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[mxmasters]

which GAW members are furries?

bluntfiend: non-furry jockjamsvol6: ironic furry lesbian_gengar: unironic furry polaricecraps: schrodingers furry hetcopogg: loves to tease Esther about being a furry gaycopmp4: SUSPICIOUSLY SILENT on the matter!! bones: non-furry, but wouldn't say no if someone offered to design it a sona harmpit: yiff iyf kkrule: maybe? big fan of Sonicfox these days talman_corvett: only if abstract portraiture counts as a sona opossum: it's right there in the name. tiedyeduck: nah. DonDeLillo: also no. Kektagon: extremely, VOCALLY not a furry. FreakyGhostBed: is it rude to ask a ghost whether they have a living fursona? asking for a friend _FuddruckeR_: no orbhorse: yes FunkoPopFan1: actual top-tier kemono-style suiter Three6serpent: :3 greenmanwalking: definitely into at least ONE furry rollinboxcars: "how can I possibly hold all these fuzzy wuzzy GMPCs??" alwaysbpositive: sparkliest of sparkledogs meatgerm: keeps pointing at literally any animal and saying "my fursona" twilight_tone: doggo confirmed WHEREISMYHOG: thinks the whole subculture is really stupid whistl_stahp: will only admit her deviantart crimes under duress steakshift: absolutely.

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Getting some color back in my world.... Getting my #nofilter on :) #AlwaysBPositive #thalassemia #hematology (at Harper University Hospital)

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I burst into tears seeing this. Still can't believe you're gone. Thank you Khet. Thank you Brian and Raph. #heroartist #alwaysBpositive

[mxmasters]

what’s up with you and penelope?

haha oh that's a loaded question isn't it. uhhh we've got a quid pro quo going on? she tricked me, or I tricked her... and then she helped me solve my biggest fuckup, so I owe her. Big-time. She hasn't called in those favors yet, but i know it's gonna be some janitor shit. Not gonna tell her anything important about GAW, and I'm not gonna help toss anyone in a cell, but fair is fair and a deal is a deal. We'll figure it out.

And personally?

...hm?

You're talking quid pro quo. Professional stuff. But "what's up with you and Penelope", personally?

well, "personally", I think she's sort of weird. Obviously wound very tight IRL, but pretty chill in the chats. Talks like a substitute teacher, but she's got those internet brainworms, so sometimes she spouts off random gibberish. Dead memes, webcomic gags, super specific anime cuts. Seems genuinely into Sailor Moon. It's cute.

One thing that bugs me: I can't tell how much of this "I want to help people" schtick is an act. She's a janitor and janitors lie. But she also checked in with Doreen (alwaysbpositive) after the whole dice fiasco, just to make sure she was okay. That was... nice. Cool move. Big factor in my decision to send her that second tape and ask for help directly. Paid off, too! Otherwise I'd be rotting in a white box rn instead of talking to y'all.

You know what they're actually asking, Wren.

alright FINE it's under the cut

I have a TYPE, okay?! I admit it. I find lots of people very attractive. I'm pan. I'm polyamorous. Most of my partners have been femme, but the real throughline, the real point of consistency? Everyone I've dated or crushed on could probably turn me inside-out if they wanted to. Yes, including Tanya (twilight_tone)! Never cross a Dreamer, fr.

Anyway. All this to say that when whistl slugged me in the face, I started looking at her a little differently.

[mxmasters]

who do u consider closer friends out of the GAW?

ahh, well, "close" is relative. GAW is a lot like family, in that there's lots of people in the mix and you don't really know all of them as much (or as little) as you might want to.

mind you, they're also comrades, so I'd step up and fight for any of 'em. Especially the kids. it's a fucked-up world and they need someone in their corner.

last thing: I have, uh. problems. sharing past events. so I'm scared of getting too close to certain people. you know how it is.

aside from that... wait, am I allowed to be specific?

I don't see a problem with it, so long as we make one thing clear: only a few of these characters are original to the MxTape. Everything else is based on my interpretations of existing works, and the original authors always have the final say.

MxTape Originals, aka Steal These OCs

Doreen Gray (alwaysbpositive): Met her because of my delivery work. She needed some ethically-sourced B+, and I knew some queer people with units to spare. Not like Canadian Blood Services wants it! Homophobes. Anyway we've been friendly ever since. She's got two moods: energetic and depressed. I can relate.

meatgerm: I've crashed on this man's couch twice and still don't know his name. Do NOT eat his cooking! He WILL prank you. Really good fiddle player, though.

Tanya Miller (twilight_tone): Extremely close! We are partners! Sometimes we even dream together.

Louis (WHEREISMYHOG): never met IRL but he's got some wild stories and a solid understanding of magical theory.

Penelope Gore (whistl_stahp): yo we've talked about this.

MxTape Guests, aka Upcoming Attractions

Desmond Callaghan (gothicalfallacy): really, really cool! Hand member. Fellow Jojo appreciator. Probably the only person I know who understands theory better than WHEREISMYHOG. Go-to-guy for questions. Too bad he's only available, like, half the time.

Judith Feingold (thisisstupid12345): Desmond's sister; also a Hand member. Barely involved with GAW, but she kept logging into her brother's account and bones said that was against the rules, so here we are. Not magical, but very, very keen on guns, so she mostly talks with _FuddruckeR_.

GAW Members, aka "Janitors call us PoIs"

bones: we got to talking after the whole "terrestrial years" thing, and as it turns out... it's not doing a bit! an actual alien satellite. That sorta blew my mind. bones is a bit short and perfunctory sometimes but I think it's just doing the absolute best it can with people it doesn't entirely understand, which... same, tbh?

acuterobot: adorable. following her tumblr blog got me in some trouble, but I don't hold that against her.

polaricecraps: ehhh complicated. I see a lot of myself in PIC, but he's smarter than I was at his age and that cuts both ways. He's in it for the right reasons but speaking from experience, that's a great way to shoot yourself in the foot. He also lost my fucking TAPE but I puked in his van a while back so we're calling it even.

Andressa (gaycopmp4) and Dahlia (hetcopogg): literally the cutest couple I've ever seen. Fierce, passionate, committed to justice... and, uh, their kid? pretty sure Heather (Ms. Mad About Video Games) counts as their daughter. I send them tons of care packages with how-to books and chill retro games.

Armand (harmpit): extremely funny, lots of cool tricks, really difficult to understand in conversation. Marginally easier in text.

kkrule and kektagon: drive me ABSOLUTELY FUCKING INSANE. They're basking in the low-grade background radiation of the Internet and they're going to get emotional cancer. I've been there and I desperately want to help steer them out of it but GOD DAMN they are insufferable.

opossum: even worse. Probably the single most abrasive person I've ever met. Always arguing. Banned multiple times but never perma'd.

FreakyGhostBed: doesn't get out much, so I installed a media server in his family's basement so he can keep busy while they're asleep. we've hung out a few times since then. we mostly talk about movies.

_FuddruckeR_ and orbhorse: live and work on a ranch in the Southern States. Fantastic hosts, so long as you can tolerate Fudd plinking at targets all day.

CommunismAnarchismNihilism: incredible source for zines and materiel, a decent percentage of which have some kind of juice to them. We trade stuff. we also argue a lot (politics) but that's all in good fun (I think?)

fallout_meta.txt: escaped some real nasty characters to become a better person. I respect that, and I respect their top-tier opsec, because I don't know a single thing about them besides what's necessary.

FunkoPopFan1: not very active in the chat (super shy), but extremely resourceful, good at manipulating plastics, and passionate about her hobbies. Sadly one of those hobbies is collecting funko pops.

tabris, hybridRainbow, starspark, chokerless and bluefootedboobies: I would ride or die for all these kids.

And finally, The Big Three.

Esther Kogan (lesbian_gengar): friendly in the chat but we haven't met in person, bc she has deep ties in Three Ports and maybe she heard something about my fuckup back in 2008. On the other hand... remember what I said about having a type? The type who could kick my ass? Well, LG could definitely do that. In fact she could probably fry my brain. Yow!

JJ (jockjamsvol6): this dude defies description. I mean yes, he's hot, and he's chill, but the second he walks into a room... you know you're in for some shit. JJ is always EXACTLY where he's supposed to be, and as a genre-savvy person, that is TERRIFYING, because the narrative flows AROUND HIM. It's like watching someone waltz through a hurricane; it's cool, but not super safe for whoever stands around gawking.

And lastly... Jude Kriyot (bluntfiend). The man, the myth, the legend. The guy who walked away from AWCY and lived to tell the tale. (Or lie about it, at least.)

This is where things get really difficult for me, cuz... well, I'm an anarchist. The idea of following any one guy doesn't appeal to me. BUT! there is no GAW without Jude, and once you meet him, you can understand why. He's got something special. Not confidence or charisma or whatever (he's actually a clumsy dork), but heart and integrity, for sure. He believes in humanity. He believes in something good, and when you're hanging out, you want to believe in it too.

That said, he's also a fucking mess. I'm not judging (I'm a mess too), but on some level, I like to think I'm getting my shit together. Jude is more like... uh, a shonen protagonist between story arcs. You know? He just sorta stews in his own funk. Depressed. Off in his own little world. Like Johnny Joestar, before meeting Gyro. There's only one person who can reliably shake him out of it, and... well, it's not me.

I admire Jude. I really do. I want to trust him with my secrets, but I can't, because he doesn't trust me with his. That's... fair. Trust is hard to earn. It's easier to lie. But when the chips are down, I've got Jude's back. I hope he'd do the same for me.

[mxmasters]

should you fight gamers against weed? (part two: ROLL INITIATIVE!)

rollinboxcars: good luck escaping this GM's VALLEY OF ILLUSIONS!!! twilight_tone: shoot her in a dream, you'd better wake up and apologize meatgerm: turns meat into bread. your ass is toast WHEREISMYHOG: disappeared a 1100-lb blue ribbon boar. do not test him. alwaysbpositive: why tho?? hasn't she suffered enough? takesmasterschoice: absolutely.

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Taking this one on the fly! #AlwaysBPositive #thalassemia #outpatient #cantstopwontstop #thuglife #naturalbeauty #nofilter #detcitygurl