#and I love ur shane I HAVE to grab him and squeeze him
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salt-n-salt ¡ 3 months ago
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what if i DIED 😫😫 RRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA im going to collapse this is insane im so happy 🥹🥹 THATS SMOOKIEEEEE
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you inspired me to draw my oc and i drew your farmer 🧍‍♂️ @salt-n-salt
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emswritingsstuff ¡ 5 months ago
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Wait (Daryl Dixon x Mute! Reader)
requested by @caseylicious !! ur request was so long i can't but it here but it was such a read and i loved it. i changed somethings accidentally so sorry if it's not what you expected 🥲
Summary: You and Daryl are the only two that understand each other.
WC: 2.6k
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Daryl was pissed, you could see it on his face. 
Pacing back and forth, he was trying to blow off some steam. The newcomer, Rick, had handcuffed Merle to a roof. What a great first impression. Looking at Daryl you could tell he was conflicted about the whole entire situation. His brother was one of the last things he had from the old world, and even if he dragged Daryl down, Daryl still cared. 
Taking out your beat-up notebook, you quickly wrote down what you thought. ‘He’ll be okay.’ Daryl paused his pacing to read your note. He scoffed and sat down next to you, placing his head in his hands. 
“Can’t lose him, one of the last things I got,” he mumbled into his hands. You could barely make out what he had said, but you could sense the hurt he was feeling. Placing a hand on his arm, you squeezed it slightly which caused him to look up at you. Flashing him a bright smile, he chuckled a bit and stood up. “Who woulda thought the mute one would be the most empathic,” he grabbed his crossbow and slung it over his shoulder, promptly walking away. 
It was common for Daryl to make comments like that about your relationship. When you had joined the group at the Quarry, they were cold toward you. Some of them were sweet, like Carol and her daughter, but some of the others just read you as “stubborn.” Your only form of communication was through an old notebook and an almost dead pen you had found on your travels. It felt silly, but you couldn’t bring yourself to speak. But more than anyone, Shane was annoyed with you. He constantly never sent you out claiming “your notebook can’t save you from a geek.” It was annoying for sure, but you brushed it off.  
On one of his rants Shane had insulted you again, you had just rolled your eyes and walked away. As you stormed off you heard a rough voice come to your defense. The voice you quickly recognized to be Daryl’s. “They don’ owe ya shit!” for some reason Shane’s insult had set him off, starting an argument between him and Shane. That was the first time anyone had defended you against the asshole, and you were grateful. 
Later on, you walked over to the Dixon’s tent, expecting to find Daryl around. Unfortunately having to deal with Merle first. Surprisingly though, he didn’t give you too much trouble just telling you “would be nice to hear ya speak.” Which comments like those just made you roll your eyes, especially when there was no need for words. 
Daryl emerged from the woods and thankfully got Merle to back off from you. “Wha’s up,” Daryl looked at you, wiping off his arrows while talking to you. You had brought your notebook with you and quickly flipped to a blank page and wrote a quick ‘thank you’ and held it up to his face. He squinted slightly as he read it, and a small smirk was painted onto his face. “Ain’t nothing, tired of his ass treatin’ ya like tha’” he moved his arm in a slight shrug motion and looked down at the arrow in his hand. On a smaller section of the same page, you quickly wrote down another message, ‘Seriously though, means a lot.’ You flashed him one last smile before retreating to your tent for the night. And you knew he was smiling back. 
From that point on you and Daryl had become an unlikely duo at the camp. He would take you out hunting considering you were the quietest one there. He showed you how to track, how to shoot, and how to skin. While the skinning was your least favorite part, your grossed out expressions entertained him each time. 
You had also become his ranting buddy, if he was pissed off he’d come to you to rant, even if you couldn’t respond. He enjoyed that you listened, you didn’t just dismiss him or brush him off. 
He had started to understand you via your facial expressions now too. 
The feeling of being understood was something foreign to you. You hadn’t always been nonverbal, and you had a feeling he knew that. Everything had just been so stressful that it just felt easier to not speak. If you speak, you run the risk of saying something wrong or saying something at the wrong time. Or at least that is how you saw it. This was a whole new thing you had to navigate, it really wasn’t easy at all. But luckily you had Daryl make you feel better about it. 
And here you are, watching Daryl run off with the group to find his brother. As much as you weren’t a fan of Merle, you were hoping he would bring him back “home.” Each waking hour he was gone you felt more anxious. You understood he had to run off into the city, but him still not being back by nightfall worried you.
Morning came and they were still gone, now you were extra worried. The hours dragged on and on. Everything felt slow.  Night fell and it was time for dinner, which was actually better than usual. Amy and Andrea went all out fishing earlier that day. As you ate, you listened to the conversations around you, most it being about Dale’s watch. Everyone seemed somewhat happy, it was refreshing. You had noticed Amy get up and leave, you were too focused on finishing your dinner to listen to the conversation anymore. 
But soon you couldn’t ignore them, Amy’s scream piercing the air as you all got up. Walkers, they finally got to you. Everyone had sprung to action, but there were so many and most of your fighters were on the run. With your knife you were taking out as many walkers as you could. The more you kept fighting the more they made their way over to you. 
The walker behind you had caught you off guard as you felt it grab you. Another one was coming toward you but before you could even act a bolt flew past you right into the walker's head. It fell to the ground and you grabbed the arrow out of its head after getting the rest off of you. 
He’s back, but he didn’t look happy about it. Looking at them, everyone who had left was back. With no Merle, and that's when it clicked. You looked at him and he just nodded in response. He didn’t even want to look up at you. 
All the action died down, everyone had decided to leave moving, burning, and burying the bodies until tomorrow morning. Some bodies did need to get moved, like Ed’s, but that was about it. There was a numb feeling that spread across the whole group as everyone separated into their own tents. Daryl was included in that, leaving you behind to go to him and Merle's spot. 
Running back to your own spot, you grabbed the items you needed to communicate and proceeded to Daryl’s tent. When you got there you wrote down a quick ‘want company?’ before unzipping his tent slightly and sticking your arm in with the note. You heard shuffling inside the tent before he goes and zips the rest of the tent open. Meeting Daryl’s eyes he moved his head in a ‘come in’ motion and you let yourself it. You made your spot right in front of him, sitting criss cross while he held his knees up to his chest. 
He looked stern, like he was thinking about something really hard. His jaw was clenching. Presumably out of anger for what happened to Merle. Getting another page ready to write, Daryl had already beat you to the conversation. “Merle’s gone. Chopped off his hand,” with the way he spoke it sounded like he had a lump in this throat. He had been crying, which you figured. Losing a brother couldn’t have been easy. 
“Assholes don’ even care,” he grumbled under his breath. He was trying to compose himself, but he really had no control over it. Looking up at you, your face softened when you saw his tears stain his face. Without even thinking you held out your arms to let him hug you if he wanted. Which you guessed he did. Quickly, he wrapped his arms around you and buried his face in your shoulder.  
Ever since that night you and Daryl had created a routine of spending the night together. They usually just consisted of you both sitting around, enjoying the company. Sometimes Daryl would rant to you about the day, or rant about anyone who pissed him off. Stories about his life before the apocalypse would come up. He wouldn’t talk in much detail and the stories would usually consist of Merle being an idiot. Which would make you smile like an idiot. 
As time went on, Daryl changed. And so did the group itself. So many tragedies had hit. With each location you’ve been to Daryl got more and more closed off to the group. He had blamed himself for Sophia. He thought he should’ve tried harder, should’ve looked longer, just should’ve done better. It affected him in the worst way possible.
It made him quiet, but even with his silent demeanor, you could tell how he was feeling. It was obvious with all of his body language. If he was nervous or anxious he’d bite his thumb or play with his hands. If he was angry, he would look tense with his jaw clenching and pacing back and forth. There was just a lot about him that showed how he was feeling, and you always knew how to make him feel better.
You had lost your notebook during the mess of leaving the Greene farm, so communication between you and the rest of the group was shot. When first getting to the prison you tried hard to find something to write with, but with no luck. Beth had given you journal paper sometimes, but that had to get used sparingly. After a while you had just given up on the idea altogether. Just hoping facial expressions and gestures could get the job done. 
It only worked for one person though, and it was Daryl. The others took a while to understand you. Daryl didn’t, he always immediately understood. He would speak up for you, it was consistent, and it didn’t go unnoticed. Every now and then you would catch Carol and Rick swapping glances whenever Daryl spoke for you. They noticed how you were with him too, you knew how to calm him down or how to make him feel better. You just knew. 
It looked like you both were into each other. And while there was truth to that, you couldn’t do anything about it now. You realized at the farm that you felt more deeply about him than you originally thought. Forcing yourself to hide it wasn’t easy though, but you were certain he didn’t feel the same. Very certain. Or at least you chose to tell yourself that to cut the feelings out. It would be hard to voice your feelings without an actual way to do it, and also when you felt so uncertain about feeling safe. 
“I’ve seen the way he looks at you, totally into you.” Looking up, you were met with Carol’s playful grin. The both of you were preparing breakfast for the group and just doing it in comfortable silence until now. Shaking your head you kept doing what you were doing with Carol giggling at your antics. “C’mon, we all see it,” she said. You responded by shrugging as you walked away to set something on the common room tables just trying to get her to change the subject. Carol just rolled her eyes and walked to set some stuff down too. 
“Fine, I won’t bother you about it anymore. But don’t say I never told you so.” Carol walked out of the room to grab the group for breakfast as you just stood there. Left to process what she said. Maybe she was right, but you couldn’t bear to think about that. 
Even with the safeness of the prison, somehow trouble still managed to find its way to you all. With the newfound enemy of Woodbury, you were all living on edge of a battle. Rick had been trying to make deals but with what happened with Glenn and Maggie, nothing pleased him. The Governor wants Michonne, and the prison's resources. Rick wasn’t going to budge though. Not if the people he cared about were at stake. Not to mention, Daryl had managed to get Merle back too. Turns out Merle ended up in Woodbury and unsurprisingly he was. one of the Governor's right-hand men. Daryl seemed happy to have him back, or as happy as he could be now.
A lot of what was happening had managed to fly under your nose. Busy with Judith and helping out where you were needed, all the business was foreign to you. It became your business though when you went to Daryl’s area and he was gone, and so was Merle. It had worried you to say the least, did he and Merle run again? You were really hoping, praying even, that you were wrong. 
Soon enough, he was back. Thankfully uninjured physically, but you could see in his eyes something happened out there. Before you could try and communicate with him, he was needed by Rick. The Governor finally took action. Rick and Daryl had managed to drive them out, immediately heading out to take care of them for good with Michonne. 
It took a couple of hours for them to come back and when they did, they had all of Woodbury’s residents with them. It surprised you to see how many people they had and making room for them was rough at first. But you all made it work. 
All the excitement had calmed down for the night. The routines were turning back to normal as you watched as Daryl went to go take his watch shift. And you silently followed him. Just trying to get some alone time with him and just wanting to check up. As he stood in the watchtower you slowly walked up behind him. You slid your arms around his stomach and rested them there, head on his back. He had stiffened up at first, but soon relaxed when he saw it was your arms. 
Daryl stared off into space for a while before completely breaking down. He didn’t want to say why, but you knew. Merle hadn’t come back; you assumed the worst. He had turned around to you with his head down and he buried it in your shoulder. It reminded you of when he had first lost Merle making this so much harder. Both of you stayed like that for as long as he needed. 
His sobbing had stopped, at least audibly. But you still stood there hugging. Just enjoying each other's touch. Rubbing his back, you gulped. As bad as the moment had seemed, you just had to finally tell him the one thing that has been eating you alive. Just at least hoping it would help him.
��I love you.” You had said it so quietly that he was unsure if he had even heard you. Daryl pulled off you slowly holding your shoulders. He flashed a confused look at you and then you opened your mouth. Repeating it again, but louder so he knew it was real. 
His rough hand moved to the back of your head as he pulled you into himself this time. “Never thought I’d hear ya speak, let alone say tha’,” A light chuckle left his lips as his grasp around you had tightened. 
“Love ya too.”
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just gotta say, s1-s2 daryl always has my heart omg
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clanwarrior-tumbly ¡ 6 months ago
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oooh 70 on the prompts list with shane would be so angstyyyyy plz i need to see ur thoughts on this -galaxy
This one's got a little kick to it ough
70) "After everything we've been through, you still don't think that I love you?"
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"Honey..wh..what is this?"
"Can't you read? God, and I thought Alex was the only illiterate man in town-"
"I know what it says! But..I don't understand. Did I do something wrong?"
"Besides being a leech on my income for the past year and not doing a damn thing to make up for it....no."
"..are you crazy? I HAVE been doing my part! Just..take these back to Lewis and tell him you changed your mind. I'm not signing them."
"I don't need your signature. Just mine is enough to finalize it. I've already gotten everything packed for you..since you're too goddamn lazy to do it yourself."
"....what?" Tears stung Shane's eyes as he shakily set the stack of papers on the table, his vision blurring. He stared at you, seeing not an ounce of remorse on your face..but instead pure hatred. "Why would you do this behind my back? I-I thought...you-"
"What? You thought I loved you? Hah." The brief laugh that left your lips was cold. "Who could love a messed-up lowlife like you, Shane? I have a farm to take care of, a community center to restore..I can't have you slowing me down. It was a fun little fling, but now you bore me. I gotta get serious about my work."
"That's...all I was to you? A "fling"?!" A hurtful scowl formed on his face, hands shaking. "What about everything we've-?!"
"I only pitied you. And y'know, if I didn't care about Jas growing up without a father figure..I would've left you in the forest that night. I only stayed and married you to make them happy. But you blew your chance to get your act together..they're gonna be so disappointed in you."
As much as he wanted to respond with a snarky "I didn't know there was a time limit"...he was frozen on the spot, unable to say anything.
What could he say?
This was all so sudden...and just when he thought you two were doing so well and he was starting to have a genuinely positive outlook on life..
He made the horrid mistake of checking the mailbox and finding the dreaded papers.
"I'll say this was 50,000 gold well-spent." You grabbed the papers off the table, looking at the broken man before holding out your hand. "Give me that necklace. I'm gonna sell it."
"No..." Shane shook his head and clutched the mermaid pendant, tears streaking his face as he backed into the corner. "I...I-I'm so sorry, I'll try to be better! Just tell me what I can fix, a-and I'll-!!"
Suddenly you pulled out a dagger and swiped at him, causing him to flinch and shield himself, eyes squeezing shut in anticipation-
Yet he wasn't injured, but when he saw his pendant in your hands now...he felt as though you actually twisted that dagger deep into his heart.
He collapsed to his knees, devastated as you sheathed your weapon and pocketed the amulet you once tied around his neck at your wedding.
By your hands, you two were bonded in matrimony...
And by your hands, that bond was severed.
"There's nothing to talk about. I'm sick of pretending that I care for some lazy ungrateful fuck. Goodbye, Shane."
And with that, you stormed out of the house..and he was left there on the floor, his sobs filling the silence in the now empty cabin.
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It was already late when you returned from your mining trip, and once you finished putting the spoils of your expedition into the shipping bin, you yawned and stretched.
The time was 1:10 AM...and your energy was super drained.
You figured Shane was already sound asleep. The idea of crawling into that cozy bed and cuddling with the man you loved had you eager to take off your boots and put your tools away.
However upon opening the door..you immediately caught a faint whiff of beer, and it left a sinking pit in your stomach.
He did bring home a six-pack case today, and he promised to have it in moderation.
But the kitchen trash showed clear evidence of recently-opened cans.
Four out of the six, in fact.
'Oh man..it happened again..'
You knew that he wasn't gonna be able to quit cold turkey just like that. It wasn't a habit he could flip off like a lightswitch, and that's a fact you've come to accept.
Although he had a few beers from time to time, it was nothing like before. And he would always let you know if he was having some....so to realize he drank over half the case tonight alone was alarming.
Why? You were only gone for a few hours..
You entered the bedroom, finding Shane still awake, hunched over on the bed's edge with his face in his hands. He looked completely torn up, and you've never seen him this bad since..
"Shane, sweetheart?"
Startled, he looked up at you, revealing his eyes to be puffy and red from crying. "O-Oh..hi. You..y-you came back?" He hoarsely asked.
"Of course I did..without having to visit Harvey, thank god." You walked over and sat beside him, frowning. "But more importantly are you okay? What's wrong?"
He tried to respond, but the memories of that nightmare made him physically incapable of doing so...and fresh tears welled in his eyes.
A choked sob came out, and as quickly as he tried covering it up--it failed as similar heartbreaking noises followed.
You didn't waste any time pulling him into a hug.
Leaning against you, he sobbed into your neck, soaking the collar of your shirt in tears. But you just hushed him and rubbed his back. He didn't smell too heavily of beer, although it made you wonder what happened tonight that was bad enough to make him relapse.
Was it...you?
Was you being away stressing him out?
Did he think you wouldn't come back-
"[Y/n]...you sure you..really love me? And all of this isn't...a-a joke?" He hiccupped softly.
Those questions made your heart sink, and you briefly pulled away to gaze at him in sadness. You knew he was still struggling with his self-confidence and self-image, often comparing himself to a "squishy bag of flesh" and feeling "too old", but for him to doubt your love?
Even after talking him off a cliff?
Even after going to the gridball game where you shared that first kiss?
Even after giving him the bouquet and mermaid pendant?
"After everything we've been through, you still don't think that I love you?" You asked softly, not with anger, but with worry.
"Just look at me, and look at every other guy in this town. You could'a had a doctor, someone who can still play gridball, a writer who lives by the sea...even that emo guy seems cool. But you chose me..."
With a sniffle, he clutched the mermaid pendant with trembling fingers. "...this pathetic..l-lowlife who doesn't do shit on this farm. I swear I'd change and get my act together, but I'm letting you down again...j-just like everyone else. And I'm so sorry...I'm such a failure." He sobbed harder.
"Wha..that's nonsense. You do more for me and this farm than you could possibly know." You cupped his face, feeling his cheeks grow wet with fresh tears. "You feed the animals, you water any crops my sprinklers could've missed...and those pepper poppers you give me help keep my energy up in the mines so I can come home safely."
"But..I can't even microwave them right." He whined. "I wanna have the energy to cook like you do-"
"What do you mean?" You frowned. "Last week, you made me a killer omelet when I went to bed angry over a Pepper Rex burning my favorite cardigan."
Shane blinked, searching his foggy brain for that memory, before it dawned on him that he actually DID wake up extra early to surprise you with an omelet he cooked on the stove. Made from Charlie's eggs, of course.
"Ah, that's right..well...I guess I'm good at some things.." He sniffled, slowly calming down.
You chuckled softly, thumbing away the rest of his tears, your fingers brushing over his scruff. He recently shaved it, but it grew back rather quickly--like a crop infused with deluxe growth fertilizer.
"You're good at being my partner, and keeping me company after a long day." You kissed him in the lips. "I love you, Shane. Nothing will change that, even if you have relapses."
"I love you, too..and 'm sorry. I just had this really bad nightmare, and I couldn't fight the urge tonight."
"I understand, I'm not angry." Bringing him back into a hug, you sighed as he squeezed you tightly. "Did you wanna talk about it? I know it's late but..I'm sure it'll help us both."
"...you promise not to laugh?"
"I promise."
"I..had a nightmare you divorced me."
"Huh..really?"
"Yeah, you filed the papers behind my back and said some...pretty hurtful stuff, like how it's "the best 50,000 gold you've ever spent", how what we had was just "a fling", and...how I'm leeching off of you." The longer he went on, the more he struggled to swallow back further tears. "And..you took the pendant back by force. With that dagger you always keep on you."
"....."
"I-It's stupid, but it...just felt so real. And when I woke up and you didn't come back from the mines yet, I thought maybe..it actually happened."
"Shane." You shook your head, leaning back again to bring his face into your hands. "No way would I EVER put that much gold towards something that stupid. This farmwork..it's so much to one person to handle, and I'm forever grateful you're here to help me. You're doing your best, and that's all I could ever ask for."
"Thank you.." He nodded, finally realizing that what he dreamed was nothing more than a ridiculous nightmare.
You smiled and kissed him again, making this one last a bit longer before you pulled away. "I'll get you some water, okay? I don't want my baby to have a hangover in the morning."
Shane sheepishly returned the smile, allowing you to get up and go to the kitchen, while he got comfortable in bed and patiently waited for your return. His hand went to the pendant on his chest, relieved it was still there.
Even though you were probably dead-tired from the mines..you still took the time to care for him when he hit another low. You didn't see him as a chore or a leech on your life.
You saw him as your husband, your soulmate..someone you were willing to love through thick and thin even when some days were harder than others.
Of course, his depression might tell him otherwise, and manifest those insecurities into nightmares.
But you'll still be here for him no matter what.
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patheticlittlemen ¡ 1 year ago
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i loved ur testosterone post! its v nice to see more trans reader posts :] can i request one with sebastian, alex, and haley?
HOW SDV BACHELORS REACT TO TESTOSTERONE CHANGES PT 2
A/N: Sorry this took so long! Super busy with work and class but here ya go :3 (Once again, mostly based off my experiences on testosterone and a bit NSFW)
ALEX
General- A little jealous of some changes but excited to help you experience what it's like being a man.
Body hair
The cold of winter is finally gone, and it’s time to plant new seeds for the spring. Now that it’s warmed up a bit, you decide to wear shorts instead of your usual jeans. When you walk into the kitchen you see Alex.
“Hey, babe!” He calls out. He walks over to you, picks you up, and places you on the counter. He kisses you and runs his hands along your thighs. Brows furrowing, and he pauses and looks down.
“Whoa! Have you always had this much leg hair?” He leans down, running a hand down your shins.
“It’s new. I’ve been wearing pants a lot, I guess you just never saw.” You say, and Alex places a gentle kiss on your thigh.
“It suits you.”
Facial hair
“Hey, testosterone makes you grow facial hair, right?” Alex asks one night.
“Yeah, that’s a pretty well-known side effect of it. Why?” You ask. Alex hesitates before answering.
“I just…if you grow a better beard than me, I’m gonna be so jealous.” He admits. You smile and grab his hand, squeezing it.
“I can’t make any promises, hun.”
“Fine, I can handle you being the more handsome one in this relationship as long as I’m still the strongest.”
Voice
Laughs every time your voice cracks then profusely apologizes. He loves your raspy morning voice and every time you speak in the morning he blushes.
Bottom growth
Impressed by it. Says, “damn, you grew that all yourself?” And then after you roll your eyes from the comment, he gives you mind-blowing head.
Libido
Horny motherfucker. Like Shane, loves to try anything with you and will give you whatever you want whenever you want.
Bonus: Muscle growth
“Alex, look! I’ve been working out lately…” You flex and Alex’s eyes go wide.
“Holy shit!” He walks over and squeezes your bicep. “Damn, you’re gonna be more jacked than me.”
“Don’t worry, hun. I’m basically on steroids right now, so I gain muscle more easily. I’m basically cheating.” You reassure him.
SEBASTIAN
General- Super supportive and helpful with everything. Does research to make sure you're going through your transition in a healthy way.
Body hair
He likes the hair on your arms and hands. Gushes about how masculine it makes you look.
Facial hair
You wake up to sunlight streaming in through your window. Sebastian’s arms are wrapped tightly around you and his face is buried in your neck.
“Good morning, love.” You murmur and Sebastian pulls back, smiling at you.
“Morning.” He leans in to kiss you, then nuzzles his cheek against yours. He quickly pulls back, a strange expression on his face. He brings his hand up to your face, brushing against your jawline.
“Scratchy. I guess I’ll have to get used to that, huh?” Sebastian grins. “It’ll look great on you.”
Voice
Makes you hum to him while he falls asleep. He gets so excited when your voice drops and tries hard not to laugh when your voice cracks.
Bottom growth
A little confused by it at first, but he wants to learn how to please you. Loves dirty talking about it (i.e. “you’re so hard for me,” “such a pretty cock”).
Libido
Surprisingly keeps up well with you. Of course, he’s not always in the mood, but he loves pleasuring you. He’s very excited to try new things (especially if you want to be dominant).
Bonus: Hunger
You walk into your cabin after a long day of working on the farm. Sebastian is standing in the kitchen, wearing a “kiss the cook” apron. He turns around as you walk in and smiles.
“Hello, darling.” He walks over and kisses you.
“What are you making?” You ask, looking at what’s on the stove.
“Oh! I’ve done some research on what foods are good for you while on testosterone and made some dinner. It’s got vegetables, a lot of protein, and some carbs. There’s some electrolyte water in the fridge for you, too. I know you’ve been super hungry lately, so I’m hoping this will fill you up!” Sebastian smiles.
“You did that for me? I love you so much.”
“Just making sure my husband is happy and healthy.”
HALEY
General- Happy to see you becoming the person you truly are.
Body hair
You’re sitting on the couch, legs across Haley’s lap. She’s absentmindedly stroking them when she pauses.
“Have you ever thought of waxing your legs?”
“No.” You wince at the thought. “That would hurt! Also, I’ve worked hard to grow this much hair.” 
“Just curious. You do have very hairy legs, though. Very manly”
Facial hair
“And then, one of my chickens fell into the pond! So that’s what I had going for me this morning.” You chuckle and look over to Haley, who smiles. Her brows furrow for a second and she leans in, staring intensely at your chin.
“What? Do I have something on my face?” You ask, and Haley reaches out and touches your chin, then happily squeals.
“You’re growing a beard!” She says happily.
“I mean, it’s just peach fuzz right now, but-” Haley cuts you off with a kiss.
Voice
Obsessed with your voice. Asks you random questions just to hear you speak and makes you talk to her as she’s falling asleep.
Bottom growth
Before testosterone, she was always good with her mouth and despite her lack of experience with bottom growth, she’s amazing with yours. Can always find the right spots and loves to hear you whimper when she hits them.
Libido
Not always able to keep up with you, but if she ever catches you jerking off she’ll offer a hand (or a mouth). She’s always glad to help you out and is willing to try new things for you.
Bonus: Senses changing
You’re working on a cake with Haley. Every now and then you two like to bake together, as a little date.
“Babe, is something wrong? I’m not fighting you to keep your fingers out of the icing like usual.” Haley teases.
“You’re right. I dunno, I guess I just don’t have as much of a sweet tooth now.” You say.
“More for me then!” Haley sticks her finger in the icing and licks it.
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rafestyles ¡ 5 years ago
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“oh, it was live?” | david dobrik
Requested? Yes: You are honestly the best writer I’ve come across! Please consider possibly writing an imagine about David dobrik that is friends to lovers where he takes you to a movie premiere but all the reporters assume ur his gf and it’s awkward but then later he admits to you he wishes you did come as his date
A/N: whoa look who’s back from the dead !! lmao. i never write for any of the requests i get anymore but i read this one and the idea wouldn’t leave my head. so everyone welcome back, me, dobrikstyles. (also, THANK U SO MUCH FOR THE SWEET COMPLIMENT)
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being best friends with david dobrik is not at all what it is hyped up to be among his fans.
yes, you get invited to parties.
& yes, you’ve been able to meet so many cool celebs.
but, the man (child) is actually a psychopath. (you and the rest of the vlog squad are still trying to convince shane dawson to do a series on proving that, but that’s not the point right now.)
in all honestly, he really was great. just sometimes he looked at you with his (sweet) puppy dog eyes and begged you to do something for him.
thankfully, today he was only trying to convince you to come to a movie premiere with him, not trying to convince you to shoot one of the boys with a paint ball gun (for the twentieth time).
“y/n.. please. no one else will go with me & jack says i can’t make any excuse to get out of this one” he groans, throwing his body back against the love sac to look at you upside down, a small pout forming on his lips.
“oh fuck off. good to know i’m your last option” you scoff, crossing your arms across your chest, as you sit on the couch.
he quickly sits up, shaking his head. “no, no- fuck. that’s not what i mean, y/n.”
you shake your head back at him, rolling your eyes teasingly, “mhm.”
“y/n. please come with me. i’ll buy you - fuck, i don’t know,” he pauses as he bites his lip in thought, “i don’t fucking know. whatever you want. just please come with me.”
you raise a single eyebrow at him, “hmm... anything?” you smirk.
he nods hesitantly, a look of fear on his face.
“okay. buy me a tesla.” you state.
he opens his mouth in shock, “y/n- c’mon. what - fuck. is that - god, y/n. is that really what you want? fuck, i gotta call ian. he’s not gonna be happy, he just helped me buy that fucking ferrari.”
you watch him panic and look for his phone, muttering to himself. you throw your head back in laughter after a few minutes, “fuck, david, no, i’m seriously kidding. i don’t want a fucking tesla, of course i’ll go with you. don’t you realize you don’t have to bribe me with money or gifts anymore? we’re friends, dave.”
he stops his frantic searching for his phone and glares up at you, “fuck you, y/n y/l/n.”
“ah, ah, ah,” you sing, shaking your finger at him, “i wouldn’t be talking to me like that after i just willingly decided to go to a movie premiere with you, mister david dobrik.”
he reluctantly shuts his mouth, holding back any other remarks he was planning on making at you. you smirk, “good. now, what do i need to wear?”
——
a couple of days later finds you at david’s house again, this time getting ready in natalie’s room for the movie premiere.
“and why can’t you go with him?” you sigh, putting the last finishing touches of makeup on your face.
you watch natalie roll her eyes in the mirror, “because, y/n. i’m getting over having the flu. i have explained this to you four times already.”
you sigh again, turning around and facing your friend on the bed, “i know, nat. it’s just - is it weird that i’m nervous?”
you nervously mess with some of your dress as you continue talking, “like - i know i’ve done this before, but the rest of you guys have been there, or at least someone else has gone. but this time it’s just him and i, and you know -“ you pause, groaning slightly.
“i know you have a huge, giant, massive crush on the literal psychopath in the next room?” she teases quietly.
you groan even louder, “shut the fuck up. if you weren’t sick, i would beat the shit out of you right now.” you joke, pushing at her leg.
“i’d like to see you try, y/n. but listen, friend to friend, you’re gonna be fine. like i’ve told you thousands of times - yet you still refuse to believe - he likes you too. i’m sure he’s just as nervous, if not more nervous than you right now. so seriously, you’re gonna be fine.”
you roll your eyes, “stop fucking saying that. he doesn’t like me. i would know.”
she rolls her eyes right back at you, mumbling under her breath, “yeah, you would think you would know.”
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you step into david’s tesla, sitting in the passenger seat, “thank god we’re not taking the ferrari, i couldn’t deal with my hair messing up right before we go in front of hundreds of photographers.” you joke, buckling up.
you finally turn around and make eye contact with david, who quickly turns his head down, a soft blush high on his cheek bones.
“you, um - you look good, y/n. really good.” he mumbles, starting the car.
“fuck off, david.” you joke, trying not to make it too evident in your voice that you’re actually freaking the fuck out inside.
“i guess you do too.” you say, almost too quietly.
he giggles softly, “fuck off, y/n.”
——
your nerves had finally started to wear off in the car with david, you actually almost forgot you were about to step out into a media frenzy, until you actually did, and the nerves hit you all over again.
you turned to david, panic evident in your eyes.
he rests his hand on the small of your back, leaning forward to whisper in your ear (it was very loud, okay.) “hey, you’re good. they’ll just take pictures and i have to do like one interview. it will be fine.”
you take a deep breath, making eye contact with him and nodding your head, “we’re good. it’s fine. i’m fine. why are we even still standing here? let’s go dobrik.” you ramble, grabbing his wrist and dragging him up to the (red) carpet.
he laughs (yes the cute vlog one), and follows after you.
his interview is with someone from ET (Entertainment Weekly). you stand off to the side, holding his camera and watching some celebrities walk past you, and glancing at david every now and then.
you weren’t paying much attention to the interview until you heard your name.
“so, david. i see you brought y/n here with you tonight, although she’s only in a few of your vlogs.” she says in a suggestive tone.
you continue to look the other way to not make it obvious you were listening in.
“well, i mean, everyone else was busy, so she was my last option.” he jokes, laughing at himself.
you try your very hardest not to roll your eyes at the boy and make a snarky comment back.
“no, no. i’m kidding. she’s great.” he says, not actually answering her question.
“oh c’mon, david. give us all the details! is she your new GF,” (who actually says the letters like that instead of the whole word anyways?), “she’s pretty cute and i know some fans have been speculating!! what’s the tea?!” she fishes.
you glance at david for a split second, noticing his hesitancy, “i mean - no. she’s not my girlfriend,” he pauses, “yeah - no. we’re not dating.”
your stomach burns with a million different types of emotions, and you can’t pinpoint what any of them actually are.
“that was a strange way to answer that, david dobrik,” the interviewer jokes.
he shrugs, glancing over at you to make sure you’re not listening, his famous grin over taking his face once again as he leans in to whisper to the interviewer, “how about you ask me that question again the next time i see you?” he suggests, causing your brain to short-circuit and your heart to start racing.
shit. you really had to pretend you didn’t hear him now. what the fuck does that even mean anyways?
you were too lost in your own thoughts to even realize that the man of all your inner turmoil was standing in front of you.
“earth to y/n. you good?” he waves his hand in front of your face, pouting when you slap it away.
“yes i’m good. how did that interview go anyways?” you ask, nonchalantly.
he shrugs, a fond smile on his face, “good. you ready to head in?” he nods his head towards the entrance.
you nod, “lead the way, dobrik.”
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after the premiere, you were sitting in david’s passenger seat again, heading home.
you finally fished your phone out of your dress pocket, unlocking it to (what felt like) a million and one notifications.
“what the fuck?” you mumble to yourself, thumbing through them.
“everything okay?” david asks from the drivers seat, glancing over towards you.
you begin reading all of the notifications, only to find one common thing among them: The Clip of David Talking About You in the Interview ™️. (which you had efficiently blocked from your memory, thank you very much).
you hadn’t realized david peeking over your shoulder until you heard him speak, “fuck. it was live?” he groans, and as you turn to look at him, you notice the blush rising on his cheeks.
“david dobrik. what the fuck is this?”
he bites his lip, parking the car, (which made you realize you had actually arrived at his house already).
“i may or may not have made the interviewer believe that i may or may not have a crush on you?” he says in a high-pitched tone. “and she may or may not have asked me if you were my girlfriend and i may or may not have suggested that she asked me the next time she saw me?”
you stared blankly at the boy you (somehow) had a giant crush on, “and why, david dobrik? would you ever do something like that?”
“because i may or may not have a giant, massive crush on you, and i may or may not have been planning on asking you on a date soon?” he tilts his head to the side, squeezing his eyes shut a little, a hopeful smile beginning to form on his face.
you don’t say anything for a minute, allowing the tension to get heavier. after finally deciding to break the tension, you say, “well, which one is it?”
he looks at you with a confused expression on his face.
“which one is it, dobrik? may or may not?”
a smile begins overtaking his face once again, as he glances down before looking up at you again, “may,” he whispers quietly. “i mean - i was - am. i am planning on asking you on a date soon, and by soon i mean, right now.”
you blush softly, grinning at him and nodding at him in encouragement to continue speaking.
“y/n y/l/n, will you please do me, david dobrik, the honor of going on a date with me?”
your grin (somehow) gets wider, and you nod at him once again, “fucking finally.” you cheer.
——
a couple of months later, finds you and david in (almost) the same scenario again, except this time, when the interviewer from ET asks if you and david are dating, you get to squeeze his hand, and nod along with him as he says,
“yes, after fuc - oops. after forever, yes, we finally are.”
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leilakisakabiri ¡ 6 years ago
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Panic Attacks (d.d)
plot: The reader has a panic attack and David helps her through it.
warning: dark thoughts, mentions of blood, anxiety, little fluff, supportive david
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You had promised David you would come with him, but now standing outside the building, the huge doors looming in front of you, you weren’t sure you could even step foot into the convention center. 
“Babe, you coming?” David questioned, motioning to the revolving doors in front you both. 
You gulped, swallowing your doubts, you got this you silently chanted to yourself as you tentatively took Davids hand and let him pull you inside. If you just stayed by Davids side you knew you’d be fine. 
Walking in through the creators entrance you were hit by the blast of cold air and the distant screaming of fans. You tried not to think about that though focusing on the fact that you were actually here. You were at Vidcon. 
You had come here years ago, when the convention had just started, but instead of being a creator, you were a fan, praying that you would meet the youtubers you loved. Back then you were obsessed with Shane Dawson and his slightly weird videos, and now you were lucky enough to consider him a friend. However being here, in the same convention center, it brought back too many memories for you, a majority of them unpleasant. You vividly remembered the incident that occurred here all those years ago, the blood, the tears and the screams. It was an accident really but the outcome was fatal. 
You shook your head trying to clear your thoughts, the only people who knew about what happened that night where the people there, nobody else. It was all kept quite so that the company, Vidcon, wouldn’t get sued. You hadn’t told David anything about it and you weren’t planning to. 
You kept walking beside David your hand gripping his tightly. Finally, you guys made it to a room labeled, “Vlog Squad.” You laughed at the name but pushed open the door regardless. Inside the room you were created by the rest of Davids friends and you quickly went down to sit next to Natalie. 
“Okay” David clapped grabbing everyones attention, “I just talked to the general manger and she said we had a panel in 5.” 
Everyone nodded and got up, heading out the door towards the stage. You followed behind chewing nervously on your bottom lip. You jumped when you felt someone grab your hand, turing you looked at David. He squeezed and you let out a small smile squeezing back. 
- 
The panel was just about to start and of course you needed to pee really bad, and you didn’t think you could hold it. Telling everyone to go on without you, you headed backstage to ask someone where the nearest bathroom was. 
Finally you found someone, “Hey, sorry to bother you, do you know where the nearest bathroom is?” 
They nodded pointing to the door behind you, “Ya. There’s one down the next hall but it’s not working right now, there’s another one past that door to your right.” 
You thanked them before making your way towards the gray door, pushing it open you were greeted by a empty hallway, confused you continued walking right the way they had told you to go. You saw another set of double doors marked “EXIT” hesitantly you pushed it open. Walking out you were greeted by the smell of popcorn and the screams of girls. 
Shit. 
You had just walked into the fan section. Immediately you turned around but the doors had locked behind you. Huffing you spun back around. 
Well you were already here, might as well go to the bathroom. 
Seeing the sign for the bathroom you made your way over and did your business. So far no one had noticed you, which may have been due to the fact that you rarely ever showed your face in David’s videos although you were a frequent guest on his podcast. 
Walking out of the bathroom you went looking for security or someone that worked at the convention to let you back into the creator section. Walking by some food carts and gift shops you abruptly came to halt when you saw the neon sign “life’s a party” and the tacky arrow pointing to the gift stores entrance. All the memories came flooding back from the night, it felt like you were reliving the moment again. 
Kneeling down beside her as blood gushed from the side of her head. The tears streaming down your face, sobs racking through your body. 
“God. please hold on. stay with me.” you cried watching her eyes flutter every few seconds. 
You could see that she was starting to lose consciousness, her eyes starting to glaze over a bit, her screams turing into small whimpers. 
You stumbled a bit as someone pushed past you, bring you back to reality, you looked down and realized your hands had started trembling, you suddenly found it hard to breathe, the lack of oxygen effecting your vision. You swayed back and forth a bit. It was all becoming too much, the loud voices, the smells, the screams pounding in your head. 
You backed into a wall sinking down to your knees, slightly hidden from view of others. You hated when you got like this, but you couldn’t control it. You felt so weak. 
You were silently crying now, tears cascading down your face, you hand whole body shaking as you curled into yourself. You couldn’t see anymore, the tears blurring your vision. God, all you could think about was her voice, the way she was leaned against you a pale hand coated with red as she held it against her head. Fuck.
You heard someone shouting your name in the distance but you were too far gone in your thoughts to care. You were slipping in and out of reality, your body pulling you into the darkness that was your mind and you were more than happy to oblige.  
Suddenly, there was a hand placed on your shoulder, the other lifting your chin up. David.
You looked at him, only barely being able to make out his fuzzy features. His eyebrows were furrowed, eyes wide and frantic, he looked terrified. 
“Y/N you need to breathe. Can you do that for me? Deep breathe in and out, see just like this.” David demonstrated taking deep breaths. 
You watched him, the rise and fall of his chest and slowly copied his actions. Oxygen starting to fill your lungs again. You repeated this a couple more times, him guiding you, finally your senses gradually began to come back. 
Your eyes flickered to his and you immediately broke down again, falling into him and letting him stroke your hair. 
“I- I can’t stop it. I’m so sorry...”
He hushed you, pulling you flush against his body to the point where he was cradling you in his arms, 
“it’s okay. It’s okay. Just breathe. You don’t have to be sorry for anything. I’ve got you.” 
He didn’t ask any questions but instead just sat there letting you cry on his shoulder offering you support in anyway he could and for that you were eternally grateful. 
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