#also they might be asleep anyway cuz it's almost midnight

[meancroissant]

came out to my friends and then immediately muted the groupchat

[sunookkii]

11:22 P.M

I think I’m falling for you

Pairing : Sunghoon x Reader

Genre : friends 2 lovers?

Warnings : sunghoon

Master list here

It’s past midnight and you still couldn’t sleep. Making you shift from side to side, it was no use you just couldn’t help but stay awake. Time started ticking and you couldn’t find yourself to fall asleep quick enough making you easily get frustrated. You try to scroll on your phone through Instagram to make your eyes strained so they can be sleepy, but that didn’t work. You tried making fake scenarios in your head to dream quicker but that also didn’t work. A few seconds after you hear a small buzzing sound through your cellphone which made you shift from your side to pick it up from your bed-side table. You see a name pop up ‘Sunghoon’, your friend Sunghoon had texted you in the middle of the night, what did he want?

Heyy ignore this,, cuz tumblr does this thing where it deletes sentences when you use the ‘keep reading’ so if this sentence doesn’t delete just ignore it lol tyy

🐧 : “are you awake”

🐧 : “are you awake”

“yeah lol how did you know”

🐧 : “lmao i didn’t i was just checking” “anyway do you wanna go ice skating w me”

“ure crazy it’s literally almost 2 in the morning”

🐧 : “ure boring, just come it’ll be fun”

“I don’t know how to skate”

🐧 : “I’ll teach you”

“Okay fine, I’ll be there in five minutes”

🐧 : “k”

You couldn’t fall asleep anyway so might as well you thought to yourself. You quickly put on some clothes, still trying to look presentable you wore black shorts with a simple white tee followed by a style grey zip up something like this. It wasn’t much but you still managed to look good. You brought your bag and keys then off you went. The skating rink wasn’t far from your home luckily for you since you were lazy to walk. Out of all the times he could’ve invited you to the ice rink why did he ask you to come in the. Middle of the night you wondered. A few minutes past by and you already arrived at the skating rink, once you enter the doors you pick up a pair of skates which were your size before you entered the rink. Right when you entered you were greeted by a graceful Sunghoon skating ever so beautifully in his grey hoodie. You barely got to see him skate so when he does you were definitely wowed. He waved at you before skating towards you.

🐧 : “Hey took you long enough”

“well at least I’m here” you said giving him a glare.

You try your best to put on the skates and to tie them tightly so they don’t fall off. You weren’t really educated on how to put them on so you had a bit of difficulty. Sunghoon quickly saw how you were struggling and got down on his knees to help you tie your skates without saying anything.

🐧 “There, is it okay?”

“yeah,, thanks,..”

He hurriedly skated off making you follow behind. He went quite far from you forgetting that you didn’t know how to skate so you can easily fall. You try your best to skate towards him before suddenly falling. Ouch. Rubbing you bum because that’s the place where you fell. “I told you i dont know how to skate” you said a bit frustrated before getting up, skating was something Sunghoon made look so easy but for some weird reason you just couldn’t do it. “pfft here lemme teach you” he said reaching out his hand to help you up before you fall a second time but instead of falling on your butt you end up falling on top of him.

Your eyes met with his which soon became awkward since he turned pink right before your eyes. “Sorry” you said shyly before trying to get back up. His face was still red, was it because he was cold? You try your best to skate a bit closer to him making sure not to fall for the THIRD time. You bring up your palms to place them on top of his cheek trying to warm them up, “ahh you’re so red” is all you said, but for some reason when you placed your hands on his cheeks it was super warm already when you were expecting them to be cold. Was he perhaps blushing? You thought in the back of your head. Sunghoon took your hands off his cheeks replacing the spot you were holding with his hand. The rest of the night you two skated with your hands intertwining. It was almost 3 am and it was time to take you home, he walked you home safely ending off the night with a savouring sweet soft goodnight kiss.

Click this for a kiss from sunghoon

[baka-writings]

𝐕𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐬 𝐁𝐨𝐲𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬

Warnings: A tiny (Subin) bit of nsfw

YAY MY 1ST VICTON REQUEST

Also I went kinda overboard with Hanse, cuz I'm a biased bitch 😅

𝐒𝐞𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐰𝐨𝐨

the sweetest bf ever, no kidding

honestly he'd do anything for you, anytime

like you wanna go on a date at midnight? you got it

he'd take care of you

lowkey forcing you eat your meals

and of course checking out if you eat your meals properly

he'd be the gentleman he is almost always whether he's tired or not

very affectionate

pda in front of other members? oh yEs

gives you random kisses 24/7

he'd be really quick to notice if there's something bothering you

he'd ask you about it and try his best to solve your problem

would listen to everything you're saying, nodding here and there

he's very serious when needed so if you were telling him something really serious/bad he'd be in the top 3 of the most understanding members in Victon

but he'd be also annoying like

challenging you in everything

he'd let you win tho, ngl

unless it was in bed😌

he's a strong man and fairly tall so no escaping

but even then he'd be such a gentleman

at first

later he wouldn't be that gentleman sorry not sorry

(later in the relationship/when you already did the deed etc)

he's a dom obviously

and very vocal if you ask me

i feel like he'd lOve to use his tongue anYwhere on you

would be rough most of the time but at the same time be careful not to hurt you

he'd love to pull your hair

and you better pull his too

also kinda kinky imo

he can go from 0 to 100 real quick, in bed as well

so you better watch out 😌

𝐒𝐞𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐢𝐤

the sweetest bf ever no 2

he'd sing for you anytime you wanted

he'd be so happy if you compliment his singing

cooks for you

wouldn't let you cook so you'd have to plead him

he'd like nicknames you'd give him unless they are dumb 😂

my personal favorite for him is angel, cuz he sings like one and looks like one

he'd same as Seungwoo take care of you

like a true mom

eye smiles 24/7

unlike Seungwoo, he wouldn't show that much pda in front of the members cuz they'd tease him for that too

but would always stay close to you whenever you all hangout

he'd sing you before sleep and would get flustered if you actually didn't fall asleep and only listened to his singing

he'd like to have you close to him

especially when you sleep

WHICH REMINDS ME

😈

he's not as kinky as Seungwoo

but i think his biggest turn on would be your face while he's slamming himself inside of you

i can also lowkey see him liking to be slightly choked, but not too much

which reminds me

switch

i don't see him that vocal honestly

but would like you being vocal

yes he likes to keep you close during these times too sO he'd probably go too deep just to be close don't @ me

when you are done i see him switching to his momma self again and clean ya'll up

unless you want another round 😌

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐧

aka my side hoe

clown 1/3

he'd talk the shit outta you

annoying

but cute

too much pda in front of others

unless someone teases him about it

then he'd add even more

pda with some inappropriate touches, always a yes for him

he wouldn't even try to hide it tbh

pls touch his dimples

he'd crack jokes whenever you're sad, mad, stressed etc

so honestly there would be NO time for such negative emotions ✨

but he'd also tease you sometimes so you better prepare some comebacks

when you two are already dating he might get a bit possessive i feel like

but not the jealous possessive

more like he'd be lowkey worried you'd leave him or something

mention his brother and he'll gladly introduce you, but would be protective af

talking about his bro, if you want to tease him or want him to make love to you, just say his bro was your bias in madtown and he'll show you why he should be the only one you look at ;)

but he wouldn't really show it unless needed

great kisser

like have you seen those lips?

delicious

cuddles every day, anytime and anywhere

he looks cute and innocent, but we know he ain't

call him byunchan (pervert + Chan in korean)

we all know what I'm talking about 😉

you should probably watch what you're saying cuz he will make double meanings and pervert things from anything

unless you want that

in that case get ready for some fun

kinda kinky tbh

a switch

those hips 🥵

he'd be slightly on the rougher side tbh

if his hips do the same thing as when he's dancing then well rip you

bitting kink

would maybe like to choke you while he overstimulates you 💀

𝐒𝐞𝐣𝐮𝐧

clown 2/3

another annoying one

would talk the shit out of you as well

every date is eating somewhere

him eating your food

eating competitions between you two

PDA!! Like he'd even show you off

compliments won't work on him cuz he knows he's all that

you'd like to scare him sometimes even with the help of his members

he'd cry

he'd let you borrow his hoodies

"it looks better on me tho"

he'd be happy if you jammed to his songs and sang his parts

wouldn't let you touch his dimples or kiss them for fREE

which means he has to have something in it to let you touch 'em

probably a kiss or something

such a tease

and a brat

he's a switch, nothing else

praising kink (recieving)

he'd be very confident in himself during these times too

would like his hair to be pulled

i can also see him liking mirror sex??

i mean seeing him fucking you from behind in the mirror sounds kinda hot if you ask me 🥵

also he is kinky too, but keeps his kinks a bit lowkey.. at first

would high-key love being tamed like a brat he is

oh and also i see him being vOcal, same like Seungwoo

not that rough, but deep thrusts making you lose it pretty soon ;) aka ego boost

𝐇𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐞

my main hOe

clown 3/3

loud af

pda in front of members

always

but for him I feel like it'd also be some kind of flirting and inappropriate touches so someone, probably Sejun would "get a room" y'all

tattoos, pls touch them

or lick them-

honestly, biased or not he'd be one of the best bfs from this group

he seems like he could kill a bitch, but we know he's a soft boy

sometimes

he'd be all giggly around you during your 1st days/weeks of dating

but then..ooof

a real clownery tbh

he'd like to be taken care of, like cooking for him, checking up on him and so on

that would make him so so so happy and happy Hanse is what we want

always.

he'd love you two have matching accessories like earrings or chokers! (so he could choke you later)

everytime he smiles, you smile and then he smiles when you smile and-

okay but then he'd also be a pervert and sometimes you'd have to go 'eH?' when he talks shit to check if you heard correctly or not

you'll always hear correctly

ya'll would paint each other's nails

everytime he makes a new song, he'd ask you what do you think because your opinion is important to him

he'd be a lil happy puppy when you compliment his songs (either solos or group songs since he co-writes the lyrics)

I'd like to think he wouldn't wake you up anNoYinGly as he did to Seungsik, but- uhh he would

you might challenge him in freestyle, he'd let you win and compliment your skills even If you were nOt as good as him (i mean is that possible?)

but also would be highkey shook If you did very good, he'd even forget his lyrics so you'd win

then he'd whine

anyway...a switch (dom lean)

his usual flirty line or when he's in the mood would be "mind tasting my piercing?"

and If you're in the mood just say "Sure If I can Do you as well"

honestly use the "Do Hanse" joke anytime and he's yours, truly..

i feel like he'd say something like "I'll Do you now" while he enters you and fucks you senseless (like he will dO you while hAnse is in you-)

vocal in bed, but mostly like high grunts

chOking both recieving and giving as well as bitting and all of these kinks

also..his tongue..with a rap like that I can't imagine how good he'd be eating you out ;)

rough thrusts all the way

keeps going when he hears your moans

𝐁𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧

big baby

back hugs or any kind of hugs

lowkey a brat too tbh

dimples show off™

he'd be actually vEry happy if you touched his dimples lmao

that would make him kInda cocky

would sing for you randomly and also teach you some dances

he'd actually enjoy dancing and/or singing together

a great cuddle buddy tbh

he'd be very clingy

to impress you he'd act manly and just hOt (see gif)

but would sometimes fail, because you'd start laughing 💀

borrowing his hoodies and shirts

but never giving them back-

if you're a lot shorter than him, he'd for example help you reach high places

if you're not that short well

he'd put things even higher so you'd ask for his help

kinda petty imo

anYway not really kinky, but on the more vocal side in bed

don't @ me but a sub

i think his most visible kink would be you doming him 💀 honestly

also some dirty talk (recieving) while you bounce on him

i can also see him mAybe being into some ice play tbh

just think about it😈

he's not rough, not vanilla either...perfect middle path

𝐒𝐮𝐛𝐢𝐧

a baby™

cuddles! always, whether you like it or not

i think he'd be teased by his hyungs

and told to use a protection

he'd just nervously laugh like ugH yeah sure

he'd be jelly if his pets greeted you before him or payed more attention to you

he'd pout

he can be very shy sometimes, so it'd take him ages to ask you out

he'd probably be accompanied by Seungwoo if you guys met 💀

if you by any chance go drinking, you should probably stop him tbh

he'd also pout if you called him cute

"I'm not cute *pout*"

which is cute

he maybe wouldn't necessarily sing for you as he'd be shy and not very confident

but would LOVE if you sang for him, it would make him fall in love with you more... especially if it was either his song or a song he loves

he'd never interrupt you, just listen to your voice

he'd love if he brought food to him when he practices (other members would be jelly and steal his food so you better bring them too then)

sometimes he'd tell you some weird/dirty jokes without thinking about them first

his excuse would be "Hanse said-"

now all jokes aside, he is a babie but when you two are alone he'd have those dirty times

however he'd be shy to ask for what he wants, like he'd never or rarely ask for it

but you'd see it on him anyway

like he'd be unfocused and talk less

a sub(in)

you could have so much fun with him honestly 😈

tsundere (Seungwoo said it, not me🤷🏻‍♀️)

his hidden kinky

would love bitting, both recieving and giving

for some reason i also see him liking having a collar with a chain so you can pull him whenever and wherever you like?😌

he would be vanilla of course but not that rough either, however his secret dream is to go rough tbh

also he is young so he might want to try many kinks as long as both of you want that

[akayoko]

nights like these

summary: kenma falls asleep in the backseat of kuroo’s car while he waits for the two of you to finish shopping

a/n: just some soft SLEEPY kenma for the soul,, i actually listened to cavetown while writing this, hug all ur friends really made me feel things but it also inspired me a lot hehe please enjoy cuz i had a lot of fun writing this :)

pairing: kenma x gender neutral reader (and kuroo kind of, but mostly kenma)

genre: fluff! 

warnings: none

word count: 1.6k

it’s another one of those nights, accompanied by muffled giggles and random banter bouncing off the walls of your cramped apartment. humming a random melody as you hold a warm cup of tea close to your chest, you lean back on the couch, glancing at your friends’ softly illuminated faces under the dim lights. closing your eyes, you listen to kuroo’s remarks at the movie you chose as he clings on to a tired kenma lying between the two of you. i could do this for an eternity, you think, inhaling the delicate scent of the chamomile tea between your palms.

“he is SO dense,” he exhales dramatically, sipping on his drink. “she obviously likes him!”

you laugh at his antics as you snuggle closer to kenma, both you and kuroo making sure to keep him warm and shower him with the love and affection he deserves. he claims he hates the kisses you occasionally place to the top of his head, but he never pushes either of you away. even if he does, he never means it anyway.

“stop that,” he mumbles when kuroo tries to boop his nose.

when he actually pulls away, kenma turns to frown at him, just as if he didn't reject him mere seconds ago. it's a lovely sight.

in the middle of the movie, you reach for the chips only to realize you have finished the third and last bag that night. kuroo looks at you knowingly, and in the blink of an eye, he’s unwrapping kenma from the pile of blankets, telling him you are going for a drive.

kenma of course protests, but you’re persistent. you grab him by the hand, promising you will cuddle him later if he comes along with kuroo and you, to which he scoffs.

“you think that’s enough to convince me?” he grumbles.

“i see you’re already putting your jacket on,” you throw his socks at him. “i think i have my answer.”

--

you leave the store with bags full of snacks and kuroo by your side, enjoying the crisp air biting at your cheeks. you take a deep breath as you look up at the sky sown with stars, admiring the numerous constellations adorning it. dragging your feet against the concrete, you wish you could stay in this parking lot longer. the tranquil midnight darkness reminds you to relax your shoulders, finding reassurance in the way the gloomy hues seem to engulf your senses. 

a faint sound of a car honking in the distance wakes you up from your trance, bringing your attention back to the gentle winter breeze. you sigh as you watch the broken street lights flicker, barely illuminating the vehicles driving under them. midnight trips to the store have always been your favorite, and you’re more than happy you get to spend them with the people you love the most.

“bet kenma’s fallen asleep,” kuroo chuckles, breaking the comforting silence.

“you think so?” you giggle, turning your attention to your friend. the truth is, you did manage to get kenma in the car after you had somehow established a middle ground. he however refused to enter the store, saying two people were more than enough to get food. you decided not to push him anymore given the fact that he was right, so you left him in the backseat of kuroo’s car.

actually, one of the reasons he wanted to stay home was the fact that both kuroo and you were very indecisive when it came to choosing snacks, and he wanted to avoid the trouble of mindlessly walking through the store longer than necessary. so, when you tell him you won’t take too long, he doesn’t believe you one bit.

rightfully so, you think to yourself when you get to the trunk of the car and check the time, realizing that almost an hour has passed. you feel the guilt stinging at your stomach so you place the bags on the ground and ask kuroo to put them in the trunk for you.

you peak through the window to wave at kenma, only to notice that he was sprawled on the backseat of the car. just as kuroo predicted mere seconds ago, he had indeed dozed off. you grin as you tell kuroo to be quiet when entering the car, to which he laughs, realizing what happened.

you do your best to close the door behind you as silently as it is possible for, well, a car door, turning around to look at the boy you oh so adored. his lips are slightly parted, emitting soft snores, and you can’t help but notice how uncomfortable he seems in that position. just as you are about to take your jacket off to cover his shivering body, he shifts in his seat, raising his head to analyze his surroundings. when he recognizes the interior of kuroo’s car he rolls his eyes, letting his head fall again.

“hi, kenma,” you wave at him, flashing him a soft smile. “i woke you up, i’m s-”

“can you come here?” he cuts you off, meeting your eyes for a second before looking away. “i’m, uh, kind of cold.”

he doesn’t need to ask twice. you immediately move despite the urge to tease him, since this side of him was definitely not something a person could see every day. you love him too much for that, though, unable to bring yourself to make fun of him when you see the way he fiddles with his fingers. his lips are pressed in a thin line, and he looks just a tad too small in his oversized jacket. perhaps he’s blushing too, but the darkness doesn’t allow you to notice it.

the moment you step foot outside the car, kuroo finishes what seems to have been a phone call, placing his hand over his chest when you reach for the doorknob of the rear door.

his eyes widen. “you’re leaving me all by myself-“

“shut up,”  you snort at him, moving quickly to sit beside kenma who has straightened himself up to make space for you. resting his head against the window, he flinches when kuroo enters the car, slamming the door shut.

you stare at him, to which he shrugs. “what? he’s up.”

ignoring his response, you extend your hand towards kenma as an invitation to your arms. he takes it only for a brief moment, before placing his head on your lap, turning his back to you. your hand immediately travels to his hair, the other rubbing his back. “sorry we’re late,” you murmur, squishing his arm.

it’s nights like these that allow kenma to let loose, relishing the familiarity of your scent. a fuzzy feeling travels all the way to his fingertips, which completes itself the moment you link your hand with his. he lets his eyes close shut, the sound of the mellow radio tune lulling him to sleep. what’s that perfume you’re wearing? it’s comforting.

somehow, everything clicks for him. he tries to recall the last time he felt this way, and he huffs when he can’t remember.

you hold his cheek before tucking his hair behind his ear, and he hums against your touch. “aren’t you uncomfortable like this?” you ask. kenma doesn’t respond, which leads you to assume he’s drifted off to sleep.

your question resonates in his ears just scarcely, that being the last thing he hears before his grip on your hand grows weaker, proving your assumptions right.

you turn to look outside the window, counting every lamp post you drive by. this time you can’t see the stars but you know they’re out there, shining in their full glory. you’re not certain if it’s because of the heating kuroo has turned on, or maybe because of kenma’s steady breathing on your lap, but keeping your eyes open gradually turns into a chore and you’re quickly nodding off, too; your heartbeat slowing down to reach a steady pace. you run your tongue over your dry lips as you part them to ask kuroo if he has a bottle of water somewhere in the car, but he doesn’t respond. wait, did you ask him anything at all in the first place?

the rest of the night is a blur; the only part you remember is kuroo practically dragging you out of the car and into the apartment, complaining about how lame his friends are.

he doesn’t let it go the following morning either as he taunts you at the dining table, claiming that falling asleep so early in the night wasn’t a part of the plan.

“let’s discuss the movie, shall we? oh right, we can’t, i forgot you two fell asleep again as soon as we opened the snacks.”

he’s exaggerating, yes, but you still apologize and lean over to give him a hug, when both your and kenma’s phones light up simultaneously. you pull away, glancing at the groggy boy as he idly rubs his eyes in the seat across you, freezing in his spot abruptly.

you reach for the napkin to wipe your hands as you hastily unlock your phone, only to be greeted by a picture of you and kenma sleeping in the car, your hand placed on his back as the other one supports your head against the window. kenma is curled up with his head on your lap, his hands resting close to his chest.

kuroo snickers at the scene unraveling in front of him, waiting for a response from either of you. kenma’s ears heat up at the sound of you chuckling, eyes boring into the wall behind you. you tilt your head just enough to catch them, playfully snapping your fingers in front of his face.

“kenma i might be wrong, but i think you’re blushing,” kuroo chimes, propping his chin on his hand.

you turn off your phone, lightly kicking kenma’s legs under the table. “we look cute though, don’t we?”

“if you say so.”

“call me crazy, but i think i’m kind of third-wheeling right now.”

“you definitely are.”

[shiorimizuyami-kyu]

Angie Yonaga Analysis:

Angie Yonaga, a Danganronpa V3 character with the title of Ultimate Artist has the reputation of being disliked due to her obsession with Atua. Hopefully this analysis would show Angie in a different light.

Trigger Warning: This analysis will have discussions of sexual assault, sexual abuse, religion and possible other stuff that may be sensitive towards some readers. You have be Warned.

Atua:

In order to better understand Angie as a character, we have to include Atua. The term 'atua' is used as a plural noun referring to all gods and spirits within their religious practices among people of Polynesian descent, particularly native Hawaiians and the Maori people of New Zealand. 

In other words, 'atua' isn't necessarily a specific kind of god, but the term is used in the English release of the game to avoid using a specific god such as Jesus. (So no Angie isn't Christian) In the Japanese release of the game, Angie refers to Atua as "Kami-sama" in which similar to Atua is plural for god without using a specific religious figurehead.

From the first interaction with Angie the most noticeable traits is Angie's devotion towards Atua, although some fans have theorized that Angie's religion could be Christian, however they're some religious acts that Angie has mentioned that don't match up with Christianity such as the extensive amount of worshipping towards Atua. 

Angie's religion is shown to be anonymous to not only to avoid using specific religious figure heads like Jesus, but to show a darker side of religion. To be more specific, Angie's religion is actually a cult using Atua as a figure head.

During Angie's free time events, when talking about her homeland, Angie almost always brings up Atua. Here is the interaction between Angie and Shuichi about her island:

~

Angie: Angie lives with Atua on a divine island paradise.

Shuichi: Ah, right, but... Where is the island? What's it like?

*Angie: It's a tiny, divine island. It used to be much bigger...

But Atua used a natural disaster to make it smaller cuz He thought it would look cuter.

Shuichi: *That* was the reason?

Angie: My island has lots of plants and flowers too, y'know?

Shuichi: Ah, is that so?

Angie: But most of the plants and flowers on my island like to attack people.

Shuichi: They attack people!?

*Angie: Come to think of it...I'm honestly not sure if they're actual plants or flowers.

Shuichi: What...? What kind of island *is* this?

~

This comes off as strange due to the sound of uncertainty in some of her lines, quickly changing the subject as if she isn't aware of what goes on in her island in a geographical standpoint.

On an 'interesting' note, Angie has something called 'DeepSea' which is a website that's used for shipping the following:

magazines, food, clothing, organ meat, medicine, blood, children.

It's safe to say the 'DeepSea' is a black market website used for illegal activities like human trafficking.(and considering that Angie never mentioned her parents once through her free time event, there is the disturbing possibility of Angie being a victim of human trafficking at a young age)

Angie has also mentioned some of her traditional act that she along with the others on her island part-take(which might implied both child abuse and sexual abuse) in such as:

~

Angie: First, you're not allowed to feed children after midnight!

Angie: Cuz it's unhealthy! They won't grow up to be stable adults!

Angie: And they hafta undergo a divine initiation ritual before they can enter adulthood...

Angie: During the ritual, we perform intense physical workouts.

Angie: They all become adults at the same time, and feel all happy and relaxed afterward.

~

Sexual Assault:

Throughout this specific detail on why Angie's religion is most likely a cult based off this interaction between Angie and Shuichi:

~

Angie: That's right. On my island, everyone shares in our fun, happy times.

At weddings, for example, after the bride and groom consummate their vows...

The guests make their own vows, and then they consummate those, too.

Shuichi: What, everyone!?

Angie: After a successful consummation, the bride is blessed with a baby.

Of course, we all share the baby, too...

using a sickle...

...

Shuichi: What...the hell...are you going to do with that!?

Angie: Nyahahahaha! Just kidding! We can't share a baby!

We just share the bride!

Shuichi:...What does that mean!?

This island has a ton of strange traditions…

~

In other words, Angie has implied that everyone(which might include minors) can part-take in sexually assaulting the bride(and possibly impregnating her), more proof that Angie has possibly witnessed, part-take and experience sexual abuse from a young age. To a serious degree that she sees this behaviour as normal. This line from her FTE also indicates this as well:

~

Angie: On my island, if you feel sad and lonely at night, you stab a sickle into your window!

Shuichi: That's...an odd custom.

Angie: Anyone who sees it can't just ignore it. They gotta go console that person.

They gotta do anything they can to console them. And I do mean ANYTHING.

~

What we must keep in mind based off this discussion is that Angie has been on this island before becoming an Ultimate, meaning that her religious traditions and everyone else's are completely different. This interaction between Angie and Shuichi is proof of it(Although there's more proof of Angie sexually assaulting Shuichi in the Love Hotel Scene, I chose to not included it for the time being):

~

Angie: Very well... By Atua's divine decree, your training begins today.

Shuichi: 'Grinning ear-to-ear, Angie skipped over to me and…'

Shuichi: Whoa!

Angie: Huhhh? Why are you running, Shuichi?

Shuichi: Y-You grabbed me all of a sudden... And you tried to take my clothes off!

Angie: Of course. How else would I provide what you're lacking?

Shuichi: I-I think I'm okay, thanks anyway!

*Angie: Why are you afraid?

*Angie: Atua and I will gently embrace you.

*Shuichi: What does that mean? What are you going to do...?

*Angie: Huh?

Shuichi: I-I just wanted to talk, Angie! Just be friends!

Angie: …

Shuichi:...Ah! S-Sorry for yelling, I just...

Angie: …

Shuichi: I'm just worried about you.

Angie:...

Shuichi: Ah, Angie?

~

When Angie made her attempt to assault Shuichi, he reacted in fear and hostility. And yet Angie was the one confused on 'why would he react so hostile towards her advances?' And when Shuichi said he just wanted to be friends, Angie, just ran away. As if she doesn't know how to react.

~

While doing research on Angie's religion, this particular term show up on my Google search: 

Religious Trauma Syndrome (RTS) is a function of both the chronic abuses of harmful religion and the impact of severing one's connection with one's faith and faith community. It can be compared to a combination of PTSD and Complex PTSD (C‐PTSD).

Believe it or not, Angie in Kaeda's FTE, we see Angie suffer a PTSD attack(it was more of a nightmare then a PTSD attack) in the game, and when questioned about, Angie just brushes off like it was nothing:

~

Kaede: Well, how was it, Angie? This song…

Kaede: Huh!?

Angie: Zzzzz...zzzzz…

Kaede: She's sleeping!?

Angie: Zzzzz...zzzzz...zzzzz...zzzzz…

Kaede: Geez, she fell asleep even though she asked me to play. And it was a really lively song, too.

Angie: Ngh, grgh...zzzzz...zzzzz…

Kaede: Angie...scares me sometimes, but she looks like an angel right now.

Angie: Hmmmm…

Kaede: Oh, are you awake?

Angie: Wednesday morning... Need sacrifice... Hurry... Can't wait…

Kaede: What?

Angie: Not enough blood... Need more blood... So I'll... I'll...

Hahhh! Stop! Ngh, ergh... Ngahhhh... It's too much!

Kaede: Is she having a nightmare!? Angie, wake up! I said, wake up!

Angie: Huh?

Angie: Oh, hi Kaede. Was I sleeping?

Sorry 'bout that. But thanks to your piano, I got to have a wonderful dream.

Kaede: Are you sure about that...? You sounded pretty distressed…

Angie: Hehe, Atua says He was so enchanted by you, He accidentally poured His divine wrath somewhere.

Kaede: He poured it!? Where!? Divine wrath shouldn't just be accidentally poured somewhere, right!?

Angie: I'm starting to like your music, Kaede! Let's have a paint-and-piano jam session very soon!

~

To sum up the analysis, there's more to Angie character then just Atua even though Atua is a huge part of her character. The point of this analysis was to better understand Angie while pointing out some of the things she has done.

Thank you for reading!

[art-by-rozzai]

had a bad day so more band au headcannons

anyone who wants to write a fic for this is absolutely allowed if they tag me, i’m not gonna make any full length ones but i might post some one shots eventually

anyway i had a really shitty day so here’s me self projecting and creating more band headcannons

check out the first here~

check out the second here~

tag list~

@athenashipsthings @thelesbianspoon @flowersheep @insert--self--hatred @nafsbluebery @sunflowerss0 @nerdiegurlie @stars-and-rose

okays lets do this✨

so last when we left the boys, it’s the day before they release their album “death of a bachelor”

to celebrate, roman suggests they get dinner out and maybe go see a movie??

logan is suprisingly the first to agree, saying that if he doesn’t get to watch the “scary stories to tell in the dark” movie soon he will explode. plus there’s no food in the fridge

virgil is also down to go see the movie, but is more reluctant to get dinner. he hates formal things, so to make him feel more comfortable roman offers they go to the local diner that he knows has virgil’s favorite chicken parm dish and virgil can’t say no to that

patton doesn’t want to see the movie at first-he really doesn’t like scary movies. but he wants dinner with his friends and he might be able to latch onto logan during the scary parts so he goes with it

so patton offers go help virgil with his hair and they end up getting ready together! they talk about everything they can think of as patton does hair and virgil does makeup and they both do each other’s nails and then they’re ready to go out whooooppp

meanwhile roman collapsed on logan’s bed an hour ago and began complaining about how he needed to impress virgil to get him to fall in love with him and has been talking ever since

logan doesn’t mind tho, roman helps him pick out a nice outfit and gives tips on how to woo patt

even though it’s not a date

yet

anyways they get to the diner and they all have an incredible time! by the end of the meal they’re in tears laughing at each other, from roman’s hysterical stories to virgil’s banter to logan’s fun facts and spilt tea to patton’s enthusiastic impressions

they love each over like family :)

and the movie is top notch. virgil is in love with it, him and logan spend the whole time guessing what’s going to happen while roman hides behind virgil and patton shoves his face full of popcorn and squish himself into logan’s arm

and yes virgil can’t stop laughing and logan’s immediate tensing up and blushing

after the movie they just don’t want to go to bed quite yet, so the friends head to the park and enjoy lying in the grass, talking and letting logan point out the stars while roman makes up stories of the aliens and space princesses that protect the galaxy

virgil makes everyone his famous hot chocolate and they stay up until midnight to release their songs

and then the clock strikes 12 and death of a bachelor is available to download

the boys decide that staying up and watching the comments flood in is a terrible idea and instead they put on some disney films and fall asleep on the couch

it’s nice

they wake up to millions of notifications

everyone is freaking the fuck out

this album ??? is beautiful ???

all of the fans are in love but also have a lot of questions-so the fab four start doing monthly live-streams to just chat and answer questions and catch up with their fans

“are y’all single?”

um

well yes

but uh

this question is not goOD ROMAN WHAT THE FU-

anyway virgil comes to patton one day, slams the door, puts his face in a pillow and screams “PATT IM SO GAY HELP”

because roman called his hair pretty this morning and yes it’s stupid and it happens all the time but this time was different

don’t worry tho they won’t admit their feelings to one and other for another three months

death of a bachelor does really well-all of the songs end up going either gold or platinum

their song “victorious” is played on the radio all of the time

so november rolls around and the friends decide it’s time to go on tour! starting with just north america, they post a video on the youtube channel that gives all the locations and dates

it’s to start in april:

virgil is extremely nervous. being on the road for so long and preforming live in front of thousands of people and will anyone even show up and-

logan is slightly nervous but honestly he really enjoys preforming-once he ties the tie around his head like a bandanna he almost transforms into the punk rock bassist he is known by the fans to be

patton!!! is!!! bouncy!!!!!!!! he wants to meet all these people!!!! and he can’t wait to give back to all of them by preforming and meet and greets and social interaction makes him really happy!!

roman is so excited-preforming is his thing. when he’s on a stage, he’s in his element! he can’t wait to show off and travel and be with his friends for even longer :)

but they can’t go on tour with their boring old instruments sooooo

roman and patton team up to paint and decorate all of the instruments

virgil’s piano matches his jacket, lots of purple and swirls and patton paints the classic nightmare before christmas scene on the front (u know, this one but stationary)

and they decorate the microphone stand purple and silver and black

logan gets a dope space themed bass-the outside is dark blue and the inside is painted like a galaxy, with a plain silver pick

roman paints his gutair with a castle and sunset in the back, with a bright red pick to play

patton’s drums have clouds on them nowww like a sunny day with blue puffy clouds

they’re ready to go! but it’s still only december so u kNoW whAt ThaT mEaNs

CHRISTMAS!!!!!

since none of the squad are jewish, (although technically patton is half jew since his mom is, but he just really loves christmas and always celebrated that growing up so)

they decide to celebrate at their house

they invite all of their close family to the apartment and have a lovely dinner

and yeah virgil doesn’t invite anyone cuz he was adopted by a shitty family who he doesn’t talk to anymore, bcuz all they did was try and get money out of him

and yeah he has a panic attack when all of his best friends are excitedly talking about their family coming over

and y e a h roman helps him calm down and swears that he will always b there to protect virgil bcuz he’s never met anyone quite like him and it’s not easy to explain but he just wants virgil to know he’s safe with roman

and yeah virgil wishes he could stop falling for roman but the ground keeps disappearing beneath him

so time skip a bit closer to christmas and logan bursts into romans room with an idea

“i can rap”

“we know”

“you can rap”

“kind of but okay”

“christmas rap song for fun”

“yeS”

so they write “gonna kill santa claus” (look it up) and decide to post it on the youtube channel on christmas eve

they film a music video for it where they jokingly set up different traps for santa like poison cookies and fire cracker chimneys and more

virgil sings the chorus, logan raps the rap parts, roman does the bridge, and patton lays down a pretty sick beat

it comes out really nice and honestly really fucking funny

so after a delightful family dinner with everyone over, the friends release that video and the internet fucking dies it’s so funny and logan can rap (??????) and ohmygod all of them are so cute what the fuck

anyway back to christmas dinner

roman has like 6 little sisters, and his mom and dad and papa and nana over

(he’s latino, his mom and dad are both from the dominican republic)

patton invites his mom and dad and little brothers, thomas and dee

and logan invites his two moms

everyone comes over for lunch and gets along reallyyyyyy well

logan’s got the punk mom and soft mom dynamic whereas, patton’s family is all super kind and like homey and boisterous and romans family is wild and crazy and funny and they all instantly click

presents are passed around, lots of money and books and movies and stickers and jewelry

really sweet stuff

and then everyone goes home and the friends have their own little gift exchange

virgil got logan the stephen king book “insomnia” and a (sort of) joke blanket with benedict cumberbatch’s face on it that he can use when he goes stargazing at night

logan gets virgil some noise cancelling headphones and a framed picture of a wedding with virgil’s face cropped on one and gerard ways face on the other

they both can’t stop laughing at the fact they attacked each other’s celeb crush

virgil gets patton a cute little cat stuffed animal that when u push the hand it’s a recording of all of them saying “we love you!!!” and a really sweet card

patton gets virgil a eyore necklace that was super expensive but matches patton’s winnie the pooh one and a itunes card for him to buy more music (and yes a really sweet card)

virgil gets roman two tickets to see mean girls on broadway and a framed picture of the two of them

yeah roman tears up a bit fuck u

roman gets virgil a collage of him and roman and a handmade hoodie that virgil is never going to take off oh and also meet and greet passes to see dan and phil at their interactive introverts tour

and maybe virge gets a little teary too

roman gets patton a recipie book and an apron that says “you BAKE my day”

patton gets roman a new ukelele and a printed out pamphlete of theatre song chords that he can play

roman gets logan the sherlock script and an empty box just to fuck with him

logan gets roman the entire grimm fairytale series and tapes a note to the front that says “bcuz u are an illiterate fool😜”

patton gets logan a phone case with the stars that were out on the day they met, hand painted framed picture of him and logan, and comic con tickets for this spring

logan gets patton tickets to the art museum downtown, a gift card to the coffee shop next to it, and two gold hoop earrings with a note that says “next week, friday at 7. it’s a date ;)”

so christmas is pretty good for all :))))))

and that’s the end of this one i’ll make a part four soon lmao

[myrcury]

Meme

Lifted from @trelobita

rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people

— what was your last…

1. drink: Water

2. phone call: Called for movie ticket info for Isle of Dogs

3. text message: from the boyfriend: “I’m glad I managed to make you feel even a little bit happier today. :D”

4. song you listened to: Score from Passengers, specifically “Spacewalk.” It’s so beautiful. <3

5. time you cried: A few nights ago. Just feeling lonely and blah. :/

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: Not... really? Technically. I guess. We dated and then became FWB for a long time, so. :/ 

7. kissed someone and regretted it: Nah, not really regretted. Thought I probably shouldn’t have, but easily let it go lol.

8. been cheated on: Yup.

9. lost someone special: Yes.

10. been depressed: Yes. For a long time. Doing a lot better these days though.

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: Threw up the morning after, not during the actual drinking uh... event.

— fave colours

12. All shades of pink

13. Rainbow

14. Black and white together

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: Yes

16. fallen out of love: No

17. laughed until you cried: Yesss so much XD  

18. found out someone was talking about you: Yes. :P

19. met someone who changed you: I’m a bit more self-conscious and less stingy with my time because of the bf. It’s a good thing, really.

20. found out who your friends are: Sorta? 

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: Nope

— general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: A good number of them.

23. do you have any pets: Two dogs live here but I’m not particularly fond of either of them. They’re my sister’s Shih-Tzu and my mom’s Pug. They’re okay. I miss -my- dog though. :( 

24. do you want to change your name: Not officially but I do prefer to go by my nickname. (Steph vs. Stephanie)

25. what did you do for your last birthday: Had a weekend of birthday since my birthday fell on a craft show day. Had dinner at Golden Corral and spent time with the family at home.

26. what time did you wake up today: at noonish.

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: Drawing and listening to music in my room.

28. what is something you can’t wait for: Convention weekends with out-of-state friends that I don’t get to see very often.

30. what are you listening to right now: Closing credits for Thor: Ragnarok. What a weird movie. Hulk was adorable though. <3 

31. have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I went to school with two boys named Michael and Thomas. Their dad went by Tom, as I recall. So yes.

32. something that’s getting on your nerves: Blissfully not this exact moment, because they’re both asleep, but I can’t stand the sound of these two dogs licking. They do it almost constantly. .-.

33. most visited website: Facebook, Tumblr... Mostly use the apps though.

34. hair colour: Dark purple, lighter purple, blue, faded pink, and neon green. At the moment. XD

35. long or short hair: Short hair on the left side which is taking an annoying amount of time to grow out... longer on the right. Thinking about shaving it back down again.

36. do you have a crush on someone: Only on my adorable boyfriend. :)

37. what do you like about yourself: My eyes, my glasses, my creativity, and how far I’ve come in accepting myself warts and all. 

38. want any piercings: Not really anymore. Used to want an eyebrow piercing.

39. blood type: I have no idea.

40. nicknames: Steph, Rexy

41. relationship status: Dating someone. “Taken” I guess? Hate that word though. Haz a boyfriend. XD

42. sign: Virgo

43. pronouns: she/her I suppose, though I do identify as genderfluid.

44. fave tv show: I’m most recently in love with Shameless. Gallavich is going to break me, I just know it. ;_; At least it’s canon. Anyway I also love watching Jeopardy. 

45. tattoos: I have one just above my right ankle. Little winking star with devil horns and tail and angel wings and halo. Little thing I drew when I was 15, and got it inked when I turned 25. I want more though.

46. right or left handed: I’m a righty. 47. ever had surgery: Yep. Several. 

48. piercings: Are cool? Meh. I only have my ears done twice.

49. sport: Not my jam.

50. vacation: All my life is one big vacation. >_> *shrug* I’ll probably never get to travel anywhere awesome. Would love to go just about anywhere though.

51. trainers: Are we talking about shoes or people? ... Yeah leaving with Trel said cuz. Eh?

— more general

52. eating: Nothing at the moment but I broke my “no bread” rule for only like the 3rd time so far this year, earlier. *shrug* I was hungry and a PB sammich sounded good.

53. drinking: Water

54. i’m about to watch: The rest of Shameless without my family who are all also hooked on it as well but who knows when we’ll all be able to sit and watch together again GRRNNNGHineedit. >_> 

55. waiting for: This list of questions to reach it’s end so I can go to bed XD

56. want: To ... do a lot of things... To know why my brain is so foggy these days, for one. 

57. get married: I think it might be nice. I saw a thing the other day that said marriage is like a neverending sleepover party with your best friend, or something like that. I’d love to think that’s true.

58. career: Art for life.

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses: Depends on the person and the situation...

60. lips or eyes: Again, depends on the person and situation.

61. shorter or taller: Taller than me, ideally. But the bf is an inch shorter and we make it work.

62. older or younger: I wish I was younger. :( 

63. nice arms or stomach: Armssss... I have such a fetish D:

64. hookup or relationships: Relationships. Hookups and me don’t mix. I’m demisexual.

65. troublemaker or hesitant: Always so hesitant. Inner Steph is an upstart though for sure. XD

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger: Yep. See #7 lol

67. drank hard liquor: Yes

68. turned someone down: Yes

69. sex on first date: Newp.

70: broken someone’s heart: I don’t think so.

71. had your heart broken: Yes, and it hurts like no other pain in the world, let me tell you.

72. been arrested: Nope.

73. cried when someone died: Yes.

74. fallen for a friend: Yes

— do you believe in

75. yourself: I do, after all this time and a lot of struggle to get to a place where I do. It’s hard and it’s being tested real bad lately but... Hanging in there.

76. miracles: I do.

77. love at first sight: In terms of romantic love, I only believe in attraction and infatuation at first sight. However,  the feeling you have when you hold your baby for the first time or your new puppy gives you a kiss for the first time…. both of those qualify as very real love at first sight. <3 ... Trel. That’s such a great answer I’m just gonna leave it. XD <3 

78. Santa Claus: I do sort of still believe, in a way. I think we all become Santa Claus when we do generous or helpful things for one another at holiday time. And the rest of the year if we’re good people like that, then we’re just good people without seasonal connotation lol.

79. angels: I do believe, yes.

— misc

80. eye colour: Very dark brown

81. best friend’s name: I’ve got 3 best friends and they know who they are.

82. favourite movie: I can’t name only one. I’ll name the most recent ones. The Shape of Water, Passengers, Chappie, TMNT lol

83. favourite actor: Doug Jones. He’s amazing and such a wonderful man. :)

84. favourite cartoon: “Rick and Morty” at the moment lol

85. favourite teacher’s name: LIFE the greatest teacher of all 

if you’re reading this, consider yourself tagged <3

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

Doing the Write Thing #51

**I hate to put another disclaimer out, but I wrote this post last night and was convinced I actually posted it, but upon opening my computer, I seemed to have re-read the entire thing, edited it, and never pressed post like a waste dude. Honestly lol.**

AYYY look who’s back.

Once again, I’m falling asleep at the keyboard, so unlike #49, I’m going to keep this as short as possible. Apparently, my bedtime has become midnight because I apparently wake up at 8AM every day without knowing because I’ve gotten into the habit of not checking the time when I wake up, and instead, watching an episode or three of Criminal Minds.

Okay. Anyway.

Daily word count goal: 250

Words written: 1255

Total word count: 127 081

Total page count: 231

Songs played: SO I THINK I MIGHT HAVE TAKEN A VACATION BACK TO MUSIC LAND MY GUYS? YouTube recommended me this super random music suggestion a few days ago, and I listened to the first 20 seconds, and liked it so I remembered to come back to it. WELL today, I came back to it.

The album is called We Are Trees, and it’s by this liiiiiiiitttttt band called The Last Sighs of the Wind. I listened to the entire thing while writing tonight, and I really enjoyed it! It’s purely an instrumental album, and according to their bandcamp, falls under the genre post-metal/rock. Basically, if Daughter was instrumental and hung out with Paramore’s instrumentals, this would happen. I’ve found a couple other post-rock instrumental bands through this, but I went back to this one after some searching.

I’m not a huge instrumental music fan for casual listening because for me, a huge part of music is lyrics. Which is why all my bands gotta have that lyrical content. But with this band, it’s like their guitar IS the lyrics, and I don't see that often with some of the instrumental stuff I’ve come across in the past. (No hate on instrumental, I’m just the pickiest music listener in the entire world.) Unless it’s a band I already know (like Daughter has some instrumental + probs more on their score for Life Is Strange), I don't usually go out of my way to find instrumental shtuff. (Unless it’s the score to The Host of which I highly recommend as it’s absolutely gorgeous, and I wrote a lot of books 1-3 with that.) But this music is really great, and I enjoyed it a ton! It starts off very indie, almost indie folk, then morphs into some more alternative rock-ish vibes. It's like if Daughter’s Not To Disappear was more punk, lol. sort of.

The album itself is also just insanely aesthetic??? Like??? My favourites as of now are Your Wave Caresses Me, Bird’s Song, and Phobia. Something cool that I haven't seen done before is the inclusion of other ambient sounds such as cars, rain, and chirping birds. It almost creates a soundscape, which is super cool.

I decided to take a listen tonight because @sarahkelsiwrites falls asleep to YouTube videos and while I love me some Jeffree Star lip swatch videos (lmao), concentrating with such can prove to be difficult. This was nice to chill out to for a bit, and while I don't know if I’ll constantly listen to it, it’s excellent for when I need it! Support the band on their bandcamp, and buy the album for only 4 bucks! Or just commend them on how aesthetic all of this is because holy Fiji water.

Things to know: I’m tired. :) I’ve also been wracked with thoughts of school. So. Not fun.

How I felt: Not as good as I did earlier, but yanno, that’s okay, we’re going places.

Bad haiku to describe writing session: Going places is / Hard sometimes but it’s okay / ‘Cause at least you go

Rating of writing session out of 10 and why: like a 7.5! Not because it was bad or anything, but it’s the start of a chapter, you have some build up, etc.

On a scale from 1-10 my level of stoked-ness is: Still an 8 cuz I’m just living for the moment Lonan throws tea at someone.

Lyrics to describe writing session: You’re not her / Though I try to see you differently

--Ed Sheeran, Sunburn (You Need Me EP)

LOL cuz this writing session wasn't as good as the last.

GIF to describe writing session:

yes basically thanks for that Julian valensi nick casablancas

Excerpt:

how bout we bring on some savage foster dialogue since that happens every 25 years because boy is too much of a cinnamon roll:

“I’m just saying, maybe you should worry about correcting yourself before you go around correcting others. It could help deflate that ego of yours.”

ooooooohhhhh snaaaappp get it fostyyyyy

“You think you’re smart, but you’re not.”

ugh me

“You’re clueless and a dictator. You completely break the trust of the people who confide in you, and then get angry when their manufactured love can’t somehow fix you.”

ooooooh shnaaaaap crackle poppppppp

that’s actually the last sentence I wrote so I guess we’re done here.

I don't know how to outro this post. So. Hope you enjoyed reading. Outro.

--Rachel

[funnygirljournals]

July 6/7, 2019

It's literally changing from 11:59 to midnight as I write this. I'm on my way home from work. And I can't stop thinking about Kelly... She sent me a text early saying "I think I might fall asleep soon cuz it’s been a big day of day drinking but I just wanted to let u know how bummed I am that I’m not sleeping with u tonight. i would give anything in the world to cuddle with u and talk to u about how I feel tonight" and I just want to know how she feels about me... Because I know how I feel about her.

I love her.

i really do... I can't tell her that yet, but I do. I really really do. It's so hard to not say it. But I don't want to freak her out.

I love her... Wow.

She makes me feel like the most special, the most beautiful, smartest girl in the entire world... She's everything I never knew that I wanted... Wow...

I hope she feels the same... I hope she knows that she's the most special, most wonderful, most beautiful girl in the world to me. Wow...

We're going to an art gallery show thingy on Tuesday. Which will be exactly a month after we started talking on tinder. Thursday will be exactly one month since we met face to face. It feels both like years and like 1 day... It's very odd. Also, we are going to talk about our feelings for each other and I think we might actually become partners on Tuesday. Or talk about it at least. I think it's time.... Also, Channell was literally reading our astrology for filth and how we are so compatible that it made me say fuck an open relationship. I don't want anyone else in the world except Kelly. Which is so weird and new.... But it's true. I just want her and no one else.

I hate that my mind keeps comparing her to Al (who is now Oliver.) But the difference is astonishing. I don't even know how Al and I stayed together as long as we did. They never communicated to me about anything. Kelly and I have talked about our traumas. We've talked about our parents. We've talked about sex. We've talked about everything and even if we haven't just knowing she would talk to be about anything is far far far better than Al just shutting down. After we broke up I realized I knew almost nothing about them. Literally nothing. I knew nothing about their trauma, or why they hated their parents or anything. I asked but I would never press because if they didn't want to talk about it they would just shut down anyways.

I'm happy for Al. I really am. I guess I should call him Oliver now. He was Al the entire time I knew him though... So it's very confusing for me to know what to call him. If we were still friends of course I would call him Oliver, but since I'm just referring back in time to a time when he went by am I feel like it's okay for me to refer to him as Al??? Idk I feel bad....

Anyways... Everything else has been okay. Work's okay. Rehearsals okay. I'm doing good. I had a day last week where I really really wanted to off myself, but I'm okay. Sometimes I just have those days. And idk. Maybe one of those days will be the last day for me, but for now I'm still here. I'm okay. And that's about it. Everything is good.

[unknowncreture-blog]

Hi there, it’s me Unknown, and I’m going to tell all of you one of my paranormal experiences which in my own prescetive I find it the most terrifying experiences I ever had , not because it’s a demon, but it’s because it might not be a demon but an actual human being, I have went thru many paranormal experiences since I was I think 3 or 2 I don’t remember,but I seen demons and 3 ghost so far in my life, but this one in particular didn’t just stand there it made noise and spoke.

So little background about my house.....well I can’t find any background about the house I live in really, every time I try to search up background for the house I live in I find nothing ,nada, anyway from all the past houses I’ve lived in this one is the one I experienced the most, demons,satan figure,ghost, and possessed doll, also once I moved here I kinda changed over the time to a whole different person, also I started to suffer from insomnia but recently it’s been going away, also started to suffer from depression and anxiety, because of this specific experience I can’t sleep in my room anymore I share a room with my sister room now and someone else lives there, but there barely in the room I don’t know why.

Okay so straight to the story, before we get there this is how my room format pretty much is:

(It’s smaller tho like my room is the smallest from the whole house and my little sister has the 2nd biggest room in house -_-)

Okay the window is important.

So it stated last year (Ik so long but hear me out) last week of 8th grade my insomnia wasn’t leaving me alone I couldn’t sleep so I grabbed my iPod, and checked the time and it was midnight almost 1am since it was an iPod I grabbed my charger just including it would die soon, so I would be able to call the police just Incase something happens (okay okay I’m supper paranoid sometimes but you can’t blame me! I live in a dangerous neighborhood! Literally a teenager was shot I think two days ago or yesterday and the day before a little kid was murdered!) and then I heard the noise of something being dragged across the floor like a bag or bare feet running on concrete floor, I didn’t think much of it at first, I thought it was a bag being dragged across the floor because of the wind so I ignore and eventually fell asleep.

Okay night 2.

The next night again I couldn’t sleep due to my stupid insomnia, and I looked at the time and it was 2am this time and I heard the noise agian and I was thinking “damn what the fuck this agian, what if it isn’t a bag? Oh shut up it is! But what if it isn’t? What if it’s someone outside, walking around to wait until you sleep to stare at you? Ay! Stop it your getting me scared! But what if? Shush!” Then I heard it really close to my window and heavy breathing. I kept convincing myself it was only my brain trying to get myself paranoid so I ignored and fell asleep.

3rd night

Then the next night around midnight I head it all over again but running around in circles outside my window then stop in front of my window and heavy breathe I ignored until I heard something like a stick being dragged around my windows net and I got scared and got under the blankets and I heard it go away, then eventually I got out of my covers then I heard it agian so I went under my blankets, this kept on going on for a long time until around 2:30am I got out of hiding for a long time by convincing myself it’s my brain when I heard it come back and knock on my window I REPET KNOCK ON MY WINDOW AND NOT JUST THAT THEN IT SLID ITS HAND ACROSS MY WINDOW TO MAKE THE SCREECHING NOISE and it wouldn’t stop taping and knocking. I was having a panic attack I couldn’t breathe I was shaking and crying silently hoping not to make a noise and it wouldn’t stop so I went running to my parents room and they put holy water all over my room for the 2nd? 3rd time? and it didn’t come back....well that’s what I thought.

Few months ago I heard the tapping more and more often, I ignored it because I knew it’s trying to scare me so I ignored it obviously. Then one night I heard someone voice, a little girls voices, she asked “hello, is anyone there?” I ignored and eventually fell asleep and once I woke up I told my mom about and got my room put holy water everywhere for the 8th time. (Yes 8th because more stuff happened) Then few weeks later I went to visit my grandparents and attended a funeral of one of my uncles who sadly died I think due to cancer. The last day night I was going to be there I had a dream, once I woke up from the dream I wrote it on my notes so here yah go: I got a text message from an unknown number. They told me stuff when they asked me that they know me personally and that I will die if I don’t fallow 3things or else he will come to my house and kill me. I left him an read. Then bts started to get harassed a lot by one dude I remember he said he will hurt the ones that helped me mentally with personal issues(Yes bts don’t judge we have the rights to have different opinions so you have the right to not like em but that doesn’t mean you have to judge others for liking them). Also I was afraid to go to school because I though he would be there to grab me. Then he came to my door and was pounding on the door trying to open us and he yelled I know you in the house and I know u can hear me open the damn dooor!!! And I just ignored it as much as I could when I remembered I left my window open and he saw it and cut threw the net and he reached his hand inside with a knife and he got my leg and he cut part of it off and I tried to run away when he got my body and catches me. I kept thinking if maybe that someone unknown knew where I lived and he has been the one tapping at my window and that’s why the holy water doesn’t stop it. Then I woke up to pounding anxiety and knocking uncontrollably at a door I don’t know where and then it stopped, at the time and I felt a strong presence of something that isn’t human. So yeah that was night horrible nightmare. Then when I came back to the place I live I locked my window instantly cuz I was paranoid, I heard noises threw out the night when I heard something trying to unlock it and something on my bed I moved and it stopped, eventually I fell asleep. Once I woke up I checked the lock and it was slightly moved, I re locked it my mom thought I was just to paranoid and to leave it I explain the reason why and she told me it’s because of my “phone” and I said no mom it’s not and I explain how we eventually came to conclusion than it’s my brain tricking me. Weeks later there was more tapping and I ignored them my cousin came over and we heard knocking at the window and we checked and I saw my sister outside with an odd smile and she open my door of my room in the same time as my sister from outside the window ran away, I got scared I was like wwait no how? What? I eventually got over it. Then weeks later I was walking to my room to go to sleep since everyone was already in there rooms getting ready also when I heard knocking on my window and a male voice yelling “hey I know your in there (my name) open up! I know your there so open!!” I ran to my sisters room faster then I can ever run before like in a second crying, after having my mental breakdown I told my parents and I didn’t sleep in my room for months then I went back there and heard knocking, eventually I moved into my sisters room, since then I never heard about than again, but till this day I have no idea what that is and what would of happened if I stayed in my room than night I heard the male voice and open the window to find out. Was it a stalker? Will it leave me alone? Was it human? Was it not human? Will it come after me? I don’t know

[lpdwillwrite4coffee]

Awww yiiissssss, get to know me memes are the best!

I was tagged by @kteague cuz my girl knows what’s up (I love this shit, I can’t help it).

I’m gonna go with @asnowballschance @priya212 @cemeterydreamer @asocialfauxpas @purelyfueledbycaffeine But no pressure! Under the cut for obvious reasons.

Rules: you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 whoever you’d like!!

The Last …

1. drink: coffee

2. phone call: real estate agent (I’m such an adult haha)

3. text message:  friend telling me she has poison ivy

4. song you listened to: Bellbottoms by the Jon Spencer Blues Explosion. I got back from seeing Baby Driver and immediately needed the soundtrack in my life.

5. time you cried:  A couple days ago. I was super overwhelmed with life ~stuff and just needed to cry it out.

Have you ever …

6. dated someone twice: No but I’ve thought about it.

7. kissed someone and regretted it: YES. Ugh.... Several. (feel free to ask for details on those train wrecks haha)

8. been cheated on: Not that I’m aware of...

9. lost someone special:  Oh yes.

10. been depressed: Yes, been on medication for it and then off meds. I was incorrectly diagnosed with clinical depression when it was situational and because of my own past traumas and emotional abuse.

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: Yes, I just can’t remember how many times... 2? 3? I think?

Favorite Colors…

12. Cobalt blue

13. Rich, royal purple

14. Emerald green

In The Last Year Have You…

15. made new friends: Yes!! IRL and online (y’all know who you are, and if you don’t I’ll come tell you)

16. fallen out of love: It’s been a couple years since I’ve *been* in love.

17. laughed until you cried:  So many times.

18. found out someone was talking about you: In a negative way, yep, and it sucked. I thought we were friends... In a positive way? I think so! Well, found out people were happy about what I was doing and my work. So that’s been super lovely!!

19. met someone who changed you:  Definitely.

20. found out who your friends are:  Yeah, some friendships have fallen apart or been tested. That’s never fun.

21. kissed someone on your facebook list:  Yes

General

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life:  Most? I tend to accept friend requests from people I don’t *know* but have lots of mutuals with and I’m sure we’ve run into each other or run in the same circles. So like, 85%?

23. do you have any pets:  MY LIGHT OF MY LIFE, MY DOG ODIN. HE’S THE BEST AND I WILL SCREAM ABOUT HIM FOR DAYS IF YOU LET ME.

24. do you want to change your name: Ahaha, I’ve already changed my name. I used to go by my middle name and then started going by my first when I changed schools. I’ve changed my last name too. I’d make a mediocre spy.

25. what did you do for your last birthday: On my actual birthday, I got lunch with friends out and then had dinner made for me by other friends/my surrogate family (they made me steak) And then that weekend I went out for drinks with friends and my favorite bar tender bought me a round and gave me the special pint glass. It was a great birthday week.

26. what time did you wake up: 5:45.... uggghhh.

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: I was surprisingly asleep! Good job adulting Lauren, you went to bed on time.

28. name something you can’t wait for: I’m stealing one of my answers from K- The Punisher series! Also, moving to MA, finishing my second book, getting a new house, and currently I can’t wait for my second cup of coffee.

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: September I think........... Yeah, that sounds right.

31. what are you listening to right now: My co-worker’s FB messenger going off...

32. have you ever talked to a person named Tom:  I... think so? Sure. I’m sure I have. 

33. something that is getting on your nerves: My co-worker’s FB messenger going off!!! (Vibrate is a setting. USE IT.)

34. most visited website:  Tumblr, Pinterest, and Gmail.

35. hair color: Strawberry blonde/ red, and currently with purple, copper, and bright red highlights. 

36. long or short hair: Short, asymmetrical cut. I used to have long mermaid hair and chopped it all off. Showering takes WAY less time now haha.

37. do you have a crush on someone: I had a crush on an old co-worker, but I left and haven’t seen him in so long that it’s faded. Celebrity crushes? YO HOW MUCH TIME DO YOU HAVE??

38. what do you like about yourself:  I’d like to think I’m funny but Idek lol. I’m creative and passionate. I’m a good friend to people. I’m really proud of my empathy and compassion, especially in a world that tells you not to be. I’m also not to be fucked with, and I like that about myself. I like that I can fit into different groups, chill with different kinds of people, and no one can put labels on me because I don’t fit any mold at all. 

39. piercings:  Hold on lemme count... 11!

40. blood type: SHit, I should probably know this about myself... O.... Positive? Negative? I’m an O, I know that much! (bad job adulting Lauren. Bad job)

41. nickname: I don’t really have a nickname... Not that I’m aware of anyway. I’m not opposed to one! But my names don’t really make for good nickname material haha.

42. relationship status: single, and TOTALLY fine with that. Ya girl is too busy for that relationship stuff right now.

43. zodiac: Scorpio

44. pronouns: She/her

45. favorite tv show: Listen, stop trying to make me pick between my children I love them all equally okay?

46. tattoos: I have to count again, hold on.... 8!

47. right or left handed: right-handed

48. surgery: A few times. 4 maybe?

49. piercing:  see above.

50. sport: That I played? Volleyball (very poorly I might add). That I watch? Baseball. The only sport I give 2 shits about is baseball. And maybe rugby if it’s on and I like the team.

51. vacation:  I have a girls weekend planned for the end of this month. My last true vacation was to Beaufort with @asnowballschance and then up to North Adams, MA to visit a friend who had moved. Man I’ve traveled a lot this year...

52. pair of trainers: I have one pair of true “trainers”. The rest are like Converse sneakers or slip ons that can’t be used for actual physical activity, they just make me look sporty haha.

More General

53. eating: Home made trail mix for breakfast 

54. drinking:  Water... and more coffee

55. i’m about to: email my realtor, refill my water bottle, and start writing. I have a Camp NaNo word count to get to.

56. waiting for: NEWS ABOUT THE PUNISHER. GIVE IT YOU ANIMALS. Also waiting for the caffeine to kick in....

57. want: to find a house in my price range that DOESN’T need serious remodels. Seriously, I’m not Bob Villa. Let it be move in ready or close to it please and thank you.

58. get married: Yes! Absolutely! But the dude has to show up first... haha

59. career: Writer/author. I mean, I work an office job to pay the bills but that’s not my career. 

60. hugs or kisses: Both? plz love me.

61. lips or eyes: Eyes! I’m so enamored with people’s eyes- the color, the shape, the way they show emotion, the way they change in the light. I love it. 

62. shorter or taller: Taller? I’m 5′8 almost 5′9 so sometimes that’s hard to find...

63. older or younger: Older. I have the hardest time finding anyone my age who is compatible.

64. nice arms or nice stomach: Arrrrmmmmmssss. Not jacked. Just strong. Broad shoulders and a wide, strong chest makes me WEAK

65. hook up or relationship: Both, depending on my mood. I’m currently hooking up with a couple people, but I’m so not wanting to date.

66. troublemaker or hesitant: Hahahahha, I’m called the human embodiment of the grinning Devil emoji for a reason.

67. kissed a stranger: Yes. It was..........

68. drank hard liquor: Lord help me yes. 

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: My glasses are my everything. I’m so blind without them it’s awful. I never take them off. 

70. turned someone down:  Many times. I’m a picky girl.

71. sex on the first date: Sure, I’ve done it before. Worked out fine!

72. broken someone’s heart: Yeahh... It sucked at the time but it was necessary. 

73. had your heart broken:  Yes, in more ways than one.

74. been arrested: No, but I’ve been yelled at by the Coast Guard. That was fun.

75. cried when someone died: Of course!

76. fallen for a friend: Yes.

Do You Believe In …

77. yourself:  Yes! Most of the time. Okay, like 67% of the time. 

78. miracles: Yes, but probably not in the way you’re thinking.

79. love at first sight: Maybe? I’ve never experienced it myself though.

80. santa claus: I used to! Now I believe in the spirit of Christmas/ Holidays that make people want to keep the idea of him alive for children. It’s a precious concept and tradition.

81. kiss on the first date: Sure, if it feels right. Life’s too short. Kiss the person you wanna touch faces with.

82. angels: Yes, but again, not the way you probably think

Other

83. current best friends’ names: *EXTREME KRIS JENNER VOICE* I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS

84. eye color: Blue green

85. favorite movie: PSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHH look you’ve made it to the end of this list do you really think I’m able to pick just one??? 

[akrbinc]

October 11, 2017

WAAAAZZUUP RBOM

Here's what happened in the last two weeks.

1. I watched Fight My Way in just one week. I watch every evening, before I sleep or before I study. I loved it.

2. I studied a lot last week because of my preboards. It was very productive.

3. I watched lots of movies with ze Buta Family. I'm becoming resilient to horror and action movies na yay.

4. I got my braces off na. People have been saying I look different and that, lol, I look prettier.

5. We had unli chicken last week and I was so happy hahahaha.

6. The weekend before unli chicken, I was so sick. I felt it already in the morning. Like, when I scrubbed myself I was so sensitive, and my skin was hot inside. I was Abit dizzy but bearable. I didn't eat much, and I fell asleep twice in the afternoon. In the evening, I had the worst nausea I've ever had. My head kept thumping and ringing, closing my eyes only made myself slightly better. I vomitted so much that I actually lost count. I also had diarrhea. Mom insisted imthat I be brought to the ER already, but I didn't want. Around after midnight, I vomitted again. My insides felt like it was vacuumed and twisted. I was coughing out my saliva and I kept exhaling while I struggled. Before I finally fell asleep, I had lots of menthol around my head and chest and stomach. The next two days, I recovered slowly, but i ate only so little and drank two liters of Pocari Sweat.

7. Yesterday at Gym, I found that I lost almost 10 kg. Okay, okay.

8. I bought a new lipstick and two eyeliners from miniso. I might be broke when I adult ha ha ha ha.

9. As of today, I only have 18 days left.

10. We also had BBQ for a birthday party. It was fuuuun

11. We had the spicy noodles challenge and it was hilarious.

12. I was a school yesterday, and I met lots of people. Most of them, to my surprise, were surprised to see me. (Because seriously I'm just the side character and my kouhai prolly don't know me ) But when I went to see my old classmates, they were shookt that they almost fell off the table at the library. I was also shookt from their shooktness like, I took a step back or something. I came to school with my regular skirt uniform, and wore my heels. I felt good too, because my hair was nice and soft then, and I had my red lippie. Anyway, I just went to say hello , and I asked them how they were. Later on, I saw my other irregular classmates in the distance looking at me (and I won't lie cuz I was happy because haha), so I went to see them and my age said I looked nice and not stressed unlike them. I was also told that I smelled nice. UUUUUGGHH YAAASS. Anyway after that I met you with other peeps, and they kept telling me how they miss me. I don't know, I felt really loved? Like they kept thanking me for having the time to come in and I was like it's nothing? It felt nice, you know.

13. Okay, so kuyas friend didn't recognize me in a pic until my bro said so and he was HAA!? she looks so pretty in the picture, and then Kuya was rambling at me asking if I was going through adolescence and why is it late and I'm like HAHAHAHA LATE BLOOMER DUUHH

14. I'm saving up for my concert but I can't decide where to sit because I saved up enough for the second best, but I can push for the best , but then I can go for the third best too but it comes out in two days and I don't know what to buy huhuhuhu

15. Honestly, I'm freaking and depressing over my board exam

16. Okay SSSHH I'm watching Kill me Heal me for like, two days now.

17. Before I watched Fight my way I rewatched She was Pretty hehehe

18. I'm starting to like Park Soo Jeun Hahahaha He's so cute and light and his characters are always on point hehe. Also , he had fluffy curly hair and he dressers so handsomely

19. I want to dress up like Koreans HEHEHE

20. I bought John Green's new book today and I don't know if I should read it or keep watching. I think I'll read it after my exam so I have something to do?

21. I need to study huhuhuhu