#and also about reclamation - watched a play recently called Adam about a trans guy called Adam Kashmiry | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

variousqueerthings · 4 years ago

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Something about Elliot Page’s interview in Time and Lil Nas instagram post to his 14 yr old self and the specific narrative of shame and naming where that shame comes from, our stories moving on from ideas of transition and coming out and into living and telling our younger selves “it’ll be okay, even if you didn’t realise it then, look at where we are now”…

idk, something about reclaiming shame and retroactively being kind to our childhood selves, because we couldn’t be kind then. Something about us telling stories about shame, versus the shame put upon us by others and how I want to engage with those darker feelings so that I can face them, in both fiction and reality…

#elliot page #lil nas x #this is kind of about how I get drawn to darker narrative around queer identity #but in an introspective sense - the soaking in of violence making me not be good to myself #and how hearing that spoken to by others and reading/writing it makes me feel able to look at it in myself #and also about reclamation - watched a play recently called Adam about a trans guy called Adam Kashmiry #who was a refugee from egypt who came to the uk and struggled with getting asylum because he wasn't able to transition #and the play is a fictionalised account of #what happened and it was created with him + he plays the lead #and there is a lot of different kinds of violence in the play but you're being guided through it BY the real Adam #you know he made it through and got the support he needed and is living his life #anyway something is different in some way...#something in the agency we have... not perfect not by far... but it is different...#(it's also a little bit about how I'm obsessed with reading fictional men in their 50s as closeted queers #and how I relate to their masculinity struggles as a transmasc but that's another post)#queer stuff

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