#an update: I full on sobbed in the shower and it didn’t really help 🙃
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#an update: I full on sobbed in the shower and it didn’t really help 🙃#so uh that’s how I’m doing this morning#I’m at like a solid 7/10 on the pain scale with the over the counter medication and just#idk#I’m not super hopeful about the doctor appointment tomorrow#doubt I’m gonna get better pain meds and doubt they’re gonna wanna do surgery to remove it#so like I am fully anticipating dealing being told to deal with this for the next 2 to the 3 months#and if I’m lucky it’ll either burst (which done that with smaller cysts and it is excruciating) or#hope that at the 2 to 3 month point that they do agree to remove it#but again not hopeful#I had a related problem once and was pretty much told deal with it and after 3 months of it persists we’ll do something#and that time they ended up not doing anything for 6 months 🙃#so yeah#I’m addition to the physical pain of the whole thing and the mental pain for feeling like no one understands or cares#I’m dealing with the anxiety of not knowing when they’ll treat it#maybe I get lucky and they decide on surgery tomorrow#or maybe I get really unlucky and they decide it stays until it bursts (and who knows when that will be)#either way everything sucks and I am super fucking depressed 🙃#and I mean I was already super fucking depressed- this just made it like 10x worse#someone hook me up with a doctor who will just give me a hysterectomy pls this is getting b ridiculous#there’s no medical reason my ass#I think severe endometriosis + pcos + ovarian cyst + menorrhagia + anemia is more than enough of a reason for someone who’s about to be 32#especially since I don’t and have never at any point wanted kids and have been dealing with this since I was 11 🙃
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