#and again; tysm for reading such a long fic in the first place 🥺🥺 and taking the time to tell me this!!

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

your knight sugu fanfic made me cry! I had a horrible week and reading that fanfic was like a warm hug to my soul (╥﹏╥)

AAAAA SWEET ANON 😭😭🥺🥺🥺 i’m wiping ur tears away soso gently…… I FEEL SO WARM KNOWING MY FIC COULD CHEER U UP and i hope next week treats u sm better 🫂🫂🫂

sending u all my coziest fluffiest vibes!!! tysm for reading T_T always remember that knight!sugu loves u!!!!! <3333

[nadvs]

i LOVE the ending pls it's the most relieving fic ending i've read so far.

Rafe’s been living in an unforgiving cycle of hating the world, looking for blame, all to keep from accepting the truth that there was no sense to what happened. No reason. It just happened. And it left him in pieces.

this is beautiful ❤️ and i think it perfectly encapsulates grief in the most simplest way. like all the confusion, anger, and regret in trying to make sense with "why it had to happen like that" "what if i hadn't/had done this" is just one pointless inescapable rabbit hole. finding somewhere or something to place the blame on, to carry some sense of responsibility with the things that we've lost wouldn't change the fact that it had already happened. eventually, we'll have to accept that it is what it is and that that doesn't have to be despairing. perhaps, it will bring us the only clarity we need. and with that, we can find some hope, a way to move forward.

“What’d I do to deserve you?” he mumbles against your skin.

“Exist,” you say with a gentle laugh.

i'm in love ❤️❤️❤️😭😭

Rafe smirks and moves even closer to you, kissing you as you both lie on his pillow. You rest your palm on his face, gently tapping at the deep dimple in his cheek with your finger.

“You should show these more often,” you say.

“What?”

“Your dimples.”

He laughs, thinking to himself that he’ll do anything you want him to if you’ll keep loving him. He’s drunk on the feeling of the simplicity of being with you. It’s easy and pure.

THEY'RE SO ADORABLE i love them <333 rafe finally being happy after constantly suffering throughout the entire series makes my heart melt

“Still want to marry her,” he says. He can hear the way she laughed when her ten-year-old son told her he hoped you’d be his wife one day, but he’d still want to live at home so he’d beg for you to move in. “She never left my side, mom. I gave her every reason to but I think she saw how much I was hurting.”

Rafe promises her he won’t let so much time pass before he visits again. And when he finds you standing by his bike, he holds you so tightly that he feels your heart beating against his.

the graveyard scene was so bittersweet </3 looking back at their childhood and how anne was the first person to witness the growing love they had for each other, and now they have to continue it without her, even without her, because that's how she would have wanted it 🥺🥺❤️

You love him for long enough that he finally believes if someone as amazing as you can see something in him, it must be there.

aaaaaa im sososo happy they got the ending that they deserve !!!

THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH 🥹💘 i 100% agree with you. i think the maybe’s and the wait if’s and the bargaining that come up through grieving are a big part of what makes healing so difficult. it’s such a hard realization to come to that no amount of blaming or wondering - no matter how it may feel like it can help - will change anything. and he doesn’t really come to this conclusion until he finally opens up a part of him he kept closed for years.

it was so relieving to write the fluff scenes oml 😭 i kept thinking abt how we all have an inner child and rafe feels happy and relaxed with her like he’s a boy again!!

YOU GET ME 🥹 his mom saw the bond they had, really she was the only one other than them who witnessed just how meaningful their friendship was, so them choosing to keep loving each other is what she would have wanted.

tysm for reading and reviewing 💘 i know when i read books or fics, i have a lot of expectations for the ending so hearing that people liked the conclusion means SO MUCH 😭

[theidiotwhowritesthings]

hey! I just wanted to say I love your fic A Fresh Start SO MUCH !! the writing is just *chefs kiss* and the slow burn is just long enough to be agonizing but in literally the best way possible, it’s written SO WELL AND I JUST LOVE IT SO MUCH DUDE !!!!!

I love your fic so much, and for the past couple of days I’ve been kicking around the idea to ask you: is it ok if I draw your character Nima from A Fresh Start? I just love her so much and she’s one of my favorite side characters, and I was hoping I could ask if it was ok if I could draw her? She’s just such a fun character and I really like the idea of drawing her pink(?) skin and other details, and if I could draw her, do you mind providing any details about her? Like maybe some references, any outfit she wears, or just any sort of spare details you have about her?

anywyas, tysm, I love your fic a LOT and have a good day !! <3

ps. if you have an anon list going, I wouldn’t mind going by ⭐️ (star) Anon :)

THE SOUND THAT LEFT MY MOUTH WHEN I READ YOUR MESSAGE WAS INHUMAN. ABSOLUTELY YES YOU CAN DRAW NIMA HOLY SHIT IM SCREEEEAMING.

Okay. Deep breath. Holy moly. Alright. Guess what, my friend? You just opened Pandora's box. You asked for spare details but I'm about to ramble for DAYS. Nima's got a full history and backstory (b/c I'm obsessive about this kind of stuff) that I haven't been able to explore in the story to the degree I want SO NOW YOU GOTTA SUFFER THROUGH PARAGRAPHS OF INFORMATION.

Just swear to me that you'll send me the finished result because I neeeeeeed it. You think I'm insane and feral now? Just you wait. Okay. Now, info dump waiting below.

So mentally the closest face claim I have for Nima would be the actress Seo Ye Ji (as in if Nima got to ever see the silver screen that's exactly who I would want hired to play her lol).

Nima is pretty average in height, and she's built firm. Not a body builder by any means, but you can see the strength in her arms and shoulders from the multiple years of working in a garage doing heavy lifting and being hands on. Her skin tone is a more pastel shade of pink, like a soft bubble gum pink, but her lekku both have a sprinkling of freckles all over them in a darker shade of pink. Her eyes are a dark brown, and she has freckles across the bridge of her nose and on her cheekbones that match the ones on her lekku.

Nima has no tattoos or piercings, she's terrified of needles. Markings of note though, she has a collection of scars along her arms (burns and cuts) from her work. Nima has a bad habit of getting excited when working on a project she's excited about and in her excitement she'll forget to wear gloves or cover her arms in the proper gear.

When she's working, Nima wears a pair of navy mechanic coveralls to protect her skin when doing more dangerous work, but as said previously, Nima has a bad habit of shrugging out of the upper half to tie the arms around her waist leaving her in either a plain tank top or sports bra. She does it to cool off, but often forgets to zip the upper body part back up before getting back to work. While on the job, there are three things she always has on her: a pair of work goggles either resting on her forehead or hanging around her neck, an old pair of work gloves she's kept forever despite their disrepair, and a matching set of dark brown work boots. All three were gifts from her father when she got her first job as a mechanic.

When Nima's not working, her style is all over the place. She prefers pants and shorts to dresses and skirts and tends to lean toward large, loose fitting t-shirts that she'll tuck into high waist shorts or pants. But, she's also a big fan of oversized hoodies, cardigans, and flannels for when the weather gets cooler.

I attached some random pictures I found on pinterest of things I could picture Nima wearing.

AGAIN DON'T FORGET TO SEND ME THE ART PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU🥺⭐️

[merlinfic]

group ask for lost fics #34

Hi y’all! Below are a few lost fics that us mods just can’t seem to find. That being said, we’re hoping that you lovely followers are able to help! If anyone knows any of the fics below please reply below or send in an ask with which anon/user and group ask that the fic corresponds with!

Note: previous group asks and all lost fics!

Anon 1 asked:

Hello!!!! It's so good to know that the askbox is open again! But I'm sorry to be putting this weight on you guys, but I'm desperate! I swear I tried to look the master list, the others asks, went to Google and used every tool available to me on AO3, but I couldn't find this fanfic. It was about Arthur finding little things about Merlin, like his hair growths super fast (and he gets hotter with longer hair and a beard), that he can't write beautifully and others. Then there's a festival and A was going to confess, but there was a song dedicated for him, writing by M and was a Knight in love with a Servant and he thinks is about M and Lance, gets jealous and leaves, saying that other song with a boat was his favourite and M got sad. Please it has been so long, this fanfic was my comfort place 🥺

@cynical-marshmallow asked:

Hellooooo! It's so good to have you guys back! I've been having some trouble lately trying to track down a Merthur fic I read ages ago, so I thought you guys might be able to help.

It's a pretty short, modern AU fic, in which Merlin is kind of quiet and shy and insecure, and pines away for Arthur from a distance. Arthur is sort of aloof and dismissive of Merlin at first, and there's a scene where he tells Morgana that he doesn't think Merlin is interesting enough for him (or something along those lines). Anyway, Merlin is still quiet and shy around Arthur, but Arthur starts noticing him more and more, and they end up sleeping together after a party. Merlin doesn't think Arthur means anything by it, but Arthur has started to fall for Merlin at this point. There's also a scene somewhere in between where Morgana tells Merlin that he deserves a nice boy, and "Arthur is not a nice boy."

Those are all the details that I remember, but I haven't been able to find the fic yet. Could you please help me out? Thank you!

Thanks to @nextstopparis for suggesting L’Intérieur by aprettyaway!

Anon 2 asked:

hello!! Thank you so much for all you do. English is not my first language so I’ll be direct. I’m looking for a fic! It’s set in High School, Merlin is new, he and Arthur meet at the school’s infirmary (Merlin got beat up and Arthur got hurt doing some sport). Merlin doesn’t want to get close to him cuz he’s a jock. Some things I remember: Merlin thinks Arthur is like a puppy; he lives close to Freya; they do study sessions. Tysm!!!!

@commanderrivercc-3628 asked:

Hey guys. I was looking for a fic I read a while ago. It’s an mpreg fic that takes place in canon. Merlin and Arthur are married I think. And the topic of heirs comes up. Merlin goes to Kilgarah for help. Kilgarah tells him there’s a way but it’s probably won’t work but Merlin does it anyway. Merlin and Arthur try a lot but it eventually works and the court isn’t happy about it I think. Thank you so much. I checked the tags but I couldn’t find it. Thank you again.

Anon 3 asked:

I'm trying to find a fic where I can't remember the whole plot, but it did have one scene where merlin passes out after making a forcefield over the castle, then magic users from all around put some of their magic into it to lighten the load & it let's him wake up. Climactic big battle later fighting alongside Arthur & all the people they gathered but I can't remember if he finds out about the magic during the fic or if he knew all along. Does this sound familiar?

Thanks to @szappan for sending in We Lost the Roadmap by story_monger! And thanks to @fractalinferno for suggesting Facing the Truth by SanguineInk!

@angst-buritto asked:

Hi, sorry to bother you, I’m looking for this fic, I’m pretty sure it’s a WIP, where Arthur (I think?) knows about Merlin’s magic early on, and he begins creating an underground resistance against Uther, and like a spy network to eventually overthrow him? And he feels guilt about it, but he knows that Uther needs to be dethroned.

Thank you for all that you do!!

Thanks to @the-seaworthy-muffin for suggesting The Warlock's Quickening by Antares8!

Anon 4 asked:

'ello! First of all I wanted to say thank you guys for the recommendations, the amazing help, for every single moment of relaxation that this blog gave me. Thank you guys so much, from the bottom of my heart!

Ok so now I wanted to ask a little help to find a specific fanfic. It was about Uther finding out that Merlin was beaten at an alley and was dying, so he called Arthur to talk to him, but he didn't come and U wento to him and A was on the floor, suffering and sad. They talked and I remember U asking what would A do IF he finds who did it this to M and was like "I would kill them" "and if is more than one?" "I would destroy them all", or something like that, my brain translated things automatically. But I remember U saying that Love was as dangerous as Magic, and he spent the night with his son. I remember that M got to be okay in the end, and it was that, I think.

Thanks @graceworm for sending in A Pendragons Heart (Is a Terrible Thing) by pepperlandgirl4!

Anon 5 asked:

I just went through finding, bookmarking, tagging all the fics I love but one still alludes me. Arthur had returned and he was going through immortal Merlin's things and finds a bunch of letters / photos from Merlin's past. I specifically remember one referencing the AIDS crisis. Any help would be greatly appreciated!!

Anon 6 asked:

Hi! I am looking for a lost fic I no longer remember the name of-

Arthur finds out about Merlin's magic and it does not go well, and he sentences Merlin to die. A scene I remember is that Merlin was about to be burned, but he kept extinguishing the flame with his magic until Arthur lights it himself. After that, Arthur regrets his actions (and there is some pushback from Gwen and other Knights as well, who leave I think?), thinking that Merlin was dead. But Merlin had lived and was living elsewhere and eventually returns. The fic was quite heavy and angsty, but with eventual happy ending.

Would be really really thankful if you can help!

Thanks to @justmestarstuff for suggesting Beauty in the Ashes of Our Lives by Fulgance!

Anon 7 asked:

Hi

I read a fanfic a long time ago but I can't find it . I would really appreciate it if you could help me find it. Arthur is the prince of Wales and merlin is pining after him. He doesn't know he's the prince of Wales through. They fall for each other and he still doesn't find out. Arthur isn't keeping it a secret, he thinks merlin knows or something idk.

Thank you

Thanks anon for sending in The Booth in the Corner by ambrosius!

Anon 8 asked: 

hello! first off, thank you so much for your work! i was just wondering if you knew the name of this fic i read, where merthur + knights are out hunting, but they get separated. merlin is mortally wounded (by a sorceress?) in a clearing in front of arthur, but the knights couldn’t reach/help them in time because of magic. i think the mcd was temporary, and there was maybe a magic reveal somewhere too? it’s alright if you can’t find it, but thank you anyway!

Thanks to fractalinferno for sending in and with my opened mouth i join the singing by lightintothefirewego (WIP)!

Anon 9 asked:

Hiya! I lost a fic I was hoping you could help me find. It was an au of the first episode essentially. Leon sees Merlin saving Gaius and arrests him. So then Merlin can't save Arthur and so on and so on until all of Camelot is destroyed. Leon does but is sent back and basically told try again and dont mess up this time?! Thanks!!

Anon 10 asked:

Hey guys! Thanks for all your hard work on the blog. There's a fic I've been trying to find for a bit; Arthur finds out about Merlin's magic and he commands him to use it to save someone (can't remember who) but as a result he loses his soul or something and goes into a vegatative state, and Arthur spends most of the fic caring for him. It's oddly specific but I'm hoping at least one of you knows what I'm talking about??

Thanks @statistical-nightmare for suggesting The Price of Rain by BookshopLaura!

@merlins-golden-eyes asked:

Hello! I'm looking for a fic that I actually found on here a while back but have lost unfortunately. :( It was about Merlin ignoring Arthur because he was mad at him or something like that, and Arthur was having a bath. Merlin ended up uh..y'know jackinghimoff when he was washing him and I believe it was a oneshot pwp..? Please help! Xoxo

Anon 11 asked:

Hi

I read a fic a long time ago , pretty sure it's on Ao3 . Arthur returns and keeps asking merlin questions so merlin gets him a phone and Arthur takes to spending all his time on it and while Arthur is out one day, merlin takes a look at it and the search history says how to know if you're in love with your best friend. That's all I remember.

Thank you

Anon 12 asked:

Hi! Firstly, I’d just like to thank you all for your hard work ❤️ Secondly... I’m looking for a fic 😬 I looked in every tag I could think of, but honestly I don’t really remember much of it... It’s canon era, Arthur tries to have aggressive wall sex with Merlin, but as soon as he sees him or touches him or smtg he cums. He’s so embarrassed he tells Merlin to leave and that’s all I remember. Also, if you could recommend me any fic where the guys have trouble during sex, I’d like that (: Thank u!

Anon 13 asked: 

hi there, thank you so much for the work you to categorize so many merthur fics for the rest of us! i just wanted to ask about this merthur fic i read a year or so ago and just can't remember the name of. i think it was an office romance but for some reason what stayed the most with me was that they did many DNCE songs references - i remember that, at some point gwain said to uther "we don't need to keep it hush, you can leave your thootbrush" and i nearly chocked on my drink. please, help me find it? i've been racking my brain to remember the author or the tittle and still got nothing :(

Thanks to @cynical-marshmallow​ for suggesting How to Cock up like a Champion by arthur_pendragon, which you need an ao3 account to view!

And, as always, this post will be updated if any fics are found!

[choerrypuffs]

ok i was filling out luvdsc's form n i went on a whole rant about ur jeno demigod fic bc i just finished it so i just thought id spam u here too bc oml. first off thank u for posting it idk how long it's been up there but the pure Joy of checking ur acc & finding it: unmatched. second off sweet god im a sucker for bff2l but. that fic. made me a e2l believer i can't. i cannot. your worldbuilding (not just the author's, your contribution n integration of urs into it too) is so impeccable and the way every scene is mapped out so clearly u can effortlessly see it play out in ur head without even trying is just so. so pleasing.

- maybe im a hopeless romantic, maybe it's the disconnected world, maybe it's your writing (most definitely) but it just feels like this fic itself, not the story, is from a different time in the best possible way. it's just so raw and honest and while these days picture perfect writing is wonderful, your way of passing on images and scenes to readers makes it feel like more than just an picture box, idk how else to describe it but i felt so many things while reading n that's how yk a piece of writing is good: if u question ur life after it lol

sry for the spam, final msg i promise: but i can't imagine how much effort n dedication you put into that series. it's really inspiring. it's nice to read something this intense again. from the character growth to the funny bits to the way those two meat heads felt about each other n got us feeling in the process to that last scene, you've done a really lovely job on this n i can only hope you're as proud of it as we are happy to read, tysm n goodluck on wtv uve got planned next <33

wow i think this is the nicest ask i think i've ever received about my writing??? i am so floored that i genuinely am at a loss for words rn except thank you so so so so much ??? my mind is all over the place bc this ask has made me so happy but wow i've tried my best to gather my thoughts into a coherent response and i apologize if it's all over the place

first, i am SO excited that i have successfully converted you into an e2l believer as that is the superior trope 🧎‍♀️ and pls you are too kind !!! i'm so honored that you're praising my worldbuilding so highly omg you make my writing seem so much cooler than it is 🥺 the og pjo books can never be beaten, but i really tried to create that sense of community throughout the fics and i wanted to make sure the fics all connected with each other so that it truly felt like one universe (hence all the easter eggs) !! it makes me really happy that you were able to visualize the scenes in your head because i struggle with writing descriptions A LOT so i mulled over those for a while 💀 ESPECIALLY for jeno's fic because there was so much happening in it and more location changes than any fic i've ever written

FKJALKEL IM GONNA CRY OMFG IM SUCH A WRECK RN BC THIS IS HONESTLY ONE OF THE HIGHEST HONORS A WRITER COULD RECEIVE 🥺🥺🥺🥺 i wish i could express how grateful i am with more than just saying thank you but THANK YOU SO MUCH !!!!!! my goal is always to evoke any sort of emotion from my readers, even if it’s just a laugh so to hear you express how you felt during the fic makes me feel so accomplished 💗💗💗

DONT APOLOGIZE OMG YOUR MESSAGE MADE MY DAY I HOPE YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE YOU TAKING THE TIME TO TALK ABOUT MY FIC ON CAT’S FORM AND TO LEAVING SUCH A KIND ASK IN MY INBOX 🥰💗💖💞💓💘💝💟✨🌷🌸 my period must be coming bc i am legit teary eyed as i’m typing rn 😩 and yes even though i like to complain about how much i suffered writing the series, i am genuinely proud of it but i’m even prouder of all the love and support i’ve gotten over this long ass journey 🥺 you guys have been nothing but lovely to me and hype me up even when i feel like my writing is shit and i hope you know how much that means to me <33333 not to get all sappy but thank you again ilysm ❤️❤️❤️

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

HELLO!!! gosh im so bad at using tumblr aside from reblogging so this has been a long time coming but i came to say U R A POET!! i found your acc when u had like 2 ? fics out and i remember reading “if i fell through the floor i would keep falling” when it had 90 notes and feeling like someone had put their hand in my chest and ripped my heart out…. i was so confused how it didnt have 100000000 notes?!?! i am still confused now. it’s some of the most beautiful writing ive read (& i don’t even really read for geto so it was such a random find but i am so grateful). my favorite line was “he figures he can give you this one thing, at least.” there are so many heartbreaking ones in that piece but this one was especially so. it’s crazy to me how well you painted the scenes, it really felt like i could visually See every moment.

anyways, i rediscovered your account a few days ago thanks to “i can’t close my eyes alone” and i am BUZZING with excitement at how large your masterlist is (seeing many hurt/comfort fics and u absolutely KILL at that genre omg) i cant emphasize enough how excited i am to tear through it!!!! no way i get any sleep tonight. also sleeping in a bathtub is so horribly senseless that i relate deeply. i would also make a decision like that in anger and commit to it. my favorite line from that work is “sincerity and honesty are things that have been used against him all his life” 💔💔

please expect another longwinded message once i get through all your new works!! thank you for sharing your art

- duzhee

HI HELLO!!!!!!! god i KNEW your user sounded familiar……. i was like ”duzhee hmmm where have i heard that before … 🤨🤨” i think u were the first person who rbed that fic w tags actually, it made me so happy 🥺🥺 i still have a screenshot of it saved in my lil motivational folder <333

im so happy u found ur way back here, u have no idea!!!!! and gosh literally everything u said is so so sweet and thoughtful im tearing up T_T that geto fic still has a v special place in my heart, so i cant tell u how glad i am that u enjoyed it!! especially since u dont read geto often like thats such a huge accomplishment to me….. aaa u even mentioned ur fave line!! its my favorite thing to hear ever 🥺🥺

and the gojo fic!!! im so happy u liked that too!!! im super duper weak for hurt/comfort so its so flattering to me that u think i write it well?!??? u r so so sweet. tysm again for mentioning ur fave line it gives me like … an outrageous amount of happiness when ppl do 😭😭😭 

AND HONESTLY DUZHEE… the only reason i made reader sleep in a bathtub is bc i wanna do it myself so bad LMAO i love sleeping in unconventional places like i love nothing else <333 

ah and and and !!! honestly having someone call my writing ”poetic” is just ……. The most flattering thing ever???? u r genuinely such an angel, tysm for taking the time to write this out 🥺🥺 it made my morning!!!! i am EAGERLY looking forward to another longwinded message from u <3333