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ethereal-am · 9 months ago
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¡ narcos mexico / griselda
( read best in dark mode <3 )
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˚ . ྀིྀི୧ popular edits ୨ ྀིྀི.˚
𝜗𝜚 amado carrillo fuentes
𝜗𝜚 ramon arellano félix
𝜗𝜚 ismael “mayo” zambada
𝜗𝜚 rivi ayala (griselda)
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mrs-stardustt · 2 years ago
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first date ft. narcos mx characters
a/n: hiiii, permission to be delusional on the main???? alright so here we goooo
if you like to add more characters don't be afraid to ask, I just follow however character intrudes my mind<3 so reach out if you want any specific request
INCLUDES: Benjamín Arellano Félix, Ramón Arellano Félix, Miguel Ángel Félix Gallardo, Amado Carrillo Fuentes
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gif credit: @southotheborder​
Benjamín:
my sweet man<3
first date has to be as soft as he is, so I'm thinking a nice park walk with nieves if it's hot outside or just something wholesome
so going on a walk and getting to know each other seems fitting
like imagine the stuttering mess he would be, how gentleman he is OMG
everything will be perfect, he will make sure of it
he most likely blush if you compliment him
we know that’s his time to really put into the work to impress you, to show you he is fucking fr
my Min doesn't fool around, so if you're on a date, he's interested on going serious
but everything is so nice and sweet, he makes you feel comfortable and loved<3
so if he's feeling bold, a cheek kiss would be the peak of the day
but if YOU'RE feeling bold???? kiss him, I swear to you, even a peck barely on the lips and he is a goner
without adding more, it's clearly that with Min a date can't go wrong, he won't do anything bad in my eyes, argue with the wall lol
Ramón:
let's bffr, alright??? it would probably be in a club lol
and of courseeee it will be Roxane
everything is just so chill and funnn
if anything Món is funNY
just you two being HOT PEOPLE, dancing in the middle of the dancefloor, feeling each other iykyk
he would a 100% flirt shamelessly all. the. time.
and add a few drinks to the equation???? girrrrrrrrl
he’s so hot, i can’t help myself
imagineeee: you two dancing, the whole world disappearing, your back to his chest, feeling the music AHHHHH  
so expect to have a very fun night, to end the night a little tipsy and barely feeling your legs of how much you dance
and of fucking course, if you let him, he will kiss you
but don’t worry, my man is a tease  
he might kiss you, but that’s it
he keep you waiting up until your second date
and don’t lie to yourself, it will be to a second date babes
Miguel Ángel:
big ass fancy restaurant, that’s it
if something we all can agree is that Miguel likes to flex
he will take you to the most expensive place to have dinner (yep dinner, somewhat having a first date with him has to be at night, okay????)
and let’s indulge a little, he will probably send you a fancy dress, fancy shoes and everything and anything his princesa might need
he is very interested in you so he’ll ask questions about you, you likes/dislikes, a bit of talking about your past and shit
i don’t believe he will share too much about him
and for obvious reasons
he will taste the waters, to kinda know if he can trust you, not really going for it that soon
but don’t worry because either waaaaay
he is a romantic 
and old school romantic
he’ll touch your hand a bit, give you a little smile while you talk 
EYE CONTACT OMGGGGG
he don’t flirt too openly but he OBVIOUSLY calls you nicknames
“que hermosa te ves, mija”
it could end on two ways: you kiss and that’s it but if we are bold, enjoy the ride to his home girly AYYYY NO
Amado:
Amado is a chill man
so whatever you like, he likes
you want to have dinner? let’s go to your favourite. wanna go for a walk? sure, chose the place. club date? pick your dress he’s on the way
he will liveeee to make you happy
and that is ALL you need to know to assure that your first date will go smoothly as possible
but for this i choose a bar
why? idk makes sense somehow lol
the talking will be immaculate, with my man, conversation neverrrr ends
he tell you a bit about himself, crack a joke here and there just to make you laugh, he’ll ask questions about you
he WILL flirt
and if you flirt back????
MY GIRRRRL you have him eating from. your. hand.
no for nothing Acosta call him tontín so deal with a little of clumsiness
and because he loves you he let you make fun of him, just know he’ll have that energy backkkk
A LOT OF TENSIONNNN
not only sexual lol but for anythinggg
the chemistry is PLAUSIBLE
so at the end we can know a kiss is happening, that is not up to discussion
buuuut, just a maybe (and a very firm maybe) you can go home together AHHHHHHHH
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cositapreciosa · 1 year ago
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Can I please request an Amado x reader fic where he slowly starts to fall in love with her? and, if it's possible, can she be a non-fluent Spanish speaker? Somewhat like Mimi. Thank you so much!
By proxy
Amado Carillo Fuentes x female!reader, (mention of you wearing heels/skirt/painted nails/lipstick, no warnings, the usual for the show) 1545 words
a/n : hopefully this is what you had in mind ! let me know how you like it
As always it's the fictional, not the real deal, enjoy xx
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When he arrived, you were already seated in the chair next to his assigned one. Sunglasses perched on your nose, colored lips matching your nails, and satellite phone opened to your ear, ushering things in the receiver he couldn’t understand. Amado wouldn’t usually pay attention to all those details, but the space between the seats is narrow and you don’t seem to realize he needs you to get up so that he can finally sit down.
The heat is unbearable today. Of course he knew Belize was going to be hot, but the humidity mixed with little wind is making sweat run down his back. A temperature you don’t seem to mind, deeply invested in whatever conversation you are having, with your freshly pressed shirt, not a bead of sweat on your forehead. He has to cough to get your attention, and the look you give him makes him feel like he is intruding, your palm cupping the receiver so as to not disturb whoever is on the other side.
‘’ Puedo ayudarle? ‘’
That is when he notices your accent, the way the r comes out round and unrolled. You speak English, he thinks, but he can’t figure out more. He’s never really been one to notice the subtleties between accents.
‘’ That’s my seat, ‘’ he begins in English, ‘’ Do you mind if..? ‘’
‘’ Oh. ‘’
You are quickly on your feet, pressing the back of your knees to the chair to make more space for him to pass through. He can smell your perfume, feel the softness of your silk shirt as his hand brushes your elbow as he moves forward. You sit back down at the same time as him, one of your legs moving on top of the other. Before he can even say thank you, you are back on the phone, throwing phrases and fancy words he can’t understand. Is English is good, but it clearly wasn’t fluent enough for whatever business conversation you were having. You close the antenna with a snap.
‘’ I’m sorry about that, not very lady-like of me. ‘’
There is no point for you to try talking to him in Spanish anymore, and as much as he can’t shake away his own accent, he knows his English is probably better than your Spanish. You don’t really mean it, half an apology, half small-talk, too focused on what is happening up front, the first plane being manoeuvered on the tarmac. He offers you a polite smile nonetheless.
‘’ It’s all good. ‘’
The plane isn’t even stopped behind the podium that the auction starts, loud voice coming from the speaker, bragging about the size of the crew cabin, the space in between the seats. Nothing he needs to know, nothing that would make a difference in the type of business he plans on making with those buys. Rip it all out, he would say, start loading it up. It goes pretty fast after that, when the auctioneer finally stops talking about the whys and the hows and starts selling the plane.
He can feel you watching, chin turning his way every time he buys a plane. Probably because, compared to him, you haven’t bought much so far, no one did really.
‘’ May I ask you what all those planes are for? ‘’
You are bold, he can give you that, biting your questions, answers rolling off your tongue just as quickly. He doesn’t even realize when he started smiling, cheeks touching the underside of his sunglasses.
‘’ I could ask you the same question. ‘’
Your bite the inside of your cheek, as if you are thinking it through, if you should actually give him an answer or just another question in response.
‘’ Fair enough. Maybe our bosses’ business isn’t for us commoners to talk about. ‘’
‘’ Oh, no, you’re mistaken. I’m the boss. ‘’
That catches your eyes, knees turning to his side, body following shortly as your own sunglasses slide down your nose with the movement. He knew it would, maybe that is why he said it. There is something fun about you, carefree, that feels like it could turn this chore into something enjoyable for once. He never liked making small talk, but he does appreciate this back-and-forth that is happening. Amado watches as your elbow drapes over the back of your chair before you speak.
‘’ What’s your name again? ‘’
You do be asking many questions, he realizes, but he gives you his name nonetheless, finding himself to enjoy it when you give yours back.
‘’ Then, Amado, ‘’ You continue, ‘’ Why do the dirty work? It’s hot as hell on this tarmac. No budget for shades, the paddles are plastic, no wine bar, what’s in it for you? ‘’
‘’ Good company, clearly. You seem to be doing those a lot. ‘’
He loves the way his name sounds coming out of your mouth. You barely acknowledge his statement, raising your own paddle for a small luxury plane as your attention turns back to the front. A few second passes, before the gavel smashes the podium. As the applause dies down, the auctioneer talks into his microphone, voice booming and with more spectacle than he usually enjoys.
‘’ Told my boss I could speak Spanish, but I’m more at a 4-year-old level than anything else. You mind translating that for me? ‘’
He can tell you are flirting, trying to keep the conversation going. Your eyes are playful, meeting his and twisting his insides, sparkling warmth to his chest. This feels different, and he wonders if he has gotten too old for this. Still, he plays into it.
‘’ He said the plane’s all yours, mija, but that you have to pilot it back to the US if you want to keep it. ‘’
Your laugh makes the people in front of you turn, you don’t mind them though, continuing to look at the vendors as they parade the planes around.
‘’ I would crash the damn thing. You don’t happen to know a good pilot, do you? ‘’
He leans his head to your side, close enough to smell your perfume again, almost tasting the salt from your skin.
‘’ Hmm. I got someone in mind. ‘’
‘’ Well I hope he’s any good, I plan on coming back in one piece. ‘’
You are raising your paddle again, two, three times until the sale is yours. He is sure you get more Spanish than you let him on, or maybe you just go for looks and hope the plane fits your budget, if you have any. You haven’t talked much about why you are here either, and he can’t help but wonder who would buy almost as many planes as him. It is not as much, clearly, he is here to buy the biggest ones, all of them, but you have been weirdly focusing on the smaller ones, the cleaner ones, rivalling all the white heads on the tarmac.
‘’ Don’t worry, ‘’ He says as he adjusts himself on the chair, ‘’ I’ll land us safe and sound. ‘’
You find this funny, beaming at him, smile wide and refreshing in the heat. He can tell your eyes are curious, squinting from the sun as you look at him over your sunglasses.
‘’ How romantic. ‘’
There is no real implication behind your words, mostly mocking him, brushing off your actual surprise that he is in fact a pilot. Amado buys the last three planes, it is a quick process, raising his paddle, gavel knocking, and before he knows it you are on your feet, heels clacking on the asphalt the moment they end the auction.
He watches as you pull down your skirt, gathering your things in one hand while the other moves towards him, wide open for a handshake.
‘’ Well, Amado, the pleasure was all mine. I guess I’ll see you at the next one? ‘’
Probably not, he thinks, but he gets the sentiment, appreciates it even. He shakes your hand, your warm palm against his, a fingernail grazing the inside of his wrist.
‘’ I thought I was supposed to fly you back home? ‘’
‘’ Are you asking me out on a date? ‘’
‘’ Maybe. Are you saying yes? ‘’
You don’t answer him straight away, sizing him up and down. He can’t tell what you are looking for, but the small smile on your lips makes him think whatever he is doing is working. You take your hand back, pushing hair behind your ear.
‘’ I’m staying in San Ignacio tonight. The hotel’s bar is pretty good if you’d like to drop by for a drink. ‘’
You don’t wait for him to answer, turning on your heels and walking down the aisle, waving to a man in a suit that is quick to walk you to a black suv. He can do nothing but mirror your smile, pushing his sunglasses up his head. He wouldn’t mind doing the drive, especially if it means he could see you again.
He doesn’t have to think more about it, you had him at ‘bar’, ‘drink’, the notes of vanilla in your perfume. A cold Whiskey actually sounds like a good idea.
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narcolini · 2 years ago
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nightmares
amado x gn!reader, 2080 words, hurt/comfort
contains canon typical gun violence 
using the day 2 whumpril prompts: Stress & “Get some rest.”
a/n: i hope this scratches the amado itch, dear anon!! (me vs taking months to write requests lmaooo) <3<3
tagging (my narco taglist): @drabbles-mc @cositapreciosa @purplesong1028 @ashlingiswriting @thesandbeneathmytoes @hausofmamadas @empireroyals @marissa53115 @iridescent-sol​ 
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It started as a normal night for you. A car parked outside your window, a large palm over your knee once you were seated in the back of it. Amado purring words to your right, hip to hip, about his plans for the evening. Where he was taking you to eat, where you’d go afterwards, how long he intended to keep you for—if you liked. You could dance until the sun came up if you wanted to.
‘Y entonces?’ you’d asked him. ‘Will my bed miss me again tonight?’
He’d smiled, shrugged and ticked his head to the side like he was indifferent about it. ‘Sí, if you like, amor.’
You can’t say he doesn’t spoil you.
You’d ended up at a club, as promised, to dance into the sunrise and it wasn’t long until you had him moving too. Only took a few drinks, a hand to the side of his neck, an invite to put his own as low as he liked on you. He can move, when he cares to. His thigh went between yours, his skin close enough to swallow his cologne in gulps. Expensive, of course, and patted into the base of his throat, exposed by the undoing of a few top buttons.
‘Any more,’ he said, into the shell of your ear, ‘and I’ll be too indecent to stay.’
You twisted the third button between your finger and thumb, let him sway you from the anchor of his thigh. ‘Maybe that’s the plan,’ you teased.
‘You’re bored already, mi cielo?’
‘Bored, no.’ Hands down his chest, nails to the cotton, then back up and around his neck. ‘I’m distracted.’
That pleased him, sent a smirk onto his lips and lost half an inch of space between you, not that it was possible to be any closer than you already were. ‘One more drink,’ he bartered, ‘and then we’ll go home, bien?’
It was a fair deal, a fun one that snaked into your chest and blurred the senses. Filled you to the brim with lust, happiness, smoky indulgence that you’d never stop craving. You peeled apart from him and followed the feeling to the bar. Another of the same, you told the guy behind it, smiling as you said it, room spinning, pulsing. Overhead lights going in so many colours that the man looked like he was made of water, reflecting everything back at you, moving despite being stationary. He poured and you watched. Handed you the drinks and expected no payment in return, because it went on the tab, as always. He knew Amado near enough as well as you do.
When you arrived back to your spot, Amado was turned away from you, watching a man split the crowd in the opposite direction. You tapped his bicep with the drink you’d brought him.
‘Who was that?’ you asked, following the question with a sip of your own. The cocktails were long past tasting of alcohol, it was just juice and fizz and sugar by then.
‘Ah, no-one.’ He took his own and nodded a thank-you. ‘Just some guy jealous of my date.’  
‘Pfft, be quiet.’ If you weren’t both holding drinks, you’d have batted his arm for being so ridiculous, and so smug about it too. Instead, his dumb smile infected you, curling your lips though you tried to fight it. ‘You can’t flirt your way out of every secret, guapo.’
‘I can try.’ 
His arm went around your waist, forearm hot against the already warm skin between your shirt and your pants. Heat to heat. He put his lips to yours. You let him pull you into the kiss willingly, tongue chasing tongue. The edge of alcohol was there in his mouth, where it wasn’t in your glass, and you drank readily. Eagerly.
And then the gun went off; one shot to start with, so loud and unexpected that you sprung away from everything: Amado, your drink, the foot of space you’d been occupying. Your body acted before you’d even recognised it as a gunshot. Heart pounding through your chest, eyes running the course of the room.
‘Oye, pendejo,’ is all Amado said, at first. He put it under his breath, far too casual for the situation, like it was just a mild inconvenience to him. A fly in his beer. His palm found your back, at the base of your spine, fingers stretching to pull you to him again. I’m here, it said, nothing to worry about yet. ‘Let’s go, yeah? That way.’
‘Amado, what…?’
You know how you must’ve looked, wide eyed, frozen and deer-like. With the people fleeing around you and the flashing of the lights, you couldn’t even see who it was on the assault. Just heard the pop, the bang, the burst of screaming patrons that followed it.
Another rang out then, closer this time, and you know it was pointed at the ceiling now, because it crumbled overhead. Dust and glass and plastic. It littered your hair before Amado had chance to shield you from it. You aren’t ashamed to admit that a scream pierced out of you too, raw and unlike any noise you’ve made before, but still, Amado barely flinched. His arm went up, a second too late, and over your head, his body purposely put between you and the shooter.
‘That way, amor,’ he said again, steady as anything. ‘We’ll take the door out the back, okay?’
A third gunshot went into the roof, followed by his name shouted above the racket of it all. Whoever it was, he was mad, ravenous.
You had no more questions left in you, just blind, terrified obedience. You let Amado turn you, hands to your biceps, away from the chaos and guide you through the scattering crowd. Past the bar, through the store rooms you were never supposed to see, and out of the weighted fire door with little other explanation. The transition happened so fast, a blur, a stumble, that you only realised how far you’d come once the wall of cold hit you on the other side.
You were out. The club sat behind you, braying with noise. You felt like your lungs had stayed there, where you had been, on the sticky floor of the club. You couldn’t do anything but gasp, your chest didn’t fill no matter how hard you tried. Just half-breath, after half-breath.
Amado shut the door, firmly, and the riot went with it, muffled behind the thick plating of the fire-exit. ‘You okay?’ he asked, but you couldn’t answer him yet. You were still working on the breathing part. ‘My love.’ He moved so that he could stand in front of you. ‘Easy, amor. One breath and hold it, hm? You can do that.’
You tried. Sucked in as much air as you could and held it, eyes on his, counting as he did in the cold night, until he gave you the nod to exhale again. It helped. You repeated it, one breath at a time together.
He looked un-phased, slightly damp at the forehead, black hair pressed to his temples, but that was there from the dancing anyway. You could’ve been stepping out for a smoke, from the looks of him. Tucking behind the commercial sized dumpsters for the sake of privacy. It was only the shake of your hands that dispelled the possibility.
‘Who was that, Amado?’
‘I told you. Some güey, celoso de mí.’
You shoved him; it wasn’t like you, but it sprung out anyway, clumsy palms to his chest, new, hot anger behind your ears. ‘Don’t bullshit me, Amado. Someone fucking shot at us.’
And that was new. That was something your friends had told you would happen, but had never touched you before then.
Your anger rolled off him, bounced from the black shirt to the black night around you both. He couldn’t blame you for it. You could see in his face that he understood. ‘He was only trying to scare me,’ he reasoned, ‘scare you. Asshole’s too reckless for his own good.’
‘Who?’ you insist. ‘Who the fuck?’
And then the door swung open, breaking your solitude, handle hitting the bricks hard enough to spit dust into the air. 
Rafa, possessed and lurching forward, with the gun in his hand still. 
You can’t get in the way fast enough, the barrel is to Amado’s head in an instant. He inches to the trigger—
And that’s where you wake up, where reality twists into the surreal and you’re able to jump yourself free. That didn’t happen, there were shots, yes, an escape through the back, but Rafa never followed the two of you out. You never saw him, never saw the flash of metal to Amado’s head, that’s just the bullshit that’s come since. The dream that comes back every night; a memory you’ve tried to forget, with some sick twist plastered onto the end of it, just to grind salt into the wound. Just to make it all worse.
‘Amado?’ You find yourself dry-throated and unable to call any louder. He isn’t beside you, but the sheets are pulled back from where he’s been and left. The bedside lamp is on still. You force a swallow and try again, ‘Amado?’
In a moment he’s there, in the doorway of his bedroom, robe open and chest bare. He looks more worried now than he did a week ago, under the crumbling ceiling, in the face of danger. He looks at you like Rafa’s bullet had found somewhere worthwhile to land. ‘Sorry,’ he says, pulling forward without needing an explanation. ‘I was making a call.’
You dismiss the apology. It’s fine, you don’t want him to feel like he can’t leave your side, no matter how recurring the nightmare is. ‘That fucking dream again,’ you mutter, feeling the tightness lift as he sits by your legs. The mattress goes down, your chest goes out, one deep breath after the other. ‘Every night, I’m there again.’
His hand goes to your face, fingertips brushing the shortest parts of your hair behind your ear. ‘It’ll get better.’
‘Will it?’
‘Easier,’ he corrects. ‘With time.’
You resist the urge to throw yourself back onto the pillows in frustration. You shouldn’t need time, you shouldn’t be robbing him and yourself of sleep each night. ‘Nothing even happened, Amado. No-one was hurt.’ Your voice thins. ‘I never even saw him.’
Amado had. Tall enough to see over the ducked heads and fleeing bodies, but he’d kept it to himself until you were home, back at his place and away from danger. Where you’re safe, he’d told you, and why does it matter who it was? Rafa is no-one to you. To us.
‘Why sit and torture yourself any more than your dreams do?’ he asks, letting his hands settle on the bed either side of your thighs. ‘It’s normal to be afraid. Pendejo was shooting up a club.’
‘But you aren’t—’
He cuts you off, voice calm and even, ‘And who am I, then? A normal guy?’ He’s used to it, he means, he shouldn’t be, but he is. Guns and chaos. They follow him like fire and smoke.
‘I just hate,’ you try, unable to meet his gaze suddenly. ‘I hate expecting this of you. We’re supposed to be having fun, not, not this.’ You gesture to yourself, to the bed that feels more palliative care than honeymoon right now. Things aren’t how they used to be between the two of you, no matter how hard you try to fix it.  
When you look up again, he’s smiling faintly, face warm in the sunset of the bedside lamp. ‘Amor,’ he says, ‘I would never sleep again if that’s what it took.’
You scoff.
‘I’m serious.’ He shrugs. ‘I have books I’ve been meaning to read, I can stay up and keep the dreams away, if you need me to.’
‘You’re ridiculous,’ you tell him, but you’re smiling, just about. The nightmare feels worlds away when he talks like that, put quiet behind the fire-exit again.
‘Pues, that’s love, no?’ He leans forward, presses a kiss to your cheek, then your lips. ‘Making men ridiculous.’
‘Sí,’ you breathe, into the stubble across his chin, ‘I suppose so.’
‘Get some rest,’ he says, before offering a final taste. ‘I’ll be here when you wake up.’
It won’t make all the difference, but it’s enough to get you halfway.
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mmasalva · 2 years ago
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SONG: La Camisa Negra — Juanes
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imgeekgirlfan · 2 years ago
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I'm just curious why The "Narcos Mexico Writer" chose Cubanita for Amando's love interest rather than a Mexican girl.until I realized that many women in Juárez(by the time when Amando took over the Juarez Cartel) were murdered every day. so that the reason ; he had few options for women and finally end up with woman from another country
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hausofmamadas · 8 months ago
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Meme of origin:
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Sorryyssksksksjsn had no choice but to display the 500 meta levels of straight liquid lightning fucking genius and single player 3D chess game that led to the creation of the above work of actual👏art👏
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Narco Boyfriends. :3c
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narcosmx · 1 year ago
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being amado carrillo fuentes' younger sister would include:
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a/n: forehead kisses to the anon who suggested this
okay i love this idea
this idea originated from another request made where dina's bff falls for benjamin
but the idea of being amado's younger sister still had my wheels turning
so when i imagine amado being an older brother to you, he tries his best to be hands off
whether that's because he's too busy or he knows he taught you to be a tough bitch regardless his vibes are like
if you need me to clean up your mess, obvi i will but if you could handle your own shit that would be beautiful
like i talked about before, very gives you money and blesses you because at least someone should be having fun with his money
like i'm just remembering the times amado just looked at his huge ass house in like... disinterest and i see him using you to like live vicariously through your happiness
he might not be excited about the house but seeing you be excited about it is more than enough for him
so i'm just imagining you truly like being unleashed on mexico with whatever you could fucking ask for
truly a menace to society and men across mexico
which i think lends itself well to being best friends with ramon too can you just imagine the lady killer and the man eater teaming up
idk why i get man eater vibes from amado's sister, i just do
okay tell me why i have this situation stuck in my head
amado goes into this fucking night club ready to just like let loose you know
and he's getting a drink, scoping out who he's going to take home that night and right as he's about to swoop in with this one chick
he hears it, he hears a laugh that he would recognize from like 5 miles away
bitch wips his head around and sees you giggling it up in the fucking vip section with this guy
of fucking COURSE you would both fucking end up at the same club
and so he starts like barraling over to where you are, not even to fuck up the guy just to be like "what the fuck this is my place" because sibling dynamics never fucking die
so he comes over and he's giving you a what the fuck look and the guy next to you his eyes go fucKING HUGE
scared shitless that he just made a move on amado's girl and you just like give him a nod and are like "que pasa, hermano"
and he's about to go off on you and he just looks at this terrified dude and shoos him away "quitate, cabron" he like dismisses before taking a seat next to you
"what the fuck are you doing here"
"well not trying to have a good time but i guess you have different fucking ideas"
"this is MY place, i don't want to be taking care of you all night"
and you scoffing and being like "the fuck, then dont? or go find another disco"
i'm just laughing at the idea of like you swearing just as much as your freaking brothers
or or or another idea
okay amado complaining to you about how he's not getting acosta to go along with this fucking plan that he has right, talking about how he doesn't know how he's going to string him along to this
so you take it upon yourself to pay acosta a visit to smooth things over
just picture this as you will
exhausted pissed off amado coming out of his car and approaching acosta's place to be stopped by one of his men and being like "acosta is entertaning right now, he has a woman back there"
amado's like tired of this shit and demands to be taken over
he turns the corner and he sees you and acosta sipping on tequila just fucking laughing it up
and amado is like "what fucking woman, that's my sister"
"ay llego tontin" you greet, acosta fucking bent over laughing and amado is sitting there rubbing his face like what the fuck is happening here
but in the process, acosta is telling amado about how he should've told him he had a much prettier sisters with much better ideas (just amado's ideas repackeged to acosta) LOL
and amado is sitting there like truly what the actual fuck but i will take it
as you're walking out with amado he's like pushing your head in frustration "hoy si te pasaste de verga" he like whisper yells at you before turning back to acosta and being like "thank you" LOLOL
whispers someone tell me who his love interest should be
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doobiebochana · 3 years ago
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the song choice explains itself 🧎🏻‍♀️
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© any similarities in my edit is entirely coincidental and unintentional. If I was inspired by someone elses work, I will put 'inspired by' on the caption above.
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moonlesslights · 3 years ago
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Only love can hurt like this (Amado Carrillo x Reader)
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Summary: Carrillo drags you to an unprevisted mission where the decision of which side you are on is finally in your hands. 
(Reader is an agent of the DEA, and we are ubicated in Mexico for this).
Warnings: Love triangle (AmadoxReaderxHoracio), some mentions of sex, angst, fluff.
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“There is nothing here” You whisper, not knowing if you are trying to convice Horacio or yourself. 
In front of you, the house you have walked in so many times takes form between shadows of the rising sunset. You have memories in every corner of every room, laughs echoing in your ears, words you still carry next to your heart. 
“He is. And he is not going anywhere” He scoffs back, making his way two steps ahead of you. 
Your eyes wander to the windows surrounding the lounge you were into right know, watching from the second floor the silhouettes of the men Coronel Carillo trusted the most and their cars parked among the beautiful gardens of the house. You clench your jaw trying so hard to stop the frowning taking place on your features; but you just can’t fight it for too long. This isn’t your home, you wanted to say, leave us alone. 
“It is still hot” Your head turns to Horacio again, following his voice. The man kicks down some logs off the fireplace only to reaveal incandescent ashes that are fired through the room. “He is here.”
You feel your stomach sinking, hurting. No. He can’t be here. He knew it was too dangerous, he knew it wasn’t safe to be in this city while Carrillo was looking for him... But he also knew you were here. “You really think he is going to leave you here?” You could hear your brother repeating those words to you. Felix’s face pointing to Amado playing with his kids and María at the table. “Traes a ese bato de los huevos”
Maybe you should have insisted more, maybe you should have screamed at him until he took all of his damn black shirts and got his ass up on a plane to the center of the jungle. But no, you got lost trying to eliminate all of the evidence of him and the Arellano brothers, trying so hard to lead Horacio away from them that you ended up missing the moment you failed... And the Coronel found his own way to Amado. El cabrón that never left. 
“Where is your gun?”
“Uh?” 
Carrillo raises an eyebrow and your gaze drops to your hands, empty. Weight on you hip is the only thing that warns you about your gun still on its rest position. Of course, you walked in this house without even feeling the impulse of taking it out of there, like you would even use it. 
“I’m sorry” You answer vaguely, not being able to look into his eyes. 
“We have little time before someone alerts we are here, I need you with me.” The words hit you like a train. You frown. 
“You need me?” You think, wanting to spit in his face. “Now you need me?”. Your hands still clench in fury to remember his voice telling you then, in Colombia, that you just couldn’t be in his team anymore, not only breaking up with you in that very moment, almost in front of Javier and Steve; but also telling how distracting you were for him, how the relationship was only messing up everything. Yes, you still remember screaming in frustration when he prevented you to go on the mission Pablo was shot to dead, watching your work melting into nothing when your name just disappeared between the agents that helped to catch him. 
The voice of Felix at the other side of the line, telling you that it was better for you to be out of sight, that he knew everything you did, that you accomplished your own mission and your Cali’ friends will be very happy with the news, it wasn’t enough.
You did hate Pablo Escobar. He was a murderer, a guy that didn’t deserve anything in life, and when you and Javi spent years together, risking everything only to bring justice, crying at night when it was all too much, seeing the sun rise in front of the office after you two stayed the whole night just in need a god damn track; well, you got hopeful it would be you three who’ll catch him. And hope it is always a double sided coin.
So when Horacio took the lead and in the blink of an eye, you fell in love with the same man that would break your heart twice, things started to get out of hand. Thinking it would be on your favor knowing him, getting involve, so you could always be part of the investigation, to know the next move and alert Pacho and the others of being necessary, you grow close to him. And it was okay, it was working, yes; until Carrillo kissed you and your world fell apart.
You loved him. There is nothing to argue about it. But you also learned to hate him. So much. Because when you finally thought it was all behind, that he wouldn’t bring any more grief to your life, he followed you home, in Mexico. And now he wasn’t chasing Pablo, now he wasn’t asking you to catch a terroris t. Now he was chasing your brother, now he was asking you to catch your lover. And it would be a total lie to say that that fact didn’t complete piss you off.
“We should split up.” You suggest, looking at him. “It would be easy to find him”
He chuckles, gazing at you from the corner of his eye.
“And would you tell me you found him?” He asks.
“What?”
“Would you tell me you found him?” He repeats, walking a few steps on your direction.
“Yes. What the hell are you talking about?” You speak back.
He then remains quiet, looking at you with an indescifrable expression. Your heart is racing in your chest, thinking about all the possibilities of the mean of his words. He hardens his features, pursing his lips before he states:
“I don’t trust you”.
You have to fight the smile threatening to climb onto your face.
“I don’t trust you either.” He nods, lowering his eyes for imperceptible seconds.
“We are not splitting up. I’m going to put a bullet in his skull when I find him.” Carrillo mutters, sarcastic.
You have known him for so long and you still don’t get used to how easy he takes being in life or death situations. Because you are not, because you want to throw up at the security in his statement.
“I don’t think there’s a need for that.” Good God.
Your breath gets stuck in your lungs. So hard it makes your chest hurt as you feel the color draining from your face.
Even when Horacio turns to the stairs at your back and raises his gun ready to pull the trigger, it takes you a good few seconds just to collect the right amount of courage to look back.
You know it is going to be him there, you knew his voice, you knew the feeling of his presence in the back of your neck. Amado, Amado, Amado…
The thing is: Nothing of it matters, because the moment you see his eyes narrowing at you in the growing darkness, you still feel a bullet hitting your throat in the most cruel and painful way.
“Get down!” It is the scream right beside your ear that makes you look away, wake up again to this reality.
“I’m unarmed.” Amado assures, maintaining his hands up and open.
“Don’t fucking move.” Carrillo warns anyways, taking careful steps in his direction.
You look at him, incapable of doing shit. Your brain working as fast as it can, looking for options, for answers and an scape plan for fucking Tontín.
“I’m here. This doesn’t have to take any more lives.” Amado keeps his voice low, certain. “It’s me who you want.”
“I don’t think I can agree with that.” The Coronel tilts his head, raising the gun up to Amado’s head. “Some of your men may be more open to talk than you.”
Amado keeps and indifferent expression but you can see his features darkening.
“The men here haven’t killed or done anything, some of them are kids. Let them go and I’ll talk.”
You look at him and his eyes are directed to you for only a millisecond, and your heart crushes in your chest. Ah.
He wasn’t just trying to protect his men, he was trying to protect you. Of course he knew his men were loyal, but Carrillo was here, and the man was only good for one thing: torture. And not even all the money in the world was going to keep everyone with the mouth close. Your name was going to fall, one way or another. And it would be all over.
But I won’t, he wanted to tell you, you are safe with me, because I won’t tell how many times I have loved you behind these walls. Observing your silhouette from his position, he can feel you. Closing his eyes, he can still see you there.
Amado’s eyes go to look to the windows, the sound of careful steps and indistinct chatters just confirm his thoughts. There were too few men around the house for this to be an authorized operation. Carrillo was too smart to let this pass once he knew he was here, obviously not wanting to ask for an order and risk his intentions to be known by Amado.
“I don’t think you don’t know how this is going to work, malparido.” The Coronel smirks.
“Believe me, let them go and most of them will keep their mouth shut when others like me come looking for you.” Amado tilts his head “Te va a comprar tiempo, pues.”
“What are you playing to?” Horacio asks, more to himself this time.
Amado gulps, pursing his lips. With a gun pointed to his head, pointed by no one else than the Coronel Horacio Carrillo, he expected cold sweat on his temple, fingers tingling or racing heart bumping in his chest… But nothing was happening. Rhythmically, the muscle beats one, two, three times and it doesn’t seem to flinch at the thought: This is it.
The reason was, probably, too well know by his own mind that didn’t bother him anymore. It never did, it just came for him one day, looking at you sleeping on the passenger seat, snoring softly, when his chest got warm at the realization: You were totally asleep, unconscious and indifferent of his actions at the wheel. You trusted him that, you fell asleep knowing you will be okay with him there. It was that day he continued his way making everything on his power to make himself sure that you didn’t make a mistake. Not with him. That choosing him was the right decision.
“La suerte se acaba, sooner or later, Coronel.” He comforts, drawing his eyebrows together. “And let’s be honest, this was a good strike, but it wasn’t the cleanest one, verdad?”
Horacio wasn’t a man know for fearing of the system nor his superiors, but this was Mexico, and things were so different here. If Amado gets to the police, he’s not putting a single foot in jail, in less than an hour he would be out in the street again, that’s exactly why he decided to make of this operation his call: He’s not taking Amado to the justice, he’s only going to a damp basement where he will be interrogated in a much more effective way. And even though he’s eager for answers, the process isn’t safe, the operation was risky and his name will figure as the top enemy again.
Mistakes were and will be done. And he can’t get killed for it, not yet.
“We’ll see what can we do for your men. No more than little rats between all this, right?” Carrillo mocks, now, inspecting Amado’s position, who nods at his words.
What are you doing?, What were you thinking?, you want to ask, scream, at him. How was he so confortable with that idea right now?, all while you plead for some kind of miracle, to wake up, to make everyone forget, to just fucking get shot just so he can take the distraction and run from Horacio.
But nothing happens, and your options start to disappear with the same facility they came in.
Then, Carrillo looks at you, frowning. His free hand moves and gives you a sign to get close.
“Give me the handcuffs.” He orders, pointing to the metal piece on your hip.
Your hand tries to reach for the safety at least two times before you get it right. Yes, it is until that moment that you realize how bad your trembling is. Horacio was going to notice and you just were so fucking scared.
You never thought this day would come, maybe, that you would’ve been here, seeing how Amado Carrillo Fuentes gets handcuffed by one of the most feared men in the Narco’s world. That you would see his fall. You just never thought today, in the morning, while drinking your coffee and staring at his photo on one of the blackboards, that ten hours later you would be seeing him in person again, like this.
The thing is, when you came back to Mexico and began to know and catch up on what your brother had been building here, you weren’t really looking for someone. Specially not after what happened with Horacio. But you did know Amado, you always did: He talked with Pacho a lot while you were undercover in Colombia. You and the Cali guys tended to laugh at how oblivious Amado was that the girl sitting with them at the business table was no less than Miguel Ángel’ sister.
So obviously, when you came back and Amado was told everything, he was pissed. He ranted about how little trust was put on him and how all of the plazas would be hearing about the audacity… Until they didn’t.
He did, in fact, not speak to Felix for about two weeks until he began to listen and understand motives, but mostly because he visited you a lot and you were living in Miguel’s house, so he had to see his stupid face all the time. And also, you could add, Felix was clueless Amado was mad at him, so he talked to him like nothing was happening while your favorite guy in black held himself from throwing hands. 
So he stayed. You both got to know each other more, talking for hours about everything you could think of: your childhood, your friends, the business, y’know, even gossiping about all of the plazas. You could listen to him every day, ranting about the problems with the planes, with the routes, with an asshole that let himself catch, anything; oh, but you never get to listen when he talked with Mayo and Felix about how smart you were, how beautiful you looked wishing for the printer to die or how your voice was so calming to hear. You never saw how he looked at you, how he started to fall in love with your kindness and curiosity for everything, for your adoration to the smallest things in life.
You were so different from anything he had seen before. So clumsy that he wondered how the hell you were still alive. So determined he would choose you to lead all the god damn plazas if you wanted. You trusted to much that he was scared someone would hurt you. You were so cunning he trusted in every choice you made, following you blindfolded.
So, this time, he didn’t doubt to nod at you when the handcuffs were hanging from your fingers, Carrillo already outstretching towards them. “Está bien” he motions, “está bien”… Except, it wasn’t.
The metal slips off your skin, colliding against the wooden floor at your feet in two hits that freeze these very seconds. Horacio’s eyes follow the artefact on its way down, slowly starting to frown at the action while you gaze at Amado, trapped in his dark pupils. One hit. “No” He motions again, facing the defeat. “When did I ever listen to you?, when did you ever listen?” You wish to ask. Two hits.
In just what for you now it’s a reflect, your hand reaches for the grip of your gun, taking it out when Amado’s firm voice shouts a short and demanding “No!” at you. 
Carrillo’s expression changes with violence, glancing at the Narco’ Lord an instant before the cold canyon holded in your hands its pointed to his very temple. A click accompanying the movement of your thumb gives him the one clear sign. 
Carrillo raises his eyebrows, letting his lips part for a desperate gulp of air. His eyes focus slowly on you and his loaded hand wavers in its position. The surprise that seizes his expression allows you to see that side of him, so vulnerable, that for so long you wished to be able to touch, even if it was for a few mere seconds.
“What are you doing?” His voice is purely a whisper above the wind. You open your mouth, believing you could just explain, that you could make up a valid excuse to betray everything and everyone you ever fought for. But you can’t make a single noise and Horacio disbelief starts to hit on his gut “Are you fucking kidding me!?”
You flinch a step back as an instinct, but your finger keeps a safe pressure on the trigger. You wish you could look at Amado but the fear of any movements Carrillo could make during just a second of your distraction keeps your eyes glued to his face. A betrayed face. 
How dare he look so hurt?, with his brows drawn together and his lips parted. You can swear if you listened closely, his racing heartbeat would echo off the walls. And the vision is killing you, because three years ago you would have sworn that you would share your entire life with this man; because two years ago you shared the same expression that his face bears now. And it was killing you.
Amado tries to move, stomping towards you calmly, the floorboards creaking under his weight. Horacio reaffirms the gun in his hand, turning to see him threateningly, rectifying in an expression that he would not hesitate to pull the trigger right there if Amado gave him a sufficient excuse to do so.
"Coronel, is everything okay, sir?" Footsteps approaching at alarming speed from the ground floor crown the damn situation. "Coronel, shall we proceed with immediate support?"
Your face pales at the threat of the intruder about to enter the room. Horacio's eyes remain looking at you, he doesn't flinch for a second and it's because he knows, because he must know that as soon as that soldier puts both feet on the last step, the situation will turn 180 degrees. He will have the upper hand again and it would be game over for you and Amado.
But Carrillo's head was far from starting to think about the only option in which you could. The voice coming up the stairs is distant but it awakens his senses quickly, senses that seemed numbed to the one now holding a gun to his head. What are you doing, what are you doing, what are you doing...?
The second step in line creaked under the weight of a soldier, but the voices below told him that more than one were following him. His eyes dart at the shadows that kept asking for an answer to his name; just for a second, before returning to the front and losing the air when colliding, stopping against your wet lashes and suffocating irises that seemed to want to drink him whole.
Remember. He remembers. Everything. The sunny morning of the first day he saw you, scolding Javier Peña for not having ordered the documents the office needed while Agent Murphy held his stomach, laughing at the top of his lungs. He remembers the way your eyes found his... The way you smiled. Without warning, without a reason: You saw him and you smiled. Welcoming him so simply, so informally, it seemed like he was approaching an old group of friends rather than the officers tasked with telling him where to shoot.
He shook your hand and listened to every word that left your lips, amazed at the ease with which you handled any topic in the investigation, laying out information on each of the targets and expanding all the cards on the table before he could even think of one.
You were so different from anything he had ever seen before. A little light of hope among the horror that was lived. A pause for the restlessness of his nights, when you two spent hours locked in a car praying that the targets would just decide to leave their home at any given moment. Moons passed for the first time you made him laugh, other suns more when he decided to tell you the only joke he seemed to know, only in an attempt to be the cause of that thunderous laugh that characterized you. That was also the first day you hugged him goodbye, just like you did with Murphy and Peña, just like he hadn't hugged anyone in a long time. And you smiled, again, all the time; making him search for you like a fucking teenager.
And then he saw you crying, for the first time, and realized that he cared about you, that it hurt him, and that helplessness bothered him. And then he kissed you, for the first time, and realized that he had fallen in love with you, that between sheets and long nights, the only thing he wanted to see there before closing his eyes were you. And so, when you ventured into an ambush with the DEA and one of the hitmen managed to put two bullets in your body, things became clear right in front of him. The way he yelled at Javier for having carried out such a mission without his knowledge, for having put your life in danger in that way... Everything coincided with his heart wanting to escape from his own chest. Because when he saw you, asleep, breathing heavily, his soul was crushed; and when your eyelids fluttered limply at him, and your eyes shone at the sight of him, his legs went weak. And he realized that he loved you, with every little bit of his entire strength, he loved you.
So it wasn't fair, he knew, it wasn't fair for him to cut you off from the investigation and his team in a vile attempt to protect you, to keep safe the one thing that kept him fighting. It was selfish and ruin, but it was the only thing that would keep you alive. And with the list of attacks on those involved in Pablo's arrest growing daily, his mind was made up. You were out.
And what better than closing with a flourish and ending the relationship once and for all? You would never be able to forgive him, in any way, and he would become the main target for many in a short time. One thing is offset by the other and you, safe. He was determined, he was sure that in the end, all this would keep you out. But my God, with you nothing could ever be so easy.
After Javier was removed from the investigation, you were sure that they were not going to do the same to you. Out of loyalty to your brother and for screwing Horacio up even more in a game where he thought he was the only shooter... You weren't going to leave Colombia.
And he should have expected it, but he didn't. And he hated you for every time you called a superior to preserve a position, whatever it was, within the team. And he adored you even more for the way you stood up to him, the way you dusted yourself off and told him to go to hell.
So that was the problem, wasn't it? He adored every little bit of you, admired you, loved you. He loved your determination, your freedom, and who was he then to change you? If it was him alone who got stuck in time, loving on as cold as christmas eve, who was he to force you?... The problem then is no longer the DEA, it is no longer Pablo or the hit men, it is no longer pride or selfishness; The problem is that he kept loving you while you held a gun to his head.
And there was nothing he wanted to do to change it.
"Stop!" He exclaims suddenly, causing Amado and you to jump in your place. "Everything is well here, soldier, return to your position."
Silence fills the next few seconds, quickening the hearts of everyone present there.
"Are you sure, Coronel?"
"Agent Y/L/N here accidentally hit me hard, but I don't see why I have to be explaining myself just so my orders can be carried out, soldier."
That was it, that tone. The great Coronel Carrillo and his unquestionable presence. Ask one more question and you'll have your bags already packed outside your room. No one was against him, no one except, maybe... you.
"Yes, Coronel. Immediately." One of the uniformed men downstairs answers.
Each step that seems to sound further and further away becomes a soothing rhythm for your heart. However, your head continues to throb and cold sweat trickles down your temples little by little.
What now? You want to ask, what are we going to do?... What are you going to do?
But it is neither Horacio nor you who decide to speak first, but Amado. The only idiot without any weapon is the one who decides to take the lead in the game, taking it in directions that you wish would never have been an option.
"Ey, ya estuvo, ¿no?" The dark-haired man's voice joins in a whisper to his hands lowering to a more comfortable position. "You know what's going on here, right? It's over now."
"Amado..." The desperation in your voice goes unnoticed by Horacio, but your call makes the pilot's muscles tense. Still, his gaze remains directed at the other man.
"Si la agarran, la matan, cabrón." Amado snaps, frowning. His hand reaches out the window, pointing at the little of the Coronel's men he could see in the darkness. "Or what? Do you think that if one of my people gets her name out, they'll be very happy? They won't even let her get to jail, le van a meter un tiro un pendejo día y ya.”
Carrillo clenches his jaw, refusing to respond to Amado's threat, refusing to agree with him as much as this mattered to him. But the pilot had had enough, and if the feds or anyone else even thought to show up, everything would go to hell. He didn't have time to play this fucking game.
"This is over now." He repeats, looking to hit the target. "Tell them to release my men and you have me..." The Coronel's gaze travels from your position to Amado's, slowly, almost listening to the running of the blood through the arteries. The pilot gulps. "I'm going to give them everything they want... Names, locations, todo el pinche paquete, pues..."
“No.”
“¿Qué?”
“No.” Carrillo states again. His eyes are fire and his hand is so tense that you fear the movements of the digit on the trigger.
Horacio then bends his knees and stretches to take the handcuffs that were still resting a few centimeters from your feet. The sound of metal clashes between the pieces of the artifact echo in your ears, a chill becoming present with each one of them.
“I don’t give a damn about the names and the fucking rats that work with you, i’m sure they’re going to be very happy about the trash taking itself out of the competence…” He looks at you for a brief moment before putting his own gun to his belt again and getting closer to Amado, only the right amount of steps to take his hands and getting the handcuffs around his wrists. “But you’re not going to a fucking interrogatory, you’re not going with the americans. I know your type: you will say anything to get yourself out, information of false importance that would make us look in the other way.”
“I know I’m not getting out.” Amado corrects, closing his eyes for a second and then looking at the Coronel.
And that hits you. The calmness in Amado's voice makes you bite your lower lip only to not release a sharp cry when the meaning of his words clings onto your chest. But you can help the anxiety that runs through your entire system, weakening you; your brain stuck with the only thought the kind eyes of Amado can cause you: I’m going to lose you. I’m going to lose you.
I can’t lose you. 
The metallic pieces emit a soft "click" when they finish adjusting to the pilot's skin. The shock of that very fact draws your attention to your own hand and the trigger under your finger. And the world froze: Were you going to pull it? When? Now?... Were you going to kill Horacio?
And then, he found you, just like he did years ago, just like he did every time you needed. He stood there, ready to catch you, now and again. Amado’s eyes were looking in your direction, full and dark lashes on a tired gaze, bringing you back to him, only to him and his small glimpse of a smile on his face. This is it, you feel in your chest, this connection. This love that consumes every part of me when I’m with you. The moon makes a beautiful reflection on his eyes, parting in a thousand stars that dance on the blackness of his pupils. He wants to talk to you, to kiss you, but his eyes are telling everything, you can hear his voice running through your veins: Eres el regalito más hermoso que Dios me pudo haber enviado.
You remember, everything. The way you both fell in love with each other before even touching, the way he made you feel like home every time you were with him. And he learned to love you in so many different ways: by your intelligence, always supporting you, marveling himself by how smart you were; by your personality, always so happy, so lovely, so, so much you; by your body, loving every morning that you came downstairs with a beautiful summer dress, or maybe just his t-shirt and panties, or your work clothes, he was just so glad you were the first thing he saw when he wakes up.
And you can’t deny how much love you have for him. Because, spending entire nights watching movies, making love, sleeping so close you lose consciousness of where your body ended and his started, laughing. Days riding horses on some of your dates, when he took you to watch the sunrise en la sierra, kneeling before you, nervous as you had never seen him, but with a smile so bright that could overshadow the sun itself: “I know we can’t get married, not now, I know that we can’t wear rings as a couple should, but now, I’m just asking you that you let me wear this necklace on me…” He showed it to you, a beautiful golden necklace with a cross with two little rings crossed over its center. Your eyes were watery. “To let me have it next to my heart because I’m tired of not having something on me to prove that your with me all the time. I’m asking you to marry me, without papers, without anything, just us and God be witness, to let me have you as my wife for the rest of my life…”
‘Yes’ wasn’t enough, it will never be. And when he told you you didn’t need to wear a necklace if you didn’t want to, you knew you could cry, telling him: “But I do want one…”.
You were wearing it right now, under your shirt, cold against your skin, and burning still. And you love it so much, you loved him so much… So much that you would think it hurts, but it doesn’t. That’s the thing with the right one, isn’t it?, he gives you so much calm, so much safety, he loves you and lets you love him, making a daily lunch before going to work, the greatest gift of all.
And you can’t lose it.
But when you look at him again, feeling the salty tears burning on your lips, he asks you for it: Déjame hacer esto. Let me keep you safe.
“Good. Then I don’t have to worry you don’t know where are you going.” Horacio spills, looking directly to Amado’s face.
You came too late into my life, and you are leaving me too soon, you wanted to plead.
Amado wants to reassure you, smile at you and let you know that he knows. “Horacio Carrillo is going to kill me, I know, and he’s going to enjoy every second of it, but I promise I would hold on to your memory ‘till my last breath, so this love will be the last thing I can feel.”
“Let’s get you out of here, shall we?” The coronel murmurs, stepping back. “Your stupidity will get you on the river later.”
And that’s it for you.
You frown, Amado opens his mouth, but your mind was made up. The gun spins on your hand and with a movement so sudden and dry, the thud awakens your senses to the moment the body of Coronel Carrillo drops to the floor. Now, that was a little bit louder.
“What the hell are you doing?” Amado snaps, raising his brows at you.
“I could ask you the same damn thing.” You purse your lips, looking at the floor. “He will be fine, it was just a hit.”
Amado starts shaking his head, frowning with a growing concern. His hands try to reach you but the handcuffs force him to reconsider that choice.
“You need to let me do this, or you will loose all of this” He whispers, desperation filling his voice.
“I can’t let you go with Horacio.” You shake your head, slow. “I can’t.”
“This is the only way…” He hurries.
“No.” You frown.
Your eyes wander to the windows, then to the house you’re in: watching the memories in the pictures on the walls, the soft couches, the furniture full of ornaments, the easiness of breathing there…
“Amor…”
“It can’t be that bad, right?” Amado looks at you, tilting his head. “Living together, I mean. We can try to stand each other for some years.”
The pilot starts shaking his head, slow. Like thinking he didn’t listen right. 
“You love your job.” He whispers, looking at you, trying to understand what you’re thinking. 
“But I love my family even more.” 
...
“Get out the way!, The Coronel is hurt, please take him to the hospital!” Your screams gets everyone moving. 
“Where do you want us to take a este cabrón?” A soldier asks, pointing with his head at  Amado, handcuffed in front of you.
“I’ll take him. I need all of you clearing this site and releasing every worker.”
“But...”
“Orders of the Coronel.” You rush. “C’mon soldier.”
“Yes, agent. Do you need someone that help you with him?”
“No. I can do it. We need the maximum discretion.” He nods, still quite unsure of your decision. 
You and Amado get into the car you arrived in with Horacio. He can’t help a smile crossing his face once you’re in. Running away with your lover... That’s something you still didn’t tought you were going to do sometime. 
And hell, doesn’t it feels right?
...
The Coronel didn’t take that long to wake up. A horrific headache and a loose prisioner are the only things he registers before the soldiers already asking questions. 
He sits up, taking his face between his hands and asking for some space. Everything feels like moving and the colors are still blurry in front of his eyes. Only a sentence is what makes him go back to reality: 
“Agent Y/L/N took Amado Carrillo with her, do you want us to send some more protection for the site and for her?”
“What?”
“Yes.  Agent Y/L/N took Amado Carrillo...”
“Did she?”
“Yes, Coronel.” The soldier freezes under Horacio’s gaze. “Weren’t that your orders, Coronel?”
You were probably still around, he couldn't have lasted that long unconscious. If he sents someone to find you immediately... They can still get you and bring you back, as a traitor. They can still stop you and...
“Yes. That were my orders.” He clenches his jaw and stands up. “And free the workers. We’re done here.”
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WOOF, again another super overdue reblog but well worth the wait bc this shit is actually golden/magic/fire in a way I totally didn’t expect from this pair specifically??? So, fucj it, let’s get into it:
✷ A certain someone had given him enough experiences to develop a quite accurate instinct for this sort of thing.
SKSKSKS already dying at the way that Pacho just haunts Amado’s entire psyche
✷ Their bodies intertwined in complete darkness, surprisingly easy, both knowing exactly what to do, and Amado couldn’t help but wonder where Mayo got his experiences from.
I love love love this so much bc idk what it is about Mayo, possibly just the fact that he literally gives not a single fuck, but I don’t have to suspend a n y disbelief at the prospect that he’s touched tips with a gentleman, in his day, a time or two mayhaps this is why Benjamin was making eyes at him all flirty at Dina’s wedding hmmm??? Someday I will write that fic.... but I digress
✷ “How did you sleep?” That could mean two very different things, but either way his answer was the same. “Pretty good.”
NOSKSK I SLAPPED MY KEYBOARD SO HARD JUST NOW, i knocked my laptop off my lap bc Amado’s literally like, “sorry, did you mean, how did I 😴😴sleep? Or how did I 🥴🥴 sleeeeep?”
✷ But then Mayo just shrugged. “Gracias compa! If you ever need a favor, or a friend…you know where to find me.” He heard the meticulous way “friend” was pronounced, and he didn’t miss the suggestive gaze, right on the fine line between being flirtatious and blunt.
Idk why but something about Mayo being like calculated but flirty, is like a) such a hot flex and I can’t even articulate why, and b) such a mirror for Pacho bc I feel like even though they’re VERY different people, that meticulousness is something Mayo would share with Pacho y’know, like they’re both crafty mfs in business and love
✷ Those times gave him a brief illusion that the Colombian was his.
UGH OKYASISJSKSKSJSJJSSN ALREAYD KNOW IM GONNA BE SCREAMING THIS FOR THE REST OF THIS REBLOG BUT THE LONGING AND THE LOSS HERE, ALL THE ALLUSIONS TO PACHO ARE REALLY JUST— LIKE HE CANT ESCAPE IT, HE CANT HELP MAKING COMPARISONS I TRULY JUST AKSOSIW/&/8:2!
✷ In a way, that was the worst part, because he couldn’t even find a reason to be mad. How could he be mad at Pacho for not staying for a drink, when Pacho helped him to get half of the US market?
NO FORREAAAALLL THO I remmeber feeling the exact same way watching S3 and being so bummed for Amado at Pacho not wanting to go out and celebrate the big win and being so disappointed that like his homie was kinda checked out of the business by that point. It was such a bummer to watch and I’m not even in love with the man sksks maybe that’s why Amado latched onto May— er uhhhh, I mean Marta. Sorry getting my fic and my canon mixed up, which is like pretty par for the course with your writing
✷ This dark, enclosed space is perfect for sex, but terrible for smoking.
When I tell you I snorted so loud at this, like so loud my neighbors probably heard it bc how many times have we talked in the Discord about the glossy on-screen vs smelly reality of how much everyone fucking chain-smokes on this show sksk
✷ That makes perfect sense, but almost too much sense for people like them. It feels too effortless, too authentic. “Also, what other options do I have? El Señor de Los Cielos sounds cool, but lord of the sea just sounds like some dirty pirate with golden teeth.”
PFFFFFFFFTTTTJDJDJDJD NO BC IM NOW JUST PICTURING ALBERTO GUERRA AS A REGULAR FUCKIN JACK SPARROW and like I gotta be honest, the picture I have in my head is .... like I really don’t hate it? Like I weirdly feel like he could rock it being a sexy asf pirate?
✷ Mayo apparently doesn’t mind as he lights one for himself, the little spark shines on his face...
WOOOOOF god, I love this detail so much, SO gotdamn cinematic. I can see it as though I filmed it myself. Just *muah* fucking excellent prose
✷ Amado bursts out laughing at that ridiculous mental image, and the best part is that it doesn’t even look bad. Mayo as a dirty pirate? Hilarious, but not bad.
SKSKSKSKSKSKSKSKSK NO BUT I SWEAR I DIDNT READ THIS AHEAD OF TIME, I almost always comment as I read, so the fact that literallyskkdkdkdkee Amado and I had the same exact thought of like “wow, Mayo as a pirate, what a hilarious thou— well..... y’know actually.... the more I think about it, like oh actually I’d still totally hop on that dick this is kind of working for me”
✷ But this is different; it’s lighthearted and simple, even contagious, like smiling doesn’t need a reason. It makes him want to smile too.
*bangs gavel repeatedly despite the fact that the courtroom is empty except for 2 sleeping cats* OH SURE???????? LIKE SMILING DOESNT NEED A REASON ???????? SSKOSSKWJWHAODOFJWBWOQOWJQJWJ GOTDAMN imjustsofuckingsorry but i am— that is such a fucking BANGER of a line. And here, yes. You guessed it folks, we come to a scrrrrreeeeeeeching halt at our first stop, one I like to call, “So Fucking Good, I’m Mad I Didn’t Write It/My Friends Are All So Talented”
✷ There isn’t a fixed schedule, of course, that would be fucking weird, but they can always find out when is a good time for the other person, meaning business is going smoothly and no one’s trying to kill them at the moment.
I love how pencilling in a date? fuck sesh? is contingent on like whether or not other cartels are actively trying to blow them to pieces or burn their boats down, or turn them into swish cheese with a machine gun as they’re trying to make their escape boarding a plane on a private runway. And like I can tooooootally relate me, who can’t be bothered to get together with a friend for coffee if I didn’t get enough sleep the night before so yeah, pretty much exactly the same Fuckships? Relationships really are hard work.
✷ One, they literally have never fucked on dry land. Two, he’s always the one running around. Mayo has never been to Juárez, at least not for this matter.
PFFFFFFTTTTTTJDJDJD not me talking about relationships being hard work and Amado seconds later just, “y’know Mayo, why am I always the one who comes to you. Like are you even committed to this fuckship relationship? Bc I really don’t see you putting in the work.”
✷ Mayo snorts, “on these boats?! What made you think that?”
“I don’t know, man. You’re here every time.”
NOOOOO I AMSKSKSKS S DYING bc ngl, I have never given a single fucking thought to where Mayo might actually live bc I think I also thought he lowkey just lived in a houseboat or something djdjdjdje
✷ ... because boats are the perfect place to do what they do. They can just sail out, park anywhere and all of a sudden, it’s like the whole world disappears. Whatever they do stays in the middle of nowhere ...
OH WHY IS THIS SO UNEXPECTEDLY ROMANTIC THO???????
✷ A strong sense of deja vu suddenly hits him. The first time Pacho came to his new house, in this exact same living room, whispering in his ear, “now pick a bedroom.”
okay, first off.... now pick a bedroom FUCKINF HOTTTTTTT And secondly, once agaaaaiiinnnn, the way you’ve woven little echoes of Pacho all throughout this as like Amado’s entire reference point for fuckships relationships with other men, bc Pacho was his first. Like it makes so much sense but also really does up the emotional anti and adds tension in way that I think is really clever, just bc Amado and Mayo are both like so terminally chill it’d be hard to manufacture otherwise? Idk if that makes any sense sksksksksks but i guess what im trying to say is just imlovingit
✷ Interestingly, he has been thinking about Pacho less frequently, at least less intensely. What just happened used to be a regular occurrence, but just now it took him by surprise.
JESUSSSS NO BC EVERYONE SJSJSJS SHUT UP THIS IS THE MOST REEAALL STATE OF MIND, POST-BREAKUP. It’s that moment where you remember you’d been feeling a lot of emotional pain, but the thing that reminds you of it is more the absence of the pain? Which is like a relief and also the fucking worst sjsjs bc it’s fully, “don’t think of the purple elephant,” except it’s like, “oh damn, I haven’t thought about So-And-So for 2 days, what progress! that’s so aweso— AW FUCKINN GREAT. I was thinking about how I haven’t been thinking about So-And-So, and now I’m just thinking about them again”
✷ Mayo is leaning sideways on the marble table, head slightly tilted to the side, patiently waiting. He doesn’t seem to be bothered by the unexpected silence. If anything, he looks curious.
Okayokayokay so I LOVE the idea that Mayo is one of those ppl that’s like so comfortable with silence, that he rarely says anything, but like it’s not awkward really unless you make it awkward? And bc i have be insufferable to draw comparisons to my blorbo and make everything about me it’s not the kind of like shy, introverted, silent-for-survival’s sake quietness of Barrón, it’s like waaywaywayyyyy more laid back which is so on brand for him
✷ He doesn’t care. If he looks up, he can see eye to eye with Jesus. For a brief moment he doesn’t care about that either. Why should he? They’re both going to hell anyway.
OH YOU BROUGHT THE CATHOLIC GUILT INTO THIS MF AND I AM ACTHALLY ???? FUCKIGNSJDJDJDJDJD HYPERVENTILATING ??? AT HOW STEAMY THIS IS????? AND THEN YOU OPTED FOR THE KILLSHOT RIGHT BTWN MY EYES WITH “Why should he? They’re both going to hell anyway” ???? I MEAN— HOW VERY DARE YOU???
✷ For some reason Mayo always woke up before him in their previous encounters, so this is actually the first time Amado sees him asleep.
It’s really so true how different ppl look when they’re asleep I for the record look like an actual slob goblin so this doesn’t at all apply to me like more childlike and innocent than when they’re awake and seeing that facet of Mayo would be absolutely faaaaaaaascinating, like I too would be creepin, watching this mf sleep sksksks
✷ Sometimes he forgets that he doesn’t have to hide her existence anymore. No one can hurt her now.
Oh friend..... uhhhhhh WHY??? WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME????? HOW HAVE I WRONGED YOU??? WHY WOULD YOU DROP THIS 10 TON ANVIL ON MY HEAD AND THEN RUN AWAY LAUGHING ??? THIS IS SO ... YOUVE JUST FILLETED MY HEART WITH A GINSU KNIFE AND IM ACTUALLY TRYING TO KEEP THE SHREDDED PIECES TOGETHER WITH SCOTCH TAPE AND IM FEELING FINE ABOUT IT
✷ Amado understands that. Really, he does. But what about him? Hasn’t he always treated Pacho with utmost respect, trust and adoration? Hasn’t he been the best business partner, a good friend and more? What about them?
JYEEEEEEEZUS FUCKING CHRIST DUDE THIS IS JUST THE MOST GUTTING THING “what about them” I’m fine! It’s FINEEEEEEEEEE
✷ But respect does nothing to ease the pain, so he does the only thing he knows whenever he’s in a bad place these days. He dials the familiar number.
WOOOOF okay there’s this song called Brutal Hearts by Bedouin Soundclash, and it’s all about like two lovers who are clearly using each other but one is a little more attached than the other and it goes:
Are you the brutal heart? Are you the brutal heart that I’ve been looking for? ‘Cause if you’re looking for love, you can look for that door.
And this other part that goes:
I don’t mind at all. I don’t mind that you only call me when you want. And I’m just glad you want me at all.
And this is just!!!!! It’s giving me those viiiibes dude
✷ He just desperately needs to let out his frustration in someone, someone who doesn’t mind.
NOOOOOOSTOOOOPPTPPPPP WHY IS THIS SUCH JUST THE FUCKING HOTTTTTEEEEST THING THO
✷ Amado knows he’s not talking about the sex. That was never bad. That’s never the bad part with anyone.
Idk what it is about this particular fic, like maybe it’s the fact that you haven’t written this pairing before, but you’re really tapping into an internal monologue for Amado with these little observations, “That’s never the bad part with anyone,” that I am LIVING FOR, like that shit is my absolute kryptonite, it really puts me so in his head and in the moment
✷ But Mayo has always been on his own. Maybe he’s more of a lone wolf than any of them. Maybe that’s why Amado keeps coming back.
UGGGGHHHSJSJSJSJDJDOAKYAYYYY IM PRETTY SURE THIS JUST DETONATED A BOMB INSIDE MY HEAD bc I just realized it’s such a another subtle allusion to Pacho like it would make so much sense that Amado would find it comforting that Mayo’s such an independent spirit bc it means he can never lose him to found-family, the way he did with Pacho, but it also means he’s less likely to get as invested in Mayo bc he’ll always sort of be at arms length and GODDDDD ITSNJUST SNSODKDKSNE IM FLIPPING MY DAMN DESK OVER BC ITS SO GOOD, ITS SUCH PROSE, ITS SO SHOW-DONT-TELL
✷ … the kind of plan that only Mayo can pull off, because the asshole knows everyone and somehow always gets what he wants from these connections.
Idk why but the undertone of admiration and butthurt-ness in this is sending me skskssksks as though Amado hasn’t been super skilled at working his own connections like mans is the biggest trafficker in the world at that point, and he’s still like “ugh, that Mayo. He’s so much cooler than me. Why’s he so cool. Ugh, I hate him. But I love him but I hate him.”
✷ The nonchalance and casual cruelty send an exciting chill down his spine, rushing blood to somewhere that it absolutely shouldn’t go right now.
PFFFFFTTTTTTTTTTKDDJJDJDJDJ THIS SWITCH THO from sentimentality, lfondly remembering the good ole days when everyone used to play nicely in the sandbox, to just ferally turned on about how much Mayo doesn’t give a single fuck about anyoennaksksks I cannot, at all, in any way, relate -> this is what a pack of falsehoods looks like in case you were curious
✷ “When you…wait, they tried to burn the ship while you were on the ship?”
OKYA IM SCREAMINFKDKD bc this is always something I’d wondered on the show, liek at first I assumed bc of the way it was shot, that they just torched his favorite boat, but it makes WAAAAAYYYY more sense, given how pissed and generally savage and ruthless Dina was, that she’d actually probably try to literally roast this man alive god, what a woman on his favorite boat
✷ He’s had friends killed. He has killed friends. Mayo is right, because a burn on the arm is nothing with their standard. He shouldn’t care this much. He doesn’t know when he started to.
Sorryyyytjfjdjdjd I know casually murdering your friends for business purposes is like Not Funny but that first sentence is so like “¯\_(ツ)_/¯ you win some, you lose some!” is really making me cackle. BUT THEN ALSO THE REALIZATION THAT HE ACTUALLY CARES WHAT HAPPENS TO MAYO IS JUDT— I AM SCRWAMING, CRYING, PUNCHING WALLS
✷ “But try to do it quietly. We don’t want to end up like Benjamín.”
“Please Amado, we both know how to keep things quiet pretty well.”
SKSKSKSKSKKKSKSJSJSNSBS I HAVE NOTHING COHERENT TO SAY EXCEPT THIS IS MY FUCKINT FACE RN
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✷ Turns out things can only be so quiet when you’re torturing and killing people daily. Mayo even burned a bunch of people alive. Of course he did.
THINGS CAN ONLY BE SO QUIET WHEN YOURE TORTURING AND KILLING PEOPLE DAILY. Everything about this whole ass fuckinskskskskn paragraph is straight tf up, pure, unadulterated, neon, white lightning comedic gold. I love the way it’s phrased almsot like a voiceover in a movie, like in my head, I’m seeing that scene where Mayo’s leaning back in that lawn chair, just calming sipping his beer, smoking his cigarette while he watches these men barbecue to death a few feet in front of him, and hearing Amado’s voice, narrating over it like, “Resulta que cosas solo pueden ser tan tranquilas cuando estas torturando y matando a gente a diario ...”
✷ He will miss this, he knows, every bit of it.
AGAIN, FOR THE THOUSANDTH TIME, ALL OF THIS BEING IN THE SHADOW OF PACHO LEAVING THE BUSINESS AND SEEING HIM FORNTHEBLAST TOME LIKE IVE ACTUALLY FULLY MELTED INTO A PUDDLE ON THE FLOOR AND PEOPLE ARE STEPPING ON ME, LOOKING AT THEIR SHOE WITH DISGUST AND THEN SCRAPING ME OFF AS THEY WALK AWAY
✷ The old times are slipping away, faster everyday and he can’t stop it. He wants Pacho, needs Pacho to be here, to remind him that it’s possible to have something actually good come out of this business, besides money he can’t spend in ten life times ... not even Pacho can give him what he craves for … The way Pacho is willing to risk everything for his Cali family, the way Acosta was willing to die for Mimi, that is what he wants. And he hasn’t felt that since he lost his daughter.
I don’t even have anything articulate to say about this except that like fuck, Amado really does end up so alone at the end of it all. Like yes, in the show, he ends up with Marta but he’s lost so many others along the way, and you can just tell the money isn’t even worth it and has never really been the draw for him in the first place. It reminds me of that conversation he has with Acosta when he’s like “I like people more than money” and Amado agrees. Like I think that is the god’s honest truth but he forgets about it until it’s too late
✷ “You will find your way out too, and you will find someone to do it with. You know that, right?”
UGHHHSHSKSKSKEJWJWBWBWHEJN OKAY JUST TAKE A SEARING HOT KNIFE AND JAM IT STRAIGHT THROUGH MY STERNUM INTO MY HEART WHY DONT YOU, BC I WOKE UP THIS MORNING AND SAID, “YKNOW WHAT’S MISSING FROM MY LIFE???! MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL EVISCERATION. YES THAT’S WHAT IT IS!!! ILL HAVE SOME OF THAT WITH A GLASS OF ORANGE JUICE AND A SIDE OF SCRAMBLED EGGS THANKS”
✷ He doesn’t know how Pacho read his mind, and also doesn’t know the answer to that question, but he smiles and says yes, because both of them deserve to hear it.
BECAUSE BOTH OF THEM DESERVE TO HEAR IT INCAAAAAAAAAANT EVENSODJSJD FUCKING HANDLE THESE HITS, JUST BACK TO BACK, ONE RIGHT AFTER THE OTHER, BY THE END OF THIS FIC IM GONNA BE IN A FUCKING VEGETATIVE STATE
✷ ... and just like that, the air is again filled with a relaxed atmosphere. “They’re your supply, and right now my supply is you, so I need to know if that’s true.”
I love Mayo’s cluelessness at Amado getting all butthurt about the term “relationship.” Like I feel like someone could put a gun to Mayo’s head and he would just casually smirk and sip from his beer, cool as can be
✷ Mayo silently holds his gaze, completely chill like he has nothing to hide, and if Amado knows anything about the man, is that he can maintain that pretense for as long as he wants.
Re: the above comment sksks I get the feeling that Mayo is actually the worst person to get into an argument with bc he’s so That Guy. The One that you’ll be screaming at and instead of fighting back like you want him to, he’ll just fuckin laff in your face and refuse to play ball a trait that I don’t find to be sexy, or attractive, or infuriatingly endearing at all. Nopenopenope, no siree bub
✷ “Maybe? I thought it would be fancier, you know, like your house.”
Amado snorts, “I’m sure the DEA would love that too.”
Not me and Mayo just being the same person here, like just based on Amado’s house and the way he dresses, I would also expect the planes to be a little more impressive than those piece of shit tiny Cessnas that literally look like they’re being held together by fuckinfkdk barbed wire and staples
✷ Mayo nods, not in a casual, dismissive way, but like he truly understands, and maybe he does. Maybe Mayo also bought his first boat on a payment plan, and kept it running as long as he could.
Dang, why do I get the feeling that the boat the Arellanos set on fire, was Mayo’s first boatsksksk just to add insult to injury bc Dina was going full scorched earth policy once again, what a woman
✷ Mayo climbs into the co-pilot seat, not hiding his curiosity as he observes the hundreds of buttons on the control panel, and even touches a few without asking. Amado’s pretty sure Mayo did that just to push his buttons. “Yeah, this is too fucking complicated.”
SPFFDFFFTTT NOT THIS MF JUST PURPOSELY PRESSING THE BUTTONS BC HE KNOWS ITLL BUG THE SHIT OUT OF AMADOSKSKSKS I LOVE THE WAY YOUVE WRITTEN HIM SO MUCH HERE. And then, once again, “this is too fucking complicated,” Mayo taking the words right outta my mouth although based on a number of historical documentaries I’ve seen, boats, especially sailboats can be equally confounding and hard to learn how to pilot sksks there’s just fewer buttons
✷ He sees rage, raw and uncontrolled, natural. If Amado weren’t still controlling the plane, he would definitely be punched in the face now.
Ooooooo so interesting that Amado rejects Mayo bc it’s like already too hard to let go, he’s enjoying his company too much. And it would make complete and total sense given that he’d just lost Pacho and knows that he’s about to bounce from the business for good and basically never see him again.
✷ It’s just a walk, probably a regular occurance for Mayo, walking away from someone, forgetting everything they offered and didn’t offer, and just like that, simply onto the next journey.
Always better to be my own boss.
He’s a man of his words, and Amado respects that.
Ngl, I like furiously scrolled down to see how much more of the fic there was bc even though this would’ve been a fuckint banger of an ending and super on-brand, based on your ability to shatter my heart and psyche with tragedy I was about to be in full fucking fisticuffs, just fighting strangers in the street, bc that’s how mad I would’ve been if that’s the way this ended sksksk
✷ Ironically, that reminds him of their first few encounters, always in the darkness that hides them from everyone else, as well as themselves.
Okay, once again???????? Heart wrenching???? and beautiful??! And romantic ???! and tragic bc there’s no fucking way this shit is going to end well?????
✷ But why should Mayo understand? It’s not like he knows much about Mayo either. Amado looks at the artworks and books on the shelf behind the desk. Are they just decorations or do they have more meanings? He doesn’t know, does he?
I do like this acknowledgment of the fact that even though he and Mayo clearly have a connection and in a way, they know each other, they still don’t like know know each other. Like it’s always been about business or sex, they haven’t ever had the, “so what’s your favorite color” conversations they’d normally have if they were together or even just friends. And it really emphasizes really how lonely Amado is, almost like he’s regretting keepin Mayo at arm’s length bc there’s this gulf of communication between them, but that’s sort of by design built into their whole arrangement
✷ Right below where the girl is standing, on the side of the boat, it writes Anna.
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHKAAAAAAY WHAT THE ACTUAL EVER LOVING FUCKING JESUS CHRIST FUCKING FUCK OF FUCKS, IM NOT EVEN— I CANT EVEN COMPUTE??????? RIGHT NOW???? THIS IS SO THOUGHTFUL AND UNEXPECTED YET DOESNT FEEL OUT OF CHARACTER AS A THING MAYO WOULD GET FOR HIM?????!??? ITS— LIKE— LIKE IM IN A BALL, CATATONIC, DERANGED, LAUGHING LIKE THE JOKER, LYING ON MY BATHROOM FLOOR BC YOUVE FULLY UNRAVELED ME LIKE A SPOOL OF YARN
✷ “At first I wanted to make a plane that takes her to heaven, but then I figured it might be too modern for God … I mean, the ark was a boat, right?”
Ohhdaaaaaaaaamn gorrrrlllllll I see you out here with these biblical references, i see you and I salute you but for the realism, not bc I’m like esp “yay! Jesus”
✷ *You will find someone.* He already has, when he wasn’t even looking.
AND RHEN SSKSKSOWOWOZIANA THIS CALLBACK TO PACHO, IM FULLY FUCKING DERANGED RN
✷ “I’m not laying low for a while. I’m leaving, forever, in two days.”
“Oh! Ok…that’s…”
Skskskksskskkdkdksks sorry, I just spit out my chocolate milk reading this bc Mayo is never caught off guard but I can like see and hear his confusion, here, so clearly in my mind’s eye, it’s sending me
✷ “You think I don’t know that?”
“You know, but no one really wants that, not even you.” Amado leans forward and puts both of his hands on the desk. “For the longest time I also thought I was fine with it, but no one wants to be alone.”
Oh this just got me thinking like I wonder how much older Amado is. Only bc this very much sounds like something someone a few years older would say, but then again, Amado’s been in the business for longer than Mayo, at least according to the show, so it could also just be like sksksks career advice from someone who’s further along if said career is A Life Of Doing Crimes
✷ “The government was onto you, you lost your supply and your Colombian boyfriend dumped you. So you came up with an escape plan, which was a pretty good idea. But when the 48 hour count down began, you had some kind of…fucking existential crisis, so you came here to grab the first person you could think of, to bring them like a bag of cash.”
OOOOOFFFFFF okay, so I take it back when I said that Mayo’s that person who only laughs at you when you fight with him. Like 95% of the time, I think that’s the case, except for that rare 5% of the time when he’s like this ^^ just slinging hard truths at you and it hits even harder by the very fact that he refuses to sling shit most of the time
✷ “Tell me again, when are you leaving?”
“In two days?”
“How long did it take for you to prepare?”
“…Several months.”
“And how long have we known each other?”
He looks up to meet Mayo’s eyes again, and he sees it, the thick layer of pain shadowing all the anger.
Okay, I love you, Amado and I have no doubt you had the best of intentions, but our homie here is making some good pointskskskk like this isn’t the best or most well-thought-out way to finally tell someone “I’m into you for more than that disco stick”
✷ “I hope you can get away, and I’m not telling this to anyone.” Mayo takes out a cigarette and lights it, taking a long drag. “But get the fuck out of my house.”
I’m like.... gaaaaaaah l so conflicted bc I’m such a sucker for a happy ending but I’m also kind of like “fair, Mayo. Fair.”
✷ He already knows everything that needs to be done, so he just does them, but it feels more like accomplishing a preassigned task rather than going to his freedom. He doesn’t know what happens after, and he barely made sense of what happened before, so he is simply going to execute the plan. It’s his only option now.
OHHHHHHH NOOOI AMADO, TODO VA A ESTAR BIEN, POBRECITO ~~EXCEPTO QUE EN REALIDAD NO LO SÉ PORQUE NO SÉ CÓMO ESTO TERMINA PERO NECESITO QUE ESTA MIERDA ESTE BIEN
✷ “You’re not here to shoot me, right?” It’s meant to be a joke, but he can’t rule that out completely based on their last meeting.
“Honestly? I considered it.”
Skskskksksksksksjs “based on their last meeting” like, Amado, buddy. You can’t rule that out ever, just by the very nature of the fact that you’re all a bunch of duplicitous, murderous cartel bosses, but it’s fine sksksks
✷ This isn’t luck. Mayo *knows* him, more than either of them is willing to admit.
UH YEAAAAHHHH I FEEL LIKE THE MOST TOUCHING, SWEET, SENTIMENTAL, WELL THOUGHT OUT GIFT OF ALL TIME MEANS HE KNOWS YOU
✷ “I thought about what you said. Most of it was fucking bullshit, but you did have one good point.”
SORRYSJSJSJS i just snorted so fucking loud bc this is so something I’d actually say
✷ “So…you’re basically using me.” There’s a subtle sourness in his chest, but he knows he’s smiling.
“Well, you used me first for a fucking long time, so now it’s my turn.”
CUE ME FUCKING JUMPING UP AND DOWN SCREAMING LIEK IVE JUST WON THE PUBLISHER’S CLEARINGHOUSE SWEEPSTAKES AND YOUVE HANDED ME A GIANT CHECK BC I GOT MY FUCKIGN HAPPY ENDING AND I SWEAR TO GOD, I TRULY DID NOT SEE HOW IT WAS GONNA BE POSSIBLE, I DID THINK I WAS GONNA GET IT BUT YOU MADE IT HAPPEN ANYWAY
Call It Even
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(My rare pair writing challenge for myself that somehow turned into a 9k words novel…)
Rating: Mature
Paring: Amado/Mayo, Amado/Pacho
Words: 9,542
The first time it happened, it was more like a stress relief than anything else. The process of restructuring the entire operation of Juárez wasn’t going as smoothly as Amado had hoped. He was living in a shitty house while his new mansion was under construction. On top of all that, he still hadn’t summoned enough courage to visit his daughter’s grave.
Mayo was asking for a favor, something about moving his boats through the port in Peñasco, which technically didn’t belong to Juárez, but he was planning to expand his operation there. He didn’t know how exactly Mayo got that information, but it didn’t matter that much. People like them always had their own ways.
They were acquaintances at best, never even met alone before, but somehow Amado just knew the other man wouldn’t be opposed to the idea of a little fun time. A certain someone had given him enough experiences to develop a quite accurate instinct for this sort of thing.
They parked the boat in the middle of open water. Below the deck, even moonlight couldn’t shine through the closed door. Their bodies intertwined in complete darkness, surprisingly easy, both knowing exactly what to do, and Amado couldn’t help but wonder where Mayo got his experiences from. But then the waves must have gotten higher, because the boat started to rock back and forth, matching their increasingly intense rhythm, and all other thoughts were pushed out of his brain.
He woke up naked the next morning, under a soft blanket that smelt like sea. The boat was already moving, so he quickly got dressed and went up the deck. Mayo waved at him behind the steering wheel, or whatever that wheel was called on boats.
“How did you sleep?”
That could mean two very different things, but either way his answer was the same. “Pretty good.”
“Good.” Mayo smiled, adjusting the wheel to a fixed position, and then loosely leaned on it. “We didn’t talk about tax yesterday. How much do you want?”
“How much are you moving?”
Mayo nodded at a container in the corner, “five times that much.”
Amado walked over and took off the lid, “every week? Month?”
“Twice per month.”
He did some quick math in his head. “That’s fine, you can just move them through the port.”
Mayo lifted his eyebrows in surprise, and he wished he could take back what he said. It sounded more like an insult than a nice gesture, in more ways than one.
But then Mayo just shrugged. “Gracias compa! If you ever need a favor, or a friend…you know where to find me.”
He heard the meticulous way “friend” was pronounced, and he didn’t miss the suggestive gaze, right on the fine line between being flirtatious and blunt.
*
They didn’t see each other for a long time after that. Mayo kept his promise, moving their agreed amount and nothing more, so Amado kept his word as well, never asking for a tax. Frankly, that amount of money would mean nothing to him if he could make this new deal with Cali.
Then he wouldn’t just be moving the products. He would be selling them.
It felt weird to meet with Pacho in the presence of others. He was so used to it being just them. It was easier that way, more relaxing. They always did other things besides talking business. Those times gave him a brief illusion that the Colombian was his.
The meeting went well, and he felt nothing but gratefulness towards Pacho, knowing that Cali would never share their US territory with a Mexican if Pacho didn’t vouch for him.
In a way, that was the worst part, because he couldn’t even find a reason to be mad. How could he be mad at Pacho for not staying for a drink, when Pacho helped him to get half of the US market?
He flew back to Mexico that night and had no sleep, and the next afternoon he went to Mazatlán.
That’s why he’s standing by the port again right now, looking at the same boat. Or maybe it was a different one, just similar. He couldn’t really tell, just like others couldn’t tell his planes apart too.
*
The sun is just beginning to set, painting the sky a shade of dark orange, tainting all reflections on the water with golden sparkles. Mayo is sitting on the deck, enjoying a bottle of beer, his baseball cap placed on a chair right next to him.
He looks at Amado, and then tells his guys to leave.
“I guess you don’t need a favor.”
Amado takes off his sunglasses. He doesn’t need them under the dim sunlight. “No.”
Mayo smiles and takes the baseball cap off the chair, casually tossing it on a pile of nets nearby. “Then come aboard.”
It’s still dark below the deck, but he has just enough light to see the person right in front of him, and everything else in the background is blurred out. Their clothes are scattered on the floor. Their lips are on each other’s body so they don’t need to talk. The blankets and sheets still smell like the sea, but it’s not a bad odor— it’s fresh and natural.
It reminds him of a nice cool breeze in the midst of summer heat.
They lay side by side catching their breath, letting their heartbeats slow down after the overwhelming raw pleasure. Then the awkwardness suddenly hits him, and he doesn’t know what to say or do. That never happened before, not with women because they always wanted to cuddle, and not with Pacho either. They were already friends before anything else.
But Mayo’s not his friend, and certainly not a woman, but that thought makes him break into a smile, and Mayo spots it immediately.
“Something funny?”
There’s no point in denying it, but he’s not going to share the details. “A little.”
Mayo reaches for his pants on the floor, and takes out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter from the pockets. “Good funny?”
“If you say so.” He waves it off when Mayo offers him the pack. This dark, enclosed space is perfect for sex, but terrible for smoking.
Mayo apparently doesn’t mind as he lights one for himself, the little spark shines on his face, casting a shadow of the nicely shaped nose.
“Did you come up with El Mayo yourself?” Amado doesn’t know where that question came from, probably just a random thought his brain made up on its own to alleviate the uneasiness.
“Yeah, why?”
“Just the month of May?”
“Why not?” Mayo blows out a puff of smoke. “It’s a good time of the year. Not too hot, not too rainy, great for sailing.”
That makes perfect sense, but almost too much sense for people like them. It feels too effortless, too authentic.
“Also, what other options do I have? El Señor de Los Cielos sounds cool, but lord of the sea just sounds like some dirty pirate with golden teeth.”
Amado bursts out laughing at that ridiculous mental image, and the best part is that it doesn’t even look bad. Mayo as a dirty pirate? Hilarious, but not bad.
Mayo laughs with him, and then doesn’t say more. Silence falls upon them again, but the awkwardness is miraculously gone.
Mayo finishes the cigarette and takes his watch from a tiny table next to the bed, which might or might not count as a nightstand. Amado sits up straight, taking it as his cue to leave.
“You want something to eat?” Mayo takes a look at time, and then starts putting on his pants. “There’s a pretty nice seafood place around here.”
“What?”
Mayo shrugs, buckling up the belt. “It’s dinner time, unless you want to drive straight back.”
*
The restaurant is small and vibrant, full of regular civilians, half look like fishermen or sailors, or maybe they’re also criminals pretending to be normal, like them.
The owner comes out to greet Mayo, not with a handshake but an earnest hug, the kind of hug that only belongs to people who have known each other for a long time.
“I give José free shrimp all the time, so he lets me eat here free for life.” Mayo suddenly says, after the owner brought them their third round of free drinks.
Amado drinks a large gulp of cold beer. “Well, does he know why you never ask to be paid?”
Mayo just looks at him and smiles. There’s something special with that smile, by now Amado has noticed. He’s no stranger to nice smiles. He’s seen it on Pacho a thousand times, seductive and irresistible. But this is different; it’s lighthearted and simple, even contagious, like smiling doesn’t need a reason.
It makes him want to smile too.
*
They have developed into a routine since then. There isn’t a fixed schedule, of course, that would be fucking weird, but they can always find out when is a good time for the other person, meaning business is going smoothly and no one’s trying to kill them at the moment.
Again, people like them always have their ways.
He’s been to most of Mayo’s boats, if not all. He even ranked them based on their comfort levels in his head. It’s actually how he can tell them apart to a large extent, not that he’s ever going to tell Mayo that. He has also learned what restaurants in Mazatlán have the freshest seafood, and that has completely ruined all seafood restaurants in Juárez. Now they all taste like shit, even the most expensive ones.
His favorite is still José’s place. The oysters are to die for, and the shrimp too, but that doesn’t surprise him. José never lets him pay, even when he’s not going with Mayo, but he always leaves a generous tip.
One day, when Amado arrives at the port as usual, he’s suddenly hit with two realizations. One, they literally have never fucked on dry land. Two, he’s always the one running around. Mayo has never been to Juárez, at least not for this matter.
“You don’t live on your boats, right?” He asks, just to make sure.
Mayo snorts, “on these boats?! What made you think that?”
“I don’t know, man. You’re here every time.” Amado shrugs, looking around at the now familiar surroundings. A random mechanic recognizes him and nods.
Mayo gives him a thoughtful look. “You never asked to go anywhere else.”
That’s true, because boats are the perfect place to do what they do. They can just sail out, park anywhere and all of a sudden, it’s like the whole world disappears. Whatever they do stays in the middle of nowhere, and at this point, they have done a lot.
However, if he’s being completely honest with himself, boats are not yachts, and he’s not twenty years old anymore. It doesn’t hurt to fuck on a nice soft king-sized bed once in a while.
“You know, if you want a change of scenery, you don’t have to come here.” Mayo leans forward a little, staring right into his eyes like he’s reading his mind. “I’m sure it’d be a lot more comfortable in your new house, or more exciting on a plane.”
Amado’s genuinely impressed at how Mayo effortlessly turned the table, kicking the ball right back to him, even making it sound a bit like his fault.
“You never offered to make the trip.” He responds, intentionally mimicking what the other man said earlier.
“I’m offering now.”
He swallows, not sure how he’s so aroused by that simple sentence, maybe it has something to do with that unfazed attitude. “The house or the plane?”
“Your place, your call.”
*
Mayo whistles when they walk into one of the large living rooms. “How long did they take to build this again?”
“Too long if you ask me.”
Outside of the floor-to-ceiling window, a few gardeners are working on the lawn. Amado walks over and closes the curtains.
Mayo runs his fingertips along the large dining table, “is this marble?”
“I think so.”
Mayo smirks, and without asking for his permission, picks up the crystal vase at the center of the table and gently sets it on the floor. “Ever tried it?”
A strong sense of deja vu suddenly hits him. The first time Pacho came to his new house, in this exact same living room, whispering in his ear, “now pick a bedroom.”
He blinks and shakes that memory out of his mind. Interestingly, he has been thinking about Pacho less frequently, at least less intensely. What just happened used to be a regular occurrence, but just now it took him by surprise.
Mayo is leaning sideways on the marble table, head slightly tilted to the side, patiently waiting. He doesn’t seem to be bothered by the unexpected silence. If anything, he looks curious.
Amado shakes his head a bit frustratedly. “You just hate regular nice beds, don’t you?”
“I like them for sleeping.”
He rolls his eyes. “This is an open area. People can walk in anytime.” Not only that, there is a big sculpture of The Last Supper on the shelf directly facing this table.
“They all work for you, just tell them to stay away. We can be quiet.” Mayo glances at the sculpture, and then gives him a smirk, outright sinful. “Come on, don’t tell me you’ve never thought about it.”
He gives in. He can never resist. Sometimes he wonders how he hasn’t developed a coke addiction with his crappy self control. Maybe sex is the only thing he’s drawn to.
Despite his vindictive efforts to make it difficult, Mayo does manage to stay quiet, but he can tell the tension and excitement from the grip on his shoulders, hard enough to leave bruises. He doesn’t care. If he looks up, he can see eye to eye with Jesus. For a brief moment he doesn’t care about that either. Why should he? They’re both going to hell anyway.
*
Amado wakes up in the morning next to another warm naked body. Right, they did it again last night, finally on a bed like normal people. Sunlight shines through the small slit between heavy curtains. The room looks peaceful at this time, and so does the person. For some reason Mayo always woke up before him in their previous encounters, so this is actually the first time Amado sees him asleep.
He doesn’t realize he’s leaning in until their faces are inches apart from each other. Then Mayo opens his eyes.
It could be some sixth sense that they all eventually develop in their world. The sleepiness in Mayo’s light brown eyes turns into alert immediately. Amado jumps back just in time to avoid being hit in the face.
The air is filled with awkward tension as they stare at each other from their own side of bed, both still naked under the cover.
“Shit man,” Mayo laughs and runs a hand down his face, “don’t scare me like that.”
“Sorry.” He mutters, turning away to get out of bed.
“What time is it?” Mayo asks, although there is a large clock right there on the wall.
“Around 8:40.” Amado answers as he walks to the closet, putting on a black bathrobe.
“Great, I should be back by noon.” Mayo takes the identical robe right next to it and wraps it around himself.
“Something going on?”
“There’s always something going on.” Mayo brushes off the question and walks towards the bathroom, but stops in front of the nightstand as something catches his eye.
“Huh, is this the one you flew to Mazatlán last time?” He picks it up, and Amado’s heart drops as he sees what’s in the other man’s hands.
“Put that down!”
“Sí, tranquilo!” Mayo immediately sets it back down on the nightstand, and then puts up both hands. “Sorry.”
Amado pinches the bridge of his nose. He didn’t realize how dramatic his tone was, but he’s not going to apologize. Mayo shouldn’t be touching his stuff without asking, but he also didn’t set that rule straight yesterday with the vase.
Mayo crosses his arms and fixes him with an inquisitive stare, not at all offended or demanding, just simply curious about his sudden outburst, and somehow that enrages him even more. He knows it’s not the best way to deal with the situation, but at this moment, he just wants to tell Mayo to go take a shower, get dressed and get out of his house.
“My bad, I should have known.” Mayo breaks the silence with another apology. “Of course you would have some strong attachments to planes, even if it’s a model.”
If it came from anyone else, it would sound like they were making fun of him, saying he was like a little boy holding onto his toys. But Mayo somehow always manages to make the teasing remarks sound harmless and fun, like there are no other hidden meanings.
Amado sighs, “it was my daughter’s.”
Sometimes he forgets that he doesn’t have to hide her existence anymore. No one can hurt her now.
“Oh, I didn’t know you had a daughter.” Mayo lifts his eyebrows in surprise. “How old is she?”
“Six.” He walks towards the nightstand and adjusts the toy plane to the exact same location and angle as before. “She was six.”
He knows Mayo will catch the specific choice of word, so he doesn’t bother to meet him in the eye. He remembers how Pacho looked at him after hearing the news: shock, pity, pain… As heartwarming as it was to know someone else cared, he doesn’t want to see any of that again.
“I’m really sorry. I didn’t know.”
Amado remains quiet, because he doesn’t want to say it’s ok. It’s fucking not.
“What was her name?”
“Anna.”
“Sounds very pretty.”
She is. She’s the prettiest little girl he’s ever seen.
He hears a gentle sigh, and then footsteps walking away. The bathroom door closes, and water starts running.
*
Nothing prepared Amado for the news Pacho brought. Cali is getting out of the business, for good. But why? How? What is he going to do? Where else can he get this amount of supply? “Gilberto and Miguel have always treated me as family. I’m going to join them.”
Amado understands that. Really, he does. But what about him? Hasn’t he always treated Pacho with utmost respect, trust and adoration? Hasn’t he been the best business partner, a good friend and more?
What about them?
Once Pacho has made up his mind, there’s no way to change it. Amado knows. That’s one of the reasons he respects him so much. But respect does nothing to ease the pain, so he does the only thing he knows whenever he’s in a bad place these days. He dials the familiar number.
*
Mayo opens the door when he arrives at the house in a suburban area. Amado hasn’t been here before, but it looks like a nice house, just not the house. It’s well decorated, both comfortable and aesthetic, but he just doesn’t feel like this is a place Mayo would call home. Why he feels that way, he doesn’t know, and he’s also not in the mood to think about.
They waste no time getting into bed, pieces of clothing scattered all over the expensive carpet. They’ve done it both ways, and both have been highly enjoyable, but tonight he’s not here for fun. He just desperately needs to let out his frustration in someone, someone who doesn’t mind.
When he shoves the other man into the mattress, Mayo shoots him a suspicious glance but doesn’t protest, which he really appreciates. He enters the warm body with little preparation, feeling the muscles clenching around his length. He forces himself to take a deep breath and slow down, so he doesn’t actually hurt him. Causing pain to whomever he sleeps with is never a turn-on.
Underneath him Mayo silently grabs the silky sheet, and he covers it with his own hand, intertwining their fingers tightly until their knuckles turn white.
The orgasm is satisfying and cathartic as usual, but physical pleasure can only do so much. They sit on their own sides of bed, the only thing floating in silent air is the smoke from two cigarettes.
Finally Mayo turns to him first, intentionally blowing a puff of smoke next to his face. “That bad?”
Amado knows he’s not talking about the sex. That was never bad.
That’s never the bad part with anyone.
“Have you ever had partners?” He asks, although he doesn’t even know why that question came to mind, or how that’s relevant in any way.
“Partners? No.” Mayo chuckles, “things change, people change, and once you have a disagreement…”
He pauses and turns to look Amado in the eye. It’s probably not a special or intense look to anyone else, but Amado knows all about it now: the teasing suggestiveness that’s always followed by something provocative, for better or worse.
“When things don’t work out, you will have to betray them, or kill them, right?”
Amado frowns, suddenly realizes how audacious Mayo has become with him, but what’s worse is that he doesn’t feel offended or threatened when he should.
“Hey, no judgment here. You do what you have to do. That’s the business.” Mayo pats him playfully on the naked shoulder. “I’m just saying that’s too much trouble for me. Always better to be my own boss.”
Is it? Maybe. Amado agrees, but he wouldn’t have agreed a decade ago. He thinks about Acosta, and even Miguel. He used to see them as partners. Maybe he doesn’t call them families like how Pacho calls the other Cali godfathers, but he cared about them at some point.
But Mayo has always been on his own. Maybe he’s more of a lone wolf than any of them.
Maybe that’s why Amado keeps coming back.
*
He thought losing his supply would be the biggest problem, but he should have known the golden rule in their business: when one thing goes to shit, everything goes to shit.
He just got off the plane an hour ago, hadn’t even had something to eat yet, and the fucking Arellanos shot up his favorite restaurant. He lost two bodyguards, but everyone else got out of there safely. He’s unscratched.
Amado rushes back home, asks his men to do a thorough security evaluation, and pours himself a generous glass of whiskey. When his phone rings, he has barely finished one third of the glass.
Mayo doesn’t bother to say hello. “Did they make a move on you too?”
It’s a vague question, doesn’t even specify who they are. Amado can play oblivious if he wants, but a shootout in a public restaurant is no secret, so there’s no point in denying.
“Why are you asking?”
He hears a sigh. “Well, they burned my ship. Just trying to figure out if I’m the only one they’re pissed at.”
Amado almost wants to tell him he got off easy. Having a ship burned sounds much better than being shot at. But this is not the time for jokes.
“You want to meet tomorrow? For business.” Now that he thinks about it, the last two words really aren’t necessary.
“Sure, Juárez or Mazatlán?”
“I’ll fly there first thing in the morning. Meet by the port?”
“Sounds good. I’ll show you the wreckage.”
Mayo makes it sound like something good, which he doesn’t understand, but now he’s curious. Which ship was burned? The biggest one? How many times have they done it in that one?
“So…see you tomorrow?” Mayo asks tentatively, snapping him out of his roaming thoughts. He must have been quiet for a while.
He quickly confirms and hangs up the phone. It’s been a long day, and he needs to get up early tomorrow. Time for some sleep.
*
Amado has never been to this port in the morning, and the beautiful scene makes him wonder why he hasn’t. Morning sunlight is bright but gentle, without the burning afternoon heat, just a hopeful glow on the tranquil water. It contrasts the ship wreckage perfectly, almost in an artistic way.
“Shit, the biggest one?” Amado shakes his head looking at the ruins. “Always come for what we love, right?”
“It’s a shame. She was my favorite one. Still had a few good years to go.” Mayo touches the burned metal frame. “But it’s fine. We managed to put it out before it could spread to other boats.”
“I assume you’re here to talk about a plan.” Mayo leads him to another boat, takes out two bottles of beers from a freezer and throws him one.
He catches it. “And I assume you already have one.”
Mayo smirks behind the beer bottle, and then goes on to explain how he plans to use Sinaloan’s manpower to move products through Tijuana. It’s a unique plan, the kind of plan that only Mayo can pull off, because the asshole knows everyone and somehow always gets what he wants from these connections.
That means Mayo wants something from him too.
“What do you need from me?”
“Chapo already has men, so we just need products to get going. The numbers you’re doing? I’m sure you don’t mind sparing a little.” Mayo raises the half empty bottle to him, “and I’ll take care of the rest.”
“What rest?”
“What else?” Mayo shrugs, “the Arellanos tried to kill you. Surely the Lord of the Skies won’t let that slide.”
The sun is rising higher, and he puts on his sunglasses. “I don’t know. The Arellanos helped me to take down Félix.”
Mayo simply takes another sip of beer. “So?”
The nonchalance and casual cruelty send an exciting chill down his spine, rushing blood to somewhere that it absolutely shouldn’t go right now.
“I’ll advance your products.” He says, a bit hurriedly. It’s a good thing that he has his sunglasses on.
“Great. Then it’s a deal.”
Usually this is when they shake hands, but at this point, they both know they’re closer than that.
“It’s a deal.” Amado nods, and claps Mayo’s shoulder, giving it a firm shake.
The other man immediately tenses up under his touch, almost like a held-back flinch. The beer bottle drops on the deck and shatters.
“What…” Startled, Amado removes his hand. “What the hell was that?”
“Nothing. The bottle just got slippery.”
“No, what happened to your left arm?”
Mayo waves it off with the other arm. “It’s fine, man. Not a big deal.”
“Don’t give me that shit.” He meant to use a stern tone, but it comes out more annoyed than anything. “What the fuck’s going on?”
Mayo lets out a frustrated sigh, acting like Amado is the unreasonable one here. “Just a burn I got last night, when I got off the ship.”
“When you…wait, they tried to burn the ship while you were on the ship?”
“You know how it is. We’ve all done it.” Mayo says that casually, and Amado truly doesn’t understand how he’s so calm about it. People fuck over and kill each other in this business. That’s no news. But almost being burned alive?!
“They fucked up their chance, and now it’s our turn. It’s that simple.” Mayo explains, like he’s the one trying to calm Amado down, which is quite funny since Amado is usually the calm one.
Then it hits him. He is usually calmer than this. He’s had friends killed. He has killed friends. Mayo is right, because a burn on the arm is nothing with their standard. He shouldn’t care this much.
He doesn’t know when he started to.
“We’ll get back at them, right?” Mayo pulls him out of his thoughts again. “That’s what we’re talking about here.”
“Yeah.” Amado adjusts his sunglasses, trying to get his brain back to business mode, and when he speaks, the viciousness in his voice matches perfectly with the rage inside. “They need to die.”
“I’ll make sure of that.”
“But try to do it quietly. We don’t want to end up like Benjamín.”
Mayo gives him a smile, the kind of smile that’s only reserved for when they’re alone, often naked. “Please Amado, we both know how to keep things quiet pretty well.”
*
Turns out things can only be so quiet when you’re torturing and killing people daily. Mayo even burned a bunch of people alive. Of course he did.
The violence doesn’t surprise him, but Hank’s reaction does. It starts to make more sense when he puts more thoughts into the situation. Hank is a politician, and with politicians, it’s all about appearances, about what everything looks like on the outside. At the end of the day, they don’t care how many people in the drug business die, as long as it doesn’t get traced back to them. That’s why Hank is threatening to cut all ties.
Again, when one thing goes to shit, everything goes to shit.
Pacho visits him again to talk about a final deal with Cali, but they both know that’s just an excuse for them to see each other one last time.
They drink, they talk, they laugh at each other’s jokes. Everything feels natural and relaxing, because by one in a million chance, they actually enjoy each other’s company. They like each other, a lot, and that fucking destroys him.
When they finally move to the bedroom, Amado wishes time would pause so he can imprint every detail of this experience in his brain, remember every little sound Pacho makes when he’s touched, the way each muscle tenses with arousal, and how those beautiful brown eyes stare right into his when pleasure takes them both over the edge.
He will miss this, he knows, every bit of it.
“Stay.” He says hopefully, desperately. “We can start something on our own. It’ll be good, just like the old times.”
The old times are slipping away, faster everyday and he can’t stop it. He wants Pacho, needs Pacho to be here, to remind him that it’s possible to have something actually good come out of this business, besides money he can’t spend in ten life times.
“I can’t. You know I would if I could.” Pacho’s smooth voice sounds even deeper, almost like a sigh, and there’s nothing other than honesty and sorrow in his words. “Gilberto, Miguel and Chepe are my family. I love them. I can’t leave them when they need me the most.”
Amado feels a lump in his throat, and he has to blink away the burning sensation behind his eyes. He will miss Pacho, but that’s not even the worst part.
The worst part is he sees it now: not even Pacho can give him what he craves for.
It’s not sex, and even a good friendship isn’t enough. The way Pacho is willing to risk everything for his Cali family, the way Acosta was willing to die for Mimi, that is what he wants. And he hasn’t felt that since he lost his daughter.
He wants someone. What’s the fucking point to get on top of the world only to end up dying alone in a ditch or a small cell?
“Hey, Amado…” Pacho touches his cheek, uncharacteristically gentle, eyes filled with genuine care and empathy. “You will find your way out too, and you will find someone to do it with. You know that, right?”
He doesn’t know how Pacho read his mind, and also doesn’t know the answer to that question, but he smiles and says yes, because both of them deserve to hear it. They should end on a hopeful note, just like how they started, believing they were building the biggest collaborative empire in narcos history. Now, they need to believe they will get out of it.
*
Preparing for a grand escape plan is not easy, especially for someone like him: the number one target on everyone’s list, since he’s doing the biggest numbers.
There are several times when Amado’s having too much stress and not enough sleep, he has an almost unstoppable desire to call Mayo. It’s like a habit now, the perfect person to have an hour of good time with just to chase some temporary release before he has to get back to reality. At least that’s what he’s telling himself. It’s just the sex, and the good food, and the occasional entertaining conversations, and… He shakes himself out of it. This is not a good time for that. There won’t ever be a good time again.
Surprisingly, Mayo ends up contacting him first, saying they have business to discuss. Honestly, they do. Things in Tijuana are getting too loud, which can’t be good for his already challenging escape plan. And speaking of that, he should at least have the decency to let Mayo know, not about his plan of course, but just the fact that their deal, cooperation and whatever else is over.
Amado should have reached out first, but he has been delaying it because he’s been busy, because there are a hundred more important things to take care of, because Mayo probably doesn’t even need it — such a gesture is never expected from people like them.
All these are true, but none of them is the most crucial reason.
He doesn’t want to.
*
This is the most silent conversation they’ve had, even tenser than the first time they met, or the first time they fucked. He used to think it was impossible to have an awkward interaction with Mayo. The man has many talents, but the most of them all is his forever easygoing demeanor. It has always been comfortable to be around him, until now.
“So, is the rumor true?” Mayo takes a small sip of beer and sets the bottle neatly on the coaster.
“What rumor?” It’s not a rhetorical question. There are ten new rumors every hour these days.
“You know, about Cali.” Mayo smiles and tilts his head suggestively, and the air is filled with a dangerous sense of provocation, dancing on the edge of offensiveness. “People have been talking, but who knows better than you? You are the one with the relationship.”
The words are spoken in a gentle, teasing tone, almost warm, yet Amado feels himself freeze, muscles tensing up instinctively like he’s about to enter a shootout.
He bites out the word in a flat tone. “Relationship?”
“Yeah? I mean, we’re all transporting their products, but you are the only one they have a close relationship with. Everyone knows that.”
Amado slowly leans closer, usually that would be a gesture of intimacy between them, but now it only carries threat and pressure. “What are you trying to say, Mayo?”
“That they’re getting out of the business?” Mayo shrugs and picks up the beer bottle again, casually taking another sip, and just like that, the air is again filled with a relaxed atmosphere. “They’re your supply, and right now my supply is you, so I need to know if that’s true.”
Amado stares into Mayo’s eyes, hoping to see something in the other man’s eyes that can give him away: nervousness, challenge or even smugness, but there’s nothing besides curiosity, as if that provocative stare earlier only existed in Amado’s imaginations.
Mayo silently holds his gaze, completely chill like he has nothing to hide, and if Amado knows anything about the man, is that he can maintain that pretense for as long as he wants.
Amado sighs and leans back into his chair. “It’s true.”
“I see.” Mayo nods, seemingly not surprised at all. “Things are changing fast these days, huh?”
“They are.”
“Well, guess I’ll get going then, a lot to take care of.” Mayo finishes the beer, grabs his cowboy hat and starts walking away, but then he stops, turning back to Amado again.
“Hey you know what? Why don’t you fly me back to Mazatlán?”
“…What?”
“You’ve been on all my boats, but I’ve never been on one of your planes.” Mayo leans sideways on a wall, a pretty clear gesture to show he’s not leaving until he gets what he wants. “That doesn’t sound fair, does it?”
It’s a silly question. Since when is fairness ever a consideration in their business? But this isn’t a business request.
This entire meeting has little to do with business.
*
Mayo doesn’t hide his surprise and confusion when they get out of the car at the end of a dirt road, surrounded by sparse desert plants.
“What, didn’t meet your expectations?” Amado feels the corners of his mouth curving up as he leads them through a narrow path into an open area covered by bushes and large stones, where a few small but efficient planes are hidden. If he has a choice, he rather spends more time here, out in an open field with his planes. He can fly away anytime, get up there in the sky and let everything fade away. How nice would that be?
“Maybe? I thought it would be fancier, you know, like your house.”
Amado snorts, “I’m sure the DEA would love that too.”
“Fair enough, so which one’s your favorite?”
“None of them. My favorite one, she is a bit too old to fly now.” Amado answers truthfully. There’s no need for tests and games now. This is the last time.
“I get it. It’s like your first love, never easy to let go.” Mayo nods, not in a casual, dismissive way, but like he truly understands, and maybe he does. Maybe Mayo also bought his first boat on a payment plan, and kept it running as long as he could.
Amado doesn’t know if that’s really the case because he never asked, and it’s too late to ask now. So he simply walks to a plane and unlocks the door.
Mayo climbs into the co-pilot seat, not hiding his curiosity as he observes the hundreds of buttons on the control panel, and even touches a few without asking. Amado’s pretty sure Mayo did that just to push his buttons.
“Yeah, this is too fucking complicated.”
“They’re pretty intuitive once you understand them.” Amado quickly completes the checklist before taking off. It’s like muscle memory to him now. “I like it more than driving.”
“Oh I’m sure! At least there’s no traffic up there.” Mayo laughs, and it sounds no different than their countless previous encounters. Amado swallows down the uncomfortable sourness in his chest, silently moving the plane to the runway.
“Put your headset on.”
“Yes sir.” The teasing voice comes out of his own headset and it makes his neck tingle. It sounds too close, like a whisper right into his ear.
The runway looks unimpressive but it’s very well maintained. Within a minute, they’re smoothly going up in the air.
Once they reach a stable attitude, he immediately hears Mayo’s voice coming from the headset again. “So how good of a pilot are you?”
Amado scoffs, “what do you think?”
“I don’t know, maybe you’ve gotten rusty? It’s not like you need to transport your own cargo these days.”
Amado rolls his eyes. “If you’re challenging me to do tricks in the air, it’s not fucking happening.”
“What? No! Why would I…” Mayo bursts out laughing, “I have something else in mind.”
“No.” Amado hears the word coming out of his own mouth before Mayo’s hand reaches his thigh.
“Why not?”
“Do you want to die?”
“I thought you were a good pilot.” The hand slowly moves closer, skillful fingers closing around his belt buckle, “a very good one.”
“Stop it.”
“Calm down. We won’t be landing in a while, right? I’m not a pilot but I know this is the easy part.” His belt buckle opens with a click. He didn’t actually hear it with his headset on, but somehow he felt the sound.
Mayo was right. There’s not much to do until he starts the landing process. Sure, it’s still reckless to get a handjob while flying, but that’s not why he can’t do it.
He’s already enjoying everything too much as it is.
“Mayo, stop it right now.” He says that in the most threatening tone he can manage at the moment, but even he can hear the subtle shakiness.
He hears a scoff, and then his zipper opens. “I don’t think you mean that.”
Soft fingertips meet his growing desire, and there’s no way to explain, nowhere to hide.
No. This is not happening.
He grabs Mayo’s hand, yanks it out of his pants and throws it to the other side of the cockpit like a piece of hot metal.
Amado hears a loud bang, and from the side vision, he sees Mayo’s body tense up at the impact. He expects a painful groan, but no sound is coming through his headset.
He sighs and turns to look. Mayo’s balling his left hand into a fist. It looks red with a few small cuts. Maybe it hit an uneven surface on the control panel.
Mayo silently looks up and meets his gaze, and for the first time, he sees a crack of that seemingly undisturbable front. He sees rage, raw and uncontrolled, natural. If Amado weren’t still controlling the plane, he would definitely be punched in the face now.
“Did anything break?”
“No.”
“Ok.”
He wants to say more, maybe even apologize, but then decides against it. He wishes he could do something without much talking, like offering an ice pack. Then he remembers he can actually do that.
“There’s a first aid box at the back if you need it.”
“Ok.” Mayo says, but doesn’t go get it.
They spend the rest of the flight in complete silence. When they’re approaching Mazatlán, Amado nearly makes a comment on how beautiful the sea is, just a natural reaction, but then he bites his lips and swallows the words back.
The landing is as smooth as the take off. Amado turns off the engine, and suddenly all background noise disappears.
Mayo gives him one last look, neither hostile or friendly, just acknowledging his existence.
“It was a good ride, for as long as it lasted.”
Then he opens the door and steps off. Amado watches him walk away. He thought it would feel different, more significant in a way, but it’s not. It’s just a walk, probably a regular occurance for Mayo, walking away from someone, forgetting everything they offered and didn’t offer, and just like that, simply onto the next journey.
Always better to be my own boss.
He’s a man of his words, and Amado respects that.
*
It takes another three weeks to get everything ready: house, money, securities, the exact plane he needs to fly. He thought about every possible way that things could go wrong and how to counter each scenario. It’s the best plan he could come up with, and if that doesn’t work…well, there’s an end to everything.
It’s 6 pm in the evening. Amado sits alone on the grand staircase, looking down at the luxurious living room. He once overheard a maid telling a gardener the sunset looked gorgeous from the floor to ceiling window in this living room. He didn’t pay much attention, pretty much forgot about it right after. But just earlier today it suddenly came back to him, because he wanted to watch the beautiful sunset from his home at least once.
In two days, he will be gone.
He slowly sips a glass of whiskey, watching the sky get darker. Maybe he’s supposed to feel some kind of tranquility. Things might not go as planned tomorrow, he knows that and has made peace with it more or less. Whatever happens, he’s had an exciting life, more exciting than most.
Still, he can’t shake the restless feeling in his chest, and deep down he knows why. It’s been there since his last trip to Mazatlán.
Mayo might have gotten the closure he wanted, but Amado hasn’t.
He’s been telling himself it doesn’t matter either way, but that’s a lie. He’s never been someone to leave a loose end of any kind. He’s never been a coward since he got into this business, and he’s certainly not going to be one at the end of it.
Amado gets up from the stairs, grabs a jacket and walks out of the door.
*
It’s already pitch dark when he gets to Mazatlán, completely alone. Ironically, that reminds him of their first few encounters, always in the darkness that hides them from everyone else, as well as themselves.
He knows where Mayo lives. He’s known it for a very long time, but never had a reason to visit without an invitation, until now.
The guards by the door look equally perplexed and scared, and Amado wonders if their patrón ever informed them of this possibility, if Mayo ever expected him to intrude.
The door opens after several minutes, and through some complicated corridors, he’s led to a cozy room that looks like a study. The light is dim and intimate, the armchair feels soft. Everything here is screaming for something to happen, except the owner himself.
“What a big surprise.” Mayo gives him a smile across from the large wooden desk, appropriate and polite.
“I hope you don’t mind.”
“Does it matter if I do?”
Amado looks away for a second. “Maybe not.” It’s true. Once he’s gone it wouldn’t matter.
“So? This must be something important.”
“No, nothing’s wrong. It’s just…I didn’t make it clear last time.” He takes a deep breath, and then slowly exhales. “I told you about the supply, but…”
He stops mid-sentence. He’s practiced this over a hundred times in his head on the way here, but there is no other way to say I’m disappearing for good without actually saying it.
“You won’t see or hear from me again,” he ends up saying. It’s the closest to truth he can afford to share, “for quite a while.”
“I see.” There’s a second of surprise on Mayo’s face, but he immediately looks away to hide it. Then it’s completely gone when their eyes meet again. “Maybe laying low for a while isn’t a bad idea, considering all that’s happening.”
Part of Amado wishes Mayo to say something else, to give a hint that he knows what’s really happening, so there is at least one person in the world that understands.
But why should Mayo understand? It’s not like he knows much about Mayo either. Amado looks at the artworks and books on the shelf behind the desk. Are they just decorations or do they have more meanings? He doesn’t know, does he?
“You’re gonna be ok? With supply and everything?”
Mayo chuckles, relaxed and genuine just like the good old times. “You know me, Amado.”
“Yeah. Always been your own boss, right?”
He feels the smile on his own face as they look at each other. There is no tension or sorrow, just a peacefulness that makes his stomach warm.
“Oh, I almost forgot! Since you’re here…” Mayo opens a drawer and takes out a small box. “I wanted to give it to you last time when you flew me back, but you know, plans change.”
It’s not wrapped or decorated in any way, just a plain black box. He gives Mayo a questioning look, but the other man just shrugs, so he opens it.
It’s a small sculpture of a boat, not like the ones Mayo uses to transport shrimp and coke, but a dreamy sailboat with exquisite pink and golden patterns, like something that belongs to a princess in fairy tales. Under the boat, white waves are curling on the crystal blue ocean, but they also look like sky and clouds.
And on the boat is a dark-haired little girl in a long white dress. Her eyes are closed and her lips are tilted up into a sweet smile. She’s holding a bible to her chest, a cross dangling from her neck.
Right below where the girl is standing, on the side of the boat, it writes Anna.
Amado opens his mouth to say something, but he feels his throat close up. Suddenly it’s hard to make a sound or even breathe.
“At first I wanted to make a plane that takes her to heaven, but then I figured it might be too modern for God.” He hears Mayo speaking again. Maybe he’s been silent for too long, but his brain can’t even register the words he’s hearing. “I mean, the ark was a boat, right?”
“I…” He tries to speak again, and his voice comes out hoarse and strained. “I don’t know what to say.”
“Hey, it’s ok, really!” Now somehow Mayo also seems to be panicking a little, which is almost a miracle. “It’s not like I made it myself. I just paid someone to do it and it’s not even expensive.”
Amado traces the word Anna with his fingertips, feeling the delicate design. All of a sudden a trigger in his brain is flipped, releasing a piece of memory, with Pacho’s voice echoing in his ears.
You will find someone.
He already has, when he wasn’t even looking.
He was just fucking blind.
He reaches over and grabs Mayo’s hand.
“Come with me.”
“…What? To where?”
“I’m not laying low for a while. I’m leaving, forever, in two days.”
“Oh! Ok…that’s…” So many turbulent emotions flash through Mayo’s face, and Amado has never seen something more vivid, more real. “And you said…What are you asking exactly?!”
“I know I should have said something sooner, way sooner, but it’s now or never.” Amado feels the hand under his palm tense up, so he rubs circles on the skin soothingly. “And I don’t want it to be never.”
“You…” Mayo stares at him completely dumbfounded, speechless. Maybe he deserves some kind of award just for that. “You can’t be serious.”
“I am. Look, just think about it. How long are you gonna keep doing this? And what’s your end goal? To make bigger numbers than me? Than Cali? Escobar?”
“That’s none of your business.”
“I know, I’m not…” He feels Mayo trying to pull the hand away, so he lets it go out of respect. “You’re right. That’s none of my business, but I know one thing.”
He looks around the room at the tasteful decorations representing their owner’s wealth. “All these… They’ll be gone when the end catches up, one way or another.”
“You think I don’t know that?”
“You know, but no one really wants that, not even you.” Amado leans forward and puts both of his hands on the desk. “For the longest time I also thought I was fine with it, but no one wants to be alone.”
Mayo remains quiet and expressionless for a while, and Amado waits patiently, more than willing to give him the time. But then his entire figure hardens. “So that’s what this is all about.”
Amado senses something is terribly wrong, but he doesn’t know what. “What do you mean?”
“Well let’s see, where do I begin? The government was onto you, you lost your supply and your Colombian boyfriend dumped you. So you came up with an escape plan, which was a pretty good idea. But when the 48 hour count down began, you had some kind of…fucking existential crisis, so you came here to grab the first person you could think of, to bring them like a bag of cash.”
“What?! No! How did you even…”
“No? Really?!” Mayo abruptly stands up and bangs on the desk with both hands, so hard that he feels the floor vibrate a little.
Amado leans back into his chair out of sheer instinct. He’s not frightened by the outburst, but he is genuinely, wholeheartedly in shock.
Mayo glances at the door and lowers his voice, but the menace it carries only increases. “Tell me again, when are you leaving?”
“In two days?”
“How long did it take for you to prepare?”
“…Several months.”
“And how long have we known each other?”
He looks up to meet Mayo’s eyes again, and he sees it, the thick layer of pain shadowing all the anger.
Mayo balls both hands into fists, slightly trembling with tension. Under the table, Amado holds the sculpture tightly, its hard edges digging into his palm. It hurts.
Maybe Mayo should have just punched him last time on the plane after they landed. He would have deserved it, and Mayo could have saved himself some trouble.
But nothing happens, just like nothing happened last time. Eventually Mayo lets out a long sigh and sits back down.
“I hope you can get away, and I’m not telling this to anyone.” Mayo takes out a cigarette and lights it, taking a long drag. “But get the fuck out of my house.”
Amado feels his body burning, but there’s also a scary numbness, like his brain literally just overheated his entire body because it couldn’t handle everything that was going on.
He swallows and puts his hands on the armrests, bracing himself to stand up, then turns around to walk away.
“I’m sorry.” He says, when he reaches the door. The words came out on their own, surprising himself. He turns around, truly one last time.
“I’m sorry. I mean it.”
“I said get out.”
*
Amado spends the next two days in autopilot mode. He already knows everything that needs to be done, so he just does them, but it feels more like accomplishing a preassigned task rather than going to his freedom. He doesn’t know what happens after, and he barely made sense of what happened before, so he is simply going to execute the plan. It’s his only option now.
He hugs his brother one last time when they get to the deserted secret airport, watching the car drive away. Then he just stands there by himself for a few minutes, registering the fact that this is really happening. Then he starts to move his luggage into the plane. There are quite a few bags, understandably, so it will take him several trips.
When he’s about to walk out of the plane to grab the last two duffel bags, he hears a car coming. Silently cursing, Amado takes out his gun and takes cover inside the plane, peeking out of a window.
The person walks out of the car.
His breath hitches.
Amado slowly walks down the air stair, pistol pointing at the ground. “You’re not here to shoot me, right?” It’s meant to be a joke, but he can’t rule that out completely based on their last meeting.
“Honestly? I considered it.” Mayo leans back on the car and crosses his arm, “but that doesn’t fit my best interest.”
“How did you even find me?”
“You brought me here once. Did you forget that too?”
He doesn’t respond, and doesn’t need to. They both know that doesn’t answer the question.
“I saw the news for the last two days. They’ve been seizing your large hangers, thinking they’ve got you pinned down. But I thought hey, maybe that was the plan, a well timed distraction.” Mayo shrugs, “Believe it or not, it was a blind guess, just good luck.”
Amado turns the safety back on and tucks the gun away. This isn’t luck. Mayo knows him, more than either of them is willing to admit.
“Alright, say I believe that.” He takes a few steps closer tentatively. “Why are you here?”
“I thought about what you said. Most of it was fucking bullshit, but you did have one good point.”
“Yeah? What’s that?” Amado adjusts his jacket. All of a sudden he’s feeling the chilliness of the evening breeze, like his body is coming out of the robotic state.
“I don’t want to wait for the end to catch up, and if I’m being honest, with how things are going these days? When the time comes for me I might not have a plan better than this one that you spent months working on, whatever it is.”
Mayo walks to the back of the car and opens the truck, revealing several large bags.
“So I’m taking advantage of this good chance right now.”
“So…you’re basically using me.” There’s a subtle sourness in his chest, but he knows he’s smiling.
“Well, you used me first for a fucking long time, so now it’s my turn.”
Amado walks over and helps him take out two bags. His own luggage on the ground can wait a little.
“Then let’s call it even?”
“I don’t know, depends on where we’re going.”
“Chile.”
Mayo thinks about it, and then smiles.
“Deal.”
*
“We also need to hide your car.” Amado says, after they moved everything into the plane.
“Don’t worry about it, José will take care of it later.” Mayo waves him off, “I do have some plans, you know?”
“Wait…José? José the restaurant guy?!”
Mayo pauses for several seconds, and then bursts out laughing. “Right, I never told you!”
“Never told me what?”
Mayo pats him on the shoulder, with that exact same casual playfulness as before. The only difference is this time Mayo lets the touch linger there.
“I’ll tell you everything later. We’ve got time.”
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mrs-stardustt · 2 years ago
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dating Amado Carrillo Fuentes (1/?)
a/n: back up on my bullshit, back up on the scene
you don't knowwww how bad I am down for this man, like, just look at him babe
so, you guess it, i had to start this series with my tontín. i have no idea with whom of the other characters go next sooo if you have some suggestion don’t be shy and let me know, alright?
hope you enjoy this one,
 have fun indulging my delusions babesss
TW: NSFW (18+), implied fem reader
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god this mannnn
first and foremost, how lucky are you to be dating this don juán???
we all know that he had his fun whilst single, he was for and by the streets babe
but once he met you oh boyyyyy
he strikes me as a love of first sight kinda man, just like not in a romcom way, more in the I met you and I know you're my person<3 right away
but to add a bit of spice: enemies to lovers with Amado????? OMG don't get me started
just imagine how he would pick at you just to see you all pissed off at him
and you being just as petty as he is, making each other annoyed as quickly as posible
however sooner of later maybe you two realise that you have more in common than you thought, perhaps you'll see that he is really no tontín and actually is a very intelligent man, someone who is deeply observing and attentive
he sees that too, and probably sooner than you: he always knew how fucking hermosa you are, that your smarter than you give yourself credit for, that you have a strong will and a soft heart
and I don't make the rules (I kinda do) but he falls in first
yep you heard that right, he is head over heels babe
my man would make a fool of himself E V E R Y T I M E but you gotta love him for that
he really strikes me at the type to be buying a ring just as soon as he knows you’re the one, he’ll be en las nubes, con la cabecita en el cielo (kinda on brand lol) imagining you being his wife, having kids, a house and all:(( 
buuuuuut, he’s no intenso
he'll give you space, he won't act on anything if he doesn't believe that you feel the same way
he will most likely embarrassed himself at some point tho
just let’s bffr if anything, Amado is a chill man, let’s not forget that. he is cool and so sure of himself BUT if he slightly feels threatened by anyone???? OMG RUNNN
possessive amado enters the chat
as soon as he sees some type of competition (even if you don't even like/give attention to them) he is ready to fight
that's when he actively starts going after you, because there's no way he is losing his reina
he is a old fashion romántico
specially if you two start dating after Amado starts working alongside Acosta, we know Amado is taking notes on how to curt such a woman like you
let's just take a second to think on how roast Amado is with Acosta and his men, they’ll be mocking how whipped he is lol but he doesn’t care, he’ll do anything to make you happy:(
so he asks you on a date, on whatever you like, that doesn't matter, but he is HANDS ON to make you choose him<3. he is just very invested that everything is of you liking, that if you go to have dinner, the food is perfect, the lightning is just right and shit
and we all know him, when he wants something he is persistenttt
and doesn't matter if you little resistant to really give him a chance (again, don juán) but he will really really try:( he has one mission and is to make you the happiest:(
after just one date he's EAGER to have a second one. he got a hold on you for a moment now he can't let you go mija
and once he is committed, forget about anything else. no vieja or desmadre outside of you matter anymore. you're his top priority and he makes sure you know that, so you get the idea: the whole relationship starts at your pace, he follows the patrona words
it is worth to address that at first he is hesitant to show you anything about his job, even if you already know. you’re safety goes first so you’re relationship is a bit of a secret but not really a secret, you know??
in public, no one really knows what is going on between you too, just something has change. now he gives himself permission to stare a little longer at your pretty face, he compliments you more often when he sees you but nothing too showy
BUT IN PRIVATE??? jesus fucking christ
when i say this man is romantic???
domestic Amado is the softest and most relax you will ever see him
FOREHEAD KISSES OMG all. the. fucking. time.
it's like a little reminder that he is present and to show you a little affection without too much PDA
and I am just convinced that he gives THE best kisses. he is so passionate and caring, fully embracing the moment. with one hand on your waist and the other on your cheek/hair how could you even doubt that my man is a good kisser???? I CAN'T-
he just lives to make you feel goooood mija
so get the memo: you two are the most foolish in love people to ever exist. he makes you feel like a real princesa. all you ever dream is at your feet, no need to ask
also I want to mention that when he is away from you, like on a work trip or something he most definitely is calling your every single night to just hear your voice:(((
but not everything is perfeeeect:(
i know i know who would've thought????
one big problem i see you having with Amado is him running away from confrontation. he just doesn’t want ANYTHING bad near you and he has a lot of shit going on that it may scare him
also Amado doesn’t communicate really well. you see him having a hard time at work?? he won’t tell you a thingggg. you get frustrated bc you know him like, he can’t escape the wise woman you are, you see between his “no tengo nada, amor, no te preocupes” “una pendejada allá en el trabajo pero no es nada, tú cómo estás, eh, bonita?”  so guess what???? confrontation will happen
although fights/discussions are solved very quickly, neither of you can stay away from eachother so the only option is to eventually loose a little pride and be open:(
so you’ll need patience with him, he’ll come around to his feelings and be open about it, just he needs time. 
at one point he’ll understand that you are very much the medicine of his penares. he’s got you, he won’t need anything more
but don’t worryyyyyy
all is fine babe
at the end he is very much in love and it showwws. the tontín romántico won’t miss a single day to remind you that he is all yoursss
expect a random ramo de flores because he thought of you mid day
him going late for work because he just wanted 5 more minutes with you in the morning
trips to whatever place he had in mind just ‘cause he can. imagine having a call randomly of him just saying “prepárate una maleta con un vestido bonito, te llevo a Los Cabos amor” of some shit like that. we know he flexes about his planes, that is a fact
goofy little smiles when you two encounter each other after a long day
AYyy NO, i’m so soft for him:((((
little i have to tell you that he is the perfect partner, no one goes near to him when he is in love
NSFW part:
BIGGEST TEASE OF ALL TIME
he has make his top priority to know you body. he knowss where and how to get a reaction of you
and he takes avantage of that, you better believe that
he loves to see you trying to conceal his effects on you. imagine you in the passenger seat while his driving and WE KNOW he'll put his hand on your thigh and slowly and without looking at you moving it close to where you need him the most UGHHH
I can fucking picture his smug smile while he does his little ministrations like omg
needless to say that he is a gentle soft dom
there I say it, idc
btw we can't escape from his cocky side, he'll make you beg if you try to challenge him (and that happens more often than not)
he'll have you underneath him, cock drunk with how well he is taking care of you
side note: his fav position most likely is you riding him, don't ask
such a brat tamer energy lol
it is a back and forth on who gets away with their teasing and that little game doesn't end until the other gives in
if it's you is not until he finally gives you what you want, he has you in all fours pounding so good and fast, your mind hazy and your moans slipping from you that you can admit that he won
if it's him is when your on your knees, your mouth full of him but not letting him come to practically beg you to keep going
and on the side of the blowjobssss
he liveeeees for them, there's no other way he wants to end his day then to have his beautiful mujer on her knees pleasing himm
him throwing his head back, hand on your hair but not pushing too much with his breathing getting quicker as you fasten your movements WHAT A SIGHT OMG
and he'll like when you take control of things, when you're the one taking the shots. he appreciates the effort soooo much
but when you give that power to him? oh darlinggg prepárate
we had said how happy he is to make YOU happy and that goes straight up to the bed game.
he makes sure you come first and at least one time before he is inside you
and idk why but I just see him a very skill with his fingers iykyk babe
the foreplay is a MUST between you, he likes to take his time and to really feel you. and that extends to kissing you nonstop until air is much neede
he is such a intense and passionate lover, I have no doubtssss
I see him being a little experimental in bed but you have to propose the things you wanna try, he doesn't push your limits NEVER
not an exhibitionist but loooooves to tease you in public lol
however, something where you get too close to get caught he won't do it, he likes to keep this private business, private
KING OF AFTERCARE
he loves to see you so close when you two are done, with sleepy eyes and satisfied smiles. he is a cuddler for sureee
just know that like everything with him is so fun and full of love babe<3
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thesolotomyhan · 2 years ago
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Amado 👀 kink 👀 list 👀 ? -ps I love you so much queen ❤️
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a/n: guess whos back on their amado bs ? :)) heh i dont know if i should thank you or hate you for requesting this >:)  but so sorry for the wait te amo <3
warnings: nsfw! a huevo
choking:  
alright lets kick this off,,,,, so when i associate a choking kink and amado,, i imagine this going two ways all the time,, like on one hand heh it would without a doubt come out heavily when you make him jealous because hes already frustrated to the highest point with you and the urge for just claim you while he makes you drunk off of his cock being buried into you and making you sore and just watching the way you would throw your head back chanting his name sets something off in him because as soon as he places his hand on your neck and squeezes just to see the way you would struggle to gasp,, your moans coming out more quicker but you fucking looking back up at him all innocent and placing your own hand on top of his and encouraging him to keep squeezing has him focusing all of his attention on you and wanting to keep seeing you lose your breath quicker everytime he closes his hand around your neck i - wow i just ,,,, but you know the other path? yeah it just happens naturally and spontanelouly with you to be honest because maybe te esta haciendo el amor and not fucking you into tomorrow but his hand would just be coming up across your body while he moves his hips into you,, his face buried in your neck while you scratch down his back and him just placing his hand on your throat,, the coldness from his watch the only thing soothing against your hot skin when it dangles and comes into contact with your skin,,  and him moving your head back just so he can kiss your neck and place small bites onto you as he feels how warm and tight you are around him,, your pretty moans only fueling him on even more ,,  i cant - im trying to say he just has a thing for even the mere sight of his hand around your throat wether just for looks or actually gripping you- thank you for your time
face riding:
ok listen here i originally didnt have this added onto for him but i would be fuvkin lying to your guys if i said this shit does not apply to him, especially after one of you guys reminded me of his pinshe nariz ???? like omg - i cant you know i had to at least talk about it one more time and what better timing am i right? and i ? im not sure how/want to go in a certain direction on how it happens because maybe it kind of just happens ?? maybe you or him ask for it ? or just you simply doing it ? but to be honest im just here to paint the last picture because oh my goddd,,, the way i imagined him having his arms kind of wrapped around your  thighs so he can keep you from pulling away,, him groaning into you and encouraging you to move your hips against him,,, his eyes just focused on you on top,, the feeling of him lightly chuckling into you when he sees you contort your face in pure bliss,, you moving your hand down to tangle into his hair when you feel his nose :) bump up into your sensitive clit :) your other hand coming up to toy with one of your breasts as you continue to move your hips up and down onto him just to feel him bury his face even deeper into your soaking folds, the obscene squelch from your pussy accompanying your moans and you cant help but let your legs shake around his head especially when his nose keeps jerking against your swollen nerves i- wow i am sorrY
hair pulling:
its just something about the thought of him having you on your hands and knees while he fucks you from behind that triggers this for me to be totally honest,, because i can just picture him gripping your hips with both of his hands while you have your face buried into the pillows,ass up,,  your hands gripping onto the sheets beneath you as he thrusts into you, your moans being muffled into the pillows,,, you bringing one of your hands back to rest on top of one of his hands on your hips, lifting your head slightly to let out a moan of his name when he harshly pumps into you :) and him bringing his other hand away from your waist to trail it up your spine :) his hand collecting your hair until he can have a full grip on it just so he can pull your body up with his to be on the same level, his chest to your back,, your moans becoming higher now that youre brought away from the pillows :) him bringing your hand that was holding his earlier down the front of your body towards your wet swollen clit, helping you rub circles :) all the while his other hand is still tangled in your hair so that he can bring your face towards him :) i cant ay no- or get this image too :) you on top of him instead :) hes sitting up as he helps you bounce on top of him, groans leaving his mouth mixing in with the smacking noises of your hips meeting his filling the silent space around you both,,, his face buried in your neck as he leaves hickies on the side of your neck :) one of his hands trailing up your leg and you cant help yourself from the feeling of him everywhere on you that you have one of your hands move away from his shoulder where you placed it to move into his hair :) and tangle your hand in it :) pulling his head back by his hair :) god- you leaning down to kiss him instead and let your moans die out in his mouth,, your bounces becoming more slower by the seconds as you both just focus on the feeling of the others lips on eachother :) him groaning into you since your hand hasnt moved away from his hair as you keep running your hand roughly in it :) and him just moving his arm around you as he lets his hand trail across your back :) :) :))
overstimulation:
ay no i just OK ok- so i have two scenarios that u thought of when i got to this bullet point because :) really it’s the thought of the way this mf would be smiling into you in a cocky way ,,, his hands doing that thing where he traces your closest body part in a feather like way to have you squirming even more and hear your voice go a pitch higher is what he loves about being able to overstimulate you but in so much more ways than one to fully bring it all in together like artwork and make you go delirious and wow but ofc theres the other obvious overstimulation :) where he loves to make you come more than once :) just so he can see you go into a drunken orgasmic state, the way youre body would writhe and just contort as he builds you up over and over again, the way your eyebrows crease gradually at the same time your moans come out more rapidly and higher the way you just want him to help you get to your climax and all of this just leads into his other favotute view of just seeing out post-orgasm :) the way your body would have those small aftershocks that make you shake a bit, your muscles clearly worn out as you lay there helpless, your voice becoming hoarse and ugh :) that buildup to that view in particular is what eggs him on to keep stimulating more and more everytime, the cocky smile on his face when he hears the desperation in your small voice that you cant do another :) but he knows you and he knows your body can still take another and wow-
lingerie/wearing his things:
no surprise here but lingerie and adding this man to it? you just made him the happiest mf here, no further questions required,,, i feel like for him it feels like hes opening a present for himself when he sees you wearing lingerie :) lo complaces and he would die happily everytime he sees you in something and i lay my case down because :) take this as an example i imagine this especially applies to the situations after all the shit he always has to put with all day,,, just the idea of him sitting back and seeing you walk out in some lingerie with his shirt over you has this man all relaxed all of a sudden and his whole attention towards you,, like all of a sudden ya no esta cansado el cabron, hes already spreading his legs further apart just to make space for you, his arms resting on the arm rests,, nothing else would have his focus at all because hes too busy admirandote and all,,, god- you cant tell me he wouldnt have this glint in his eyes as he just sits there todo embobado, his eyes raking over all your curves and him just itching to move his shirt out of the way from hiding everything about you from him :) all while you saunter your way to him, small mischievous fucving smile on your face the whole time, and woW him just grunting out when you come to straddle him,, your :) hands resting on his chest and must rubbing your hands softly on him as you look down at him :) his own hands are already resting on your ass :) one of your hands just slowly making its way to his shoulder when he says something like “se te ve mejor mi camisa cuando te la pones” you gently laughing and just leaning down to kiss him :) :) you pulling away and just asking him “como te fue hoy?” your hand quietly massaging his shoulder :) as he leans his head back, letting out a long sigh while he looks at you like “ fue cabron- ni se por donde empezar” and :)) :) you lightly pecking his lips again :) your hand wandering down to palm him through his pants :) :) giving him a sly smile :) as you get up and sink down to your knees :) your hands starting to unbuckle his pants to let out the tent in his pants :) going “empieza desde el principio” your eyes unwavering from his :) AY WEY NO-
leaving marks/biting:
i think ive said it before but the idea of him leaving marks on you or you on him will always bring him to smugly smile to himself,, and i dont think he would be such a big ass fan to leaving the most noticeable ones i think he would like leaving marks where only the two of you are allowed to see and no one else if you catch my drift,, like i feel as though he would love leaving bruises on your hips ? from how hard he holds them when hes fucking you into the bed,, or leaving small bite marks on your inner thighssss :) and i bring this up because i am in fuvkin love with the thought of his cocky ass smirk he would give you as he hears you gasp out everytime he trails closer to where :) youre throbbing :)) or in the most “riskiest” part he would leave marks on you would be your neck :) but on spots close to your ear :) or the sides of your neck ya know :))) and just to add onto this i just- i feel like he loves the feeling of either your nails dragging down his back when hes on top of you :) and thrusting into you :) because i always picture him having this dreamlike/sappy ass smile on his face when he feels your nails drag down the skin on his back :) while you moan out under him and wrap your legs around his wasit :))) he would like,,, love the feeling of the sting on his back the morning after :) para recordar ya know haaaa-
size kink:
maybe its just me or something else entirely  but ohhH lord please tell me,,, someone- reassure me i am not the only one envisioning this because :)) the thought :) of him :) teasing you :) or just straight up having this normal conversation with you :) and him constantly having this stupid smile on his face because :) he has to look down at you :))) or even just the fucvking thought of him like dancing with you but his whole ass frame clearly towering you as he holds you just gets me lightheaded pls send help asap ay no- and not to be a soft bitxh during a nsfw work here but i just cant help but get absolutely soft to the point of becoming a puddle of a mess at the thought of him leading you around when he dances with you like una pinshe slow nortena/chicano ya know ? like his whole arm wrapped around your back,, maybe his other hand is holding yours or just not at all maybe he has una pinshe cerveza but your head is right next to his chest and all and its so easy for him to slyly lean his head down slightly just to kiss the top of your head ooh fuuuu- im sorry but back to the original topic mmmm i just i love the idea of this mf’s large ass hands gripping your hips,, you shaking and whining out his name when he pushes into you,, the feeling of his cock splitting you open just has you throwing your head back,, your hands not knowing if they want to grip the bedsheets or grab onto some part of him all the while hes just leaning over you,, :)his chain lightly dragging over your hot skin:) :) him  groaning out lowly as he lets his eyes rake over your entire small frame compared to his :)  rocking his hips slowly into you as he moves one of his hands ro rub your clit him smiling when he sees your legs open wider and shift your hips up slightly, your whines coming out more rapidly i- ,, you finding strength and moving your eyes down to see the sight of the two of you connected and thats when you notice it :) its small but noticeable if you keep looking :) and you cant help but let out a loud moan when you bring one of your hands to ghost over your lower abdomen and feel the protrusion of his cock buried inside of you, it makes your walls flutter around him even more and ay no,, him muttering out curses and letting his eyes come back to meet yours when your hand grasps onto his arm looking at him with your doe eyes,, your pants coming out heavier as you move your hips around, the :) tip of his cock :) just barely prodding your walls enough to cause a small bulge :) on your mound as you adjust around him :) - iM SO SORRY GOODbYe
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cositapreciosa · 3 years ago
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hey! welcome to narcos mx world! i would love if you write about Amado - a little enemies to lovers where you have to work together but he starts to actually care about you when you got in something dangerous? :))
Affection
Amado Carillo Fuentes x female!reader, 1980 words
mentions of small injuries, kissing, that's it? pretty safe for work this one. As always it's the fictional, not the real deal
a/n : Thank you everyone in the Discord helping me with my writing as usual, you guys are a godsend! @purplesong1028 is the master teacher of this kissing scene, enjoy !
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‘’ Well, well, well, if it isn’t el señor de los cielos gracing us of his presence on our precious Colombian soil. ‘’
The door of the plane is barely already open and Amado knows he will go back to Juárez with a headache. The air is warm, suffocating, and he can’t help the loud groan that escapes his mouth. You had always been that special link between Colombian cocaine, Mexico and transporting it all to the US of A, it would be utterly insane for him to think to offer anyone else the job, but god would it be less of a pain in the ass. He is just off the plane that you start again,
‘’ Oh please, don’t sound too disappointed, yeah? Pacho made coffee in the hangar if you haven’t woken up yet. ‘’
He rolls his eyes, ‘’ It’s like three in the afternoon. ‘’ You are sitting on top of one of the shipments, dozens of others splattered on the runway behind you, waiting to take off. Turning around, he signals to a few men to start loading it all in, the faster they can go home, the least he has to worry about dealing with you. You shrug to his answer before sliding off the small ledge, extending your hand, that damn smirk still on your face,
‘’ And that makes it what? 9 AM central Mexican time? ‘’
He scoffs behind his sunglasses and his hand meets yours, giving it a good shake, ‘’ Can’t believe you’re still walking around with that mouth of yours. ‘’
The sarcastic laugh that escapes you doesn’t go unnoticed by him,
‘’ Maybe you should give your resume to los hijueputas del Norte del Valle, you guys seem to think so much alike. ‘’
Your hand leaves his as you turn around, showing him to follow you,
‘’ I got twelve pallets for you today, about 50 bags in each-’’
That’s when Amado notices it, the bruises on your neck, the neat stitch near your hairline, how you have been clutching your side the whole time. He walks in front of you, taking your elbow in his hand stopping you in your tracks. His tone is steady and hard when he asks, ‘’ What happened? Did they do this to you? ‘’
Your gaze slowly drifts to his hand on your arm and he can’t help how his heart jumps a little watching the purple colors weaving around your neck. You take a deep breath,
‘’ It’s okay. Pacho took care of it- ‘’
‘’ Well, clearly not fast enough! ‘’
He can’t stop the way his voice sounds so panicked as his hand leaves your arm to cradle your face, gently assessing the cut on your forehead, he sighs, ‘’ Damn, mija. They got you good. ‘’
You shake his hand off, frowning, ‘’ I told you Pacho already took care of it and I think you guys got enough going on in Juárez already for you to start putting your two cents about what’s going on here.‘’
His mouth opens in unspoken words as you brush past him, warning him, ‘’ Maybe you should pack it up and leave before I sell your shit to someone else. ‘’
Amado sighs again, now alone on the runway, watching his men slowly loading the pallets. Tension is thick and he can feel their eyes on him when he’s not looking. He gestures to them,
‘’ Y’all heard the lady, pack it up before she changes her mind, alright? ‘’
After a moment, he slides his sunglasses on his head as his hand lifts to pinch his nose. His head is already pounding and he barely had anything done yet. It is Pacho’s voice that calls behind him that makes him stand tall again,
‘’ You better stop quarreling with my liaison officer, we wouldn’t want her to start working for the competition now, don’t we? ‘’
Amado knows Pacho is smirking before he even turns around, but he can’t bring himself to return the gesture, ‘’ Well, maybe if you had made sure she wouldn’t get her head bashed in that wouldn’t be a problem. ‘’
This should not be the place to argue. He is welcomed here, appreciated even, and he knows he shouldn’t get into other people’s business, but he just did. Pacho’s smile falls fast, his head tilting on the side with a slight frown, and Amado almost regrets speaking up.
‘’ I admire the audacity. ‘’, began Pacho as he walks closer, nearly at arm’s length.
‘’ You know what I think, Amado? ‘’ He laughs, ‘’ I think, either you don’t trust me to take care of my business, or that you are in love with her. ‘’
Pacho pauses, leaning over to him before continuing,
‘’ Which one is it? ‘’
‘’ This has nothing to do about love, Pacho. “
His associate scoffs and Amado knows the whole façade is down. Pacho played him well, like it was nothing. Amado always knew he liked you, working together, side by side, through bullets and betrayals, the trust was there and he always looked up to you with utter respect. A valued member of the team. There is nothing he can do now than to endure the flushed heat that burns through his whole body, that feeling of being like a child who just got caught. He is not going to lie to himself and pretend that seeing you hurt today didn’t pull strings in his chest and rage in his heart. How it took him every bit of restrain not to start a war right here, right now. Pacho’s hand claps his back as he laughs,
‘’ Don’t worry Amado, your little secret is safe with me, hm? ‘’
His gaze falls behind him and Amado knows that you are back. He can imagine you already, fist by your side, fast-paced steps, ready to get this over with. Your expression is probably tight, soured from your previous interaction, but Pacho’s smile is big and bright, almost mischievous, as he continues,
‘’ At least, for now, donjuán. ‘’ Pacho motions you to come over and Amado rolls his eyes. You are next to them in seconds, your shoulders no far from his, he can’t help but appreciate how warm you are next to him. Familiar, reassuring. That is when he knew he was done for. Pacho’s voice breaks him from his thought as he lights himself a cigarette, his gaze interchanging from his to yours,
‘’ This, ‘’ he gestures between the two of you, his lips pulling on his smoke, ‘’ It stops now. We’re not animals, hmm? So let’s not do business like ones. ‘’
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The runway had been cleared faster than you expected. Everything fit tightly in the aircraft, locked in straps from one side to the other. You turn to Amado who was sitting on one of the seats, dusting your hands before speaking, ‘’ I think we’re all done here? ‘’
He barely said a word since you got back to the plane. You know that you shouldn’t have lost your temper early on and probably should have kept your thoughts to yourself instead of sharing them with Pacho at the first opportunity you had. You are not surprised when he only nods. You clear your throat,
‘’ Listen, I-. What Pacho said was true. I’m sorry about losing my shit this morning. ‘’
You can tell he looks at you behind his sunglasses, you sense his eyes burning through you. The silence is thick, you feel the need to fill it, almost an invitation to keep going,
‘’ They caught me by surprise, you know? I never saw them coming. It’s embarrassing, really. ‘’
He sighs, scratching his beard. His head leans towards you and you catch his eyes behind the rim of the shades as he takes them off,
‘’ We can’t control these things, mija. Don’t beat yourself up over this. ‘’
You give him a tight smile, your head moving up and down, trying to believe it yourself. You sit next to him, palm on your knees, picking on the threads.
‘’ Does it still hurt? ‘’
‘’ Not anymore. ‘’
He hums. Are you ok?, he wants to ask, show me who and I’ll pull the trigger myself, he almost begs, but he doesn’t ask, he doesn’t beg. He hasn’t done this, whatever this is, in a long time, and the words that came out barely convey how heavy his heart feels right now. His hand gently falls on yours above your knee, hesitating, patting a little, stopping the relentless scraping of your fingers.
 ‘’ I like you, you know, ‘’ He starts, ‘’ and I... I just want to be sure you’ll be alright. ‘’
Your eyes look up to him and his heart jumps in his chest, god he feels like a teenager again,
‘’ I know, Amado, I’ll try my best. ‘’
He swears he melts when you press your other hand on his on your knee. Your eyes are still on him and he hates that he can’t figure out what it is you are thinking right now. He knows this whole thing is bold and risky, but you’re so warm next to him and, fuck, you smell so good it's dangerous. You’re closer now, when did you get so close? He can feel you exhale when you speak again, barely a whisper,
‘’ Are you going to kiss me, Amado? ‘’
And so he does. He doesn't hesitate. His fingers tug on your joined hands, pulling you to him, as his other hand sinks in your skin, tangling in your hair. Amado doesn’t care how public the whole setting is, how anyone could come up the ramp at any moment- fuck everyone. The satisfaction of his mouth on yours is all that matters for now. He’s trembling from inside and your lips are just so soft, so warm. He brings you on his lap, firm but gentle, and he barely manages to suck air through his teeth that he guides you to his lips by the waist once again. You moan in his mouth and the sound echoes again and again in his head. It’s not enough, he wants more of you, more of the sounds you make, and he feels light-headed, but he doesn’t want to stop. Why do you smell so good?
His fingers are pulling at your hips, sliding tauntingly under your shirt. It feels like forever, but when you pull away, it feels like not long enough. You slowly bring your fingers to his face, brushing the hair in front of his eyes away, a delicate touch, merely there,
‘’ I have to go, ‘’ you say, voice soft with affection, ‘’ If Pacho finds us he’ll hold it over our heads forever. ‘’
Amado nods but he’s not listening. He doesn’t want you to go, he realizes. Your lips are red, shiny, and you fit so well on his lap. That and also the fact that you are hiding the boner between his legs. He is still rubbing circles on your hips when you ask,
‘’ Are you coming back soon? ‘’ He loves how your smile seems to light up the whole cargo bay as you mock him,
‘’ I have to start planning the next shipment, you know. ‘’
He chuckles, holding your waist again, desperate for more,
‘’ Just planning, hm? ‘’
He knows he is gripping onto you for dear life, it’s a miracle you haven’t been squeezed to death by now. His head is still pounding, the pain is sharp behind his eyes, but this is the most calm he has felt all week, full inner peace.
When Amado looks up into your eyes one last time before letting go, he realizes that maybe, just maybe, those shipments won’t feel like such a chore anymore.
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mmasalva · 2 years ago
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i remember his hands and the way the mountains looked…
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imgeekgirlfan · 8 months ago
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Renegada♱
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Pairings:  Amado Carrillo Fuentes x f!reader(Latina Reader) x Walt Breslin  [From Narcos: Mexico TV Series]
Content Rating : Mature 18+  Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warning (AT YOUR OWN RISK)
Synopsis : Everything that was happening on Aruba Island wasn't right at all. You know damn well when Amado kissed you. And when you heard the sound of the gunshots behind you
AN : I was almost giving up on updating this fic until I found new comments. Thank you to those who still enjoy my work. I will try to update as long as there are people waiting to read.
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"Amado Carrillo Fuentes is more like a businessman than a drug lord. His background is clean compared to others in the same industry. This man is cautious and stays under the radar all the time. We need to know everything about him. Every detail matters.
That's a summary given by Bill Carter in the last meeting before you leave Mexico tonight.
And when the time comes, you have to leave everything about yourself behind. From now on, you'll have to breathe under the name of Camilla, a musician from Cuba. And it will be like this until you can safely return to Mexico again, if there are no mistakes during that time.
Amado's fascination with airplanes is more than what you imagined. You realize this when you're brought to his private airport. Lined up are all types and sizes of planes, totaling no less than a hundred. Every plane here belongs to Amado. Also, it's the same plane used to secretly smuggle tons of cocaine into America every year.
El Señor de los Cielos is the nickname drug dealers use to refer to Amado, the most powerful man both on land and in the sky. The man on top of the food chain
And this same man is waiting for you in front of a private jet. It's not difficult to notice him, with his flowing hair and the same old black shirt you first met him in, now covered with a bomber jacket. A satisfied smile passes through his sunglasses when you step out of the car. You briefly catch Amado's eye before flashing a smile back at him.
Starting the drama with a beautiful face and a survival instinct, just follow a few simple rules: just hold hands, just smile, and just turn a blind eye and pretend to fuck him a few times. Just run away before getting caught.
Throughout the time you step straight into him, you never know what you're really getting into.
Life can change suddenly and easily. One day you're still a CIA officer, and the next you become the partner of a criminal. And what will happen next? How many bombs will explode in front of you? How many people will die in your life? And when will death finally become yours?
You can't find answers to these questions.
Lately, you've often imagined the end of yourself, from the moment you closed your eyes to the moment you woke up—every pain you've ever experienced in the past, which still remains and continues to haunt you. It will never disappear until the end comes for you, just like it did for others before.
The end must come one day. And for the law enforcer who fights against the dark power all the time, there's no way this story will end well. Either with you or with Amado.
You know. You're prepared, unwaveringly. But it still turns out worse than expected.
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Aruba Island, Kingdom of the Netherlands
1600 (Military Time) *Three Hours Before the Incident*
Although it's approaching evening, the sunlight on Aruba Island is still bright and clear, no different from the afternoon. The scene in the travel magazine doesn't seem exaggerated at all when seen with your own eyes. The clean white sandy beaches, lush green coconut trees, and crystal-clear blue sea reflect the shimmering sun. It's breathtakingly beautiful here, and the atmosphere is just right—neither too quiet nor too bustling like the seas in Miami or Thailand.
This place is suitable for tourism, you think, and also suitable for opening a cocaine market for these tourists.
But Amado's purpose for coming to Aruba Island remains unclear, something you must urgently investigate while there's still a chance.
For you, every second is crucial and calculated, tension infiltrating every action.
But for Amado, it's the opposite. He seems completely at ease. You can tell from the relaxed smile on his face all the time.
You glance at Amado thoughtfully, not hiding your slight surprise as you see him change into a blue Hawaiian shirt, yellow shorts, and slip on sunglasses with a smile. He blends seamlessly with the other tourists. For you, this is quite a surprising and unexpected look compared to his usual all-black attire.
"What wrong, Mija?[1] You're staring at me too much, I'm starting to blush," he said, raising his eyebrows with a playful smile after handing you the Esquites[2] he bought from the nearby store. "Or am I so handsome that I'm stunning you?"
You chuckled and took the Esquites from his hand, then pretended to glance at him with a half-serious look. "It's not that much," you shrugged. "Just... average."
"Average? No, Mija. You should say, You look so handsome, Amado!"
You burst into laughter again, genuinely amused by this man's incredible sense of humor.
The dark stories you've heard about the drug wars in Mexico seem like distant memories here. There's no violence, no gunfire or explosions, and no cocaine. 
And your date, who was enjoying Esquites by the seaside with you at this moment, was hardly anything like a world-class drug dealer.
But beneath the seemingly ordinary and charming nature of Amado Carrillo Fuentes, you know what he's capable of and how dangerous he is.
Honey trapping [3] is another important method to access intelligence for secret agents worldwide. It's not your expertise compared to other spies, but you're confident that you can do it just as well. You intentionally charm him without going too far, being both a good speaker and listener, creating an atmosphere that's relaxed and friendly. Every conversation you have leads him to tell you what you want to know.
However, Amado's responses barely provide any significant information for the mission. It seems more like casual chit-chat. If it weren't for the fact that he is exceptionally clever and cautious, it would mean that he must be a very inane person.
Of course, you're damn sure he's not stupid. Amado is a true master of deception. What you can do is make him like you enough to let his guard down a bit, and that's the ultimate challenge of this mission.
There's still plenty of time. You think. And maybe...that was the first mistake that led to bad things in ways you never expected.
"I want you to answer truthfully, Mija."
That sounds like just another normal question from Amado, but not for you. You blinked slightly as you caught a hint of seriousness in his tone. Yet, you still pretended to smile as if everything were normal. "What do you mean?"
"You know what I do, right?"
For a moment, you hesitated. But you managed to maintain your composure, even though your heart was pounding with excitement and anxiety.
You couldn't predict why he asked you this question. You weren't sure if it was just one of Amado's tests, or worse, if he was starting to suspect you. But regardless, your answer would undoubtedly affect the entire mission, one way or another.
Because Amado was clear about wanting the truth. Ultimately, you chose to take the risk and answer as he desired. You softly reply, "i think I can figured as much."
"And aren't you afraid of me? Even when you know what I do?"
It could be either a threat or a challenge from the drug lord. You could feel Amado's piercing gaze, scrutinizing. However, this time, you handled it better than before. You turned to face him, inching closer without a hint of fear, even if just a little.
"Should I be afraid then?"
"Of course, you should be terrified, Mija," Amado's arms wrapped around your waist slowly, pulling your body closer until there was no space between you. The mingling sensation of his breath tickling your face, combined with the scent of cologne and cigarettes, made your heart race in a way different from before, clear and distinct.
It was too close—much closer than you thought. A slight flutter of nervousness crossed your mind, but you couldn't retreat, especially when you were under his tight arms.
Amado was too smart. He deliberately blocked off every escape route for you.
"My life has encountered many terrifying things,There's nothing left in this world that can make me scared anymore."
That was another truth you decided to reveal to him.
Certainly, you were afraid of the mission failing. But that didn't mean you were afraid of Amado. Years of CIA work exposed you to countless horrors. You had killed many and lost many. So, what reason did you have to fear someone like him?
It wasn't just Amado who tried to test or challenge you. You chose to do the same. It was a slight defiance and a steady gaze that showed your refusal to submit. That was enough to create even more surprise for the man known as the biggest in the drug trade, a man whom everyone else bowed to out of fear.
The sun had disappeared from the sky, gradually dimming Amado's face with shadows. However, his eyes still sparkled, no different from the streetlights. You tried hard to read his thoughts from his expression, but it was too difficult. You didn't know what he was thinking or what he would do next.
But his decision in the end surprised you.
His lips pressed against yours, catching you off guard. It was a brief  kiss, yet long enough to make you feel and remember every detail. the stubble of his beard, the bitter taste of cigarettes lingering on his tongue, the warm and humid heat in his mouth, intense with desire until your body trembled.
It felt as though your lips were being burned by an invisible flame, and the fire still smoldered deep within even after he pulled away. His hand lingered on your cheek, trailing slowly down to your chin, before using his thumb to touch your lower lip. Amado's eyes never left yours, and beneath those intense gazes, there was something dangerous and alluring hidden within.
"Will you dance with me?"
Even though you knew how dangerous he was, Amado was undeniably romantic. That was something you had to admit.
Nothing could be more romantic than dancing on the beach at night. And Amado knew it well. The moonlight shining brightly in the sky, the breeze blowing through your hair and skin, and the sweet melody of Latin music floating in the air. His large hand rested on the small of your back, and his arm wrapped comfortably around your waist, gently guiding your body to sway to the rhythm.
This time, there were no tests or challenge like before. "Just dancing with me" Amado said before pulling you back into his embrace. 
The dance proceeded quietly and calmly. The word 'calm' felt strangely out of place for a CIA like you. It was like a phrase that didn't exist in your life, But what was happening now might be the closest thing you could think of—a feeling of relaxation and comfort as you laid your head on his chest, and his thumb to massage your back.
This wasn't right at all.
Standing in a country where you hardly knew, in a street where you had forgotten the name, you felt safe next to a man you knew was dangerous. It wasn't something you should feel at a time like this with someone like him. You should say something, focus on the mission as you should, but at the same time, you didn't want to ruin what was happening. And Amado probably felt the same. He was silent, saying nothing, Everything between you and him was so quiet that you could hear the music, the laughter of other dancing couples nearby, the sound of the waves, and the sound of his breath blowing on your neck.
...Before the sound of the gunshots rang out.
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[1] Mija in Spanish means "daughter." However, in a slang context, it can mean "dear” or “honey"
[2]Esquites Another name for it is "elote en vaso" or "elote" (specifically in America). It's a well-known Mexican street food made with grilled corn, mayonnaise, spices, and cheese.
[3] Honey trapping is a method of investigation or espionage that has been used since World War II. It involves deception through the use of romantic or sexual relationships with a target individual who possesses important information or resources.
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