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[irlnorthshaw]

the fact season 7 gave us TWO sultans episode... man is this what it feels like to be spoiled 🙏🙏🙏

they're so real for not trusting that tall white man. I KNOW THAT'S RIGHT!!!!!

moonbug i beg you... i WILL be seeing the sultans again. mark my words

[kateyiswell]

Session 2: Positive Reframing

Last Friday, I went to my second session with my psychologist.

Our topic for that day is Positive Reframing.

It was a fun session. I get to turn my negative memories/feelings into positive perspective.

She asked me to remember most of my negative, the one that hurts me the most, so I can find the beauty on it.

One of the moments I told her is when you cancel our meet up plans na nandun na ako sa meet up place. I am disappointed but I just continued with what should we do. Watched movie, eat alone, enjoy the surrounding. Yes, I really felt alone pero I was able to savor the moment.

The best one is when you left/dumped me, I was really hurt and I thought I was alone in my battle.

Little did I know, I always have people behind me as my support system and loves me unconditionally, without pretentions, yung hindi nanunumbat, yung kahit may mali ako, willing silang tulungan akong maayos yun. Yes, may maririnig ako pero not in the condescending way na sobrang nakakababa ng self-worth.

I acknowledged I need help pala instead of repressing my emotion. I need to let it go for my own peace and sanity and I know I needed the right channel for that.

I might have cried during the session pero most of the time, nagtatawanan lang kami ni Doc.

Here are the other list of negative:

1. We plan to eat out pero isa lang yung naorder kong ulam. You walked out on me kasi ang tanga ko mag-order.

Positive effect: I enjoyed the food alone, wala akong ka-share.

2. During some of our Dampa days, mali yung luto ng food, you told me it’s my fault again. Sinigawan mo ako sa harap ng mga kasama nating kumain. I almost cry sa harap nila kasi you really made me feel like I am a stupid person.

Positive effect: You were blocked by most of them dahil dyan. I am still friends with the people we ate with.

3. You told me the shittiest things about how I handle my finances, like why I bought life plans, memorial place, eh ang bata ko pa

Positive effect: *knock on wood* I am prepared than other people, like you. Di ko alam kelan ang last day ko sa earth, but at least I am ready esp yung mga maiiwan ko.

4. You do not want me to travel with my friends, dapat tayo lang magtatravel na dalawa. Pero lagi mo akong sinisigawan sa byahe. You do not appreciate what I organized. I cannot take pictures kasi sayang oras. I cannot go where I wanted kasi ayaw mong puntahan. At ayaw mo ipaalam ko sa family ko na umaalis tayong dalawa

Positive effect: Now, I can go wherever I go, with whomever I want na talagang mababait, wiling magtake ng pictures namin, willing mag enjoy sa mga activities kasi di lang kami nakaupo sa sasakyan enjoying the view. Di na ako magiguilty na di ako nagpapaalam sa family ko. At least they will know where am I and sinong kasama ko.

5. Whenever I bought you food, hindi ka nasasarapan. Lagi mo akong sinasabihan, bakit yan inorder mo, next time, iba na lang.

Positive effect: Hindi na ako manlilibre ngayon ng mga unappreciative na tao. Tapos kapag bibilhan ko sina kuya mo and wife nya, sasabihin mo wag na lang, pero I insist. Mas appreciative sila sayo. Sana sila na lang binibilhan ko lagi.

6. You have Tinder and Bumble, talked to other girls and sometimes, went out with them behind my back. Minsan, sinasabi mo sakin. Madalas hindi. Nung nahuli kita, nagpalusot ka pa. You bought me microwave. But still you met another woman. Don’t know what you two did, di ka na nag elaborate. You don’t post me in your social media account, sabi mo lowkey and private lang relationship natin. Recently, you told me you were hanging out with someone else. Pero di mo masyadong bet. Then, I saw your FB post - pictures with another woman, the person you told me di mo bet, her arms around you, it shattered my heart into pieces and broke my self.

Positive effect: I confirmed, cheating is a non-negotiable for me. I learned that I need to walk away with guys who do not want to be committed with me. Thank you, ikaw na mismo yung gumawa ng paraan para mawala ka sa buhay ko kasi I was still fighting for a relationship na matagal mo na palang tinapos. Magaan na sa pakiramdam kasi di na ako confused lagi bago matulog. Lastly, thank you sa microwave, gamit na gamit namin ng family ko.

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Kabilang Buhay

Seungkwan was lost not until he met Hansol, Hansol was the one who save him from his step father’s cruelty the world became unfair for Seungkwan his dad died when he was 7 and his mom met his step father when he was 9 years old walang ginawang iba si Seungkwan kundi sundin ang nais ng kanyang amahin and he always wish that his dad was there to protect him he felt so tired being hurt Seungkwan ace his class but he was always treated low in their own house until he met Hansol he witness Seungkwan’s downfall he witness how his step father hurt him how his hands hit Seungkwan and how much he beg him to stop suddenly Hansol became his constant man he was there for Seungkwan he was the one who help Seungkwan tatlong taon they became couple Hansol’s parent and older brother Choi Seungcheol welcomes him to the family for the first time naramdaman niya na welcome siya sa pamilya na meron siyang tahanan na uuwian at ligtas siya Hansol’s dad was the one who filed an case against his step father and he was so thankful that he met Hansol and his family.

Everything was perfect Seungkwan went home early he was quite sick he was now an CEO and he was planning to prepare dinner for Hansol and his family it was their 7th anniversary and every anniversary Seungkwan was making sure that he was the one who will cook their dinner.

“Ang aga mo ata Seungkwan?” Seungcheol ask while getting a pitcher of water

“Ah oo kuya masama pakiramdam ko ewan ko I felt something big will happen today di naman sa OA lang ako pero medyo kinakabahan ako kuya Cheol” Seungkwan mumbles and Seungcheol receive an call he drop the pitcher and Seungkwan was shock

“Kwan it’s Vernon”

“Ha? Bakit kuya?”

“He was in the hospital tara papunta na sila mom and dad don” Seungcheol replied Seungkwan felt weak he was getting weak no this couldn’t be His Hansol

“Kuya pwede bilisan mo ng konti?” Seungkwan ask he was crying hard now gladly Jeonghan is right next to him trying his best to calm the younger one

The last time he felt someone’s on verge of dying was when it comes to his mom who got into car accident too

After couple of minutes Vernon’s parents are outside the operating room his mom was just crying and his dad was just hugging his wife the doctor came his expression same expression as what he saw when his mom was declared dead

“Mr. Choi Hansol Vernon’s family?”

“Yes kami kamusta ang anak ko?” His mom ask and the doctor shake his head and Seungkwan’s knees are getting weak gladly Jeonghan and Seungcheol was there for him right now

“I am sorry but Mister Choi was declared dead as of 3:30PM excuse me” the doctor mumbles and Seungkwan cried how could he left like that Vernon he was the only person who fight for Seungkwan siya lang ang aasahan ni Seungkwan siya nalang ang meron kay Seungkwan.

Vernon’s parents hug Seungkwan he cried more knowing that there is no reason for them to hug Seungkwan they lost Hansol too

“Puntahan na natin siya Kwan” His mom calmly told him Seungkwan didn’t knew that this will be the last time he will see Hansol’s beautiful smile, that would be the last morning he will receive from Hansol, That would be the last I love you he will receive if he could just go back in time he will be there for Hansol even it will took his life too he just wished that he hug Hansol tighter he will do that

“Happy 7th anniversary bub you promise me na di mo ko iiwan bat mo naman kami sinopresa ng ganto bub di ko alam paano pa ko gigising sa umaga na alam ko na wala ka na sa tabi ko hindi ko na maririnig yung I love you mo and happy anniversary mo bub bakit? ang daya mo naman ihahanda ko palang yung dinner diba mag ce-celebrate pa tayo 7years na sol tsaka ka naman umalis pangako mo next year we are getting married ready na ko sol tsaka ka naman nawala sakin ang daya naman ni lord ang unfair ng mundo ako nalang sol ako nalang tumayo ka jan Hansol Vernon Choi dali na di ako magagalit di na ko mag tatampo sayo bub”

“Kwan”

“Tita Ma paano na ko si Vernon nalang meron ako” Seungkwan mumbles and Vernon’s parents hugs him tighter

“Nandito kami we won’t leave you behind Hansol definitely in good hands now remember when he started playing his favorite song sabi niya Ma even in my second life I will pick you and papa as my parents, I will pick Seungcheol hyung as my brother and definitely even in my second life I will pick Seungkwan as my other half kapag di ako pinayagan ni lord na hindi kayo ang parents ko at di si Kuya ang kuya ko at hindi si Seungkwan ang magiging boyfriend ko gagawan ko pa rin ng paraan mahal ko kayo ni papa tsaka kuya mahal ko rin si Seungkwan” His mom mumbles and a tears started falling from her eyes

“Hi Sol nak kami na bahala kay Seungkwan rest well anak you really did well alam mo naman mahal ka namin mahal na mahal” His dad said and Seungkwan hug his Hansol

“Bub look for me in your second life hintayin mo ko matatagalan I will be better soon bub pahinga ka maigi mahal na mahal na mahal kita” Seungkwan said and they been heading out of the morgue

“You can stay with us Kwan Hansol’s room can be yours or you can use the guess room”

“Salamat po Tito pa”

“We are family hindi namin hahayaan na masaktan ka mag isa do not forget that Kwannie please” Hansol’s mom said and there Seungkwan hug her tightly

“Salamat tita ma tsaka tito pa for being my second family for being my savior and for always taking care of me”

“Ano ka ba you’ve taken care of Hansol kaya enough na samin how much you’ve change hansol hindi pa enough yung tulong namin sayo” His dad said and Seungkwan smile at Hansol’s parents

They are just talking when the police interrupted them

“Mr. and Mrs. Choi the truck was found pero yung driver we are currently looking for him anyways we found this on Mr. Hansol’s car it seems for you Seungkwan anyways that’s our update for today we will update you once the suspect is found already” The police mumbles Seungkwan click the stuff toy and it was a talking stuff toy with Hansol’s voice

“Happy anniversary bub it’s been 7years since I’ve started dating the most beautiful and amazing boyfriend ang swerte ko that you keep loving me for 7years and I hope you won’t get tired of me mahal na mahal kita Kwannie you can use this kapag na mimiss mo ko ah Kwan I hope you know that even on my second life I will choose you I will pick you up kaya sana ganun ka rin I love you” Hansol’s voice seems so cracky he seems crying after the note.

“Mahal kita Sol mahal na mahal kita”

[kerahlekung]

Convid 19 mengikut Tuan Berahim dan Lebai Hadi...

Convid 19 mengikut Tuan Berahim dan Lebai Hadi....

Menteri Alam Sekitar kata Covid-19 ada hikmahnya. Bila wabak ini merebak ke seluruh dunia, semua kereta terhenti (sebab semua orang duduk di rumah). Ini menyebabkan udara dan alam sekitar menjadi bersih. Cisss... mentang-mentang dia menteri alam sekitar, dunia diserang wabak macam ni pun dia duk pikir untuk kepentingan politik dia je, konon prihatin sangatlah dengan kebersihan alam sekitar, phuiii, baru jadi menteri 3 minggu, pejabat pun tak ada lagi.  Orang tengah cemas dan berduka, dia boleh sembang bab hikmah dari serangan wabak itu kepada kementerian dia...  Bagi Haji Hadi pula mudah je... Apa benda masalah pun, dia mesti kata kena ikut Islam... Nak selesaikan masalah virus covid-19...? Hadi kata ada kaedah penyelesaian cara Islam. Jangan tanya macam mana caranya... Nanti dia jawab apabila penjajah menjajah kita, mereka bukan menjajah tanah air saja, tapi pemikiran umat Islam turut dijajah. Lori ada banyak jenis, ada lori kecik ada lori besar... Ini kita kena sedor kita kena fahang... isyu hudud, itu kena tanya DAP... er, bukan DAP hak ni, ni DAP negeri, kena tanya hok pusat. Ayat 'segala masalah ada cara penyelesaiannya dalam Qur'an', kerana Qur'an itu lengkap samporna, semua perkara ada dalam Qur'an; itu ayat lama sejak tahun 1980an lagi.... Ada sorang ustaz PAS bersyarah atas wakaf dia kabo gitu lah, kebetulan ada situ budak otak tak berapa centre... Bila ustaz kata semua benda ada dalam Qur'an, budak tu tanya : "Ustaz, cara-cara nok wat kheppok lekor ada dok dalam Qur'an..!" Tergagap-gagap ustaz nak jawab.... - Umo Bin Othman

Bukan masalah free tapi ada atau disorok...

Facemask dan Sanitizer ni sebenarnya tak perlu pun Kerajaan bagi percuma..Kita faham..Mungkin Kerajaan hari ini takda kemampuan kewangan.. atau mungkin takda kemampuann berfikir.. Yang penting bekalan itu ada dan harganya tidak melambung.. bukan rakyat tak nak beli, Rakyat pun tak tahu nak beli kat mana..Sebab takda dipasaran.. kalau ada pun org jual online.. harga lebih teruk dari Kapitalis walaupun yang jual tu pak haji.. Aku cadangkan, supaya Kerajaan mengedarkan,atau memasarkan Topeng Muka(facemask) dan Sanitizer melalui premis premis Station Minyak seluruh Negara..Sebab depa sentiasa buka.. Jadikan rangkaian Petronas, Petron, Shell sebagai Hub untuk rakyat dapatkan Facemask dan Sanitizer.. Bila depa isi minyak.. Depa boleh dapatkan facemask dan sanitizer.. Tak perlu bagi percuma..Jual jer di Mart atau Serbaneka di Station2 Minyak..yang penting harga terkawal...cara ini Mudah.. Banyak Premis,farmasi hatta DIY sendiri tutup..dan disuruh tutup.. Selepas itu baru bentuk rakyat untuk jaga kebersihan..jaga jarak sosial(Social distancing)... buat garis panduan dari PBT untuk urus niaga di pasaraya..Mart dan kedai2 Runcit..termasuk pasar pagi.. Yang susah fikir sampai nak kurung rakyat sampai nak guna tentera tu apehal.. Sampai disuruh tutup semua premis dan Kedai pukul 7 malam.. - Ipohmali

Jangan salahkan jemaah tabligh hanya  kerana beberapa golongan yang jahil dan jumud...

Amat mendukacitakan nama jemaah Tabligh disebut-sebut sebagai salah satu punca merebak wabak COVID-19. Benar, salah satu punca merebaknya wabak ini adalah kerana "kluster" mereka yang berdegil dan tidak mematuhi arahan keselamatan yang diberikan. Difahamkan telah ramai di antara mereka telah pun hadir melapor diri untuk membuat pemeriksaan. Malangnya, masih ramai juga di kalangan pendakwah ini berdegil atau jumud di dalam pemikiran mereka tentang wabak yang tidak pernah mereka dengar sebelum ini. Ada di antara mereka berdegil hingga ke tahap dipaksa oleh pihak berkuasa untuk menjalani pemeriksaan. Ada yang menggunakan hujah agama untuk mengelakkan diri masing-masing dari mematuhi arahan yang dikeluarkan oleh pihak berkuasa. "Allah berkuasa, hidup mati kita di tangan Allah, mengapa perlu takut kepada wabak ini lebih dari takut kepada Allah? Mengapa kita mesti jauhi Rumah Allah untuk solat berjemaah hanya kerana takut wabak ini?". Itu di antara hujah2 yang biasa kita dengar dari golongan jumud dan jahil ini.

Tidakkah mereka tahu Allah juga mewajibkan kita menjaga keselamatan diri dan keluarga kita dari wabak? Bukan soal kita takut wabak itu lebih dari takut kepada Allah, tetapi kita wajib jauhi wabak itu kerana itu juga perintah Allah. Setiap penyakit itu juga datang dari Allah dan penawarnya juga datang dari Allah serta keizinannya. Maksudnya, wabak itu tidak akan terjadi tanpa izin Allah. Allah menurunkan wabak atau penyakit itu bersebab agar manusia berfikir. Allah juga sediakan penawar setiap penyakit kecuali mati. Cuma, kita saja yang perlu berusaha dan bertawakkal untuk mencari penawarnya. Haram bagi kita mendedahkan diri kita, apatah lagi keluarga kita dari penyakit. Tidak cukup hanya kita berdoa kepada Allah untuk lindungi diri dan keluarga kita dari penyakit atau bala bencana sedangkan kita tidak mahu lari darinya. Itu bukan ajaran Islam. Setelah kita berusaha menghindari wabak ini dengan mematuhi arahan dari pihak berkuasa, barulah boleh kita serahkan diri kita kepada Allah dan memohon perlindungan dariNya. Saya menasihatkan saudara2 jemaah Tabligh agar melihat kepentingan masyarakat Islam dan insan sekeliling lebih utama dari kepentingan jemaah mereka. Buat masyarakat di luar sana, elakkan diri dari mengutuk atau mengecam jemaah Tabligh ini hanya kerana beberapa golongan dari mereka yang mungkin jahil terhadap isu yang melanda sekarang.- Wfauzdin Ns 

An Islamic reminder to my Tabligh 

brothers in Indonesia and the world...

It is with a heavy heart that I write this message to the Tabligh group. I am pleading that they cancel or postpone all gatherings in order for us to deal effectively with the number one enemy of man presently in the world; the COVID-19 virus. I was once part of the Tabligh group in my student days in the USA and had even attended the Detroit Ijtimak or Gathering of 20,000 brothers from around the world in 1985. I remember we slept on corrugated cardboards in a huge warehouse huddled with each other to warm ourselves from the harsh minus 5 degree weather then. We ate from one 'talam' or tray with our fingers and drank from a single cup of tea. We were Islamic Brothers. Our saliva and blood must flow in unison to seal the faith at all time and in all places. We wept together in the night, prayed in congregation and relished in listening to the heart rending Bayan or speeches by the senior Brothers.  Some of us were grocers, labourers and some were architects, doctors, lawyers and also former ambassadors seeking peace and enlightenment through a sacrifice of time, money and effort to rejuvenate Islam among the Muslims who had strayed by a non-political partisan approach of 'Gash' or visits to houses and sleeping at mosques. I learned to perform 'khidmat' by cooking, making drinks, serving food and eating at one time nothing but white rice with margarine. It was delicious. Plain white rice with plain water. Eating with your brothers of faith. Praying, joking making friends for life and weeping for our souls. The Tabligh approach does not recognize Mercedes loving politicians or title loving muftis. It is a simple act of faith where a labourer can be a pious leader over mere lawyers, architects or doctors. My lecturer friends who were committed would frequently 'go out' for 40 days on the road travelling, cooking, praying, lecturing, visiting and inviting others to join. Tabligh was a beautiful way of life to be an innocent Muslim unhindered by the constructs of wealth, false dignity and fake piety of notaries and 'educated' clerics. At any one time more than a thousand strong would be at the Sri Petaling Mosque that has become famous as the new epicenter for the COVID-19 outbreak.

When asked to cancel, the organisers quote words of the Qur'an and the Prophet Muhammad in trusting Allah and accepting His will over life and death. This is the license quoted not only by the organisers but by the visitors themselves. Both are wrong and I will personally bear witness against these organisers and visitors and hold them accountable to Allah in the Hereafter.

Allah clearly says in the Qur'an that God will not change the fate of a people unless they change themselves. The Prophet has always advised people to tie their camels and then leave things to faith. In Islam faith is the LAST weapon after human ingenuity, resourcefulness and spirit handle any and all situations. To place faith blindly before actions and planning that can be humanly taken is sheer nonsense and in complete violation of the spirit of Islam. A Malay Ustaz disagreed with the closing of the mosque for congregational prayers and activities citing that Allah and prayers will protect the worshippers. 

For my money, if the Tabligh visitors and mosque congregation wants to die from Corvid-19 and 'fly to heaven', they are most welcomed! What I do not want happen is that these 'ignorant warriors of Islam' are willing to expose themselves to the infections and in turn infect their wives, children, fathers and mothers and worse other people's children, parents, daughters and sons. You nak mati you punya pasal-lah! Jangan akibatkan orang lain mati! On the 16th of March last Sunday, my world came crashing down. I received a text message from my friend Jerald who had chaired my panel on Crisis on Education on the 3rd of March that he had tested positive for the COVID-19. It was the longest four days before I paid RM600 to be tested and the result came back negative. For that long four days, the thought of dying was not the worse part because at 58 years old, I had lived a full life. The worse part was the thought that I might have infected my five children and my three precious grandchildren that I had interacted with after the 3rd of March. The thought of infecting my wife of 37 years of marriage who has a sinus and asthma problem almost made me cry at night. 

Before 16th of March the COVID-19 issue was not a priority in my life. They were just numbers and seem far away from me. I had planned to cancel all my 7 talks and public appearance and that was going to be my last event. As fate would have it, that event was almost not only my death sentence but the fate of my children, grandchildren, wife, sister, brother and my students and co-workers. I had only shook the moderator's hand and held the microphone. That was all. And it could have been a tragic thing. I did not know nor expected as the warning of a national crisis was not forthcoming. What was coming was the backdoor government initiated by traitor MPs to the rakyat. That traitorous deed was more fearful than the virus. But all of that petty politicking now pales in the light of a new lockdown order. As Allah is my witness, the Tabligh event in Malaysia has now become the epicenter of the  outbrake. The Tabligh organizer gave the excuse that there was no government decree. They trusted religious faith than scientific facts. Now, the Indonesian Ijtimak is going to make the same mistake. I accuse the organisers of pure vanity, stubbornness and stupidity in resisting the request to cancel or postpone. Mecca has suspended the Umrah and possibly the Hajj in the future. What else can the organisers base their ludicrous decision on to continue?  Finally, in the hereafter when Allah calls these organisers of Tabligh why they continued with the Ijtimak against the plea to cancel, they will answer that it was their faith and love of Allah that made them continue knowing that Allah loves those who glorify Him. I would love to be there when Allah might say that their deed was for vanity of being leaders of a religious movement and for economic benefits and their sins of causing harm to others Muslims or non-Muslims will earn them the fires of Hell. - Professor Dr. Mohd Tajuddin Mohd Rasdi 

Someone In Muhyiddin Government Is 

Making RM18 Million “Every Month”...

As early as January, before Muhyiddin Yassin launched his “Sheraton coup” to topple his own government in order to form Perikatan Nasional backdoor government with corrupt regime UMNO and extreme Islamist party PAS, the then-Pakatan Harapan government had categorized face masks as price control items following the outbreak of the Coronavirus (which was still known as 2019-nCoV). Essentially, 2-layer medical or surgical mask was fixed at RM0.20 each while the retail price for 3-layer of the same mask was selling at RM0.80 each. Traders or retailers found to have breached the Price Control and Anti-Profiteering Act 2011 would face fines up to RM100,000 or maximum 3-years’ jail, or both, or pay a compound of RM50,000. But not many lucky souls managed to get their hands on the precious commodity. Thanks to panic buying of face masks, and even hand sanitisers, people continued with their normal life without the first defence. Get real, washing hands with soap is only sufficient if you stay at home. Once you go out, you’re taking a risk without a mask simply because you constantly breathe. Now, after the total number of confirmed Covid-19 cases breached the 1,000 mark to 1,030 with an additional 130 cases, not to mention a third death, the backdoor government of Muhyiddin Yassin has finally banned the exports of face masks effective March 18. It was quite amazing that the government took weeks before decided to take care of fellow Malaysians. On March 6, the Domestic Trade and Consumer Affairs Ministry said the Muhyiddin government “may impose” a temporary ban on the export of face masks to meet local demand. Nothing happened. A week later on March 14, the same ministry said in the event of a serious shortage of face masks, the government “will consider” a face mask export ban. Still, nothing happened. So, the genius in the Domestic Trade and Consumer Affairs Ministry had taken 2 weeks just to think and consider whether an export ban was a good idea, despite the number of Coronavirus cases kept hitting the roof – from 2-digit to 3-digit. Today, Malaysia has the fourth-highest number of Covid-19 infections in Asia – just behind South Korea (8,652), Iran (18,407) and China (80,967). Perhaps the incompetent backdoor government wanted to wait to ensure enough people have died before seriously taking a simple action like securing face masks for the people. But even when the clueless ministry finally announced the export ban, the price of the 3-layer or three-ply face mask will now cost RM2 instead of RM0.80 a pop – a whopping 150% increase. Domestic Trade and Consumer Affairs Minister Alexander Nanta Linggi claimed that the price of face masks needed to be increased due to higher cost of production materials. He said – “By allowing face masks to be sold at RM2, we hope to encourage local manufacturers to produce more.” He must have forgotten that the Pakatan Harapan had been the government prior.

The Pakatan Harapan coalition, which had since collapsed, exposed that apparently prior to the coup, the previous government had had discussions with local manufacturers to boost the stocks to ensure sufficient supply of masks within the country. In fact, it was revealed that the then-Pakatan Harapan government was prepared to purchase the face mask at RM0.60 a pop. Now in the opposition, the Pakatan Harapan presidential council has claimed that the mask manufacturers “did not” demand for any price increase during discussions with the previous Domestic Trade and Consumer Affairs Ministry. The manufacturers only asked for help with problems of insufficient workers, additional operation shifts, tax breaks and obtaining raw materials. And those discussions took place before China managed to solve the Coronavirus plaguing the country. Now that the Chinese has won the war against the pathogen, getting the raw materials should not be an issue anymore. In fact, China has excessive products that it has donated 100,000 face masks to Malaysia, scheduled to arrive through an AirAsia flight on Friday (March 20). Heck, China is flush with tons of masks that Alibaba billionaire Jack Ma has donated 1-million masks and 500,000 Coronavirus test kits to the United States, which is scheduled to arrive in the U.S. on Monday morning. In addition, the wealthiest man in China will also send 2-million masks, 150,000 test kits, 20,000 protective suits and 20,000 face shields to Malaysia, Indonesia, Thailand and the Philippines. With Muhyiddin now works hand-in-glove with the corrupt UMNO, will the past hanky-panky practice emerge once again where the hundreds of thousands of donated masks somehow disappear only to appear on the shelves of some retailers, making someone within the government very rich and laugh all the way to the bank? But that was not the main juice. The juiciest part is this – if it was true that the local mask manufacturers could not produce 3-layer masks at RM0.60 a piece, which is not true based on Pakatan Harapan’s revelation, why can’t the government allow imports of the masks without raising the market price to RM2? Yes, some government cronies will be making 150% profit out of every face mask at the expense of the ordinary folks.

Alexander Nanta Linggi - Domestic Trade and Consumer Affairs Minister

It was pretty simple to fix the shortage of face masks, if indeed Muhyiddin regime was sincere in helping the people. First, ban all exports of face masks under the pretext of national security. Second, the government will purchase all the masks manufactured locally at RM0.60 a piece as per discussed with the previous government. Third, allow imports of face masks to ensure sufficient supply and low price. After all, it was only in February (before Muhyiddin’s coup to create the present backdoor government) that the previous Pakatan Harapan government officially announced that the shortage of 3-layer masks would be resolved once local manufacturers start to increase production with an extra 400,000 pieces daily – suggesting that it was still profitable even selling at RM0.60. Hence, how could it be possible that the cost of production materials suddenly increases by a jaw-dropping 150% between February and March, at a time when China (the country has zero new cases domestically for a second consecutive day, mind you) has recovered from the plague and has so many extra masks to give away? The answer is quite obvious. Domestic Trade and Consumer Affairs Ministry admitted back in March 6 that thanks to the outbreak, the demand for 3-layer masks has skyrocketed to 15-million pieces every month. If the government were to buy at RM0.60 (as per earlier discussion between Pakatan Harapan and manufacturers) and resell at RM0.80 a pop, the profit will be only RM1.5 million based on 50:50 profit sharing with retailers. Of course, if the previous government decided not to make any profit, the retailers will enjoy the entire RM3 million profits based on RM0.20 profit margin. However, now that Muhyiddin government decided to raise the market price to RM2 per piece, suddenly the profit will be RM18 million – every month. Even if retailers are allowed to make RM0.20 a pop, the government cronies will walk away with RM15 million. Now, do you understand why the ministry announced that besides an increase of price from RM0.80 to RM2 for a piece of face mask, the government has also decided to allow imports of the masks? By doing so, the actual price could be even lower than RM0.60 due to competition. An additional RM0.10 of lower cost will translate to a cool extra RM1.5 million easy money without lifting a finger – every month. Indeed, it’s not an exaggeration to suggest that Muhyiddin’s backdoor government is a bloodsucking regime who would not blink twice at profiting from the people even in times of Coronavirus pandemic. To prove its innocence, the government must therefore debunk the revelation that the manufacturers had agreed to sell face mask at RM0.60 a piece to the Pakatan Harapan government. - FT

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[itmeanjelina]

Proverbs 31:10-31

The Ideal Wife

“When one finds a worthy wife, her value is far beyond pearls. Her husband, entrusting his heart to her, has an unfailing prize. She brings him good, and not evil, all the days of her life.”

“Many are the women of proven worth, but you have excelled them all. Charms is deceptive and beauty fleeting; the woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.”

Noon, ang prayer ko, gusto ko sana na yung taong para sakin, titignan nya ko beyond my physical features, gusto ko na magustuhan nya ako kasi nakikita nya yung grace ni Lord sa buhay ko, at maramdaman nya rin yun sa sarili niya. Pangarap ko sa buhay din maliban sa maging doktor, ay makahanap ng someone na sasamahan ako sa buhay habang nagseserve kay Lord. Super excited ako sa concept na yan ever since kaya lagi ako nagbabakasakali sa araw araw kung sino kaya yung taong yun. Lagi ako naghahanap sa mga taong nakakasalamuha ko, and dahil dun, unti unti akong nagfocus sa paghahanap at hindi sa pagreready sa sarili ko sa pagdating ng araw na darating na sya. Kaya siguro lahat ng nagugustuhan ko either di pwede or di nagwowork. 

dahil dun sa paghahanap ko, di rin ako nagkaroon ng year na walang crush, laging pinipilit ko sa ibang tao yung sarili ko nang di konoconsult si Lord sa will nya for me. Until nag grade 12 ako at masyado ako nasaktan hahaha 2 yrs ko gusto si Daki, 1 yr akong nagpahinga sa feelings. di ako naghahanap, hanggang sa narealize ko na bakit nga ba ako di naghahanap so pinagpray ko hahahahahah di kasi ako sanay na wala akong inspirasyon. so ang binigay sa akin ay si vincent na nireject ako at dun ako natauhan. nasaktan ako nang sobra kaya sinurrender ko kay Lord yung feelings ko. sabi ko sa Kanya, wag hayaan na maramdaman ko ulit yun unless sya na yung para sakin. ineexpect ko matagal pa ilang taon ganun pero after 1 month hehe narealize ko na gusto ko si kuya chino

Don’t get me wrong, di ko pa alam kung si kuya chino nga ba for me, pero lagi kong pinagpepray, kasi di naman ako nakikpagdate just to date, pero dahil nagreready na ako for the future. pero si kuya chino kasi yung naging instrument ni Lord para iready ko sarili ko para sa mapapangasawa ko. dahil kay kuya chino, ginive up ko mga bad habits ko, kas feeling ko di ako magiging worthy for him and and worthy na iwin sya (spiritually) kung di ko aayusin sarili ko. pangalawa din ay ang pag wiwin ko sa kanya, sa process na yun, mas nagiging malapit ako kay Lord at nareready ko rin ang sarili ko spiritually. Isa pang natutunan ko ay ang pagiging patient. Isa na ata sa pinakamahirap na ginawa at ginagawa ko hanggang ngayon ay maging patient kay kuya chi, sa pagheal nya sa pagiging okay nya, and maging patient sa timing ni Lord. napakahirap wala akong masabi, pero walking with God knowing na maganda ang ending ay napakacomforting din sa feeling. Lastly,natutunan kong maging faithful nang sobra at maachieve ang peace through being faithful. dati lagi akong anxious about the future and iniisip ko na wala akong nagagawa sa buhay ni kuya chino, ilang months ko rin kalaban sarili ko, 7 months to be exact, biruin mo, ang tagal bago ko naachieve yung gandang state of mind, pero super worth it. nafefeel ko yung presence ni Lord sa buhay ko and mas sure na ako sa sarili ko at sa kanya na kahit wala akong nakikita at iba yung nararamdaman ko, sure ako na God keeps His promises. hehe

Sa lahat ng pinagdaanan at pinagdadaanan ko ngayon, alam kong nireready ako ni Lord para maachieve ko yung “Ideal Wife” ayon sa proverbs, di nya ako hahayaan na lumayo sa landas kaya eto ako ngayon, fineface ko yung training ground hehe. pero ok lang, alam kong lahat ng pinapagawa sakin ni Lord ay super worth it sa huli. Nakikita ko na sarili ko na nagseserve sa Kanya kasama yung taong ibibigay nya sakin para mahalin ko at mahalin din ako <3

[unconditionallovebirds-blog]

Where our Love Story starts

Jemalyn Jarandilla Gomez soon to be my future wife 😍

Nagsimula tayo sa Ate ko nung panahon na magkaibigan palang tayo yung first time natin magpm. Hanggang sa naging Jelay ko. Yun ung tinawag ko sayo kasi nga "KO" gusto ko saken ka. Pero syempre hindi ko naman sinabe na yun gusto ko. Sabe mo pa nga nun "May ko talaga?".

Hindi mo kasi alam nun na crush kita. Tahi-tahimik lang pero may gusto na pala sayo. Binabantayan lang bawat salita na icchat mo sa gc kung paano ka maging nice sa iba. Yung akala ko hanggang dun lang tayo pero hindi ko akalain na parehas pala tayo ng feelings sa isa't isa.

Ang sarap sa feeling na maging sayo yung taong crush mo lang dati. Ngayon girlfriend mo na. 😍😘

Pero kapalit ng saya yung lungkot at sakit kasi nasasaktan kita, Napapaiyak kita. Ganun rin ako pero alam mo ba? Sa tuwing nagaaway tayo? Hindi ko makita sarili ko kapag wala ka. Hindi ko lubos maisip yung buhay ko kapag walang jemalyn sa buhay ko. Nakakapagod kasi nasasaktan pero alam kong trials lang to. 😊Marami pang mangyayare sa relationship natin. Selosan, Away, Tampuhan pero iniisip ko palagi yung future nating dalawa paano nalang kapag wala ka. Hindi ko maisip na hindi ikaw yung babaeng hihintayin ko sa altar. Hindi ko kaya na hindi ikaw yung papakasalan ko at magiging asawa ko.

Love? Wifey? Myloves? Mahalko? Asawako? Babylove? Babyko? Kahit ano pa itawag ko sayo. Iisa lang yun. Iisang tao lang yun 😍

Malayo tayo sa isa't isa. Pero alam mo ba nag-iisa kalang dito sa puso ko. 😘

Ikaw yung babaeng gusto kong makasama habambuhay.

Ikaw yung babaeng gusto kong mapangasawa ko.

Ikaw yung babaeng gusto kong maging mama ng magiging anak ko. 😍😘

3 babies okay na yun. Tapos Ikaw! Sobrang saya ko na nun love. Lalaban tayo sa lahat aking mahal.

Hindi susuko sa lahat ng laban,

Kakayanin ang bawat pagsubok sa buhay,

Basta ang mahalaga ay yung meron akong IKAW.

IKAW na merong AKO, Ikaw na bubuo ng buhay ko. Ikaw na kukumpleto sa mga pangarap ko. 😍

Love? You're amazing and Beautiful!

From :

Hubby

[savedbyloveforgivenbygrace]

THIS MAY TOOK YOU LONG TO READ GUYS, BUT I HOPE YOU ENDURE WITH ME AND LEND ME SOME MINUTES TO READ MY STORY. It was Feb 10, 2017 6-6:30am. On the way ako to duty sa National Kidney Transplant Institute (Medtech-Extern ako doon). Nagpapaba ako sa driver sa may pedestrian lane sa tapat ng Gate1 ng QC city hall. Papasok na sana ako. But then, pagbaba ko sa jeepney, I looked first left and right para malaman if may mga padating na sasakyan. Well, I saw some coming but it was far. I was on the right side and far from naaninag ko papadating ang jeep, taxi at motor. However, diko na alam ang sunod nangyari. Nagtaka ako pagkagising ko (dahil parang 30mins ako nawalan ng malay, tinanong ko agad kase ung rescuer anong oras na nun 630am na daw) asa tabi na ako at may mga police, guard and rescue team. And them I asked kuya rescuer, "Anong nangyari?" "Nasagasaan ka" — sabi nia saken, tapos nun napahawak ako sa muka ko dahil puro dugo nakita ko sa kamay ko at pagkatapos nun sinabi ko kay kuya "Tulungan moko kuya!" napaiyak ako dn kase ng sabhin nia na wag ako malikot dn dahil nabalian ako, dun ko palang narealize lalo na masakit yun at umiyak na ako ng sobra. Pasalamat nalang dn ako kase walang nawala sa gamit ko. Tumatawag si boyfriend nun pnasagot saken ni kuya at snabi ko nasagasaan. He was in a rushed and went to me from Legarda. Thankfully they asked me if I have a friend to come with me at si Ram, kaextern ko sa NKTI he went with me after ko sia tawagan. (pinatawag saken ni kuya rescuer ganun dn na pnatawagan nia saken si mama ko). Mama talked to the rescuer & told them to go immediately in the nearest hospital. Luckily I was an intern before at East Avenue Medical Center, and some of the people knew me and helped me. I forgot the ortho-doctor's name who straigthen immediately my fractured bone. I thank Ram, for he was with me and he talked to my ninang also and othe relatives (sorry, Ram if you got screamed that day, everybody was in shocked that time). Afterwards my boyfriend came too, after a while, the mother of "ALBERT IBAJO TORRES" — name of the person who got me in that situation. (Maswerte sia napilayan at bugbog lang siya), tinawagan daw sia ng anak nia kaya sia napunta doon saken. I can't believe she'll come dn. Too make the long story short, I was shook when I saw one of my tooth was broken and my enamel showed, how unfortunate I am. By the way they provided the titanium plate for my fractured femur bone. (My diagnosis: Fractured closed complete communited displaced m3 right femur) The plate worth 45k. I thank them for they'd provided it however, when they knew that we have a discount in philhealth (Mom used my philhealth) she got angry! Excuse me? It's my philhealth dba? Actually they really need to provide all our bill because it's her son's fault. Our bill in hospital: 44,425Php with discount.. only 20k+ has been charged. So, si mama dahil maawain sya, sinabi nalang nia na bayaran ung 20k+ namin. But then, after madischarged and some checkUps the mother of ALBERT IBAJO TORRES, Tess is her name (I dont know the whole name) provides the fee for checkUps and continued to pay the balance for the bill. Pero when we came back for my 3rd month of checkUp, nagbago ang lahat, nagtry si mama to reach her, tinawagan nia sa fone but she didn't answer until my mom decided to call her in the house of where she works as "Kasambahay" But things changed! She was angry and told my mom "Mag-antay ka. Kase wala nga akong pera diba?" sabi naman ni mama "Ano, mag-aantay ako? Nag-usap tayo ha, nagpirmahan pero hindi kayo tumutupad! Idedemanda ko kayo." then she fought "sge idemanda niyo!" My mom was triggered by that. So afterwards we filed a case and after some wks a subpoena came to our house pero nung pmnta kami sa 1st hearing di sla pumunta. Tinamad nadn kami kase parang wala din mangyayari. Mahirap pa magAsikaso dahil we're from TONDO then the case we should arrange is in QC pa. Nangibabaw dn sa heart ni mama nalang yung yung awa kase dn may pamilya ung nakabangga saken. sabi nga sa bible *ROMANS 12:19 Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord.* Pero kinaayawan ko lang doon dahil matapang pa siya, matapang pa siya ipaglaban na hindi kasalanan ng anak nia yun. Well, kung sa tutuusin, pinagtataka ko nun dapat jeep or yung taxi ang mauuna kase sa case na yun. Asa right side ako patawid, yung arrangement nila from right to left is JEEP—TAXI—SINGLE MOTOR of Albert Ibajo Torres. Ibig sabihin po talaga, he was driving more than the required limit. He's motor really broke down when I see the pictures from the MMDA. From that time na matapang pa si ate tess, we never contact them and asked for help at hingiin pa yung balance ng bill. We just asked the Lord na siya na ang bahala sa pamilya nila. Sa therapy ko, sa hanggang sa makalakad ako, wala naman sila naitulong e actually hanggang doon lang sila. Walang palabra dehonor e. God said also in: PROVERBS 3:8📖 Then you will have healing for your body and strength for your bones. ✔ In addition, I should look forward now because I conquered everything! I'am now strong woman. I wanna thank all of you — Nagpapasalamat ako sa ninang ko, ninang EMILY AGASID for helping without hesitation lalo na financially, she was really a blessing to me sa family namin. I pray to God na icontinue sia ibless sa family nia rin and business nia. I also thank my DEAREST PHYSICAL THERAPIST, Mam Nikko, for helping me to step up again and be confident in every walk of my life. Hihihi. Thank you din sa mga friends ko na pumunta saken nung asa hospital ako napakarami niyo. most esp. Ronny, Rose, Ate Roch, Ram (2wks ako sa hospital, 2wks din sla dumuty saken. iloveyou guys ☺☺☺) Thankyou for being with me guys and gals — AU FRIENDS AND MGA KA-INTERN FRIENDS KO and other church friends ☺☺☺ PS: sa mga friends ko na malayo na chinat ako to send prayers and support. So many to mention, thank you po talaga 😍 Also din po sa CLGF Family for being there and praying for me too. Sa mga other relatives ko na dumalaw din esp. Tita Ana, Tito July, Tita Achie, Tito Angelo and her wife. Maging sa tita kong pastor, tita Josie sa pagbabantay din saken sa ospital. Kay Ninang Theresa Cordero, Ptra. Mercy. Salamat sa prayers po. Thank you dn po sa NKTI Family Thank you sa pagpunta niyo po that time saken; esp. sa mga Senior Staff and CMT namin. Sa EAMC Family, mga staffs ko doon for helping me. Sa mga kapatid ko, Ate Joy (emotionally and financially) at Ejboy (sa pagpapasaya saken) kay mama at papa kong mahal. Sa pagmamahal at pagpapalakas saken lalo na sa mama ko na walang sawa nag-aalaga saken hanggang sa ngayon, samin magkakapatid. ❤❤❤ Especially my boyfriend who helped me until now bearing with me. Mostly sa time na naisip ko nahuhuli na ako dahil wala pa ako experience sa lab work yung tipong isang taon na akong medtech pero wala parin akong nagagawa, frustrations ko bilang medtech na wala parin akong kwenta.. salamat, pinalalakas mo loob ko lalo na sa pagsama mo sa mga laban ko sa buhay. Alam ko maraming nawala saken na chance this 2017 but Inlook forward na sa 2018 everything will change (as what you say din). Salamat din kahit napakadami ko ng stitches sa katawan ko, you always tell me parin na "Im the most beautiful girl." And the scars are just marked how strong I'am. ❤ Thank God he gave me you. Thank you for being patient and supportive to me. iloveyou babe, iloveyou always and forever. And most of all, I thank the Lord God Almighty, for giving me this 4th life since the day I was born and suffered lot of operation and life & death situation. I thank the Lord for comforting me and continuing to heal me physically, emotionally and my health issues. I LOVE YOU LORD. Your mercy endures forever. The Grace of the Lord is sufficient to me. ❤❤❤ All glory belongs to the Lord. Hallelujah. Amen! I've wrote this as an open-letter to everybody, to show how good still is the Lord despite nagkukulang tayo sa Kaniya, and I wanted to show how awesome is the Lord with his miracles in my life. ☝ I DECLARE BLESSINGS TO ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE READ MY LIVING TESTIMONY. MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAVE A BOUNTIFUL NEW YEAR! 🎆🎆🎆🎁🎄🎊🎊🎊 PS: Thank you sa naging best bud ko for 6months. My yellow crutch. A thing I leaned on sa road to learn to walk (again hihi 😁). ✨

[thisisforyoumkc-082117-blog]

To the love of my life

Baby. alam mo ba? you make me feel some kind of way that no one else can. you make me feel special, cared and loved. and i can't never thank you enough for that. i want to thank you for always being there for me. sa walang sawang pag iintindi sakin. mahal na mahal kita baby. sobra. di ko maexplain kung ano nararamdaman ko sayo. and for the record, you're the first person na cinoconsider ko talaga included sa future ko. i want to marry you mahal. i want to have kids with you. i want to grow old with you. i only want you. i hope baby we can work this out. ayoko ng matagal lang, gusto ko hanggang dulo tayo baby. ayoko na ng ibang tao kundi ikaw lang. salamat mahal sa mga chances na binigay mo sakin; and i promise na i wont waste it. you know what? you make my days better, kahit nag aaway tayo often. but still baby, you still make me feel like i matter in this world baby. you make me feel na may kwenta ako and i am lovable. let's just leave all our pasts behind because what's waiting for us in the future would be remarkable more than anything that has happened in our lives. you made my days in 3 months wonderful baby, and i know that hindi lang hanggang 3 months, kundi hanggang sa huling hininga ko. you'll make me happy as long as you're there baby. i love you. i want to make a promise to love you and be there for you until my last breathe. that will never change. baby i believe that we can surpass anything basta we're just there for each other. always remember that. mahal ko, lagi mo tatandaan na ako ay lagi nandito para sayo, hinding hindi kita susukuan. In the past 3 months, alam ko it was not easy for us. Marami tayong pinagdaan, away at issues. Pero we manage to fix it. I hope we can always manage to fix every struggle we have as a couple. I know we can do this mahal. Sa lahat ng pagsubok, kapit ka lang satin. Kaya na natin to. They said solar eclipse daw ng august 21, not here in philippines but in other country. But you know what? for me you're my solar eclipse. You're so beautiful to look at and at the same time, you're special. solar eclipses happen seldomly; just like you, You’re one in a million. im grateful that i met you. you turned my life around. and i dont want to go back in my life where i dont have you. im sorry if walang surprise and stuff. It would suck if i didn't actually meet you. You're the greatest gift i've ever received. actually dapat mag propropose pako ng pagdating mo dito pero di ko na kaya. i want to give my heart to you. Bago mag pasukan, i want you to submit myself wholly to you. you're my one and only. Im yours. all of me. mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal kita Michelle Kaye Claro. Baby, my 3 months having you was best. Those were the best 3 months of my life. I cant wait anymore, i want us to be official na. I want you to be mine wholly. My heart belongs to you and only you. Wag na wag mo iisipin na hindi kita kailangan at okay lang ako na wala ka. kasi hindi. hindi ko kaya yun. i want to keep you forever in my heart. Thank you michelle for showing me that love deserves a chance. That i deserve a chance to feel loved. And you're the only one who made me feel loved. Thank you for making me believe that im still lovable. that i still have value in this earth. You showed me great things. Thank you for making me believe in love again. And i want you to know that you deserve all the good things in life baby. ALL OF THE GOOD THINGS. because you're a good person. Thank you for staying by my side through my ups and downs. thank you for always listening to me. And baby, i promise to do all of those rin sayo.  Here's to more months, years and forever with you. i love you more that anything in this world baby and i want you to be my wife someday and spend my life with you, but first; will you be my girlfriend?

[baaaaaaaaaatman]

August 17, 2017

18 Days after we broke up, I just can't say anything aside from I miss her and I love her so much. Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na ipapahamak ng simpleng foodtrip yung relationship natin, I knew I was wrong. Our relationship has been running so wrong for a long time. I admit na nasakal ako sa relationship natin, I missed my old self, my friends and my freedom. Napagod ako sa araw-araw na init ng ulo mo sakin, napagod ako sa araw-araw na pagaaway natin. Sana nakinig ka sakin everytime na sinasabi ko sayong hindi healthy sa relationship natin yung nangyayari satin 😔 Kasi babe humigingi na ako ng tulong sayo non, napapagod rin ako at nasasaktan rin ako 😔 Hindi ko na sinabi sayo na sumama ako sa friends ko kasi alam kong magagalit ka, alam kong magdududa ka. At kung nagpaalam ako non, alam kong hindi mo rin ako papayagan. 😔Akala ko kapag nalaman mo yon, magaaway tayo, magagalit ka or di mo ako kakausapin. Kaya sobrang gulat ko na nakipagbreak ka na agad sakin. 😭 Binlock mo ako sa lahat ng social media accounts mo and even sa phone mo. You didn't even gabe me the right to ask for sorry and explain. Sobrang nasaktan ako Jay, at alam ko nasaktan ka rin. I was looking forward of you being my future wife for the rest of my life, and as I was always tell you na Part ka na ng mga pangarap ko. That point of you giving up is very meaningful and heartbreaking for me. Literal na basta mo nalang ako iniwanan sa ere yung naramdaman ko. Dumating ako sa point na naturn off ako sayo, at napagod ako. buntong hininga nalang yung nagawa ko. Sinabi ko nalang sa sarili ko na siguro nga hindi niya deserve yung treatment ko, siguro nga hindi niya ako deserve. She wants to be treated a lot better than what I can give. And on the other hand di rin naman ako pasado sa parents mo. Sobrang bumaba self esteem ko, sobra. labing-walong araw ang nakalipas, heto akong lalong nahihirapan at nasasaktan. Mahirap gumalaw, mahirap mag-isip at mahirap matulog. Suko na ako sa sumuko kong damdamin. SOBRANG HIRAP. Oo nadagdagan yung free time ko, nakakalabas ako at nakakapunta kung saan saan. I'm free to talk and meet anyone anytime and anywhere, I can sleep the whole week if I can and I can watch movies if I wanted to. Masarap pero hindi masaya. Kasi lahat ng naiisip kong gawin, naalala kita. Alam ko kasi na mas mageenjoy ako gawin lahat ng iyon kung ikaw ang kasama ko. Madami nagsabi sakin na "Move on na kasi", "wala na yan, baka may bago na yon", "you deserve better". Pero all I have in my mind is you and will always be you. You have the beauty within and in all aspects. Ikaw na yung pinakamagandang babae sa Mata ko. I was your first love at sobrang suwerte ko doon. Kung meron man akong pinagsisihan, yun yung sana naging mas open ako sayo at sana pinanindigan yung sarili ko. Sana hindi ako natakot na magalit ka or mag-away tayo. Sana mas inalagaan natin yung relationship natin 😭😂 Aaminin ko, gusto na kitang puntahan sa bahay niyo 3 days after non kaso nalaman kong nagtitinder ka nanaman 😔😭 Babe bakit naman ganun?? 😭😭 Gusto ko pa sana'ng lumaban kaso lalo mo akong binibigyan ng dahilan para sumuko. 😔😭 Sobrang natatakot akong magbreak tayo kasi baka mamaya gawin mo yung ginawa mo dati, BULLSHIT ginawa mo nga 😔😭 Hindi ko kinayang makita yung mukha mo sa Application na iyon. 😔 Para akong namatayan ng pangarap at para akong pinatay ng siyam na beses. At kung sa tingin mo okay lang sakin na malamab nagyoyosi at umiinom ka ng alak araw araw, sana malaman mo rin na araw-araw akong nagaalala at napapraning kaiisip kung ano na bang nangyayari sayo at kung ano pang puwedeng mangyari sayo. Kung sa tingin mo pinagtitripan kita sa tuwing tumatawag at nagtetext ako sayo, sana malaman mo na iniisip kita, nagaalala ako at mababahala ako. Feeling ko para akong kandilang may sindi, 18 days pa lang pero kalahati nalang natitira sakin. 😔😭

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Season-season lang yan All seasons are beautiful and time bound kapatid napakaganda ng season na meron ka na binigay, sayo ng Lord di mo lang naeenjoy kasi nagfofocus ka sa season ng iba.. Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God’s work from beginning to end. Ecclesiastes 3:11 (NLT Version) Iniangkop niya ang lahat ng bagay sa tamang kapanahunan. Ang tao'y binigyan niya ng pagnanasang alamin ang bukas ngunit hindi binigyan ng pagkaunawa sa ginawa ng Diyos mula sa pasimula hanggang sa wakas. Ang Mangangaral 3:11 (MBB Version) Yan ang sinabi ng Lord sayo lahat ay may panahon at oras oo wala nga talagang forever kapatid kasi nagbabago talaga ang mga bagay, kaya hanggat oras mo pa enjoyin mo na kapatid dahil magsisi ka rin kasi nasayang ang season mo... I really found it bit a funny and shocking to have this devotion this morning, realizing that each words na naririmig ko ay laging dinidugtugan ni Lord in my devotion yesterday there was an event called "hu-got your heart" (youth edition) sa church.. to tell you honestly it was not really planned na pumunta ko sa event na to, biglaan lang talaga at wala kong balak pero si Lord full of surprises talaga just this week may nareceive akong blessing for Lord and di ko alam saan sya gagamitin tapos bigla na lng pinakita sa akin at pinaalala ni Lord tong event na to.. totoo lang ang gusto ko sana sa youngpro makaattend e pero pang youth edition lang yun kaya ng budget ko, but i know may dahilan si Lord and nagulat na lang ako hearing His still small voice whispering on me na bumili dw ako ng ticket.. and i was really blessed to see and hear her preaching Pastora Lovely Santiago from Lifegiver Church Quezon City main, you know what i really do read her blogs and follow her i shared with you already that she was my role model.. and i was been inspired to pursued this passion of mine because of her kasi sobra talaga kong nabless sa kanya, and hearing her during her preaching was just wow! I mean sobrang nakakabless at amazing talaga sya yun testimony nya at yun message na para sa amin grabe.. talagang mind blowing sapul na sapul ako talaga tagos sa puso narealize ko na ang dami kong sinayang na season dahil nakacentro ako sa mga maling pangyayari at maling tao di naman yun ang season ko hindi ko nagamit sa tama yun season ko kaya talaga sobra kong nabbless, madami pinaiintindi si Lord sa akin sa mga panahon na nakikinig ako kay Pastora Lovely and i would really like to share it with you, tayo kasi mga kabataan masyado tayong mapusok at laging emotions ang pinaiiral na atin ang dali sa atin mafall nagmamadali kasi tayo di naman dapat kasi nga may season para dyan.. kapatid ibibigay din ng Lord sayo ang para sayo sa tamang panahon ang problema kasi inuunahan mo si Lord pinipipilit mong season mo na kahit hindi pa, kaya ang ending uwi kang sawi at luhaan pinili mo yan diba panindigan mo.. kaya pala lagi sa akin nirereveal ang ecclesiastes 3:1-7 madalas kong ishare yan sa mga kapatid kong nagiging mapupusok sa damdamin pati na ang jeremiah 29:11 read your bible kapatid sobrang ganda ng sinabi ni Lord sa book of ecclesiastes, at nakakatuwa na yun ang pinaka main verse ng topic ni Pastora that time and narealize ko talaga na lahat ng bagay may tamang oras at panahon we just have to wait.. basta enjoyin lang natin yun season natin and we should maximize it hanggang may panahon ka for that season you maximize and you enjoy it, maximize your season to study and be a youth kapatid walang forever hindi ka forever kabataan kaya yan season mo na yan.. you enjoy it kapatid gamitin mo yan season to serve God kasi kapag may pamilya ka na di mo na magagawa yan and please lang kapatid kung wala kang balak tapusin yan relationship nyo in marriage utang na loob wag mo ng ituloy ang binababalak mo, kaya manliligaw kasi nakikita mo syang future wife mo at ina ng mga anak mo hindi yun nakikita mo lang sya bilang display anong akala mo sa amin mga babae? Di kami laruan uy ang precious kaya namin at ginawa kami ni Lord fearfully and wonderfully made we deserve better better and hindi kami dapat nagsesettle sa less.. kaya pagipunan mo kapatid you start to invest for your future kapatid and kapatid be wise on your season please? Hindi puro puso na lang pinaiiral mo kaya ka nga binigyan ng Lord ng puso at isipin para parehong gamitin hindi yun puro emotion ka na lang, you have to guard your heart kapatid wag kang puro puso gamitan mo rin ng utak kapatid.. most important love God in your season kapatid wag mong sasabihin alam mo na ang pagmamahal kung di mo naman dinididecate ang buhay mo sa Diyos you cannot love others if you don't love God tandaan mo kapatid God is love enjoyin mo tong season na to para lumalim kay Lord don't just love Him be in love with Him dahil siya ang source ng lahat ng pagibig John 3:16 kapatid season mo to to establish yourself wag kang pumasok sa relationship kung alam mong marami pang kailangan ayusin sayo, let God mold you kapatid may season para dyan minamamadali mo kasi kaya ka nasasaktan kapatid ang pagpasok sa relationship wala yan sa edad kahit 18 ka na or 30 plus ka pa.. you wait for your season kapatid kahit pa sinabi ng Lord na darating si the two ng mga 45 ka na or 50 plus let it ba magtiwala ka sa Lord kasi meron syang ibiibigay at ilalaan for you sa tamang oras at tamang panahon magantay ka lang at wag mong mamadaliin, si Lord pa rin ang the best author ng love life mo mas nakakakilig yun kapatid wag kang dumepende sa mga nakikita mo sa tv o nababasa mo sa wattpad and please lang kapatid tigilan mo na yan.. madami magagandang love story sa bible enjoy that season trust God in your season kapatid love is hope kapatid naniniwala ako dyan magtiwala ka lang antayin mo kapatid wag mong hanapin enjoy your season why it last and you give your best shot kasi walang forever kapatid season season lang yan kapatid, gamitin mo ng tama yan season wag mong sayangin wag naman sanang dumating yun time na magsisi ka kasi hindi mo nagamit yan season mo at di mo na enjoy wag ganun kapatid enjoy your season kapatid dont rush #seasonseasonlangyan #maximizeyourseason #bewiseonyourseason #loveGodinthisseason #trustGodinthisseason #walangforever #waitforyourseason #truelovewaits #usapangpagibig #hugotyourheart #youthedition #lovespeaks