#also this isnt the post i had queued i have to finish the

[hacksawboy]

day like 5 i think of daily doodles, non tired edition, im not rlly tired rn tbh

so idk if yall heard but they updated desk engie which i was stoked about up until like an hour ago when i found out they removed his pride flags. i am so unironically upset about this dude holy shit i know you literally cant see them in game AT ALL but their inclusion is a big reason i bought the item, like they made me so god damn happy and now theyre just . gone. i wore the desk jockey style like a discreet trans pride pin im not even kidding 😭

i dont know why they removed the flags but the only good reason i can think of (and by good i mean the only reason thatd actually count as a win for the bisexuals and transgenders) is that they added it just to make bigots mad and removed it when they succeeded. im not gonna get into the other reasons because keeping this post as lighthearted as possible

anyways yeah rip pride pins. moment of silence for these thangs

(also since this post is a bit of a downer, have a funie pupro i doodled a few days back)

[storiesofsvu]

10, 15, 20, 4 & 9 (randomly chosen) for the writer asks!

10. top three fave fic tropes?

not sure if they're "tropes" per-say, but I enjoy writing the following:

-secret relationship

-the "we fucked on a one night stand and it turns out you're the new kid at work the next morning" trope

and

-the "we've been dating and head over heels in love/fwb/whatever and it turns out you're related to/work for/used to date my ex/parent/sibling/boss"

15. what's your favorite plotless fic you have written?

hmmm.... You Can & You Will w/Rita. or Christmas Bonus with Calex x reader

20. do you work on a single project or many at the same time? how does that work for you?

oof. okay. so in the past, I have worked on 2-3 series at the same time, and done my best to rotate writing/posting. like, I had a time where Cabot/Barba/Rita were on rotate with their series. i also used to write a fic/chapter, an immediately post it, like, there was no queuing, I had no "wips" per-say.

NOW...I've decided to change things up. I'll start something, and if I feel like I don't want to finish it, I'll leave it be in word and start something else. Or like, if i'm writing something that's going to be smut, but i don't feel like writing the smut right away, I'll pause and move onto something else. I've also gone through and outlined the current fics I have been writing/posting (nanny and peach) so i know where they're going and I'm trying to have more stuff written before posting, so i actually have wips in word, and more ability to edit/alter as i haven't posted it yet.

i like to have a variety at all times, it helps swapping genres, or straight passing vs wlw relationships, or even ships vs reader inserts. and fandoms. like, jumping around helps me stay focused and stimulated (i will tell ya right now. i'm pretty fucking rita'd out....i could barely even get through a couple of her eps i tried watching the other day...like...not that i'm over her, i just need a lil break)...

4. Do you have any OC's? do you have a story for them?

okay, so earlier on, no. or at least, not really. like, occasionally a sister or parent shows up that we haven't met in canon, so we technically do have Cynthia Calhoun: Rita's toxic af mother.

Natasha will be an upcoming OC, but ya'll have met her in the version of yn in Classified Affairs/Bruised Peach, so you know that backstory already. and more of it will be coming out later, though the story she's in won't focus on her.

9.Thoughts on cliffhangers?

oh i fucking love them. let it be dramatic. i love leaving a bit of mystery in shit. like, i LOVED SSS with y'all trying to piece together who the wife was, and CA trying to figure out the foreshadowing and how things were going to end up with Heather. i love shit like that. and i do my best to not have a cliffhanger and not have the next ch started so it isnt too long between updates.

thanks for playing!!

Yet Another Writing ask.

[seijch]

ANNOUNCEMENT: NOT A HELLO, BUT NOT A GOODBYE EITHER

omg hi ... im like . ashamed to come back after saying brief hiatus in october and then disappearing off the face of the earth til FEBRUARY but under the cut i will be explaining myself and the following, if youre interested (and a tl;dr at the very bottom if you don’t wanna scroll thru this obnoxiously long post):

the reason(s) i was gone for so long

what i was doing during that time (its just a personal account yall can scroll past this idrc)

the status of those um . halloween requests

the future of this account

i. so . Hiatus .

i know. i know . i probably mentioned it when i made the announcement post, but my mental health likes to go on one of those rides. yknow the ones where you go like up rlly fast then down maybe and then up then DOWN .... its like that. i needed a break and every time i wanted to come back or thought about it, something would happen and i would get stuck in my own head.

a big reason for getting stuck in my head was (and i hate to admit this ... i hate to admit that i have Insecurities On The Internet) my feelings of inadequacy regarding my writing. i love to plot fics, i love concepts and characters and making little headcanons but i dont ... know if i love writing rn. and i thought for the longest time that like . whatever ill just push thru it its fine ill be fine but it kinda wasnt lmao you can kinda see it in my halloween reqs and what become of them when i get to that but i began to feel like nothing i had put out or would put out would hold up prose wise (and normally i dont feel like this im much more “idc its my life im living it” but thats not a rant for tumblr LMAO). i still feel like that -- like im better as a reader than a writer. but . You Know :-)

tl;dr: mental state go brrrrr

ii. anywhere here’s wonderwall

when i left, i was in a steadily decreasing mental and emotional state, made worse by a situation at work that really was a case of petty jealousy on my end and rlly isnt very consequential now despite how much pain and resentment it gave me when it Was a problem so i wont get into it. the tl;dr of november and december was me using work as an crutch and distraction -- i know my job, i do it well, it helped me not think about my responsibilities and obligations and inadequacies. of course, as the holiday season grew busier n busier i was scheduled so often that i moved 88 or so miles (according to my apple watch, which i ONLY wear at work since im never anywhere else outside my house) and fell into a cycle of showering n sleeping at my house before going back the next day. (theres definitely something to be said abt capitalism and “grind culture” here but once again its not the time or place snsjkdfds)

at the turn of the new year, i happened to remember a birthday card i hadnt filed away for safekeeping from a friend of mine that id been horribly out of touch with til that point. i started crying because i realized how out of touch id been in general up until that point. the month of january was great for me: i was focused, happy, and in a much better place than i had been before. the end of it brought me down focus wise and im hoping that enough time away from my distractions will refocus me bc i ... need it LMAO and though ive burned out from that level of productivity and gotten distracted again im ... trying to stay positive which i think is the most i can do 😁👍🏼

media wise, i got real into stardew valley (but burned out bc i played it extensively as a way to wind down after work), the pokemon platinum romhack renegade platinum (still havent finished it bc of school n i played it w the intent to see if i could nuzlocke it ... bitch its so hard but its so fun bc of it), briefly assassins creed: odyssey (im one of those ppl who completes an entire region before i move to the next so you can tell i burned out of that one + wouldnt have the time to properly devote to it even if i didnt), got back into genshin impact after pulling for xiao (after not touching it for like . months), and danganronpa. yes . danganronpa 😐 i Know. i stopped playing it after the second trial of the first game bc i was so hurt by the outcome and picked it up in late january only to get sucked in (thank god i had the foresight to buy the second and third games during the steam winter sale). rn im at the start of chapter 4 if anyone wants to come in my asks and um . talk to me abt danganronpa

tl;dr: I’m Into Danganronpa Now

iii. you realize halloween was three months ago right

i mentioned this in the first section, but i love to plot things. every request is plotted or at least has a solid foundation. i had fun detailing what concept i wanted to go with considering what i was given, and there were some bangers i might touch up in the future. but heres whats going to happen to the requests themselves:

there are two finished requests. one will be posted tomorrow and the other will be touched up (just bc i finished it doesnt mean its good 🧍‍♂️) and scheduled for next saturday. as for the ones i never got around to ...

i will not be finishing those requests. i hate to be That Person, but i feel like we all expected this 🧍‍♂️ what i will do is post all of my notes for each request in batches -- requests that have an @ to go with them will be mentioned in the post proper, but anon asks will be pictured. (there are some asks that came from blogs who are now deactivated but i wrote down all the prompts and remember most of those askers so ill cross that bridge when i get there) there will most likely be an excerpt or two simply bc i think i mightve written a few plot points or interactions in the form of bullet points. i rlly am sorry about doing this but i remember looking at my notion doc with all the prompts and feeling ... like i wasnt measuring up n it wasnt just to myself or to some intangible concept of “other” id constructed but it was instead to those who requested n actually WANTED to see and hear and read my writing and i ...... im gonna admit thats another big reason i avoided this site.

regardless, youll definitely get what i have (and likely more than just my bullet points and illegible handwriting).

tl;dr: im sorry. what i have in terms of plot, concept, and interaction for every request will be posted, but i cant say ill ever complete them and mean it.

iv. so what now?

well i mean . im not entirely sure how sold i am on haikyuu in the content creation department (as a creator n to a lesser extent, as a consumer). as mentioned previously, its no longer my primary focus. it doesnt mean im not into haikyuu anymore; i have a lot of love for those boys but i cant rlly say im even caught up w recent fandom activity and also havent even finished s4 pt2 LMAO thats on my to do list

and despite all that, i still want to share my plots n concepts and snippets and maybe even fics. it wont happen anytime soon. it might not even happen. but i mean . its better than me saying i wont write ever again shjdkfs but either way ill probably use this blog as a personal blog w the occasional ask game for dialogue prompts (those are always so fun i love making up aus to fit like . the most mundane prompts)

as for my works (past and any potential future), ive opened an ao3 acc here n ill be editing n possibly expanding on my old works to post there. tumblr, to me, is The x reader hub, but i figure more x reader fics on ao3 is never a bad thing.

ill be deleting/posting drafted posts to the queue since they were all meant to be queued anyway as well as (sorry again 🧍‍♂️) deleting or answering asks in the inbox. (moots if you get a notif from me saying i rbed your post from months ago ... mind your business) im very hard to get ahold of and its ... a problem. expect an overhaul of the nav n shit to reflect my new direction n also because i feel like i cant tell if my passion for carrd is shared by the majority HSDKLFS maybe its better to read my info in a normal post ykwim .......

and of course . if youve read all this n decided im no longer worth the follow, i sure as hell cant stop you. thank you for wanting to, at some point, hear what i have to say -- it means more than you think.

tl;dr: writing will be edited and reposted to ao3, this blog will be a personal blog with a hint of writing (sometimes)

the tl;dr to end all tl;drs:

im back! i wont be as active as i used to due to a lessened interest in haikyuu in general, but i have an ao3 acc now where all my past work will be edited, possibly expanded, and reposted. any future work will also find itself there. my halloween requests will be posted in batches as incomplete concepts, plots, and snippets of scenes; i wont be promising to finish any of them.

there are still fic concepts im attached to and want to finish, but i cant promise any more writing on my end. this blog will be a personal blog with maybe writing, not a writing blog with my personal thoughts all over it.

regardless if you stick around or not, its been crazy sexy cool (equal emphasis) being on haikyuu tumblr even tho i wasnt around for long ... even tho its not my main focus anymore, im still excited to see what the future might hold 🤝

love, ari 💌