#alysezpoweightloss

[alysezzpo]

May 23, 2024 - #1

SW: 357 lbs/ 161 kg (2024 relapse)

LW: 195 lbs/ 88.4 kg

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Today's Weigh in: 339.2 lbs/ 153.8 kg

BMI: 54.7 (Obesity Class lll)

Total Weight Lost: 13 lbs/ 5.8 kg

Weight Left Until Next GW (325 lbs): 14.2 Ibs/ 6.4 kg

Time Left Until GW Deadline (June 5th): 14 days

WEIGHT LEFT UNTIL ULTIMATE #1 (288 lbs): 51.2 lbs/ 23.2 kg

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Yesterday went well. I managed to stay under 1,000 cal like the plan has been.

Breakfast:

• 1/2 Cup, light syrup fruit cocktail (60)

•2 tbsp, sour cream (60)

• 4 tbsp, salsa (medium) (20)

• 2 servings, burritos (580)

Total: 720 cals

Today my husband will be home and I’m going to my sisters graduation so there will be walking. I’ve been fasting all day in order to eat dinner tonight with my family. The plan is to eat tilapia and macaroni, rice, and steamed vegetables. This will definitely go over 1,000 cals (about 1,200) but I will be walking a lot of it off so I’m not worried. Will fast tomorrow.

[alysezzpo]

June 27, 2024 - #5

Today's Weigh in: 326.8 / 148 kg

BMI: 52.7 (Obesity Class III)

Total Weight Lost: 25.4 lbs / 11.5 kg

Weight Left Until Next GW (325 lbs): 1.8 lbs / <1 kg

Time Left Until GW Deadline (July 1st): 4 days

WEIGHT LEFT UNTIL ULTRA #1 (288 lbs): 38.8 lbs/

17.6 kg

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Heyo. Haven’t updated cause I gained 4.4 lbs last weekend from stuffing my face and decided to make up for it with a 68 hour fast. I binged yesterday (chicken caprese sandwich, green bean casserole, and takis), but purged, so there’s that. It felt nice to eat after fasting. Made me not feel depressed lol.

And, Hello?? Are you telling me I’ve lost almost 15 lbs in 10 days??? I’m in awe… and only 1.8 lbs away from my #1 GW!!

I have surgery scheduled for August 21st, 2024. I want to be 300 lbs by then (preferably 299 lbs) At the rate I’m going it should be possible.

Also trying to stop weighing myself every day cause if I don’t lose at least 1 lb a day I feel like a failure… but watching the number drop is so addictive. I know my weightloss will slow down soon so I’m trying to drop the habit now before it’s too late.

I’m fasting again till Saturday evening. I know I’ll be at my GW by then. I want to be at 320 lbs by 4th of July so I can eat without purging/ starving for the 4th and 5th. I’m going to the beach with my 2 (and only) best friends (we are eating brats, hamburgers, etc. ya’ know; typical American Independence Day food) and then hobo pies the next night (we are going camping on the 5th.)

Both of them are fat. I feel bad for looking at them that way, but I do. And it’s not even fair cause out of us 3 I’m the ones who weight is in between them both. One is 260 lbs and the other is 400+ lbs. I have always wanted to weigh less than both of them. The 400+ lbs friend has always weighed more than me since we met in highschool, but the other friend has really blown up in the past 5 years. She use to be 80 lbs lighter than me (when I was at my lowest). With the surgery and my success so far, it won’t be long till I am smaller than all of them. I know they both say they don’t care about their weight, but I know if I got skinnier than them both that they’d be envious as hell. I’ve always been obese since I met them.

Anyway, the plan is to fast for 72 hours, and then on Saturday evening me and my husband are making a pizza from scratch. I’m excited for that, as well as watching my almost 10-month-old daughter try pizza for the first time! Hoping I can be at 223 lbs by Saturday. 3.8 lbs. Fingers crossed 🤞

[alysezzpo]

June 21, 2024 - #4

Today’s Weigh in: 332.2 lbs/ 150.6 kg

BMI: 53.6 (Obesity Class III)

Total Weight Lost: 20 lbs/ 10 kg

Weight Left Until Next GW (325 lbs): 7.2 lbs / 3.2 kg

Time Left Until GW Deadline (July 1st): 10 days

WEIGHT LEFT UNTIL ULTIMATE #1 (288 lbs): 48 lbs/ 22 kg

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• 1.5 cup of Grapes (200?)

• 1 can of Tuna (79)

• 2 slices of Bread (160)

• tbsp of Mayo (40)

• 1 tbsp of mustard (0)

• 1 tbsp of relish (10)

• 1 Egg Whites (17)

• Electrolytes popsicle (50)

Total: 556 cals

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Not a big weight loss yesterday because I had 3 potatoes (330) and 4 tbsp of ketchup (80). I finished about 2/3 of the potatoes and didn’t finish the rest, but had 4 bites of the hamburger helper (200?) I made for my husband. Then I freaked out and purged in the shower so that’s how I managed to still lose 0.2 lbs. Not that impressive but hey, a loss is better than a gain, nonetheless.

I know I’m making pork chops tomorrow for dinner. I’m going to a birthday party tomorrow as well and I don’t think I’ll be eating anything so I can eat dinner with my husband. I’m thinking pork chops, corn, andd… rice? It’s going to be definitely pass my 500-600 cal limit but I’d like to enjoy my husbands company on the weekend and not focus on food so much since I don’t get to see him often. I suppose we’ll see how it goes.

I’m trying to avoid purging, but if I have to, I will. Regardless, I’m only 7.2 lbs away from my #1 gw!! I will plan on fasting Sunday night to Tuesday evening no matter what, and hopefully that will get me to my gw.

[alysezzpo]

June 19, 2024 - #3

Today's Weigh in: 336 lbs/ 152.4 kg

BMI: 54.2 (Obesity Class I|I)

Total Weight Lost: 16.2 lbs / 7.3 kg

Weight Left Until Next GW (325 lbs): 11 lbs / 4.9 kg

Time Left Until GW Deadline (July 1st): 12 days

WEIGHT LEFT UNTIL ULTIMATE #1 (288 lbs): 48 Ibs/ 21.7 kg

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• 1 Baked Chicken breast - unknown weight/ grams, cal estimate - (200)

• 4 Egg Whites (68)

• 2 ears of corn (176)

• Spray butter (0)

Total: 444 cals

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I’m in actual awe right now. I haven’t been able to get under 339 lbs in weeks, but fasting has did it!! I finally broke my fast at 45 hours, despite not really any hunger pains.

I am planning on buying a food scale this week when I get paid. That way I will have a more accurate calorie amount, based on weight.

[alysezzpo]

June 18, 2024 - #2

Today's Weigh in: 341 lbs/ 154.6 kg

BMI: 53.9 55 (Obesity Class I|I)

Total Weight Lost: 13 lbs 11.2 lbs/ 5 kg

(gained +1.8 lbs (0.81 kg)

Weight Left Until Next GW (325 lbs): 14.2 lbs 16 lbs/ 7.2 kg

Time Left Until GW Deadline (June 5th July 1st): 13 days

WEIGHT LEFT UNTIL ULTIMATE #1 (288 lbs): 51.2 53 lbs/ 24 kg

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Binged yesterday. I’m not sure how many cals I even had. I’ve been slacking lately and I can’t have that no more, plus I’ve been hovering around 339-344 for the past 2 weeks.

• Water (0)

Total: 0 cals

Decided to fast today because I need to get my shit together, and I am doing good! Getting ready for bed now. I surprisingly didn’t have any hunger pains today… weird.. but, it works for me.

I saw my surgeon today about getting gastric sleeve. Everything is set; I just need to wait for the scheduler to call me and for my insurance to be billed. I’m so fucking excited to get weight loss surgery. I wanna be at 200 lbs (90 kg) by this time next year. I’m hoping and praying that I can possibly get down to 300 lbs (136 kg) before surgery.

[alysezzpo]

Starting Over, Again. (Again)

Long time no see. I've relapsed. I wanted to lose weight before my surgery that's in the next couple of months, but I realized how fast I fell into disordered eating. Because of that, I'm back to my old habits even though I said I was done in 2020. I have found myself 150 lbs heavier, married, and now a mother to one. I am in the final stages before receiving Bariatric Surgery, which I have manipulated my way into receiving for ‘health issues’. (Though that is partly true, I want weight loss surgery so I can finally get down to my goal weight and be thin and the healthiest I’ve ever been.)

Here are my stats for accountability.

Height: 5'6.5"/ 168.9 cm/ 66.5 in

SW (2016)(when / first developed disordered eating)): 218 lbs/ 15.5 stone/ 98.8 kg

SW (Since 2020 Relapse): 288 lbs/ 20.5 stone/ 130.6

kg

LW( Lowest Weight Ever): 195 lbs/ 13.9 stone/ 88.4 kg)

~•Most Recent Stats•~

SW (Since 2024 Relapse): 352.2 lbs/ 25.1 stone/ 159.6 kg

HW: 357 lbs/ 25.5 stone/ 161.9 kg

CW (5/21/24): 342.6 lbs/ 24.4 stone/ 155.4 kg

GW #1: 325 lbs/ 23.2 stone/ 147.4 kg

GW #2: 312 lbs/ 22.2 stone/ 141.5 kg

GW #3: 300 lbs/ 21.4 stone/ 136 kg

UGW #1: 288 lbs/20.5 stone/ 130.6 kg (the weight I started at in my last relapse)

Once I get to 288 lbs I will make new goal weights. My goal is to reach 325 lbs by June 5th. It will take a lot of discipline, but I think I can do it.

[alysezzpo]

Today's Weigh in: 213.5 lbs (15.2 stone/ 96.8 kg)

BMI: 34.5 (Obesity Class |)

Total Weight Lost: 23.5 lbs / 1.6 stone/ 10.6 kg

GW (by 12/1/20): 210 lbs

WEIGHT LEFT UNTIL ULTIMATE #1 ( 195 lbs): 18.5 lbs

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I don’t have much news other than my parents have been a little less of a bitch haha. Also still haven’t gotten my period ooops-

At this rate I should reach my GW of 210 lbs by December 1st! Yay!

I’m also looking at loser town and it’s saying that I won’t reach 188 by New Years :( Hopefulllyyy I can make it but we’ll see. I’ll determine my GW for New Years when December hits. But, my 18th Birthday is at the end of January and my parents have been talking about having an all white party with some of my relatives and a few close friends sooo, hopefully by then I can be 180 lbs.

I also graduated in May so I need a GW for that too... Let’s say 140 lbs.

I seem to be the only person in the ED community that sets due dates for weight loss... Please let me know if other people do that too haha.

(November 18, 2020)

[alysezzpo]

Today's Weigh in: 217.5 lbs (15.5 stone/ 98.6 kg)

BMI: 35.1

Total Weight Lost: 19.5 lbs / 1.4 stone/ 8.8 kg

Weight Left Until Next GW (217 lbs): 0.5 lbs

WEIGHT LEFT UNTIL ULTIMATE #1 ( 195 lbs): 22.5 lbs

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(I haven’t posted a weigh in in like weeks so take that and a life update as well. Also Mother Mother has become my spirit animal and I like this song of theirs.)

•So I finally broke my week plateau, but because of said plateau I was unable to reach 117 lbs by the first of November. Nonetheless, I haven’t been this low of a weight since my freshman year of high school and I’m now a senior so, Kudos to me I guess.

•Anywho, 3 years ago today (November 13, 2017) I tried to commit suicide for the first (and so far only) time at 14. Ugh, not something I want to be reminded of, since there’s one more thing I failed. (Haha)

•I was feeling pretty guilty the other day so I purged in the laundry mat. Fuck it amirite? Tbh that probably helped me lose this weight. I miss being bulimic. When my parents found out about my purging I had to switch to restricting instead haha; do you ever just switch eating disorders? Fuck-

•I got accepted into the college I wanted so there’s that.

•I also tend to be growing in popularity on here as of late. I don’t know why y’all like fat trash but welcome, I’ll be following everyone back cause my feed is dead lol.

•Anyway, on a finally note, my parents found out where my ex works. ( I guess he works at this gas station up the street so it’s not like my parents were stalking him to find him.) I was under the impression he went to Florida to stay with his family and possibly get a job down there but I guess not haha. Knowing where he works has triggered me into restricting sooooo fucking much. A bitch wanna be skinneh so she can strut up in the Gas station and flaunt her bones ✨

•I have also started writing an ED book on Wattpad so if anyone’s interested I can drop that in my next update since this is getting long-

•I won’t be posting till Monday probably since I normally weigh every other day and it’s the weekend so I cant really weigh with my parents home.

If you’ve made it this far; why

But thank you for attending my (t)edtalk (get it-) I luv u all stay safe

(November 13, 2020)

[alysezzpo]

Starting over, Once Again

So I’m back on my bullshit. No surprise there haha.

My goal is to be at 188 lbs by Christmas (if not the end of the year, that also marks 100 lbs lost)

My UGW will probably be 79 lbs cause I’m bad haha. I want the same BMI as Eugenia Cooney.

Height: 5’6.5”/ 168.9 cm/ 66.5 in

SW (2016)(when I first developed disordered eating)): 218 lbs/ 15.5 stone/ 98.8 kg

SW (Since 2020 Relapse): 288 lbs/ 20.5 stone/ 130.6 kg

CW: 237 lbs/ 16.9 stone/ 107.5 kg

Current GW: 225 lbs/ 16 stone/ 102.0 kg

GW #1 (lowest weight): 195 lbs/ 13.9 stone/ 88.4 kg

GW #2: 185 lbs/ 13.2 stone/ 83.9 kg

GW #3: 175 lbs/ 12.5 stone/ 79.3 kg

GW #4: 165 lbs/ 11.7 stone/ 74.8 kg

GW #5: 150 lbs/ 10.7 stone/ 68 kg

(Posted October 20, 2020)

((Post made/written October 9, 2020))

[alysezzpo]

Today's Weigh in: 221.5 lbs (15.8 stone/ 100 kg)

BMI: 35.7

Total Weight Lost: 15.5 lbs/ 1.1 stone/ 7 kg

Weight Left Until Next GW: 4.5 lbs

WEIGHT LEFT UNTIL ULTIMATE #1 ( 195 lbs): 26.5 lbs

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So I maintained... I was really hoping to be at 220 by now, especially since yesterday I skipped breakfast and had less than 1000 cals yesterday. (Ew, to much, I’m aware.)

But that’s probably not gonna happen since I had my younger sisters birthday party today and ate so much damn food that I was physically sick. (And it wasn’t even as much as old binge-eater me would eat). All I can really say was the urge to purge was just off the charts today, so bad I had to break away from the party to collect my thoughts. So that’s that. I’ll weight tomorrow (even though I weigh every other day) in order to see the damage I done. Not looking forward to that but I’ll pray that I at least maintain cause I did have to shit my brains out lol. I guess we’ll just wait and see.

(October 25, 2020)

[alysezzpo]

Today's Weigh in: 225 lbs

BMI: 36.4

Total Weight Lost: 12 lbs/ 0.8 stone/ 5.4 kg

Pounds Left until Current GW: 0 lbs ‼️‼️

✨New Goal Weight: 217 lbs✨

Weight Left Until Next GW: 8 lbs

WEIGHT LEFT UNTIL ULTIMATE #1 ( 195 lbs): 30 lbs

Haven’t been this weight since I was a freshman, b l e s s. Also my doctor today mentioned my 45 lb weight loss ( my high weight was 288 lbs and now I’m at 225 lbs, that’s 63 lbs. last time I saw him I was about 260 soo...) At this rate I could lose more weight before my appointment with said doctor in April. I checked losertown and they estimate I could be 153 lbs at this rate so that will be my goal for April 2021. Gahhh the look in they’re face will be priceless!!! Let’s just hope I can break that never-before-been-breakable plateau that I get every time I hit 195 lbs.

(October 20, 2020)

[alysezzpo]

Today's Weigh in: 215 lbs (15.3 stone/ 97.5 kg)

BMI: 34.7 (Obesity Class |)

Total Weight Lost: 22 lbs / 1.5 stone/ 9.9 kg

Weight Left Until Next GW (217 lbs): 0 lbs‼️

✨New GW (by 12/1/20): 210 lbs✨

WEIGHT LEFT UNTIL ULTIMATE #1 ( 195 lbs): 20 lbs

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So I guess the weekend went nice weight wise. I fucking hate my family, they keep bring up the fact that I don’t have a job because I was purging at work and it’s my fault I’m jobless and broke and that I won’t amount to anything. They keep saying that I have to many problems and it’s stressful in them to be dealing with all this eating disorder bullshit. First of all, fuck you. All of you. You may be good for me financially but in any other area of my life I’ve never been more fucking miserable, even at my worst. And then they have the audacity to say to me after knowing what I’ve been through,” I can see why your mom starting upping her drug usage” all because what???? Cause I lost one fucking sock while doing 9 loads of laundry with no help?? Are you kidding me???? Also I got temporarily kicked out last night. And It doesn’t help they’re controlling as fuck. Example:

Adoptive Gaurdian: You can’t lose anymore weight!1!!!11! You look good where you are you’ll look weird if you get skinnier!!1!!!1

Thank you once again for telling me what I can and can’t do with my body.

I hate my life and want to move out but I would be so miserable trying to go to college full time and trying to work a full time job; but at the same time it can’t be fucking worst than this. Someone please help, I’m at my witz end. ( And that’s just half of it. Did I mention I also got cussed out for eating half a fucking chicken taco cause I was with relatives and we were out all day?)

Gah, in any news, I still haven’t gotten my period and it’s been like 5 days. I know I’m not pregnant cause I haven’t had sex since like December of last year, so I’m pretty sure I’m just stressed tf out combined with starving myself for weeks. Does not getting a period just feel like ✨success✨ to anyone else or just me?

Anywho, I also changed my GW. I want to be 210 by the end of the month (although secretly I’m hopeful I can be 205 lbs). We’ll just have to see if my body is going to curse me or if for once I can get some mf good news.

(November 16, 2020)

[alysezzpo]

Day 5 (ABC DIET)

Today's Weigh in: 235.5 lbs

Pounds Lost: 5.5 lbs

Weight Left until GW#2: 0.5 lbs

WEIGHT LEFT UNTIL ULTIMATE: 85.5 lbs

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Today's limit was 100 Calories.

Breakfast:

°Peach Crisp (50)

Lunch: Nothing

Dinner:

°Strawberry Crisp//Didn't Finish them All// (20)

Snack: Nothing

TOTAL: 70 Calories

(November 30, 2018)

[alysezzpo]

Day 4 (ABC DIET)

Today's Weigh in: 241.0 lbs

Pounds Lost: 1.3 lbs

Weight Left until GW#2: 6 lbs

WEIGHT LEFT UNTIL ULTIMATE: 91 lbs

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Today's Limit was 400 calories.

Breakfast: Nothing

Lunch:

°Apple Crisps (50)

Dinner:

°Campbell's Spaghettios (290)

Snack:

°3 oz. Baby Carrots (35)

°Fat Free Hidden Valley Ranch (25)

TOTAL= 400 Calories

(November 29, 2018)

[alysezzpo]

Day 3 (ABC DIET)

Today's Weigh in: 242.3 lbs

Pounds Lost: 1.1 lbs

Weight Left until GW#2: 7.3 lbs

WEIGHT LEFT UNTIL ULTIMATE: 92.3 lbs

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Today's limit was 300 calories.

Breakfast: Nothing

Lunch: Nothing

Dinner:

°Light Vegetable and Noodle Soup/ 2 servings (120)

Snack:

°White Monster Sugar Free (0)

°Baby Carrots/3 servings (105)

°Fat Free Hidden Valley Ranch/3 servings (75)

TOTAL: 300 CALORIES

(November 28, 2018)

[alysezzpo]

Day 2 (ABC DIET)

Today's Weigh in: 243.4 lbs

Pounds Lost: 2.6 lbs

✨🔓GOAL WEIGHT #1 REACHED🔓✨

Weight Left until GW#2: 8.4 lbs

WEIGHT LEFT UNTIL ULTIMATE: 93.4 lbs

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Today's limit was 500 or less calories.

Breakfast:

°8 Sweet Cherries (40)

Lunch:

°Small Apple (77)

Dinner:

°Maruchan Instant Flavored Lunch - Shrimp Flavored (290) //Spilt Some (-7)//

Snack:

°3 oz. Baby Medium carrots (35)

° 1 serving Hidden Valley FAT FREE Ranch (25)

° 8 Sweet Cherries (40)

TOTAL= 500 Calories

(November 27, 2018)