#also very interesting that i've seen a lot of sentiments from normies that

[selamat-linting]

fuck the military and all but making some tweets and wearing black on thursdays are. fucking stupid. because its ineffective. i hate liberals. political power comes from the barrel of a gun. at least have the guts to occupy some government office.

[castlebyersafterdark]

oooh so your man would be a good gauge of noah's apparent cringe levels! does he think he is cringe in a cute way, or not at all and just cute? is he just looking at him or does he follow/see what he does like his videos? then we can see whether people think noah is cringe for the way he acts or his whole vibe, you know? if he's just looking at still images i guess thats different to following him and seeing how he speaks about his character etc. for example many of noah's shoots dont look like him imo! or rather, they dont capture his adorkable nature. he looks very serious and too cool for school in lots of his pro shoots. thats prob the clothes and posing, but some people can never look that way no matter how they pose lol.

noah is a man with many sides and we love it.

I'm adding two older ones that got lost in the mix from 2 weeks ago I think?

First off, Z is so not a fandom guy. He's a "watches the show and thinks about it but that's it" kinda fan. A lot is distilled and simplified through me. Mostly I regale him with theories and sometimes an idea for a story I'm working on. The guy's not really online in the way I'm VERY online. Like I've off hand mentioned that people think FN might be an item and his reaction was a head nod and a "wow, good for them!" kinda thing. He's hysterical to me. I love my normie fiance.

But - rewatching the show and the osmosis from my antics - he's admitted he finds Noah adorable and really hot. He looooves Will. Will is his fave (and Eddie...) 🙄 So it's all surface level, he's not watching his tiktoks regularly, he's barely aware of all the shit that went on. Not his world and I like that we've got much different interests. Idk what that man does online but it's not what I'm doing, that much is true. Noah is just... really his type of guy. I know this. I'm with him. I know what he likes in prn and what he's attracted to, we're sending each other/showing each other stuff. It's fun. I'm not surprised that our boy Noah checks a lot of boxes and I really love that, truly hahaha. Maybe that's hard to understand the openness but we're lovers and besties simultaneously, it's so wonderful. I always want to know all of his thoughts. There's zero jealousy between us. Might be hard to understand, but what we've both been through... we have so much fun. There's no secrets. Why am I rambling? I can't help it with him!!!

Re: the question about "why does it seem taboo for gay men to discuss the emotions amongst each other?" and I think just to keep this one brief - it's very much what you're exposed to, it's very surface level online. I'll admit that - see how this devolved around here the last day or so, all talking about body parts and physical appearance? When typically I'm very sentimental and insightful? Haha. A lot online is a space to just riff and thirst and it's all very pointed based on where you're looking. Sure, of course on a sex forum or hyper-focused twitter pages or in the thirst comments on photos posted to social media - it's going to skew very shallow and superficial. Bodies are easier to talk about in casual passing. The internet is massive.

But in the real world, it's not like a total shallow horn fest 24/7. Normalcy. Maybe there is a line I refuse to acknowledge because I am the way I am, I know I'm a little different, but I wouldn't discredit guys as all being the way perception might skew. I admit I don't think most people in general are acting the way I and many fandom-focused people are online. I think the line is personality type - and I'm a romantic creative. I'm an artist. It's different. But... you're also right in that I am taking the time to talk about the emotional aspect as well.

For perspective, I've been an observer and participator in some forums (Reddit, mostly) and it's so interesting and touching that time and time again when the threads start as the question posed "What is your ultimate fantasy?" I've seen guys say filthy things, and then when someone speaks up and talks about desiring pure love and passion and companionship from a lover, wanting a husband, dreaming about marriage to their perfect guy?? The filth kinda takes a backseat. Love is the fantasy. It really makes me emotional when I see that. Listen. It's there. It's just harder to talk about and be vulnerable. I wear my heart on my sleeve, not everyone does and that's ok. The hearts are beating, they're just not as easily displayed. I don't know why, it's just my personality 😌

This ended up a lot less about reactions to the actors and more introspective but I needed to ramble I guess to offset the ridiculous of yesterday hahaha