this. i need to see her... i cant believe its been so long. like, my fucking dogs died. they both fucking died. 

they contributed to my focus on isolation at the moment. i suddenly had the ground pulled from beneath me. they were my stability and my safety. now i feel so alone, at my core, that its all i can think about. its made me realise how short life is and how quickly things can change and slowly everyone is slipping away... when i pushed them out. i forced them to leave. theyre barely even leaving when we were nothing to begin with. 

i get the feeling ive said all of this a million times before. it never really changes. 

i feel like im a really driven and motivated person. i am smart and self controlled, and responsible, and im good at the things i try my best at. im gifted. but at the same time, i cant change the things about me that cause me the most stress and worry. i am stuck. i have been stuck, for so, so long. im tired of it. im so TIRED. 

this loneliness is comforting. its healing in a way, cause i can avoid all the drama and stress of attempting to tell anyone how i am feeling. but that in itself is so fucking pathetic and toxic and weak. its like, i failed at the most fundamental human thing. communicating. connecting with others. creating a community. 

maybe one day someone will piss e off enough that i blow up on everyone. why does the idea of that bring me so much relief? 

i cant even bother myself to consider spiritual practice right now. oh im stuck in the past and its holding me back from opportunities and the blessings from the universe? bitch, im trying to fight depression! who gives a fuck about opportunities right now?! i have nothing to fucking live for besides europe. thats so pathetic. i need to get my head right again because this is such a huge mess. im under so much pressure. i have no time. time, time, time, time. 

i need to be more social, i need to be more this and that. its a fucking exhausting thing to be in my mind right now. where did all the love go? it literally died with them. grief is consuming me. i cant pause life but its consuming me and im trying to pretend to be happy but im also trying to find the happiness again but its gone. they took it with them into the afterlife. or just into the fucking ground. 

it poured so heavily today and my heart hurt with the anxiety i felt that you were cold and alone out there. that you were getting wet and without cover. why does it keep on raining? youll be so cold. i remember you laid in the rain the night before you died because you could barely move or notice it was happening. my poor babies. i miss you so much. 

this is why ive been avoiding planning my birthday like a fucking plague, like a fucking disease. how can i even think about celebrating my life when yours have ended? to even celebrate without you? its too painful. i cant pretend like this anymore. but of course ill keep on acting like im fine. its the only way. i fucking hate this world. 

[saltycharacters]

I have so mant Effie comics rattling around in my brainspace. Comic where she swallows a squeaker. Comic about her taking control of her life and gender presentation from her shitty "mom". Comic about her aroace approach to preforming romance and how that's how she meets her futur queer platonic partner. Her and her qpp dicussing the town founder's (Frank, qpp's grandpa) friendship with Effie's "mom" and how that affects their relationship in the present. Effie meeting her older 45+ yr old self and talking about how they change and how their outlook on life and their goals and pursuits change in ways younger Effie never thought would happen. Comic about Effie babysitting. Etc. I am obsessed with this scarecrow woman

[annavysoul]

I can confirm, they introduced themselves as 3 readers and they made a post how Bee is leaving and starting their own channel. They even made a post to support it and linked the blog, that's how I knew of the Bee drama. But yknow whatever. But they shouldn't demonize those poor future apouses lmao, it's not gonna be them, or any of us.

Warning very long, I got carried away my bad lol

But the drama on tumblr is kinda mild conpared to Youtube "readers". At least the readers here on tumblr try to hide the fact, that they're describing themselves very well but yoooooooo.... Youtube readers are a different breed. Most of them are super young (12-13, but there are a handful of readers old enough to fucking know better) and just straight up describe themselves with no shame. I even found some who put pics of themselves lmao. Me and my friends like to go through readings and bet, who is describing themselves as a spouse. There is one reader who has over 30+ vids on Mrs. J, and most readings are like over 20 mins long. How much is there to know about a person, that doesn't exist yet??? But most YT readers are obssessed with the fact, that Mrs. J is from India, what a coincidence that the reader is also from India lmao. I'm not saying BTS wouldn't ever date someone from that country, I'm saying it's impossible to get a specific country, age, height, religion etc from tarot cards. The pics on the cards might give you clues and the cards can say that the person is different from you, but they go into way too much detail. And it's funny because they're always soooo specific for Jungkook and V, but for the other ones....crickets🦗 On one hand it's so sad bc you have these little girls, putting out their private info, looks and secrets for the whole world to see (these vids have thousands of views) and they don't really grasp the consequences of their actions bc yknow, their just children. The internet never forgets. But on the other hand, you have these grown women who, like I said, should know better than these little girls. Not only do they get so defensive if you don't 100% allign with what they said, they are borderline so obsessed of the idea of being a spouse. Like tf??? Bts aren't Gods. They're very attractive celebs, who's purpose is to entertain people with their contents and music (hence the word idol & entertainer), while they do feed into that perfect bf material scheme, it's up to the fan to not actually develop real romantic feelings (a celeb crush and being a stan is something very different). Most are actually fans for very superficial reasons, they just find them attractive, not the music. And if you take the glitz and glamour of fame and money away, Bts are regular human beings, with flaws and issues. Like. The. Rest. Of. Us. They only show you the best side of them, because it's part of the whole idol package. We truly do not know these people, no matter how sincere or authentic they appear on camera. Like so so many were suprised that they wanted to disband a few years ago, bc they couldn't handle the pressure. These readers always believe if they meet/marry them, their life is going to be better and they feel alive again or smth. Most of these readers actually need therapy, I don't mean that in a condescending way. They imagine that their spouse, a celeb they've never met, will be their sole reason for their happiness and only then they are able to fix their issues and unhappiness. That reeks of co-dependency. And even if they'd become couple and be public, then what? A really big big chunk of Armys are actually in love with Bts, no matter if they even know tarot or not (Armys usually claim that only 2% of the fandom are delulus but that's definetly not true🥴). You'd get send d*eath threats, be harrassed, get doxxed, be hated for all eternity, even if you'd decided to break up. Look what happend with Jk and the tattoo artist he only hugged. She lost her job bc Armys were reporting her, some were trashing her workplace, she got threats, her friends got harassed and doxxed and she lost a friend (Jk). Not only that, but people would legit stalk you and try to hurt you, if you were a romatic partner of Bts. Then you also have the tarot side, who'd try to curse youa nd paint you as the evil demon, who is toxic to member xyz. And I don't think you'd want to spend your entire life locked in your house. And I personally could never deal with like millions of haters, no matter how hot my partner is.

Yoooo! i search again in yt and watch a couple of videos... these are kids for go sake🥺🥺 where are their parents and why they let them public private infoooo?!? internet and children isnt the best combination...

and yess, theres also grown up women and thats really creepy, u can understand that children might do that cause they are young, BUT WHEN U ARE OLD ENOUGH, U SHOULD ACT BETTER!! and i insist, they just trying to prove to themselves and to the world that they are worth it to be with a celebrity, like yeah of course u are worthy, like any of us, but this is not the way u know? its weird, i dont think its sane at all, they just are using the cards to feel better, and thats bs. and if it is just a cope mecanism, plz work on yourself, get help, life its better when u are in a healthy place

also its interesting about mrs being from india and most of all the videos i watch where from indian armys, tarot doesnt work like that, yeah u can feel the energy that its different, perhaps different culture and think that maybe it could be a foreing, but the cards will never tell you something that specific, less if u dont even know in person the people you are reading for

we dont know them at all, and people put them in a such high pedestal just for being famous and hot, so i really have trouble to think that some tarot readers can pick their real energy, im a very intuitive person, but i need to be in the presence of the person to feel their real energy, so to be so specific in a reading they need to energise the cards with the energy of the person, they need to at least shuffle the cards and connect with the reader, sooo thats why i only see these reads as enterteiment, and its bad for the community to claim that we can see ALL of about them.

i'll never forgive the people who threaten the tattoo artist, poor girl, and thats why the guys cant have healthiest relationship, let them have a LIFE

[serraphima]

All. 85. Of. Them.

done and without any whining jay >:3c

1. Are looks important in a relationship? yes but not very

2. Are relationships ever worth it? yes

3. Are you a virgin? no

4. Are you in a relationship? yes, three actually

5. Are you in love? yes i am

6. Are you single this year? no

7. Can you commit to one person? i actually cannot, is why im poly

8. Describe your crush shes amazing, super smart, is making a robot, another one is super amazing at games and super adorable, and one is insanely creative and hosts a panel

9. Describe your perfect mate - tall, strong, dork, amazing, and willing to put up with me

10. Do you believe in love at first sight? yes, also lust at first sight

11. Do you ever want to get married? yes

12. Do you forgive betrayal? i do not

13. Do you get jealous easily? very much so

14. Do you have a crush on anyone? yes

15. Do you have any piercings? yes i have 8

16. Do you have any tattoos? not yet

17. Do you like kissing in public? i love it

20. Do you shower every day? i try to, sady im not good at remembering

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? i hope so

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? see previous

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? already done

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? i hope so

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? i think 3 is my limit

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? i believe so?

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? i think so

28. Have you ever been cheated on? yes

29. Have you ever cheated on someone? yes

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? get my junk changed

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? yes

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? yes

33. Have you ever had sex with a man? yes

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? tried, wound up crying bc of sudden wave of dysphoria and at this point too scared to try again as i am

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? yes

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? yes

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? this one girl in high school

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? not really

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? yes

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? i wrote a story for liv last year

41. Have you had sex so far this year? tried to

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? its not long

43. How long was your longest relationship? coming up on 2 years

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? 1 boyfriend, 6 girlfriends

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013? none

46. How many times did you have sex last year? sadly none

47. How old are you? 22

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? oh

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? i cant pick a single thing i like about them bc theyre all so amazing i have a hard time

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? no, she lead me on

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? yes

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? myself multiple times since i think im a defective leech and a burden on society

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? not to my knowledge

54. Is there someone you will never forget? the first dude who fucked me

55. Share a relationship story. i told an ex i might be ace and she stopped talking to me

56. State 8 facts about your body - 1 i hate it 2 i have good legs 3 i have a nice ass 4 i have scars on my thighs 5 i no longer have a gallbladder 6 my stomach is out to get me 7 my head almost always hurts 8 i cant tell what color my eyes are

57. Things you want to say to an ex - fuck you

58. What are five ways to win your heart? 1 be nice to me 2 love me 3 hold me 4 fuck me into submission 5 be willing to hold me when im having a bad episode

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? i think maybe 2 years

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? eyes and voice

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? besides fuck me into oblivion so im theirs forever?

63. What is your definition of “having sex”? dick or dick-like thing in hole that isnt a mouth or urethra or nose or ear

64. What is your definition of cheating? hooking up with someone without permission

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? give head

66. What is your favourite roleplay? i dont really roleplay in the bedroom

67. What is your idea of the perfect date? we spend the whole day together

68. What is your sexual orientation? currently i think im bisexual homoromantic but its always in flux and could change

69. What turns you off? being a dick or a nazi or a pedo or a trump supporting alt right weirdo

70. What turns you on? well if youre ever near me you can find out for yourself

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? being passed around like a doll between a group of people until i pass out

72. What words do you like to hear during sex? oh fuck yes. im simple

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? hold me

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? what hand someone is dominant with

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? i had an ex buy me a pyrrha cosplay, i dont wear it bc it reminds me of what i did to him and it brings a whole lot of dysphoria

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? make them cum?

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? so long as they arent super big like 20 years or if one person is still a teen im fine with them

78. What’s your dirtiest secret? if you call me a good girl or good kitten ill do anything you want

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? i feel jealous anytime i see a cute girl bc i want to look like them

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? a few minutes ago

81. Who are five people you find attractive? my girls (theres 3) anne hathaway, janelle monae, laura jane grace, and shawn spencer from psych

82. Who is the last person you hugged? fuck if i know

83. Who was your first kiss with? a girlfriend i had in high school

84. Why did your last relationship fail? ngl i misread this and thought it said a relationship, i didnt love her, i did my best to try to but i couldnt and i didnt want to hurt her anymore by pretending i could

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? i am currently dating 3 people online

[quantumfizz]

What VtM Clans the Cul-de-sac Kids Would Be In

I like to cross over shit. Also my only exposure to VtM is the game "Bloodlines" and reading the World of Darkness wiki pages ad infinitum, so I only have a superficial understanding of the clans. If you have a different clan in mind for a character I'd love to hear it though!

First off I say Jonny would be a Malkavian. He's often called weird and nobody gets him and Plank. But Plank often points Jonny in the right direction and gives advice that helps him and the gang (Plank was the one that told him to take off Ed's shoe, and even though Jonny didn't know why Plank asked him to it actually resolved the current problem)

Sarah would be a Brujah. Loud, passionate, LOUD, protective of people she cares about (Jimmy obviously, but whenever Ed is in serious danger she does get worried--when the Eds were in the abandoned house, she called our for someone to save her "idiot brother"). Also outspoken, as she isnt afraid to stand up to older kids.

Jimmy would be a Toreador. He has a love for the arts, fashion, and beauty that's shown in most episodes.

Edd's pursuit of knowledge and emphasis on organization makes me think of him as a Tremere. Not that all Tremeres are neat freaks, but they're based in structure

Ed... Malkavian. He's a bit simple, but he has his own internal logic that makes sense to him (regardless of everyone else). He's also pretty insightful at times, and much like Plank he can unintentionally steer the gang in the right direction.

Eddy is hard for me. I want to say Ventrue, as he is very business-oriented and likes to be in control.

Kevin is also difficult. With his brash attitude and tendency to wear his emotions on his sleeve (he cannot hide his crush on Nazz to save his life, and when he's upset he has no problems yelling at whatever dork is causing a problem).

I'd say Rolf is a Gangrel. He has the closest connection to the natural world (and at one point longs to return to the Old Country, away from the cold-steel urban life of Peach Creek).

And the Kankers. Because of their abrasiveness and main motivation in the show being their love for the Eds, I'd say Brujah? Their passion goes a bit to far, but it is abundant.

As for Nazz, I would tentatively say she's a Toreador. I honestly have no idea because her personality tends to change all the time (one season she can recite worker's rights laws by heart and the next she's a total airhead... What???) Maybe Ventrue? I don't know, dude.

[loveisfake]

extremely personal shit i shouldve put in my diary but is here instead/get to know why i wanna die all the time/dont mention this ever anywhere lmao

i dont know where to start but i just love feeling worthless because literally no one in my life Truly needs me and my life is just fleeting and i have nothing going for me. i simultaneously want to be So many people i admire?? that i want to do the exact thing theyre doing?? even though that wont make me them and it’s only because i think they;re  cool or interesting but that’s just not how things work and it fucking drives me crazy because thats the only thought thats ever in my fucking head and it makes me want to give up on everything because it just WOnt go AWAY. like i want this life that doesn’t even seem that hard to obtain if I actually just stop being a piece of shit but i just cant WILL myself to and i dont even know if my depression is real because i’ll just be sad and wanna die but i get over it quickly and b peppy and content until something TINY just sets me off and puts me in a complete foul mood and i stick with it and its so fucking stupid idk and i jsut keep going in circles. like i didnt go to real highschool? and i WISH I DID but i cant go back in time and i feel like i really fucked something up there and really missed out on a social life. like i’ve GENUINELY been doing the same thing over and over and over and over for 4 fucking years. i’ve been at home on the computer and not doing ANYTHING of value. i havent been creating anything or pursuing anything or educating myself i’ve just been a fucking hermit and i hate myself. and it’s just all these feelings of feeling like so and so hate me and things changing that i cant stop or fix and it’s just killing me. i just feel so alone. i have no one who im important to and i never had it’s just been me and myself and it hurts. i just want someone to love and someone to love me but anytime im in a situation similar to that i just reject and feel shameful and i dont know why but i feel like it’s whats gonna keep me alone forever lmao. on top of that i fucking hate both of my parents just every single thing they do pisses me the fuck off and i feel like theyre one of the main reasons im just so unhappy all the time even though they do so much for me. like my dad fixes so many problems in my families lives and my mom hates him and doesnt appreciate any of it, which in turns makes me resent her since i have to live with them both. but my mom makes all the money and she works so hard and i dont really show her any love and i feel like i just take advantage of that because she’ll genuinely give me anything i want and i feel like the absolute biggest piece of shit for it because she deserves so much. i just wish i could be fine with getting over feeling uncomfortable and being nervous with new situations and not being scared to fail or embarrass myself so i can get a job and help my parents but idk. then there’s all this stuff about trump and america and everything feeling like we’re going backwards in the world and it’s so soul crushing and disappointing especially as a woman and it just makes me so sad all the time for me and and anyone who isnt a rich white man. also on top of all of that... the other biggest thing i worry about CONSTANTLY (even though its so superficial and meaningless) is just how UGLY i am. ive already made an entire rant about everything i hate about myself but i just dwell on it. i cant stand it and it makes me so suicidal when i truly see it in myself because it’s the only place im ever at with it. none of this is really coherent and it’s all a fucking joke because i’m so blessed in a lot of other aspects in my life and 2017 has simultaneously been the best and worst year of my life. like...... i just want to start actually Living and being a real person and becoming something and being someone but im just so. scared. 

[randisnotonfire-blog]

Oh Peter Parker X Reader

Summary: After Homecoming life has been different, Peter has been mumbling and blushing more than usual.Everyone still thinks Peter has a major crush on Liz but heads will turn when rumors spread fast like a wild fire when Y/n stands up to Flash for Peter. Refusing to believe that Ryan is trying to confront her about the rumors causes her to form a unlikely fight with Peter and Ryan.

  Warnings:Fluff,Drama as usual xD,Language, also tbh peter is like DIFFERENT he isnt stuttering that much but he is kind of like confident lmao idfk xD

A/n: This is a continuation of the fan fiction “Are You Okay?”. I tried to base this off of the song Superficial Love by Ruth B. Which was challenging,so yeah not much to say. Life has been good? xD But yeah lets just get on with this!

(Not my Gif)

         You sighed, still thinking of what happened last Friday night.Reading the text message from Peter it had said “Hey. see you tomorrow at school gn”. You replied saying Good night back then quickly fell asleep.Your alarm woke you up from a dead sleep, then you heard your mom yelling for you to wake up. Great, just another day were your surrounded by assholes and idiots. You got up and did your normal morning routine, and walked to school with a group of friends. Saying your goodbyes you walked into your school and quickly went to your locker.Flash walked up to you and tapped you on your shoulder, “Hey” he said as if he was trying to sound cool. “Go piss off someone else” You snapped back not turning around to not look him in the eye.”Bitch” He responded, then you hissed back “Slut”. “Yeah bye, see you in 5th period” He said then walked off. You smirked then walked over to Peter’s locker. You tried to startle him but failed. “Boo!” you said as you looked at the curls in the back of his head “Nice try Y/n” which made you giggle as he turned around to look at you. “So...” his bottom lip curled when you smiled. “You know people are gonna be-act different” “Why would they? They know I have a boyfriend” You tried to act as innocent as possible considering Ned was around.You smiled at him then at Ned, “Hey, Peter do you want to go to my house after school? I got some new LEGOS, or we can study” Ned said excitedly, Peters eyes turned to look at you then at Ned. “O-um I’m gonna be busy with the Stark Internship, but I can probably try to get some time for us to hang out after school.” Ned nodded then looked at you which made you feel slight butterflies. Why was he looking at me? Since when did I be apart of there weird friendship? You smiled quickly then shuffled your feet looking at them.The 4th bell rang and you asked Peter if he wanted to walk to class with you. It was a awkward question since Ned was about to leave but he still said yes.”I’m sorry about last night..I was probably really awkward and shit, sorry um..Yeah” Peter blurted out as you were walking through the walls.”Oh” You looked up at him and giggled “Yeah right Parker, for once you were not awkward” With those words it made him blush and want to freeze the time. “You know Y/n? You curse a lot” You smiled, thinking if you should hold his hand. But it would be a cliche and to soon move, You should just let him make the first move. But I doubt he would.

        You two both walked in to the class and took a seat next to each other, which it was rare to find you sitting next to each other. Half way through the class Peter opened his big mouth and whispered to you, “Did you enjoy-um last night?” You smirked and nodded. “Just don’t tell Ryan” Peter had a cheeky grin on his face knowing that he was close to kissing you during the slow dance. The teacher quickly stopped her tracks of writing down notes and diverted her attention to you and Peter. You had a massive blush on your face but it was unlikely Peter had a tad bit smaller blush on his face. “Miss Y/L/N and (Your last name) Mr.Parker is there something you need to share with the rest of the class? Because I think we all are great listeners unlike you two.” The teacher had snapped back and you could hear all the kids acting like fools by saying “Oo”. “You both have detention after school” The teacher smiled and went back to her notes. You sighed and Peter slipped you a note that simply read: “Sorry :l” The next class you had shared with Peter and Flash, it was always a struggle since Flash was a bully to Peter. Also it was a struggle because both Peter and Flash had a crush on you. But Peter treated his crush more like a secret, unlike Flash. All hell was raised when he tried to flirt with you, you could definitely tell Peter wanted to do something about it.

          You and Peter had walked to 5th period together, “I’m sooo glad lunch class is next” You said holding your “o” in the word So for a dramatic reason. Peter chuckled, while walking his hand slightly gazed yours which made his heart drop. After it happened you looked up at him and politely smiled and he blushed. You both walked into the class a minute or two early so you could start up the lab.Ned walked up to Peter, “Hey dude do you want to set up the lab early?” Ned asked but Peter furrowed his eyebrows, eyes widened and nugged his head slightly to point at you. “Oooohhh” Ned said and smiled. He walked over to find a new lab partner as Peter walked over to you. “D-do you want to work together or something” “Sure” You responded to him as he took a seat next to you. “Look, its the devil” You smirked when you saw Flash casually walk in late as usual. “Okay? Great Everyone is here...Okay so I need to go get something from my car so like behave while im gone? It will only be 5 to 10 minutes” The teacher quickly said as he left the class room. You noticed Flash sat next to you, so you were in the middle of Peter and Flash.You grabbed out your phone to clear out notifications and do other stuff, “Y/n? Don’t do that! You could get into trouble!” Peter snatched your phone from your hand and shoved it in your backpack.”Ugh, Thanks dad” You smirked and he blushed aggressively. He leaned closer to you and said “W-why would I be y-your dad?” “Nothing” You smirked again while he died from blushing.”Hey Y/h/c (Your hair color) You wanna do the lab with me?” Flash asked you. You sighed, “Or are you working with Penis Parker?” Flash said again with a innocent look. “Fuck off mate” You hissed at him, everyone in the class looked at you. Peter’s eyes widened and gasped, “W-what?” you asked him and tried to brush it off but it was just like carrying a boulder on your shoulder.Flash scoffed “Fine princess” he smirked cheekly. The teacher walked in and saw everyone looking towards the back of the class as you, Peter and Flash.”Great” he muttered then started his lesson.

     You had been blushing and so was Peter the entire class, when it finally ended everyone left except for when the teacher called out for you, Peter and Flash to talk to him.You looked at Peter then grabbed your book bag and walked up to his desk with the rest of them.”I heard you already got detention, but-” He sighed “All of you need to tell me what happened” He took off his glasses and put him near the stack of papers.”Well,” you all hand finally told the teacher what happened. And what made the cherry and sprinkles on top of your day was that you and Flash both got a detention. “Great” You sighed and walked out of the class abandoning Peter and Flash.The teacher left and Flash hissed at Peter “Bite me bitch” then walked off. Peter just looked like a deer in headlights, he felt sorry for you.You walked up to the lunch room and found a table that was clear and sat there. You smiled when you saw Ryan walk over and sit next to you, “So how was class? I-i uh um heard the rumors Y/n” You sighed and kissed him on the cheek but he backed away quickly.”W-what?” “I’m not gonna date a fucking slut Y/n!” Ryan hissed at you. “I’m not a SLUT! Me and Peter are not a thing! will you just have some fucking feelings for once! You always ditch me! Maybe your the slut in this relationship! Just go the hell away. Jesus fucking Christ go find y-your side chick or what ever the hell you want to call her!” You practically yelled at him. This gave you guys the attention you never wanted, You looked around to find Peter starring at you shocked. You got up and stormed off crying with no regrets.

                      You got stopped by Peter when he grabbed your wrist before you were able to leave the school. “Your not skipping Y/n” Peter said concerned, “Peter,Some nerve you have to do this and tell me you want me.How dare you march into my heart, oh how rude of you. To ruin my miserable, and tell me I am beautiful. I already have someone to tell me that! Cause I wasn’t looking for love, In fact you tricked me. And I wasn’t trying to fall in love anymore but Parker, you pushed me.” You said with caution.”Y-y/n..I’m sorry...” He could see the tears running down your face and the pain in your eyes. “Yeah, what ever” you said but making him feel defeated. “No! Y/n! If those rumors were true I wouldn’t want them to be! I know your-you were in a relationship with Ryan. It hurt me to know he was always cheating on you thats why I wanted to- just you know what, I have nothing to say.” He put his hands up and left you. You were just a broken mess. The two piece that put your life together walked out of your life, and killed you in the process...

Luv yall sorry for the angst lmfao ik tragic as hell but yeh dm if you got any ideas

        ~R

@captainswriting new fan fiction :) since you said the last one was rlly short xd

[couldnt-think-of-a-funny-name]

I mean tbh I'm not much of a john green fan (Idk why, I think it's just that the writing style and my reading style don't mesh) but also like HIS STORIES ARE LITERALLY BREAKING DOWN THE MANIC PIXIE DREAM GIRL FANTASY WTF ARE PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT "boy gets girl" UM BASICALLY BOY HAS TO DEAL WITH THE FACT THAT GIRL ISNT ACTUALLY HIS PERFECTLY SCRIPTED DOLL OR SOMEONE DIES????? OR BOTH??? I WILL FIGHT ANYONE WHO USES THAT AS AN EXCUSE TO HATE ON HIM

THANK YOU!!

Like I totally 100% get if people don’t like the books because of the genre or his personal writing style- but manic pixie dream girls? boy gets girl? Pick up the book or check your reading comprehension oh my God.

Like? Just? Stories breaking down awful tropes like that are so important? Stories about seeing people as actual complex human beings are important? Especially since humans do tend to lean toward self-absorbed tendencies (which isn’t necessarily always a bad thing) but it forces you to look outside yourself and see people not just as who they are to you, but who they are to themselves?

Paper Towns isn’t “boy gets his manic pixie”, it’s “Girl is deeply uncomfortable and unhappy with the life she’s been living and puts herself first, taking a leap of faith to find her own inner peace even if it means having to leave behind people she cares about; Boy, who’s been crushing on her since they were children, is deeply worried about this and wants to find her. Over the course of his search, he starts to understand and face the fact that he doesn’t actually know her enough to be in love with her, and starts to see her less as an enigma in tight jeans and more as a confusing, complex, actual human being. He still wants to find her because he’s worried about whether or not she’s just run away or if she plans to harm herself. His friends help him out because they aren’t shitty people and they end up helping each other understand some things. Upon finally finding her, they talk things out. Girl does in fact have somewhat unidentified feelings for Boy, but she’s acknowledged from the very first chapter that his view of her isn’t the most healthy and that’s why he didn’t hold her back from leaving in the first place. Boy is no longer worried for Girl and wants to get to know her better as she is and not as the character he had invented in his head. They part ways on good terms and we’re never quite sure if they actually keep in touch.”

Looking For Alaska isn’t “boy gets his manic pixie”, it’s “Boy who’s felt alienated his whole life decides a change of environment will help him find some happiness in life, and to his surprise he actually ends up falling in with a tight-nit group of friends. He develops feelings for Girl, and while Girl definitely thinks he’s cute she’s very much in love with her boyfriend, and actively tries to set Boy up with another girl in an attempt for him to see his romantic feelings for her are just superficial and then he can move on and they can just be good friends. Girl struggles a lot with her mental health and self worth because of a childhood trauma, and while all of her friends love her, none of them really understand the problems and therefore she doesn’t open up to them that much. After a tragic accident, Boy and his friends are left to grieve alone and try to put the pieces together, trying to understand what happened, trying to see Girl for who she was as human other than a hot prankster. They all deal with guilt and grief in their own personal ways, grapple with religious beliefs, and desperately try to understand what Girl had running through her head on a daily basis, which they come to deal with is impossible, because no one can really know another person inside and out to the fullest extent, especially when one person doesn’t open up too much. They band together to honor her memory and you’re left not knowing exactly if things will ever be okay for them again but knowing that they did grow in how they act, view and treat other people.” (also, Pudge had more chemistry with the Colonel than anyone else lmao)

Will Grayson, will grayson is “Boy starts to fall for a Girl but the romance is put on the back burner to him realizing relationships are a give-and-take thing and that his best friend will always be there for him no matter what happens, and he should act more appreciative and give him the same effort and attention he receives from him”

I know a lot of the complaints for Fault in Our Stars was that people started romanticizing illness, but that wasn’t his intent and that’s not how he wrote it? He was inspired to write the book after working in a children’s cancer hospital and after a fan-turned-friend died of thyroid cancer at just 15 or 16 years old? It was written as a tribute? And the plot isn’t the beauty of illness? It’s that life gives you shitty things but it also gives you good things and you need to appreciate every moment you get in this life? It’s about dealing with fear of the unknown and confronting the fact that nothing lasts forever? It’s dealing with the fact you can’t know everything and letting yourself love someone even though you know you’re going to loose them?

I also remember when I was in high school I loved that he didn’t write down to his readers- even though they’re YA Novels he didn’t shy away from ~big~ words or storylines like he writes- and that’s why a lot of his characters get labeled “pretentious”, and like, they totally are, but in a very believable way. Like, I definitely related to some of his characters when I was in high school. And I also liked that he still made them kids, like they’d be spouting pretentious or fake-deep shit and they’d get it wrong, because not everyone gets it right. Not everyone remembers or interprets quotes correctly, not everyone understands everything, not everyone gets the math right. Hazel’s speech at Gus’ funeral? The whole infinities spiel? Like, that’s not right, and that was done on purpose because she’s 16 and emotional, so she doesn’t have to remember it or understand it correctly. I liked that. It was also good for me when I was young and still like, impressionable and shit, to actually see something that wasn’t screaming manic pixies in my face??? Obviously???? Like none of the girls have to be fun or quirky, they’re also bitchy and emotional and have real thoughts and problems and make sure they get treated correctly. They don’t let themselves get turned into manic pixies by the boys in their lives, they tell them off- like that was so good for me? And also reading from the POV who goes from point A to point B in trying to understand the people around him, it makes you start to realize whether or not you’re doing that to people in your life, it makes you aware of that and you’re able to deal with that.

So like…the fact that like 99% of the complaints I see against John Green don’t add up with anything he’s ever written? Is just ridiculous? It makes literally no sense? Why is it trendy to hate on anybody? Let alone a man who writes decent books about treating people decently, does a lot for charity, dedicates time to educating people on world problems and overall just enjoys helping and teaching? Like? You can’t find anything better to do with your time?

[automatedspambot]

All of them bc fuck you 😂😂

I guess i was asking for this cx 

1. Are looks important in a relationship?

No not really?

2. Are relationships ever worth it?

Yes?

3. Are you a virgin?

Nope cx

4. Are you in a relationship?

Yes ^-^ Ye should all go follow her @music-is-the-last-to-go

5. Are you in love?

Yes! c: 

6. Are you single this year?

Answered in the last set of questions cx

7. Can you commit to one person?

Yeah?? I think? yeah

8. Describe your crush

Shes smol, always wears super cute outfits and her eyes are really pretty but shit at being eyes.

9. Describe your perfect mate

I find mate a strange term to use cx

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Yeah but you should get to know the person first cx made that mistake its not fun.

11. Do you ever want to get married?

Yes c: 

12. Do you forgive betrayal?

Stupidly yes :/ 

13. Do you get jealous easily?

Very :/ 

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?

My girlfriend cx 

15. Do you have any piercings?

Both my lobes streched to 12mm, my upper lobe, industrial, tragus, labret and nose

16. Do you have any tattoos?

Answered in the last set of questions cx

17. Do you like kissing in public?

Yeah but not fll on mauling cx

20. Do you shower every day?

Every second day cx 

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

i would hope @music-is-the-last-to-go does...

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

Probably not cause i think kate is asleep cx im not intending on poing her to find out cx 

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

Well I’ve been in one for almost 7 months and I haven’t cx 

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

Eh maybe? idk i doubt it 

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?

I am cx

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

Answered in the last set of questions cx

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?

No? cx 

28. Have you ever been cheated on?

Yes... for 6 months.. woo

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?

Nope

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?

No but my chest and stomach are shit...

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

Yes.. oops

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

Yeah

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?

Nope

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?

Yeah cx

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

Yeah

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

Answered in the last set of questions cx

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

Yeah cx

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

Yeah

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

Yeah

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?

I cant write shit cx 

41. Have you had sex so far this year?

Yeah cx

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

;) no comment cx 

43. How long was your longest relationship?

11 months

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

8 kinda.. 

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012?

Nobody

46. How many times did you have sex last year?

Answered in the last set of questions cx

47. How old are you?

19 c: 

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

Neiher me or kate want to think about that cx 

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

Her bus pass.. jk her eyes

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

Probably close the door

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?

Yeah Kate and my friends for the most part 

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?

Lots of people because they showed no intrest in keeping up th friendship/relationship we had so yeah... :/

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

Idk probably someone always has a problem with what i do with my life cx

54. Is there someone you will never forget?

Eh a few.. idk

55. Share a relationship story.

When i went to The Wonder Years with Kate up in Dublin i really wanted to ask her to come to my Grads and Green Daybut i was to scared to so after a while i asked her to Green Day and she was super happy but i wanted to wait till her favourite song to ask her to go to my Grads so i drank alot to gt the courage to ask i guess and i did but she wouldnt believe me because i was tipsy so i asked a security guard a random girl in the crowd and some random guy on the streets of Dublin to tell her i was serious cx they all did after getting of the confusion of what i was asking cx 

56. State 8 facts about your body

Answered in the last set of questions cx

57. Things you want to say to an ex

Go fuck yourself and that i hope your boyfriend knows your probably cheating on him too c: 

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

Chinese,

Pizza,

Cuddles,

Star Wars,

Photography

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

Ah here.. I’ve a profile thing? idk ill post one later ? 

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners

A year or so? 

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?

Usually there eyes/smile and outfit cx

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?

Idk cx ? 

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?

Copulation cx 

64. What is your definition of cheating?

Being intimate with someone who isnt your significant other?  

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?

Chill out fam cx

66. What is your favourite roleplay?

Answered in the last set of questions cx   

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?

Adventure to some abandoned place and nice food and cuddles and kisses

68. What is your sexual orientation?

A trainwreck? Bi i guess 

69. What turns you off?

Smoking, Drugs, thinking your better than everyone else

70. What turns you on?

Neck kisses, cute underwear and making out cx 

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?

I dont think ive ever had a wet dream cx 

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?

My dad left me... Jk cx well he did but cx 

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

Buy my a 70-300 f2.8 L lens and a 1dx mkii ? or just a adventure and leave me take nice pictures of them

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

Idk pretty eyes? and lips i guess? idk im not really superficial with stuff like that 

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

idk??

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?

Answered in the last set of questions cx

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?

Depends on the situation

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?

Secrets are secrets for a reason ;) idk really cx 

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?

Idk i havent been in a while tankfully but its usually something stupid and clingy

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

Just now

81. Who are five people you find attractive?

Kate, Myles shhhh, Terrys also cute cx idk ? im not good at this shit 

82. Who is the last person you hugged?

Kate cx

83. Who was your first kiss with?

my first girlfriend ..

84. Why did your last relationship fail?

She was being a controlling asshole for months, it also turned out she cheated on my for more than half of our relationship 

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

I hve cx 10/10 would not recommenced 

[rouge-heichou]

And because Im bored I’ll just do the same shit as yesterday...

answering shit no one cares for. From that reblogged Meme thing. :3

Relationships

111- The last person you hugged? - My dad I believe, a month ago. 

112- Who was your first kiss with? - My sandbox best friend, called Mara.

113- Do you like kissing in public? - Depends. Some short peck, I don’t mind. Make out sessions? Hell no. Not a fan of PDA.

114- Have you ever kissed someone older than you? - Yes. 

115- You have a preference for boys or girls? - Women. 

116- Is the male or female body closest to perfection? - Females.

117- Do you believe in love at first sight? - No.

118- Do you believe in soul mates? - Maybe. 

119- What is your idea of the perfect date? - Pizza, and a good film at home.

120- Based on past relationships or crushes, describe your perfect boyfriend/girlfriend: - Ugh, tough one. I don’t really have any “standards” for someone “perfect”. But considering I’m a massive dork who can’t do anything alone, I just need and want someone who can kick muh butt every now and then. And since I’m also quite honest and harsh, someone who doesn’t bend to match my opinion on something. Basically just someone who has the balls to crush my massive balls lol. 

121- What is the first thing you noticed in someone? - I don’t really know. Haven’t really taken care of that, I care too much about how people receive me when first meeting.

122- Are looks important in a relationship? - To an extend, I’d say yes. 

123- What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? - Being hygienic. I hate when people don’t shower regulary because they think they don’t sweat. 

124- What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? - I’m rather tolerant with that. As long as someone isnt twice the age of their Partner, I don’t really care because I think it depends on their maturity Level. I’ve met 15 year olds that are more mature than some 20 year olds. 

125- Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? - Done that already. 

126- Five guys/girls whom you find attractive: - Mila Kunis. Mila Kunis. Mila Kunis. Mila Kunis. Adam Gontier.

127- Do you have a crush on anyone? - Yes.

128- A description of the girl/boy you like: - Well, he’s about 5′3 tall. Got black hair, “styled” as undercut. He has like, steel gray eyes and makes me question my sexuality.

129- Say 1 fact about the person your like: - He likes cleaning. 

130- If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? - I’d wish them good luck with that person. Although, heart would be shattered.

131- When was the last time you told someone you loved them? - genuinely and romantically, proooobably around 2pm at August 15th, 2016.

132- Do you think someone has feelings for you? - No. 

133- Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? - Nah.

134- Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? - Obviously.

135- Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? - For the entire past year. 

136- Anyone you’re giving up on? - The one I cried over for the past year. Finally.

137- Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? - Yes, Goge. 

138- Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? - Same guy as in 135 and 136.

139- Have you ever liked one of your best friends? - Yes, Goge lol

140- Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? - Yes.

141- Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? - Yeah, but platonic. 

142- Is there someone you will never forget? - Yes.

143- Say five ways to win your heart: confidence, honesty, memes, generally making me feel save, being able to actually deal with me for a long time lol.

144- What turns you on? Neck kissing. Neck kissing is my weakness. Butt grabbing too!

145- What turns you off? Kissing like, they’re gonna suck my teeth out of my mouth.

146- What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? Neck kissing. Lots of neck kissing.

147- What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? - I was being bullied in school a lot. So my first crush ever (I was 12, he was 16), who took really great care of me, made them stop. He also fought my big brother when my brother was accusing him of being some disgusting pedophile, telling him that he doesn’t have any sexual intentions and that he just wants to help me out with the bullshit I was dealing with.

148- What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? - Dunno, surprise me.

149- Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? Have you had one written for you? - No

150- What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? - My ex had some massive fight with some of his friends way before we started dating and he’d usually not talk about how much he missed his old friends, and that he really regrets what he did to cause that fight. So one evening, he was really sad about it, and told me he was crying for the first time in like forever. So I asked him if he wanted me to talk to his old friends, although I didn’t like most of them at all. He kept saying he doesn’t want me to do so, because those old friends and I had our differences in the past too. Eventually, when he went to sleep I secretly messaged one of his friends, explaining everything and get them to talk to him and like being friends again. He really was happy about that and I was happy that he was feeling better than this whole time before. 

151- Are you in love? - No.

152- Are you in a relationship? - No

153- If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? - Needa pass this one.

154- Are relationships ever worth it? - Yes.

155- Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? - I don’t get that one ;-;

156- Can you commit to one person? - Yes.

157- Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? - Lol yes. Did that already, too.

158- Do you ever want to get married? - I don’t need papers to be happy with someone.

159- Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? - No

160- Future names of your children: I’d be a terrible mother. I don’t want children at all. 

161- Do you get jealous easily? - Very

162- The last time you felt jealous, and why? - Ex was talking to his ex he was dating like, 2 years before our time, completely platonic.

163- What is your definition of cheating? - Intention or fulfilling of romantically/sexually interaction with someone that’s not their partner.

164- Have you ever been cheated on? - Yes.

165- Do you forgive betrayal? - Did it once. Was a big mistake. So no.

166- Have you ever cheated on someone? - Too loyal for dis.

167- Why did your last relationship fail? - Because I wasn’t over the relationship before that + terrible depression resulting in me feeling empty as fuck and I don’t like saying things I don’t mean. 

168- Things you want to say to an ex: - “Took me way too long to get over you.”

169- A description of the person you dislike the most: Dramaqueen.

170- If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? - Yes.

171- How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? Too many. 8.

172- How long was your longest relationship? - 2 years. 

173- You’ll love me if… tf is this, idgi

174- Share a relationship story: So, we start dating on April 7 last year, was some online thing, which I didn’t mind much, because I don’t really mind a lack of physical affection. He started out to be really sweet and loving, making me feel really good and all. Until eventually, he started firing against one of my closest friends. Jealousy started sparking, but I could deal with it, somehow. But soon enough he’d start treating me poorly. Joked about cheating on me, telling me I need to work out and not understanding why I felt quite bad about it. Telling me “Maybe I just don’t like you enough” in an all serious matter, not understanding that he just crashed my heart with that. Telling me he wants to break up, because I like Pokemon. Constantly telling me I got shitty friends. Generally making me really “small”. While I was totally out of my usual character, being extremely anxious, shy and too scared of losing him to actually speak up, like I usually would do. Still trying to defend him against my friends. Until we broke up, and he afterwards tried to get me to block him, because he didn’t want to hurt me further, and I just spoke out my entire mind for the first time in months, making him speechless. ; Dunno if that’s a “nice” relationship story.

[whatiwasgonnasayyyy]

1 - 85

1. Are looks important in a relationship?- im so shallow kind of

2. Are relationships ever worth it?-Alwayz

3. Are you a virgin?-no

4. Are you in a relationship?-yes

5. Are you in love?-no

6. Are you single this year?-year isnt over

7. Can you commit to one person?-only on monday, wednesday, sunday

8. Describe your crush-asdfghjkl;

9. Describe your perfect mate:-super funny, confident, loves to dance, also more tan than me, perfect mouth, has their shit together :)

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?- no

11. Do you ever want to get married?-yes

12. Do you forgive betrayal?-ugh not really

13. Do you get jealous easily?- not anymore thank the lord

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?- sure do

15. Do you have any piercings?-ears, nose

16. Do you have any tattoos?- no

17. Do you like kissing in public?- i do actually, i like making people jealous >:)

20. Do you shower every day?- hahaha depends

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?- i do

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? i do

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?- Absofruitly

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?- mmmm engaged at least

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?- it’s sticky icky rn

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?- yes

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?- i dont think so?

28. Have you ever been cheated on?- kinda

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?- yes

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?- titties

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?- both

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?- i sure have

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?- yup

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?- yup

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?- yup

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?- yes ha

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?- currently

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?- yes, those are the best ones

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?- every single day

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?- no

41. Have you had sex so far this year?- honestly can’t remember

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?- :30

43. How long was your longest relationship?- 4 years

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?- i’ve lost count

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013?- >3?

46. How many times did you have sex last year?- probably like 50

47. How old are you?- 23 :)

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?- you should go for it and tell them!

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?- their intelligence

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?- hahaha we are still working on it. stay tuned

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?- a few

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?- no

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?- yes

54. Is there someone you will never forget?- of course. plenty

55. Share a relationship story.- one time i was at a college party, saw someone and said “ i’m taking them home tonight”. and So i shared my booze with them and took them home and then casually dated them for a bit until i  found someone better………..

56. State 8 facts about your body:

1. 5′7

2. white

3 sunburnt

4 has scars

5 bangin bod

6. is a temple obvi

7. is a wonderland

8. see 1-7 :)

57. Things you want to say to an ex: i’m pretty sure they have heard me say plenty

58. What are five ways to win your heart?- sense of humor, good dancer, confidence…wait see #9

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)- how do u do that..

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?- 3 years tops

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?- mouth(teeth and lips)

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?- commitment

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?- hahah making someone orgasm…

64. What is your definition of cheating?-honestly depends on if i’m there or not

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?-hahahhaha. spontaneity + teasing. SO WEAK FOR THAT

66. What is your favourite roleplay?- havent done any

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?- most likely deep, intellectual conversation and then sex lmao

68. What is your sexual orientation?-who even carezzzz

69. What turns you off?- I have SO many (flakes, anyone who blue balls, extreme jealousy, bad breath…we could be here all night)

70. What turns you on?-…..great kissers, neck anything, intellectual minds, confidence

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?-i had a dream i slept with my professor…..i did wake up happy about. 

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?- hahaha  the standard anything that ends in fuck, + my name ahhhh

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?-take me on a date that is somewhat planned but a surprise adventure for me

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?-people who have a better style than me?

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?-brought me a bunch of items to make me feel better when i was sick

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?- everything i do is sweet

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?-i only have to worry about my age differences so idgaf about anyone else

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?-i can go 8 times per night, is that what you mean?

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?-recently purely because i can’t enjoy someone i want to in any fashion really. so i am jealous other get to be around them

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?-tonight

81. Who are five people you find attractive?-myself, myself, myself, myself, and umm myself :D

82. Who is the last person you hugged?- my brother

83. Who was your first kiss with?-james fee,

84. Why did your last relationship fail?-different life goals

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?- i am open to all options.

there you go anon.

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[megashadowdragon]

salem is jaunes  biological mother

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“ jaune is a foil To Ruby. She’s a prodigy who quickly became a deadly warrior at a young age and is welcomed into Beacon two years early as a result while Jaune is a hard worker who progresses slowly and had to lie his way into Beacon because of his nonexistent combat background. Ruby is a strategist specialized on pre-defined team attacks and wields a self-made weapon capable of long range combat. Jaune is a tactician specialized in creating new team attacks according to his analysis on the battlefield and wields a family heirloom only capable of close range combat. Ruby has a rather broken family but they fully support her decision to become a huntress while Jaune’s family is large and united but they don’t support his choices nor have any faith on him. Ruby is a tomboy who dominates the battlefield but doesn’t enjoy dancing whereas Jaune tends to act girly and is initially terrible at fighting but also a great dancer. The more you look into them as a pair, the more contrasts that can be spotted in the details.”

jaune has a more “feminine way of dealing with emotions” while ruby has the more masculine way of dealing with emotions

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“Joan of Arc is known for breaking gender stereotypes about what it meant to be a woman. And if you think about it in a lot of ways Jaune doesn’t fit into the stereotypical “man box.” We are don’t “men don’t cry.” He wears his emotions on his sleeve. While in the real world men (and in the world of RWBY BOTH men and women ARGUABLY) are told to be strong. And that many people superficially equate physical strength with heroism (Raven?) it is fitting that Jaune’s semblance doesn’t so much doesn’t so much empower himself, as it empowers others. (as well as himself but its more effective on others in the team since they are more skilled than him) The so called “Feminine” strength.” P.S. Hmm as a follow-up to my The Importance Of Foils Part 2 post. I think that Ruby, despite being a girl, fits into the “man box” better than anyone else including it’s UNHEALTHY WAYS OF DEALING WITH EMOTIONS. The only difference is on remnant, it’s not because a man doesn’t cry. But because “a hero doesn’t cry.”

ruby first activated her silver eyes leading to her to learn about them when she saw pyrrha jaunes partner impaled by cinder and burnt to ash failing to save pyrrha  her awakening being in reaction to her death while jaune activated his semblance and realized what it was when he saw rubys partner weiss  impaled by cinder and  was able to save her  life awakening his semblance to do so allowing him to learn what his semblance was ( which is a good example this is an example of them being foils  and how its been shown and effected their storys )

what if while summer rose rubys mom fought the good fight to protect humanity salem the person threatening humanity is jaunes mother.

( and the fact that salem killed summer rose is an interesting connection  ( I once made a theory on jaunes dad working for salem and being the one to kill summer rose but since its been almost confirmed that salem killed summer rose I am settling on this idea that rubys hero mom was killed by jaunes evil mother)

also silver eyed warriors are descended from ozpins various reincarnations  where he had  kids with someone from humanity 2.0 which is how the SEW were created  ( one of his reincarnations  was shown with children who have silver eyes ) given that he is reincarnating due to the power of the god of light which affected him and as a result created the SEW  and ruby is a silver eyed warrior

so it would be interesting for jaune in contrast to be the child of salem and have some power related to the god of darkness in him. 

plus its heavily theorized that jaune has a connection to salem 

and salem wanted to do eugenics before with her and ozs kids  and she likely realized that SEW were descended from oz  so she could very well have come to idea of producing a child of her own with humanity 2.0 to see what would happen  and at first she left him  with the father ( to be taken care of and avoid distraction for her )   until jaune showcases some power ( or that she expected jaune to show some signs of power but didnt sense that because it was slumbering in him and gave him to the father ) ( and I once suggested the possibility of jaunes father  (and the father of the 7 girls )  working for salem )  ( and because he didnt she let him be giving up that option ) or what if the people jaune currently refers to as his parents  are his aunt and uncle   and the 7 sisters are actually his cousins  and jaunes real father is working for salem 

 ( or salem went looking for jaunes father who didnt work with her   ( before she had her veins  and had a child with him ) people compared jaune to jon snow who believed all his life to be illegitimate. what if jaune is an illegitimate child

= : monty when asked if there will be character deaths responded with I like game of thrones this makes me think of  jaune and jon snow. since jaune sounds just like jon. and jaune had a crush on weiss schnee and schnee means snow. jaune schnee would  equal jaune snow which sounds like jon snow

An outcast from a prestigious family who decides to dedicate his life to protecting the realm. Meets a girl who has been ‘kissed by fire’      (red hair ) who is killed by an arrow to the chest. ygritte  (who had red hair which led her to being said to being kissed by fire ) for jon snow and pyrrha for jaune ( and pyrrha literally means fire colored and pyrrha was burnt to ashes killed by cinder who is associated with fire) and killed by an arrow   also ygrittes  (jons love ) dead body was burnt to ash in a funeral pyre and pyrrhas body was burnt to ash jon    at the start believed he was neds bastard  

ruby is a sew  she has her powers due to her connection with oz having a child with someone of humanity 2.0 and is descended from that reincarnation jaune would be born due to salem having a child with someone from humanity 2.0 and get his powers due to that

plus lots of people already believe that jaune is salems descendant all this would do is make her relationship to jaune closer than that   ( I have links to posts on jaune being salems descendant

this is just extending it to salem being jaunes mother plus its said that miles luna ( jaunes va ) and jen ( salems va  ) will get lines with each other

 and monty said that jaunes color is different from the rest of his family

There’s the color you think he is, the color he lives up to, it’s a lot of stuff. -Monty in Forever Fall commentaries which implys that yellow which jaune means isnt his true color theme

imagine if this is because jaunes family isnt his immediate family and his relationship with salem

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also, not to continue to clown but

penny, with the maiden powers, didn’t react to the silver eyes. that means cinder’s weakness in volume 3 was absolutely to do with the METHOD of receiving the powers; the grimm beetle bonded with her and caused her to become part grimm before she got even got the grimm arm.

also, this further proves that people don’t respond to the brightness of the silver eyes, since no one but cinder did, which begs the question -

why is jaune arc the only other human to have ever reacted to the silver eye power?

and why did he shield his eyes in the exact same way cinder did this volume?

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( and this fits with tyrians interest in jaune ) 

just an idea that I came up with and if its true I will love to see dustypotions and other peoples reactions to it 

@thehtg-therealone​

[spookyjenn]

1-85

1. Are looks important in a relationship? No, but they're a plus.

2. Are relationships ever worth it? Sometimes yes.

3. Are you a virgin? No

4. Are you in a relationship? No

5. Are you in love? nope

6. Are you single this year? now i am

7. Can you commit to one person? no

8. Describe your crush British and Famous. 

9. Describe your perfect mate Funny and trustworthy. 

10. Do you believe in love at first sight? oh yes.

11. Do you ever want to get married? eventually.

12. Do you forgive betrayal? no. 

13. Do you get jealous easily? yes

14. Do you have a crush on anyone? yes.

15. Do you have any piercings? no

16. Do you have any tattoos? not yet.

17. Do you like kissing in public? yes as long as its appropriate 

20. Do you shower every day? omg yes

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? HAAH no

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? doubt it. 

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? somehow i achieved it or well depends on who you ask

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? no.

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? not really.

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? maybe? idk.

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? i wish

28. Have you ever been cheated on? oh yeah

29. Have you ever cheated on someone? oh yeah

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? Boob job, 

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? yup

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? oh yeah

33. Have you ever had sex with a man? no

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? yes?

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? yes

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? yeah

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? lol no

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? yup

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? OH YEAH

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? nope

41. Have you had sex so far this year? ugh no

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? not long

43. How long was your longest relationship? no clue? im the worst

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? too many 

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013? 1? idk

46. How many times did you have sex last year? NO CLUE

47. How old are you? 20

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? your loss.

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? im single babeh

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? yes.

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? yes

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? i dont give up on anyone

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? welp someone is mad bc im not dating them but im also single soooo

54. Is there someone you will never forget? yes

55. Share a relationship story. in 8th grade i dated a girl who ruined my life, we eventually broke up but she still continued to ruin my life all the way up to my senior year. COOL

56. State 8 facts about your body no thanks

57. Things you want to say to an ex dont get upset just cause i didnt want to fuck you

58. What are five ways to win your heart? my heart? i dont know her?

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? just a few months. sadly

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? their voice.

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? not be a dick.

63. What is your definition of “having sex”? penetration

64. What is your definition of cheating? sex.

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? deep kisses + grinding.

66. What is your favourite roleplay? i dont roleplay babeh

67. What is your idea of the perfect date? being with my love

68. What is your sexual orientation? Bisexual babehhhh

69. What turns you off? being a dick

70. What turns you on? Dracula Teeth, Used to be my girl, Bad Habits, - The Last Shadow Puppets

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? Threesomes. 

72. What words do you like to hear during sex? come find out? 

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? buy me merch.

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? no clue

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? Front row to The xx @ ACL 2017

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? spent my $$

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? as long as its 18+ go for it.

78. What’s your dirtiest secret? Married men give me their hard earned cash just to talk to me

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? last week? someone had or has feelings for someone who cant compare to me.

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? love isnt real

81. Who are five people you find attractive? Alex Turner, Miles Kane, Romy Madley, Nick O’Malley, Jamie Cook. 

82. Who is the last person you hugged? my grandma

83. Who was your first kiss with? some guy

84. Why did your last relationship fail? Bad timing, too handsy not a good kisser. tragic really..

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? oh yeah