#and ALSO totally fucking missed that holland season 2 even happened LMAO

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Omg its spring 2022.... we should be getting drag race philippines soon...... Where is it wheres my air date....

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Drama Club

The last two years of my life were fucking crazy. Full of drama, plot twists and things i would never dream that would happen. 

It all had started 21/01/17. It was day of my 18 birthday. I had this huge party and all my friends from middle school and high school were invited. At this party I got close to some people I haven’t been so close to since the day we met which is 2012. It was werid to me but I loved that I had new squad full of people who loved to party but also had their priorities straight. We started to hanging out together every weekend and we got really close. 

It was ‘18′s birthday party’ season so I meet a lot of new people. At one of my classmate’s parties I’ve met Tommy. It was quite crazy event. It was right before summer. Everyone got drunk and high so I kinda knew something would happen. Ive never seen myself as a girl who will make out with a boy she met at some party but well..it happend. Since that party we started dating which I must say, was kinda fun. Before Tommy I’ve never really had boyfriend (except one boy i was dating when I was 12 so). We’ve been together for like a month and he started acting out. He was jealous of my friends and wanted me to spend time only with him. It was really pissing me of so i decided to break up with him. Our break up happend right before my sister’s wedding so I kinda panicked. 

But then my friend Nick saved the day and went as my date. We’ve never really been close and only talked on parties but I had one of the best nights in my life with him. The wedding was beautiful and me and Nick started talking more to the point that in September we had become best friends. We were talking everyday and we were hanging out even without the squad (usually Josh, my best friend in the world were joining us). In the meantime I got close with another guys from our squad Ashton and Philip. Philip had some problems with a girl (also from our squad) Davina. He was in love with her but she wasn’t so sure so I was kinda like a double agent and I talked to her and to him and tried to help them solve this problem. Also I started hanging out more with Ashton. 

On december there was another party of some girl my squad didn’t really know well but be were kinda popular so she invited us idk why. It was really good party but also a lot of drama happend there. While dancing Ashton told me that he had crush on me and that he wanted me to be his girlfriend. I won’t lie. I fucking panicked. I’ve always seen him only as a friend. Also, that was the moment I realised I had crush on Nick. It was so fucked up. I needed to get some air. I went outside and saw Nick who were smoking. I got to him and we ended up dancing cuddled up. Then he sang me a song he wrote and I almost died I swear. 

On January 20/21 (exactly year after my birthday) was the day of half of my squad’s prom (we were in different school’s). Ashton asked me to be his date and I couldn’t say no even if I really wanted to go with Nick.  I could feel my heart die when I saw Nick with another girl, who turned out to be his crush. I thought that the night sucks, but of course it got worse. I was drinking wine with Davina when I looked to the table next to ours and I saw....Tommy. When he saw Ashton’s arm around me (Ashton was really drunk so I let him put his hand around me) he almost got on fire. Feeling like a total bitch I got up and took Ashton to dance. When the midnight came everyone started singing me ‘happy birthday’ and I got some presents. I had to stand there and smile while all I could think of was Tommy, Nick with another girl, Ashton who got too friendly and Philip and Davina arguing which lead to Davina crying. I really wanted to go home.

Since the prom I didn’t really know how to talk to any of them but I was sure I’ll get over it. A month later on February 20 was my prom. I went with Ashton (I invited him a around New Years so I couldn’t change anything now). I won’t lie. I had the time of my life. I danced all night and we were kinda drunk but not like “i-don’t-know-what-is-going-on” drunk. I danced with Ashton, Josh and Nick (trying to not think about his new girlfriend and just enjoy spending time with him). Of course it would be too good if something didn’t happen. One on my friends argued with his boyfriend, another twisted her ankle, other one talked to her ex ana ened up crying in bathroom AND OF COURSE Tommy was there.              W H A T    T H E    F U C K?

After prom I had thought everything through and I knew I couldn’t talk to Nick anymore. It was too painful. So I decided to cut him off. I hurted as hell and he had no idea what is going on, but I couldn’t tell him the truth. Instead I told him that I want to focus on our final exams, which wasn’t exactly a lie. He understood. 

The next few months were terrible. All I did was going to school and studying. BUT THEN MAY CAME. 

Two weeks of may passed and the final exams were over. We started our longest summer! (we had 5 months till university starts). We had all this time to hang out before everyone leaves to college. BUT (of course) there was one problem. The squad didn’t really want ot hang out together anymore. Nick was spending all his time with his new girlfriend. So was Julie who started dating her boyfriend the previous summer (which was the reason for me and her to not talk for next 5 months after 6 years of friendship lol). Ashton kinda cut himself of after prom and Davina and Philip were finally together. I didn’t really know what to do with myself. 

So i started working. I was helping Andy (who is husband of sister of my sister’s husband, lol) selling fries, beer and this kind of stuff on festivals. One day my sister;s husband was helping us and he told me his other sister was planning on moving out to The Netherlands for a few years. I told him jokingly that I would love to go cause I didn’t really had anything to do in Poland at least till new school starts in October. two days later he told me that everyting is set up and that next week I’m going to Holland. I was super excited but also all i could think of was BITCH WHAT THE FUCK. 

A week later I was in The Netherlands helping Ethel (the sister who planned on moving out) her boyfriend and his sister find furniture to their flat. The next day we went to some guy Ethel knew God knows why and he borrowed us some stuff to the flat. The guy was living with some other dudes who I met but didn’t really remembered after 10 minutes. Well maybe one caught my eye, but he was a wife so i was like thank you, next.

I spent whole summer in The Netherlands and it was fucking wild. I’ve meet so many people (and some of them played quite big part in my NL life). It was first time in my life when I smoked weed and took drugs but I don’t regret it. It was summer and I’m an adult, right? And besides I needed to rest and just have some fun. 

On August two new people (Victoria and Daniel) have joined our Nl squad with who I became friends very quick. We had a road trip to Amsterdam and Haga (when we met a guy we worked with in the NL and he started hitting on me, lol).

Of course there was some boy-drama in Nl but I’m not over it yet so I don’t really want to write about it. Maybe someday. All in all, NL was fucking wild but I had time of my life.

I came back home in September and I started gathering stuff for my apartment in Wrocław because I got to Wrocław University and I had to move out from home. In October I put all my stuff to my parents’ car and we drove to Wrocław. They helped me to pack out and drove back home. I was all alone in foregin city. G R E A T. 

Luckily, Diana, my high school friend lives with me, so I’m not that alone. But still. The school started and I met new people. They’re kinda cool but...I don’t know...I just miss my friends. 

Okay, basically this is all that happend through those two years. it was fucking crazy. If someone really read this, you’re fucking amazing because if I were you, I would stopped reading after two first lines. I’m sorry but I had to let it out somewhere. And if you’re wondering: me and Ashton are friends again, I’m talking to Nick again (not as much as last year but still) and I’m totally over him, Davina and Philip were together for a year and a half but they split up, and after 5 months of not talking to each other I made up with Julie and we’re friends again. I’m kinda jealous of Josh, he lived through those 2 years without any shitty drama, lmao how do you do that?