#and I'll always be mad at them for making ward hydra

[lifeofashieldagent]

I'm rewatching agents of shield (again!) and it's so much fun to see S1 Ward pre reveal and notice when he does something sus

Like, just now at the end of ep 8 "The Well"

Skye offers to talk to him but he says maybe later, and then May leaves the door to her room open and this is when their friends with benefits thing begins

Now when he sees May do that, we stay on his face for 5-10 seconds and see him thinking about it. On first watch you'd say he's thinking "I wish I could be the guy who could take Skye up on her offer, but no, I have a dark past and May gets that more and with her I can continue to have all my walls up" and hence he chooses to go with her.

However, watching him think now, I'm like wait, that's not what he's thinking. He's thinking "I really really really want to go talk to Skye cause she's cute and I have a lil crush, but I need to do this so I get closer to May and she doesn't get sus of me ever and feels vulnerable etc. I'm on a mission. I have to do what's best for the mission".

It's not "I wish I was more open and communicative", it's "I wish I wasn't a secret spy for hydra".

This is also one of the moments where Ward becomes irredeemable for me. Cause yes I know his loyalty to Garrett was SUPER strong, but this is one of the MANY moments where he could have made the tough decision to NOT follow Garrett and chosen his found family and come clean and help take down hydra.

This is still pretty early in the season, but there are even more of them later. Him trying to redeem himself after Garrett is dead is pointless, cause it means that if in this moment Garrett was still alive, he'd still hail hydra for him. Fuck that.