#altho unstable lmao

[suenitos]

yeah the only actual thing i had with him is that isn’t he a bit older? and i think victor being a mentally unstable college student is a fun part of his character lmao. altho tbh i don’t hate the idea of having a like young, attractive, super popular actor playing the monster i think that’s kinda fun and unexpected. anyway sorry for sharing every thought on this movie i have in your inbox lmao they hate me for my mary shelley fangirl swag,,.,,,

ya hes like 45 which maybe theyre taking a different angle on idk 😭 well clearly they are with the monster itself lmaooooo i feel like this one isnt as egregious as changing the literal character dynamics and therefore the themes because theyre changing both their ages and making it interesting unlike in the dorian gray one (still pisses me off btw) or something like removing being mixed race in england in the late 1700s-early 1800s that is central to a character like heathcliff in fact that affects the character dynamics and his personality and therefore the themes AGAIN (unless we're going for a modern take but in which case you might as well just have it "inspired by" instead of an adaptation at all imo) but idk obviously not everything can and should be one to one in adaptations i guess it really depends more about how far youre willing to go for the changes you make to keep the themes of the original story but as it stands it really is just frustrating to feel like not a ton of care or vision was put into these changes through the casting process or if they were, the media doesnt publicize it correctly to intentionally rage bait people who do really care about the source material to blow it up . idk its just.. augh.

[tamibae]

It's crazy how all that drama started with someone acting like a condescending jerk and refused to take accountability. It's amazing how far people will go to try and convince themselves and their zombie followers that they were the victim.

Lmao, at first I thought it was directed at me that I have superior complexity. Or was it really for me? Idk anyways, it doesn't matter if they know more than anyone or not. None has the right to direct any rude comments about anyone's education.

The fact that pissed me off was that my friend wasn't even saying "Lucy is one of the best mcs or she's one of the most well written anime characters" in fact in context of FairyTail, no character is even remotely close to being a competetion for other well written characters.

Mostly, I was triggered 'cause my friend had some emotional trauma regarding something very similar and it really felt horrible to see someone remind her of that through a fictional character. And also, I guess I should be careful about my posts from now on seeing there are extremely sensitive people folllowing my blog. Altho the person who sent me that threatning text might be a NaLu fan but who knows, other people can also follow me...

They might be trolls but it's something I don't wanna take chances with. There are some people who are unstable enough have suicidal thoughts and still be on social media where there are lots and lots of opinions varying theirs.

[jostenneil]

i was gonna rb this but i’m too lazy and tired to go look for the panels i wanted to use lmao. i also haven’t read shiva’s stuff in a while so i realized that my part on her might be inaccurate so i just… didn’t do it. but hi:

it’s interesting that you refer to jade as a “loose cannon” because i for one see her as much more composed than we give her credit for? she’s definitely the most emotionally unstable out of the three, but her outbursts are more rare than we think. she’s typically eerily calm which is partially why she’s scarily competent. any breakdowns we have witnessed are in roy’s presence and revolve around something meaningful to her (ex. lian, her freedom, etc.). granted, we haven’t had the opportunity to see something else trigger her mainly because, unfortunately, no one cared enough to explore that/her, but as far as canon goes they aren’t that frequent. jade too is a strategist which is an underrated aspect of her and not at all hyped up in the same vein as her toxicology knowledge and combat skills. i don’t know if you’re in the midst of reading through her stuff but you’ll see this in birds of prey. i guess my point is that any erratic behavior she’s exhibited is typically a part of jade and not cheshire, if that makes sense. very rarely is she going to allow herself to shatter (for lack of a better word) like that unless it’s lian in danger or something extremely triggering for her. i don’t disagree with the difference in violence tolerance but i will say that i personally interpret her “murder glee” (lol) as being proud of her own skills and competency. i definitely agree with you on the talia wanting to help her aspect. it’s definitely something worth exploring. they still haven’t met on panel yet so hey, that’s a dynamic to have! (i know they know of each other and technically met in recent continuity but those “interactions” are lame)

that’s a really good point! loose canon probably isn’t the best way to put it. ig what i’m trying to refer to is that if the right triggers are present then she can become a bit unpredictable. she’s damn good at her job and obv near on par if not absolutely on par with shiva and that doesn’t come from a consistent record of recklessness, after all! but the fact that her trauma has in some cases driven her to some really erratic breakdowns esp as her relationship with roy deteriorates is what concerns me ig, bc that can potentially become an increasingly unpredictable variable when you’re in the field. but also, theoretically any missions with shiva and talia wouldn’t likely pit the three of them against roy and that’s something i didn’t think about in the last ask so that specificity of triggers is definitely a good point to bring up. maybe it’d be more plausible if the mission involved saving lian or one of their kids and that put jade on edge. that would be a really interesting scenario to explore! and yeah omg murder glee meter was just something i used in jest jsbdjdnjd it’s definitely more about her confidence in her own skill (altho obv part of it is also that she compensates for her trauma by exercising that skill, and that’s not necessarily a healthy coping mechanism, so there’s that too. she’s a mess omg i love her and i wish i could give her a hug 😭)

[dmdumouchel]

Bro I’m just sitting here spending the last hour of 2019 reflecting on all the crazy shit that’s happened the past few years. Had a lot of hard times but a lot of cool new experiences too (altho my anxiety sometimes ruined those experiences for me lmao). I went to my first concert, I met one of my closest friends who I met thanks to this site @citizensylvain irl and made a bunch of other new friends too. I’ve had some really scary and anxiety-inducing experiences and speaking of which...I really struggled with anxiety these past few years, so much so that I ended up in the ER at one point and now owe the hospital money...oops. I’ve undergone a lot of personal growth but I feel like I’ve also regressed a lot in many ways and have to work really hard starting now to become my best self and get where I want to be in life. To be honest I’m scared for my future and for the future of...well our world as a whole, as there’s just so many horrible things going on. But I really hope we can all have a bright future as a whole. And I hope I can have a bright future on a personal level too. I think these past 5 yrs have taught me to get smarter and stronger. And I mean both smart and strong in many different ways not just the literal definitions lol. Idk if I’m making sense. But dude this decade has been...everything. I figured out many aspects of my identity and what I want to do with my life...or at least some idea of it. As a teen I thought I was sure what I wanted to do, but when I got to college I became much less confident. But I think I’m starting to reach a place where the future is a little less uncertain. Don’t get me wrong, it’s still super unstable and scary, but I think I’m starting to get more of an idea of what I want to do.

[maggotmouth]

      yo, it’s nora ( gmt, she/her) i’m back on my bullshit. sorry for dropping finn and cecily i jst.... wasn’t feelin very in their headspace. 

anyway bridget matusiak is a certified mess™ so have fun with that, she is an angry queer punk(?) maybe altho her identity …. i guess like everyone’s …. is very fluid…. she is very fickle and prone to change….. very impulsive and acts how she feels in the moment a lot i guess….. but also very grounded in her morals and ethics. film nerd. works at bowling alley. shakes hands. says “roger that”. yet somehow very cool™ and hip™. anyway like this or message me for plots. here’s a pinboard if u think those are groovy.

( nora. 23. gmt. she/her. ) it might be HER SOPHOMORE year but I still think BRIDGET MATUSIAK looks exactly like MARGARET QUALLEY and sometimes I think the FEMALE is actually them. Of course I’m wrong, as they're TWENTY and studying FILM while living in AUDAX here at Lockwood. The ARIES can be rather CANDID and GARRULOUS, but also kind of FICKLE and ERRATIC. Their most played song on Spotify was NOBODY REALLY CARES IF YOU DON’T GO TO THE PARTY by COURTNEY BARNETT, so I think that says a lot. 

bridget n her mum alice were more like sisters growing up, probably because of the closeness in age. alice should’ve known that you couldn’t have a thirteen-year-old-daughter at 27 without everyone knowing you’d been one of those girls who gave it away fast as a hot potato, and maybe bridget should have known that she’d inherit more than her mother’s wide eyes, that things had a way of circling back, that at fourteen she too would lose it on the floor of a swimming pool changing room, soggy back, poka-dot nylon pulled down to her ankles. 

her parents met in high school. her mother alice was a roman catholic -- uneducated in matters of safe sex, mother mary around her neck, bras hanging over wooden crucifixes -- and willing to give it to the first boy who seemed interested enough, gift-wrapped or not. 

i say they met in high school, bridget’s dad wasn’t actually in school, they met at the high school. he was the father to a girl down the road. alice knew nothing of the girl besides her name and the few encounters in the corridors facing a stoney stare that screamed homewrecker. it only happened once, but once was enough. soon the pitter patter of tiny feet sounded along the hall of the home for wayward women, alice’s parents having thrown her out as soon as they knew a child was growing in her womb.

gilly (referred to as junior) was born two years later, the son of a mechanic and handyman named gilbert “gilly” senior, who - while a slow-witted man -- was likable enough. alice, gilly bridget & junior lived in a colorado trailer park and whenever she wasn’t at school bridget would be in gilly’s workshop doin her homework surrounded by parts of exhausts.  was raised in a workshop basically.

like her mother, bridget fell pregnant barely out of her gingham print dresses, hair in two plaits down her back, teddies still lining her bed. unlike her mum, she was not box-shipped out to a home for fallen women but rather booked into a clinic, given a pill, just like taking your vitamins.

her mother flaked out when bridget was around fifteen and junior was twelve, leaving gil to adopt the two as legal guardian and raise them in the forge. she’s lived with gilly ever since. they’re not sure where their mother went. some say she rededicaed herself as a virgin and joined the convent in penance for her sins. some say she works in a las vegas strip club and sells pills to minors. 

a withdrawn child, bridget was selectively mute for 2 years (so girl has perseverance) n during that time her diary became her best friend. when she went mute she communicated exclusively through passive aggressive post it notes.

she’s a strident feminist, an activist for human rights and animal rights, a vocal vegetarian and an all-round soapbox sadie. catch her in the quad shouting about human rights through a megaphone.

aesthetic: cuffed jeans, thrifted or stolen. white converse, more grey tbh through years of wear. crop tops and plaid shirts tied round her waist. a long green trench coat with loads of badge pins for alt-rock bands and independent films. red denim jacket, also covered in badges n pins. smudged mascara. glitter smeared over cheekbones from the previous night. cigarette smoke shrouding you like a veil, the red string of a thong peaking out purposely from jeans, roller blades, cut knees, not eating your greens, smiling with a mouthful of blood, and piercing your own ears with a safety pin when your dad wouldn’t take you, kate moss posters lining the walls of a teenage bedroom, thumb holes poked through the cuffs of your sleeves, feet pounding the earth until your soles bleed crimson, sleeping in a cherry lip balm and scrunchies to keep the wild locks from your eyes.

an aspiring screenwriter. she has a very image-based view of memory and experience. always doing a screenplay or shooting film. her style has a lot of catholic iconography (think virgin suicides styler or baz luhrmann’s romeo + juliet if it was done on a super 8 camera) bcos catholicism is one of the few things she remembers about her mother. she’s never actually tried to find her mum / find out about her, jst…. occasionlly channels that energy into her work.

hypersexual and kinda manic-deppressive (though not diagnosed) probs bcos her upbringing was a bit unstable, she started life in a house that was literally designed to rehabilitate “fallen women” and she was a looked after child for a while when the adoption papers were still going through... struggles a lot with feeling unwanted, especially since her grandparesnts refuse to acknowledge her existence cos she was born outside of marriage..... so she craves feeling wanted,, like despite being a real women’s rights activist ad hating objectification, at the same time to bridge there’s nothing better than someone sizing you up with hunger in their eyes

she’s queer, but i guess she favours women, and is incredibly vocal in her support of the lgbt+ movement. often at ralleys. has done a face-sitting protest. really is that bitch

there’s a degree of anger for anger’s sake in bridget. she likes passionate, angry music – particularly garage rock, punk and riot grrrl. she loves the slits and skinny girl diet. viv albertine inspired her to take up bass guitar.

working two jobs to pay for uni currently !! works at the bowling alley polishing the shpes and fixing the bowling lanes, and also is a burger flipper at mcdonalds. a lot of her time is spent in the record store, plugged into a set of headphones, head-banging in the corner to a scratched record. music, for birdie, is a form of escapism. that and dropping acid in parking lots lmao.

massive film buff. is majoring in film at uni also spends a lot of time at the movie theatre n probably has like a season ticket. is one of those pretentious film nerds who’s like “what do u think of goddard’s work?” but also just really into shitty horror movies

she spends her evenings in downtown bars willing away her boredom, trying to find something that’ll jerk her out of apathetic lethargy. she toys with the idea of becoming a stripper — it certainly pays better than fixing bowling lanes — but she lacks the energy to dance for several hours a night. 

she loves b movies and slasher flicks. at parties, she’ll occasionally try to make a horror of her own, on a super 8 camera in someone’s basement, very paranormal activity, but she’ll inevitably get bored, or too drunk and give up, like she does with most things in her life. she lacks drive and motivation. she’s bright but there’s no hunger in her.

writes shitty poems on the back of napkins and quotes dead philosophers she’s never read. romanticises herself a lot. like will be standing there in a ripped t-shirt and her undies smoking a cig like “hmmm… i bet someone is falling in love with me right now”

is vegetarian for environmental reasons but snorts coke at parties ?? sis, it don’t add up

loves dirt. ate a worm once because someone dared her too. shamelessly disgusting.

she’s slightly obsessed with true crime, up late watching documentaries on the manson family murders.

she’s fickle and enigmatic. one moment she could be your best friend, the next, she’ll behave like a total stranger. bridget’s unpredictable because she’s still unsure of her own identity, frequently flitting between different characters, like snake skins, before she grows bored of being bubbly and eager and becomes spiteful again. her core personality traits are probably forthright, impulsive, restless, thrill-seeking, selfish, melancholic.

an awful person, really

feel free to im me if u wanna plot, here are some plot ideas i stole, or, like this post and i’ll hit u with a message!

[guardiandae]

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I got so hyped for parts of TFA and towards the end really enjoyed it immensely but I still feel really cheated that the beginning was so rushed. It would’ve been so easy for them to just take five extra seconds to really sink the hook into me for each of the characters from the start, but it feels like if anything was originally there it got chopped out in favor of faster, faster editing or maybe they completely forgot to put it in there to start with.

Like, what makes me a little mad is that the stuff I wanted, actually was in the film, but way later, like I expected. Like, the fact that Finn was abducted, trained all his life as a trooper, and that was the first battle he’d ever seen. If they’d taken literally a second to drop that info right at the start. And I really think that Poe should’ve actually questioned Finn and his intentions for 2 freaking seconds when they first met, bc the convo they did have... doesn’t cut it for me. Poe is the best pilot for the Resistance, he’s just been tortured for info, and he doesn’t even think that a storm trooper conveniently trying to help him out isn’t a little suspicious? It could’ve easily been a trick?? Hell, even if they had Finn, while in the tie fighter, go, ‘why do you trust me?’ and have Poe spout some sympathetic understanding for storm troopers, that would’ve helped a lot. As much as I super love Poe and Finn becoming such fast friends, their limited interaction lacked the appropriate depth, and not necessarily for lack of time together but lack of just, realistic or proper communication. Literally five, ten seconds and some extra questions and answers, like what I suspected and Phasma later said, Finn was going to be reconditioned, which is probably an awful experience, so fuck yeah he wanted to get out of there right then. I was so on board and SHOOK by Finn’s first scenes, seeing a trooper die in front of him, the blood smeared across his helm, the way he hesitated, the way he tried to follow the motions but couldn’t shoot the innocent villagers, I was. so. there. but then they just rushed everything so fast and didn’t give proper dialogue to bring it home. Like yes we can infer what’s going on, yes we can find out about it in retrospect but in this circumstance it’s not the same? Especially since it makes no sense for Poe to trust him, knowing how awful the New Order is, and not getting any like.. convincing... thing out of Finn. No, ‘I need to leave, they’ll recondition me’ just hey buddy let’s run off together! Sure I suddenly trust you there’s no way this could stab me in the back or put the entire Resistance in jeopardy!

Like. I wanna have fun so badly but just take the extra five seconds to let me??? Especially since later on when they reuinite like... I so want that to be a 150% awesome moment and believe in their deep friendship BUT THEY HAD NOTHING TO BOND OVER? LIKE? POE 100% TRUSTED HIM FROM THE START (BUT FOR NO REASON) AND LUCKILY FIN WAS ACTUALLY A NICE GUY? THE FUCK? Don’t cheat me, JJ Abrams.

The other thing that bugged me was, when Rey and BB8 first crossed paths, I was so confused by the entire interaction. She saved him from tha alienn guy, but that whole interaction made it seem like she knew BB8, hence going straight to his rescue, and knew what the alien was doing, bc it’s something that has happened more than once already. Like, as if BB8 had been with Rey for a while, and she had to keep trying to get that little guy from scraping him. Which I was 100% cool with and then realized, uh, no, she has no idea who BB8 is. Only later it’s made clear that droids are basically treated like people .. or at least Rey and others treats droids like they are free and sentient people, I suppose sleezy scrappers might not. But it’s just... very bizarre, I don’t know. If they’d somehow made that sentiment clear, hat Rey considered BB8 their own person, then maybe that would’ve cleared some things up. Because honestly once I was like, “ok so they DON’T know each other” I was like “so why is that little alien taking shit from her? That droid could be sold for a lot of money.” It’d make more sense for her to be like, this is my turf, my droid! That or, ‘droids are not property, leave it alone.’

Like.. idk, stop leaving me confused for so long before making it clear later on in the film. It’s not effective storytelling, it’s not an ~intriguing mystery~, especially when there’s SO MUCH MORE PLOT to get to in the movie, it’s just making it harder for me to get on board with the fun because nothing makes sense and these ‘mysteries’ are THINGS THAT WOULD HELP ME CONNECT TO THE CHARACTERS I’M SUPPOSED TO BE CARING ABOUT. I WANT TO. I FUCKING WANT TO CARE ABOUT THEM AND CRY EVERY DAY AND YOU ARE STANDING IN MY WAY, JJ ABRAMS.

Also, I’ve got a lot of ppl on my dash heavily invested into this fandom, especially Hux/Kylo shippers, which is part of why I was so disappointed bc I thought it’d be so much more enjoyable from the start? Like yes it was enjoyable but the beginning had such poor storytelling... anyway, my Kylux shipping friends and fandom at large led me to believe that Kylo Ren was this emo baby who has temper tantrums and cries all the time and is always emotionally unstable and Hux is like his chill 2 cool for school 2nd hand man who has to like, hold Kylo together and take his shit and get the job done while Kylo is like borderline incompetent bc he is so sad and emo and tortured.

Except, the movie is none of that. In fact I had kind of the opposite impression. It’s probably 90% bc Kylo’s face is hidden most of the time, but Hux even from his first lines is acted with this extremely tense, constipated, agitatio like he’s ready to either explore or burst into angry tears at any time. Like, am I the only one who got that from this face? 

it’s like Kylo has his balls in a Force vice grip at all times, I’m serious, I had to just mentally accept that in order to tolerate all of his lines, like, this poor guy, he has to worry about his balls being crushed, I get it now.

Plus there’s this 

Like, you could take that Nazi fervor back a notch, you’re frothing at the mouth ,bud. It doesn’t feel like he’s seriously into it, it seems more like there’s some very painful threat against him if he fails .. like his balls being crushed... off screen (bc I did not catch any threats to him on screen? but even so, like, he should’ve been slightly more chill, then that threat should’ve been made, then he’s like, fuck bro my balls, and the constipated nazi thing would’ve been understandable? idk)

also this all made me remember that I’ve never understood the politics involved in the entire Star Wars series and ... yeah I’m really fucking lost at this point, for sure. and don’t really gaf about the franchise to go watch them all and see if it’ll click for me. More likely I’ll be madder about more dumb shit I never noticed when I first saw these films when I was like, 10. lmao. Altho... my wife Padme... >.>

But yeah like... Kylo gets mad and trashes shit with his lightsaber but that’s cool and also like, I get where his anger and connflict is coming from (tahbnks to FAN META AND NOT THE FUCKING MOVIE) but I don’t get where Hux’s also very visible emotional agitation comes from.

Also, Snokes. I only know Kylo’s backstory so much bc of meta, and they do state the stuff in the film, but it would’ve been nice to bring it together, maybe when Han was trying to talk to him? like, according to fan meta, and Leia, Snokes basically groomed Kylo into the dark side when he was young... Han, come on, there could’ve been a little more said. There’s supposed to be so much weight behind that story but it feels empty when nobody really touches on it as much as they should. Like, I don’t need lengthy exposition, I just need a smidge  more than the bare fucking crumbs you’re giving me. Tho the ‘I’m being torn apart’ thing was nice tbh but without understanding why within the story it still risks just sounding dramatic for no reason. But, we know Kylo was tempted away to the dark side by Snokes, killed a bunch of kiddos, and ..? Basically I guess. He says he feels tempted by the light, his family, but aside from a few shreds that’s kind of all we get. 

Like, idk. There’s so. much. in this film that should be touched on more and given more weight but, instead it’s like nothing ends up feeling impactful. Poe gets tortured, Finn has faced his first battle and was clearly traumatized by it (the acting was greattt even before he took off that helmet wow that’s why I got so disappointed) but there’s no moment to transition, just, HEY PAL, LET’S RUN AWAY TOGETHER, YEE HAW. We can have weighty drama and lighthearted fun for the kids. We can. We really can.

Also, Rey’s abandonment on the planet, only the bit where Kylo is getting into her head cements the fact that she is so lonely and was left behind (also Maz, I love Maz). Also, Han’s death, also the destruction of an entire solar system. It all just felt so rushed, not much was allowed to hold any weight, even stuff I knew was supposed to be important?

Maybe it’s just me though, maybe I’m just really fucking dumb and like things to be clearly spelled out and stated and cemented together but, .. like I said,  I don’t expect exposition, I just expect like, a little moment where maybe Poe is suspicious of Finn, maybe Poe is clearly not okay (post torture and all) but then pulls himself together and is lie, yeah let’s do this, like... let me cry.

The only time I did cry was seeing Carrie fisher appear on screen the first time. AAEAAAUUGGGHHH!!!!!!!! ;;;;;;;;;;;;

Also, what’s up with R2D2 being a convenient asshole who slept for ages apparently and then conveniently wakes back up with the rest of the map they needed after all the fighting is done like... u dickhole. 

Also Luke is an enormous dickhole I’m pretty sure.

Also like, how long do these people live? Bc like, only 20 years or so shouldn’t be long enough for Rey to be like, ‘wow I thought Jedi weren’t real wow I thought that was a myth wow, wow’ like bitch that’s RECENT HISTORY, RECENT VERY IMPORTANT HISTORY, THERE WAS A ENTIRE HUGE JEDI WAR VS STORM TROOPERS THAT WASN’T THAT DAMN LONG AGO, AND STORM TROOPERS ARE REAL AS SHIT, KYLO REN’S FORCE POWERS ARE REAL AS SHIT, WHY DO PEOPLE NOT KNOW ABOUT THIS, Y’ALL GOT WARPSPEED ‘GARBAGE’ SPACESHIPS LYING AROUND BUT Y’ALL AIN’T GOT THE INTERNET, TWITTER? THE FUCK. STORM TROOPERS WOULD BE POSTING VINES OF KYLO’S EPIC MELTDOWNS. (RIP VINE, BUT THIS WOULD BE VINE 3.0 IN THE FUTURE~)

Idk. Maybe I’m old and bad storytelling bothers the fuck out of me. 

But I recently watched Mad Max Fury Road and every single part of that ws fucking flawless? Like? I donnn’t even need flawless I JUST NEED YOU TO TAKE 5 SECONDS TO LET ME CONNECT TO THESE CHARACTERS THAT I WANT TO LOVE AND ALLOW ME TO UNDERSTAND SOME BASIC CONCEPTS SO I CAN ENJOY YOUR FUCKING MOVIE JJ ABRAMS YOU LENSFLARE SHIT. YOUR STORYTELLING AND PACING IS BAD AND U SHOULD FEEL BAD.

didn’t like Hux as much as I thought I was going to.. or even remotely :/

didn’t like Rey, Finn, or Poe as much as I really wanted to. I liked them, but I could’ve liked them so much more and I feel robbed.

Maz, special guest appearance by Bloodraven!!, and Crotchy Old Man Han Solo were really the saving graces of this movie for me.

also, Kylo was actually really well acted imo, and fairly relatable despite also suffering from that limited screen time, limited chance to connect to the audience .. he did get more than anyone else, tho. 

but I enjoyed the movie. 

5/10 would have to watch it again to try to sink more understanding and feels into it that I should’ve been allowed to know from the start.

but I don’t think I will watch it again, glad I rented it and didn’t buy it :/

BUT, I KEPT JOGGING IN PLACE DURING THE MOVIE AND I GOT MY 20K STEP GOAL TODAY SO LMAO