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grim-echoes · 2 years ago

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constantly thinking about how difficult it is to find actual discussions of mental health in tandem with creative work and how that's probably contributed somewhat to me thinking that my work is consistently garbage and wondering why i'm so behind my peers when the simple answer is less "you are inherently talentless" and more "actually learning and enjoying what you do is difficult when you're in a bad situation and struggle with undiagnosed neurodivergencies and depression on top of very low self esteem" and somehow the only avenue i've ever seen people talk about this from is through the lens of a neurotypical person who has never practiced introspection once in their life giving incredibly broad, surface level advice you'd tell a child

#maybe other people have had better luck but for me much like everything else it's been a case of #analyzing my situation and constructing methods to navigate it entirely on my own #and there's been so much fucking failure to do this along the way because i have to work around my own specific problems #and understand the way i'm dealing with them internally #and it feels like i've only very very recently figured out how to work within these constraints through all this trial and error #so i've only recently started feeling like i can actually enjoy art enough to where i can do it more consistently and actually improve #and even then there's an issue with standards-setting that basic advice doesn't work to fix #because all i can think about is how far behind all these issues have put me and i'm terrified i might never make up for all that time lost

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