#and a job and a life i'm happy with

[shredsandpatches]

tfw you ask for tips on Facebook for getting back into singing after covid and the first person to reply is like "enjoy your premature cardiovascular death a month from now or lifetime of long covid-induced immobility"

[t3chborb]

Lil something special for Valentine's day because why not :P

I say little as if this didn't take 13 hours and 104 layers to make

Full thing is @ 34

Can somebody explain to me why is THIS art is my first time ever drawing Nemesis form? I'd appreciate it ngl

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The Sword You Left Behind

The Sword You Left Behind is being published on July 1st 2025. It contains 136 Poems and comes in around 338 pages. The eBook is available for preorder right now on Amazon. Paperback will be available on July 1st for $12.99 USD and Hardcover for $20 USD.

Below is the description of the book as well as the blurb on the back of the book.

Book Description – The Sword You Left Behind

The Sword You Left Behind by Jordan Francis, also known as The Mad Poet, is a raw, soul-baring collection of poetry and prose that slices through the noise of life with a sword forged from grief, resilience, and hope. Written in the aftermath of the author's father��s battle with cancer, the book begins as a powerful tribute to a “mountain of a man” and evolves into a profound exploration of personal pain, mental health, and the unbreakable will to survive.

With fearless honesty and emotional precision, Francis charts a journey through heartbreak, depression, faith, and healing. From screaming at the sky in rage and sorrow to standing tall with the sword of love and legacy in hand, these pages invite the reader into both the trenches of despair and the light of hard-won hope.

Whether honoring a father’s enduring impact, speaking out against the shadows of mental illness, or offering a lifeline to those who feel alone in their struggles, this book is a testament to survival, to the warriors within us all, and to the truth that even as mountains fall, spirits can still rise.

Perfect for readers looking for inspiration, raw authenticity, and poetic catharsis, The Sword You Left Behind is not just a book—it’s a battle cry and a balm for the wounded soul.

Short Book Description – The Sword You Left Behind

In The Sword You Left Behind, Jordan Francis (aka The Mad Poet) turns grief into grit and pain into poetry. This powerful collection honors the life and legacy of his late father while diving headfirst into the trenches of mental health, loss, and healing. Through raw, fearless verse, Francis offers not just hope—but a promise. A promise that you are not alone, that brighter days are real, and that every broken soul still holds the power to fight. This is more than poetry. It’s a lifeline.

You can preorder your eBook @ https://a.co/d/gibgjWw

Source: The Sword You Left Behind

[mwagneto]

for the love of god please help me

[sciderman]

hey how are your brain bees? Are you doing better?

god, you know, my brain bees are very quiet lately, thank you so much for asking!

really, actually, the surgery fixed most of the problems that i had - but - it did cause a few new ones, that i'm trying to work out.

i feel tired, all the time. i'm medically depressed, and - that isn't really very fun. i don't feel sad, necessarily - but really tired. too tired for drawing, and reading, and all the things i used to love to do. but i have friends to help me through it, and they've been distracting me as best as they can.

[gideonisms]

guy who needs floor time

[rad-roche]

warmup doodle of my bg3 character

[cake-chad]

Me, enjoying the return of my favourite campaign, knowing something like season one couldn't have kept going on in the same way, pleased that they found a way to pivot away from the heavy grief filled topics that it was heading towards, and that the entire cast is happy about the changes they've made

[answers-of-the-heart]

Happy Holidays, Everyone.

(Ko-Fi if you wanna support my art)

[crispyanonartnsfw]

I love my job but I hate capitalism and especially work culture because tell me why the fuck am I busting my ass all day, every day, with so so little time to spend with the loml let alone my friends let alone being by myself just enjoying my hobbies yet I STILL feel guilty for taking half a day off (something I'm absolutely allowed to do since I'm a freelance and get paid by the hour) LIKE why don't I see the people I work with struggle with this the way I do. I'm collaborating on something where way more hands are needed but they apparently prefer to work overtime and skip lunch break instead of asking to outsource to more freelancers like me (and for context it's not a matter of money, like, at all).

Apparently so many adults don't have a life they want to spend time living?????????? They have kids and just want to be at the office/studio/workplace 24/7?????? Bro go home and kiss your wife idk

[hadesknockedupintheunderworld]

One day

One day I hope people realize that Kitsunami already "broke through his programming" back by issue #56 of Idw Sonic

He had an entire mini arc where he dealt with being without Surge for the first time, and in the real world. He met Sonic and his friends directly, tried to work out what his purpose would be without Surge in his life (gave it a shot trying to devote himself to Sonic, seeing him as the next best thing after Surge). And when it was all said and done, he decided after experiencing more that at Surge's side is where he wanted to be.

As of the recent IDW issues, Kit isn't sticking with Surge "because of programming" and "because he just needs for other characters to friend him and turn him into a better person". He is at her side because he wants to be. He protects her and aids her because he cares about her, not just because he's serving the strongest guy in the room. And he's not interacting with others because he's decided not to give a shit about anyone else other than Surge (because from his pov, even the "good guys" are fake. From his pov, everyone is someone trying to lie and manipulate their way into pulling him and Surge to their side)

Kit already has decided what he wants to do with his life. And he decided it on his own. Not because of anyone else's wants or wishes. That's the whole point of his speech at the end of #56.

He's burying whatever his and Surge's past is and moving forward with his conviction to be with Surge because it's what he wants.

[edennill-archived]

Not to speculate unduly on the afterlives of Men in Tolkien, as the proverb goes (this is a lie, Eri and I do nothing but speculate though at least most times we know where to stop), but the way so many people headcanon Elros as welcoming his kinsfolk after they die is both low-key curious and really sweet. And extremely Elros-y behaviour.

(I do think if he does this, also, it's not because of being the first king of Númenor and the forefather of a nation, but rather the other way round, he became a leader because he was already like that)

[lucifer-is-a-bag-of-dicks]

when I took a month off work I was lowkey worried I'd come back and find everyone had been fine without me and I wasn't needed at all (because being terrible at every previous job I've had did some ✨damage✨ to my self confidence)

but that is not what happened

I have never encountered someone so fucking happy to see me as my boss' wife was on my first day back, her face lit up like it was christmas, she was practically jumping for joy because now that I'm back she doesn't have to do the ops team's fucking timesheets anymore

I have been told by one of the ops guys that my leave of absence had caused a genuine rift in the boss' marriage because his wife hated doing my job so much they were actively fighting about it

to be clear, his wife is lovely, she doesn't usually throw a shit fit about just anything, it was just that my job is just so fucking annoying that she hated every second of it, and that was the most validating shit I have ever experienced in my LIFE

and the reason she was pissed off at my boss/her husband about it is because he's too soft on his crew and doesn't make them all report their hours for the week

which, as you can imagine, makes building their timesheets extremely fucking difficult

it basically turns the whole process into a puzzle that I have to solve using roughly three different sources of information, one of which is the boss himself who isn't always easy to get ahold of when he's on a site

this puzzle is made even more difficult by the fact that a glitch in our form system keeps messing up the dates on the timecards, so I have to cross reference the time cards from the two (2) ops team members, who actually DO fill out their forms, with the roster, but my boss often changes the roster at the last minute without telling me or noting it down, so then I have to cross reference with the reports they have to submit for certain ongoing jobs because they'll have correct dates and also a list of who was present (if they were doing one off smalltime jobs that week I'll have no physical records and will rely entirely on the boss' memory to confirm dates and staff numbers, unless I can get ahold of one of the ops team members themselves and there's only one who will reliably communicate with me but only when he's not currently on a site)

I tried to explain this process to boss' wife before I left and, looking horrified, she asked me 'is there no way to streamline this?' I replied 'this is streamlined'

as far as I'm aware, as long as I've worked there, there has only been a handful of times people were paid incorrectly, and it was because I was not given correct information by the boss, in the time I was gone, his wife told me that she had incorrectly logged several pays because of this broken ass system

so, as you could imagine, my ego is through the fucking roof right now, I am GOOD at this bullshit job, I took an impossible system and made it work, I am playing on hard mode and killing it, in a field I had zero experience in before taking this job other than a natural inclination for organising and scheduling

and to be clear, I love this job, the boss is too soft on his staff but he's a good guy, he makes us all feel valued and appreciated, he paid me above my award rate, he's absurdly accommodating, and I have an insane amount of freedom to do what I want with company files

I may be working with a bullshit system but I can take naps in the office whenever I want and tell my boss off when he's being too soft (one time his wife literally started clapping when I told him off for sending clients their reports before they'd paid for them) and I get to control when I work, and whether I work from home or the office (which is GREAT when my back flares up)

I might not get many hours (only 16 hours per week) because the company is so small and I run out of things to do because I've streamlined everything (boss literally called me TOO EFFICIENT), but he'll give me those 16 even if I spend half of it playing solitaire and watching youtube

so just, yeah, it feels so good to be confident in my work, to feel valued and appreciated and like I'm actually successful at something after being handed dud jobs for years that I wasn't cut out for, and now knowing that what I'm doing is actually genuinely hard but I've been doing it anyway without fail, makes me feel good!

so tldr; taking a month off work taught me I have phenomenal job security because if my boss ever fires me his wife might actually fucking kill him

[gilgil-machine]

Like seriously, I'm so tired of people hating on Gil (even though sometimes it's quite justified and sometimes I hate him too) but also not accepting him outside fsn trilogy or treating him like completely different entity or treating his character development like something bad or saying that it was made just for profit. And yeah, sure, the last bit is technically true, because of his character popularity Nasu decided to give him a backstory, give him some depth and meaning instead of just leaving him the way he was, a shallow villain from eroge game, so why treating this development like it's a bad thing?

[x-i-l-verify]

An art commission from the very lovely and talented @pppuri illustrating two of the main characters from my Dream SMP vampire AU, which features copious amounts of worldbuilding, found family feels, slavery, hurt/comfort, dark SBI, and BBH Dormouse and Dream the Emerald being the most dynamic of unlikely duos.

[francisforever2014]

you know i act very hee hee ha ha about it but sometimes being in the humanities is very scary when all anybody talks about is how you're really dumb if you pursue a humanities degree and how there's no way that jobs exist in the field that you love and that it's not worthwhile to do literally anything but stem. even though i know this isn't true obviously especially bc i'm surrounded daily by people who disprove this but damn........... can we stop being so mean :(

[avelanlorelay]

My Jurdan fics in Ao3 (tfota)

Dernière Danse

Completed | post-canon | post The Queen of Nothing | fluffy and angst | drama

“Give her everything you have and Jude will never be satisfied. Humble yourself and beg, swear your love every day and keep promises all your life. And she’ll tire of you. She’ll get bored and look for another fool who will interest her more. She’ll break your heart until there’s nothing left to hurt.” Once upon a time, there was a boy with a heart of glass that broke into a thousand pieces. But his mother was wrong. Jude Duarte didn’t give in to easy feelings. She honored her choices and valued the love of those who were faithful to her. Jude was loyal. “Say what you like, I’m no longer the silly, needy boy you looked down on. I know that passion and love aren’t the same thing. And Jude loves me as much as I love her. It’s sincere, and you can’t ruin it like you do everything you touch.” She stared at him with eyes blazing with anger Then a smile spread across her flushed lips. “You’re right. You’re no longer the silly child I used to despise. Now, you’re the foolish boy Jude Duarte will despise.” She stroked his jaw with her sharp nails and turned away, heading back to the palace without looking back.

Please, Come Back and Tell Me You Still Love Me

Completed | modern au | angst with a happy ending | a shot with 3 chapters

“If you want to go, then go, I won’t stop you.” Cardan managed to say, treacherous voice sounding hoarse, Jude’s hands gripping the door handle. “But if you go, know that you need never come back, forget I exist. Forget everything.” Please, come back. Please, let go of that damn door and tell me you still love me. Come back to me, Jude. He pleaded in his mind for a long moment where she remained motionless. Then Jude turned the knob and walked away without looking back, the door slamming with a bang behind her.

The Bodyguard

In progress | modern au | bodyguard romance | romantic thriller

When Jude Duarte was given the task of protecting rising rockstar Cardan Greenbriar from a dangerous stalker, her intuition already told her it would be a tricky mission. But the capricious, irresponsible and annoyingly attractive boy seems to make everything even more difficult. As if being threatened by a crazy stalker who wants to destroy his life wasn’t enough trouble to deal with, Cardan Greenbriar could never have imagined that having a scary bodyguard and a breathtaking girl would make him even more out of his mind. None of them were prepared for what was to come.

Love, that force that compels us to be sometimes better and often worse

Completed | The Prisoner's Throne spoilers | a shot with 4 chapters

Some deleted scenes of Jurdan from The Prisoner's Throne.

Tales of Enemies and Lovers

Series of one shots

Fireflies

Completed | one shot | romantic fluff | post canon | post The Queen of Nothing | on tumblr

“I am the one who desperately wants you.” He stroked her cheeks in his long-fingered hand. “Say what you want and I’ll give you anything, anything you wish. If you asked me for the stars, I’d go up to the sky and knock them down for you. I’d make the planet stop spinning, Jude. Just ask and I will give you everything I have and steal what I don’t have.” “I don’t wish for anything. All I want is you. It is more than enough.” She slid her fingers under his chin and pulled him to her, their mouths intertwining effortlessly. Cardan steals Jude from the feast to show a surprise. Based on the deleted scene from The Queen of Nothing.

How the King of Elfhame Learned to Hate Picnics

Completed | one shot | romantic fluff | post canon | Mortal word

Based on a Tumblr request: Jude and Cardan go on a family picnic in the Mortal World, but when a boy flirts with Jude....

Positions

Completed | one shot | romantic fluff | post canon | fluff and smut | pillow talk | on tumblr

"How do you prefer it when we make love?" He asked suddenly. Jude stared at him with a frown. "What? Are you delirious with fatigue?" She asked, her mind sluggishly not understanding what he meant. "I'm serious." He retorted offended. "I mean, what's your favorite way to make love? How can I explain.... The position of our bodies."

Hummingbird

Completed | one shot | romantic fluff | post canon | domestic fluff | on tumblr

She opened her eyes. There was no way she wouldn’t wake up, with him moving around so much. Jude thought about waking him up with a poke and asking what his problem was. Instead, she watched.