#and I'm kinda good at rambling about anything and everything but thats usually with someone else there

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Hey do any of yall listen to podcasts?

And if so what kind of podcasts do yall listen to? I’m looking for topic/genre suggestions

[justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms]

Hi, may I have a matchup for legend of korra, narnia, and percy jackson? I go by she/her and am bi with no preference so any gender is fine.

I’m about 5’5, dark blue eyes, medium length hair thats kinda too dark to be dirty blonde but not so dark that its light brown with slightly lighter blonde highlights throughout. Ive been told I typically wear what would be considered 90s type of style but leaning away from more feminine things tho I’m not opposed to dresses and all. 

I get pretty anxious when thrown in certain situations rather that be talking to a group of people or just one person. But when I get to know someone I never stop talking. I am a ranter and rambler which means I could be ranting about something that happened and then start talking about something else that may or may not be related to the original subject. Though I do enjoy listening to other people talk. I am considered the mom friend because I tend to be the most logical. I'm also a very determined, stubborn person who usually is kinda pessimistic but still has a huge imagination. And despite all the anxiety I am usually a relatively confident person and am not afraid to take up for anyone I care about. Also I am pretty good in school despite having a kinda bad memory. Also an INTJ and Sagittarius. 

I absolutely love writing, art, music, reading, and watching various shows/movies. I also really like walking around and enjoying nature. There's a few nature trails I love going on and would go to the zoo every weekend if I had the chance. Which also goes along to my love for animals. Also I do like going to random places with my friends. 

And that's about all I can think of to say, hope it wasn't too much lol. But anyways, thanks in advance :)

Hello Anon! Thank you for requesting Narnia and Percy Jackson; I'm very excited to write for both of them for the first time! I hope you like your matchups!

In Legend of Korra, I match you with...

Asami will make sure you feel comfortable in situations where you may normally feel anxious. She's learnt to outwardly be confident in almost any situation due to her business.

Loves listening to you ramble about your interests. People always talk about the things she seems interested in to improve their relationship with her and hopefully gain business partnership. She likes listening to someone talk about their own interests.

Asami is probably the closest Korra's Team Avatar has to mom friend and she's still pretty chaotic. I'm sure everyone's a little relieved that there's a level headed mom friend in the group now.

Loves going on walks with you. It gets her away from her work for a while and lets her clear her head.

In Narnia, I match you with...

The conversations you two have would be amazing to listen to!

Lucy loves it when you two can sit in the gardens and talk for hours. It lets her get away from her royal duties and spend time relaxing.

Lucy's by far the most creative of the Pevensie siblings so she'd love doing art with you. Whether it's drawing, painting, or writing, she just loves creating things and doing it with company is even better.

Another one who loves going for walks. She gets to spend time with you and catch up with all of her Narnian friends as well.

Always makes sure you're comfortable. She knows how intimidating Narnia can be sometimes, especially when you're one of the people living in the castle at Cair Paravel.

In Percy Jackson, I match you with...

The biggest fan of going for walks in nature with you! He can tell you all about the plants (and dryads) you come across.

Grover also loves listening to you ramble about anything and everything. He has a tendency to ramble as well so he'll appreciate it if you listen to him as well.

He'll find a quiet glade somewhere so you two can relax away from the chaos of Camp Half-Blood. Whether you two talk or just enjoy the peace and quiet, he's just happy to spend time with you.

Pretty socially anxious as well. You two can support each other.

Can't paint or draw for the life of him but enjoys watching you. He'd be honoured if you would do an artwork for him/of him. He thinks you're very clever for being so good at your chosen art medium.

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🎀 list 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the ask box for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! get to know your moots or followers <3

-@letsgoricciardo

Ooh ok five things that make me happy.

My friends I got from this year. I've always had a slight FOMO and a little bit of an imposter syndrome in relation to friends. This is defininetly been actually nice for me, I actually haven't felt anything related to an imposter syndrome this year since I left for university. So I'm really happy to have made the friends I did.

Editing. Editing has always been a form of art that I love to do. I'm still on the newer side of things (like I'm about to hit 5 years now). I've actually made insta moots with editors that I like looked up to. One of them I even got slightly close to and did a lil animal crossing prom thing in a discord with them which was insane. I mean it's crazy when these people you've watched make edits and aspire to make edit slike them, suddenly become mutuals with you on instagram. I started on insta and now I'm on tt. I started with RvB and I went back to RvB after the era we do not talk about but I'm also doing f1 and fe edits.

Motorsports. I've always been a sports jumper. I started with MLB then went to NBA and then NFL. I like to say that the more I get into a sport is based on the funny videos of them. MLB is obvious, I've seen all the old funny videos that I could tell you what happens in the clips. I've seen so many that I've seen so many repeat clips. NBA was more Luka for some reason, I think I liked his trick shot stuff. There isn't a lot of funny moments without involving someone in the negative light, which is different from MLB. Which I loved MLB funny moments that occured between the two teams. And then NFL just happened somehow with some funny things but not a lot. And then I found motorsports through a Brocedes edit. And I just fell in love through the funny moments. My parents sometimes ask me, how do I know so much f1 stuff, and I say it's because I consumed a lot of videos. Which I did, but majority were a funny complimation. And then suddenly formulawah made a guide to formula e, and there were quips in there that made me interested in watching fe. And suddenly now I'm watching all the lil funny montages they have up on the fe channels. And so yeah, f1 and fe make me happy.

Gaming. I play a lot of different genres of games (OXENFREE is my favorite totally recommend try playing it AAAAAAAA I could go on a whole ramble about this). Right now I have a fixation on Stardew Valley (especially with the new update) so I'm gonna binge play that. But I just love gaming, especially games with character designs and stories). And gaming just makes me happy.

Red vs Blue. It's like slightly also making me sad because it's ending (also everything Project Freelancer makes me sad (THERE IS LITERALLY A SONG THATS KINDA HAPPY AND VIBES ARE GOOD CALLED "We'll be coming back" BUT I GET SAD EVERYTIME BC SOMEONE ONCE COMPARED IT TO WASH AND THE FREELANCERS AND I JUST SCREAM) ahem anyways, yeah it can also make me sad). But it also makes me laugh a lot, and I love the characters dearly. Even if I scream in frustration when a fic on ao3 may not update in a month (bc the fandom is like half dead there ngl and that usually means discontinued sometimes). But I love Red vs Blue so much. I bought the fanbook, I bought some like slap bracelets. I just love it and it makes me happy. I could literally anaylyze every single character.

[amekonocternia]

Back at it again this time I found a Milk one

Same as last time

Guild buddies, things started shakey simply due to their first meeting but they got along rather quick, they like to make bets about things and friendly competitions, regularly spar together, just really good friends in general.

Guild buddy, autism + adhd 🤝 autism + adhd, thry enjoy rambling about their interests to each other they can hold a single conversation topic for hours on end.

Milk would call them a friend, they would probably call him an ally but tbf thats the closest you can get to friend with Ananas, Milk will visit (usually because Dino invited him) and help out the Mango tribe from time to time so they get along rather well.

Regularly goes to the bar (he drinks non alcoholic stuff he's really just there to conversate more than anything) so he and the JBR are all loose friends

Loose friend by proxy, Werewolf's hesitant to be around Milk since he's a werewolf and Milks cptsd (he's scared he'll turn around Milk and accidently trigger him), Milks aware of the fact but enjoys his presence nontheless so he just only hangs out if Chocos there just incase he ever does need someone to ground him. They do get along and enjoy the others company its just that tidbit that keeps them loose

They're coworkers, thats really it

Red Velvet and Milk get along really well and want to get along (with Choco being his brother and Milk being with Choco) but the dog thing is a roadblock, Velvet wants to have Chiffon with him most of the time and if he's going somewhere he knows Milk will be he has to leave Chiffon behind, due to growing up disconnected from everyone He doesn't completely understand why milk reacts the way he does but he still tries to respect it since it clearly isn't a good thing, it does however still create a roadblock between the two and affects how they approach the other. Other than that though they really do get along well, Milk doesn't see his cake aspects as something to make a big deal of and Velvet enjoys being treated the same as everyone else, in conversation they bounce off each other really well so if it wasn't for their one roadblock they would be really good friends

Longans more interested in Milk than he's interested in them, Longan sees the strength and potential in Milk and can tell he's not the same as the rest of his guild and that intimidates Milk who would rather blend into his guildmates and not stand out. (I'm interested in exploring a one sided romantic interest on longans half with them knowing what Milk is and believing he should be treated with far more respects and honor than he is, sorta a "I can give you anything and everything you'll ever want" kinda thing but I'm still kinda working my brain on that so for now it's just an idea)

Milk met Wild, Princess, and Knight through Choco introducing him to Hollyberry

They've met

Crossed paths when young, Kumiho tried to get Milk to get away from his tribe and Milk's immune to charm magic so it was a massive failiure and they both just stood there uncomfortably (kumi not understanding why it wasn't working, milk not knowing why the random fox girl was just quietly staring him down)

Haven't met

Crossed paths once, Lico made a big deal of Choco having a partner and was just rude and insulting Choco (Choco didn't gaf dudes just used to it at that point) and Milks wanted him dead ever since/hj

This was supposed to be a ship tier list but I used it as a general relationship list instead

Explanations from top the bottom (left to right)

Comkomilk my beloved 🩵🩵🩵

Family headcannons

Kumi and Choco have been friends since they were young kids, Choco would hide her from the watchers and sneak her a portion of his meals.

Choco and Werewolf are the kinda friends who sit together in complete silence and just vibe

Him and White used to spar together as kids before she left to the holly kingdom

Met Cocoa through Caramel

Things start off rough (Yam being hardheadrd and adament to have a rematch, Choco taking that as being hated and trying to be non confrontational while also still being firm on not tolerating it) and they gradually grew to get along, they can still have spats now and then but even during those moments its still very clear that they do get along well in their own odd way

Crunchy and Caramel were friends since children, while Choco and Crunchy aren't as close they still get along well, Choco appreciates him for all he does for his sister and Crunchy sees and admires him as the prince despite everything thats happened

Choco often goes to the blacksmiths Avocado works at and has even tooken into learning from her.

Choco enjoys his music and they talk about music from time to time

Knows Knight because of Princess they only really talk if Princess is there but they enjoy the others presence.

Similar the Knight, met Raspberry through Princess, they've sparred together before

Doesn't really know Cottoncandy but shes friends with Milk so shes cool in his book

Met Blueberry Pie a couple times never really talked

COD member

Saw one of his proformances once

They've been in the same place a couple times

Choco frequents the juice bar occasionally

( Insert don't know each other here )

Madeline is just too much for Choco he gets overwhelmed and annoyed by him

Choco and lico are self explanitory

Esspresso and Choco clash too much, they'd rather avoid each each other

Earl Grey doesn't like him so he doesn't like him either

Also self explanitory

[riotlain]

Carl Grimes Fluff Alphabet

Me when i lobe him sm

THIS IS A NWLNW BLOG!! WOMEN DNI

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A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

Theres not alot of free time during the end of the world and surviving and all. But he enjoys just doing whatever with you around.

Reading comics? Hell yea! Just laying together in silence? Alrighty!!

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

Physically he enjoys your eyes. Carl just loves staring into your eyes. He doesn't know why but its calming. He also loves your hands. Doesn't matter how they feel. He just enjoys holding them.

He admires your passion. Your interests, your deep thoughts. Carl just loves to listen to you ramble whenever he can listen to it.

C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?

He's not good with emotions himself. The apocalypse never really taught him how to comfort I guess.

He's there by your side when you need it and will try to calm you down and talk you through it. Unless you want alone time, he wont leave your side.

D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?

Carl knows he shouldn't, but he cant help but dream of a future with you and a small family.

He would love to grow old with you but you both know this'll never happen.

E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

Mainly leaning towards dominant I guess. Of course he gets rather dominant when he's being protective, telling you to stay put or something.

But he also listens to your thoughts and opinions alot and will go with what you say at times.

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

Yes he's very easy to forgive you. Any day you could die so he can never stay mad forever.

When you get into big big fights tho, he will probably yell honestly. When you get upset he will ask Rick or Michonne for advice.

G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

Its the end of the world, OF COURSE HES VERY GRATEFUL OF YOUR EXISTENCE

Like bro will literally go one rambles about how grateful he is to have you just for no reason. He loves you sm

H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

No. Nothin to really hide. He doesn't tell you everything everything. But he tells you most things on his mind.

I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

You helped him accept the fact that he can show when he's sad instead of bottling it up

He has the mindset of "People have been through worse so i'm not worth hearing" and you really help him overcome that.

J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

Really depends on how youre acting. If someone is straight flirting and you dont realize it, taking it as just compliments, he'll probably get jealous.

He usually just tries to walk into the convo saying he needs to talk to you or something. Just to have you away from whoever flirts with you.

K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

He's.. alright???

No one teaches you how to kiss so the first kiss was awkward as hell. A short simple kiss after you killed a walker for him.

L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

He either confesses by giving you a letter or out on a "run".

He'd make sure you 2 are alone on a "run" just to lead you to an area thats set up like a lil picnic as a lil date.

M arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?

Maybe yea kinda. He knows you guys might not live for long so if anything he gave you a promise/kinda wedding ring.

Father Gabriel would be the one to wed you guys in a run down church or something along those lines

N icknames - What do they call their s/o?

A shortened version of your name, babe and simple names like that.

O n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?

Carl is the most obvious thing alive. Everyone knows except you (MAYBE YOU EVEN DO). Always looking after you, very act of servicey, maybe a bit touchy

Everyone knows.

P DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?

Carl doesnt brag but he isnt shy to kiss you. He kisses you whenever one of you goes on a run. He mainly gets a tiny bit shy when the adults start teasing yall a bit

Q uirk - Some random ability they have that’s beneficial in a relationship.

You learn how to use a gun and usually always have a weapon on you.

R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

A good balance. Honestly he goes off the adults around him and asks around to see what he should do.

Carl is a romantic fella who loves to take you on lil run dates and giving gifts.

S upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?

Im not sure what kinda goals you would have in the apocalypse other than surviving but yes hes very supportive and helpful!!

T hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?

Routine is kinda the norm. Just for living. Carl tries to keep a routine but yknow you never knows what happens when theres dead people roamin the earth.

U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?

Very understanding and always willing to listen when your distressed. Hes generally pretty empathetic I think.

V alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?

Carl would risk his life for you. And he probably has. You mean the world and more to him.

W ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.

Very very warm. Radiates heat. Also i feel like his love language is a good mix between acts of service and physical.

X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

Very affectionate. Like y'all cuddle almost every night. Except like maybe during the summer.

Y earning - How will they cope when they’re missing their partner?

Bro will steal your clothes. Like doesnt matter if he can even fit them theyre just in his room now. Wont elaborate on why he has them if you ask.

Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lenghts for the relationship? If so, what kind of?

Once again. Will literally die for you. Like he doesnt try to but he is willing to do almost anything as long as your well and alive

[sincelight]

I'm A Little Awkward, But Most People Like Me

Pairing: Yixing/Baekhyun Rating: pg-13 Genre: online friendship? 

Summary: Baekhyun's a little awkward, spends too much time reading smutty gay fanfiction, and doesn't think twice before flying across the country to meet his favorite author.

He’s staring at the screen, the little line blinking, taunting him. He wants to say something. Anything. But what? Is it weird if he just gushes? Can he do that? Hi you don’t know me but I love ur fics and ur a great writer and i think i love you please be my friend. He quickly backspaces. “Definitely can’t send that.”

He lets his head fall onto his desk and pouts. “Come on Baekhyun, you’re a people person, you’re great at making friends. Just say hi.” He takes the bit of courage his little pep talk gives him and hurries to type something, not going back to reread it because he knows he’ll just backspace it all again. He lets out his held breath after hitting send and then hurries to exit out of the site, shutting his laptop and pushing it away from himself. It’s late and he should get to bed anyway, he has work in the morning.

He hates the sound of his alarm. It’s too loud. Each time it goes off, every five minutes for a half-hour straight, he silences it and forces himself not to cry into his pillow. He briefly wonders why his life can’t be like Kai’s in xingie’s latest fic. Why wasn’t he born into a rich family, with the luxury of never having to work a day in his life? He sighs, swings his legs over the edge of the bed and stands.

After getting ready it’s a short walk to work, too short. He looks up at the building, the glass window with the stupid purple coffee mug smiling down at him, and is disappointed that, once again, it hasn’t burned down overnight. The sound of the bell chiming when he opens the door annoys him, but one annoyance is quickly replaced with another when his manager, Junmyeon, marches up to him with that overly happy smile on his face.

“You’re late. Again.”

Baekhyun continues walking, thinking that if he ignores him he’ll go away. But Junmyeon only follows behind him, much too close.

“Third time this week, Baek. You need to be—“

“I know, Junmyeon,” he sighs as he ties his apron around his waist. “I know.” Junmyeon gives him a look, the one he uses when customers are being unreasonable, but doesn’t say anything more. “I’ll be on time tomorrow.”

He’s left alone after that to work. This part of his job he can handle, making coffee is something he’s always enjoyed. Plus, the sounds of the machines drown out potential conversations his coworkers might be tempted to have with him. On more than one occasion he’s turned the blender on specifically to drown out whatever nonsense Sehun was spewing, that kid seems to never stop talking. He’s cute, but god damn.

His first order of the day is a mocha latte and he smiles to himself. It reminds him of a fic by xingie he’d read not too long ago; the main character worked in a coffee shop and his super cute, much too flirty regular always ordered a mocha latte everyday. He’s torn from his daydream when he realizes he’s spilling milk all over the counter and it’s pouring onto the front of his apron. He curses under his breath, quickly grabbing a rag to wipe up his mess. Maybe if xingie actually replies to him he can tell him how he made a mess at work daydreaming about one of his steamy sex scenes from his coffee shop fic. He smiles.

“Why are you smiling like that?” Sehun’s voice calls suddenly, much too close to him. “You’re happy you just spilled milk all over yourself?” Baekhyun shoots Sehun a quick glare and then turns on the empty blender.

By the time he gets to sit down for his lunch break he’s ready to go home. His feet hurt and he looks like he pissed himself and he really just wants to finish the chaptered fic he’d started the night before. He sips from his coffee mug and looks to the clock on the wall above him. Fifteen minutes, thats enough time to at least get in half a chapter. So he pulls his phone out and quickly loads up the site, tapping on his subscriptions and smiling to himself.

It’s been a long read. He’s spent most of his free time for the better part of a week reading this fic. It’s by xingie, so of course it’s amazing, but this one. This one is it. This one is everything Baekhyun’s been looking for in a fic. He’s cried twice, gotten so angry at the main character he’s slammed his laptop shut, and had to stop reading to masturbate once. Okay, twice. Okay, it was three times, but xingie just knows how to write some good sex. Baekhyun pouts, he wishes he was having good sex. He sighs, rolls his eyes and refocuses. Ten minutes, start reading, he tells himself.

He’s just about to get to the part where Kai finally, finally, confesses to the short, big-eyed boy of his dreams when someone kicks his foot. He holds his breath to keep a shout in, because he’d rather not get in trouble. So he settles for an annoyed, “What?” Junmyeon doesn’t speak, just holds his wrist up to tap at the face of his watch. Oh, Baekhyun thinks, my break ended twenty minutes ago. He throws a charming smile Junmyeon’s way as he scrambles to his feet and rushes back to work.

He groans the entire walk home. Junmyeon had sat him down after work to explain to him the importance of punctuality. Sure, he drowned most of it out, but still annoying nonetheless. He unlocks his door and steps inside, “I’m not a child,” he pouts.

His apartment is small, but he has a cat so it’s okay. And, just like everyday, Socks the cat is sleeping in a little furry ball, curled up on the tattered old couch his friend Taehyung gave him as a move in gift. He curls up in a similar ball around Socks and pulls his phone out to finally finish what he’d started at work. “Alright Kai, lets see you finally admit your feelings.”

The message notification is a little unexpected, no one ever messages him. And then he remembers his half-asleep, 3am message to xingie.

From xingie: Hey, thanks for the message! I’m glad you’re enjoying my fics… it’s kinda cool to get like, fan mail. I’ve actually noticed you’ve left me a few comments before so thanks for that! Hope to hear back from you!

Baekhyun stares at his phone, rereads the message a few times, and then screeches into the couch cushion. Socks gets up and gives him a dirty look before rearranging himself at the opposite end of the couch. “Sorry,” he says, then hops up to sit cross-legged. “What do I say back?” he speaks aloud, looking at his reflection in his dark tv screen. “How do I reply without sounding creepy?”

From dontcallmebacon: Wow, okay. I kinda didn’t expect you to reply to me. I figured you must get a lot of messages because your fics are so good. Um, I don’t really know what to say now. I almost sent you a message yesterday telling you I think I love you, but I didn’t. I really love your last fic, Coffee House. I’m almost finished reading it right now. I got in trouble at work today trying to read instead of working. So thats your fault lol. Anyway, thanks for replying!

He hits send without thinking and immediately regrets. “Oh my god, I’m such a fucking creeper.”

From dontcallmebacon: Also I’m sorry for how creepy that message probably came out I literally just rambled on accident. I promise I’m not usually this awkward.

After this, they end up chatting regularly. Xingie, Baekhyun learns, is actually really cool. They eventually exchange Tumblr information and begin following each other. Messaging there is just much easier, and a lot faster. Baekhyun may or may not stalk through Xingie’s blog, trying to find pictures to put a face to the name. He’s cute, he’s really cute. Like, holy hell what a time to be alive and gay, please Jesus let him be gay, kinda cute. He spends only a very reasonable hour digging deeper to find more pictures, learning his name is Yixing and that he’s not only cute but he’s sexy as hell when he wants to be. Baekhyun may or may not totally save a black and white picture of him biting his lip to his computer.

dontcallmebacon: you're a guy

xingie: i am, yes xingie: is that bad?

dontcallemebacon: no i just… i guess i was expecting like a girl. since you know… its usually girls that write fics.

xingie: i can assure you there are plenty of guys that write fics. xingie: why do you think i have such extensive knowledge of anal? lol

Baekhyun has to sit back from his computer, hands still resting on the keys as he thinks. Is that Yixing’s way of telling him he’s gay? Because well, Baekhyun’s gay. Baekhyun is very gay and Yixing is very cute. And, “No, quit that. Quit that right now.”

dontcallmebacon: youre really cute

Baekhyun mentally kicks himself, physically slams his head onto his desk. That is totally not what he was wanting to say. He hurries to try and save the situation.

dontcallmebacon: i mean like i saw a picture of yu and youre cuet not that i was like stalkinh you or antyhing dontcallmebacon: wow that makes it sound liek i WAS stalking you which i wasnt i swear!

Baekhyun waits, watching the chat box, hoping he didn’t just freak Yixing out. It feels like hours, days, years that he waits for a reply.

xingie: so basically what ur saying is you stalked my blog?

dontcallmebacon: NO! dontcallmebacon: ok yes i did but i just wanted to see what you looked like

xingie: ….you think im cuuuuuuuuute ^.^ xingie: send me a picture of you now, its only fair

Baekhyun almost spits up his drink. Yixing wants a picture of him? He quickly goes through his facebook, trying to find the cutest picture of himself he can. He chooses one and sends it and waits for a reply, playing some dumb game on Facebook to distract himself.

xingie: cute

A few months go by like this, Baekhyun regularly chatting with Yixing nearly all day and all night. Well, until he has to go to sleep before Yixing, timezones be damned. They learn a lot about each other in a short amount of time. They have a shared love for photography, food, animals and more importantly, BTS. They discover they have the same bias and ultimately decide, jokingly of course, that they must be soulmates.

Baekhyun gets in trouble more often at work now. Showing up late more days than not because he decided to stay up much too late to chat with Yixing. Spending too much time looking at his phone instead of paying attention to his work. He makes Yixing laugh when he tells him that he’s solely responsible for the new no phones policy at work.

xingie: i cant wait to meet you

Baekhyun leans back and just stares. They’ve been talking for three months now and sure, the thought of actually meeting Yixing has crossed his mind, but he never thought Yixing was thinking the same thing. He smiles to himself and runs his fingers over the keys.

dontcallmebacon: really?

xingie: uh yea duh youre fuckin awesome why wouldnt i wanna meet you?? xingie: unless ur a serial killer….. are u a serial killer???

dontcallmebacon: i feel like thats what a serial killer would say to make someone think theyre not a serial killer… dontcallmebacon: are YOU a serial killer??

xingie: i would never kill you xingie: might kiss you tho

Baekhyun feels his heart skip. His mouth falls open into a small smile as he types his response.

dontcallmebacon: you want to kiss me?

xingie: have you seen you? like youve seen how cute you are, right? xingie: id totally kiss you

dontcallmebacon: well.. i never said id let you so..

xingie: would you let me?

Baekhyun’s smile widens and he bites into his bottom lip.

dontcallmebacon: totally

Baekhyun is wheezing as he throws himself into his computer chair; it rolls sideways and he catches himself with a hand on the edge of his desk. He opens his laptop with one hand, the other holding onto the cramp in his side, and quickly signs into Tumblr. As he’s waiting for his shitty internet to do its job he tries to catch his breath. “I need to start working out, jesus christ, it was only three blocks”.

He was at work when he got the notification. BTS was announced as one of the artists in the lineup for Kcon in LA this year. He likes BTS. Yixing likes BTS. Yixing lives in LA. It was so exciting and overwhelming all he could think to do was sprint the three blocks from his work to his apartment. He needed to talk to Yixing immediately.

The site finally loads and he has seven messages. Yixing already knows, he thinks to himself. And, sure enough, he opens the chat box to see a barrage of all caps, frantic messages.

xingie: KCON xingie: BTS KCON EMRGENCY REPLY TO MEEEEEE xingie: BAEK FUKCING REPLY TO ME YOU DICKBAG xingie: BAKHYUNNNNNMNN HURRY IM DYNING xingie: BTSSSS BAEK PAY ATTENTION TO ME xingie: GOD DAMN IT BTS AT KCON IM SCREECHING AND UR IGNORING ME xingie: IF YUO DONT REPLY TO ME THIS FRIENDSAHIP IS OVERR

dontcallmebacon: I WAS AT WORK IM SRORRY!!!!!! dontcallmebacon: are you gonna go? to kcon?? BTS????

xingie: thank fuck i thought u were dead xingie: uhmmm obviously im gonna go! bts in my city omgg

dontcallmebacon: im so jealous tell hobi i love him for me

xingie: dude just fly out here xingie: FLY OUT HERE AND MEET ME AND SEE BTS OMG YESS xingie: baek u gotta

Baekhyun reads the message over and over, thinking about it. He has extra money. He has time he can take off work. Why shouldn’t he fly out to LA? He’s always wanted to go. He’d get to see BTS and kiss a cute boy. He quickly checks his bank account, looks at a calendar, and then switches back to Tumblr.

dontcallmebacon: fuck it.. im in

I’m not gonna cry. I’m not gonna cry. Baekhyun repeats this in his head as he watches his mother walk away from him. She drove him to the airport so he wouldn't have to leave his car, and now she’s leaving. He’s never flown before and he’s moderately terrified. Where does he go? What does he do with his luggage? How does he get to his plane? A large group of people wearing matching shirts passes him, chatting animatedly in a foreign language and he’s jealous. He wishes he had thirty other people around him to tell him what to do. He looks at his phone to check the time. What if he misses his plane? He begins walking faster.

It takes a little time, getting into the wrong line two separate times, but he finally figures out what he has to do. He checks his bag, gets his ticket and then, sighs. “Another line,” he whines, looking over at security. This line moves faster. Each step he takes closer he begins to panic just a little more. He wishes Yixing was awake so he could message him, but it’s like 2am in LA right now, so he’s stuck with nothing but his own thoughts. He takes another step forward, heart beating fast. He begins running through everything in his head, everything he’d packed in his carryon. What if they find something I shouldn't have and I go to airport jail, he thinks.

He makes it through security, only slightly scarred for life, and from there it’s smooth sailing.

By the time he lands in Vegas for his connecting flight he’s starving and so ready to just be in California. He sits down to eat and excitedly messages Yixing, knowing he’ll finally be up.

dontcallmebacon: im in vegas now, coolest airport ever

xingie: ahhhhhhh so close!!! xingie: im so excited ur almost heeeeere

dontcallmebacon: i knowww i just wanna get there already dontcallmebacon: also i’ll have u know i only cried a little at the airport before i left dontcallmebacon: i had a brief hour of panic but im good now

xingie: lol nice xingie: well only a couple more hours left and then you'll be here

Baekhyun notices the time across the top of his phone and his eyes widen. He shoves the rest of his food in his mouth and quickly chugs the rest of his drink.

dontcallmebacon: gotta go, plane leaves in twenty and im at the opposite end of the airport eating. dontcallmebacon: ill message you when i land in la!

When Baekhyun lands he messages Yixing like he said he would and sets off to find his bag. He realizes, pretty quickly, that he has no idea how to find his bag. He wanders aimlessly, he thinks he’s following the signs correctly; he turns around because he was going the wrong way, but finally, he finds baggage claim.

He drags his bag behind him to wait outside. And then, he gets nervous. What if he’s awkward? What if Yixing doesn’t like him? What if Yixing isn't really coming and this was just a big elaborate joke and now he’s stranded all alone in California? He shakes his head, knowing he’s just being dramatic. A black car slows and stops in front of him, he gulps. Yixing steps out, tall, handsome, exactly how Baekhyun pictured him. He lets out a weird breathy chuckle as Yixing steps up to him, a little dimple in his cheek as he smiles.

“Hi.”

Baekhyun licks his lips, his mouth is dry. “Hi.”

Yixing smiles again, looks from Baekhyun’s face to his bag. “You want me to take your—“

“Kiss!”

Yixing’s eyebrows raise, his mouth forms a little ‘o’. “What?”

“Kiss,” Baekhyun repeats, physically unable to stop the word vomit. “Kiss me.”

Yixing’s lips twitch, trying to keep the smile from forming. He grabs Baekhyun’s bag and tosses it into the trunk of his car, turning back to Baekhyun after. He laughs and ruffles Baekhyun’s hair playfully. Baekhyun’s heart stops when Yixing leans forward, lips pursed, and presses their lips together quickly.

“Welcome to California,” Yixing says with a laugh as he walks to the driver’s side and opens the door. “And, nice to finally meet you.”

Baekhyun stares with his mouth open as Yixing gets into the car. He licks his lips and lets out an awkward laugh. The window rolls down and Yixing leans over, hand pulling the handle to push open the door. “You coming?”

Baekhyun smiles and nods, pulls the door open and gets in. He looks at Yixing with a bright smile as he buckles, “Lets do this.”

@seonweon-sonyeondan for you. looooooove you 

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@puppydeathfarts I'm just reblogging cause my rambling is too long for comments

So this is me just... completely off-the-cuff conclusions. Brain storming, so to speak, so I may or may not agree with my own words by the end.

Tumblr DID community is the chillest, I think. Which is reflective of the medium, you consume exactly what you want to and usually in a longer prose form. Paragraphs and stories. Everything is tagged without burdening word count, so its easy to follow and block as desired. But since people can be so selective, it can be hard to connect with people if you dont already know them. As a result, its a good place to just... vent. Scream into the void, and occasionally it'll scream back. Usually reassurances, with the rare jerk. But its not a great place if you're seeking to be heard and responded to. Its like sitting in the same room with a bunch of people: sometimes its quietly coexisting with friends and sometimes its lonely and alienating.

Twitter DID community is... well, the comparison isnt great, but it feels like high school. Lots happening all the time. You can create your own clique, but you cant help but overhear someone screaming about some injustice. Sometimes its educational and you're really vibing with what people are saying. Sometimes it feels like an emotional world war. So if you want constant interaction and content to consume, its a good place to go. If you're empathetic or sensitive, maybe... dont. But it does give a sense of belonging, "look at all these things happening, and I can be a part of it!"

Reddit DID community is great for questions, answers, and occasionally discussion. The forum design means its easy for people to browse and interact. If you're new to the diagnosis, its a great way to ask and learn. The problem being is it kinda perpetually attracts that. So my personal experience has been that it really focuses on alters being different people. And people cling to that and are very vocal about dissenting opinions. So if you need someone else's opinion on something, and you need answers that might require longer answers, thats where you go. But if you're working on integration, maybe dont. Maybe as your own post, but that POV isnt taken well in comments generally.

Tiktok DID community feels like an amusement park to me. Is it real, is it not, who knows? Its got people crying "look at me!" just as much as it has people hunting for an attraction. Honestly though, i havent used it much. I occasionally find the relatable content, but it by and large feels too... showy to me.

Discord DID community feels like a collection of clubs. Sometimes you find a great place with great people and you learn a lot. Sometimes its just kinda... weird. Sometimes theres a distinct feeling of "I'm in the wrong room and I dont belong." It CAN be a good place to connect; you just have to find the right place. But it can also kind of... consume you. Its easy to get stuck talking to people for hours, hunched over your phone or computer, instead of like... taking care of yourself and doing productive things.

I cant say anything about Facebook. I've never joined a group, because I am far too scared of people IRL learning about my diagnosis. I understand there's closed groups, but I dont know how they work.

Youtube feels like a convention. You can find what you want to learn, but there's not much of a community. Everyone you meet there, you'll probably lose touch with once you're done unless you trade socials. It also doesnt have much in the way of checking how reputable someone is. When you're at a convention, youre just sort of trusting these are professionals. Same with youtube. The speaker rarely speaks poorly of themself. And with youtube, the speaker can even control responses in the comments. Both of them require you do your own research on the person outside of that medium in order to understand who they are.

So, in my personal conclusion, each site has their own uses depending on your needs and stage of recovery. Reddit is a great place to start after diagnosis. Youtube is too. But both require you to do your own research as well. They're generally good foundations to start at though. Twitter is a good way to see youtube speakers out of that element, and as a result, its an easy place to touch base with the community. But its also reactive by nature, so it might not be a good place to go if easily triggered. Once you get far enough along in recovery to know yourself a bit, Tumblr is a good place to go to start cultivating the environment you need to grow. For some, they need those alter lists to have the courage to explore their system, but others need to connect with people working on integration. You can find both here, but you need to cultivate your experience. Discord can be great to connect on a deeper level and really make friends, but you have to be even more careful there to find the right space for you. And it requires a degree of self control, as do any of these sites I suppose. None of these will do the hard work for you obviously; you gotta go to counseling and read the books on your own. So all of these are supplemental at best.

So... thats a lot of words without saying much, I suppose. Rambling is one of my skills. I'm absolutely open to other people's inputs. This is obviously based off my own experiences and a ton of conjecture. I might do some research on these websites in earnest later, cause web analytics is fascinating.

It just blows my mind how completely different the DID community is on different social media. Its like they each have their own culture, and its so weird. Interesting too, but also baffling. I feel like I need to study this.