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geekeryisafoot · 2 months ago

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God nothing makes me feel like an alien more than chatting with people who are like "I miss my spouse/kids, I can't wait to go home <3". They're like the culturally default picture of happiness in a way that feels so utterly foreign to what I enjoy and look forward to in life. I need at least 1 day a week where I don't interact with another human being and if I don't get that I start clawing at the walls of my cage. And some people literally NEVER get this and in fact look forward to never getting this?????? If that is the platonic ideal of human happiness and I recoil at the vessel of that happiness then what the hell kinda creature am I?????????

And then I feel like a mean weirdo asshole for my gut feeing being negative about a parent who just really really likes their kids.

#a few months ago I went on my first international work trip (and second time outside the US period)#and a coworker I was chatting with said she specifically requested a shorter trip #because she didn't want to be away from her kids and husband longer than she needed to be #and all I could think was wow how sad to turn down fun opportunities just because certain people aren’t with you #and a little bit of revulsion of like oh god imagine being chained down like that #and I still feel like a massive asshole for that being my emotionally reaction #but also oh god I am so different from these people #mineminemine

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