#also we know from loona that companies just it so that they can’t get paid no matter how successful anyway

[ujuro]

I genuinely thought every kpop stan knew that a majority of idols make little to no money during their entire career like not even beyond common knowledge I thought it was just a given that everyone knows that since it’s been talked about SO many times but apparently not only do a lot of stans not know that they get mad if anyone, idol or not, points it out

[incorrigible-groupie]

Wow, this analysis of the last episode of Helluva Boss went way further that I wanted…

« Blitzo is in love with Stolas !!! »

What.

Hell no.

No no no no.

Did we watch the same show ?

Even since the pilot we know the « relationship » between them is an arrangement more than a love story. I mean, Blitzo doesn’t swoon about Stolas, doesn’t think about Stolas and only talks about Stolas when he remembers he needs the book, he freaking spent some time with him only because he was paid (you know… when he went to Loo Loo Land ?). He shows more compassion towards Moxxie (while treating him like sh*t) than towards Stolas, for Satan’s sake he went to the Harvest Moon Festival only because Millie’s family was there.

Did you see Blitzo’s face when Striker aimed at Stolas ? And then the F*CKING TERROR ON HIS FACE WHEN STRIKER AIMED AT MOXXIE ??? Blitzo was ready to tear an arm appart with his own teeth. But for Stolas ? Meh.

So no, Blitzo isn’t in love with Stolas.

And episode 6 proved that.

DISCLAIMER : The following post is nothing against Stolitz shippers obviously, especially because both characters are great and badass but I really think their feelings aren't synchronized and therefore their relationship isn't completely healthy. They could have a nice one... but not yet. And most importantly, the hallucination scene isn’t about Stolas. Let me explain why I believe that.

« Did you see the golden feathers that put Blitzo back to himself ? »

Oh you mean the golden feathers that turned into chains and that Stolas took to bring Blitzo to his feet ?

Yeah, I saw them.

Of course I saw them.

This is exactly what I expected how Blitzo sees his « relationship » with Stolas, this is exactly the thing that proves that I was right all along.

Blitzo doesn’t love Stolas, he is only with him because he has to.

And with what happened before the stair scene, I know now why.

Blitzo feels like trash, still feels like trash, maybe because of his older relationships, probably because he is from the lowest of the low (working in a circus, then a little bit higher when dating a pop star…).

Did we watch the same show ?

The show that talks a lot about inequality between castes, the show that talks a lot about how difficult it was for Blitzo to make his own company, made from scratch ???

Striker, IN THE PREVIOUS EPISODE, made an entire statement about how Blitzo is underestimated and Blitzo felt it. He was very close to accept to go with him… but he needed to protect his « easiest lanky ticket to Earth ».

Stolas is just a tool for Blitzo to get what he wants. At first, I thought it was because he is searching for something in Earth (and uses the missions as a distraction). But now, I think it’s about something more important : power. Stolas’ feathers have nothing to do with his « transformation », it just shows that Blitzo wears a mask, a costume, a cleaner suit to pretend he isn’t like trash, that he wasn’t trash, that he will not go back to trash.

Whatever it takes.

« Yeah but the figures that are fanning Stolas in such a caring way… »

You mean more like slaves ?

Again, castes, stairs, chains, fanning ? You see a metaphor of love, I see a metaphor of slavery. That’s really disturbing. This is a representation of how Blitzo feels towards Stolas and gosh I’m so worried about him, and them. This is about power.

« But he is climbing towards him ! He wants him ! »

No. He doesn’t want to go to Stolas. He wants to climb those stairs. He wants to go higher. He wants to stay away from the trash. This is about power.

« But the chains… »

I hate those chains.

This is about power.

This is about power.

THIS IS ABOUT POWER.

« No. I think this is about fear. I think he fears to be rejected, so he bound himself to someone, but he also fears of commitment… »

…

Fears of commitment ?

Blitzo ?

What the hell ?

Are we talking about the boss who is not afraid to show (not say, but SHOW) how deeply he cares about his employees ? Are we talking about the demon who adopted Loona and says to everyone that he loves his daughter ? Are we talking about the Blitzo who shares his passions everywhere even on Instagram ? You think someone who is afraid to be rejected would be afraid to commit ? He knows how to express his feelings, he even lies to make the ones he loves happy (yes, I’m talking about Moxxie’s taste in music, duh).

And he does talk about his relationship with Stolas, but do you remember how he calls it ? A transaction.

The book in exchange of passionate fornication.

Nothing more, nothing less.

When people says that Stolas is his boyfriend, Blitzo denies it because he doesn’t want to be seen as just a lover, just a partner, he doesn’t want to have an image of a demon who had success because he is lucky an higher being felt in love with him.

No.

He planned that.

He organized that. He slept with Stolas to stole the book, he still sleeps with Stolas FOR the book.

That demon has ambition that is not related to love.

« Have you even listened to what Blitzo’s subconscience said ? »

… Actually no, not really.

I’m sorry.

English isn’t my native language so it was harder than usual to understand ‘Moxxie’ gibberish (also, I was tripping balls listening to Brandon Rogers playing everyone voices).

I started this all post while not considering what was said, I only listened to my guts which twisted while watching Blitzo being chained because of Stolas.

I’m sorry. I may be wrong…

… But I never believed Blitzo loved Stolas and I won’t start now.

So how can I explain how what is showed and what is saying are related ?

Maybe because Blitzo is scared to be put on a pedestal in his friends minds whereas what he is doing with Stolas isn’t completely right. But he must do it for a reason. Like I said, that demon has ambition.

This is about power.

I think Blitzo has a goal in mind (which he wasn’t able to obtain alone, like Robot Beetlejuice said), a goal he will gain by sacrificing the respect his friends have for him.

You know… whatever it takes.

I think he knows he will disappoint them so he wants to enjoy his remaining time with them while not getting too close to them so the fall won’t be that hard.

« So you agree ? Blitzo is in love with Stolas but can’t make it real. »

Still no.

For all the reason I said before, Blitzo doesn’t seem attached to Stolas. It’s not that he hates him but he doesn’t really care that much.

« Or he pretends he doesn’t care, after all Moxxie said… »

Yes.

Moxxie.

Wait a second.

It started with Moxxie. 

This entire scene isn’t about Stolas and Blitzo relationship, it’s about Blitzo and Moxxie.

« I’m torturing you in your own hallucination. »

(Yep, I have access to the dialogues, you can’t stop me now.)

You are right, it shows Blitzo’s fear : his fear not be a good friend to Moxxie. How could he ? His past relationships were garbage, even recently he hired someone how wasn’t trustworthy, and he’s currently having an affair with someone he doesn’t really like.

I said earlier that the golden feathers put Blitzo into a clean costume, a disguise no one is supposed to see through.

Except that Moxxie does.

Moxxie knew all along that Blitzo is only pretending, Moxxie is more hurt when Blitzo isn’t honest with him than when Blitzo says awful comments to him. 

Moxxie sees Blitzo with the broken heart on Blitzo’s forehead, exactly like how Blitzo sees himself.

Do they talk to each other while tripping ? Do they listen to each other ? Do they only hear what they want to hear ?

Because their thoughts are way too synchronized (Moxxie talking about how Blitzo pushes everyone away, Blitzo being at the top of some stairs…).

Maybe they do talk to each other and then have their own perception of this conversation in their minds :

Blitzo feeling it like accusations that burn his skin like golden feathers who shut him up and chain him and blind him so he will have to abandon everything he is and loves to obtain his goal, Moxxie believing it like their relationship can go higher and evolve and be fine and equal finally.

OH, AND THERE’S SOMETHING MORE : I know there is a theory about Moxxie being a fallen royalty and I think this episode showed that if it’s true, Blitzo knows, with how in his hallucination Moxxie eloquently talked and then transformed into a princess while climbing the stairs (without needing Stolas’ feathers).

Maybe that’s also why Blitzo doesn’t think he is worthy to be friend with Moxxie. And why he is angry at him : because he is jealous, Moxxie gave up everything Blitzo wanted for unknown reason (but probably for Millie, why annoys Blitzo even more not to mention that while Moxxie gave up power for an healthy relationship, Blitzo is craving for power by using an unhealthy one).

« Okay, let’s say that the hallucinations were about Moxxie and Blitzo. But… But THE KISS ! »

Oh yeah the kiss, let’s talk about that !

When Stolas goes to kiss Blitzo, our favorite demon pulls the king’s hair so it won’t happen and… Gosh he doesn’t want to be kissed by Stolas, does he ? I’m sorry but, no, this doesn’t feel right. I may not be an expert about romance but… what ?

This is about power.

Blitzo doesn’t hate having sex with Stolas, I mean, he thinks the role-plays are weird but he goes with it, and I think that’s because during the role-play he is always the one who dominates the other.

Just like with the kiss. The kiss happened only because Blitzo made it so.

It makes sense, those role-plays : Blitzo wants to forget he isn’t the one with power (which is why he made that sad face when he sees Stolas on his throne or when Stolas saves them because he is so strong and Blitzo maybe feel sad that he isn’t strong enough to protect his group, that he still needs the help of someone he knows will ask for compensation after ?), and Stolas wants to forget he is the one with power (and forget that his favorite imp probably doesn’t love him back so he lets him do whatever he wants to do to him and maybe he will fell in love ?).

Anyway.

I feel… No, I’m sure this all dream sequence is more about the power people have on Blitzo.

And power shouldn’t have something to do with love.

Maybe one day Stolas and Blitzo will put aside their differences, the huge gap between them, maybe they will realize that their ranks have a big impact on their relationship and THEN have a real, romantic, healthy one.

But for now seeing Stolas and Blitzo together is heartbreaking for me because one of them feels forced while the other is completely in love.

[lovesanmotion]

yandere!fanboy!ateez reacts: s/o writing a song about them

This is: requested | I guess....the yandere!ateez as fanboys are a success from what I can see. I only uploaded them without thinking. Also, don’t hesitate to blow up my request box! I’m jobless like Hongjoong, Yeosang and Wooyoung. Also, to the sender who requested this, thank you so much for appreciating my blog and writing! 

Lyrics I placed in order:  Love Battery - LOONA (Immortal Songs)  Shadow - F(x)  Going Crazy - Secret Jieun ft. BAP Yongguk Peekaboo - Red Velvet Shampoo - After School Babe - Hyuna Into You - Yuri Love Foolish - TWICE 

Hongjoong: 

“Even if you are not handsome, I like it. Even if you’re not buff, I like it. You are just for me, to me, you are the best.” 

Hongjoong stood among the crowd with a foolish smile painted on his lips. His hands placed on top of his chest as he listens to your new song that you are performing at your comeback concert. 

“Hold me one more time. Hold me tightly until I burst. Love’s effect must be fading. I need you.” 

A soft sigh escapes his lips dramatically. Lovestuck as he watches the love of his life sing a song about him and how she constantly needed his touch or else she’d die from his lack of attention on her. 

“Fill me with love. Love battery has drained. I can’t live without you, I really can’t live without you. You are my battery.” 

He clutches his chest tightly, his heart beating loudly inside. He didn’t cared how wild the others were cheering for your comeback stage, all that matters to him is that this song was made for him. Just for him. Normally he would promote your songs by requesting them on radio stations, but he hesitated on the idea of promoting it. This was his song. And only he gets the full rights to enjoy it. The others are just listening to it, he thought that you were kind enough to let everyone hear the song you made especially for him. 

“To me, you are everything. I like you so much, I totally like you. My only love, there’s no other, my love. You are the best.” 

As the comeback concert ended, everyone inside the concert hall talked about how your comeback song is a hit and promised to get you another music show win. The others gushed how you must be in love that you wrote a song about affection. 

Hongjoong could only chuckle to himself as he walks out of the venue, hands filled with your individual merchandise and a wallet almost empty after emptying the shelves of your concert goods. 

“Stupid fools think that the song is for them when in fact the song is about me. Me! Only me! Why would Y/N ever notice all of you when a whole me exists?” Hongjoong thought to himself as he walked alone late that night. 

Seonghwa: 

“Everyday, I secretly chase after your footsteps. I’m always careful so you won’t notice. No one says it but our date has started, our own date.” 

Click click! Seonghwa focuses his camera on a different angle before taking another shot of you. Click click! 

“Where are you going? Step by step, I follow you. Without a word you lead me. Step by step, did you notice me? I have nowhere to hide anymore.” 

Yesterday, Starlight made a comeback and today, they are performing their comeback song at a radio station. For this comeback, Starlight’s Y/N participated in the song writing, having been credited two songs in the mini album. She partook writing the comeback song! 

“When the sun rises, I walk in sync and together with you. I am really really into you. When the moon rises, you fall asleep in my arms. I really really like you.” 

Seonghwa’s parents had been praising him for landing a wonderful job in the corporate world. When in reality, he was only hired by a fellow sasaeng that gave him much flexible work hours so he could still manage to slip out of his work and follow your every footstep in the country or out. He was being paid fairly well even when all he did was just to follow you around.

“Day by day, we resemble each other more and more. Your laughter and tears, I know it all. Don’t be scared, were a fate tied by the sun, its our destiny to be together.” 

As the performance ended, the girls sat back down on their seats and the interview rolled in. Fansites can only hang outside of the studio, and of course, Seonghwa is up close, nearest to Y/N. 

“Congratulations to Starlight! This is their third comeback and the song is really catchy!” The MC remarked. 

“It’s sounds like a summer song! I heard Y/N took part in the production?” The second MC asked, the cameras then turned to face Y/N. Y/N who was flustered, nodded her head. “Yes” 

“Can you tell us the story behind the song? Your fans are dying to know the meaning behind such a good song.” The first MC says. 

Y/N held the microphone in her head, smiling, she explained: “This is a true to life song. I made a song about a guy who was really handsome and captured my heart. We were always going in the same direction and one time, his hand brushed into mine. And I felt so happy by the small connection.” Y/N chuckles. 

When Seonghwa heard about it, he lowered his camera and stared at Y/N. The song was about him. He remembered how he would spend his vacant period at work to follow Y/N when they were shooting an ad around Namsan because of the newly built skywalk. His hand brushed on hers when they were buying food at the convenient store. Seonghwa was so moved by the explanation that he felt like his feelings grew more for you. 

“My sunshine likes getting attention. My attention. That’s right, my sunshine, bathe in my attention only. ” 

Yunho: 

“It’s not love, this isn’t love. It’s just your obsession. Wherever, Whatever I do. It’s frightening. The you who watches me.”

Yunho watched as Y/N practices for her upcoming comeback stage at The Show next week. He admired how she dare approached a bold and mature comeback. And he was so happy to see this new side of his girl. However, he felt like he needed to be more protective of her since she was going for a more risque concept. 

“Have you gone crazy? Why are you like this? Please just leave me alone now. Seeing you is suffocating. Please disappear from my sight.” 

Yunho stood behind the cameras as he watches Y/N and the featured artist practice. He heard a few staffs make a comment about how the featured artist looks like him. And maybe how you might’ve fallen in love with him. Yunho’s feeling swelled when he heard of those comments. In fact, he was so happy that he heard it from them. But you on the other hand, why do you still deny your feelings for him? Why was it so hard for you to be up front and honest with what you feel? Is it because he works as your manager? You’re in the same company as he is? And that you kept insisting to be professional? At this point, Yunho would resign if that was the case. If he can’t have you because of his line of work, he would be more than pleased to resign and be in your arms everyday. 

“Get lost. Just back off. I really can’t breathe. Wherever I go, wherever I am. It’s frightening. The you who follows me.” 

Yunho managed to lift the debts off his family. After paying the debts, he was able to even buy a new home for them around Gangnam area. His parents hesitated on the idea at first since owning a land in Gangnam costs way more than renting, Yunho told them not to worry. Not to worry since he is being paid royalty in his job. After that, he was able to spoil you with luxurious gifts and live with you in your apartment. More like forced himself into your home. 

“This ain’t right, this isn’t love. It just hurts me, don’t be like this. I loved you. But I don’t now. Erase me from your memory.” 

And when the song was released, Yunho was all up for promoting it. He made everyone he know listen to the song in various streaming platforms and watch the MV as well. Whether you would like it or not, Yunho is here to stay in your life. Permanently. 

Yeosang: 

“Peekaboo! This is new, is this love? All my friends yell at me, they say I have a problem. I’m fine fine fine fine fine fine.” 

A small painted Yeosang lips as his eyes followed you on stage. He watched you as you danced in a tight red dress. That was his gift for you last Christmas to be exact. The designer brand didn’t really put it out for sale. They only made one and had it up for auction. It was a dress that accentuated your curves and complimented your skin. Yeosang won the auction and had it included in your next comeback. 

“Tag you’re it! It’ll be fun! I’ll include you here. Til the moon hangs on the jungle gym, let’s play” 

Since Yeosang is someone who holds a high position in the company, he made a proposal to be your sponsor. At first, your members didn’t like the idea since sponsors have a bad reputation attached to it. But you were naive and still proceeded with the sponsorship. You thought it would go bad, but Yeosang made you feel comfortable in his home and gave you all the fame that you wanted. Never did he once ask anything that was against your morals. 

“Peekaboo! It’s strange, you’re different. I stop this game and I look at you again. I’m not a fraid, because I just felt that a new story will begin” 

Your members were still cautious about Yeosang orbitting around you. There was something about him that they could not lay a finger on. Scared that they would find their contracts terminated the following day. But seeing you happy, they felt like they needed to stop. As long as you are happy, they are happy. Yeosang included. 

“Don’t worry, my love. You’re safe with me. Anyone who accuses you will come to me first.” 

San: 

It was 9pm when you made a surprise V live alone in the recording room of your company building. San was actually nearby, he was hid inside the convenient store where he bumped into you before. 

“Hello everyone! Have you all eaten? I missed you alot.” He watches his Y/N pout in the screen. His heart raced a bit, 

“I ate already, my love. Don’t worry.” San responds, as if it was only him that you were talking to. 

“I made a new song and I’m in the recording room. Apparently, I was given permission to spoil the song for you!” Y/N happily takes her phone and draws it closer to the company phone of where she is doing her live. 

“I wanna be shampoo Trickling down your hair I wanna embrace you With my strong fragrance  I will wrap around your entire body With white foam  So even the mirrors can’t see you I will cover you  So no one can have you You won’t ever get rid of my scent” 

“That’s all the spoil for now.” Y/N stops the recording and turns the camera to her face again. She leaned her face closer and read a few comments about how would the fans think. 

“What is your inspiration behind this song?” She read aloud. She leaned back in her seat with her lips pursed. “In all honesty, I met a male fan last week. I actually bumped into him and I was able to smell his perfume and...” Y/N paused. “He smelled so good that...was it possible to fall in love just by smelling their perfume?” Y/N chuckles softly. 

San had his eyes wide. The song was about him. He felt like bursting from his seat but he refrained himself from doing so. 

“I hope he isn’t a weird fan. I also have a fan who constantly bothers me even at the late hours. It’s bothering me. And I hope the person stops soon.” Y/N said. Double jackpot! He got mentioned twice by you. He couldn’t wait until the song releases, he was already booking train station platforms in honor for the release of your song. 

Mingi: 

Was it possible to fall in love with just a touch? Ever since the incident at the Incheon Airport, your company has become stricter and hired more bodyguards when it comes to outside activities. From what you heard, VS Media is even rewriting their rules when it comes to fan and idol gift giving. 

“Come on, let me play some more. Why treat babies gently, I cannot count on you, my age. You’ve walked in any magic. I am the one for you. Everyday I wake up. This is mine.” 

Ever since the incident at the airport, you slightly became uncomfortable with the idea of leaving the dorm. Despite your feelings, rest assured that your members were always there for you. 

“I am not sleeping today. I remember my eyes. I’m not sleeping.”

It’s been a month since you stepped foot inside the airport again, things were going okay. You were able to walk inside and through the gates without any problem. The fans still following your footsteps, you tried to loosen up yourself a bit - smiling and waving at them. Nothing could go wrong. 

Until, you saw a figure from your peripheral vision. You turned your head to take a look, but no one was there. Strange. As you and your group were able to board the plane, you took a seat near the window and pulled out your lyrics notebook. Flipping through the pages, you stopped at an unfinished work. The unfinished work is your solo song used as an outro for Starlight’s upcoming full album. 

“Babe babe babe in your eyes. Babe babe babe in your hand. My appearance is babe babe babe babe. I want to hear it again.”

“Are you writing a song?” You were startled with the question. You turned your head and didn’t noticed how a man with a mask and cap sat besides you already. 

“Yes I am” You spoke softly. “Can I read it?” the man besides you asked. 

You hesitantly gave him the notebook, the man took it and read through the lyrics. 

“I like how you composed the song. It’s still in its raw form too. You’re a genius.” The man complimented. You smiled and thanked him for the compliment. The next thing you knew shocked you. 

The man placed a hand on your knee, his other free hand removed his mask and cap. Song Mingi. At that moment, you couldn’t process what was happening. All you knew was that your mind kept telling you to tell at least your members. But your body started heating up at his touch. 

“Did you miss me?” 

Wooyoung: 

Wooyoung had disguised himself as the photographer for your album. The night before it came, he worked on creating his fake ID and borrowed a spare camera to use for the production. 

“At that smile that sees my eyes. For me, the whole world is bathed in light. Hold my hands and I close my eyes. I hope this time stops here.”

Wooyoung’s breath almost took away as he saw you in black under shorts and wrinkled and almost unbuttoned white button down. He didn’t know what the concept was but his eyes were already feasting on your body, not ever feeling full. 

“Fall in love more deeply, you and I. Let’s fall in deeply, you and I together. The one thing that I want. You seep into me, you spread inside of me.” 

“Ms Y/N taking the bold move of doing her first sexy concept.” Y/N’s manager teased her. Wooyoung knew everyone who was on set. Him, Y/N, Y/N’s manager, stylist, make up artist and a few production crew that wasn’t part of VS Media. 

“What’s the story behind this concept?” Y/N’s manager asked, Wooyoung could only stare in awe at Y/N. Never did he see this side of her. He always knew of Y/N as the sweet and bubbly girl in soft concepts. But of course, Wooyoung love to break the types. 

“I actually like to search my name on the internet. And I came across fanfics of myself.” Y/N chuckles. Oh that sweet sound that made Wooyoung’s heart beat fast. The audio recorders can never outdo it. 

“There is a certain blog that possibly does a lot. That blog posts photos of me, writes fanfics and posts my schedules too. He’s doing god works for my other fans.” Y/N chuckles. As the production of the photoshoot started, Wooyoung did his best to capture the real beauty of this side of Y/N. 

“What a hardworking fan. What’s the name of the blog?” 

“ForY/N” 

Wooyoung’s eyes widens as he heard the name of his blog. His blog inspired you to make a song....about him? 

“Filling my whole heart. With you, I feel my heart. Fall in love more deeply, you and I. Let’s fall in deeply, you and I together.” 

“The way that person writes really amazes me. I’d like to get to know the person.” Y/N explains. His mind fell into a spiral. Part of him wanted the song to be released already but there was also a part of him that wanted the song to be released for him only. 

“Wish will soon become tomorrow. Today is more heart fluttering than yesterday. I want to go together with you. Closer to the place where my dream reaches.”

The bonus thing about what Wooyoung did today is that as a photographer, he was able to keep some of the photos. Running away even with some. 

Jongho: 

Jongho fell in line for the release of your album. He was actually second in line as he was actually camping outside of the building of your company. 

“Everyday I called out your name, about a thousand times, about ten million times Before you finally heard it Cut and rewind, why can’t you be mine? Ooh the one who spins my head like this It’s you, just running running running around you  My repeatedly-midnight promise  I don’t know what to do”

Jongho, who had his arms crossed over his chest, looked up and down to turn around where that song was coming from. He hasn’t heard of this song but he knew that was your voice.

“Crazy love!  I love you, love you, hate, foolish Crazy love!  I love you Make me feel so high Love!  I love you, love you, hate, foolish Crazy love!  I hate you Make me so bad It’s weird, the more I fall for you I’m sorry, I’ll hate you I don’t know, I can’t explain this I’m trapped in a labyrinth of strange emotions”

The whole room was adorned with your own merchandise and on the TV display was actually an MV of your b side. Jongho took a basket and grabbed a handful of your limited and regular version of your albums, along with a packet of your photocards and a griptok. 

As he was in line to pay for his orders, in which his basket was filled as he actually bought more of your items. You made a sudden appearance into the room. For Jongho, he felt as if the room got brighter when you suddenly stepped inside. When it was his turn to pay for his items, the people behind the counter were amazed at how many he was able to fit into his basket. 

Tapping his feet impatiently, he wanted to be able to greet you before you left the room. When his bag was handed to him, he immediately took it and sped walk towards your direction, talking to a few. 

He felt as if the gods were with him. As he drew closer to you, the ones you were talking to left and it just you and him now. 

“Hello Y/N!” Jongho greeted. You turned to him happily. “Hello!” 

“I really really like this song of yours!” He gushed happily. “Can you tell me about it?” 

You nodded happily. “The song is actually about someone who makes me feel happy, the idea of love in a dangerous way? The idea send me thrills.” You chuckled. Jongho felt ecstatic. Beyond the moon even. You wrote a song about him! 

That afternoon when he got home, he made sure that everyone in Seoul would be able to hear the song that you made. It was for him so he had full brag rights to do so. 

[yeppeojiwrites]

beauty and a beat 4: if you know you know//multigroup crossover

summary: after a month of working nonstop on ateez’ next album, chan invites you to join him, changbin, and jimin (15&) in a karaoke room for some de-stressing and tells you that you can bring two friends with you. also, san starts to notice some things. 

pairings: stray kids x reader, ateez x reader, ??? and reader

word count: 5,103

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(i really got a two for one deal with this gif)

reminders:

plain text is english

bold text is korean

bold italicized text is korean with honorifics (noona, hyung, unnie, oppa, etc.)

just for this chapter:

plain italicized text is mandarin chinese

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“Not to sound like I hate my job but, I swear to God...if I hear another synthetic sound, I will rip off my ears,” you sighed. Chan’s tired laughter and smiling face lit up your dimly lit bedroom.

“This isn’t funny, Christopher,” you told him in a playfully serious tone.

“Yes, it is. Ateez really does use a lot of synth,” he sighed, closing his eyes and leaning back into the seat of his group’s van.

“Did I ever tell you guys that I’m proud of you for getting your first win?” you asked, confused.

“Yes, you told us on the day it happened,” Chan told you, opening his eyes to look at you. “You’re really going through it, aren’t you?”

“I guess so. If I’m like this and I’m only producing, I can’t imagine what it’s like for Hongjoong...he’s producing the album and practicing the dances.”

“I don’t recall you caring about Changbin, Jisung, and I’s health,” Chan teased.

“That’s because I didn’t really see the effects until I came here. We would talk trainee life sometimes but not often.” you respond.

“You were basically a trainee when you were younger. You started vocal and piano lessons at much younger age than any of us,” Chan said.

“I guess. Well, it’s getting late and I haven’t eaten dinner yet,” you said.

“Why didn’t you get something on the way home from KQ?” Chan asked.

“You insisted on having me FaceTime you while you guys were on your way to your dorm and I didn’t want to call you in public where I might come across one of your fan,” you replied, setting your phone down to get a hoodie from your closet. Chan hummed in understanding.

“I have one last thing to ask you before we hang up,” Chan said. You walked back over to your phone and bent over to look at the screen.

“What?” you asked while tucking your hair into your hood before pulling it over your head.

“So I’ve been noticing you’ve been stressing out about album production over the past few weeks. So, Changbin, Jimin, and I were going to go to a noraebang next Saturday night and we wanted to know if you wanted to come with us to have fun and relax. You can even bring two people if you want.” Chan said.

“Jimin from BTS?” you asked in confusion. “Aren’t they touring right now?”

“No, Jimin from 15&. You guys have met before.” he facepalmed.

“Oh. That sounds like fun but I don’t know who’s available to hang out on Saturday. Everyone is know is preparing for a summer comeback.” you tell him as you pull the drawstrings on your hoodie to tighten your hood on your hood.

“If you can’t find anyone to join us, don’t worry about it.” Chan said before yawning.

“Alright. Well, I’m going to walk to the convenience store so I’ll call you later, okay?”

“Okay. Be safe and have a good night!” Chan said.

“You too. Tell the boys I said to have a good night as well.”

“Guys, (Y/N) said to have a good night.” Chan yelled to everyone else in the van. You heard a chorus of sleepy ‘thank you, have a good night too’s and ‘okay cool, shut up, Chan’s and laughed before hanging up.

You grabbed your wallet and placed it inside of the front pocket of your hoodie before putting your shoes on and leaving your apartment.

--

Your walk to the convenience store was only ten minutes long but it felt longer as you walked in the direction of strong winds. You unconsciously let out a sigh of relief as you entered the convenience store and bowed to the cashier who was reading and taking notes from a large book near the register. You walked over to the instant noodle aisle and grabbed a chicken flavored container and picked up a bottle of a lemon flavored iced tea before walking to the register.

The cashier looked at you nervously, biting her lip as you neared the counter.

“It’s okay, I speak Korean,” you laughed, causing the cashier to let out a relieved sigh.

“Thank God! I was starting to regret not paying attention in my English class when I was in high school,” she laughed. You placed your items on the counter and she scanned them before telling you your price. You paid for your stuff and thanked her before leaving to make your noodles.

After pouring hot water into the noodle container, you sat in one of the chairs that faced a series of short tables and a long bench that ran across the entire length of the tables.

As you pulled out your phone to check your messages and look at your private social media accounts, you heard someone else walk into the convenience store. After a few short minutes, a boy wearing a black baseball cap and black face mask sat on the bench near a table a few feet away from your own with an herbal tea and a packaged sandwich.

You looked back at your phone before freezing and tried to secretly look at the boy. The boy pulled down his mask to reveal full pink lips. You scanned his face: thick, dark eyebrows; sharp, dark eyes; a strong, high-bridged nose; and the aforementioned full pink lips.

‘Is that Lee Byounggon?’ you asked yourself. You shook your head and looked back at your phone, trying to distract yourself from the idea that you could be sitting in the same room as one of your former MixNine and Treasure13 picks. Your eyes flicked back up to look at him and you quickly looked away when his eyes met yours.

“She’s cute,” you heard him mumble to himself as he opened his sandwich. You could have d i e d right then and there. You could literally feel your soul leave your body.

You bit your lip nervously as you tried to think about what to do. You could ask him if he’s Lee Byounggon but what if you were wrong or you made him feel uncomfortable?

You chewed the inside of your cheek as you tried to build the nerve to ask him who he was.

“Excuse me?” you asked waving to get the attention of the boy a few tables away.

“Oh, you speak Korean?” he asked in a surprised tone, a slight pink spreading across his face.

“I was shocked too!” the cashier yelled from her spot at the counter. Both you and Byounggon laughed at the cashier’s statement and you nodded in response to Byounggon’s question.

“I don’t mean to disturb you...but...Can I ask you a question?” you asked him. He waved you over to sit with him at his table. You picked up your food and moved to sit across from him at his table.

“What was your question?” he asked while unhooking his mask from his ears. He stared at you expectantly with a small smile on his face.

“Are you...Lee Byounggon?” you asked. The boy nodded and smiled.

“You know who I am?” he asked before taking a sip from his drink. You nodded.

“I’ve seen pretty much every show you’ve been on,” you reply. He nods in understanding.

“Ah...” he said, looking down at the table.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to bring back any bad memories,” you said nervously. He waved away your statement and smiled.

“I didn’t take it that way,” he said before placing his chin on his hand and staring at you.

“I’m really glad that you and Seunghun are finally able to debut,” you tell him before taking a sip from your tea. “If I’m being honest, I was really happy when you made it to the final MixNine group and I was rooting for you on Treasure Box.”

“Really?” he asked in a giddy tone. You nodded.

“I have a strong hatred for Yang Hyunsuk at this point,” you sighed. “It probably isn’t as strong as yours though.”

“It might be as strong, you never know,” Byounggon laughed.

“I can’t imagine going through all of that in a year and a half. It seems like you have to be super resilient in order to be an idol.”

“It definitely isn’t easy,” he sighed. “Don’t tell anyone I told you this but I would totally fight Yang Hyunsuk if I could.”

“I’d pay money to punch him at least once.” you agree, causing him to laugh.

“Enough about me and my experiences though. You seem pretty young so why are you in South Korea?” he asked before taking a bite from his sandwich.

“I’m a composer for Ateez,” you tell him.

“A composer?” he asked, eyes wide. You nodded.

“How old are you?” he asked with his eyebrows furrowed.

“I’m 18 internationally but my Korean age is 20,” you replied.

“I was just 19 when I was on MixNine,” Byounggon sighed. “But I bet you already knew that.” he smirked. You pinched the bridge of your nose and closed your eyes.

“I did know that but it wasn’t like that.” you sighed.

“Sure~” he teased. “Moving on though, the name Ateez sounds familiar. What company are they under?” he asked.

“KQ Entertainment,” you replied.

“Kim Hongjoong...I remember him.” Byounggon sighed. “It seems like everyone else is debuting before I am.”

“You’re almost there. I can feel your debut, Byounggon.” you assure him, causing a wide smile to spread across his face.

“Thanks...” he trailed off before pausing. “I just realized you never told me your name.”

“My professional name is pronounced like ‘lavender’ but you can call me (Y/N) or Lav, whichever is easier for you.” you told him.

“(Y/N) is a pretty name.” he said, tapping his fingers on the table rhythmically.

“Thank you.” you smiled.

“So how did you get hired?” he asked.

“I’ve composed a lot of demos and guide tracks for popular artists and I worked under JYP Entertainment for a few months to help Stray Kids with their second and third mini-albums.” you reply. He whistled lowly.

“Which song that you have produced do you like the most or are the most proud of?” Byounggon asked.

“‘Endorphin’ by Crush is by far my favorite song. My second favorite is ‘Eclipse’ by Loona’s Kim Lip.” you replied.

“I really like ‘Endorphin’. I think I like it even more now that I know who made it.” Byounggon said.

“You’re different from what I thought you would be.” you said while cocking your head.

“What do you mean?” he asked.

“You seem really cool and sweet onscreen but you’re really flirty in real life.” you spoke honestly.

“I’m not flirty with everyone.” he said, straightening his back to try to prove a point.

“Sure~” you said mocking his tone from earlier. He snorted and took a sip from his bottle.

“You seem to be feeding into my flirting though.” he said while wriggling his eyebrows. “Maybe you like it.”

“Maybe I do,” you agreed. “But I’m not here to date anyone. I have a job to do here and I can’t get distracted.”

“That’s fair. What about the times where you have breaks from composing and songwriting, like when Ateez or anyone else you’re working for is having promotions?” he asked.

“When Ateez and Stray Kids have their comebacks, my sister will be in town for two weeks. KQ plans to promote Ateez for six weeks and JYP plans to promote Stray Kids for eight weeks. I get a four-week break to hang out in the summer and random weekends and weekdays off in-between...where I’ll still be composing and songwriting.” you responded, before throwing your head back.

“So...friends?” he asked. You brought your head down and looked at him before nodding.

“For now,” you agreed. “We’ll have to see how the next few months play out.” He clutched his chest as if he was in pain and groaned, closing his eyes tightly and gritting his teeth.

“Don’t say that, you’re making my heart race.” he said in a pained voice. You laughed.

“Now you know how all of your fans feel.” you replied, taking a sip of your drink.

“Even you?” he smirked for the thirty trillionth time since the start of your conversation.

“That’s...not important.” you said nervously. Byounggon snorted.

“I didn’t know C9 Entertainment was nearby.” you said, trying to change the subject. Byounggon shook his head.

“C9 is a twenty minute bus ride away. The dorms are in this area,” Byounggon clarified.

“Oh...my apartment is just a block or two down the street. We aren’t too far apart.” you respond.

“I guess not.” he said before yawning.

“We should probably go to our respective houses soon. I’m sure you didn’t plan to be here that long.” you suggested.

“We probably should.” Byounggon agreed. “But before we leave, let’s exchange numbers.”

“You guys are allowed to have phones?” you asked. Byounggon laughed before taking out his phone and sliding it across the table for you to create a contact and you did the same. You both typed in your information and exchanged phones again.

“It was nice meeting you, Byounggon.” you bowed before gathering your garbage. Byounggon snorted.

“You’re very formal for a foreigner. Like you said earlier, we’re friends now.” Byounggon assured you with a bright smile.

“Okay then, Byounggon. I’ll talk to you soon.” you said while waving your phone around.

“If you ever need anything, let me know.” he said as he put his mask back on.

“Okay. See you later, Byounggon!” you said before walking out of the store.

--

The Tuesday after your interaction with Byounggon, you sat in Hongjoong’s studio with Hongjoong and Jongho. Hongjoong was doing some sound editing and Jongho was in the recording booth doing some ad libs for a B-side track as you sat next to Hongjoong and helped Jongho with pronunciation and gave suggestions for falsettos.

“Jongho, try saying, ‘We just going on’...That’s good, but try it again...That’s really good!” you praised. You looked over to Hongjoong.

“Are you ready to record his ad libs?” you asked him. He nodded.

“Jongho, are you ready to record your ad libs for ‘Wave’?” Hongjoong spoke into the microphone. Jongho nodded.

“Yes, I’m ready.” Jongho responded.

“The music will start soon, prepare accordingly.” Hongjoong warned.

“Okay.”

The music began playing and after 20 seconds, Jongho began ad libbing and harmonizing with himself and the other members. You nodded along with the beat and mouthed along with Jongho and raised and lifted your hand and wiggled your fingers to help Jongho figure out how high and low he needed to go for his falsettos and runs and when to use vocal vibrato.

After three and a half minutes of ad libs and weird facial expressions coming from you, the song ended and you laid back in your chair and sighed before cheering. “That’s the end for ‘Too Hot,’ thank you, Jongho.” Hongjoong spoke into the microphone.

“We have two songs left, (Y/N). Are you thinking about quitting?” Hongjoong asked. You scoffed playfully and shook your head.

“I’m in too deep to give up now, Hongjoong. Plus, I wouldn’t want to quit anyways, it’s nice here.” you replied. Jongho walked out of the booth and over to you and Hongjoong who were sitting at the mixing board and computers.

“Good?” Jongho asked, looking at you expectantly.

“Good!” you smiled, holding up your hand to give him a high five. He smacked his hand against yours with a bright smile on his face.

“Can we take a break for lunch?” you asked Hongjoong. He checked the time on his phone and nodded.

“Do you want to order some takeout?” he asked. You nodded.

“What do you have a taste for?” he asked, typing the password into his phone and opening a delivery app. You started to answer when your phone started to ring in your back pocket. You pulled it out and smiled when you saw who was calling you.

“I really need to take this phone call. You and Jongho can decide what to get, I’ll just get whatever you guys get.” you said as you walked out of the room.

“Who was calling?” Jongho asked. Hongjoong shrugged.

“I don’t know. A friend?” Hongjoong suggested.

“What if it was a boyfriend?” Jongho teased. Hongjoong rolled his eyes.

“You’ll be paying for your own lunch if you keep this up.” Hongjoong warned.

“Really, Hongjoong?” Jongho groaned. “You’re so annoying.”

“I know.” Hongjoong replied before patting the seat of the computer chair that you were just sitting in. “Do you want to hear the finished product while I order some dumplings?”

Jongho sighed before sitting in the chair. “Sure.” he replied.

Hongjoong moved his mouse and placed the cursor over the play button and clicked on it, causing the song to fill the room.

--

(reminder: plain italicized text is mandarin chinese)

“Yuqi!” you said as you walked into an empty practice room.

“Lav! Is this your Korean phone number?” she asked.

“Yes! Did you get my text message?”

“I messaged you back a couple of hours ago before our practice started and I saw that you hadn’t responded yet so I called you.” she responded.

“So will you be able to go to the noraebang?” you asked.

“Speaking English is so exhausting, can we speak Mandarin now?” she sighed.

“You’re so lazy,” you teased. She laughed.

“Who else is going with us?” She asked.

“Park Jimin from 15&, Bang Chan and Seo Changbin from Stray Kids, and I’m trying to find another person to come with us.” you said.

“Oh? Your boyfriends are joining us?” she teased.

“They are not my boyfriends,” you whined.

“They like you a lot though AND you think they’re handsome~” she continued.

“They are handsome but they are not my boyfriends.” you stated firmly.

“Sure~” she said. “Who were you trying to invite?”

“At this point, anyone. Everyone that I’ve asked is preparing for a comeback.” you replied.

“Why not ask one of the members of Ateez?” she suggested.

“I’m a dumbass! Why didn’t I think of that?” you facepalmed.

“I can’t believe you didn’t think of that!” she laughed.

“I’ll text one of them after our conversation ends.” you replied.

“I’ll hang up so you can do it. I have to leave soon anyway.” she said.

“I’ll send you the details later. See you on Saturday!”

“Okay, see you on Saturday!” she replied before hanging up.

You opened the messages app and texted Yunho.

you : hey yunho, are you doing anything after recording on Saturday?

--

You met Yunho near the front door of the noraebang on Saturday night. You looked at him as he stood near the neon signs in the windows of the noraebang, looking in a different direction than you were. He was wearing a black cardigan over a white graphic T-shirt tucked into a pair of black skinny jeans.

“You look nice.” you said. His head snapped over to look at you. You were wearing a black sweater, ripped skinny jeans, white sneakers, and a white purse. Your hair was styled in two braids that wrapped around your head.

“You look nice too.” he smiled. “Is Yuqi coming soon?”

“She should be here now,” you replied, looking around the area for the small Chinese woman.

Suddenly, a taxi pulled up next to the curb a couple of feet away from the two of you and Yuqi exited.

“Yuqi!” you cheered.

“Lav!” she replied in the same tone. She walked to you quickly with open arms and you hugged her. (You had to bend your knees a little bit so that she wouldn’t be face-to-boob but the hug was nice.)

“I forgot you said that you’re tall!” she laughed, holding your shoulders after pulling away from you. She looked over your shoulder at Yunho who was standing behind you.

“He’s so handsome! Where did you find him?” she whisper-yelled.

“I work with him, he’s one of the members of Ateez.” you replied in a similar tone.

“Oh. Is he another one of your boyfriends?” she teased.

“I don’t have a boyfriend!” you replied. Suddenly, you felt a presence behind you.

“Hello, I don’t think we’ve ever met. I’m Yunho from Ateez.” Yunho said before bowing to Yuqi.

“I like him, he’s respectful,” she whispered to you. “I’m Yuqi from G-I(DLE), nice to meet you!” she said to Yunho before bowing to him.

“I remember seeing your group on a couple of music programs! You guys are really talented!” Yuqi complimented.

“Thank you.” Yunho smiled.

“His respectful points have gone up. I really like him.” Yuqi whispered.

“Why can’t I know what you guys are saying?” Yunho pouted.

“Girl talk,” you assured him. “Let’s go in, Changbin is waiting for us at the front desk.”

You herded the two of them towards the front door.

“Are you going to teach me Chinese?” Yunho asked you.

“I’m better at teaching English than I am at teaching Chinese,” you replied as he opened the door for the both of you.

“(Y/N), over here!” a low voice said. You turned to find the source of the voice and saw Changbin standing near the front desk, waving you and your friends over. You walked over to him and wrapped your arms around him tightly.

“I haven’t seen you in a while!” you said when you pulled away from him. He nodded in agreement.

“This is Jeong Yunho from Ateez and this is Song Yuqi from G-I(DLE),” you said, gesturing to the people who stood behind you.

“Hello, I’m Seo Changbin from Stray Kids,” he bowed, the other two bowing in response.

“Now that we have that covered, let’s go!” you cheered. Changbin laughed and led all of you to the room.

--

“PUT YOUR HANDS UP! PUT YOUR HANDS UP! PUT-PUT-PUT-PUT-PUT-PUT YOUR HANDS UP!” everyone in the room yelled along with Chan. You bounced in your spot on the couch next to Jimin and Yuqi.

“I haven’t heard that song in such a long time!” you sighed.

“Me too,” Yuqi agreed.

“Here, (Y/N), you pick the song this time.” Jimin said, handing you the control panel. You scrolled through the onscreen list and gasped when you saw a song.

“EVERYBODY WAKE UP! WAKE UP! THE SUN IS RISING!” you sang passionately.

--

Your group had one song left before you had to go to the front in to pay for another hour for the room.

“(Y/N), do you want to choose another song?” Chan cooed as he held the console out to you, causing the other people in the room to laugh.

“Just because I’m the youngest, doesn’t mean you guys have to baby me.” you groaned.

“So do you not want to choose another song-” Chan started.

“No, I do.” you cut him off, taking the console from him. “I’m going to choose a Crush song.”

“Which song? ‘Beautiful’ or ‘Cereal’ or-”

The beginning notes of “Hug Me” played throughout the room.

“Oh snap, she’s going there!” Jimin said.

“After I met you, every day is new. My stuffy heart feels fresh now. My heart is hot, it’s so hot. I get shy when I see you for no reason.” you sang.

The boys seemed to subtly sit straighter.

“Hug me tight, wrap your arms around my neck. When we lock eyes, kiss my lips. Your eyes bury into the back of my neck. It feels like time has stopped, I want to keep holding you.”

Yunho felt his cheeks burning at the lyrics. Jimin snorted at the boy’s reaction.

“Sing it, (Y/N)!” she cheered. You smiled, oblivious to the reason why she was cheering.

“I want the morning to come like this. I want to open my eyes at your scent. I fall deeper for you, filling myself with you. I want to look at you all day. Being with you is sweeter than a dream. You’re my sweetheart, yeah.”

Jimin and Yuqi cheered because of your high note, the boys stayed silent. Chan could feel every sensation on his body. Changbin could feel his palms getting sweaty. Yunho’s cheeks continued to burn.

When you finished the song, you turned to face the rest of the group. “How was that? You guys were kinda quiet.” you asked in an innocently concerned tone.

“It was really...good.” Changbin strained. You frowned a bit.

“Was it bad?” you asked.

“No, no! You did a really good job! Your high note was so good!” she praised. She suddenly stood up, grabbing your hand and taking you to the door and gesturing for Yuqi to follow the two of you out of the room.

“We’re just going to pay for another hour, we’ll be back in a little bit!” Jimin yelled as she pushed the you and Yuqi out of the door before closing it.

“Follow me to the bathroom!” she whisper-yelled to the both of you, walking briskly to the bathroom. You and Yuqi looked at each other before following her.

When the three of you entered the bathroom, Jimin looked for shoes at the bottom opening of all of the bathroom stalls and when she didn’t find any she went to lock the door to the bathroom and walked to the sink, turning it around and leaning on it before crossing her arms.

“Yuqi, did you see what I saw?” Jimin asked.

“It depends on what you saw.” Yuqi replied.

“All of the boys in that room got super tense when you sang that song.” Jimin said.

“Oh, I noticed that,” Yuqi agreed. “Do you know if any of them like you?”

“I think Yunho does but I’m not sure if Chan or Changbin do.” you replied.

“Call me crazy here, but I think that they all like you,” Jimin asked. Yuqi nodded in agreement.

“I don’t really know how to respond to that.” you replied.

“Do you like any of them?” Yuqi asked.

“I...don’t know. They’re all really sweet, but I don’t know.”

--

“With the girls gone, let’s talk.” Chan said.

“I felt like I was suffocating.” Changbin sighed.

“I’m confused,” Yunho said, looking at the other two men.

“We know you like (Y/N). We both like her.” Chan stated blatantly.

“Oh, I don’t-” Yunho started.

“Oh, you don’t? Why are your cheeks so red? They weren’t that red before.” Chan said. Yunho brought his hands up to his heated cheeks.

“It doesn’t matter,” Yunho mumbled.

“Did you start liking her right away or was there a time gap?” Changbin asked.

“He liked her right away, remember? He’s the one who wanted her to call him oppa on the first day.” Chan informed him.

“Oh, yeah, that was you.” Changbin says in realization.

“You guys know about that?” Yunho asked. The other two boys looked at each other and laughed.

“Our entire group knows about that.” Changbin replied. Yunho facepalmed.

“I can never meet the rest of your group again.” Yunho groaned.

Suddenly, the door swung open to reveal you, Jimin, and Yuqi.

“We paid for another hour!” Jimin said in a sing-song tone.

--

An hour and forty-five minutes later, you and Yunho sat in of one of the dance practice rooms in the KQ Entertainment building. The two of you sat in the middle of the wooden floor, drinking Pepsi and eating honey butter potato chips.

“I thought these would be gross but they aren’t that bad.” you said in a surprised tone.

“I grew up on these. I can’t think of a time that I haven’t eaten these.” Yunho said.

“I always saw idols eating these on shows and in videos and I saw them at a grocery store but I was afraid to eat them because I was afraid I wouldn’t like the flavor.” you replied.

“We need to get home soon,” Yunho said. You pulled out your phone and looked at the time.

“Crap, it’s almost midnight! I have to call my mom in a couple of hours.” you sighed.

“Do you want me to walk you home? It isn’t safe for a woman to be in the streets by herself this late.” Yunho asked.

“I don’t want you to-” you started.

“I’ll walk you home. I’ve been awake later than this before.” Yunho said, standing up from the ground.

“Yunho, I don’t know-”

“I promise I won’t do anything weird. I just want to make sure that you’re safe.” he assured you.

--

You found yourself walking next to Yunho at 12:30 in the morning. Because you were only wearing a sweater and you hadn’t thought that you were going to be out this late at night for this long, you were shivering a little bit.

“Are you cold?” Yunho asked. You shook your head.

“Oh really?” Yunho pressed. “Say that you’re not cold.” You turned to look at him in confusion.

“Verbally say that you aren’t cold,” Yunho said.

“I-I’m not-”

“You’re cold. You wouldn’t be stuttering if you weren’t cold.” Yunho said. He took off his cardigan and held it out to you. “Here, wear this.”

“It’s okay if I get a cold but I can’t let you get one.” you said, pushing his sweater back towards him.

“Take it, it’ll be okay.” he said.

“No.” you looked at the buildings next to you. “Oh! My apartment building is right there.”

“That was fast.” Yunho said.

“In English, we say ‘Time flies when you’re having fun.’ It means that you’re having a good time, time seems to go by quickly.” you said as he walked you in front of your building.

“Well, I had fun today.” Yunho said.

“Your pronunciation could have been a little bit better but it was still cute.” you said. You hugged him tightly before pulling away from him and looking at him.

“Get home safely, okay?” you said. He nodded with a bright smile and you walked backwards towards the building and waved at Yunho.

“Oh, you’re about to-” Yunho started but he was cut off by the pained groan you released when your back hit the handle of the door.

“Are you okay?” he asked.

“Yeah, I’m fine. I’ll be okay. Get home safely!” you said before entering your building.

Yunho snorted before walking away and pulling out his phone to call for a taxi. “Ten minutes...that’s fine, I’ll go into a convenience store for a bit.”

“Do you mind if I ride with you?” a voice said from behind Yunho. Yunho turned around and looked at the masked person standing behind him.

“Do I know you?” Yunho asked. The person took off their mask.

“San?” Yunho gasped.

“Yep. You have a lot of explaining to do.” San said while folding his arms.

--

if you made it this far, i love you! sorry it took me so long to write this chapter, oof

ellie <3

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Who’s your favorite KPop band? Who’s the most overrated?

Oh honey, where do I even start? Honestly, I feel slightly offended because if I was a real stan this wouldn’t even be a question, but whatever. Okay, so there are four groups (3 active and 1 disbanded) that I will forever stan for: WJSN, LOONA, Laboum, and Nine Muses. I can’t say one of them is my favorite, so I’ll just talk about all of them.

Cosmic Girls or WJSN (stands for 우주소녀, or wuju sonyeo) is a 12-turned-13 member group (they debuted with 12 members, but when former trainee Yu Yeonjung got into project group IOI and became one of the most popular members, she was added to WJSN after their debut). They’re the largest girl group that is currently active I believe, and the first girl group with over 10 members that I remember actually being interested in because they had this really cool astrology theme with each member representing a different astrological sign (they then got hate for some members lying about their sign to suit the concept because people hate it when girls do anything). I have a love/meh relationship with their music; the first EP was cute, but I definitely became a stan when they released “Secret”, which is still one of my Top 10 all-time favorite songs in K-pop *Michael Cohen voice* PERIODTTTT. I will say they lost their way somewhere in the middle because they couldn’t really find their sound, experimenting with songs like “I Wish” and “Happy”, which were cute, but not as unique and iconic as “Secret”. I was worried they’d never find their sound until they started doing this “magic girl” concept with their more recent songs like “Dreams Come True” and “Save Me, Save You” and I was like finally they found a concept that works for them. I’m enjoying the direction they’re going in, but I’m worried about the whole “the Chinese line is busy doing Chinese stuff, so now they’re promoting as a 10-member group” thing…also shout out to “Starry Moment” because that song deserved better.

LOONA, or 이달의 소녀 (idalui sonyeo, or “Girl of the Month”) is a 12-member group that got its name from the fact that their predebut project involved debuting one member per month. I’ve been following them since their first member debuted because I try to give every girl group  chance, and when I read about what they were doing I thought they were surely going to disband halfway through the project…meanwhile three years later, 12 member debuts, 3 subunit debuts, two albums, they’re still around and have proven themselves to be the future of K-Pop. Apparently that shook the industry so much, many different companies conspired to ruin their chances at a first win from messing with album sales and redirecting people looking for LOONA content streaming services to the Dutch singer of the same name, to flat out refusing to give the group time to perform because they’re rookies and “haven’t paid their dues yet” (even though rookie groups from bigger companies like G-IDLE and Itzy were allowed to get their first wins during their full-length debut promotions 🙄). A lot of people are blaming this issue on the fact that the CEO of the company that manages LOONA is a woman, so the entire company isn’t taken as seriously as a result. Oh well, we all know they had the debut of the year and hopefully sooner than later they’ll come back stronger.

Laboum is a 6-turned-5 member group that has actually been around for five years, but I only recently started stanning for them. As I try to give every girl group a chance, I’ve been here for pretty much their entire career. I remember listening to their debut “Pit-a-Pat” and being like “ooh no”, but then their follow up “What About You” was actually so good it made me interested in keeping up with them. Five years later, and I’ve been with them through everything, from the…questionable releases (that random summer song they came out with) to them getting their first win for certified bop “Hwi Hwi”. I was a little sad when Yulhee left the group to become a baby mama to marry some guy from FT Island because she was my favorite member, but then I remembered she was just there to be pretty and couldn’t really perform, so I got over it. Then three of the members were on The Unit and it really showed me how talented the group was (only the leader and the most popular member of Laboum were ever given any type of attention) and I almost cried when ZN got into the project group. One terribly promoted project group later, and Laboum was back to performing as a 5-member group. Apparently they’ve become really popular in Japan, so they’re focusing their energy more on that. Hopefully one day Korea will see how amazing the group is and finally make them popular there too.

Last is Nine Muses, the 9-turned-7-turned-9-turned-8-turned-4-member group that defined me as a K-pop fan. Honestly, the fact that they disbanded still hurts my heart because I stanned so hard for them. Their music is nothing short of spectacular, and they really had a chance of being great, but their “company” (for lack of a better word) continued to shoot them in the foot with hiatuses and treating the members so badly they started leaving the group. It’s really a cautionary tale of what not to do with a group. Still, they had their moment, and even though they’re not around anymore they’re still worth checking out.

Sorry, I had to get all that out lol As for who I think is overrated, I don’t like to call any groups overrated because so many of them work incredibly hard to get where they are and are probably dealing with an awful company forcing them to perform and promote literally until they collapse. There are groups that put out music that I don’t particularly love (*cough* BlackPink, Weki Meki, 90% of boy groups *cough*), but countless other people do, so…🤷🏾‍♂️

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Who’s your fav girl group these days?

red velvet, oh my girl, warming up to loona as well :3 though my fav songs lately are by soloists, sunmi ♥ chungha ♥ yuri ♥

Anonymous said:Idk if you saw the video on youtube from anmiangel about jimin’s weightloss/self esteem but it made me so mad because it was full of assumptions and everyone in the comments was taking it as fact. Like I think most fans know that jimin struggles with confidence and his perception of himself but seeing that video was just… idk how to describe it. Sorry I just felt like i needed to vent

no i haven’t seen it and i am not planning on seeing it either, i talked about this before where people sensationalized jimin’s death treats and him fainting etc, people on youtube are only interested in views and basically throw up unsourced fake news into the world, with a dash of their on fanfic thrown in. like the only thing you can do about these is not watch them and urge other people not to watch them either, not to believe them etc, youtube fanbase is its own gullible entity so don’t worry about comments too much, ykwim? these videos are like if edgy stans on twitter were to be taken seriously. i dislike these analyses videos cause i believe there are some boundaries that should be kept, it’s okay to talk about it to some extent if the artist talks about it first, but still.. boundaries. i’m sorry you had to see a video like that tbh /hugs

Anonymous said:Are you a vegan zuzu?

nope, tbh i was a vegetarian for a few years when i was younger but not anymore

Anonymous said:Sorry im a shy anon~May i ask what do you mean by saying next album will be a turning point for u as a fan?Does it mean u’ll abandon them if it’s not up to a certain standard?Sorry if im being nosy and it’s ok if u dont wanna answer it^^Have a lovely day!

i don’t mind answering it, you’re not being nosy ;; i wouldn’t say abandoning them is the right word cause that implies i’m doing something wrong and that the boys would be hurt by it, which you know.. they wouldn’t. it’s also not about the album being to some arbitrary standard… 

but basically yeah, i have been in the process of like giving them a second chance since the last album. cause idk if you were following me then, but i was let down by spring day too, like i love it now but back then i was taken aback by its obvious attempt to appeal to what korean public likes (which worked) and the media play around it, plus i still think that song was mixed horribly and i prefer the live versions :x 

but the last album was really like… it’s not just that i thought it was bad music, shallow, that the boys didn’t work on it as much, that it was about something i didn’t care for, cause i could get past that? i’ve been into kpop for 9 years so i wouldn’t get far if i dropped groups because of one weak album.

but it’s because… like that is related to my personal live story, but what the boys stood for and talked about was incredibly relatable to me and gave me a lot of strength, i had a real pretty much tangible connection to their music and to them and what they stood for as a group, but with HER.. and also the drama videos preceding it, to me it tainted the legacy of HYYH first, which hurt because i got so attached to it, because like.. that stuff pretty much saved my life back then… and the album was just… it wasn’t them, so i felt disconnect between the music and the boys and what more… it wasn’t me? which is just personal i know, but it wasn’t just that i didn’t like it, it also… hurt me.. the lyrics, the messages, i was hurt… while other people loved it, i was crying because i was so shocked and hurt by the new direction they were going… not to mention the walls that have been building between the fans and them, with bighit trying so hard to make everything as controlled and paid for as possible

so while i would complain and grumble over bad music, i would stay? it’s more that i wouldn’t be able to support them as a GROUP if they kept making music i can’t relate to, that is too disconnected from my own experiences, and mostly music that i find hurtful, music that instead of helping me from anxiety actually pushes me towards it… even if i still loved them as people yeah, i think in some form i would have to unstan, take a step back idk… to me the next album i think will really show what the boys and the company actually strive for, whether the boys doing sincere music or making money takes the precedent, and i will make my decision then

Anonymous said:Even if you ever stop following bts do you think you’ll ever stop stanning jimin?

mmmm, i love jimin too much, tbh i’ve been hurt by seeing him sometimes, but as a person i’ll always love and support him, as long as he doesn’t do something that i find totally inexcusable i’ll always be a fan

Anonymous said:Yeah I get what you mean abt nice people seeming fake. Jm is one of the very few who seems actually sincere (seem cause we don’t really know him) most nice and overly positive people I’ve met in my life are just annoying and when they show their true colors… like i’m considered to be bitchy and cold by pretty much everyone but I haven’t done half the stuff I’ve seen these “nice people” do

yeah tbh i think the true kindness of people can be seen mostly through the little things, i had a colleague at work who i thought was nice at first because he was NICE to me but then paying attention to the little things, and then when even bigger things got revealed, like… yikes.. it makes me appreciate jimin all the more. like yes we don’t know him, and i don’t think he’s a perfect angel (the boy’s got a temper :x lmao), but it’s the little things that to me show that he is just… that kind ;-; 

birghtcandlelight said:I seriously respect you. Not really a kpop fan but it’s pretty damn hard to find geniune and good fans anymore. Too many crazed “fans” going around and proclaiming their love on these guys. Probably the thing that ruined kpop for me, unfortunately. Had some bad experiences with a few “fans” in the past. Keep up the good work and congratulations on your nice blog! I especially enjoyed your post about Mimi BTS Ghost.

oh thank you ;; i don’t think i’m worthy of respect, i’m just an asshole that talks too much. and i think it’s not fair to single out kpop because the thing plaguing all fandoms is that the bigger it is, the more bad eggs it attracts, and kpop fandom swallowed the big fandoms of the past (like 1D so yeah :/ ) i think the problem in the fandom right now, like the person you mentioned, is when people stop seeing the “bad eggs” as bad eggs and instead give them validation and an actual voice in the community, which is something i hate too and is the reason i try to stay away from what the fandom is doing myself, i just try to focus on my little bubble here now and that feels much better, well unless someone invades it -.- but yeah thank you even though i’m undeserving ;; i appreciate you taking the time to share your thoughts ♥