#and I dont owe you an explanation or apology or ANYTHING

[llitchilitchi]

turning off anon, if you intend to interrogate me about joining projects for a fandom that I don't main and are upset that I am giving everyone a heads up that the contents of this blog will change heavily because of my current interests, just unfollow me and move on with your goddamn life

[gavisfanta]

UNUSUAL SURPRISE- GAVI

summary: after gavi left the spanish camp during the world cup some people get scared, but he returns with an unusual surprise.

warnings: shittalk?, not proofread

"Where's Gavi?" Pedri looked around the table after he found the empty chair which was Gavi's place.

"I don't know, ask Lucho." Ferran answered and Pedri immediately looked to their coach.

"He'll tell you himself." Enrique shortly answered and then went back to typing something on his ipad. Something specific about the spanish coach is that every day, he eats an apple for breakfast and drinks a cup of orange juice. The boys have never seen him eat anything else before lunch.

So after Luis had told the boys that Gavi was 100% gone and he's gonna tell them himself, Pedri wanted to call him. Yet it doesn't matter how many times they tried to call him, it always went to voicemail.

Gavi's phone was turned off and nobody knew what he was doing, Ferran was afriad that he might have gotten an injury or he's sick.

"He wouldn't have left then, we have a whole medical team here!" Ansu threw his hands in the aur as he stood up and made his way over to the table where all the flod was. He grabbed an apple and then went back to sit down.

"Well, the best we can do now is wait." Pedri shrugged his shoulders and zoned out. Ferran shook his head, they were obviously worried what happened to their teammate, but Pedri was right, if Gavi wasnt picking up, they had to wait.

"Hey Sergio did you hear that Gavi left camp?" The newsreporter in the tv said. The whole Brazil squad sitting infront of it, waiting for the game to begin in 20 minutes.

"Yes I did hear, but I sadly don't know why." The other guy named Sergio answered.

"Well fans are worried for their starkid, maybe he picked up an injury, it also may be something with his family. Footballers have done this before during an international tournament." The other guy began talking but Rodrygo shook his head as he leaned closer to Vini.

"Good that that shithole is gone, hm?" Rodrygo nudged Vini's shoulder as he laughed. Both Real Madrid players looked at eachother and smiled.

"No more Wonderkid for him." Vini answered and laughed, however he soon received a hit on his shoulder. As he turned to look around he saw Raphinha sitting behind him.

"I know you dont like him but there's no need to talk about him like that." Raphinha leaned forward and ltold Vinicius. He wanted to open his mouth again but decided not to, so instead he just turned around and looked at the tv.

Not even two days later as the Spanish team was sitting at breakfast, they heard the door open. Every member of the staff was at breakfast so everyone suddenly shut up and looked at the door. To their surprise it was nobody other than Gavi himself, a wide smile spread on his face.

"Hola." He smiled and then Enrique stood up and went to hug him. While he did that he whispered into his ear: "Congratulations."

Gavi just returned the smile and looked at everyone while his coach stood besides him.

"Well, I think Gavi owes everyone an apology and an explanation to why he disappeared so suddenly." Enrique said and everyone began clapping their hands. Gavi cleared his throat, he hated talking infront of so mamy people, especially when he saw the camera running in the opposite corner, but he decided to bite through it.

"First of all, I'm sorry I disappeared so quickly and that I didn't answer any of your phone calls. But I have a perfectly fine explanation." Gavi explained in a loud tone so that everyone could hear him. "I don't know if some of you guys have noticed, that you didn't see my Girlfriend in like 6 months," He stopped for a second and most people nodded their head. "That isn't because we broke up, thank god, but I'd like you to meet someone." Gavi said and then turned around to look at the door where you walked in, a newborn baby in your arms, his eyes closed and peacefully sleeping. Everyone gasped as they saw you stand next to your boyfriend, with his child in your arms. Gavi looked at his son proudly and then put his finger up to his mouth. "He's sleeping." He said just loud enough.

Many of his teammates faces were covered in huge smiles and they just looked at the baby in your arms. You then looked at Pedri and saw him smiling while both of his hands are pressed against his cheeks, then you turned to Gavi again.

"I'll go back now, you talk to them."

"Okay, I'll go to the hospital after we're done eating." Gavi explained to you and you nodded your head. You turmed around one time to everyone and waved your head with a huge grin on your face.

Most of them waved back, they waited until the door closed until everyone jumped up and ran towards Gavi.

Gavi laughed as everyonenwent over to him and congratulated him.

"Hermano this is insane!" Pedri smiled as he shook Gavi's shoulders back and fourth.

"I know, I know." Gavi answered with a smile and hugged Pedri.

"How did you keep this a secret?" Ferran asked, everyone was still smiling, everyone was more than happy for Gavi.

"It was so hard." Gavi laughed out as he shook his head. "She didn't wanna leave the house after like 5 months of pregnancy cause she was scared someone's gonna see her." He laughed and Pedri couldn't help but smile too.

"How is she even on her feet just two days after giving birth?" Ferran asked, simply amazed by how fast you recovered.

"Bro I have no idea, I told her to stay a day more but she wanted to show him to you guys." Gavi explained further.

"What's his name?" Morata asked and looked at the midfielder.

"Can't tell you guys yet." Gavi shrugged his shoulders and then began walking backwards.

Many of his teammates told him to stay but he went outside where his dad was waiting for him together with his sister.

"How did it go?" His dad asked and patted his sons shoulder. Gavi smile couldn't have been wiped off of his face by anything.

"It went amazing," Gavi said and looked around before shifting his gaze back to his father. "Where is she?" Gavi asked after he noticed that you werent around.

"She went to the car to feed him, don't worry, she's fine." Aurora calmed her brother and he nodded his head while pulling out his phone for a second.

"The posts will go online in 4 minutes." Gavi mumbled under his breath. There were posts scheduled for his account, revealing that you gave birth to your child. Of course you and Gavi have talked about announcing it, you both thought it was the right thing to do before someone sees you two walking around with a child.

But after all of you had arrived at the hotel you were staying in, Gavi went to your room with you.

While he held his child in his arms, shaking him to sleep, he looked at you with a smile. "I'm so proud of you." Gavi mumbled, but just as you would've gotten time to respond there was a knock on the door.

"My god why is that child sleeping in your arms? Here, I'll take care of him." Gavi's mother hurried over to her son, taking her grandchild out of his arms and leaving the room. You smiled a little as you watched her close the door again.

"She's-" Gavi scoffed while shaking his head, he smiled as he walked closer to you and kissed your temple. "But I'm so proud of you amor."

"Why are you proud?" You laughed out and ran your hand along his jaw, caressing his soft skin.

"You're not normal, why are you walking around two days after the delivery. You shouldn't be on your feet, your body needs to rest." Gavi said and grabbed your hand as he walked you over to the bed.

"No, Gavi I'm fine-" You began but he cut you off before you could've finished your sentence.

"No you go back to sleep now." He mumbled and then kneeled down besides you while kissing your cheek.

"I love you" You mumbled while running your hamd through his hair.

"I love you more." He answered with a smile on his face.

[slytherinshua]

HIT RESET

genre. fluff. comfort. warnings. jihoon had a bad day. he cuts his finger with a knife as well. food. kissing. not proofread. pairing. jihoon x reader. wc. 896. request. requested by 🌱 anon: for tws fluff with any of the 06's (an idea is: (dont have to write this specifically) maybe coming home after a long day? could be them or reader). a/n. went with jihoon for this :( he's so soft and sweet and lovely and omg i just wanna kiss his forehead and put him in my pocket.

“Ow! Darnit…” Jihoon held his hand up, examining the fresh cut on his finger with a wince. Why was everything going wrong today? He was late to work, brain foggy and frazzled the entire day. Usually he was good at picking up choreo quickly, but everything felt off that day. He was falling behind and getting tired so fast. He was mentally and physically exhausted by now, and hadn’t eaten anything since lunch at the company. Throwing together fried rice should’ve been an easy task. He’s not even sure how he managed to cut his finger while chopping veggies.

He rinsed out the wound, debating whether he should just give up on food altogether. You wouldn’t be happy about that, though. That was the other thing. You hadn’t been responding to his messages all day and he had no idea where you were. It was already getting late, but you still weren’t home. He had never realized how lonely the dorm felt when you weren’t there.

Just as he was searching through the cabinets for a box of bandaids, like magic, he heard the door open. He didn’t have high expectations. Given the luck today, he was almost 90% expecting it to be Dohoon walking through the door. But, when he peeked his head out of the bathroom door, he saw your face.

It was frankly incredible how quickly you made everything seem okay. The frustrating day was forgotten in an instant, and the cut on his finger was the last of his concerns. The only thing Jihoon cared about was falling into your arms as soon as possible.

You shared the sentiment, both of you pulling tight into a hug as soon as you dropped your bag. Jihoon’s scent relaxed your senses immediately as you buried your head into his hoodie. Placing a kiss to his neck as you pulled apart from the embrace, you smiled up at him.

“Missed you.” You mumbled, brushing aside some of his hair, thumb stroking over his cheek. He merely nodded and pulled you back into his arms with a long sigh.

“I’m so tired.” He whined into the crook of your neck, his arms holding you so tight that it was impossible to let go.

“Did you eat yet? I got takeout but it might be a bit cold… I’m sorry I took so long to get home, there was some delay—” Your explanation was cut off before you could finish, by Jihoon’s lips.

His kiss was desperate, hours of frustration bubbling down had finally cooled and then burst into overwhelming affection instead. He couldn’t contain it, he just loved you. How you always knew exactly what he needed, always apologized even when things weren’t in your control, and how you were always looking out for him. You always made everything better in a way no one else could. Jihoon knew he would’ve cried if you had talked on for any longer, so he took quicker action to stop you from making him fall any deeper in love than he already was. He was down bad, but maybe being down even worse wasn’t such a terrible thing.

You giggled when Jihoon pulled away, cupping his cheeks and pinching them softly. You warmed up the food that had gotten cold on the bus ride as Jihoon watched you from the corner of the kitchen like a little boy watching a magic show. You cleaned up the vegetables he had left out, washed the cutting board and knife, and got out bowls for both of you all at the speed of light.

“Did you cut your finger on the knife?” You asked, noticing the bandaid on his finger as you set down the bowls of food. He nodded, and you shook your head fondly, “I told you that you shouldn’t try to cook while your head isn’t clear…” 

“Why didn’t you text me today?” Jihoon pouted, feeling a lot better now that he was eating and you were right next to him. The entire day there had been this empty dull ache from your absence, and he hadn’t been able to get the feeling out of his head.

“I forgot to charge my phone last night. It was dead the whole day.” You cleared up, an apologetic smile on your face. “I promise it won’t happen again.”

“Good. I missed you terribly and Youngjae wouldn’t stop making fun of me for it. He said I was ridiculously in love with you... which is definitely true.”

“I hope I made up for it. I love you too… just in case you weren’t sure.” You looked up at the ceiling, suddenly feeling a little shy at your confession. It had been a while since you started dating Jihoon, of course. But he had always been so open with his feelings, while it took some courage for you to share how you felt. Acts of service was always your preferred love language, and Jihoon knew this well. He always felt loved by you, but every so often, it felt really nice to hear you say it.

“You made up for it completely.” He assured you, biting back a smile at just how cute you were. Despite the rocky starts to the day, Jihoon’s mind was in complete bliss by the time he went to bed. He was more in love than ever before.

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[wszczebrzyszynie]

I did follow for hermitcraft, but your art style is really lovely and I’ve really enjoyed your worldbuilding for ocs and other art as well :) losing interest just happens, you absolutely don’t owe an explanation or apology for just not wanting to make art of it anymore

i dont want it to feel like an apology because it isnt one. firmly believe i dont owe anyone anything in regards of creating art. but i do think its good to inform people what to expect of me in the future, considering just how much new people it brought to my profile

thank you very much for the kind words ... lots of people reached out to me with this. its very much not a big thing and i dont want people to think this change makes me feel bad or sorry. but the support is not overlooked and i do appreciate it lots

[matthewmurdockswife]

My Story <3

Tw: suicide,Sh,self-hate

Hey yall so I never really talk about my personal life on here but i feel like I owe everyone an explanation.

Within the past two years I have recovered from SH, and an attempted suicide, it was half ass but it was still an attempt. I was playing fast and loose with my life because I thought there was nothing left of it. I hated myself and how I looked, How I always felt so depressed the way my relationships with friends and family always seemed to fall apart but most of all I hated myself.

Im not sure exactly when it happened but about one year ago I met someone. She had similar interests as me and understood me on a personal level and even though we had lived completely different experiences she was there for me. We started talking more and more and I found out she lived Hours away from me in a completely different country, but I accepted our distance and created our connection. She helped me see that my life was very much so worth living. This girl was harley @dwntwn-strnlo

About four months later the only friends I was talking with in person blew up on me with fake excuses about why we shouldnt be friends, one had stolen some of my clothes as well as some of my money. It hurt more not because they left me but because I trusted them and they betrayed me, They left me out to dry and I reconnected with an old friend from middle school, M.

M helped me to realize that my emotional connection to people isnt a downfall but my strong suit. My intense passion love and energy I give to the world only makes me more beautiful not more weak.

Then M introduced me to S. And S is the most kind and gentle and loving people ive ever met. She reflected me in every sense of my love for others. S helped me to realize that just because someone else doesnt agree doesnt mean I cant formulate and stand up for my own opinions.

The three of us became very close and talked nearly everyday. Im not sure exactly when or why, but one day I decided to pull out my phone and film one of our lunches. Me,M and S all really hit it off we loved being in front of the camera and it almost just felt like the camera wasnt even there.

So we kept filming and that night I went home to edit our very first video and I posted it on an old youtube channel. I touched it up and added pretty colours and tried to make it more asethetic and I stayed up all night working on that first video.

And it got 13 views. And a hate comment. And then youtube took it down. But we didnt care. We kept hussling and we never stopped filming and i havent lost passion in the past half year weve been filming, I even branched off to start my own youtube channel because I love it so much.

I know I dont share much with you all and you dont even know my name, but I felt that where I was today was something i needed to share. My group doesnt have very many subscribers and im okay with that as long as it means I get to keep doing something I love.

so unfortunately I have been putting a lot less time and a LOT less effort into my writing. Im in my senior year of highschool and its all or nothing. I really want to do youtube as a career but i understand the sucsess rate is low, I have a backup plan but ill never be as happy as I am when im in front of the camera filming one of our youtube videos.

So I wanted to apologize to those of you who have been waiting for me to post but its very unlikely that i will be posting many or frequent fics anymore im not saying Im stopping im just slowing down. Its been a rough couple of years but ive finally found something I can pour my heart into. I hope yall understand I love yall so much seriously youve given me so much support<3

Love,

matthewmurdockswife <3

Please never hesitate to talk to me about anything through my inbox or my dms <3

@dwntwn-strnlo @fenoy7 @sturnioloshacker @lvrsparadise @querenciasturniolo

[belovedstarrs]

do you even care?! part two

• pairing : geto x fem!reader

• tags : mentions of drinking, talks about verbal fighting, (i dont know anymore.)

• a/n : i wanted to finish this tonight (tech. morning) but i got caught up playing valo w a new friend i made. 7am slump hitting hard and i just wanna post this and sleep.

• w/c : 783

you found yourself at utahimes place for the night. you were in her spare bedroom but still couldnt sleep no matter how comfortable you were, you couldnt get that fight off your mind. could you have been more mature about it?

the next morning

you felt like you barely got any sleep. you needed to go back to your house and pick up a fresh uniform from your closet. the only problem was could you face geto? of course not, you didnt wanna be the first to say anything. you decided to still go anyways cause you cant go to jujutsu high wearing some sweats and a t-shirt.

you found yourself walking to you and getos shared apartment and youre pulling out the keys from your pocket. you were absolutely praying geto wasnt in there. when you opened the door you found getos keys & shoes to be gone. you quietly whispered to yourself "yes!" as you close the front door and walk to your shared bedroom.

you quickly showered and grabbed your uniform as you left the house. you were gonna be a little late but youre sure the second-years wouldnt mind you being a couple minutes late, right?

you quickly ran into your class as you apologized for being late. you looked at your schedule and sighed out of relief as you saw it was gonna be a easy day. maki and panda had a mission together, inumaki had a mission, and okkotsu was overseas so he wasnt here. you let everyone leave as you relaxed a little. still thinking about what happened last night.

you left your classroom to go to the teachers lounge to grab a cup of coffee. you seriously need that right now, but as you walked out your classroom you saw him, geto. you had to build up the courage real quick to walk past him. you two shared glances as you bumped shoulders in the hall and once you passed him you felt embarrassment wash over you.

once you grabbed your coffee you sat at the couch in the teachers lounge on your phone scrolling on instagram. god, you felt jealous of all these girls finding happy relationships.

after work

you found yourself walking up to your shared apartment again. youre planning to grab some of your things so you can stay at utahimes place. when you opened the door you found geto sitting at the table and he looked like he was in distress. his face lit up when he saw you.

"y/n, i was hoping you would stop by. may we talk some things over at a nice dinner tonight?" you looked at him confused. where was he getting all this? "pardon?" you said. geto responded with "i dont need to repeat myself, but ill say it anyways. we are going out to dinner tonight to talk things over. i would dress nicely."

you felt confused, but you obliged. you went to your shared bathroom and got yourself ready. you put on a dark green tight dress and dark green heels to match. geto was wearing a dress shirt and a tie with some nicer pants. "why are we dressing so nicely?" you asked. all geto responded with was "cant we dress nice for a nicer restaurant?" you sighed at his answer.

you two arrived at the restaurant and you ordered some red wine. once the waiter left you spoke up first. geto seemed nervous. "so, what do you have to say for yourself. i believe im owed a explanation." geto sighed as he stood up and reached for his pocket then pulled out a ring box.

y/n l/n, will you marry me? "i promise ill explain after." you looked at him with shock, tears threatening to flow from your eyes. did geto truly love you? have you just been overthinking everything? "yes, yes suguru ill marry you!" you crash into his lips passionately and after he puts the ring on your finger. it fits perfectly. how did he ever get your ring size?

"y/n im sorry for anything ive made you feel over the last couple of months.." ive been planning this exact day out for about 3 months and right before it happens you blew up on me. its true, i had been drinking but it mostly was from the stress of planning. i just got overwhelmed was all. it was true though what we both said yesterday. my phone died and i got a new mission, but i finished up and started drinking. im sorry, i shouldve just gone home." tears burst out from your eyes your relived geto does care for you and your relationship.

made by @belovedstarrs do not copy or use in any way without permission

(thanks kal for the idea to make him propose i was very stuck on what to do)

[spaceyflowers]

hi!! im still alive!! + updates on this blog

first: i would like to apologize for disappearing without a word for like. nearly a year. im terribly sorry for any worry i've caused T_T;;

honestly i have no good excuse for disappearing like i did especially without reason (not that im obligated to let everyone know my business but i did have a "i wont randomly disappear!" sentiment and yet... here i am) but in a nutshell, its basically: fandom shifts, college, and guilt.

if you want to know about the future of this blog fandom wise;

still going to be a lookism/viral hit blog (havent caught up yet) but most likely wont be as active in the fandom anymore;;; thinking of sticking as a lookism blog until that series ends but who knows when it will so i might eventually just change fandoms 😭

please dont feel bad about unfollowing or anything!! curate what u wanna see with who u follow, i take no personal offense, even if we've been long time mutuals!! ><

fandom shifts will probably be more common; i have this weird thing where i cant focus on multiple interests or i get stressed;; so i get obsessed with one thing for months/years but then once i lose interest and move on, its likely i wont return to it unless something triggers it. thats why i dont think "multifandom" fits me, i'll always be fandom focused, its just the fandom focus changes 😭

p.s. sorry if im being dramatic about this (i feel like a youtuber who got canceled writing an apology 😭😭) i just feel like i owe yall an explanation </3

if you're curious about me, i've left that under the cut;

got into a new interest which made me stop looking at lookism/viral hit stuff -> knowing my blogs are lookism focused, i decided to take a "break"

couldnt get myself back into lookism after my "break" ended -> couldnt get myself back on tumblr

started to feel guilty because i havent been active in a long while

senior year ending, school takes my priorities -> summer break comes, i swear i'll apologize on tumblr but guilt eats away at me and then i have to do college stuff

become a little active on tiktok, start feeling more guilty because im active there but not on tumblr

college begins, get busy with college stuff -> during breaks, swear i'll apologize on tumblr pt 2 but the guilt has piled up so much it feels like the equivalent of when a person cant get themself to reopen their animal crossing new leaf game because they havent touched it in a long time

first college semester ends, winter break starts -> finally convince myself to get over it and start typing all this up

once again im really sorry T_T i was not made for the content creator life bc i cant stay active for shit + i feel so bad gaining followers for one thing but once i move on from that one thing, it feels like im disappointing a lot of ppl even tho i know i dont owe strangers on the internet anything- im just repeating myself now but yknow

oh and for anyone curious: my current fandom is dmc <3

[golbrocklovely]

Idk if they are doing it on purpose, but if colby doesnr want us to talk about his life then why he comments these things on her tiktok post? Like bro. He can say they are together or something because its obvious, if not? fling i guess but still. looks like they have a relationship. sometimes i just dont understand things

i’m gonna try not to sound too bitchy to you, but after the morning i’ve had with this fandom i’ve about had it lol

so my apologies in advance…

i think it’s best to remember that we aren’t owed an explanation about anything snc do, besides content related. anything with their personal lives, we don’t need to know why they do what they do. and that includes leaving comments on girl’s tiktoks that they are seeing.

colby doesn’t have to tell us why or what’s happening with him and m. and even tho he does public things, ie comment and like, that doesn’t mean he’s not allowed to ask for privacy. privacy doesn’t mean he posts nothing. it just means this fandom isn’t supposed to know everything and shouldn’t dig or harass him to know so. it’s accepting what info he does give us and just… moving on with our day.

we are not besties with him. we do not know him that well. we are not meant to know everything about him and his dating life. if he wants to share certain thing but not others, so be it. it’s not much more complicated than that.

this fandom and it’s tendency to jump to conclusion and freak out are gonna cause both boys to leave us in the dark. we won’t find out they have a significant other until they’re married with kids. they’re gonna push us away, and we’ll deserve it.

[castor-oil001]

[ PERSONAL GUIDELINES ]

Again, this wont be consistent, so please be patient

I can refuse any request I want, I dont really owe an explanation, but it’s either because I found it disrespectful, I dont have the ability to do that, or I cant because of personal reasons. I may have to delay too..

I will block anyone if they are disrespectful, so be mindful.

[ REQUEST RULES ]

My main intention with this blog is writing, so requests are always appreciated!

Please give the rules a quick read <3

NO NSFW. I AM A MINOR. Also no extremely suggestive stuff, romantic gestures and kissing n stuff I dont mind!

I can try angst, but vvv picky with the scenarios. May take longer because tears make it hard to see, man.. 😔👍

Creepy/ disturbing scenarios are totally fine, yandere stuff is cool too

Specify what you want the writing to be, or it will be headcanons by default (see list below)

READER WILL ALWAYS BE GN with the exception of M!reader if requests or platonic relationships. Simply because I feel very uncomfy writing female romantic pov.. apologies. Also will always be second person pov, again just another writing preference.

Please kept character limit at 5 for headcanons and 1 for one-shots. Unless for like “all (vice)housewardens/1st/2nd/3rd years”.

Also I don’t really write for staff unless a strict platonic relationship.

I don’t necessarily have a set amount of asks at one time, but if there’s a bunch I’ll prolly close them temporarily

[ THINGS I WILL/ WONT WRITE ]

There are always exceptions so ask if necessary, but these are what I’ll usually write. Also some headcanons might interest me enough for me to draw!

✅

fluff

angst

comfort

headcanons

one-shots

x-reader

m!reader/gn!reader

platonic relationships (friends, siblings/parents, reader can be either) ❤️

romantic relationships

scenarios

shitposts/incorrect quotes based off a sentence or concept in an ask

❌

NSFW/smut/suggestive

f!reader

character x character or oc x character

certain angst-y prompts ex. cheating, hanahaki, hurt no comfort

anything I say no to

[ CHARACTERS I WONT WRITE ]

I write for every character in each of these fandoms EXCEPT:

[ BSD ] mori ougai (for obvious reasons)

[JJK] aoi todo (makes me uncomfy), panda (ONLY PLATONIC FRIENDS), mei mei (uncomfyyy), ui ui (uncomfy 😭), no curses (except mahito and choso!!)

[TWST] ortho (unless in a sibling/friend relationship), sebek (don’t completely understand personality yet), grim by himself (cool if side character 👍), trein + vargas (no, not even platonic), any family members

IF YOU DONT UNDERSTAND SOMETHING (or if I need to clarify) OR ARENT SURE IF A REQUEST IS OKAY, FEEL FREE TO ASK BEFORE SENDING IT IN!

[ectology]

I have a genuine question, why didn’t you just message the artist from the beginning? Like I understand where your comment came from but I feel like fandom is supposed to be fun and if you genuinely felt a micro aggression from their art you could’ve educated them. The reason people are hating is because of how you personally handled the situation from doubling down to not taking peoples criticisms seriously. I think if you weren’t interested in talking to the artist why bother posting the art? Maybe make a text post to gripe instead of including the actual art. You’re blog is your own and you have a right to your opinion on your own blog and yes their art was cringe (although v cute style!) BUT it’s better to be cringe than mean. And I say this as a follower of your art and not a hater but some of the twitter replies you left were mean and unnecessary. I think that you got dog piled enough and don’t deserve all this negative attention but I think that people are struggling to see your remorse in the situation because you keep replying and restating your og opinions. Anyways I hope this dies out for both you and the other artist, seeing all this hate can’t be good for y’all’s mental health.

i didn't message the artist from the beginning because my comment wasn't a callout post. there was nothing wrong with the art, it wasn't a microaggression or problematic or whatever. i said a pretty mild thing about their art on my own twitter specifically so the artist WOULDN'T see it because it wasnt constructive criticism, it was literally just me noting that i didn't like something. going to the artist and being like "HEY I DON'T LIKE THIS THING" would have been pretty stupid and pointless, which is why i made a separate post. but fsr this was taken as condemnation of the art/artist or me calling them evil or something?? i dont get why my opinion on it even mattered or why that shit blew up the way it did

and no im not remorseful about what i said, i didnt say anything wrong. my regret is that by posting publicly and having that many people share it, my post got around to the artist as well which i definitely didn't intend. ive since deleted the tweet and spoken to them to apologize and clear up any hard feelings. so yeah lesson learned, if i ever have a thought about anything i should just shut the fuck up or talk about it privately. but for real ....like........... it is Not that serious. i didn't say anything particularly mean or hurtful. there are a ton of ppl who directly messaged and qrt'd the art saying way worse shit than i did so idk why im the one who got dogpiled like that lmao.

i think if i actually said something insulting or genuinely rude id be happy to apologize for it or wouldnt have said it in the first place. but yeah no shit i was being mean to the hundreds of people severely overreacting in my replies lol. i dont think i really owe anyone an explanation either other than the og artist, since they're the one actually affected by the situation, and i've already done that. so im moving on. this is a non-issue

[dre6ming]

Another fan here

I agree with your point of view but you could have handled it in a gracious way rather than reposting comments that are literally stating they hate that reader.

I understand that you dont owe any of us anything but you could have just stated that directly rather than ganging up on that reader.

I’m sorry, I didn’t think any of what I posted was going to direct hate towards that reader.

I want my followers to feel free to tell me what upsets them.

I received an anon about a reader being disappointed with me not posting, I thought the best course of action was to answer them and tell them why I couldn’t post. (If I were them I think I’d like an explanation too)

Maybe I went about it the wrong way, I apologize for it, please forgive me.

[man-squared]

And it really sucks because anyone who talks about the lesbophobia of it, is immediately badged a "non-lesbian" and then all the "real lesbians" don't have to listen to the critics because any critique of the lesbian community from an outside is automatically lesbophobic because "why are you in lesbians business? Go fuck with those queers, not us."

And I'm gonna probably prove my point, if this gets out to the specific group of lesbians that do this, by disclaiming that I am a lesbian (no, I don't owe any of you a detailed list of all my experiences and thoughts and actions to prove it either. I say I am one, so I am).

I've been on twitter during one of the waves of hatred towards mspec lesbians, trans lesbians, lesboys, he/him lesbians, (even ace and aro lesbians) etc. It literally goes likes this:

1. Someone sees an identity they dont know (or dont like), so they discuss their hatred.

2. The post either gains traction or the sentiment does. So now, there are posts about it from any queer person about whether X is valid or not. There are usually (nowadays) carrds involved.

3. Any person openly X on whatever social media app it is gets harassed, at least one time. Sometimes is a message (anon and not). Sometimes its a public post. Other times, it's a list (similar to that transandrophobia truther list).

4. Jokes, more harassment, and a possible reclamation, or understanding. The inevitable rolls of suicide bait.

5. A pause, stop, or shush of the hatred. Some haters may have changed their minds but there is no apologies coming from them. They act as if they had an ignorant opinion and were corrected and not as if they led mass harassment campaigns against innocent individuals who they eventually saw correct in their position.

Lesboys was under so much fire because gods forbid a lesbian ever be connected to boys in any way, shape, or form. Harassment of any lesbian who was a boy/man/masculine and their allies commenced. It was everywhere on twitter, as I imagined it was on other sites with high counts of queer communities. And after ignoring all the people who were politely (and sometimes not) explaining what a lesboy is, masculine lesbians who did not identify as lesboys and did not accept lesboys decided to "reclaim" the word to mean masculine lesbians who like the word boy, including transmasc lesbian -- as if it hadn't already meant that. And then, a sort of acceptance after the reclamation, or at least a shush of the hate, with no explanation or apology or anything. Just silence and sometimes a "uwu you're valid" from people who told you to kill yourself because you used a word they once didn't like.

There is also always a few comments like "why do gay men never get called out for their shit? Why is it always us lesbian women? Misogyny." Maybe there is some misogyny there, but that doesn't give you a pass to be shitty (coughcough queerphobic, homophobic, transphobic, misogynistic, lesbophobic, etc.) to others.

Disclaimer: if you read this as a jab against all lesbians or women, then I think you should just get off tumblr for a while. You're reading comprehension needs time off the "misinterpret everything" internet.

i don’t have eloquent words for this yet so if someone else does feel free to expand, but it’s like really really creepy how obsessed online queer spaces are with lesbians, policing lesbians’ identity, gatekeeping lesbianism, policing who lesbians can date, how lesbians can talk about themselves and their experiences, etc. in a way i have literally never seen applied to gay men. like sure there’s some discourse among and about gay men, but there is an entire subculture built solely around policing lesbian identity that leave a lot of sapphic spaces entirely uninhabitable to folks who don’t fit or their partners don’t fit the perfect white cis standard of lesbianism, because the vitriol people react with to anyone who threatens their Lesbian Standard is off the charts.

basically, if you’re a lesbian whose identity or experience doesn’t fit with the online white cis standard, you are stronger than any us marine.

[deadliestnat]

nah but anytime the writers create a conflict for layla/aisha and she doesn't act all nice yall are so quick to attack her

[fortislumen-a]

soft and friendly reminder that you're not an awful person if you can't be there all the time to talk to all your friends/mutuals/family even.    some of us are still living challenging days, some of us have jobs that are draining all of our energy or some others are just... not too good to fake a smile and pretend to be fine, and you shouldn't feel guilty for thinking about you before anyone else, nor do you need to constantly apologise for... having a damn life.    we're humans, not machines.    you HAVE the right to be around and not be replying to people.    and you, as the person who has this time in hands and are doing fairly better both emotionally and physically i would say, should not make anyone feel bad for being quiet.     should not guilt trip anyone and be dramatic saying 'oh maybe you hate me lol'.    some are living the same day after the other, sometimes we don't have anything new to talk about.    it's also a lovely time to remember this is a hobby, and those who truly care about you, should understand.    if someone makes a scene because you're not doing well to give them some attention (already a big red flag there buddy), then let them go.  you don't need this type of person with you.

[ectology]

I’m the anon that sent that ask about why you didn’t talk to the og artist. I just wanted to clarify since I didn’t make it obvi in the first ask but I meant that your replies towards people that were calling out the art reposting were sometimes mean and unnecessary. I think it was because you were already getting dog piled that you were on the offense but some of the tweets were just focusing on art reposting and it felt like you were getting upset at them for being right about that. Which you later apologized for but because the initial tweet was about atsv so a lot of the hate was all over the place lol. And tbh that’s where you kinda lost me cause art reposting can be the worst for artists, but people don’t understand they personally are not entitled to an apology and I feel like they just wanted to shame you into a public one. It sucks to be scared to have an opinion online because of mob mentality but like I said in the prev ask I agree about the artist erasing Pav’s culture (I used micro aggression but I don’t think that’s the most accurate term but you get what I mean) but I was seeing it more as like a cringe hc artist. Kinda like the my hero fandom did with their characters, but like hating on those people were okay which proves the internet is weird and not consistent. I don’t think you should have to silence your opinions tho, maybe like vague posting? Like tweeting “I just saw someone make art of pav wearing a cropped sweater and leggings as if that’d be a thing in mumbai, but the worse part is they shipped him with hobie and he makes candi which is a totally punk thing to do lol”

ok this is the last time im addressing this bc this whole thing is already done

if people saying stupid shit to me in my replies cant handle someone being mean to them on the internet maybe they should get off the internet

if i was gonna post an opinion on that art at all then i dont think i did anything wrong other than post it on a public account

again, ive already cleared it up w the artist. the tweet has been deleted. i dont owe anyone an explanation other than the artist bc no one else is even involved in this situation. move on dot org

[junkerqueen444]

It was something like “weren’t you complaining about taking long to get ready in the morning/time management?” It was a flyaway comment but I remember replying lightheartedly like “I know, but I didnt say a darn thing.” And i just didnt appreciate that it’s something that still comes up and gets criticized. I know that you have the best of intentions, but I thought it would be okay to gently say, “i know its not your intention, but ive been feeling insecure about my time management issues. I just felt like it was being criticized, and thanks for explaining that you weren’t.”

I felt bad because i’m trying to say i’m sorry that I misunderstood but I am grateful and sincerely appreciated you hearing me out about my emotions, and then allowing me to do the same.

I dont have any negative emotions towards you at all or generally speaking.

I just wanted to communicate that i felt like my feelings were a bit hurt. Then, i had a hard time saying that i’m sorry that I misunderstood because it felt like it was not okay for me to try to talk about it at all.

I know you’re trying to be calm and i’m sorry that it wasn’t going well. I was trying to be calm and reassure you that I just wanted to talk about it because it was affecting me.

I know that you want me to approach you differently, and I’m sorry that I was not able to do that.

I chose to talk about it and I am not sure of any other way to go about it because I am aware that we are both kind, patient human beings and I love you.

I felt like it was fair for me to express that something you said felt like a criticism because that’s how I felt.

Even though you told me that I misunderstood, I did not mean to make you feel like I still blamed you.

I felt like my insecurity was bothering me and that I think that I am doing as best as I can. I appreciated that you apologized and I am satisfied with just that.

I appreciated your explanation and I just felt like I did not need to apologize for talking about a concern or worry that was bothering me.

Like, if you think that I owe you an apology, then yes, I am sorry that I misunderstood what you may or may not have said. I wanted an opportunity to talk about how I felt, and I feel like you think I need to apologize for not doing it differently.

I feel like I don’t want you to ever apologize for talking to me about anything.

I don’t think that I should have to do that, either.

I made a mistake (maybe, maybe not), thinking that you said something, and in an attempt to talk about it, I said something.

Once I said something, we both began to handle the conversation as best as we could.

I feel like I was calm the entire time. I felt satisfied with your answer, and then I had to feel my emotions and process them.

If you felt like I blamed you and told you that your actions are wrong, then I promise that I do not mind listening and discussing the issue, even to the best of our memories.

My love for you does not waver, and I do not hold grudges or resentment or distrust or disbelief (unless beyond a reasonable doubt) and even then, I am doing my best to be kind, patient, and generally hopeful or positive that a peaceful agreement will be reached.

I feel like it is decided for me that if I do not apologize for talking about worries, concerns, minor issues that may or may not have occurred in a different way than I first attempt and try, I will continually apologize for this error that I am not sure how to fix.

I will always be willing to seek a peaceful agreement with you. I do not mean to attack you, I am sorry if I have attacked you, and I deeply want to learn and understand how we can work better on talking about any issues of minute to severe importance without you feeling verbally attacked.

I don’t have any reason or desire to attack you.

I just wanted to communicate out loud that I was having a problem with the thoughts bothering me because of what I thought you said. I did my best to calmly and kindly ask about it because I wholeheartedly love you no matter what. I was hopeful that we could talk about it, either now or anytime whenever.

I’m sorry that I gave the impression that I was not satisfied with your response or that I blamed you.

I am thankful for your love and your response. I am happy with your answer. I am sorry that I did not know how to express this because I was trying to say that it’s okay or that I am aware that things will be okay eventually.

I feel so sad when my feelings get hurt. Fuck you for picking on my time management insecurities.