#also... not coincidentally PUE chapter 5 was the first chapter that quetzal beta read for me
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whats ur fave megop fic uve written?
I'm not sure honestly 😔 I'm one of those people that hates rereading my own writing, and even though I will sometimes reread my own stuff and go "wow, past me was so smart and cool and clever for writing that," I'm not sure I enjoy any fic in particular? It's not just a matter of self-esteem either.
When I write a story it's sort of like me exorcising a set of thoughts from my brain, and once the story is finished I more or less stop thinking about it because when I finished writing the story and posted it, that act allowed me to say everything I had to say and resolve all the thoughts that prompted me to write the story to begin with.
I guess Pay Unto Evil is probably my favorite fic mostly because of how proud I am about it being such a long project (178k words I think) that took me a year and a half to finish, but it's literally the first novel length project I've ever completed. That being said, I'm not really proud of the earlier chapters of PUE (like... 1-4 or 1-5) because I feel like even though they're good, I didn't have as firm of a grasp on the characters back then as I did around chapter 6/7 and onwards. So it's a mixed bag honestly.
#squiggle answers#i'm not proud of myself and my accomplishments in general and it's a problem i'm actually going to therapy about#it's not that i have low self esteem and think negatively about myself#it's more that when i have positive attributes or do positive things they don't affect me very much#i'm kinda just like. k. that happened.#and it's sort of an endless cycle with writing bc the more i write the better my current stories become in comparison to the older ones#so it's something that i'm gonna have to grapple with and overcome eventually#also... not coincidentally PUE chapter 5 was the first chapter that quetzal beta read for me#and ch 6 was when she started betaing as i wrote#now she did beta read for other stuff like EATP at the time#but probably part of the increase in PUE's quality was because of her being involved more in my process#can't sing her praises enough. good beta readers literally are worth the world
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