#also the fact he scoffs at vox for loving alastor....

[isforever]

BECAUSE INSIDE!!!!!!!! DEEPLY INSIDE!!! HE DOESN'T WANT TO BE FEARED! HE WANTS TO BE LOVED! BUT!!!!! he never was. he never will be. he were be feared and revered. fuck love. it never was meant for him. and so he rejects it. he scoffs at it. and he sees weakness in vox because he fucking loved alastor. they both paid dearly for his stupid fucking love. he's seen his own weakness in loving those who hurt him. it was long ago, and his deepest held secret. no. love is to die. to be feared is to be eternal.