#also this is why i hate all the omg im so delulu teehee! things because uh. gestures above. yeah. im really very tired.

[piplupod]

mother sent me a text about b.etterhelp offering a discount or smth and I'm like. uhm. holy shit lol. does she not know about any of the scams and scandals. idk if i should inform her.

and now i am feeling a little dizzy and nauseous because what if she's been using their service....

(possibly delusion triggers below fdsjkl i want ppl to stay safe)

is this why she is so batshit insane lately ???? suddenly talking about "higher self angel guides" and "before you're born, you choose your parents so that you can learn a lesson you need that helps you on your cosmic path" and other wacky stuff that is very far outside of reality and also triggers my delusions about being fucked over on a universal scale because of some past self's actions and now i am being forced to suffer as much as i possibly can to atone for whatever cosmic sin i committed in a past life so actually i do deserve all the bad shit that happens to me and i should continue to hurt myself as much as possible so that the next life will not have to suffer so much. i dont even really believe in reincarnation like that unless im struggling with delusions. man i gotta get out of here.