#ambrose just like me for real i relate to this song a probably unhealthy amount

[c0tards--s0luti0n]

"im gay" "im straight" ok?? why cant i love you, or hate you, or any feeling inbetween ???? just plug me in, turn me on, ill be a good machine ???? i can love you like i need you ????? i can fuck you like i dont ????? i dont want to deceive you, but im more frightened that i wont ????? i want to make you happy; so you shouldnt be aware ????? of why I keep repeating it- "i love you, i swear" ????? i should be grateful youll have me, youve said as much before ??????? youre everything i wanted, so why do i keep seeking more?????? even if i were to leave you, nothing better’s guaranteed ?????? no men i want would want me, but that wont carve away the need!!??????? when i try to meet your eyes, i see someone else’s there!!!??????? the words taste bitter in my mouth- "i love you, i swear"??????? but dont look at me too closely, or dont look at me at all !!!!!!!! somethings screaming in the background, somethings clawing at the wall !!!!!!! please touch me, but dont touch me !!!!!!!!!!! youve been cherished, youve been warned !!!!!!!!. im an exquisite broken statue, i am perfectly deformed !!!! im not worth the full attention of anyone worth mine . nothings wrong with you- what’s wrong with me?? why cant our hearts align??? if I was stronger, i could fix this; cut the bad and leave the good . be the marble and the sculptor, like my father says i should . to stand before the mirror, my skin and shoulders bare, and say without repeating it- i love you, i love you, i swear. I SWEAR!