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The start of Endeavors Character Arc, and why it actually makes sense.

So for a while now I've seen people talk about Endeavors character arc, as it's a big debate in the fandom. Though I want to take this time to talk about the start of his arc, specifically why I think it actually makes a lot of sense for his character.

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Endeavors atonement arc starts after the fight with All For One and All Might, and after he becomes the new Number One. Many people don't actually understand why this happened.

Why was it after he got what he wanted did he actually change? And if something like becoming the new Number One could make him change, why couldn't he change after his oldest son had supposedly died? Well, I think I have the answer to this. It can be broken up into two main points. 1. Arrival Fallacy. and 2. His Coping Mechanism. Let's tackle the first point, Arrival Fallacy. Arrival fallacy is the perceived notion that once you reach your goal, (like graduating or getting a job promotion). That you'll finally be happy. Now, how does this correlate with Endeavors atonement arc? Well, we know that starting from a young age he was determined to become the strongest hero due to his fathers death after trying to save a little girl from a villain. For most of his life Endeavor had focused on his goal, to become the strongest hero, and to surpass All Might. He spent years training, getting stronger, becoming "better" just to reach his impossible goal. He kept on climbing towards his goal in hopes he'll finally acheive it, and in a way to finally feel deserving. But when he did get what he wanted, not only was he furious about not earning that spot through his own hard work, and instead having it practically fall into his lap. He also delt with the feeling of emptiness, the depression and stress that comes with the illusion of the Arrival Fallacy breaking. Acheiving his goal only left him upset and empty, leaving him with the question of "What Next?"; He was dealing with all of these conflicting emotions all at once, and this time. He couldn't fall back on his goal to get him out of it. >---------------------------------------------------------------------------< This is where my second point comes in. Endeavors goal, the thing he aspired to become for most of his life was his coping mechanism. It was what he used to escape from the world, and from himself. That's why after Toya's death he didn't change, because he still had that coping mechanism. He was still able to lean on his goal to get him through the loss of his son. He could still hold onto that coping mechanism, that's why after he lost it is when he started to change. He was forced to reflect on his past actions. He could no longer hide behind his goal as a way to hide from accountability, and from himself.

He finally had to process his own trauma and actions instead of hiding from them, and in turn he had to ask himself the question of "what was it all for". His goal wasn't worth the pain he had caused his family, and that is what led to his atonement arc.

He was forced to finally self reflect, and in turn he was forced to dismantle all of his beliefs and reshape them to finally be able to change. He is trying to use his stubborness to his benefit, to use that motivation he had for surpassing All Might and mold it into becoming a better person, and a better father.

[am3ya]

Enji Todoroki, A (more) Visual Analysis.

Okay, hear me out on this...

Enji is an interesting case for me, I absolutely ADORE how horikoshi draws Endeavor, and honestly I wanna talk about how I kind of analyzed his moments in life, and how his expressions correlate with his mental state.

This is long btw. And probably a little all over the place and I don't actually know how coherent it is so bear with me on this-

The youngest we see Enji is when his dad died, staring in stunned silence as he watches his father die alongside a girl he tried to save. Enji was probably around thirteen at the time if I had to guess. Due to his more rounder features. This was the starting point for Endeavor, his origin. Something that he had carried with him throughout his entire life.

When he entered UA, his expression was stoic, not showing much emotion, even when talking to his older self. He wasn't taking pleasure in mocking him, he looks disappointed. Looking down on what he had become, Looking down on his older self like a parent would a young delinquent. You can still completely see his face, because he was still Enji at the time, even if the time was still ticking, even if he was slowly deteriorating, his face not completely covered in shadow, or in flames.

Throughout his younger life we never really saw Enji with his flames, not on his face at least. Before he married Rei he still had that stoic expression, with furrowed brows making it take on the image of disintrest or impatience. Though we do see times where he doesn't have this stoic look..

Like when he noticed Rei looking at a specific type of flower, asking if she liked them. His expression lightened up, not as intense as before. Showing that he hadn't fully become 'Endeavor' at this point in time.

This stoic expression followed him until things had officially spiraled out of control. Before, he seemed to be the type to occasionally show some sort of interest, we even saw him genuinely smile when training Touya. Enji isn't someone good at emotions, both his own and others. Taking on a stoic persona for most of his life and bottling up his emotions. Though even at this time, we didn't see him constantly use his flames to mimic facial hair at this point.

Not until everything finally reached a tipping point that is. At multiple times in the flashback, we see Endeavor with his faced covered in shadow, darkened by his obsession, his expression angry. Using his anger as a way to 'cope' with his losses. To make himself seem stronger, to hide his weakness. His stability and his sense of self started breaking apart because all he was started to be consumed by his obsession, and even if he was still trying to be a good father, he wasn't able to. The way he was practically pleading and yelling with Touya to give up, showing just how unstable he was becoming. More and more his face is becoming hidden by shadows, looking more like a demon than a man.

The official death of Enji is when the shadows no longer decorated his face, instead replaced by flames. Flames to intimidate, flames to blind. his flames blinding him and anyone who tries to look closer at the remnents of 'Enji'

Turning from a rather calm, though anger prone man to a prideful and obsessive monster with a constant scowl. Barely if ever turning off his quirk, buring himself in his work, buring himself in his new identity to hide from himself. No longer is he the same man who would take interest in his family, to mention his wifes favorite flowers, because by this point, he is his work, first and formost. He is no longer a father, he is a product of his own insecurities, hidden behind a mask of flames. The only smiles he can produce are ones of excessive pride in himself, not of genuine happiness for others, or even himself.

That is... Until All mights retirement. No longer can he hide behind his work like he had before. No longer can he hold onto this false sense of Identity he crafted from failure. Shadow covering his face in a similar way it had when everything had first started to spiral after hearing the news...

The next time we see him, he's wearing that same scowl, and that same inauthentic smile. Though, that's before he had sat down and talked with All might. When he did, his expression seemed to become almost softer, back to that more stoic expression he had in his past. Now, for this expression I don't know how exactly to describe it. Though the best I got is annoyance, he's annoyed by the fact he couldn't earn the title of number one, by wanting to truly be number one, for who he was.

And when All might had asked him why being the strongest was so important, his expression was more light. He didn't have that same stoic-expression he usually had when he was younger, or the scowl he always had now. Slowly coming to a realization.. When he spoke to Shoto, his eyes had a shine to them, determined to live up to his words.. And finally, smiling genuinely for the first time since losing himself to his obsession.

Though, it wouldn't be till the battle with hood that Enji would truly come back. There were sparks of him throughout the two episodes. The way his expression was stoic once more, his eyes now filled with a determination to atone for what he had done, for what he had caused.

Before his fight with hood, we can see more of who Enji actually is. A socially awkward, and honestly, extremely socially unaware individual. Someone who has to work to not only fix his mistakes, but to actually rebuild himself from the ground up. To figure out who he truly is as a person, and not just as a job.

And through his battle with hood, after getting striked in the face, which could've potentially destroyed his left eye, he still stubbornly fought through the pain, the fight, ironically, opening his eyes in a way that hadn't happened before. Noticing the similarities between himself and the nomu, noting how just like him, the nomu was obsessed with strength, just like he was... And as he burnt away the nomu while using the school motto he had always hated, he had offically burned away what was left of Endeavor as well, and in his place, Enji stood victorious. A new beginning, for Enji, and for everyone else.

All throughout season five, his expressions are back to the way it was before. Stoic, though different from his past stoicness. No longer harboring that obsession that seeped through his every thought. That previous obsession replaced by determination, A new Endeavor.

Replacing his old obsession with a new goal, a goal of atonement. something that he may have to spend the rest of his life to achieve, and even then he may never achieve true atonement. But unlike his obsession to be number one, this goal wont fall into his lap, this one is something He'll have to earn, no matter the imposibility of it, and he won't stop trying. After all, Enji is a stubborn man, an extremely stubborn man.

Enji has went through many changes in his life, from a scarred kid, to a demon of a man. Though his stubbornness never changed. He's not the same Endeavor as he was previously. No longer a superhero, a job, or an arrogant monster.

He's a person, A stoic man who takes interest in the lives of others from time to time, a man who remembers something said only once, a man who is slowly rebuilding himself from scratch to fix his own misdeeds.

he is imperfectly human.

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Intro Post <3

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