#amaya and 🍁anon

[sunshinetoshi]

i really didn't realize there was a prize!! not complaining though

ALKSJHDG LISTEN i was processing as i went okay i kept thinking of extra stuff and so i just. kept going... oKAY SO MAYBE I LOVE HIM

YES like okay i love him dearly and he's so interesting and, you're right, has woNDERFUL fics but it would take WORK to get along. alkjsh i would also never say anything, just wait for someone to call me out on it (then deny it, probably) 👀 the parallels to real life omg... not me going back in my memory and realizing that back in high school i also.. well then. of my few boy stories, this is the one i cringe at most bc i did actually grow to like him but when he made it clear he liked me, i panicked and unintentionally rejected him KAJSHDLKG he backed off and i never brought it up again bc i was embarrassed so we stayed friends until grad (in hindsight i'm now realizing how dense i was and how many things i missed before the one really obvious thing salkdjhg i'm so duMB)

i hope you (and i) can clean up stuff somewhat during break but also, very understandable if you don't bc same

speaking of time management, i know you have summer classes soon so i'm keeping an eye on you but CONGRATS YOU'RE DONE!!!

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just a few pics to continue your brainrot bc yams deserves all the love 💃💃 HAHA

THEN DENYING IT bye this is a good tsumu plotline. but your hs boy story ajdhsjsh!! on the bright side at least he was respectful and stayed your friend after that (not all boys are secure enough to do that oop). it's okay my hs boy stories are so cringe like nothing ever even came from them past flirting but they are SO CRINGE yikes

if i can even clean a sliver of this mess that is my drafts i will give myself a gold star HAHA (and you get one rn bc i said so heheh ⭐)

ooop you really said 🧐🧐 BAHAHAH YIKES THE BAD PART IS I PROBABLY NEED IT TOO HAHA. but ty ty <33 glad to have at least a week off before it picks up again

[sunshinetoshi]

hello just dropping in bc today i was daydreaming and the whole "take my last name" thing from your oikawa fic popped into my head bc i love the idea of lowkey proposals like that JUST ASJKLHD ADORABLE

hope family time's going well!

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ajhdhf i love this <33 and SAME the concept makes me smile so much ahh !!

it is thanks!! spent time w little ones so the baby fever is strong and a couple of ideas are brewing bc i kept imagining hq dads hhhh

[sunshinetoshi]

LMAO OOPS THAT WAS INDEED AN ACCIDENT

BUT I KNEW IT!!!!!

it was an ex-friend who was part of it lmao that was the first year they started having students be in the orchestra but bc piano isn't part of the school band, they were struggling finding piano players who weren't already in band playing some other instrument so they were like "pls i don't really know anyone who plays piano" so i felt bad and joined. it was v out of the blue bc by that point we hadn't talked in over 2 years (and we haven't spoken since the show ended either)

prepping is going well!! the actual move is in a few weeks but most of the legal/prep stuff is done!! (plus a bunch of bookmarks for potential things to buy once i have mail set up!!!)

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hmm they had guts to ask after two years haha but i'm glad it worked out <33 (also gold stars for you for helping out that's very nice) very the show must go on i love it HAHA

yay!! good to hear and good luck again w the actual move. also the bookmarks omg FELT (not even going to lie a handful of mine are haikyuu merch ajdjdh)

[sunshinetoshi]

🍁 anon bb your ask wasnt on anon and i dont know if it was on purpose or not so i'm answering in a new post HAHA

(below the cut in case some still wanted to say what instrument vibes i give off and didnt want *spoilers*)

i do!! you remembered omg my heart 😩😩💞💞

and i remember you mentioning that i still think that's kinda cool (i am wondering how you were coerced lol did a friend rope you in)

how are you bb?? hope the moving process is going well or PREPPING for the move (aka s h o p p i n g) is going well

[sunshinetoshi]

after getting past the first few quests you honestly could get by in genshin not following the story JUST SAYING and if you DO do the stories/quests and interact with characters, the voice acting is so well done

congrats on the head start but i am once again judging you for your draft count. i don't even know what it is, i just know it's bad BUT ALSO I'M A HYPOCRITE bc the fact that we've been getting more writing lately??? soulmate aus are so sweet i'm in love

and no you're right we absolutely do not need to go down that rabbit hole... but boundaries are boundaries!! yes!!!

i also finally found a place!! finally, real place to buy decor for akjdhg

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oooo okay then when i make space in my phone and get a grasp on my schedule i will try it (i'm so excited for all the va's i'll recognize HAHA if my ears are able to pick up on em ajhddj)

😳😳 oops - i'll do a draft count reveal (i mean ANOTHER one help) when i am below like 50 or something basically when the end is in sight LMAO. but yeah!! i noticed that too i have been writing quite a bit more than usual idk why haha hopefully this wave of creativity stays so i can finish requests ajdjdj

rabbit hole what rabbit whole we are focused on the future and manifesting what's meant for us 😌😌 nervous laughter

and congratulations omg 🖤🖤 that's great ahh now the fun part is finally here HAHA (i am expecting you to say you put up a starstruck poster and kpop standee now bestie BAHAHAH joking bb)

[sunshinetoshi]

oh ofc see i GET that. it's just that i might die internally in the process (but hopefully make some friends out of it)

........ amaya

one week is better than none!! thats progress!!!

ALSO YES SIMP FOR ZHONGLI WITH ME he's cool as hell, ALL of his voice actors are amazing (no matter what language you play in, he's great), he has a great story, he's beautiful and wise, kind of lacks common sense but that makes him endearing, he has the best character demo trailer (i'm biased but whatever) JUST YES i switch to him when i'm running around in game even though he's not my main fighting character I LOVE HIM

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LMAO this made me remember that the first day i ever met one of my now best friends i got a sugar high from smoothies and then rolled in the grass 💀💀 i question it AS WE ALL SHOULD but now she's stuck w me so ig it worked out

TO BE FAIR i've started to clear them i swear 💖💖

!!!! i was hoping you'd see that omg!! i was like 'alright i know a handful of people on here who for sure play maybe one of them will fill me in in who he is.' i like how he's all these amazing things and my first impression of him was 'oh i like his hair and earring' HAHA okay these all sound very good to me and i trust your taste so i will also 💓simp💓 *despite not playing yet - i need to clear my phone storage first* anyways zhongli hit me up bb

[sunshinetoshi]

good luck to both of us! hopefully we get through this with minimal embarrassment ajlshdjkg

.... i dont actually want to bonk you but i will AMAYA IS IT OVER 700?? i'm not saying you need to get help but yes i am

"i have to double check which class " ...

ANYWAY i saw that your classes started so you got this!! i believe in you and your ability to be responsible and balance things well!!

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a little embarrassment is good it builds character (me trying to make myself feel better HAHA)

i will neither confirm nor deny bestie 🥰🥰

BAHAH listen i knew the three classes i'm taking in total but i didnt know which was first (still bad. equally bad. but ~now~ i know.... <33)

ty bb 💓💓 don't believe in me too much keep your standards of me low 😙😙 HAHA no but really i've been doing pretty well - to be fair it's only been a week but that's one week well spent right??

[sunshinetoshi]

aslkjdhg i'm going to be in a new city without any of my friends to be buffers while i put myself out there to make friends at all so TRUST ME I'LL HAVE CRINGEY STORIES TO SHARE

okay i forgive you for being busy and not being able to do a lot of draft cleaning but a HIGHER NUMBER?? pls tell me you at least stayed below 700 (i also haven't made very much progress on clearing out stuff but at least it hasn't GROWN)

LMAO yeah you better pay attention! and keep up with your work!! and stay hydrated!!!

have fun on your trip lol

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i'm going to have a couple of my friends but i want to push myself to make new ones too so we're in this together bb ahh i am ~nervous~ but excited HAHA

i want to avoid you bonking me on the head so i will pretend i do not see that second paragraph so that i don't have to tell you what number it's at 😃😃

i will <33 (but i have to double check which class i'm even taking bc i dont remember 💀💀)

tysm!! i am a bit tired but it was a lot of fun (my body clock and sleep are so mad at me though BAHAH)

[sunshinetoshi]

PLS HE'S SO CUTE THANK YOU how considerate he's so alkjhfghas

asldkhg he was very sweet. i never dated in hs but he was the one (1) boy who ever called me pretty to my face like a year later (we ran into each other bc we were skipping class at the same place lmao) (that being said, i was a good student i promise) can't wait to go back to seeing people irl and making a FOOL out of myself for more cringey stories

I'VE SEEN YOUR QUEUED POSTS so i assume the drafts are at least somewhat cleaned up so here's a star for you too ⭐ you did it!!

i say this in the most supportive way possible: i'm watching you!! take care of yourself but also, don't leave your lectures to the last minute again or start ill-timed events or i WILL come for you ❤

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OMG YES!! WE WILL TRADE NEW CRINGEY STORIES OH NO

bestie i don't think i deserve the star YET. i've been running around cleaning and then packing so i haven't made a significant dent in the amount of drafts (me pretending like it's not a higher number KAHDJDJS -BUT- i haven't been on the dash recently (sad face) so at least it's not rapidly growing

OMG BAHAHA 💞💞 but ty bb i hope i thrive w summer classes (if i do mess up i will be rUNNING 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️ from you)

[sunshinetoshi]

THIRD ASK IN A ROW BC YOU POSTED YOUR EVENT, AMAYA DO YOU SLEEP

didn't you post a little while ago about exams coming up or did i make that up

i want to roast you but also take care of yourself omg

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AJDHJSHDDH I DO I SWEAR

you sent this yesterday but today was my last one!! i have one more essay due tomorrow but besides that i am freeee

but roast me. pls. bonk me on the head. i make poor time management decisions like this too frequently omg (but theyre fun so it's worth it <33) and i will ooo ty heheh you too okay??

[sunshinetoshi]

pt 2 (just in case you wanted to be able to reply to the first one for the moodboard)

i may not simp for yamaguchi as hard as i simp for atsumu (yet) but idk maybe this will be the tipping point. like maybe i just need to see more yams content. i think the reason why i don't simp as hard (yet) is bc i would be happy with someone like him platonically and/or romantically like i'll take either (or both) so it's not quite simp territory (but vvv close) (or maybe it is, the more i write, the more i'm like OH? MAYBE?)

but tbh if they were real i probably wouldn't give atsumu the time of day based on first impressions lkajhd i'd just be like wow what a dick and move on with my life. maybe admire from a distance but i wouldn't even bother getting to know him well enough to actually like him (can you tell i've thought abt this a lot oof)

OKAY MEE but the problem is that if i go through things i've saved thinking that i'm going to delete the ones i don't really want to keep, i'll start feeling guilty about the ones i'm getting rid of bc it's not like i'm not interested at ALL so then guilt + decision fatigue hits and i keep more than i should and it stretches out into more self-imposed work bc i have more to clean up later. it's one of my goals this month to clear out my tbr folder of articles i saved to read (NOT EVEN MY FIC TBR ASDJG) bc there are ~500 and i CANNOT read all of them. (not to mention all the screenshots i have on my phone?? oh man) so uh. i hope we can clean our lives up HAHAHAH

evaporating in spite is a good move. leave him behind and text him "bitch you could have just called"

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omg part one made me choke 'i thought we were just trying to expose you' BAHAHAH even part three ajdhjssh. it was a two for one HAHA expose me and get a prize (and yesss i'll work on the moodboards this weekend <33)

THE EVOLUTION OF THE YAMS PARAGRAPH I CAN'T. we went on a JOURNEY there. i think you're already in simp territory bb he's got you hooked

tsumu!! aww ..but saaaame HAHA. rn i analyze his character and he's one of my faves like he has so much depth but on a first impression i wouldnt be down (i mean i'd think he's hot but i might be turned off at first). and then over time i'd fall for him and see he's such a sweetheart but never say anything (wait.. i just realized i've done exactly this irl i- okay)

ooo i see. yeah i know i probably won't be reading/rb ing everything in my drafts but like you said it requires time and energy to sit down and go through them. YES we'll clean up our lives and clear out our folders and drafts (i also have to clean out my closet while we're on the topic akdhsjjd 💀💀 help)

BAHAH or call his phone and be like "oh, so it does work. interesting."

[sunshinetoshi]

i'm BACK i didn't actually go anywhere i just got too lazy to even text people back for a few days whoops

MEE i want to be able to walk anywhere bc maybe then i'll actually leave my place once in a while (and for in person school!!!! i'm so excited to go back pls)

hq truly is so wholesome and cute. AHKAJFH YEAH he's loyal and driven and sweet and lowkey a piece of shit (said lovingly) like how did i not pick up on this right at the beginning smh

also.. >600 drafts?? amaya stop creating extra work for yourself.

is this a situation where it's like oh gotta put this in drafts so i can come back to it, then you don't bc it feels like you need to set aside time and mental energy but in the meantime you keep putting more things in drafts so it just gets worse but you don't want to delete any of it even though none of it is REALLY important bc it feels more productive to actually go through it than to remove the task entirely (this might be too specific but that's me LMAO i have so many bookmarks of things to read and i should probably delete them all bc if i really wanted to read them, i would have by now, but that wouldn't be satisfying)

but if guesses are still open, i guess 651

OH ALMOST FORGOT THE CUSTOMER SERVICE FIC it's been a few days but i had to take a BREAK from reading terushima's like i put down my phone and just died a little kshdkl i would simply leave

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welcome baaaccckkkk <33 (dw, again, i do the same lol)

i'm excited too - i never realized how much i miss sitting outside and watching the world work heheh. sooo ready for in-person classes wow

'SAID LOVINGLY' BAHAHA but he IS lmao like he enables tsukki way too much to be seen as innocent as people make him out to be. but his character development is something else (especially 3rd year yams omg)

..... 😳😳 bestie how are we literally the same person it's like you crawled into my brain wHAT. i used to set a limit like 'oh dont let it get past this number' but then it spiralled again. i think about deleting it all but there are genuinely ones i saved and am excited to read so idk. but maybe w my week off i can get through it all and then have a fresh start where i never do this again 💀💀 BUT WHAT YOU LITERALLY HIT THE NAIL ON THE HEAD I AM-

also 650 has been the closest guess i think i'm going to end it here!! (bb send me a character and a color so i can make a moodboard ooooo - cause i dont wanna assume yams when it could be tsum or something yknow ajhdjs)

BAHAH I WOULD ALSO LEAVE. I'D DRIVE HOME WITHOUT HIM. his made me cackle and cringe while writing but i also love that lol. but legit i was like wow teru is so cute but if he EVER i would simply evaporate in spite

[sunshinetoshi]

don't be sorry!! it's been fun lmao i'm very grateful for your part in this

SADHLG i've started writing notes in my planner abt who i'm talking to bc i swear i'll forget otherwise. it's a little sad bc it's such a small thing but. i will forget. (yEAH where are all the boys??? we could have had so much more of them. also it's been years since i read the books but i'm ~80% sure we do get little updates on the other boys.)

YEAH i can only look at listings online rn so it feels kind of futile but eh. i'm getting well acquainted with the area on maps i guess. and the room aesthetic is important!!! we spend most of our time there so ofc it has to be great

YES THE SPREADSHEET ahaha i'm glad you liked my contribution. i love seeing things like this bc it reminds me how hq has so many unique characters and that they're all loved by someone and it makes my heart vv full. so pLEASE give updates. (also, after more reflection yamaguchi has SHOT up my faves list like i want to be his friend but also i'd have a crush on him asjklfh ignore me pls, a bunch of headcanons made me realize that he's v similar to a guy i used to like and it spiraled)

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crying in the club :')) again v glad you're here ooo 💓💓

THAT'S SMART maybe i should start doing that too hmmm (i told myself i'd read the books when i saw the first movie but realistically idk if i ever will tbh but we'll see!!)

oh i feel 😩😩 YES lmao i keep checking the walking distance or drive to places in the area haha. and you're right heheh 😈😈 rn i'm thinking a sage green neutrals vibe for mine but still thinking about it

i think that's one of my favorite things about hq!! lol i saw a tiktok and they were like 'it has every boy. there's a guy for every season. one for every day of the week' and the aCCURACY AKJDHD. i will absolutely give updates 😌😌 (AS. HE. SHOULD. YESS he is very underrated imo. also the same thing happened to me w kuroo in the beginning i saw the similarities w a previous guy i liked and i was just 🤨🤨🤔🤔)

[sunshinetoshi]

you deserve the giant ask for being great!!! and oFC IT WAS WORTH REREADING i also needed to refresh my memory and prepare my heart. lmaooo this story was truly the beginning of the end for me lmao i'm trapped here now. how many months has it been. will i ever leave. never

AKSJHD lately i've gotten into the bad habit of forgetting what platforms i'm talking to people on so if i swipe away a notification i just. forget to reply. or if it's someone i talk to on multiple platforms i'll see one and not the other asdjh it's bad i need help. we deserved josh and john ambrose updates in movie 3 idc like even a CRUMB or did lara jean rly dance with john then ghost smh

pls daydreaming abt having my own place >>> actually doing the work to have my own place. i've bookmarked so much stuff on etsy it's ridiculous (i swear i'm not doing nothing but it doesn't feel substantial until i actually have something actually set if that makes sense)

ngl i wasnt going to join the taglist bc i check your blog pretty often anyway until i saw you made a sPREADSHEET i love a good colour coded spreadsheet so ofc i need to contribute

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heheh so sweet omg 🤭🤭💓💓 and BAHAH facts we're trapped. again sorry for my part in this but also yay <33

I DO THE SAME. i have to put less trust in my memory when it comes to notifs bc my friends and fam think i'm ignoring them when i MEANT to respond. (mhm like the title is 'to all the boys' but all the boys were only in the first?? explain - at least the movies i havent read the books)

i'm also apartment hunting (or planning 😃👍 yknow how it is) so i feel the pain. the only thing i really have in my power rn is planning my room aesthetic so that's what is taking up brain space ajdhsjd

MY SPREADSHEET 😍😍 HAHAHA the colors really took it up a notch i gotta say. and your contributions to that list?? *chef's kiss* love those boys. lol i think every five tags i get i will update the spreadsheet and post the results. we love a nice lil stats report HAHA

[sunshinetoshi]

OH DONT MIND ME LOGGING IN TO TUMBLR JUST TO BRIEFLY CHECK IN BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP TO SEE THAT YOU POSTED PART 5?????

it was literally the first post on my dash the timing is impeccable I'LL BE BACK TOMORROW OKAY i want to reread the first four parts and sleep BUT ALFHIDJS JUST KNOW I'M VERY EXCITED

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THE TIMING!!!! omg i love it HAHA also not me getting soft that my work is worth rereading i-

[sunshinetoshi]

HONESTLY idk if i even know how to talk to boys anymore?? maybe i'll just make a fool out of myself when i ever have to askjsfh (i actually really liked the tatbilb movies askdhlsakjg minus most of the second one but its okay i can ignore it)

the standee!!! pls i'm highkey thinking about what kind of merch and art would be reasonable to get for when i move out (let's ignore that i don't even have a lease yet ajklshjkdlah i'm simply bookmarking prints and things for later. my parents can't judge me if they can't see it)

yes!! pls keep romanticizing and fueling my daydreams

you really should pay attention in class but i never did so i'm not the right person to tell you to asjlhg at least you're almost done! but summer classes??? respect. i don't have the willpower

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HONESTLY ME TOO OOPS. the first couple of convos with them are going to be rOUGH for me oh gosh. (lmao saaammee. it was the singing in the second it was too cringey. ALSO JOHN AMBROSE DESERVED BETTER I LIVE BY THAT)

ajdhsjhd i saw those personal hand written letters/care packages from a hq character and was ~intrigued~ ALSO all the polaroids for kpop yikess the ones that say boyfriend material omg why am i exposing myself (you are ✨planning✨ it's okay. and absolutely lol out of sight out of mind HAHA)

dw i don't plan on stopping any time soon heheh (though putting my romanticizing into actual writing?? that's a slower process but same holds true lol i got you <33)

i've been trying more and more recently i'm surprised with myself ajdhsj and yes!! even a small break is a break (bestie i never said i have the willpower either 😩😩 send help when summer classes start BAHAHA)