#and ahahaha i guess that means i find myself boring?

[amchara]

Your Result:

thomas lightwood

you probably have the biggest heart on the planet, and not just because of your physical size. you carry yourself with quiet fortitude and are suspiciously good at setting boundaries. you probably like to travel and are multilingual AF. your brain keyboard-smashes around your crush.

i made a uquiz, go take a look :)

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Ibara Saegusa - Worms Within the Lion’s Body (1)

Writer: Kanata Haruka

Season: Winter

(Location: S TV (Central TV) )

Ibara: Thank you for your hard work again today! Even I am proud that you’re so competent in all areas ☆

Since today’s recording emphasised on ad-libbing that wasn’t in the script, I was a bit worried myself. But it’s great that my worry was unfounded.

Here is some ice cream as refreshments from the tv programme’s staff. Would chocolate flavoured ice cream be fine with you, Your Excellency?

Nagisa: …… It’s ice cream. Thank you, Ibara. This is today’s reward isn’t it? I’ll accept it, then.

(...... Hurk!?)

Ibara: By all means, I look forward to your continued success in work tomorrow as well, Your Excellency!

Nagisa: ……

Ibara: Is there something wrong, Your Excellency? For some reason, you’re making a difficult expresion. Was it my ineptitude?

If that is the case, I will aim for improvement immediately, so please do not hold back in telling me the problem. This Ibara Saegusa will show you that I can overcome any difficulty if it is Your Excellency’s wishes. Ahahaha ☆

Nagisa: …… You’re being loud. Shut up a little.

Ibara: Heh…….!?

Eh? Y-your Excellency? Why are you angry, so suddenly? Have I really offended you somewhere?

If there is something, I will rectify it right now!? Right this moment! So please talk to me peacefully!?

(Location: CosPro Office Conference Area)

Ibara: —And that was what happened.

Hiyori: Ahaha. That’s so funny. I guess Ibara was spooked by how intimidating Nagisa-kun was.

Ibara: This is no laughing matter. It’s been a few days since that incident, but His Excellency still hasn’t talked to me.

Hiyori: Hmm. So then, Ibara has come to me to ask the reason for Nagisa-kun’s anger?

Ibara: Exactly. As it is His Excellency’s day off today, I wanted to grab the opportunity to figure out the specifics.

Hiyori: I think there’s no need for you to be so nervous. It was just a ‘worm’ in a bad place. (2)

Ibara: Even so, I didn’t think that His Excellency would be so mad at me for that.

Hiyori: Fufu……

Ibara: Is there something wrong? This really is nothing to laugh about, Your Highness.

Hiyori: Nothing, I’m just thinking that this Ibara that’s panicking a lot more than I was expecting is really cute.

Ibara: No matter how much one knows, one has to be wary of landmines as one might not know where they might be buried.

Up till now, when I had angered His Excellency, I was able to figure out the cause to some extent. But this time, I could not even find a lead to the cause.

I can’t defuse the bomb properly, in this case.

Therefore, as Your Highness is the one who is the most knowledgeable about His Excellency, I implore for you to lend me your power!

Hiyori: ……Heh, Ibara is being unusually and admirably meek, aren’t you?

Ibara: If His Excellency’s mood continues to be bad, it might start to become a hindrance for our future activities as “Eden” and “Adam.

Thus, I have decided this incident should be resolved as swiftly as possible.

Hiyori: I see. Now I understand why you’re so desperate.

I do certainly know the reason for Nagisa-kun’s anger. So it would be absolutely correct for Ibara to seek me out.

Ibara: That’s quite fortunate! Well then, shall we—

Hiyori: However, it’s boring to just tell you so easily like that, right? Since you’re asking me for help, you have to show me your sincerity.

Ibara: Sincerity? How would Your Highness like me to demonstrate that? Would prostrating myself suffice? (3)

Hiyori: Fufun, I want Ibara to accompany me to go window shopping.

(Location: Shopping mall 1F)

Hiyori: Mmhm, I was able to get a variety of cute spring clothes. Lovely weather ♪

Ibara: It’s nice to hear that Your Highness is satisfied. However, this is such a luxurious way to spend your time.

Hiyori: You can only say it’s luxurious when you’ve managed to entertain me.

When I asked for preferences on clothes, you only gave me model answers. Even though you know the latest trends, in the end, you only talked about whether they will go out of style or get more trendy.

Talking with you isn’t exciting.

Since Ibara usually only works, I tried to teach you about noble games, but you can’t be taught at all.

Ibara: For me, work and producing results are like playing. Therefore, there is no need for Your Highness to worry about such things. Ahahaha☆

Putting that aside, isn’t it about time you tell me the reason for His Excellency’s anger?

Hiyori: Hm. Well, it’s fine. We’ve managed to kill some time, and you’ve even become something like a luggage carrier.

Well then, the reason for Nagisa-kun’s anger was it?

Fufu, the reason Nagisa-kun glared at Ibara is—

Ibara: That is……

Hiyori: Just a dental cavity. (4)

Ibara: ……Ha? Eh……Dental cavity?

Hiyori: To be specific, the reason was ‘a toothache’. It’s not confirmed to be a dental cavity just yet.

If I remember correctly, on the day he glared at Ibara, eating the ice cream refreshments he got from staff made him feel pain in his tooth.

But he thought that if he reported the pain to Ibara, his ice cream would be taken away and that thought made him grimace.

Ibara: …… Then, you mean to say the reason I’ve been worried sick up till now is just a dental cavity?

Hiyori: Nagisa-kun took a day off today because he made up his mind to go see a dentist.

Look, the dentist’s is right over there. Nagisa-kun should be going there today. The treatment should almost be over soon……

Nagisa: …… Hiyori-kun, you’re here to pick me up.

…… Eh? Ibara is here too? Why?

Hiyori: Sorry, Nagisa-kun. Ibara was really worried that he had offended you, so I spilled to him about the dental cavity.

Nagisa: …… Is that so? Sorry, Hiyori-kun, for causing you trouble. You too, Ibara. My teeth are fine, so you can rest assured.

Ibara: Is that so…… Yes. That is good news. It’s good that Your Excellency’s teeth are doing fine.

Nagisa: …… Ibara, I’m sorry about the other day. I spoke to you a little too harshly.

Ibara: I do not mind. Since I know of the reason for Your Excellency’s anger now, I can relax.

But, Your Excellency, I must apologise for my rudeness.

For the time being, Your Excellency is banned from any sweets whatsoever!

Nagisa: …… There’s no need to ban them. After all, it’s not a dental cavity, it’s just sensitive teeth.

Ibara: It doesn’t matter! Whether it’s dental cavities or sensitive teeth, the fact that you felt the pain is all the same!

Nagisa: …… The dentist also taught me the correct way to brush my teeth. With this, there are no other problems right?

Ibara: No, this is a definite decision! No matter what Your Excellency says, this decision cannot be reversed!

For the time being, I will be personally overseeing your mealtimes and your teeth brushing times.

I’ll even brush Your Excellency’s teeth myself!

Nagisa: …… Don’t get carried away, Ibara. I’ve told you this before, but I think it should be repeated. I’m your superior, Ibara is my inferior—

Ibara: That sort of threat won’t work on me this time. That’s because this time, I was the one unable to properly manage Your Excellency, leading to your ruin!

Lately I’ve been giving Your Excellency too much freedom. That’s why this chink in my armor was able to be put on full display for you.

Nagisa: …… What should I do, Hiyori-kun? Ibara is scarier than usual.

Hiyori: Seems like Ibara and Nagisa-kun’s positions are flipped now, huh? Getting in the way of this particular Ibara is kind of a bother, so you should run away with me when this happens, Nagisa-kun.

Ibara: I’m not letting you. I will never let this farce happen again! Never again!

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TL NOTES

1. Not a Christian reference, yet still a religious one. The title is a direct reference to a Buddhist analogy; Worms within the lion’s body. (source) The saying bears the meaning that ‘followers of Buddhism destroys it’s teachings just as worms born from the carcass of the lion devour the lion’. The story’s title however is a pun, as the first character for the original phrase is read as ‘religious leader’ but the first character for this story title is read as ‘lion’. Both are pronounced the same way. In this context, the ‘lion’ is Nagisa and the ‘worm’ is his tooth cavity.

2. He literally said ���bug/worm’ ( 虫 ) The reason for which will be explained further down the story.

3. Dogeza.

4. Cavity/tooth decay = 虫歯. Written with the kanji for ‘bug/worm’ ( 虫 ) and ‘tooth’ ( 歯 ).

[dialovers-translations]

DIABOLIK LOVERS MORE BLOOD Vol.2: Mukami Kou [Track 1+2]

Original title: 目隠しされて & 無神コウ

Source: Diabolik Lovers More, Blood Vol. 2: Mukami Kou [CD not owned by me]

Audio: Here (00:00~14:03)

Seiyuu: Kimura Ryouhei

Translator’s note: Continuing my marathon of MB CDs, everyone’s favorite idol Kou-kun is up next! I’m not a huge Kou fan myself, but he’s the main bias of my best friend so I’m always reminded of her when I translate his CDs. :p I used to find his voice quite annoying in the past, but in this CD, it didn’t bother me too much.

Track 1+2 ll Track 3+4 ll Track 5+6 ll Track 7+8 ll Track 9+10

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Track 1: Blindfolded

“...Hey!”

*Creaaak*

“Hey, you...!”

*Creaaak*

“Are you listening?”

*Rustle rustle*

“Say, say...~”

*Rustle rustle*

[00:15] “...Ah! Seems like you finally woke up! Ahー Thank god! You just kept on snoozing forever, for a second I thought you’d never wake up again!”

You look around, seeming confused.

“Eh? You want to know where you are...? Eeh...~ How cruel! You don’t recall? ーー Everything that happened before getting here, I mean.”

You flinch.

“Ahaha~ Seems like you remembered, huh? Exactly. I kidnapped you here~”

You ask him why.

[00:52] “...’Why’? You’ve been asking an awful lot of questions this whole time, haven’t you? Oh well, I guess it can’t be helped. After all, you’re currently stuck in pitch-black darkness. I guess it makes sense to grow anxious or scared...Fufufu~ But rest assured.”

*Rustle*

“I’ll explain the whole situation step by step, okay? First and foremost, you’re currently blindfolded, lying on top of my - Mukami Kou-kun’sーー

*Rustle*

ーー bed, you see~”

*Rustle rustle*

[01:31] “As for why I kidnapped you. Hmー There’s a few, but one of them would be because you’re a special human. ...Fufu~ Do you know what that means? It basically implies that you’re in a different league from just any other regular human out there. You might not be aware of it yourself, but to our species, your existence stands out as extraordinary.”

*Rustle*

“Actually, you know that already, don’t you? You’re being kept as a pet over at the Sakamaki manor after all.”

You protest.

“...Eh? You’re not being ‘kept’? Ah, sorry, sorry! I didn’t quite put it right, did I? I take back my words. More accurately, you’re their...prey, aren’t you?”

He pins you down.

*Thud*

[02:23] “Fufu...Ahahaha~ No need to look so dissatisfied. It’s the truth, isn’t it? Besides, that’s the second reason which made me interested in you so I dare argue it’s a good thing?”

*Creaaak*

“Hm? You want to know who I am? Didn’t I name myself earlier? You’ve got such bad memory.”

You shake your head.

[02:51] “Ah...That’s not what you meant? Ahー Gotcha. Hm...Can I spill the beans already? But I feel like Ruki-kun will give me an earful if I do and he’s a pain to deal with when he’s upset. ...Let’s see...~ Fufu...~ I’ll tell you when I feel like it, okay?”

*Creaaak*

“Anyway, I gave you an answer to your questions so happy now? More importantly, I want to know about you first. All sorts of things...~”

*Rustle*

[03:32] “We actually managed to get a hold of their weakness, so just like Ruki-kun is always saying, I should get an idea of what I’m dealing with. So to start off, I better do a little investigating to find out what exactly makes you so special...~”

*Rustle rustle*

“Fufu~ You’re shaking...My touch is still foreign to you, isn’t it? No need to be so scared though. I’m a nice guy after all.”

He pulls you close.

[04:04] “Here, I’ll stroke your head for you. ...Good girl, good girl...So stop trembling, okay?”

*Rustle*

“Hm...You’re more alert than I thought. Fufu~ You’re letting them have their way with you despite that?”

You protest again.

[04:28] “How odd...Or perhaps you’re simply feigning this cautious attitude? In that case, you’re one hell of a naughty kitten~ They say that a skillful hunter gets a kick out of going after highly alert prey and honestly, I think I may understand where they’re coming from. It’s boring when something is too easy to get. ーー I can already get my hands on pretty much everything I want through my job after all.”

*Rustle*

“...Ah! But I don’t really like how I’m implying those guys are skilled by saying that. What do you think? As the one they’re hunting for, how do you feel about them?”

You remain quiet.

[05:17] “Heeey~ Aren’t you going to answer? Giving me the silent treatment is a little mean, don’t you think? Hmー I guess it’s a little difficult of a question to start off with. In that case, let me ask you an easy one. Ah, right! How about this? ーー Does it really feel good to have them suck your blood? You know, does it make you feel like you’ve ascended to another world? Like your body is just floating mid-air~”

*Rustle*

“...No answer once again? You really are dull, geez. What will get you to talk? Should I ask you about your favorite spots? Or perhaps you really don’t care about those guys at all?”

*Rustle*

[06:12] “Ahー I’m kind of fed up with this already. I’m out here trying my best to be nice and all I get in return is the cold shoulder. What are you playing at?”

You explain.

“...You can’t say those things to someone you’ve only just met? Heh~ I see...That makes sense now that you mention it. In that case, I suppose I have to introduce myself  first.”

Track 2: Mukami Kou

He removes the blindfold.

*Rustle*

“Here. Take a cloooose look at my face. I removed your blindfold as well. See? I’m this close to you. Our lips could almost touch.”

You look straight at him.

[00:19] “...Fufu~ Can you see me? I guess I should say ‘nice to meet you’? I’m sorry for suddenly abducting you like that earlier~ However, it would have been difficult to take you away otherwise. I guess you could say it was the optimal timing? It really was my one chance.

...Say, are you the type who doesn’t watch television very often? Well, I guess you don’t strike me as a girl who would.”

You tilt your head to the side.

“Ah, no, I’m just talking to myself. I just figured that you’d probably recognize me if you watched TV every now and then. Not that it matters though.”

*Rustle*

[00:57] “But really, things went surprisingly well if I may say so myself. I’m sure those guys are frantically looking around for you right about now. After all, their precious little treat was snatched away from right underneath their nose, haha~! Fufu...Ahahaha! Just remembering those foolish expressions on their faces makes me laugh.”

*Rustle rustle*

“And I’m going to dig into their precious meal soon...Haah...Somehow just being this close to you makes my breath hitch.”

*Rustle*

“Is this what you’re capable of? Say, how come you’re this delicious?”

*Sniff sniff*

“...You smell amazing. What kind of scent is this? Hm...~”

Kou takes a deep breath.

[01:55] “I can’t get enough of it...I wonder where it’s coming from?”

*Sniff sniff*

“Not here...”

*Rustle*

“Then here maybe?”

*Sniff*

“I can’t quite tell through your clothes...”

*Rustle rustle*

“Why not take them off? It’s not like you need them, do you? ...Come on, hurry. The scent on the fabric is throwing me off.”

*Rustle*

“Come on, go ahead!”

You hesitate.

[02:29] “...Hurry up, will you? You might not guess it, but I’m not the most patient guy around. If you refuse to take them off yourself...You’re not going to have a good time.”

You refuse.

“...Tsk. Ahー What a fucking drag! Do you think I’m a joke or something? Do you have any idea what’ll happen if you oppose me like that?”

*Creaaak*

“Ugh...”

*Thud*

“I’ve gotten a little irritated you see. And once that happens, everything starts to annoy me. So that look you’re giving me...Ahaha...It pisses me off.”

*Rustle*

[03:12] “...I’m going to gauge out those eyes of yours, for real. I happen to kind of like that sorta stuff.”

You start taking off your clothes.

“...Huh? You’re gonna strip? Ahー So you’ve chosen to obey? How boring. I just had so many good ideas of things to do to you.”

*Rustle rustle*

“Anyway, if you’re just gonna bend to someone’s will in the end anyway, wouldn’t it be better to simply listen from the very start? Or did you want me to snap at you?”

You shake your head.

“Ah, I see! Right! You’re that kind of girl, aren’t you? You wanted me to lose my temper...so I’d treat you horribly, right? Fufu~ What an M-neko-chan you are~”

You seem confused by the nickname.

[04:03] “Hm? You want to know what ‘M-neko’ means? Isn’t that obvious? You’re more stupid than I thought. The ‘M’ is the same one as in ‘Do-M’, duh! Masochists, you know? You’re the type of girl who gets a kick out of the pain, aren’t you?”

*Creaaak*

“With that kind of personality, I can understand why you’d enjoy spending time with those guys. We’re capable of pleasing you in ways a regular human never could after all. Fufu...~ Is it true the pain is addictive?”

You try and explain.

[04:45] “When you put it like that, I almost want to turn into a human girl for one day and have a bunch of Vampires feast upon my blood~ Well, of course, I much prefer being the one doing the sucking. ...Aah, I was told this as well. Apparently having your blood sucked feels like strong currents of electricity running through your entire body, is that true? How nice~ I’m envious~”

You frown.

“That being said, I’d rather not get bitten myself. I’d love to get a taste of that pleasure, but I’d rather die than let some other Vampire pierce me with his fangs. Heh~ ...Ah, oh no, I’ve been rambling...”

*Rustle*

[05:39] “Come on, take those clothes off. I’ll figure out where this delicious scent is coming from first. You’re hiding it underneath that dull (1) outfit of yours, aren’t you? ーー Your precious secret~”

You start to take off the rest of your clothes.

“Fufu...Exactly~ You’ve got to show me your meek side like that, or else I might just poke your eyes out~”

You tell him you’re done.

[06:08] “...Eh? You took them off? Now don’t be ridiculous. When I say ‘strip’, I obviously meant everything, right? You move your jacket to the side a little and call that ‘taking off your clothes’? Heeh...You really must be making fun of me, aren’t you? ...Listen, I hate being ridiculed more than anything...There are many girls in this world who would kill to be in this kind of situation with me, you know? Yet here you are, living that dream...”

*Rustle*

“Ah, right! You’re just pretending to be embarrassed but you’re actually happy, aren’t you?”

*Rustle*

“Oh! Or perhaps...You want me to rip you apart? I would never resort to such violent actions though. I mean, there’s nothing fun about tearing apart someone who won’t even scream from the pain, is there? Fufu...~”

ーー TO BE CONTINUED ーー

Translation notes

(1) More specifically, he describes her clothes as lacking even the faintest hint of sexiness.

[the-himawari]

A3! Mizuno Kaya - Translation [SSR] The Company President of April 1st (3/3)

*Please read disclaimer on blog; default name set as Izumi

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Sakuya: It’s the General Affairs department! Please excuse us!

Izumi: !

Tsuzuru: Got the stepladder… Here. Go ahead, Sakuya.

Sakuya: Yes!

Izumi: (Woah, he climbed right up the stepladder and he’s replacing the fluorescent bulb that went out…!)

Sakuya: Change complete!

Tsumugi: Thank you.

Azuma: Fufu, as usual, I feel healed by Saku’s cute, smiling face. It’s so relaxing when the General Affairs department comes by.

Tsumugi: I know what you mean. They’re refreshing and pleasant, just like a spring breeze, right?

Itaru: Here’s the list of today’s visitors.

Chikage: I’ve also inputted the data, so please check it over.

Citron: I’ve sorted all sorts of documents and organized them all beautifully!

Tsuzuru: I ordered the additional equipment as well.

Sakuya: And I tidied up the file room.

Homare: Ahh, you have my gratitude.

Guy: Thanks to the capable General Affairs department, the Secretarial department also has an easier time with our work and it’s a great help.

Izumi: (That's what you expect from professionals who improve the work efficiency of the employees.)

Chikage: By the way, is Mr. Sleepy-head here actually helpful to the Secretarial department?

Izumi: (Mr. Sleepy-head?)

Hisoka: I’m working properly even if you don’t tell me to.

Chikage: You haven’t been dozing off, have you?

Homare: Hisoka-kun works properly as long as you give him marshmallows.

Chikage: What about the trouble you’re causing your coworkers?

Hisoka: It's none of your business, Chikage.

Tsumugi: Hisoka-kun and Chikage-san from General Affairs are from the same hometown.

Izumi: I see, that’s how it is.

Tasuku: Hasn't this guy been playing games during work again?

Itaru: Haven't you been doing muscle training during work again?

Izumi: Umm…

Guy: The Secretarial and General Affairs departments also have modest conflicts in some cases.

Citron: Now, now, don’t fight, everyone! We’ll calm everyone with one of our General Affair’s specialty Manzai acts! Let’s do this, Tsuzuru!

Tsuzuru: Hold on, Citron-san! …Good grief.

Citron: Hello~, it’s Citron & Tsuzuru’s CITRUN! I’m thinking of making a bento for lunch tomorrow.

Tsuzuru: Oh, that sounds nice. What are you gonna put inside?

Citron: A vegetable terrine, lobster bisque, tilefish poêle, red wine braised beef tail…

Tsuzuru: Um, what kind of bento is that! Isn’t that a full course meal!

Citron: …Flavoured onigiri.

Tsuzuru: ONIGIRI!?

Izumi: Ahahaha.

Tsumugi: Fufufu! The General Affair’s specialty Manzai shows are really funny.

Guy: Indeed.

Izumi: (…Wait, huh? Speaking of which, from a while ago, the President’s been…)

Mizuno: …

Izumi: (EH!? It looks like he’s hiding with only his head peeking out from behind his desk…) P-president Mizuno…?

Mizuno: …!

Citron: Ohh, President?

Tsuzuru: I knew it was a bad idea to show President Mizuno our Manzai… Sorry for always showing you something so boring.

Mizuno: THAT’S NOT IT!!!

Izumi: …!

Mizuno: TSUZURU-KUN’S MANZAI IS WORLD CLASS!! So much so I’d like to push it with all my might with the company…!

Tsuzuru: You don’t have to go that far. But I appreciate it.

Izumi: (Ehhh… The two of them have a really friendly air around them…)

Tsuzuru: Ahh, sorry for surprising you. Actually, Mizuno and I are childhood friends.

Izumi: Oh, I see!

Tsuzuru: That being said, I should keep my manners properly in check while at the company. Sorry for acting so over-familiar with you, President Mizuno.

Mizuno: N-no way! Please don’t worry about it! You don’t have to use formal speech either! Even if you call me President, compared to Tsuzuru-kun’s magnificent humanity, I’m just…!

Izumi: (President Mizuno looks all flustered…)

Tsuzuru: I’ll work hard so I can be even more helpful to you, Mizuno.

Mizuno: Thank you. I will do my best too. Tachibana-san, my apologies for the late introduction. These guys are the members of the General Affairs department.

Sakuya: It’s very nice to meet you!

Izumi: I’m Tachibana Izumi. Same here, nice to meet you!

Citron: Ohh, the rumoured new hire. I’m Citron! I want to get along! You’re definitely, definitely welcome at the General Affairs section~!

Chikage: The General Affairs department is fun and noisy too.

Itaru: We hold game tournaments sometimes, you know? Wanna be our player 7, Tachibana-san?

Tsuzuru: We’d be really happy if you joined us.

Sakuya: Welcome! Let’s do our best together as colleagues at MIZUNO Enterprise! If there’s anything you don’t know, please ask me anything, any time!

Izumi: Thank you so much!

Itaru: Now then, I guess we should head out… Oh, hm?

Masumi: …

Izumi: ?

Itaru: Masumi? Oiii, Masumiii.

Masumi: I’ve found… my soulmate.

Mizuno: Soulmate?

Tsumugi: Come to think of it, I’m pretty sure Masumi-kun’s been staring at her the whole time since he entered the President’s office…

Masumi: I joined this company in order to look for my destined partner. And now, I’ve finally found them. You’re my…

Izumi: Ehh, ehh?

Masumi: I love you. Marry me.

Izumi: EHHHH!?

Masumi: Join the General Affairs department. I want to be with you. I’ll file paperwork and order various things with you. Then we’ll go on outings, listen to music together, and we’ll think about the things we’ll need for our married life. The two of us will spend lots of time doing different things together…

Itaru: LOL, that had nothing to do with General Affairs halfway through.

Citron: Is this love at first sight!?

Sakuya: Masumi-kun, calm down!

Tsuzuru: What are you doing in front of the President…! I’m so sorry! Come on, let’s go!

Chikage: Then please excuse us.

*door closes*

Izumi: T-that surprised me…

Tsumugi: Ahaha…

Mizuno: I was shocked too… But Usui-kun is a very outstanding person.

Guy: Alright, we will be on our way as well.

Azuma: Right.

Tsumugi: Let’s make today a great day too.

Mizuno: Yes, thank you very much.

*door closes*

Mizuno: So, I’ve shown you all the departments within the company; what do you think?

Izumi: I thought that it’s really amazing. Everyone is so professional… Honestly, I’m not confident I’ll be as helpful to the company as they are.

Mizuno:  What’s important isn’t to be useful to the company, but that you, Tachibana-san, yourself, are able to have fun working without any worries. As you’ve seen today, every department plays an important role within the company—. But everyone wasn’t able to work so competently from the very beginning. Even so, you will eventually find a role that suits your aptitude, and you’ll be able to work comfortably. In other words, no matter which department you’re assigned to, I’m sure you will find a role that will make the best use of your own unique strengths! So let’s find that role together.

Izumi: President Mizuno… (Once again, I’m glad that I got to join this company…!) Yes…!

-pause-

Mizuno: —san, Director-san… Director-san?

Izumi: Hm… (This is the MANKAI Dorm…?) Hah, President Mizuno…!?

Mizuno: P-president…?

Izumi: (Huh… Oh, that was a dream just now.) (I had a meeting with Mizuno-san scheduled today, but I was reading documents until late last night so it looks like I nodded off.)

Mizuno: I’m sorry for disturbing you. The manager let me inside.

Izumi: Oh, that’s what happened. I’m sorry for showing you my embarrassing appearance.

Mizuno: Oh, no. You must be tired… I apologize for taking up your time while you’re busy.

Izumi: You see… The truth is, I had a dream where Mizuno-san was the President of a company

Mizuno: EHH!? No way, I’m still just an inexperienced intern…! It’d be unthinkable to succeed my father…!

Izumi: Still, in my dream, you filled the role wonderfully.

Mizuno: T-thank you very much. That’s too kind. Imagining myself as a President is an exaggeration… But in the future, 100 years from now, I want to become a splendid, capable person who can pour all my efforts into entertainment. So that’s why I will continue to improve myself from now on as well.

Izumi: (Mizuno-san… He really does have a President's capability...!)

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1. So it's come to my attention that a lot of people have never heard of a sleeve protector. It's like this (but the one Tsuzuru is wearing is made of cloth, not plastic):

Workers and students wear them in various different contexts to keep their sleeves clean (i.e. when doing handiwork, when you're writing so the ink doesn't smudge on your sleeve, etc.) 2. So you're telling me Mizuno was watching Tsuzuru like this... I--

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[hollyhock13]

Account Tag Game

Why did you choose your URL? I was trying to name a horse Webkinz for my first online account and it wouldn’t accept “Holly,” “holly,” “Hollyhock,” or “hollyhock,” so I ended up with hollyhock13 because I was just starting to want to be edgy and I thought 13 was edgy and it would let me do that one. Then I clicked next and realized that it was the username, not the name of the horse, which became just holly again. I’m too invested to change it now and it’s the username for almost all of my accounts because it’s not linked to my actual name but it’s easy for me to remember.

Any side blogs? If you have them, name them and why you have them. Nope, just the one. I’ve had ideas over the years, but it’s not like anyone actually follows me and also: that’s more work that I’m not capable of doing right now.

How long have you been on Tumblr? I…don’t actually remember. A while? Since high school at least, which was a while ago.

Do you have a queue tag? Queue? Yes. Most everything I post is on a queue. Tag? No. Again, most everything I post is on a queue and I tag by category, not by how I’m posting it because that seems pointless to me.

Why did you start your blog in the first place? I thought Tumblr was where all the cool memes came from (I was not wrong) and I wanted to be a part of it. I was also EXTREMELY shy and did not really interact a whole lot for a long time (I still don’t interact a whole lot for the same reason). I will say that my internet literacy has increased a lot since joining Tumblr.

Why did you choose your icon/PFP? It’s just me from https://picrew.me/image_maker/114808 this picrew because I really love the art style.

Why did you choose your header? Ahahaha, a blog I follow @bookbee3 was taking requests to practice writing in elvish so…

What’s your post with the most notes? I absolutely refuse to scroll that far and idk how to check without doing that, but probably either the Frozen physics question or my post about tumble authors in a physical book store, both of which are incredibly old.

How many people do you follow? 262 apparently, though at least five of them are one person, so that’s probably not accurate to the number of people I follow, rather the number of blogs. And I’m sure many of them are inactive by this point, so I should probably go through and clean a lot of them out.

Have you ever made a shitpost? I honestly don’t know? I don’t recall having made one, and I’m honestly not funny enough to make one, I don’t think. I’ve made memes before, if that counts?

How often do you use tumblr? Whenever I get bored, which is a lot. Also whenever I get a note or a message, I check and then usually spend a while scrolling? Idk.

Did you have a fight/argument with a blog once? Who won? I don’t remember one? I get angry a lot, but I’m also shy enough that I don’t tend to start arguments about it. It’s possible, but I don’t think so.

How do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this post’? I don’t reblog them. I have a LOT of anxiety over stuff like that, but I refuse to inflict that anxiety on anyone else. That’s one of the biggest reasons that the header in my blog says that it’s my happy place: it is. I don’t want anything on my blog that’s going to give me extra anxiety if I go back to reread it.

Do you like tag games? Yes, I like to talk about myself even if no one else finds it interesting (although I hope they do, obviously.) I don’t like trying to insert myself into one (ie, “I tag anyone who wants to!”), I just don’t have the self confidence for that.

Do you like ask games? I would say that I probably prefer them. If you reblog one and someone asks you a question, it means that they genuinely want to know your answer. Idk, it just seems fun. I made one myself a while ago, actually!

Which of your mutuals do you think of as Tumblr famous? Mm, probably @renecdote and @oh-mother-of-darkness. Also @archiveofidentityconstellations despite her growing protests 😂

Do you have a crush on a mutual? I’m not much of a crusher in general, but I have like…friendship crushes on them, I guess? Like I can’t quite believe that they talk to me, so I’m glad y’all do 💛

Thanks for the tag, @lurkinglurkerwholurks! I definitely also have a friendship crush on you too, so I was really excited to be tagged! If I’ve tagged you in this post, you’re tagged, but also @ursapharoh05 and @starwarmth because I love you guys

[ourlittlesecretokay]

hi!! I know you are a very popular author and did get lots of engagement do you have advice on feeling “left out” so to speak in online communities? like posting on ao3 and getting very little engagement whereas others get hundreds of comments and things like that? I feel like in fandoms there’s always like a cool kid table and it’s a dumb thing to be sad about but it’s like damn why not me ya know? and I know everyone says you should write for yourself etc etc but it feels bad to get zero recognition at all esp when it’s something you worked hard on. idk im just feel bummed out maybe I took the internet safety thing too much to heart lmaooo. anyways hope ur well miss u love you!

Oh my godddd. Okay, okay, lemme organize myself.

Okay, so first off, I totally stumbled into it, and I think most of that has to do with how niche I will get. If you're writing something to fill a void, there's less seat at the table, you know? Doing something new, something a lil different. I remember freaking out over having two readers and texting my friend every time someone commented. And ngl, I still freak out over comments, they never get boring ahahaha. But also, reframing even the "small" numbers in yiur head, like, damn! Ten people read something? That's kinda bonkers when you think about it. People all over the world, putting in search filters, and you're what pops up!

Trying to break into a fandom is tough. There's usually already a "popular kids" table, but to keep with the metaphor, if you don't want to feel left out, find the table you ACTUALLY want to sit at. Join discords! Message people! Leave comments on other people's stuff! Get chatty! It's so much more fun to have a lil squad you can count on then trying to appeal to everyone. That can also help with the recognition stuff. I have a small group of people I know will read my stuff and give me their opinions, and they know I'll read their stuff and give my opinions.

If you want advice on how to build up subscriber count, my best guess is to put out a large net of stuff. Write what you enjoy. Don't be afraid to post half-baked concepts or just short lil stories. I know at least for me, if I really enjoy someone's style, I'll click through their stuff and look for more. Even if it's just a tumblr post like "what if..." I mean, damn, we had a whole symposium on the idea "Trader Joe's AU." People want to share ideas! They want to play too, you just gotta bring your toys to the table.

Also, keep it all in perspective. I've had things I loved absolutely flop. It's all just something you gotta take in stride. Write for you, absolutely, but also get comfortable. Get creative. Challenge yourself and actively work on expanding and developing your writing. And talk to other writers!!!!!!! I know that I generally recognize usernames, and if I see someone who I recognize has posted, I want to read and comment back. Or even just talk. If someone starts treating you like a lesser person because they're up on a fanfic high horse, that's just hilariously weird.

Pull up a chair. Make friends. Reply to comments. Brainstorm ideas. Enjoy yourself.

Love love love u 2 ❤️

[ask-thegoatbro]

☭ Any of the Risen Child trio!

[Since you treat me so well, I’ll do all three~.] [Warning: Goatbro will be assuming quite a bit like he usually does~. Long post~]

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - -  BATTLE THEME: N/A BATTLE INTRO:  “Show me what kind of Asriel you are.” No command, all-out serious goatbro completely during the entire fight. VICTORY:  “You can do better, get up!” DEFEAT:  “Hm. Not bad. I got careless.” ASSIST: “I’ll show you how one really does fire magic! The pride of being a boss monster!” TAUNT:  “Come on! You can do better than this! SHOW ME!” REACTING TO TAUNT: “Hah, do you call that a taunt weakling?” FLEE:  “There’s no point in helping you right now. Pathetic.” REACTING TO FLEE: “You will never overcome any obstacles if you just run from your problems!” TIE: “You’re lucky, if I tried harder you would have burned.” PERFECT VICTORY:  “I understand, even I can be a crybaby. Life is hard and I personally understand some of the things you went through. We’re also different you and I. You still have your Frisk, you can still obtain a happy ending if you push back Chara. But. . . Even if you are so damn determined to let Frisk protect you, be by your side as you cower in the face of your Chara then I will simply ask you this question. Who will protect Frisk if she can’t protect herself? Who can rely on for support? You may simply be there for emotional support but you can't just let Frisk just fight Chara alone. Stand up to Chara, Asriel. Even if you must die 1 million more times. She can’t do this alone. . . You know this deep down. YOU’RE A BOSS MONSTER, YOU HAVE POWER DEEP WITHIN YOURSELF, ASRIEL! DON’T JUST BELIEVE IN FRISK, BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!” FINISH MOVE:  cast a circle of flames around Asriel, mimicking the entrapment of flower petals. Right before they hit they all drop to the ground creating an encirclement of fire which being so close gave a burning sensation until they dissipate.  - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -  BATTLE THEME: N/A BATTLE INTRO:   [FIGHT] [ACT] [ITEMS] [SPARE]

>*Frisk >*Make gesture     >*Flirt >*Talk                    >*Kiss? “Frisk, you may be FIGHT with your Chara. But, Let me show you how an Asriel truly can fight!” VICTORY:  “Heh, I’m sorry I’m not like my Mother and Father who hold back on you for their own reasons. You never had fought a Boss Monster who is willing to go all out. This is our power and pride Frisk! NEVER FORGET IT! DEFEAT: “Gah, even with a dumb stick. . . or your fists. Humans are so powerful with their DETERMINATION but even. . . Even I can be somewhat determined, but I guess. . . it wasn’t enough for now. . .” ASSIST: “I got your back, get down! Here comes the fire!” TAUNT:  “Isn’t it funny, you carry a stick and you Frisk are very well known to stick their nose into other people’s business~.” REACTING TO TAUNT: “W-what are you winking at! Don’t try to distract me! CHEAP TRICKS!! FLEE:  “Hm, I think I gotta stop and know not to underestimate your ability. . .”  REACTING TO FLEE: “Hey! Come back, come back here you!” TIE:  “Ah, this is acceptable too.” PERFECT VICTORY:  “We all make mistakes, Frisk. From the situation, you and Asriel face I can assume what may have happened and what you had done before. Of course, your LOVE is just 1. You learned a lesson right? Yet, you still FIGHT before. I wonder, was it after Asriel told you not to kill and not be killed? I suppose it was fair not to listen, we’re all hypocrites especially me. I miss my Frisk. . . I miss them so much. . . But they had to. . . they did. . . and now I’m here fighting my Chara. . . But even what they did, I forgive them but they don’t forgive themselves. . . Just like me, I can possibly forgive myself Frisk. . .I wonder, do you know if your Asriel feels the same way that I do. Help him find strength within himself, don’t just protect him. He needs that inner strength the most just like how I found mine. Even his way is different, I believe he has a strong SOUL. . . He’s a boss monster, after all, remember that.” FINISH MOVE: He makes fireballs appear above Frisk and make them rain down on her, dodging all but a cheap shot he throws at her when she was focused on dodging the ones falling upon her. - - - - - - - - - - - -  BATTLE THEME: N/A BATTLE INTRO:   [FIGHT] [ACT] [ITEMS] [SPARE] >*Chara >*Flip her off     >*Flirt?? >*Talk               >*Taunt her “Oh, look at this. Your THAT Chara I have the pleasure of meeting. Wasn’t that a fun first time? Your expression was wonderful~. Let me make it better with a little flame.” VICTORY:  “You’re slower and less powerful than my Chara. Perhaps you shouldn’t look down at me as if I was your Asriel. I know what and who I am, A boss monster known as Asriel Dreemurr!” DEFEAT: He brings his paw to his body as dust flows out of him and coughing out spit mixed with dust. “Damn it, I was getting a little too cocky or maybe. . .  Whatever, next time we dance. I’ll melt that smile off your face.” ASSIST: “How did it come to this?! Whatever! Fire!” TAUNT:  “Would you like me to burn half of your face~. It’s exactly what I did to mine and I’ll say. It will be a good look for you~” REACTING TO TAUNT: “T-tch, you don’t scare me.” FLEE:  “This isn’t looking good for me, I need to rethink and gather my strength!” REACTING TO FLEE: “Bored? How dare you leave this battle!” TIE:  “Bitch.” PERFECT VICTORY:  “How does it feel~? Does your pride hurts that you lost to an Asriel. Ahahaha! Do you feel your skin melting by my flames. . . You will come back alive but that doesn’t mean I cannot enjoy melting you down to the bone marrow~. I will die later, but right now. . . I can enjoy myself~. After all, I’m a terrible person and my body count will NEVER disappear. Chara~” FINISH MOVE: There was no holding back this one, with a sudden burst of speed that helped him fight his Chara, taking quite a bit out of him he was right in front of Chara and places his paw between him and her, having face towards Chara as a burst of flames consume the other completely not only attacking Chara but burning his paws from the intensity of the attack. Once it stopped he can feel the immense burning sensation at his paw and some flames on his sleeve.

[apex-academy]

Chapter 5: Caring Is a Hazard to Your Health (#21)

The rest of the day is a blur. Some pool. Some Centipede. Some vapid conversations I barely remember as I’m having them. A cooking lesson that’s more lecture on Japanese sauces than actual cooking.

I don’t run into Aidan again. I’m not sure if I want to. Certainly I’m not going to try anything now, but... I don’t know. I don’t know.

I end up in the sauna dangerously late in the day. The only exit is to the bathhouse, which closes at nighttime... Would I be stuck in here overnight if I stayed too long? Punished? I bet I could stay awake. Wonder what happens in the restricted rooms at night. Cleanup and restocking or something. Maybe I should try staying in the kitchen. Eat some coffee beans straight up to keep from falling asleep and see how the heck Monochap sneaks in and out of there.

But for now, I’m just...

“...”

It is kind of pleasant in here. I may be bundled up a bit too much for a sauna, but it’s supposed to be hot anyway, right? As long as I swig plenty of water after this, I should be fine.

“...”

“After this” might need to be “right now,” actually. No use getting too light-headed. Or, well, I don’t mind having fewer thoughts, but I probably shouldn’t be taking health risks. I can worry about nighttime escapades later. I should... attempt to get some sleep.

After a cold shower. I don’t think I’ll be needing a warm bath after this.

...

"Um, hello! Good morning! It is now 7:00, so the off-limits areas have been reopened! I-I hope you all have a nice day…!"

I wake up again. That’s always good.

But when I make my way towards the cafeteria...

“Sounds like some kind of ruckus going on.”

I open the doors, but...

“.....”

No people, less noise. Uh.

I back up into the hallway and try next door. The gym. Sounds like maybe the hubbub is in here instead? Did I miss a summons to an early morning sports tournament?

Is someone...

“........”

No, that has too be too many voices. Right? If someone had been discovered, the jingle would have played...

“......”

It still takes me a minute to open the door.

People are still talking over each other, but I don’t see any bodies on the floor or fists flying.

Knives, maybe. But not fists.

A thud rattles the still-collapsed bleachers behind Kaichi’s shoulder. In true Kaichi fashion, he hardly flinches.

“Woooooow!”

“I’m next, right? I’m next?!”

“No way, dude!”

“That’s right! No one is going next!”

“What?! Nono I’m next!”

“Wh...”

“This is a completely unnecessary risk! Cease at once!”

“Risk? Surely you don’t mean to question my skill.”

“Seems pretty skilled t’ me.”

“.............”

I always manage to forget I should worry much less about these people dying than just being idiots.

Before anyone can notice I’ve joined them, the knife digging into the stands slowly tilts, then falls. Kaichi manages to pull his foot to one side before the blade clatters to the floor.

“Haha, whoopsie! You okay?”

“Looks like I still got—” he tilts his head down to check—”ten toes, s’. Yeah, sure.”

“That—”

“That makes it clear how dangerous this is!”

“Like, nothing happened, though?”

“That was a matter of luck!”

“Fool! You think any part of this is merely a throw of the dice? No divine weapon of mine will harm anyone unless I bid it.”

“Considering how consistently you threaten everyone, I don’t find that comforting!”

“So, anyway, it’s totally my turn, right?”

“It’s no one’s turn!!!”

I walk inside just as he’s about to blow a gasket. The door falling shut behind me is enough to get a little attention.

“I would ask what’s going on, but I think I have a good enough idea.”

“Ah, Kogamino!”

“If you understand, would you mind talking them out of it?”

“I’m afraid I’m having little luck.”

Another thud interrupts before I can say a word. Ichiriki starts laughing.

“Woooow, that one was super close! Ahahaha!”

Standing stiffly, Kaichi cranes his neck just enough to get a good glimpse of the knife now separating his face from his surfboard.

“Nice.”

“There.”

“Now the next wretch may step up.”

“I’m the next wretch!!”

It’s surprisingly hard to jump in and stop something when you can’t fathom why they started in the first place. Are we seriously that bored? Didn’t we just wake up? At least eat before you start throwing crap at each other, geez.

“Nuh-uh! I’m next!”

“How did this even start?”

“Well, like, Yuks was gonna make omelettes this morning? So we all kinda ordered ‘em or whatevs, and, like...”

“...”

“Amid the conversation as we waited, that one saw fit to issue a challenge.”

“I did?”

“And then things happened, and now we’re here!”

He finishes, as if he’s being the most helpful one here.

“I had been assisting with the cooking when I realized everyone had left, so I peeked out to see what had happened...”

“And you were met with a fun surprise, huh.”

“Yeah-huh! It’s super fun!”

“That’s great.”

“Actually, I just came over to see who got the first omelette? Because it’s finished.”

“Ah, first should have been... Riseiin, I believe?”

“Nice. ’m out, then. Later, brahs.”

“I don’t think the rest are far behind, so if you’d like your food warm, you can come back to this later.”

“I suppose that may be for the best...”

“Consider it a mercy to those of you bound to time, hmm?”

And just like that, the party dissembles to go for the door. Tsunyasha walks—like a normal human being—over to the stands to retrieve her mystical-whatever knives. Mahavir stays back, presumably to make sure she doesn’t kill me while we’re still here.

...I really hope Yuki’s almost finished. Maybe I don’t need to follow everyone over all that quickly.

Tsunyasha gets all her knives put away in quick order, but we’re still the last ones out. Mahavir, as usual, spares me from having to open the door.

As we cross into the hallway, I see Monochap opening the doors to the dorm area. Before I can wonder what he’s up to now, Aidan wheels himself out, with an uttered sound that I don’t think is actually a thanks. Upon seeing us, Monochap gives a little wave and a disturbing giggle before fleeing towards the Main Hall.

Aidan seems a little more pleased to see us.

“Good morning! I hope I haven’t missed anything?”

“Nothing worth mentioning.”

“...”

“Has Monochap been opening doors for you?”

The handicap buttons in this place haven’t been working since we woke up here. I hadn’t spared them a second thought, but now we actually have someone in a wheelchair. Guess that’s how it usually goes.

“When necessary.”

“Unfortunately, my student ID was reset to its original settings before they gave it back to me. But whoever did that also added an option to signal Mister Monochaperone for assistance.”

“It isn’t my favorite recourse, and I’m not sure why it’s necessary when it isn’t that difficult to summon him otherwise, but it can be useful.”

“Ah, to have a demon at your beck and call.”

“Quite fitting for a black-hearted sinner like yourself, hmm?”

“Don’t you start this again...!”

Aidan holds up a hand.

“Calm down, Mister Attenborough.”

“Miss Tsunyasha, I appreciate saving your comments for a more private discussion, but I’m afraid they are still highly inappropriate.”

“You’re entitled to your opinion of me, but I fail to see how repeating it does you any good. I cannot take back what I’ve done, so I would prefer to focus on what I can do at the moment, if possible.”

“Oh? Is this a sorely misguided plea for mercy, worm? You think I must gain something from this?”

“It is merely my job to ensure those of your corrupted ilk cannot walk away from their sins freely.”

He’s not doing much walking at the moment, in case you haven’t noticed.

“You call this walking away freely?!”

“Mister Attenborough.”

“.......”

Aidan turns back to Tsunyasha.

“Whether it’s sufficient for your tastes or not, I assure you I have most certainly been punished.”

“I can’t ask you to approve of my sins, as it were, but if you truly care about doing the right thing, your priority should be ensuring the safety of the other people here.”

I only see a flash before there’s a knife at Aidan’s neck.

“Then I should eliminate you now, yes?”

Aidan stares evenly back at her.

“Do you really consider me such a threat? I am incapable of physical combat, I am unarmed, and I would have severe difficulty engineering anything to kill another in this state. No one here has anything to gain from my death.” His gaze strains towards the knife. “This is nothing but a very rude gesture, and I would like you to stop now.”

“Oh? You still think I would follow a worm’s orders?”

“Why don’t you follow this?!”

Mahavir lunges at her. Aidan winces as the knife skirts along his jaw. Tsunyasha hops back an extra pace, and Mahavir tilts dangerously before catching himself on the wall. Huffing, he doesn’t seem able to push himself back up too quickly. I put myself between Tsunyasha and Aidan for good measure.

“So you’re relying on your little guard dogs, are you, whelp? You truly think they’re any match for a Holy Assassin?”

“I’m not a guard dog, you just need to stop?”

“I am not trying to rely on any physical enforcement here—” a pointed look at Mahavir—“nor am I giving you orders. I am merely pointing out that there is much more to being ‘righteous’ than harassing those you deem to be sinners.”

“So you question my judgment, worm?”

Your judgment is nothing if not questionable.

“More like questioning your ‘righteousness,’ or ‘holiness,’ or whatever else you’d like to call it!”

He finally shifts his weight back onto his feet.

“Regardless of who did and didn’t die, at least Doppler has done everything he can to help us!”

“What have you EVER done for anyone else here?!”

“Stir up trouble, mostly.”

“Hmph. Only just now I was providing you ungrateful whelps with entertainment, was I not?”

“And no one died, if I must remind you of that.”

“As a fluke! You easily could have injured Riseiin! It was only a matter of luck that he didn’t have any toes sliced clean off! And I shouldn’t need to tell you even foot injuries have the potential to be lethal!”

“...What did I miss here?”

“We can worry about that later.”

“The potential, certainly.”

“But a far less sure shot than firing a gun into someone’s chest, hmm?”

“But that wasn’t for amusement!”

“And yet it still happened.”

“I truly don’t understand how you could possibly favor that sinner’s actions, but I suppose your wicked ways are just that far beneath me.”

“It’s because you don’t understand that you’re the only threat here!”

“Oh, I’m quite a threat to those who would dare try taint my holy name. Would you like a demonstration, whelp?”

“No one would like any demonstrations!!”

“Of course you wouldn’t.”

“We get your freaking point, okay? You could stab a serious burn victim and a wheelchair-bound child to death with ease if you really wanted to. Congratulations.”

“You want to prove you’re such a great assassin, how about you wait until practically anyone here is in decent physical condition? You’ve held out this long. I’m sure you can handle a little longer. Or is patience suddenly not one of your holy virtues?”

“Hmph.”

“Don’t think for a moment you can understand the essence of a Holy Assassin, fool.”

“Oh, believe me, I don’t.”

She spins the knife once around the gloved part of her finger and sheaths it.

“Very well. I tire of these pitiful negotiations of yours.”

“I’ve a reward waiting for me, anyway.” 

She takes a few steps towards the cafeteria.

“Use this opportunity to think about what awaits you.”

Not an omelette on my end, I’m guessing.

“Any more of this and I assure you, whatever awaits you won’t be a reward.”

“Mahavir. That’s enough.”

“........”

Mahavir stares Tsunyasha down as she walks away. Even when the doors close behind her, he doesn’t turn away.

“......”

I hear a rattle and open my eyes again. Aidan’s started to wheel himself forward.

“Miss Kogamino. Thank you for stepping in.”

“No problem.”

“...”

“I’m halfway surprised you’re not upset about being called a child.”

“Well I don’t appreciate it, but I can understand it was for emphasis.”

“Right.”

He scoots himself closer to Mahavir.

“....................”

“Mister Attenborough?”

“.........”

“...I’m sorry. But she...”

“She can’t just...!”

“I know. She has no right to be making these sorts of threats, but pushing back like that will. Not. Help with her.”

“...........”

“So take a deep breath and come on. We have a meeting to get to.”

“........”

Aidan moves as close to the doors as he can, but Mahavir doesn’t follow yet. Guess it’s not that easy to let it go.

But everyone else is already in the cafeteria, right? No harm leaving him alone to cool down a bit.

I don’t want to think about what could happen if he ran into Tsunyasha again too soon.

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[rigelmejo]

random notes about drawbacks/positives of mia:

My biggest incompatibility with the massive immersion approach (and in general a lot of good modern study methods) is I hate flashcards. It’s not that I dislike them as a concept - I am just super bad at concentrating on them. I am NOT good at doing the following: focusing on small bits of information, studying for short periods but Regularly, Reviewing Regularly, and sometimes I just genuinely can’t retain small concentrated reading sentences to the point it takes me 10 MINUTES a flashcard in order to understand/study it. As you can imagine, that last part is NOT efficient, and ends up making flashcards even slower for me as a study method then they’re ever meant to be. I can’t control when I’m unable to figure out/concentrate on small bits of information, so some months flashcards work as intended for me (I can review 10-20 in 10 minutes), but other months suddenly 10 flashcards takes me an hour. So I am not good at sticking to flashcards consistently - once the hard months hit, I don’t keep up with reviews, because they suddenly take way more time then they ‘should.’ However, when I can focus I try to make up the difference - and do 20-100 cards a day while I have the ability to do flashcards at a regular pace. On the upside, I’m proof you can do the SRS flashcard reviews, in a very chaotic way, and still get benefits. How I’ve done flashcards: cram 300-1000 in a couple weeks to a month, including whatever reviews I need. 2nd month - review if I can still focus, and do a few new cards (like 5-15 a day at most). By the time I can’t focus, most words are relatively-known and I only would need to review them once a week or every few weeks - if I COULD focus on reviews. However, I only actually review once a month or less at this point - and I’ll only review 20ish cards usually in that rare instance, unless I have a good day. I will not usually review the majority of those cards until my next burst of can-focus-on-flashcards usually in 2-3 more months. I have done all my flashcards THIS INCONSISTENTLY, and I’ve still retained a lot of what I studied. What I think helps: immersing in other content when you can’t do flashcards, so that you’re often still being exposed to words you studied (so they’re easier to not forget even though you stopped doing flashcards). So yeah... inconsistent flashcards, and some immersion exposure, and I was able to keep some of the gains SRS flashcards generally provide people. I can’t do flashcards consistently, and I usually have to do them in big-chunks then abandon them, but they do help me boost up how much I know when I DO use them.

More regarding my incompatibility with mia. The big thing is: I’m just not a flashcard person, not a consistent person. I have to vary what I’m doing regularly, or I burn out/struggle to focus. When I was in school, I would do the following to study: take notes/focus intently when being taught, then read the textbook/materials if I needed more help. Before tests, or to ‘review’ I would reread my notes from beginning to end of what I needed to remember. This would refresh my memory. If I still forgot/did not understand anything, I’d pinpoint that info in the book/ask my teacher/go online etc and try to just focus most of my ‘harder’ studying on those parts I was struggling with. Usually just taking notes/focusing, then reviewing everything in bulk right before I needed it (so maybe once every few weeks), was enough. When I couldn’t take notes, I would instead skim through book chapter summaries, and rewatch lecture videos if there was a digital copy - focusing most on the videos when info I forgot/sounded like key information was mentioned. Basically - notes, summaries, short cheat sheets, were all my friends. For tests like math and physics, I would read my notes AND make mini-sheets of all key formulas and how to do them/what I needed for them (usually I already had a sheet I just kept adding to over time/rereading). I could not use flashcards back then - I couldn’t focus, not consistently, not the way they’re meant to be used. It took me too long to even make them to warrant them being useful to me (I take SO long to make flashcards, its also a focus issues - also why when I do SRS flashcards I usually just grab some premade deck cause it keeps me MOVING and actually STUDYING instead of getting frozen in a task). 

This has always been my go-to study method. When I started chinese, this is how I learned 400 characters/basic words.  I bought a reference book with mnemonics, and would make myself read through it (as if it were notes I took). Occasionally I’d flip through old pages again, just to see if I still recognized old stuff, but mostly I just kept moving forward. So like - flip back every couple weeks to skim old pages, but read forward every day. I got through half the book before I burned out (because... reference books with their short entries of information? a lot like flashcards in structure, except thankfully I don’t regularly review afterwards like I would with flashcards).  It still took me 10-20 minutes for 10 entries in the book, but unlike flashcards it was a one-time task. When I got done, I had learned them pretty well - and I didn’t do anything to review them. They were just reviewed with immersion naturally, and eventually when I started studying common words these characters came up again (so if I forgot any, I relearned them easier then). This approach is roughly how I learned all words not in my premade-flashcard decks. I’ll read a chinese book - just start reading through it, looking up words I want to learn. I don’t review them, I don’t look them up again. Sometimes, maybe once a month, I’ll reread an old chapter to see what progress I’ve made - and then lookup unknown words then, as review since I didn’t remember them the first time. It sucks in a way... that SRS flashcard style study methods just.... do not work consistently for me. They are still beneficial, because in short month bursts I can quickly learn 500-1000 things with SRS (which is faster than some classes introduce words). But overall I have to rely on other study methods. Which for me feel inconsistent in progress since I can’t measure it as easy lol!  Even with no SRS, doing ‘bursts’ of this read-intensively note-like materials, then very occasionally skim old material again, does seem to work out okay for me. Back when I learned to read french, I did no flashcards. I looked up a common words list (and used my class vocabulary lists). I read through them once. Before tests (if for class), or every few weeks, I re-read/skimmed the word lists. By 3-4 months I learned the first 500 words. Then, since french has a lot of ‘similar’ sort of words, I just sort of dived into reading and then picked up words mostly that way - just checking a word list every month or so to review known words and make sure I didn’t have some big gap of missing vocabulary. 

So I guess: for me the biggest positive in mia is the suggestion to immerse often, frequently, and with a variety of materials. So that you practice different skills, learn a variety of things - and so you can move to something you like, if you get bored/unable to focus on one specific type of material. With mia you can read novels for a month, then get sick of reading and just watch shows/listen to podcasts when you walk, then if you’re burnt out from that you can just browse social media and check out fanfics/manhua/friends posts in the language for a few days or weeks before picking up longer materials again. The point is just to find ways to immerse, and do it. Simple advice. SUPER simple advice. But incredibly useful - every single time I add more immersion, I notice a boost in my comprehension. I notice actual improvement over time. I can’t pinpoint ‘why’ it happens, so unfortunately I’m not sure which complementary study methods or ways of immersing are helping me precisely with improvement in which skills. But I can tell that I am improving. I would 100% agree that immersing more is worth trying, at any language learning stage, as much as you want to. I immersed in the first months in both french and chinese, and I did much better than with japanese (where I did not immerse for 2 years and so my level stayed A1 beginner for like 2 years...). My French last time it was tested was around B1, which is fine since I just wanted to read and guess where my skills are closer to A2 and dragging it down? (Yes. Yes of course its speaking ability, of course). My chinese as far as I can pinpoint it is around HSK 4, as far as material I can easily read/listen to, as far as the practice tests I can take online. (Which, again, I’d self evaluate and say my comprehension is at HSK 4 or higher - I definitely can rely on good ability to guess meanings with hanzi and my comfort following grammar easily to boost comprehension a bit higher, but my speaking/writing is lower and I definitely only feel totally comfortable discussing topics that are manageable at HSK 3 - and my production grammar-wise is understandable but SO full of ‘this is the wrong way, use this instead’ which I’m working on...). So like... I got much farther in a year with each language I immersed in - even with the limited immersion I do actually do! So more immersion - better.  While I’m on the topic of immersion: if you like reading, read often and early. I am better off for telling myself “its not hard to read” and just diving in the deep end. Was it hard? ahahaha yes. ;w; But, I realize if I’d put off reading until say HSK 4 or HSK 5 knowledge in chinese, reading would be EVEN HARDER because I’d be so much worse at quickly reading through grammar/gathering context clues. Reading is a mix of actual reading skill, and vocab. I built up a lot of the actual reading skill by starting to try to read super early. So now my main struggle is generally just lack of vocabulary - and since I understand all surrounding grammar very well, its easier for me to roughly-guess at unknown words function and still follow the gist of what’s going on. Reading early also means, for words and hanzi I DO already know, I learned to recognize the many contexts/phrases they show up in and the various words they combine into earlier. So again, when I’m looking at a new text the hardest words are new vocab made of ALL unknown hanzi - if I know one hanzi in the word, it’s something I can often approximately guess the meaning of especially when I understand the entire rest of the sentence. If a new word is spelled with all known hanzi, I can look it up once or twice and generally remember it very fast - since its connected to what I already know. If I had waited to read until I’d learned more vocab, I would have less of a reading skill foundation to rely on right now. And based on what I’ve read of at least some people’s experiences on chinese-forums.com, many readers will go through a STEEP uncomfortable period when starting to read chinese. Something vocab does not totally mitigate. I think it just takes many hours, of the reading skills getting less and less hard, and then eventually things get more comfortable. There is also the issue of ‘comprehensible’ reading material - depending on your tolerance for ambiguity, chinese can be painfully incomprehensible for a long time. Generally people feel comfortable once they comprehend 98% of a material. But in chinese, even once you learn thousands of vocab, depending on your reading skills and abilities to ‘guess from context clues’, you will not be at 98% yet. Even if you can guess from context clues, that isn’t solid comprehension its still ambiguously understood material. So to get used to reading chinese as a learner, you have to start getting used to how it feels to read stuff only 80% comprehensible. Only 90% comprehensible. And if you get good and learn a lot of vocab and grammar and understand it better when you see it - 95%. Which is still not the range of ‘comfort’ yet. The quicker you learn to not be stressed by the ambiguity, the less painful reading becomes. And the more tolerable it is, the more you can read, and the quicker you can learn more, and the quicker you’ll REACH 95% to 98% comprehensibility. But if its so painful you refuse to keep reading, to keep using reading to push comprehensibility up... it is going to be a long way until you hit 98%... Graded readers are great, and give you stepping stones to transition this experience. Graded readers are MADE to be 98% comprehensible at different learning levels, so they will FEEL comfortable. And if they do feel uncomfortable (because you don’t have high enough comprehension), then they will at least drag your comprehension up - and still be more tolerable than the alternative of even LESS comprehensible native speaker chinese language materials. Basically though... find a way to force yourself through the harder ‘intolerable’ early parts. It happens whether you know 500 words or 2000. So you’ll have to do it eventually. I get demotivated if I’ve ‘studied a lot and still understand nothing’ so my foolish self dived off the deep end at 500 words, then at 1000, then at 1500, then at 2000. Cause I kept trying to read, being frustrated at its difficulty and stopping after a few weeks, then trying again once I’d learned more! But wow did that early trying pay off. Now that I DO know more words, if nothing else the comparison of how NICE it feels to read now in comparison to in the past, motivates me a ton. If I just started reading recently, and all I knew was it felt ‘this hard’ then I might want to give up. But like... when I started, and knew 500 words, my graded readers were PAINFUL. Genuinely intimidating. Once I pushed through one? They felt easy as pie, and graded readers at that vocab-level felt so easy they got boring. Now I find graded HSK 4 material and usually read through it super fast or don’t even bother. So I can 1. read more comfortably. And 2. because I’ve BUILT up a higher tolerance to ‘ambiguity discomfort’ I can allow myself to read harder materials if I do want to - because I can still TELL it feels easier than it used to. 

Finally, about MIA the study method as a concept. So... either because the site is long and people don’t like to finish reading, or maybe the writer is not good at summaries - but people often get confused about how to do it. Particular detail questions about how to do ‘this specific suggested activity’ make sense. But there’s a lot of people who ask “do I just turn on the language shows, and?? How do I learn?” Which, fair enough. So, as I understand it, here’s a summary: You want to learn a language. Find yourself a grammar guide - a free website, a book, whatever. Read the summary/guide, or skim it, whatever gives you a ‘preview’ of the language’s structure and what you’ll be getting used to over time. You will use this guide to reference later in the future, whenever grammar in stuff you see confuses you. You can use multiple guides later to reference. Right now, just zoom through a guide and get a general sense of the language you’re abut to learn. You can also wait to do this step until later, whenever you want. The sooner you do it, the sooner grammar will be less mysterious to you. Find yourself a pronunciation guide. Go through it, you don’t have to be a perfectionist about ANYTHING you do before or after this. Just go through, listen to it all, try to notice how its different from your own language. Notice if there’s any major differences like tones, sounds or patterns your own language doesn’t have. You don’t need to memorize, you’re just becoming aware that these aspects exists and are different. Again, this is to get you used to the language you’re about to dive into. This should probably be done early on. Look up some info about the writing system, if it is different from your own language’s. You will probably find some explanation introductory articles for beginners. If there’s any explanations about how it works, or why it’s like it is, read through it. This will help you understand the system better. You don’t need to memorize - although you may want to save a couple hundred common words, or a copy of all the letters, or a copy of a couple hundred common characters, or a copy of the radicals that combine to make characters. Read over this copied info a few times every once in a while, as you’ll see these things a TON once you start immersing.  You find yourself a premade deck of SRS flashcards (use Memrise app, Anki program/website, some alternative) of common words in that language - ideally in sentences, but single-words work if that’s all you can find. Ideally with audio - but again, whatever you can find. You may also find an SRS deck of characters (like Heisig Remember the Kanji)/writing system specific info, if you want, to go through that deck early on to help you more with recognizing the writing system as you encounter it.  Whatever decks you get, you will study those for 10-30 minutes a day. You can start doing this from day 1. (Or be like me and be inconsistent about it - just try to keep progressing forward and learning new material, even if you don’t always study. For me it was better always to move onto new stuff, instead of review, if I only had time to do one out of the two things.) Find yourself stuff to immerse with - shows, stories, audios, comics, social media, whatever. You will try to immerse every day, and try to immerse as much as you enjoy. Do this from day 1. When immersing: use either the language you are studying’s subtitles or else none at all. When watching/listening - look up words as desired, mainly though focus on context and trying to understand as much of the gist of what’s going on as you can. Over time you will pick things up. For reading - look up words as desired, and in the beginning you may look up a TON of words because you need to look up at least enough to follow the Bare Minimum Gist of What The Main Plot is. You NEED to understand at least basic context, with whatever your immersion material is, in order to learn new words from context. So: you might start with reading simple graded readers. You might use shows/books/audio of things you’ve already experienced in english, so the context is clearer to you. You might read summaries in english ahead of time. If you need more context in order to use immersion to learn any new things - then go ahead and give yourself more context. Immersion will feel difficult at first, the joy is watching you start to just ‘naturally’ pick up more. Audio immersion - for some of this, you do not need to attempt to ‘understand the gist of the plot’, you can just use it to attempt to pick out all the specific words in the language, the language’s rhythm, and get used to the language. If you’re only using an audio to learn the sounds of a language, you can probably use it as ‘background sound’ while doing other daily things, since it won’t require as constant focus as it would if you were trying to catch every single word you knew as you listened. There you go. You’re all set. Do this for a year and see where your progress is at. Quit doing this if you aren’t seeing some improvements, since if that’s the case a different study method may be better for you. Don’t do this method if you don’t like it - whatever gets you to study, is the right methods for you. No point doing something that doesn’t work for you. Eventually, as you make progress, you will decide on goals and notice mistakes/shortcomings in your skills. When that happens, add additional study materials/tasks as needed to focus specifically on those things as desired. For example - if you notice your pronunciation sucks, you may start using audio-focused flashcards, or go through a pronunciation guide again more carefully-thoroughly this time. Or - you realize your writing is bad, so you go through a grammar guide again and do the exercises, and get language partners and write to them regularly so that you get corrections. Eventually, you finish a common word flashcard deck - find a new deck, or make one, with new words you want to learn or need to based on your goals. The massive immersion approach is a basic plan of immerse-while-paying-attention+study new words/review words regularly, it doesn’t include every single thing you might do or want to do. 

Anyway, mm. tldr: massive immersion approach suggests doing immersion of all kinds, from day 1. I couldn’t agree more, every time I add more immersion when studying a language it helps so significantly and over time. however, mia also has half of it’s study method based on SRS flashcards - if you are not a flashcard person like me, my alternative study ‘method’ above works. It’s not perfect, its probably not as effective. But it works if you can’t focus on SRS flashcards reliably. Finally, I summarize mia a little. 

[sarohara]

hey darling,you're my best friend

Stranger: But there’s a fewer things that you don’t know of

You: AHAHAHA

You: Why I borrow your lipstick so often

Stranger: I am using your shirt as a pillow case

You: I wanna ruin our friendship

Stranger: We should be lovers instead

You: I don't know how to say this...

You: 'Cause you're really my dearest friend ahahahahaha

Stranger: Cause you’re really my dearest friend

Stranger: Nice!

You: yooooo

Stranger: Hahahaha

You: ahahah what's up?

Stranger: You just made my day!

You: aaaawwwww

You: nooo, YOU made my day

Stranger: My dearest friend! 😂

You: 😂😂😂😂

Stranger: So, who are you?

Stranger: Darling

You: AHAHAH i'm a stranger

Stranger: Say less!

You: ahahahahah named Sarah

You: who r you?

Stranger: Hey Sarah! My name is Zala

You: No way Zala

You: Sarah, Zala

You: 😂😂

You: Nice name btw

Stranger: Haha thank you 😂

You: np lmao ahah well, wyd here girl?

Stranger: I am just boring. And I put tiktok because I don’t want to have “ads for kik or onlyfans” by every second message

Stranger: Didn’t expect anyone from tiktok here tho

You: oooh i get u, i'm bored as well, i mean, everybody's bored on omegle 😂 what's new right

You: and well, actually, i'm not from there but ik that trend so idk, i just felt like 😂

Stranger: I just watch tiktoks

Stranger: Never made any

You: Yeaa, but in my case, i saw it on yt

You: so i thought "why not?" ahhaha

Stranger: Why not! Do it more often tho

You: well, I was thinking about doing it with someone on snapchat but idk

Stranger: Good idea, but I just don’t like screenshoting pictures. Then people know that something is going on

You: Oooh yea but i could do it after u know..

You: Idk, i don't even know if i'm gonna post it

Stranger: Yeah I understand

You: Idk anyways

You: People here before you, just skipped me away when i sent "hey darling, you're my best friend"

You: like cmon guys

Stranger: Hahahah I believe! I usually skip when I get “horny”

Stranger: Boy please stope

You: Yeaaaaaa ikr, i hate it

You: I mean, nobody cares right

Stranger: Yeah

Stranger: I get on befrore “M, horny..... skip”

Stranger: I was just laughing at myself and skip it

You: AAHHAHAHA

You: "m>skip

Stranger: Hahhahaha

You: most guys who send "m" are horny, basically ahahhaha

Stranger: True

Stranger: I always say first like “hey”

You: Yeeeeaaasss

Stranger: How are you. Not just F

Stranger: And it’s hard to find a girl who will talk with you

You: Something like "wyd", "what's good?" not f, bc no one asked

Stranger: Like if I say F back, I always get skip

You: U mean, girls?

Stranger: Yes

You: Ooh i feel u, they skip me too

You: Like "???"

Stranger: Exactly!

You: it's like you're only here for boys, damn girl

Stranger: How old are you tho? Because I like the way you’re thinking

You: Do u wanna guess?

Stranger: Hoping more then 16😂

You: Uuuum i'm 16 😂

You: Hbu

Stranger: 20

Stranger: Don’t call me old now!

Stranger: 😂😂

You: I wont 😂

You: Maybe later but not now ahahahahhah

You: Nah i'm joking

Stranger: Hahahah mean!

You: Yea, so mean!!! ahhahah

You: where r u from btw?

Stranger: Europe

Stranger: Slovenia

Stranger: You?

You: Ooh that's so cool

You: I'm from Brazil

Stranger: Oh waw

You: Far aaaway right ahhah

Stranger: Yeah

You: say something in slovenian/slovene idk

Stranger: Hello, I am Zala. - živjo, jaz sem Zala

You: Seems so fancy

Stranger: How are you - kako si

Stranger: Hahah it’s actually hard to learn

You: Yeaaa i bet!!!

Stranger: You speak in portugal?

You: Portuguese

You: Yea :)

Stranger: Some things I remember from primary school

Stranger: Hahaha

You: well, do u know something in portuguese?

You: ahahhaha

Stranger: No hahah

You: Oh okay ahah

Stranger: But you can teach me!

You: Yea, sure

You: Hey, my name's Sarah, nice meeting you. - E aí, meu nome é Sarah, prazer te conhecer.

You: How r u?- Como você está?

Stranger: Uhhh I hate this letters àáèê

Stranger: Hahaha

You: AHAHHAHA

Stranger: Always have trouble pronouncing them

You: It's not that hard, trust me ahaha

Stranger: Hahah okay

You: So

You: how r things over there?

Stranger: Corona?

You: Yea

Stranger: We are in “lockdown” for 6 weeks now. We have police hours from 21-6

Stranger: Only grocery stores are open

You: Oh i didn't know that

Stranger: It’s weird

Stranger: We have to wear mask everywhere

You: I mean, most of europe is in lockdown right?

Stranger: Yes

Stranger: How are things in Brazil?

You: there's no lockdown over here but we still wearing mask everywhere

Stranger: I hope it ends soon

You: Yea, same :) at least, i hope it gets a lil bit better bc the situation it's not good.

Stranger: True. Let’s hope for 2021 to bring good news

You: Hopefully

You: wyd now?

Stranger: Some university work

Stranger: You?

You: Oooh i was about to say "homework" as well ahahha

You: Same zzz but not university, high school

Stranger: I could say, you are 16

You: Yea yea

You: What do u study btw?

Stranger: Educational science.

Stranger: Let me explain

You: Go ahead

Stranger: When I finish with uni, I will probably work in school and I will be the person, you came to, when you need help. Like social worker probably. But I will also help study people with special needs. Like doing work slowly, repeat things with them

You: Ooh i got u!! I appreciate these people btw, it's amazing :)

Stranger: Ooo thanks! So sweet of you

You: Aww :)

Stranger: Are you in general high school or for special job?

You: Both ahahah

Stranger: Oh, so like what?

Stranger: If I guess it’s nursing

Stranger: Hahaha

Stranger: That was one of my opinions when I went to high school

You: ahahhaha actually, accounting ahah

Stranger: Okay hahah

Stranger: Not bad at all

You: I mean...

You: I dunno 😂

Stranger: You will see

Stranger: Enjoy your life as a teenager!

You: don't even dare

Stranger: Hahah

Stranger: I was starting to party when I was 16

Stranger: And now corona

You: 4 years it's a long time okay 😂

Stranger: Hahahha okay okay

You: Corona sucks

You: i can't go to parties 😂

Stranger: Hahah same tho!

You: everyone's in the same boat right

Stranger: Right

You: Yaa

Stranger: I will let you finish your homework

You: Don't do that

Stranger: Hahaha

You: But well, i'll let u finish your university work

You: wait, first, what time is it?

Stranger: 18:40

Stranger: Almost 7pm

You: Yea ik

You: It's 14:40

You: almost 3pm

Stranger: Isn’t it interesting. How different is time around the world

Stranger: We will celebrate new year before you

You: it's really interesting. I have a name for it.

You: It's called timezone 😂

You: i'm so funny right.

You: joking.

Stranger: Hahahah

Stranger: You’re

Stranger: Never heard of timezone before

Stranger: 😂😂😂

You: Yeaaaa ikr, i mean, I created this name

You: By myself

Stranger: Omg Sarah the creator

Stranger: Everyone will learn about you

You: I'm a genius 😂😂

You: ahahahhahaha

Stranger: So glad that I meet you

Stranger: Hahahah

You: Aw :) me too :) so glad that i meet u

You: Aw is my second name, i'm always "aw" 😂 as u can see

Stranger: Hhahha 🥺🥺

Stranger: Do you want to keep talking on other social media?

Stranger: No pressure

You: Yeaa!! sure :)) i was about to ask it.

You: do u got insta?

Stranger: I do

Stranger: ferjancic.zala

You: shhht

You: mine is @sarahcvlm

Stranger: Wow so depressing quote 😂

You: I said "shht" bc I uninstalled my insta yesterday, but I'm gonna follow you later, I swear ahahhaha

You: Depressing? 😂 Okay i'm a depressed now bc it's basically my life aahahah

Stranger: Hhahaha don’t be like that

Stranger: I send you request

You: I'm joking, it's just a quote from Anne with an E :)

You: Oke :)) installing instagram again

Stranger: Okay

Stranger: Hahahah oh

You: "Oh" 😂

Stranger: Oh, you didn’t have to do that

You: Stop it

You: i was gonna do it, soon or later dw

Stranger: Okay okay😊

You: Done

You: Ooh, you're so cute Zala :)

Stranger: Awww 🥰

Stranger: You are too!

You: Aw, thanks :))

You: both followed :)

You: See ya there?

Stranger: See ya!

[mickeytheticklee]

ᵀᵘᵐᵇˡʳ

(This is: a tickle fic!!)

Ok calm down, maybe she's not scrolling through your Tumblr.

It was nighttime, before showering. Soojin went in for a shower first and I waited in the bedroom with all my clothes. While waiting I saw her phone on the countertop. I thought about reading it, since Soojin and I trust each other with our phones. But sometimes things don't turn out right and next thing you know I get in trouble over a text without context. Then I realize...it's Soojin. She never texts ant guys and the only girl she texts on the daily is Shuhua (and I'm chill with Shuhua). I used the face recognition and the first thing I saw was a blue screen. I didn't know what app she was using until I tapped the person icon. SHE WAS ON TUMBLR?!?! It looked like she got finished making an account because there was nothing as her pfp. But Soojin having Tumblr? It didn't make sense. She wasn't a Tumblr girl and besides, what would she be looking up on Tumblr? That's where I thought she would be looking at my account. Although it's been a long ass time ever since using my Tumblr account I said some really embarrassing shit. Starting with the fact that I never told Soojin about my major tickle fetish. Like I remember telling her once about it, but I didn't firmly conclude it was a fetish. Plus she didn't hear me, she was focused on her phone.

Plus my Tumblr account was before I ever confessed to Soojin about liking her. Meaning some of my posts talked about how I wanted to be tickled by her.

I stayed calm, there was a chance she couldn't have ahold of it. But just in case, I changed my username, checked and made sure that anything Soojin related was going to be deleted. Then double checked that my fetish was going to be the only thing I get caught for. By the time that was done, Soojin was done with her shower and it was time to come in. I sadly couldn't get an enjoyable shower in, my mind was bombarded by the thought of Soojin reading my tweets. Even if I did everything I know her clever ass will use her skills to find me. Even her reading thirst tickle tweets will haunt me. She'll know that I have a weakness for saying the tword in front of people. Look, she won't. Or at least not today. Soojin said it herself earlier that all she wanted to do today was sleep. Or...and let me say this...she forgets all about this situation tomorrow. I'm already thinking positively about this. After the shower I get ready for bed and lay next to Soojin. Even though Soojin complained all day about being tired her ass still wasn't in bed. It was on her phone.

Miren: Babe, the phone isn't going anywhere. Put it away.

Soojin: One last thing. Stop being impatient.

I got anxious. I thought of laying and ignoring it but it kept eating me. I waited until her phone turned off and she slid under the covers. Then I felt much safer realizing she will never know. That's until I felt a soft sensation running through my back. I just thought it was the soft covers, but when soft covers ever move? I then see it's Soojin trying to tease me by tickling my back. Usually teasing with back tickles signals that she doesn't know my fetish and it'll be a once in a lifetime tickle time. So I went back to sleep and she did it again so I had to flip over and hold her hand if she does it again. I hope this time it could stop until I found her turning back on the light, saying she couldn't sleep. She was pouty and feeling a bit stressed that her eyes couldn't close. I felt bad so I went out of my bed to fetch her some tea. I know with tea she'll easily calm down and get to sleep. When I came back she was sitting up, feeling sad as I bought her tea. She thanked me but only took a small sip of her tea. Sitting it down to the stool right beside the bed she grabs my waist and brings me to the bed. She hugs me very tightly in one arm, to trap me and tickle my back again with the other.

Miren: SOOJIN STOP PLEASE!! I don't like this!!

Soojin: no❤️

I couldn't move as my hands kept being misguided with the spot Soojin was tickling me at. Nowhere in my Tumblr have I said anything about back tickling (even though back tickling is low-key underrated). I caught her once but failed since her hand was everywhere. It was skittering through my whole back and spine, with a few occasional side tickles. After resisting I finally laughed since my body was too tired from deflecting her attacks. I hated how Soojin wasn't ticklish, I wanted to attack her back so bad after putting me through this torture. She stopped as I was catching a few breathes. I then interlocked my hands with hers so she wouldn't attack. Knowing that she was hella bored I just turned back my phone so we can listen to calm music. But once I stopped her she decided to keep doing it. Her fingered nails poked my tummy and sides as I had to squirm while getting the radio station on my phone. I stopped her finger but guess what? There's another one on the loose. Once I got the music Soojin wanted now I had to make sure I didn't show weakness like last time. But then her trapped finger went loose so now it was her two fingers attacking my ticklish belly.

Soojin: What's wrong? Too shy to admit it?

Miren: I knew you were looking at my Tumblr!! I was right!!

Soojin: That's not surprising. Why else would I know about you?

I bit my bottom lip. She knew? And I was over here being defending my ticklish side? Well even if she did know I still would've acted like this. I got silent as Soojin teased me by kissing my cheek. Only Soojin was the type to keep secrets for times when I prove myself. We cuddled but it didn't mean she was done with her tickling games. While giving her love she rolled up my shirt feeling my sides and belly. I tried to get hands off my ticklish tummy again until she tried something else. She now decided that if I kept declining for tickles she needed to punish me. Accidentally flipping over, I was laying on the bed with Soojin right beside me lifting more of my shirt to expose my tum. Next thing you know soft strokes on my tummy where there and I was already laughing my ass off.

Miren: You! Ahahaha... I'm ahahahahahaha

Soojin: What? What are you trying to say? I can't hear you from all the laughing.

My laughter was all over the place. It goes to giggles at first until Soojin uses her full two hands to lightly tickle my ribs and stomach. But then it came to the kneading of my sides, and suddenly I didn't make noise. I was silently laughing with my stomach tensing up and trying to curl myself in a ball. Whenever I tried doing that it'll either tickle more or Soojin would push my legs down. I was very happy Soojin didn't restrain me down, her tickles made me want to move. Of course with every movement became another tickle spot. With my hands still laying on my stomach hoping she'll stop she aims for my neck next. I wanted to crush her hands with my neck but I forgot she can blow on my ears and neck. I let her have the fun until she went into my knees. I was begging for Soojin to stop (but in this case it's hinting for her to keep continuing).

Soojin: Don't tell me you're already tired. You're not even out of breathe.

Miren: Yes I am!!

Soojin was on a roll of keeping me in laughter. She moved into different spots that I was afraid of what she'll do next. That's until she did the death move. Her face got closer to my stomach and next thing you know her tongue lands in my bellybutton. I was screaming and yelling and Soojin gave me another knee attack. Next thing you know...she gave me a juicy raspberry which left me in high pitched laughter. She gave me a mini break before there was another round. This was too much to handle..and it wasn't the tickling. It was how cute Soojin was and how she was enjoying this. Like even if I smile while I'm being tortured to death I'm at least happy that she's having a good time. After that quick break Soojin recognize my shirt was down, after she demanded it to be up. Uh oh, I knew where this was going.

Soojin: Your making it very hard for me not to tickle you.

Miren: It's very easy.

Soojin: Not when your eyes hint that you wanna be tickled more.

Soojin got closer to me and suddenly her hands got connected to my wrists. Suddenly I'm seeing her and the ceiling. Her magical hands went up and slowly went down, getting closer to my armpits. To assure myself that Soojin won't attack I put my hands under my armpits. But then I saw the direction moving towards my neck. Next thing you know I was laughing again. I did the squished hand method and she surprised me by pinching my thighs. Then Soojin said it was almost 2AM, so she needed to do one last thing. I said whatever in hopes that it wouldn't be dangerous but I was wrong. She did some tickly neck kisses and tummy kisses which were my ultimate soft spot. I went back to giggling with occasional blushing because Soojin kept complimenting my cute laugh. After it was actually time to head to bed. I thanked Soojin for the tickling. Even though I was suffering and begging to stop the whole time I only did it to tease her.

Miren: Thank you and I love.

Soojin: I love your more. And your cute tummy. Goodnight.

🌃

[astral-ice]

Guilty / Innocent - Cressida Hart

Taking a deep slug of the ale in her cup, Cressida shakes it as it finishes. Her cheeks are flushed as her eyes lazily look to the one trying to ask her questions. “Alright, lay ‘em on me.”

Asked someone to marry you? “Are you kidding me? I prefer my current life style of drifting to person right now to considering marrying anyone. You think I’m going to ask anyone to sign a lifelong commitment to me right now? Pffft, no. If I did, it’d only be for monetary gain at the current and not for love. Ask me a little later and then we’ll talk about this again.  

Kissed one of your friends? "What? You haven’t as an innocent child trying to mimic adults? Is it that ludicrous to do so? In short, yes, I have.”

Danced on a table in a bar / tavern? "I can neither confirm nor deny this statement.” She whispers lower. “You didn’t hear it from me, but I definitely have. Just not back home, not that dumb to do it with all the prissy, proper ladies there.”

Ever told a lie? “....Are you sure I’m telling the truth right now?” Silence. “I have, I will, but for the courtesy of your questions, I think I’m being rather sincere... maybe.” 

Had feelings for someone you can’t have? “Ain’t this a fact of life! You know the nobles going around the Pillars? Yeah, I’ve had a heart flutter before for one of them while I was stuck down in the Brume. Gods knows where they are now.” She places a finger on her chin, thinking back before asking the barkeep for another drink.

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?  “Really...? By Halone, these questions sound like a little kid with gael kitten eyes wanting to know questions. I don’t care if I’m kissing someone of the same or opposite. What matters is the passion in those eyes of yours. I don’t really have a preference for either. The ladies are best when I am seeking something softer and the gentleman when i seek something rougher.

Kissed a picture? “...Uh... no.”

Slept until 5pm? "Not willingly.” Cressida looks at her drink. “Definitely not willingly.”

Worked at a fast food chain / restaurant “I run a damn bakery and cafe. So, I sure as better hope I do.”

Stolen something? "Yes. It’s survival of the fittest. Would’ve died if I didn’t.”

Been fired from a job? "Too many times to count. But now i run my own business. So, do you really want me to fire myself?”

Done something you regret? Cressida just raises a brow. “Are you seriously asking this question? Everyone does, and I’m no different.”

Laughed until something you were drinking came out of your nose? “Considering I find a lot of shite funny, this happens more than you think. Though, I try to avoid to when drinking.” She held her nose. “Bloody hell, that buns with alcohol.”

Caught a snowflake on your tongue? "Born and raised in Ishgard - if I didn’t, there would clearly be something wrong with me. Then again, I’ve caught more than just snow on this tongue.” 

Sat on a roof top? "Not as much as I used to. Having to fix the roof tiles is the only chance I get to go up anymore.” She gave a long drawn out look. “Oh, other roofs? Pffft, I still do when I’m bored as hell, but I make sure to keep my face covered.”

Kissed someone you shouldn’t have? “Gods yes. Worst decision ever with the one lass I was seeing years back. Ended up getting stalked for a while afterwards.”

Sang in the shower? “Only if I know I’m the only one in the house. Otherwise, I’m too fast of a bather to sing otherwise.”

Been pushed into a body of water with all your clothes on? “Yes. Several times in fact. Bonus points for the fact one time it was a white shirt with nothing on underneath. I’m sure that was a nice little piece of eye candy.”

Shaved your head? "When I was about nine and wanting to hang with the boys, yup, I did. Regretted it once the winter came though.”

Made a boyfriend / girlfriend cry? "When I broke up with one when I was younger and... due to some other things.”

Shot a gun? “I frequent the Skysteel Machinery monthly, if not weekly. Gods, I hunt with one so I hope I would have shot one.”

Still loved someone you shouldn’t? "Uh, what? Still loving someone I shouldn’t? Have you seen my dating life? That answer is a complete no.”

Have / had a tattoo? "They’re cool, I guess. But too much maintenance for me. I prefer scars over tattoos to be frank.”

Liked someone, but will never tell who? "This is like that other question about having a feeling for someone that but can’t obtain. Gag me. I’ve liked people, but I’m never quiet about it. You think I’m going to give people a chance to tease me about it once they find out? Hells no.”

Been too honest? "In a blunt sense, probably. My employee is worse than me, but hey, I guess that is what keeps us on friendly terms. Unless I feel losing a connection, yeah, I’ll be brutally honest to your face.”

Ruined a surprise? "Hell, I am the surprise. Enough said.”

Been told that you’re beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? “Mmm... only by relatives. Anyone non-related, not that I am aware. Considering you said that they meant it... yeah, pretty sure the people I bed don’t actually mean it and just want to sound fluffy and cute during sex.”

Stalked someone? “Are we talking about one as in a crush? If so, yes. I told you already about those nobles in the Pillars. I was young, but I probably looked like a messy creep.” She hummed to herself. “But if you meant stalking in the way of ‘I’m going to follow you and then shank you in the back or kidnap you’ kind of stalking, nope. I’m glad to say I am not.”

Thought about murder? "Yes.” Long pause. “Who’s to say I haven’t done it?” Another pause. “I’m a bitch, but not that much, so I’ve never acted on it willingly.” Pause again. “What?” Cressida just intensely stares. “The only times been in self defense, I swear on it.”

How about mass murder? “That’s just wrong. I have neither the capabilities nor the people power to do it. Plus, who’d clean up that carnage...? Not worth it honestly.”

Cheated on someone? "....Not recently....” She purses her lips. “LI might be rather fluid going to person to person, but the one time I cheated on someone during my teens left a bad taste in my mouth, and also the reasons for making one of them... well.. cry. There’s a reason most of my ‘romantic’ relationships are only skin deep for the current. Much easier to distance yourself and just leave if needed.”

Gotten so angry that you cried? "I get angry, but not to the point of crying. It’s a form of weakness. Growing up in the Brume, you learn quickly crying is the last thing you want to do even if you are pissed off at the world.”

Tried to stay away from someone for their own good? "Ahahaha... no. If anything I’ll keep trying to run after them even if I seem like a crazed maniac.” She grins from ear to ear while taking another drink. 

Thoughts about suicide? "Such a dreary topic, but no. For some it’s a way out, I understand. But for me, I can’t think about off myself yet. I have too much I need and want to accomplish.”

Had a girlfriend / boyfriend? "Multiple have come and gone. Currently, none for now or, well, if you consider small flings, which I don’t.”

Gotten totally drunk during a holiday? "Who doesn’t? Of course I do. Starlight is one of the best times, too! Plus the booze makes a great gift.”

Thank you @mai-takeda for tagging me!

Tagging @windup-dragoon​ @sharlayanwanderer @treexsong  @glorysworn​ and anyone else who feels like doing this prompt. :D Not exactly sure who has or hasn’t done it!

[lunawings]

King of Prism SSS Episode 12 commentary (FINAL!)

Crunchyroll was awesome this time! 

No significant complaints on the subs!

You guys were awesome this time! 

So many people stuck around for the late viewing in the stream and even after just to chat! 

Now on to the actual episode. 

Once again sorry this is so long. But with this being the last one, can you really blame me.....?

.....As much I love this episode, this scene was just so painful. Worse than Shine’s show. Worse than that whole last episode combined. 

A lot of my predictions about Part 4 were wrong (will discuss later) but I was absolutely sure of one thing. I knew no matter what happened in Part 4 just one thing was FOR CERTAIN. And that was... I was going to have to see Shin cry. This precious boy who deserves nothing but love is going to suffer. And I tried to prepare myself. I tried. 

But somehow. Even though I knew. EVEN THOUGH I KNEW... It was way worse than I could have ever imagined.

I always assumed he would cry because he found out about something terrible about the past. But instead HE NEVER KNOWS THE TRUTH and we get him sobbing over something entirely NOT HIS FAULT... in front of everyone.... HOW.... HOW COULD THEY.... DO THIS... TO.... HI...M................ 

This scene upsets me so much I don’t know if I have ever even seen the whole thing. I always end up turning away at some point, or just curling up into a ball.....

Did anyone else feel like they were watching a totally different anime for a few seconds here? I’m having trouble telling if the style actually changed or if I.... just am not used to seeing Shin make expressions like this............. ba.....by..............

Leo always cries when anyone else is crying.

Even though everyone claps for him at the theater at cheering shows, it doesn’t make me feel better. AT ALL. Because Shin never knows the truth. NONE OF THEM DO. Okay we’ll talk about this more later but just..... gah it hurts........................................ So much that it actually hindered my enjoyment of what amazing thing comes next......

Back in the first movie era, the idea of a full CGI show of the Edel Rose boys with Shin as center was something that I could not imagine coming true even in my wildest dreams. And I love this show. I just wish it wasn’t proceeded by so much suffering. 

Shin being their center was something they decided at the Christmas live (before performing Dramatic Love for the first time) BTW. While it seems obvious to us that Shin would be center, it wouldn’t necessarily be as such in-universe. They had to decide at some point! And I’m glad it was a part of that story. 

I LOVE THESE OUTFITS. 

THEYRE PERFECT. The rainbows, the stars, the colors. Everyone looks AMAZING. And I know the rainbows are probably an homage to Over the Rainbow... BUT..

its just so gay

Prism stone beam???

This is orange I guess? It looks more yellow to me. A lot of the hand colors are kinda vague and I’m just like... WHO DID YOU TOUCH 

For anyone who read my I THINK I MARRIED ALL THE EDEL ROSE BOYS. OR THEY MARRIED EACH OTHER. ANYWAY EVERYONE IS MARRIED NOW shitty out of context spoiler I wrote in a comment obviously it was this ahahaha

I really do love this show, and like with the new Shuffle’s show last week I’m so glad I can finally watch it without the.... suffering. 

The first time I saw this in theaters, this exact frame right here was when I first started feeling any semblance of better after all that had happened. He looks so confident and gallant and his eyes are shining and he just.... Shin............... I love you so much....................................................................

Also this is a good spot to talk about their feathers I guess. So these are different from the other (male?) wings Shine had. Why? What does that mean? 

*throws hands in the air*

So, some folks may not be aware of this but the feathers from Rainbow Live were a feature of the arcade game. 

You could unlock them by raising the PairTomos, and even the night dream feathers look like they were available at one time during an event it seems?? I am not entirely sure how it all worked since I never played the game back in the heyday. (You can no longer obtain all the feathers now even if you bring a memory card to a currently running Pretty Rhythm machine since some just aren’t available anymore.)

But anyway, the actual point I was trying to make is that the feathers had a set  structure within Rainbow Live since it was grounded by the arcade game. But in King of Prism...... that just kinda do what they want.... s....o.............

The first time I went to cheering for this it was the premiere date, and it was also the first time I ever did cheering the same day. In between the morning/midnight showing a whole bunch of people had the idea to go to the 100 yen shop and get glowstick rings just for this scene. I was like daaaamn. 

But then...

Our first official non-Crunchyroll translation of prism no kirameki? 

Even the Juuouin group worships “the prism”. 

And I can’t help laugh at the irony that Crunchyroll abandoned using “the prism” but also just ignored the translation ALREADY ON SCREEN

I can’t take his scream here. It’s just like.... HE WAS ALREADY DYING, WHY DID THEY HAVE TO SPEED UP THE PROCESS. 

LOUIS. 

LOUIS NOOOOOOOOO. 

Even as late as it is, I am really, really grateful how they took a few seconds to establish for the new audience exactly how much of their shows are powered by prism sparkle. 

Note that they did not change out of their costumes though. But my headcanon on this is that Leo just prefers to make the real thing because he can. 

Singing at cheering shows is also everything I have ever wanted. 

I feel bad though since I pretty much always get tongue tied here every time. It’s hard to just sing acapella to a song you’re not that familiar with. Especially with the sparkely lyrics appearing and disappearing like this. I actually don’t hear that many other people singing in the theater, perhaps for that reason? But I always try my best. 

And now that this is finally out, I can finally practice at home and nail this down with confidence just in time for...... SSS to leave theaters..... um............ ye....ah........

I also mess this up like every single time ahaha. It’s just slightly too fast for me to read. 

Someday I will succeed in properly marrying all of the Edel Rose boys. Someday. 

(Also I don’t think this was rainbow-colored in the theatrical version.)

So Edel Rose and all their fans just up and created a prism goddess so we don’t need the prism gods anymore. Can they do that? Can we do that? I guess we can! 

WE DID IT GUYS

It’s oddly fitting that Hijiri is kind of an ugly crier. I mean, he’s just so beautiful the rest of the time. It’s only right. 

So let’s unpack this for a sec. Unbeknownst to them, because the Edel Rose boys all married each other they put a new seal on Shine. But this seal is entirely dependent on their marriage their bond with each other. 

How literal is that I wonder?

Because like.... Edel Rose won’t last forever. Kakeru, Minato, and Yukinojo are gonna be going to college in a year and a half.... ahah ha.....

I just imagine like. A couple of them meeting on the street in the distant future being like “Oh man I haven’t seen you in forever!” “Yeah! We really lost touch! Hey, have you heard from Shin lately?” “No, you?” And behind them is like a TV report of Shin become Shine destroying a city or something. 

.....................Reminder again that this commentary is coming from the place where I am after having a couple months to let this all sink in and get to the point where I am comfortable joking about it.... ahah ha........ 

This is one of my coping mechanisms for dealing with the idea that my favorite character basically has the devil living inside of him trying to take over at any moment.....

Another one is thinking back to older King of Prism media and wondering what Shine was doing at that time. Like, I imagine him floating there inside Shin all bored and pissed off making sarcastic comments at whatever the Edel Rose boys are doing. And I find this hilarious for some reason. I’d make a webcomic about it if I could draw.

ANYWAY 

So my understanding of this scene (which may or may not be totally correct) is: The Edel Rose boys’ rings put a seal on Shine which drags him down back into the depths of where Rinne first plunged him. But before he goes, he installs(?) his powers into Shin so that Shin is free to use Shine’s powers on his own now. (Up until now he was just like borrowing them?) 

If you also briefly wondered how they could have gotten a perfect score after failing a jump, my guess is the Prism System just wasn’t recording at that time due to the lack of prism sparkle ahah ha. 

They absolutely mopped the floor with the new Shuffle, and it did not matter.

What makes this so nuts to me is that even before I saw Part 4, like way back after I first saw episode 5 I was already comparing Joji to a twisted Hiro. (Elaborated on this in my episode 5 post.) And then this aha. 

So in the theatrical version I swear the crowd here has light blue lights. And I wondered if it was on purpose to be like inverted Hiro (who goes from light blue -> yellow in the Prism King Cup, so Joji went yellow -> light blue?) but nope, I guess somebody just forgot Joji’s theme color is yellow ahaha. In the TV version they just made it multi-colored. 

So to add more context to some things, you may remember I mentioned before that Part 4 premiered in Japanese theaters in the gap between when Taiga and Kakeru’s episodes aired on TV. So by the time Joji’s episode aired on TV... I already knew this was gonna happen. I already knew we were watching the number one prism show. THE CHAMP. The only 2D prism show.... SO MUCH IRONY. 

But you know what. Despite his show being what it was..... After all the time to let it sink in.. After all the dust has settled.... the one solo song which is my clear favorite..... The only one which has gotten stuck in my head WAY MORE than ANY other.... is Joji’s. 

(Well, Ace’s. But still.)

So. 

Congrats Prism Champ. 

Never thought I’d say this but poor Jin. Even when he ACTUALLY TRIES to do something fair for once...... still......

(Goddammit Shine.)

Poor Joji? Or not. It’s hard to feel bad for him when he’s THE PRISM CHAMP ahaha. Like. He made it. He has everything he ever strived to obtain. On the surface anyway. 

How Nori-kun feels about this though, who knows. Will we ever?

DOES IT REALLY NOT? Haha I really don’t understand this at all. Like. Was it really political pressure? Did Jin fold since he didn’t win in the way that he wanted to? Did Kakeru pull some strings behind the scenes again?

*throws hands in the air*

AND THIS

It’s framed to be this super significant scene but

WHAT DOES IT MEANNNNNNNN

I have already touched on this in separate posts, and this post is so long already that I’m going to kind of leave it hanging here but I consider Kakeru’s plot in SSS to be a loose end. He was the only boy who did not have a plot with some kind of resolution about himself. Instead Kakeru’s plot was only about other people.....

FINALLY, the ultimate conclusion to the infamous curry plot of Pride the Hero.

AND FINALLY

YOU

GUYS 

I WAS SO MAD 

The official King of Prism Twitter and such were actually pretty good at hiding Dorachi before Alexander’s episode aired. But Torachi was just EVERYWHERE and I was like COME... ON. REALLY.

So you may have noticed this but he was added to the opening too. For us seeing SSS in the theaters, we only get one OP per showing. So this means Japan actually got this spoiled before episode 10. 

But I didn’t. I didn’t even notice because I just wasn’t thinking to look for it. (Also I guess sitting in a terrible seat to the far right twisting my neck at an angle may have had something to do with it but.) When I first saw the reveal of Torachi in episode 12 it was TOTAL SURPRISE for me......

But as much as I love Taiga though, Dorachi is my clear favorite. My Dorachi merch collection will start as soon as I can get my hands on ANYTHING

Also I wonder at what point Alexander figured out that DJ COO was Rei, because he sure knows now ahah. 

But anyway, speaking of spoilers....

I know I said at one point Nikkanen and the twins didn’t have any significant appearances in SSS, but that was before Part 4 and I just decided not to correct that and let you guys be surprised AHAHAH you’ll just have to hate me *BLASTS OFF INTO THE SUNSET*

(I’m so glad they seem to have cleaned up Nikkanen’s face a little. He looked so weird in the theater. Or like.... weirder at least.)

(If you don’t know these boys they are already established characters introduced on the Prism Rush mobile game.)

And what do THESE feathers mean..... 

LOUIS ISN’T DYING ANYMORE DONT CARE *NYOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMM* 

By the way I can’t believe the prism sparkle disappearing and Louis becoming the protector of the world WAS FORESHADOWED IN ROAD TO SSS 9. That’s why I reblogged this post the other day.

It’s so funny how much of Road to SSS didn’t matter. Then you get to event 9 and LITERALLY EVERYTHING MATTERS. 

And again.... speaking of spoilers............

The week before Yu’s episode aired I AGONIZED about whether to put in some kind of vague hint that the Edel Rose boys new unit name was revealed in that episode (as part of Yu’s prism jump). Ultimately I decided not to. Because even though I didn’t figure it out at the time, I think with even a vague hint I probably would have. Because even when I saw it back then I was like.... “...... huh........” 

So you’re just gonna hafta haaaaaaaaate ahahaahah ha sorry

But anyway! Now I can finally stop referring to our seven stars as the “Edel Rose boys” and from now on call them SeptEntrion! Since calling them just the “Edel Rose boys” isn’t really accurate anymore since it would also include the twins and Nikkanen, etc. I’m happy that the main seven finally have a good name to distinguish them. 

(Now I need to learn to remember how to spell SeptEntrion....) 

Also

You guys in the livestream ruined this for me so I’m ruining it for everyone too.

Look at the red letters. 

Then flip over your desk and storm out of the room like I almost did when I noticed. 

WHY

THERE IS NO WAY THAT IS NOT ON PURPOSE

WHY 

So, a few weeks ago I was in Tokyo and I decided to stop by the Yotsuya station area.

I found the site of the supposed Yotsuya Credit union  (which is actually a lottery ticket stand) and the KPO KFC almost immediately. 

I also found out there is a Catholic university in the area, and although it doesn’t look anything like Edel Rose that seems like not a coincidence. 

So I started to walk around that area, but try as I might I could not find any little  shopping streets like the one in the anime. The area didn’t look like it would have that sort of place at all. Also it was POURING RAIN, I was just at Aqours 5th live the previous day, I had at least 6 hours to get home, and I was anxious to make it there with plenty of time for the stream of Alexander’s episode which we were doing that night. I decided to give up and head to the KFC to console myself over chicken, coleslaw, and biscuits before beginning the journey home when LOW AND BEHOLD 

RIGHT ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE KFC

WAS THIS 

IT DOES EXIST 

And there is not nearly enough room for SeptEntrion to perform here ahaha. 

I can’t help but notice that while they used Prism One performance snapshots for all the other boys, Shin is in his old Over the Sunshine outfit. Well I mean. OF COURSE HE IS. But.....

But I really can’t help but wonder what the boys are thinking nowadays in retrospect about what happened. 

I mean, not that they shouldn’t love and trust Shin. Of course they should. 

But if my friend turned to pure evil for a solid 15 minutes I would be.... CONCERNED for him? ?? To say the least. 

The fact that THEY DONT KNOW AND MAY NEVER KNOW really just eats at me

I suppose Louis or June could tell them. But I don’t think Louis ever will since he just wants to protect Shin, and June..... where would she even start. 

Not to mention what does Yamada-san think about how Shin just BECAME Wataru Hibiki like I.... I just have several questions but......

The cheering audience for the half second we can see Torachi here: “..............................................................AHHHHH!..................................................”

I wondered for weeks what the TV ED would be for this episode, and as soon as Boy Meets Girl started playing I was like...... OF. COURSE.

Hahah I’m glad though. So far the only SeptEntrion version Boy Meets Girl we’ve had was live (at MRS) and I often thought of ripping the audio from the DVD just to have it, but now I won’t have to. The TV audience never got to hear the theatrical ending 366 Love Diary though, which is kind of a shame. That song is such a big part of SSS to me.

So when we do the livestreams, I often have the live episode playing on my actual TV with the sound off. The stream is delayed by a few minutes so it’s been great for cues to help prepare stuff to type into the chat about things coming up.

While you guys were still in the meat of this episode, I casually glanced over my shoulder and saw THIS on my TV

Shin in the outfit Leo originally made him for the Prism One.

And just started having a seizure that lasted until the credits ended BECAUSE THEN THIS. THIS RIGHT HERE.

Playing to the left is the theatrical weekly video we got in the third week of Part 4. 

(It has actual dialogue in the theaters, but here they just muted it and laid it over the credits. I went to the theater yesterday JUST to take notes on this for you guys ahaha. Glad I didn’t need to though.)

But like. When I first saw this in the theaters... 

I was so SO sure this was a joke. I mean Prism 2!?! Seriously!? 

But now I don’t know WHAT to think. 

ESPECIALLY ABOUT THIS

But um. Someone tell me the anime references I’m missing here:

And which of these are newly revealed YMT29 boys ahah:

And..... that’s it....

This is Louis’ coded way of telling Shin he’ll love him forever I guess. 

Aw man

you guys

we made it

ROUND OF APPLAUSE 

Ahhhhhhhhhh

ITS BEEN A JOURNEY

So Part 4 turned out way differently than I predicted. When the episodes were first announced and episode 12 was “Unknown”, my immediate thought was “it’s gonna be Shine.” Especially since the quote for Shin’s episode was something like “what have I done,” I assumed he would gain some memories of the past in episode 11 and was talking about something he/Shine did in the past. Then I thought Shine would perform in episode 12 and cause a bad end. Even though we knew Edel Rose was scheduled for a unit performance, I was skeptical if it would actually happen or not as I doubted Shin would be in any condition to perform in episode 12. (I also wondered if maybe we already HAD already seen their unit show in the OP and thus wouldn’t be getting a new song.) 

But when the CDs were announced and I saw the last one said “unit song” I was like.... ohhh.... I guess they will perform as a unit after all? That’s good? 

Turns out I was right at least in predicting that Shine would get a show, but not that he would STEAL SHIN’S SHOW, and that Shin’s “what have I done” quote was about THE PRESENT DAY and something that Shin DID NOT DO. AHHH THE PAIN. 

Although it really cuts me deep that Shin never learns the truth, I am grateful we got that unit show and a happy ending. 

But.... 

OR IS IT? 

says a voice in my head.

Shine’s coming back someday. And we can’t kill him without blanking Shin. Hghkhgkdhlkdh.

If I didn’t know any better I’d say the grand endgame climax of King of Prism would be SeptEntrion teaching Shine to love. But we already know from director spoilers that supposedly the grand climax is about saving Jin. I have a sinking suspicion Shine and Jin may be connected in some way though. 

Who fucking knows where we’re going from now. 

Other than WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON with Jin, another one of my big questions is does the Prism King Cup even matter anymore? Since the Prism One was supposed to replace it, but that didn’t go so well. HAHAH are we REALLY doing the Prism Two come on now..........

But anyway. I suppose there is no point in drawing this out it any further

for now

this is THE END

Thank you all SO MUCH for coming on this journey with me

It’s been such a joy sharing all this with you

And I hope to see you around

SHINY SEVEN STARS FOREVER

EDEL ROSE SPARKING

[magioftheseas]

Bubbling and Baking

KamuKoma Week Day 6: family & marriage (?)

Summary: Kamukura pays a visit to when Komaeda is raising Monaka post-drae/udg. Monaka is predictably difficult but Komaeda, as per usual, is more concerned with the larger scope.

Rating: G

Warnings: Monaka being on the harsher side, references to child abuse, mental instability and questionable motives in doing the things he does because it’s Despair!Komaeda but like, all in all, not...much, I don’t think?

Notes: I haven’t written nearly enough stuff with Komaeda and his rotten daughter and I’m sorry for that. So here’s some + Kamukura between the events of drae and sdr2/dr3. Still alternate canon because like, obviously, but yeah. Here it is. This was fun to write, especially the titular baking for some weird reason. I hope you like it.

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That strange creep looks like Sadako.

That’s her first impression of the one who called himself Kamukura Izuru. She can’t say she’s terribly impressed. Servant was passed out on the futon, having worked himself into one of those annoying frenzies. And now, there’s a stranger here, and Monaka has no idea where he came from.

Truth be told, she doesn’t really care. If it’s a ghost here to kill both of them, that’s not much of a loss. He notices her staring at him. He stares at her, eyes boring and cold. It’s like being stared at by a doll, and this doesn’t really bother her either. She’s seen this same dumb expression in the mirror countless times. She imagined she inherited it from the useless woman who birthed her.

Except. Those glowing red eyes flicker when Servant murmurs something incoherent in his sleep. Servant grins like an idiot, and if dragging herself over wasn’t such a hassle, Monaka would definitely doodle on his face. Instead, she just stares at him with open annoyance.

“I see.” She only perks because Sadako has spoken, and it’s a low, cool voice. It prickles at her. “So he took you in after all, Towa Monaka. How boring.”

“What’s it to you, stalker?” she snaps. “Are you one of Junko-nee-chan’s cronies?”

He’s lacking the helmet, though, so...a remnant?

“Incorrect.” Quick and curt. Monaka’s frown deepened as he only drew closer to the snoozing Servant. She blinked as he wipes away a disgusting line of drool. “My association with them is incidental, with Nagito being the sole exception.”

“Uh. Huh.”

Gross. Utterly gross.

Servant groans, and then he twitches, face pinching up. His eyes flutter open, and Monaka doesn’t want to think about what’s running through that guy’s head when he sees the creepy not-Sadako looming over him.

“Kamukura-kun?”

She recognized that name. Of course she did. She didn’t let that show on her face, instead watching blankly as Servant latched onto him, arms looping around his neck. The chain rustles and clinks together, and Servant squeezes the other happily.

“I wasn’t expecting to see you! I had heard you were nearby, of course, but still...! Oh!” He pulls away and gives Monaka that sickening grin. “Monaka-chan, this is Kamukura Izuru-kun.”

“Yes,” she said, nose scrunched up. “I’m aware. He looks like dried, disgusting, dirty seaweed.”

“Oh, she’s right, Kamukura-kun, you’re looking a little dirty.” Servant frowns, clicking his tongue as he grabbed a handful of the inky black locks. “Have you been swimming? Ah, we don’t have much water, but...”

“I can provide more,” Kamukura replied. “It is of no concern. I shall not deplete your resources.”

“He can’t use any of Monaka’s special Monokuma units,” she hurriedly spoke up, gritting her teeth. “He can do everything himself.”

“So uncharitable, Monaka-chan!” Servant laughed. He did not—and never really had—scold her. “That’s a little despairing.”

Urgh. So gross.

“It is of no concern,” Kamukura said simply. He didn’t look the slightest bit annoyed or bothered, just more of that abysmal vacancy. It was really starting to grate. “I only intended to announce my arrival. You may go back to sleep if you wish.”

“I feel too sick to sleep,” she spat.

“Oh, dear,” Servant looked worried. “Shall I fetch you medicine then? It would do no good if you got sick and died before accomplishing anything worthwhile, Monaka-chan.”

“Shut the hell up, like I’d really die from nausea. Unless I decided to drown in my vomit or something.” She rolled her eyes. “I guess I can try to sleep. Just talking to you is exhausting, after all.”

“That’s the spirit!”

This guy—really is a piece of work.

And the way Kamukura Izuru looked at Servant, smiling without a care, with that weirdly intense crimson gaze.

Urgh. This isn’t despair. It’s just disgusting.

--

It really was rather strange having Kamukura around, but Komaeda couldn’t complain. Kamukura tended to make things easier. Even when he remained passive and avoidant, Komaeda found his presence reassuring, in a sense. While he knew better than to have high expectations of the other at this stage, he supposed he still found that company pleasant, at least.

He was almost excited to have Kamukura here, witnessing what was sure to be his greatest efforts in raising the successor and hopefully usurper of Ultimate Despair. It was a tedious and difficult process, of course, especially with Monaka’s growing disdain. But Monaka was still here, wasn’t she? She hadn’t given up yet.

So he couldn’t dare dream of losing faith in her.

However she was very clearly and very quickly losing patience with him.

“I don’t waaaaant to!” she practically wailed. “I’m sick! Tired! Sick and tired! I don’t want another lesson, I want cake and a break!”

“I know lectures aren’t terribly exciting, Monaka-chan, but this actually is important to know,” he can’t help but laugh. “Don’t you want to be able to take care of yourself when the situation calls for it?”

“I’m crippled,” she snapped, unimpressed. “Don’t you understand what that means?” Her expression shifts into that fake innocence she wore so casually before. She blinks her big eyes at him, and speaks slowly as if to help him understand. “If Monaka finds herself in a dangerous situation... She’ll just be killed. Because she can’t run away.”

“That’s such a despairing way to think.” He tutted at her. “And not in a productive way. You’re very gifted with robotics, Monaka-chan. Technology is capable of many incredible things.”

“I had myself checked, you know,” she huffed. “The issue isn’t with my legs but my spine. Even with prosthetics, I won’t be able to walk.”

He does remember that. He remembers being impressed with Monaka’s ability to build it. She had muttered something about canceled plans, but had scowled when he prodded.

“I see. That’s a shame. It’s most unfortunate. But...”

“I shouldn’t let that stop me?” Her brows raise. “Really?”

“Really,” he repeated sincerely.

“You’re awful. You’re almost worse than the Towas.” She shakes her head, pressing buttons to make her chair turn from him. “I’ve decided I don’t want to talk or listen to you anymore.”

“I guess we can take a break,” he says lightly, breezily. “But I think first aid is still something you should know about, Monaka-chan.”

“Don’t you have a boyfriend to go bother? Leave me alone.”

He hit a brick wall for the time being, but he saw the twitch in Monaka’s pointed frown and puffy cheeks. So he kept smiling and nodded before waving her off. She does not wave back.

What a difficult child, but...

--

“She’s very brilliant, even if her attitude could use adjustments,” he finds himself saying. “That said, it’s understandable, isn’t it? She hasn’t exactly lived the kindest life. Not that I quite understand what she must be going through.” His laugh, then, is a self-deprecating one. “I barely knew my own parents.”

“Are you really serious about raising that girl?” Kamukura asks, and he is sewing up a blanket that Monaka ripped during one of her temper tantrums. Komaeda, fixated on the elegant motions of his fingers, hummed at the words.

“Of course I am. Out of all of those children, Monaka-chan was the closest to her. And Komaru-san has already deviated from the path.” What a disappointment that had been. Not that he cares much anymore. “Admittedly while I am confident in my knowledge about her...”

Taking care of a child is...quite the undertaking.

“Monaka-chan is intelligent enough to be self-sufficient,” he recalls. “But she is still a child. And it will take years of maturation before she’s an adult worthy to take that wretched girl’s place.”

“Do you really think this state of the world will last however many years it takes?” Kamukura asked, not looking at him. “What a boring thought. It will not be the case. Not with her influence waning.” A pause. “Unless you think she will reap despair anew. The effect will be hindered either way. So boring.”

“Ahahaha, leave it to Kamukura-kun to be a buzzkill,” he chirped, unperturbed. “If her despair is great enough, nothing else will matter.”

“So single-minded and short-sighted as always.” Kamukura bites the thread, and he finishes up. The stitching is perfect, as expected. “Well it is not like I predicted any different.”

“You just like to scold me.” Komaeda puffed his cheeks out in a manner akin to Monaka. “You have a childish sense of humor.”

“Hmph.” Kamukura glanced at him, expression smoothed over. “I only remain here out of boredom. Nothing more. Nothing less.”

“Sure, sure.”

You’re always saying that. I’m not so naïve to doubt it.

--

“I’m tired! I’m hungry! I want Mont Blanc!”

“You could have the Monokuma units prepare it, then. Unless...?”

“I don’t want to eat something prepared by a robot!” Monaka’s lower lip jutted out further. “Homemade is better.”

“I understand,” he chirped, even though he didn’t. “Alright, then.”

Monaka tended to make a lot of unreasonable requests when she was upset. It was always best to just cater and move on, even when she inevitably got more upset with his subpar results. He didn’t really mind. Kotoko had taken to disappointment better, but this was simply to be expected when dealing with a child.

He really doesn’t mind, even when he still finds himself at a complete loss in the kitchen.

“Okay, so...pinecones, right...?”

“You have it wrong.”

“Oh.”

He doesn’t really mind Kamukura’s sudden intervention, either.

“Why do you take on tasks that you know you are unsuited for?” Kamukura looks at him blankly. “It is irrational.”

“If you’re asked to do something, you should do it even if you’re no good at it,” Komaeda hummed, taking the alcohol. Kamukura smacks it from his hand. It clangs, but thankfully doesn’t break. “Aha! So harsh!”

That actually does annoy me a little.

“You are hopeless in this skillset. You should have requested my assistance.”

“She said she didn’t want something prepared by a robot,” Komaeda pointed out kindly.

“I am not a robot. I was made in a lab, yes, but I am of flesh and blood.” Kamukura doesn’t seem the slightest bit offended, for what it was worth. “If you are left to this task, the results will be disastrous.”

“Aww, you really think so?”

“I do not think. I know.”

“Oh.” He steps aside, smile wide. “Then, by all means. You can help. I would prefer handling it on my own, but since you insist...”

Kamukura is already grabbing and measuring the ingredients. Komaeda pauses as he sweetens the pre-peeled chestnuts. For whatever reason, the image strikes him as strangely ironic.

Without looking at him, Kamukura dumps them in the saucepan among others.

“Watch carefully,” He says lowly. “This is how you make the cream.”

The cream, huh. Ah. How very strange. This feels almost—domestic.

“Monaka-chan has quite the sweet tooth, so maybe add more sugar?” Komaeda grabs without thinking. “Here you are.”

“That’s salt.”

“Oh.” He blinks down at it before setting it back aside. “So it is.”

“Hopeless,” Kamukura repeated. Komaeda bumped him with his shoulder, and he wasn’t the slightest bit moved. “We will have to make muffins as well.”

“Mm.” He watches Kamukura flick on the oven. “You seem to be enjoying yourself.”

“Hmm?”

“You’re focused,” he explained, smile twisting. “You definitely have that house husband look. Ehehe. It’s attractive.”

Kamukura just blinks at him.

“At last that’s how it feels,” Komaeda rambled on, flustering a little. “Maybe I’m just imagining it.”

“We are cooking for a child, I suppose that is akin to a family unit,” Kamukura murmured. “However, that child is not one you feel paternal towards.”

Komaeda stills, mulling that over, thinking of Monaka’s puffy face.

“...my parents were rather absent,” he finds himself saying. “Monaka-chan’s father was neglectful. I wonder if either of us even know what being part of a family was like.”

“I lack the experience as well, but studies show that this is similar enough,” Kamukura removes the saucepan, letting it cool before pouring it into the blender. “Well, this is but a fleeting experience.”

“I suppose that’s true...”

Why does that irritate me?

“It’s nice.” Komaeda swallowed. The machine whirled. “It’s definitely nice.” Once finished, Kamukura stores the cream so that it can chill. Komaeda feels too anxious to just sit still so he hurriedly moves. “I’ll get the batter for the muffins.”

Kamukura’s gaze is intense on his back. He wonders if that’s really just because the other is making sure what he grabs is correct.

It’s true that my only intention is to create an Ultimate Despair that surpasses her.

It takes him a few times, but he finds it. Kamukura quickly takes over from there.

That once Monaka-chan becomes that Ultimate Despair, from there I expect a true radiant hope to appear.

Komaeda watches as Kamukura mixes, putting that Ultimate Pastry Chef talent to good use.

And once that happens...

Kamukura pours them in the cups. And he puts them in the oven.

Once that happens...

There’s a sweet smell in the air. It’s rather warm, and yet, Komaeda’s arms wrap around himself tightly.

What will become of Monaka-chan then, exactly?

He thinks of how she died. With a disgusting, satisfied smile. He never wants to see despair look so happy ever again.

But the idea of Monaka forlorn and miserable—he doesn’t think he wants that, either.

She can be redeemed, a voice reminds him in the back of his mind. But then, that wouldn’t make her Ultimate Despair, would it? What good can be found in despair as anything other than a stepping stone?

Kamukura mixes whipping cream and sugar, and he’s just not sure.

I suppose—it would be better to just sit back and see how things turn out. Because hope will win in the end, I can relax. I can just...relax.

“You are tense, Nagito.”

He flinches, even though Kamukura’s tone is soft and more of a low murmur.

“I... It’s really nothing.” He wonders why it is that he has such difficulty relaxing now with these thoughts swirling in his mind—when before it hadn’t been nearly as difficult. “Mm. I guess if you’re done with that. All we can do is wait for the muffins to bake among...other things. I suppose.”

“You suppose correctly,” Kamukura answered simply. He meets his gaze. “Once muffins are baked, you may alert her.”

“Alright.” Until then... Until then... “Kamukura-kun, she’s probably going to want more pastries, so...would you mind staying around for a while?”

“I suppose I can.”

Kamukura doesn’t even miss a beat. Komaeda wonders why, but he’s gracious all the same.

“Thank you.”

For whatever reason—I want things to remain for a little while longer.

--

And afterwards, when Monaka seemed to enjoy the Mont Blanc so much that she was annoyed by it, Komaeda felt his smile widen.

Just a while longer.

“This is so sweet it makes me sick,” she grumbles. “But you two are worse. Quit looking at Komae—Servant-nii-san like that. Creep.”

Kamukura does look away when he glances over, confused.

“Even if you two are a lovey-dovey couple, I don’t want to see it,” Monaka griped.

Lovey-dovey... Like parents...? Ah, no, just what am I thinking? I’m already being so overindulgent.

Komaeda idly grips his wrist, where the bandages were. He thinks about the hideous stitching, and how that could possibly compare to his and Kamukura Izuru’s relationship.

It’s for a hopeful future...nothing more. Nothing less. Still.

His eyes fell shut.

I hope we can all be happy. Something like that.

[babeejeon]

tag tag tag

 @livlovesbangtan and @gukieyoongles tagged me, thanxx 🤭🤭🤭 

I wrote too much stuff and also stupid stuff, feel free to pass it if it bores you. But it really relieved me to get these of my chest.

little rules our game has is;

*tag the person who tagged you

*answer the questions

*tag 10 people

i am starting ahahaha!

1. how tall are you?

I am 163 cm i guess, but I haven’t have measured since 8th grade and actually I feel like I haven’t grow since then. And my lil sis is even taller than my ideal height, ugh cryyy... Is there any one magic to spare me a few centimeters 🙏🙏

2. what colour and style is your hair?

My real hair colour is dark brown but i colored my hair with some temporary hair dye at the end of 2017 and around february 2018, 2 times. I dye it to a colour ‘Toffee Caramel’ and since my hair has really dark colour i didn’t expect it to change my hair colour too much but i think it did. Actually the dye was popular and also under nice brand. So i trusted and it was saying only for 28 wash or something <sorry i couldn’t translate 🤭🤭🤭> But i still have that dye at the ends of my hair but it looks horrible but my hair is so damaged. I cut it short, it doesn’t get longer and i don’t know what to do. I want to dye my hair in darker colour, similar to my real hair color and have my own colour back but my sister doensn’t let me do. HELP!!!

3. what colour are your eyes?

Dark brown 🤭🤭🤭 listen this song  😉 this song for all the jungoo lovers..

PS: I might write somethings about this song 🤭🤭🤭

4.  do you wear glasses?

Thankfully no. Because glasses never look good on me, even sunglasses. Maybe because i have sharp and thick eye brows but i love my eye brows  🤭 🤭🤭 But everyone in my family wears glasses due to eye problems so i might wear in the future.

5.  Do you wear braces?

I never wear braces and actually i am scared of dentists so i am glad. 

6.  what’s your fashion sense?

Actually it is very complicated. I might like anything. But i am not so into popular fashion sense, i sometimes find it weird or can’t like some fashion trends no matter what. 

I like to wear anything i found stylish and what wanted to wear and if feel that suited me. Actually if i feel confident with my clothes, hair, make up and over all look, my day starts so nice but if not, nothing helps too much. But lately i am in a depressive mood, especially at college and i feel super fat and ugly and i had other problems. But i am in a spring break and i hope to start motivated to new semester.

I love high waisted jeans and short tshirts. I dont like thick sweaters because i feel suffocated idk why. I love wearing short sleeves any time. I love sneakers. I love cute clothes. 

7.  full name?

I dont want to expose my real name here, I mean friends i have here know it but this post can be seen by everyone and i dont want anyone from my real life to find me so i am passing this question, sorry 🤗🤗🤗

8.  when were you born? 

I was born in 1999 and @gukieyoongles i definetely agree to you about being 90′s child ahaha if my older sister read this she would laugh at this 90′s child part but yes i am 😒😒😒

9.  where are you from and where do you live now?

I will pass this question too, sorry 🤗🤗🤗

10.  what school do you go to?

I am in college or university, I don’t know the difference between them, please enlighten me. We use university in my language but to be exact i am undergraduate student.

11.  what kind of student are you?

I used to be number one student because my mother was primary school teacher, my father is professor at university and my sister studied in best schools. So i had the effect and actually i was so focused and used to this thing. But in last semester of 10th grade my life turned upside down in the aspect of success. I lose it so fast and it added up my depression, I felt like only speciality i had was being a succesful student and now i am nothing. But i actually lost my motivation that times so i didnt put some effort. But due to my 10 years of hard work, I get the chance to get into nice university.

I am still lazy and unsuccessful but lately trying to get better so wish me luck 🙏🙏🙏

12.  do you like school?

I dont like it but that must be something with my self. Because after 2 semesters i still couldn’t adapt it totally. I hate being alone at school but also i am not such a social butterfly. So i feel confused. I have friends but i feel awkward sometimes. I don’t know adult life is so hard.

And also i sometimes feel like i hate my major but sometimes i love. So when the lessons are hard i cry and feeling like i dont belong here. So my advise is studying your dream job. but i dont have one, so yeah 😫😫😫

13.  favorite subject? 

Actually none, engineering majors suck. I love English lessons because i only feel confident in them and understand things easily and sometimes enjoy. But it is also about academic sides of English, so not very fun.

14.  favourite tv shows?

I don’t watch tv, also i don’t watch tv shows online too. I sometime start series on Netflix or some korean dramas but lose my interest soon. I AM BORED BORING 🤐🤐🤐

15.  favourite movie?

I don’t have an exact one but I love Harry Potter films and Midnight in Paris as the ones i remember. I recently watched To All The Boys i Loved Before, Like for Likes(korean film), Shazam and enjoyed all there of them.  But i don’t have a favourite one because i don’t watch a lot.

16.  favourite books?

I am not a good reader of real life books because i might lost my consciousnes with fanfiction and fangirl stuff. But now i really want to read somethings, but have no time, but will try my best.  This year i finally read Pride and Prejudice and love it too much. *searches for her Darcy hopelessly* 🤭🤭🤭 I also read a book related to Pride and Prejudice, it’s name is Austenland and it slapped me in the face about reality. If someone read it, dm me, i really need someone to talk about it without giving spoilers.

Also i read last year Stranger by Albert Camus. I don’t think i understand it exactly but it gave me this feeling in my chest. I think a lot of people probably read it, I would also love to talk about this book if you dm me.

I read all Harry Potter books except the last one idk why. But i read them in 8th grade. I know I was pretty late to read them but I was scared of Harry Potter 🤭🤭🤭 But now I reminisce that year as the best year of my life despite the fact that i was preparing for high school enterance exams. So Harry Potter holds a lot of emotions and memories for me.

17.  favourite pastime?

Wasting my time! Spending all my time on social media. Sleeping too much. Listening music with my earphones and stare outside dreamily. Doing some penpal and bulletjournaling projects(i cant do lately tho)

But in everyday life my favourite past time is listening songs we like while my sister is driving us to school. We also talk, gossip, laugh, sing along. We do it everyday while commuting and i enjoy it too much. Our school is pretty far and i dont really enjoy car rides but sometimes i enjoy this time too much that i want it to last longer.

18.  do you have any regrets?

Too many. But i can’t change them. So best thing is focusing to future but I am a person who lives thinking past and lost chances or mistakes so it ruins me. But actually to live it free, forgetting and trying to not to do them again is the best.

19. dream job?

I dont really know, but something that can make me happy. I want to go to work eagerly, enjoy my work and be proud of with my life. Something that can satisfy me and make me improve myself.

I had dreamed to be singer similar to @livlovesbangtan . But I might hate singing if I have the responsibility so no. I would love to sing and annoy people while showering like Namjoon. 🤭🤭🤭

20. would you ever like to be married?

Yes, i would love to. But actually for a very long time marriage scared me. Because of the people around me and our culture. My dad and mom had rational marriage so it also made me lose my faith. Also i see like everyone marry and streotypical life starts. People work, have childs and WHAT!!!

I am not necesserily living for marrying. I would never, if I can’t find the love of my life or i can’t trust someone. But i am such a hopeless romantic, I want to experience pure love for someone and get the same love back. It doesn’t sound so realistic so I might find it ever. But still i wish.

I want to have someone I can trust but actually it never happens in real life. Or i can’t like someone in that way, i always find some flaws. So i really need to fall in love miserably to not to see anything and love someone too much, but i don’t know if i can.

I want my s/o to propose me in a night picnic, alone and out of sudden. I would love him to carry the ring in his necklace and didn’t plan to propose exactly. Like he wants to but doesn’t know when, so he carries it with him. And that night with outbursting love, he would propose me and i accept and we have surprise weddding that night by our selves. UwU *dead*

21.  would you like to have kids?

I am not sure. First of all, I would marry to spend all my time with my s/o not for having childs. <saying this just because a lot of people around me does like that> 

I love kids but I am not sure. Like they are so cute as a baby and child but what if i can’t stand while they are in puberty?! 🤭🤭🤭

Also i sometimes feel like ‘why did i born? i didn’t want this? i don’t want to live!’ . Also feel like what if my child feels the same? Also think it is selfish to bring someone to life because we want to but life is just for suffering. Idk, i am pretty pessimist sometimes. And i dont know 😭😭😭

but i love babies, especially when they hold my forefinger with their whole fist. *cryyyyyy*

22.  how many?

Idk, bro.

23.  do you like shopping?

Yes 😉🤗🤭 i love to buy stupid things that i dont need or use.

24.  what countries have you visited?

I only visited UK and actually i loved it 😍😍😍. Also spent one day in Georgia, see around in a one day trip. But i would like to see more. 

25.  scariest nightmare you have ever had?

Let’s not talk about this. I see stupid, weird, annoying, scary dreams too much and i hate it.

26.  any enemies?

I used to have too many, but actually i realised it was one sided hate. They annoyed me but didn’t give any fuck. I hated but it only effected me, they continued carelessly so i decided to not to have one. I feel annoyed and dislike and hate people but control it to not to effect on my life. Also i try to not to have any fights with anyone. If i really don’t like them i ignore them etc.

27. any significant other?

Not yet but waiting for him to find me!

But i can’t pass this without mentioning jeon the dork jungkook. I love him 😍😭🤭

28. do you get along with your family?

I love them and i am very attached to them but also fight with them time to time.

29.  do you believe in miracles?

I believe but don’t believe i will have one.

30. how are you?

I dont know. Not too bad, not too good, enjoying but sometimes bored but sometimes tired of this life but sometimes enjoying too much???

I warned at the start so i don’t know if someone is reading still. but thanks for reading and feel free to talk to me about this stuff.

I tag everyone who wants, please tag me so i can read your answers. as the 10 people thing;

@teanites @artjjk @nochuuuenthusiast @yoongspeach @iamsadsstuff @mintseesaw @jeons-wasabi @arthoejaebum @yoongithes @kayakookie

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[20190827] TFG 「My dear Summer」Release Event Photo Session fan report

(Yeah, I know it’s been over two weeks since the event. LOL I’m not much of a timely blogger but if you want the blow-by-blow as it happens, my Twitter is the best bet. I tend to word vomit especially when I’m going through an anxiety episode... as you would see later on. I’m mostly doing this for memory keeping, for myself lmao. And for information too, if you’re interested, especially if you’re a fan living outside of Japan. Please keep in mind that my listening skills are stronger than my speaking skills. However, when put on the spot, under pressure, that goes all away ahaha. I can’t read Japanese apart from name kanji.)

I guess I should begin when I first heard about this event. It was around May 2019 when the TFG twitter announced that they are holding a two-shot cheki chance event to celebrate the release of their first single My dear Summer. At that time, I simply wanted to get my hands on the CD lol. We had dreams of going to Anisamano plans of going to Japan any time soon (since I only just came back from my Tokyo no Jin trip earlier that month). 

I had my brother help me out with buying the CDs (Google Translate can only do so much) when he actually encouraged me to try for the cheki. He said it’s a lottery system, as usual, and it won’t hurt to try since I’m buying stuff anyway. So I did. I bought both the First Press Limited Edition sets A and B using my boy Haruto Sakuraba’s link and didn’t really think much of it. They said they were going to announce winners on July 24. The event was the following month, August 27.

The ball started rolling after that. July was the 2.5D Actor Appreciation Month. #25DAAM on twitter.I featured Haruto and Mayu Yoshioka on mine. Then we somehow secured tickets to Anisama 2019. A small part of me was hoping... what if I hit for that cheki chance with Haruto. Anisama was happening the weekend of the cheki event after all. My brother was willing to either go to Japan early or stay late. Our schedule all depended on the cheki event results.

The day before results were to be released, I was a mess. It’s been a long time since I got a panic episode but something was in the water that day. Add to that, the results. The time difference threw me off and I was obsessively checking my email. My brother told me to give it a full 24 hours to account for the time difference. So what did I do? I distracted myself with Kenji Arita lmao. My brother and I had been fairly lucky with chuusen whether it be for tickets or fan events. The last time I attempted a lottery was for the Nelke Planning panel with Shiratorizawa at JF19. I didn’t hit for that because they only recognized actual JP addresses and my proxy wasn’t allowed. (But it was all good because the standby crowd got so large they allowed us to watch behind the ticket winners anyway haha.) I was praying that that won’t be the case here too.

When I woke up the next morning for work, I checked my email... and it was there.  I had my brother actually open the email and translate for me. We were looking for a "できません" but instead, it was a long email full of instructions and congratulations. I actually got picked! I read and re-read the email many times just to convince myself that I actually won. The email said that exact time and place of the event was to be announced only to winners in a separate email nearer the date. Cool cool. I felt so special LMAO.

I actually got the specifics about a week after the first email. The directions were weirdly specific... and helpful for someone like me who doesn’t know what to do with North-South-East-West directions; I work better with “Turn right when you see a Mini Stop across the street from a pachinko parlor” types AHAHAHA. Time frame was 5pm to 8-ish, then they specified that Haruto would have less than an hour to get through all the chekis with fans. They also said something about which forms of identification were required, which gifts/letters are accepted, even how the poses were chosen. 

But even with all that... I had no idea what to do. I tried lowkey Googling and stalking butai/idol social media for fan reports and... I couldn’t find anything that answers my questions (and quelled my anxiety over the matter haha). So I hope if you find yourself in the same situation later, AND IF YOU’RE AN OVERSEAS FAN, I hope this long ass post is going to be helpful to you. I’ve been to one other cheki event - with Hiroki Ino in Cosplay Mania 2018 in Manila - but that’s more straightforward than this one. 

(My slogan should be “Will travel for cheki” ahahaha.)

Now that you’ve read through all that, let’s fast forward to August 27. After a hearty lunch at DiveryCity Tokyo, I made my way to the venue using the EXACT directions they provided in the email. I got there at exactly 5PM. I get by okay by myself in Tokyo but my brother usually acts as translator for me, like a crutch. But like on my May trip, I was by my lonesome on this adventure. 

I see a couple of girls in skirts (I was in a skirt too and it was a good call because it was pretty much dress code lol) waiting by the lobby. The sign said B2F so I go down and see more dressed up girls, some even in a yukata. They started lining up so I do the same. I was trying to make myself look small because I was playing everything by ear. They started calling out everyone who hit for Kento so the line thinned a little bit. I got to the registration desk and the staffer who looked so much like Maki Kawase took my paper confirmation and ID. After looking through her sheet, Nobu’s, she politely corrected me that “Sakuraba-san isn’t until...” she said a time but in my flustered and frankly, embarrassed state, it took me a while to figure it out. She even referred to another staffer behind her for the correct time. I apologized and made my way out but then she pointed to a nearby bench, gesturing for me to stay there instead of going back up.

That was when I started panic tweeting HAHAHAHA. If you don’t want to read further, then please just click on this Twitter Thread instead. Thanks! But if you want Stephen King-level of detail, keep reading. XD

Watching those little kids do scales and random dances calmed me down. Miss Staff-san (let’s just call her that) kept tabs on me, glancing at me from time to time and whenever we’d meet eyes, she’d smile. That kept me grounded. Also, talking to my mutuals who were humoring me was a huge help. I managed to laugh and distract myself. When I started seeing a new batch of girls lining up with Haruto pin badges and an excess of purple on their person, I followed. When Miss Staff-san saw me up next, she gave me a huge smile and a thumbs up. I went up to register and.. my name was easiest to find since it was the only one in the Roman alphabet. I was number 50 in a list that I think went up to 75. 

We were herded into an honest to goodness dance practice studio. You know, with all the mirrors and low ceilings. Picture samples of the poses were on the wall, as done by Reo and Haruto. Pose A was your generic “double peace” sign. Pose B was doing an “Asian squat” and the photo was taken from above. Pose C would have you back-to-back with the member. Then there’s the special pose. Haruto teased that he was inspired by Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure. Hello, Pose C. Haruto Sakuraba is 6′2″ and I am a hobbit. Nope. Plus I’m very basic when it comes to poses. Ask Ino hahaha.

As the room filled, it drove home that I was the only foreigner there. Normally, it wouldn’t have mattered to me but at that moment, I was under a lot of pressure, my earlier faux pas still had me embarrassed, plus my severe lack of Japanese speaking skill was getting to me. I know, it’s all in my head; obviously I overcame it but if you have anxiety, you know how stressful that can be. I tried keeping myself small, trying to blend in. All the while, I kept seeing Miss Staff-san in my periphery and that calmed me down somewhat.

Then they lined us up according to the number on the ticket. I know what 50 is in Japanese so I just kept my ears open for that. I dropped off my fan letters before I could forget (Nobu got one too, handwritten in English but with a typed up translation sheet) then we were led to another, larger dance studio area. At the opposite end of the room were room dividers. They had My dear Summer on loop but I was so in my head that I didn’t even suffer from earworm. I just kept updating Twitter. More for personal sanity than anything ahahhaa.

Haruto took his time with fans. I noticed Reo’s line went by much faster. By the time he was almost done (his started a bit later than ours), I think Haruto’s only on his 20th fan. I calmed down enough to get my bearings back and I was glad to know that I wasn’t the only one losing her mind. The other girls were talking amongst themselves about the back-to-back pose and what they want to say to him. He seemed so friendly, if the laughter and chatting we were hearing from behind the dividers were any indication, and all of us wanted to make a good impression. Giiirl, I wasn’t even sure if the boy spoke a lick of English! XD

Then. It was my turn.

The staffer asked me which pose I want to do and being the boring person that I am, I chose A pose. Another staffer took my purse but all I saw was Haruto up close in his TFG get up.

Haruto: ありがとうございます Me: OMG Hi! 海外 fan  です!  *Haruto’s eyebrows disappear into his fringe. Staff takes pic* Haruto: Ah double peace. Er so... Me: I'm from California. Los Angeles. Haruto: Ah, California. So you don't speak Japanese? Me: A little bit. Your English is good.  Haruto: Aaah, not so much. I try. So when did you get to Japan? Me: Sunday? I'm here for Anisama and to see you! Haruto: Ah thank you so much. Staff: Next! ありがとうございまし��  *Haruto hands me the cheki. we bow at each other* Haruto: ありがとうございました. Bye-bye! Me: ありがとうございました.

I mean, the whole thing couldn’t have been more than 30 seconds but it felt so much longer. His final  ありがとうございました has a bit of emphasis as if trying to teach me. Oh you! I knew at least that much. 

Then was I was leaving the booth, I heard the staffers go, "Whoa... I didn't know you can do that!" And he was all "Ay-yah... hehe." GUYS. GUYSSSS!!!! I couldn’t stop smiling... from the moment I just had to the moment he just had to... ALL OF IT! And as I left the venue, Miss Staff-san was right there waiting for me at the door. When she was my delicately holding the cheki in my hand, she patted me on the shoulder and said  “ よくやった!” I never thanked anyone that profusely in my life. (Honestly, her kindness made me tear up.)

I have no flippin’ idea how I kept it together in there. It was a total Yuri On Ice moment where Yuuri just let everything go at that moment and let it all out on the ice when it mattered. I said pretty much everything I wanted to say which wasn’t much. All I wanted to do is to let him know that he has overseas fans. And to test how good his English skills are. 

And let me tell you, it was more than okay. There was absolutely no hesitation in his words. He kept eye contact and oh lawd, his SMILE up close? I don’t know how I’m still here telling you all this. Now every time I hear his voice, I hear it in English ahahaha. (I know he spoke Chinese at a radio show but I wasn’t able to catch that and they haven’t put up the archive at all. Pfft.)

What made me so happy was he ended up impressing not only me but the staff too!!! He even took control of the conversation. The staffers were like "What's going on?" smiling at him as we talked. I'm sofkng proud.

(I should mention that this is technically my 8th time seeing Haruto in person. I saw Tokyo no Jin seven times in May. I figured that would help me a bit with the stress but nope. Although, I cannot wait for everyone to see the TnJ BD and experience his take on Bokuto. You’ll understand this admiration all the more lmao.)

So there it is. If you’re still with me, thank you. I hope I didn’t come across as annoying. I was - am - just so excited that I was able to do this and I wanted to share my experience. Haruto is such a precious sweetheart. I wish him the best of everything.