#also why the shit did they make jobseeker appointments WEEKLY NOW.

[ojamayellow]

Really upset because I have been diagnosed with ASD when I was very young, but since I'm on unemployment welfare (I've been on this jobseeker welfare almost since I graduated high school and I'm 26 now LOL), to even TRY and get me on disability, I have to get re-assessed.

Which is, absolutely pointless to me because I KNOW I AM AUTISTIC. Even if I didn't have all these ancient papers saying so, I would have figured it out!! And the doctors bulk-bill here but NOT full, so I HAVE TO PAY MONEY FOR JUST CHECK-UPS NOW??? (Moved away from the capital city last year blah blah rental crisis blah blah) SO basically the jobseeker system are demanding I get re-assessed, so I have to see a doctor, to get a referral, to see a psychiatrist (?). Jobseeker: Costs me money to travel. Doctor: Like $70 but half off rebate. I think. IDK if they let me do it again. (Last doctor was utterly useless and he still charged me.) Psychiatrist/Specialist: WHO KNOWS WHEN I'D GET IN BUT THAT'S GONNA COST SO MUCH.

If I don't get proof of my disability, which greatly affects my ability to work, they'll force me to apply to full-time work, which I cannot do whatsoever. (I also have horrid anxiety, depression, paranoia, I break down easily if overstimulated, kids staring at me freaks me out, I dissociate...) Jobseeker are very picky and WILL check if I've ACTUALLY applied to jobs I've sent proof of, and WILL question if you refuse full-time work opportunities.

But again, the proof will only give me a TRYING CHANCE to get on disability support, it doesn't mean it'll work. SO if I spend all this money for nothing I'm literally going to snap and I have already harmed myself enough in the last few months.

I've done casual jobs overtime but even if I'm a part-time or casual worker I'm still gonna be stuck on jobseeker forever because I can't afford to own a house or some shit. I was/going to be again (I deferred my course) a student constantly unit-hopping due to quality of life issues and rent raising but as far as I know? I'll be stuck with living with my parents (closeted, btw) as long as I live. Because it's the only place I can afford.

(Only benefit from this is I can ask the doctor about my injured hand because it's been over a month and it's still in unbearable pain at times. Oh, and I can ask psychiatrist about ADHD assessment so I can get meds. I KNOW the meds would help my everyday life.)

Don't you love it when the government tries to make it harder for you to have some sort of income if you're not already rich. I have been on this evil jobseeker system for at least 7 years :)))))))))