#and DISCLAIMER yeah i know there are ‘but actually-’s here but thats true of anything

[kohakhearts]

ok wait theres a poll about student loans going around and i see a lot of people in the notes being like “yeah i needed loans because i was poor AND stupid :(” and i’m like.

but that’s the system??? like this “rags to riches” narrative about kids who grow up in poverty and then go to like harvard on full-rides or whatever - it’s a fucking myth, dude. american dream propaganda. has it actually happened? sure, probably. but that has nothing to do with unnaturally high IQ or genius genes or whatever the fuck. that’s not how it WORKS. if you’re poor, you’re “stupid” because no one invested the time and resources into making you smart. largely, probably, because they literally couldn’t. poor family = overworked, absent parents, no matter how hard they try to be there for their kids, and that’s just how it is and it fucking sucks but it doesn’t mean you’re unintelligent because your mom couldn’t read you bedtime stories because she had to work the evening shift every weeknight, it means that you were robbed of necessary emotional connection and forced into developmental delays as a result that unfortunately, yeah, stay with you for the rest of your life.

like SINCERELY there is no measure for intelligence that does not automatically demean the socially disadvantaged and it is so, so, so important that you unlearn the idea that intelligence CAN be measured, let alone compared; because actually how “smart” someone is has a lot to do with how much energy they have on a day-to-day basis, which has a lot to do with how society treats them, which has a lot to do with how much money they have.

think about it, right?? i mean, in a better system, merit-based scholarships would not exist, because funding would go to low-income students who do not have time to study or participate in extracurriculars because they have to cook and clean for themselves and work 20 hours a week at the same time as they’re a full-time student. do you ever notice how dean’s list scholarships are granted to students without them even needing to apply, but financial aid forms are 5+ pages long and require you to write letters that are essentially the text equivalent of getting on your hands and knees and begging? and even then, it’s got such a slim chance of doing anything for you. so much effort for such little reward when you leave home at 7am to go to school and return home from work at 11pm and wake up the next day to do it all again.

it’s all structural, dude. you’re not unintelligent. you just weren’t allowed to be smart. and no one wants to give you a second chance at it, either. and that fucking sucks. but you’ve gotta stop calling yourself stupid or the “stupid” kids of tomorrow are never going to get the chances you didn’t

[orionsangel86]

Yeah, I don't think Destiel is endgame sadly. The Sam/Eileen story made be believe a new is possible, but no, and they arent go have only one brother find love. I think the show isnt ever going to change, and thats its biggest problem. In the series finale Cas will be placed where Kevin, Charlie, Eileen were before him (the big finale death, for the biggest character after Sam and Dean) and Sam n Dean will drive off in the Impala like at the end of every ep; All quiet on the Western front.

THEY KILLED EILEEN. WHAT. THE. HELL. I saw your post, and I have to ask--does this seriously hurt your expectations of Dabb and where SPN is going

Ack! More asks that I totally missed. Sorry. I am gonna address these both in one post as they are similar themes and I guess I should start with a disclaimer here:

***these are my opinions only and do not reflect the views of other meta writers - seriously if you want positivity and hope please reach out to @tinkdw and @mittensmorgul who are doing a top notch job of controlling the fandom fire and who you should probably listen to more than me because I have become a grumpy old cow recently and am not doing the best job of controlling my cynicism and negativity.***

I should also mention that I have not, and will not, watch 12x21. I don’t need to feel more crappy and I couldn’t give a damn about Mary being brainwashed or Ketch becoming a stereotypical bond villain (or in fact, a stereotype of a parody of a Bond villain since his last act was closer to something Dr Evil from Austin Powers would do than an actual Bond Villain or so I’ve read) So I can’t comment on specifics from that episode.

“Yeah, I don't think Destiel is endgame sadly. The Sam/Eileen story made be believe a new is possible, but no, and they arent go have only one brother find love.”

Nonny I feel your pain, however I do still think Destiel is endgame. its funny, but I have thought about it a lot over the past few days and I cannot possibly see any way this show will end without destiel being part of it somehow. It does all depend on how you view ‘endgame’ though. 

Because if you mean endgame as in ‘Dean and Cas kiss and confess their love and settle down with a house’ happy ending then no, I don’t think they will get ‘endgame’, but if you mean ‘destiel will be canon on the show’ then yeah I still think its true. 

Sam and Eileen was the difference between Dean and Cas getting a moment of hand holding or a kiss before a big fight in which they die and its a tragedy, and Dean and Cas getting to live and settle down Jesse and Cesar style. Either way, Destiel goes Canon, but Eileen made the difference to how. 

Other meta writers are gonna disagree with this. But if Eileen remains dead then I do not see a happy ending to this show. Because they will not bring in another love interest for Sam at this late stage. Therefore, as you rightly say, they won’t give Dean a romantic story that ends in a ‘and they lived happily ever after’ kind of way. Saileen mirrored Destiel and the way I see it, without a mirror romantic arc for Sam, I don’t see how we will get any sort of romance for Dean either (unless they actually do decide to just end on a repeat of Swan Song though I KNOW that will piss off a lot of people). 

And yes I know that you can have endgames that don’t include romance, and that romance isn’t everything. I agree with that, but I am convinced that Sam and Dean’s endgames will be in balance with one another. Having Dean and Cas settle down together doesn’t make sense in this story if Sam is left alone. It is unbalanced and goes against a lot of what this show is about: two brothers and their lives hunting together.

(oh god I really don’t mean to sound like a bibro there but you know what I mean. balance is key. The fundamental core of this show is family and found family and it is so much more than just ‘two brothers’ but basically what I am trying to say is that you cannot round up one brothers story and leave the others open ended. It won’t work for the format this show uses.)

“I think the show isnt ever going to change, and thats its biggest problem.” 

I think if Bucklemming keep writing for them, and Bob Singer keeps his grubby little hands on the story, then yeah its not likely to change. This show will always have majorly flawed episodes. The thing is, I still believe Dabb is trying to make this show better. He has already come quite far in doing that. The season 11 finale showed us that, and Dean’s character arc this season is superb. 

The problem is more that Dabb seems to have a case of tunnel vision on Dean’s character arc. He is spending a lot of time chipping away at Dean’s mask and forgetting Sam, somewhat forgetting Cas, and pretty much completely forgetting to give us a coherent mytharc plot. 

Whether the whole Dean focus is to prepare the GA for his eventual coming out of the closet I can’t truly say (though I believe this is the case). It really annoys me how much Sam has been left behind. The one person who Sam had bonded with, who was a character that we, as an audience, could use to gain better insight into Sam outside of his brothers POV was killed off by incompetent buffoons. Dabb would have had to sign off on this terrible decision. Does he just not care about Sam’s development? 

The other major issue is representation. I thought season 12 was doing so well. Then they killed off three POC ladies and a disabled character in the second half of the season. Yet Lucifer gets an absurd plot when frankly, he should have been back in the cage or dead after episode 8. Why were the BMOL two freaking white guys? Why didn’t Lady Toni get Mick’s story line from the start? Why couldn’t either Mick or Ketch be black? or Asian? or Gay? or a Woman? or ALL of those things or ANYTHING other than a straight white guy?!? BRITAIN IS EXTREMELY MULTICULTURAL AND 51% OF US ARE WOMEN. USE IT!!! 

So yeah, its never gonna change. My advice? Don’t watch Bucklemming episodes.

“In the series finale Cas will be placed where Kevin, Charlie, Eileen were before him (the big finale death, for the biggest character after Sam and Dean) and Sam n Dean will drive off in the Impala like at the end of every ep; All quiet on the Western front.” 

Now this I don’t believe, because this would just be a major regression and would be the biggest mistake a finale could make since How I Met Your Mother. In the finale episode of the finale season, I reckon they are all gonna die. Then perhaps they will reunite in heaven with all their previous friends and family. I do NOT think that the series will end with Cas separated from the brothers. This is something I still have faith in. Cas IS a Winchester. He belongs with them. Whether they live or die in the end, he will be with them. Either they all die, or none of them will. Unless by that point Bucklemming are showrunners *shudder*can you imagine that?!? In that instance I would quit the show on principle.

I don’t think the show will end with the Winchesters alone in the world, living on whilst everyone they love is dead and the world is a burnt wasteland... you might as well put them back in hell... its not romantic or poetic no matter what your average bibro may think. I actually don’t think even Bucklemming would give us an ending like that. 

“Does this seriously hurt your expectations of Dabb and where SPN is going?”

On to Nonny No2′s excellent question which well, I probably answered above. But to use this as a summary. Yes. 

Eileen’s death hurt my expectations because it was the cherry on top of a lot of things this season that have slowly been chipping away at my positivity. 

Look, I think some of you may have noticed that I haven’t really been as active as I once was on here. I have struggled to answer asks and when I do, my tone has changed from the optimistic, enthusiastic tone I used to have. 

Honestly, SPN has been upsetting me for a while. The mytharc plot isn’t engaging me. Mary’s story doesn’t interest me because I don’t think they have done her emotional story justice. They instead chose to purposely make her unlikable to the point where a lot of fandom hopes she’ll be killed off. Do you have any idea how disappointing that is? I was so excited for Mary to be brought back, along with everything she symbolised for the show. I don’t think her character has been done justice. 

I felt this way with Amara. I wanted to love her so much but they ruined her and turned her into a sexual predator. I wanted to love Lady Toni as a fully rounded character - a strong British woman having to fight for her voice in an ancient organisation run by old men. The made her into a one dimensional psychopathic rapist. Sometimes I think these writers just arn’t very good at writing female characters outside of ‘sexy twenty something waitress’ for Dean to screw around with to prove his heterosexuality.

The whole Lucifer storyline is driving me crazy. He is so boring and my god I miss season 5 Lucifer. Hell, even Casifer, but Pellegrino is just being absurd now and the joke got old quick. I don’t care about the Nephilim, even now that it has its hooks in Cas. 

What happened to the Grand Coven? Couldn’t we have got a war between BMOL and Grand Coven? I want more witches. More spells. Witch!Sam and Human!Cas. That’s the story they should be telling. I haven’t liked how they’ve handled the British Men of Letters because they don’t seem like a real enough threat to me. Plus I don’t like all the dumb British jokes like seriously these writers have no idea what British people are like. 

This season for me has been saved by 12x06,12x10,12x11, and 12x12. But I have been disappointed overall. Unlike many of my fellow meta writers, I am not all that enthusiastic about the finale. I want so very much to be excited about it and join in with the speculation and theories but I just can’t force it anymore. 

The one thing I have faith in is that we will get canon destiel before series end. Even if its just a shot of them interlinking their fingers and smiling at each other before they go off to their deaths. I am convinced that Dabb will give us that. My problem isn’t about destiel anymore. Its whether the destiel subplot is enough to keep me engaged whilst the main plot goes down the drain. Its whether the destiel subplot is going to keep me going whilst I have to watch them continuously butcher every female character on the show.

I’m not sure I can do it anymore. My faith in Dabb is at a record low after 12x21 and I dunno what it will take to bring me back up.

Well, actually I do know. Eileen. Bring her back, right the wrong and put the story back on track. Then pull your shit together and get some more original characters into the show who arn’t all generic white guy clones. Bring back Charlie. Put Cas in more episodes. Kill Lucifer off for good and make Rowena a series regular. Put Cas in the same fucking episodes as Claire Novak FFS. Give Sam a goddamn story outside of his brother. Witch!Sam!! Or Man of Letters Sam. And finally, bring Dean out of that fucking closet once and for all.

Do all that and I will kiss the ground Dabb walks on. Untill then? well, I dunno if you’ll be hearing much from me in the future that’s all. I may just well and truly be done with this show.

[ificouldflytotheclouds]

Youngblood Album First Impressions

These are my initial thought after listening to the album for the first time.

Youngblood

I was at work when the studio version of this song first dropped, I was standing in the foyer as I waited for campus transportation to arrive. I was familiar with the song because I had listened to live recordings to prepare me for my concert, which at the time was three days away. My jaw dropped. The live version was good, but the studio version was a killer. This song is a  deserves to be danced to, HARD. In concert, I don’t feel like this song goes as hard, and for that reason, I prefer the studio version. It’s funny because I thought this song went hard, I WAS NOT PREPARED. 

I think this was an excellent title track and song to start the album. It encapsulates the feel of the entire album from the production, singing, and the lyrics. 

Favorite Lyrics:

“Surrender my everything/'Cause you made me believe you're mine“

This line is so vulnerable and it tugs at my heartstrings.

“When you looking at those strangers/Hope to God you see my face”

I am a sucker for these lyrics after making eye contact with Luke during the concert, but I also relate this to the crush that at had at the time, and the friends that are no longer friends.

Want You Back

When I first listened to  this song I was like wHo iS tHiS bAnD?? I think this was a good lead single (had they known the success of youngblood that might’ve been better, but it might not have gotten as popular if it came out of nowhere) to introduce the new song. Compared to rest of the album this song is fairly tame, I’ve listened to it so many times that ofc this is 5sos. I just wow I’m so proud of them (imma try not to write this through the entire post bc thats basically what I did on twitter all night)

Favorite Lyrics:

Is it tears or just the fucking rain? (who am I liking explicit lines, I am a changed woman)

And the way that I used to make you laugh/'Cause you know every morning I wake up/Yeah, I still reach for you/I remember the roses on your shirt/When you told me this would never work

Lie to Me

Out of the non-singles performed on tour (+valentine, talk fast, moving along), this one is my favorite. I fell in love with it instantly. It makes me think of Come Back… Be Here which is my second favorite Taylor Swift song. Ngl, hearing the studio version was a tad disappointing because I was hoping that there would be piano in the song, even though why would there be? Lol. It’s not like there was piano in the live version. Listening to the studio version made me understand the boys when they talk about the contrast the sad lyrics with the happy beachy vibe instrumental. I still LOVE this song, it was just a bit of a shock because I had unrealistic expectations for the studio version (I think I was thinking closer to Ghost of You vibes), regardless, I will request they release a piano cover of the song. The short clips of Luke on the piano is not enough. The harmonies in this song are so good and my hear hurts over the lyrics. 

There is violin in this song and that needs to be appreciated. There’s also a certain sound at the end of the chorus that sounds like something else but I can’t remember what.

Favorite Lyrics:

And I caught you looking too, but you didn't look twice

Valentine

This song took me a while to get into. 1) The rhythm is very different from anything else I have heard by them 2) The word choices in the chorus, there are some words that automatically turn me off of songs they just sound cringy to me. After listening to the song enough I have gotten us to it and enjoy the song.

I don’t know why it took me so long to realize, well I do, it’s because I had to get used to the lyrics, but this song is HOT. Another good song to perform on tour to introduce how SEXY this album is, literally. It’s funny because I normally am not a fan of albums when they’re too sexual but I am so in love with this album and they also address the topic in a classy, normalizing way, that doesn’t just focus on being horny, there’s an additional psychological dimension within their song.

Favorite Lyrics:

We know we're classic together like Egyptian gold/We love us

Talk Fast

This was the only song they sang on the tour that I hadn’t heard the studio version, my jaw was on the floor (I mean it was for most songs but lol). This was my second favorite non-single song they performed on tour, it has a fun ‘80′s inspired feel. The bass (and the drums) stand out in this song. 

Favorite Lyrics:

Leave all of your indecisions with you at home/Don't see you're doing me a favor

lol me. 

God dammit we look good together

Moving Along

This song also took me a little while to get into, besides the beat, I think it has to do with the more talk quality of the song. And again, the interesting lyrics. But now you see me bopping. I feel like they chose very unique songs to perform on tour and I appreciate that it also gave me the time to love them, so now I can properly enjoy them now that the album is out. 

Favorite Lyrics:

For this song, my favorite lyrics has to do more with what part of the song is the most fun to sing along to.

I know I’m the stupid one who ended it/And now I'm the stupid one regretting it

I've been thinking about you lots, lately/Or are you moving along?

If Walls Could Talk

This is the first new song that I heard and it was so exciting. From the first listen I knew that this is going to be one of my favorite songs. Which makes me scream because this is a straight sex song. This song just makes me smile and makes me want to dance. 

This is the first song that Ashton has a proper feature and it makes me so happy :) I love the drums and the piano in this song. Michael’s guitar part during most of the song brings a lightness during the song but then during the bridge it brings the gritty, we're getting down and dirty aspect to the song. 

-Disclaimer- I will not talk about bass enough through this post bc I do not have the best ear for bass, I am just not as familiar with the instrument. I can tell in some songs, but in others, I have to listen very closely but even then I don’t necessarily hear it (I mean I’m pretty sure Cal will be playing the piano in this song so... it makes sense)

Favorite Lyrics:

Bodies are hoping to get addicted to sound

I love this line. This is a song that makes you want to put your head back, dance and get lost in the music. It is a perfect representation of the song. 

If these walls could talk, I'd hope they wouldn't say anything/Because they've seen way too many things

This lines really brings perspective. I find this song to be very vulnerable. The line is saying that it’s seen everything you’ve done within these walls, the sex, the desire, but also you break down crying, the look of falling in love, anger, and frustration as you hit the wall… The walls know your everything.

Better Man

Another Taylor Swift reference? Lol. But actually, this song reminds me of Ed Sheeran. I even feel like how it’s sung gives me ed vibes, the guitar, down to the mhhh. 

This song is so cute. 

Favorite Lyrics:

New friends again and again, gone when the morning comes/Demons I try to defend, but I couldn't get enough

This line stood out right away it was sad and relatable. 

Wrapped in your arms, I swear I'd die for you

im not emo.

More 

Another fav. This song goes so hard. It reminds me a little bit of ONE OK ROCK. There is a heavy guitar part, Ashton kills the drums at the end, and there's a shaker?? in this song too.

I mean... this is about Luke. It can easily apply to the other boys, but there’s a reason why this is a Luke dominate album. 

Favorite Lyrics:

Enemy lines are drawn, lines are drawn

I love how Calum sings this line

I like a lot of lines in the album, the first verse is a standout, idk, this is a very sad relatable song.

Why Won’t You Love Me

Lol the first few seconds makes me think of Chole by Emblem3 

This was the first song where I was still and entranced while listening to it. This is a very cinematic song, which is very beautiful but also makes me think of someone (cough cough) staring out a rainy window.

While I have never been in a relationship I can relate to this song, specifically to friendship. Sometimes people change or need something better even if nothing actually went wrong. I think this is something important to remember with any relationship, sometimes “It’s not you, it’s me” is as true as it gets. 

The ooh at the end is cute. 

Favorite Lyrics:

You say you can't wait and need to make a change

I check my phone to see your face/Staring back as if to say/Don't worry, you won't be lonely

Woke Up In Japan

I can’t help but think about my time in Japan while I listen to this (Even though I am actually visualizing China bc we were in a hotel for a short time, while the dorm we were in Japan was more like an apartment). This song is good, they lyrics standout the most, but it defs doesn’t stand out as much as other songs. It’s an interesting contradiction that I am trying to wrap my head around. It’s all over the place. The song is about amazing sex, the ecstasy of a night out while being in a bad mental place in another country. (even though japans probs metaphorical in this context)

Favorite Lyrics:

It was more than just a neon weekend

Empty Wallets

This is another song that does stand out too much but it’s still GOOD.

Favorite Lyrics:

Dancing on empty wallets

I love the visual 

Shoulda caught a break/The fluid ain't to blame/For the sugar causing pain

Ghost of You

I’m not dying, I am already dead. This song pulls at my heartstrings so much. I can’t. It also reminds me of songs that they play in ‘00 movies which makes me emo (closest I can think of I’ll be, but that’s not exactly the feel I’m going for).

This is a masterpiece. 

Favorite Lyrics:

The verses. I can’t pick. 

Monster Among Men

Michael starting of the song. Yes.  This song is funky and fun. I really enjoy the instrumental arrangement in this song, Ashton’s drumming goes hard, mikey’s guitar solo, cal on the piano. It’s amazing. This isn’t my #1 but it’s defs up there (as with the next to songs)

Favorite Lyrics:

one, two, three, four 

I love how this switches with the beat. The oh no’s in this song also go hard.

it's time for me to admit/That I'm an asshole, so here I go

boy…wyd? At least you’re being honest. 

Meet You There

The chorus, the beat drop. YESSSS. I also love the attitude of whatever will be will be, the universe will choose our destiny.

Favorite Lyrics:

I would break in bed, if you wanted me to

I. AM. SCREAMING.

Babylon

Calum F it up. The intro to this song. I had heard that a song sounded like FOB, my friend made the direct reference last night, but not until this morning have I finally been able to hear it. Sounds similar to centuries which is one of FOB’s best songs (that I’ve heard).

Favorite Lyrics:

The entire second verse 

I'm tired of the feud, your short fuse, my half-truths are not amused/I wish we had a clue to start new, a white moon, no residue/The color of our mood is so rude, a cold June, we're not immune/But if we're way too faded to fight, you can stay one more night.

And there we have it, folks. I am so incredibly proud of these boys. This album was life-changing for them, their excitement feed off to us, and it followed through. I don’t think I’ve enjoyed an album so much since Made in the AM and that was back in 2015. Well, this will all I will be talking about for a long time. So I am sorry in advance. 

Ranking to hopefully come later in the week.

Album Review/Ranking Masterlist

[anniartist39-blog]

True Loves Kiss 19

Disclaimer: I do not own Miraculous Ladybug, or its characters. ———————————————————— Chapter 19 Ladybug zoomed through the city of lights, swinging from building to building as her thoughts ran through her discussion with Tikki earlier that day... "They were in love" Tikki had said with a gentle smile as she remembered her earlier charge "Okay... s-so... what you're saying is..." "Marinette, not every Miraculous pair has ended up together, and hardly any have truely grown so close." "Wait, are you saying that... i-I'm in love... w-with..." "Only you can truely answer that Marinette." Ladybug stopped in her tracks, processing the memory 'No... n-no it CAN'T be...' she took off again 'no, no no no no NO!!!' she swung her way to the Eifle Tower, 'i CAN'T be in love with... with... THAT STUPID CAT!' And began to climb... 'what about Adrien?' She finally stopped on the top level. She looked out over her city. The wind, softly blowing her hair as she stood still, contemplating over her internal delima... she was so absorbed in thought that she didn't hear the slight padded thump of someone landing behind her. Suddenly she felt a hand on her shoulder. Startled, she grabbed said hand and forced the perpetrator onto the ground with a serious scowl on her face "Ow... Ladybug?" She blinked, then realized what she had just done "KITTY! OHMYGOSH, I'MSOSORRY,AREYOUOKAY?!" "Woah, woah, easy there" Chat said calmly as he got back up onto his feet "calm down, its just me. Slow down, take a deep breath... good. Now... what's wrong?" She couldn't look at him... after everything that's come to light, she just couldn't... look at him... "I..." she took a deep breath "i th-think I'm-" she was going to be sick "HAVEYOUEVERHADAJOINTDREAM?!" Chat blinked at her, dumbfounded "A... what?" "A joint dream, you know, where... two people have the same dream, at the same time, but really, it's their subconscious entertwining and in reality, they're actually together, just... subconsciously?" "Uhhh..." poor confused little chaton "no... not that i can recall... why? Have you?" Did he not realize their dream was joint? Or could he be hiding the fact that it was with a civilian... even IF that civilian was actually HER "Uh... actually..." Chat looked at her with his head slightly tilted, pure curiosity on his face "i... i think i have... but... i don't known if he even realizes it was a joint dream or not" "If he doesn’t know, then how do you know it was joint?" "Because the last time i saw him, he quoted part of my dream" silence. "And, he himself said that he was quoting his own dream..." Chat still looked as confused as ever "O...kay, umm... so... do you like this guy?" Ladybug began to blush "I-I don't know... m-maybe" "Okay... is it really such a big deal if it WAS a joint dream?" She shot her head up "OF COURSE IT IS!" "Okay, okay. No need to snap my head off..." "I'm sorry, its just..." 'i seriously don't want to tell him about it' "m-my Kawamii, she told me that, joint dreams, are like... extremely rare, and well, only happen when two are so close... like... w-when they're in... l... l-love" she trailes off as she avoided his eyes "So... you think you're in love?" Her blush grew "thats great LB" she looked back to find him grinning the biggest grin he could muster, a light gleam in his eyes "I'm so happy for you... hey, maybe later, once Hawkmoth has been defeated, we could go on a double date" okay... now he was just getting ridiculous "Thats... that'd be kinda hard to do..." "Oh, common... he can't be THAT bad if he has your attention Ladybug" she shifted in her spot uncomfortably, Chat looked perplexed as he tried to figure out his partner "was he a previous akuma?" She shook her head "is he someone we know" she hesitated, then nodded, her blush growing "has he ever hurt you?" She shook her head "do you trust him?" She hesitated again "With everything I am" she replied back, eyes still glued to the floor. His gentle smile grew "Then I'm not sure you have anything to worry about... don't worry, it'll be okay, okay?" She shifted again "Whatifhewasyou?" She mumbled under her breath, but, being the cat he was, he had caught it. His own blush began to grow "Wh-what?" Her face was almost as red as her suit "when..." he cleared his throat "when did you have this dream?" She shifted on her feet "... last night?" His tense shoulders relaxed as his ears stood back up and he began to laugh "wh-whats so funny?" Chat whiped his eyes "while it's sweet to know that you dream about me LB, I guarantee you that it wasn’t a joint dream, as you say" "How do you know?" She pouted as she turned away "Because..." he began, walking up to right behind her "i haven't had a dream about you in two months" she spun around to look at him with blown eyes "What?" She whisper-mumbled "Yeah, uhh..." he scratched the back of his neck "I uhh, actually use to dream about you quite a bit... every night, actually" her jaw was on the floor as he tried to avert his eyes "b-but then, i-I started dreaming about a-a friend of yours- of mine- of... ours..." her breath hitched "Who?" He hesitated for a moment, considering if he should actually say anything... finally he sighed "Marinette" her hands flew to her mouth... he DREAMED ABOUT HER?! and not just HER, as in LADYBUG, but... her, as in MARINETTE! And... for the past TWO MONTHS?! But... wait a minute... FairyGodmother was only last month... "B-b-but... w-what do you mean... two months? Y-you only confessed to her last month" his face was calm and collected as he stepped forward, looking her straight into the eye "I know. I'm not exactly sure when it started, but I guess I've slowly been starting to notice her more and more... she's become one of my best friends. I can open up to her about anything and everything. I trust her, i want the best for her... I love her. Honestly, I think I've subconsciously known for a while, but... it took FairyGodmother for me to finally recognize and realize what exactly had been building the entire time... until then... i had been trying to deny it... i thought my heart belonged to someone else, but... I've never felt the way I do about her, for anyone else... ever. It took kissing her awake for me to finally accept that. To realize that, without a shadow of a doubt, I am deeply in love with Marinette Dupain-Cheng." Tears were starting to form in her eyes "Why?" "What?" "Why do YOU love HER? She’s just... plain, and clumsy, a-and pathetic, she's always running late, she isn't really that pretty, nothing really special, she's a complete nobody, I mean, how could she even COMPARE to a superhero? She’s-" "STOP RIGHT THERE!" Chat ordered sternly. She looked up to find him staring at her as if she had just said the worst thing you could ever think of. "I will NOT have you talking that way about her, Ever AGAIN! Why do I love her? Because I do... i love everything about her. Her laugh, her smile, she's the kindest girl I've ever met. She's not plain... she's extraordinary. She's not pathetic... she's amazing. She's not pretty... she's the most beautiful, wonderful, breath-taking woman i have ever seen. She's talented. She's gifted. She's a true prodigy. She's strong, and proud, but also humble... she has the most dazzling smile, and the most welcoming eyes. She's NOT a nobody... in fact, I'd say she could even give one Mr. Gabriel Agreste a run for his money. Her voice is like an angels, and when she sings... my heart stops. She knows who she is and isn't afraid to show it. And even if she isn't a superhero, she's a hero in her own way... she stands up for others... even against Chloe. She's always trying to do the right thing, and even if she messes up, she works to fix it. She admits to when she's wrong and apologizes to those she may hurt. She always wears her beautiful smile, and when she lets her hair down, its like looking over the Niagara Falls. No, she's not perfect, but then... no one is... and that doesn't matter... i still love her." "Chat" she whispered He had turned away halfway through his explanation. He was surprised that when he turned back around to face his partner, her face was nearly as red as her suit. Just then they heard the all too familiar sound of a beep coming from Ladybugs earings... had she really been out that long? "Your Miraculous is going off" she blinked "Oh, r-right" then she turned on her heels and threw her yo-yo, zipping off without another word. Chat Noir landed on the balcony, surprised to find his Princess asleep on her lawn chair. He smiled as he walked over, bending down, he brushed her bangs out of her face as he placed a single, gentle kiss on her forehead "Mari," he whispered "Princess, time to get up" she pouted as she moaned and turned over on her other side. Chat couldn't help but quietly chuckle... she was just too cute. He stood up to stretch before bending back down and lifting her up, Princess style. She moaned again as she burried her face into his chest. His gaze was soft as he carefully walk them both over to the open skyroof window. Then he cautiously lowered them both inside her room. He placed her in her bed just as his ring gave a warning. Once she was tucked in, he snuck down the ladder, trying to make it to her bathroom before his transformation wore off. A bright green light shown through the room as Chat Noir became Adrien Agreste. He spun on his heels, worried that the bright light would have woke her. He sighed in relief when he saw that she was now facing away from him. "Boy, that was a close one" Adrien reached out and cupped his hand over Plagg's big mouth "Plagg, shhh" he whisper-shouted. Said Kawamii glared at his charge. Once Adrien removed his hand, Plgg sighed "Look kid, I'm tired, and I'm hungry... you stay here, I'm going down to the kitchen to grab a snack" before the boy had a chance to protest, the chaotic-being had phased through the floor door. "Psst... hey, Tikki..." Adrien's anxiety spiked when he realized that Plagg was now gone. Frustrated he pinched the brim of his nose and sighed "you better not get yourself caught Plagg" he muttered under his breath. Marinette let out a small moan as she shifted in her sleep. He looked up to see her framed in the moonlight shining through her skyroof. He smiled 'she's beautiful' her hair was let down, a small strand had fallen in her face as her lips barely parted. Je stared at her lips... he wanted to kiss her, but he didn't want to wake her. He looked away, trying to district himself from hos own thoughts, when his gaze landed on her desk... almost all the pictures of him as Adrien had been taken down and neatly piled together. And right beside the pile, her drawing journal was open. His breath caught when he saw what she had been drawing... it was him, as Chat, with beautiful Golden hair, and vibrant, deep, cat-like green eyes... it was so detailed, it looked like she had either had him pose for it, or had looked off a picture to get the shading JUST right... but upon further inspection, he couldn't find a picture 'did she... draw this based on memory?' He looked back to see she had turned to face him, but she was still fast asleep. He smiled at the little sleeping Beauty before him as he slowly made his way back over to her. His eyes were soft as he gazed at her lovely, sleeping face, reminding him of their first kiss. Gently, he leaned down, and kissed her "I love you" Adrien whispered to the still sleeping girl "Hey, Kid" Plagg whispered loudly. Adrien ignored him, Plagg rolled his eyes "look, I know you want to, like, stay here all night or whatever, but unfortunately... you can't. One, you are currently NOT Chat, and if she woke up to find... you... in her room, leaning over her, looking at her like she’s your whole world... fortunately for you, it wouldn't end pretty. Second, you have a shoot tomorrow morning, and I'm NOT having you get in trouble for falling asleep on set again... need I remind you what happened the LAST time tou fell asleep?" The Kawamii crossed his arms. Adrien sighed as he stood up and walked to the bathroom with him... just because it didn’t wake her before, doesn’t mean it wouldn't this time. Chat Noir came out of the bathroom and walked back over to her desk. He glanced back at the drawing and gave a soft smirk, before reaching into his back pocket and pulling out a single red rose, placing it down beside the undisturbed journal. Then he made his way back to the skyroof window. But before he opened it, he leaned down once more, gently brushed her bangs out of her face, and kissed her forehead. When Marinette woke up the next morning, she found the rose along with a small note 'Not even Briar Rose could compare to your Beauty Princess' It was signed with a heart that had been made into a paw print... she blushed as the small smile grew on her face... 'Stupid cat'...