#also thank you for knowing i wanted it to be about sentitwins without me needing to say i wanted it to be about sentitwins

[bittersweetresilience]

Felix timeloop fic where Adrien keeps dying and Felix can’t fix it no matter how hard he tries. Time loops at sunset and Adrien dies just before it, Felix standing over his twin’s dead body, disbelieving, horrified, for only a few moments before he’s back to that morning. Felix spends the whole day trying to find a way to stop it, the consequences to important for him to simply dismiss the whole thing as a dream. Adrien dies again. And again, and again. Felix tries; tries to keep Adrien away from whatever kills him, tries to figure out the loop, looks into the snake and the bunny and whatever other time magic he knows of and nothing works.

One time he stops and does nothing. It loops again. One time he steels himself, knowing it’s worth it, and throws himself in the way of the metaphorical bullet to save Adrien. Death comes shortly before the same damn morning. One time he thinks he’s figured it out. It’s Chat Noir that dies that time, not Adrien, and he’d feel awful if he didn’t feel relieved. Except dawns the day, dawns the seed of a revelation that churns his gut when he finally acknowledges it.

Only after a month and a half of this, watching his twin die over and over again, desperation and grief clawing at his throat each time, does Felix consider using the Peacock. Consider using the rings. He manages to get his hands on them, stands there as the sun paints the sky red and gold, and takes control. Gives his orders. Adrien lives. The sun sets.

It’s the morning again. And Felix finally breaks.

(One time, they talk. It’s loop 24, only some loops after Chat Noir’s identity stops being a novelty to him. He doesn’t remember how the talk even came to be, too focused as he was on the other details. It must have been Adrien who initiated it, who saw the grief that was getting harder each day to keep in, and decided that it must be shared. They talk, that day, of inconsequential things like theatre and books. Felix doesn’t say what’s truly wrong. Adrien doesn’t ask. They haven’t talked much in a while, and habits are had to break. When Adrien walks to his death that day, Felix wonders if anything would have changed if they did. He forgets about it in the morning.)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!?!??!!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!

WHO SENT ME THIS PLEASE IDENTIFY YOURSELF I JUST WANT TO TALK I'M FRIENDLY I PROMISE

i honestly can't even imagine how torturous the loops must be to drive félix to wield the instrument of his own abuse against his twin. but your imagery 😭😭😭 you're killing me. red like lune rouge, like his mistakes, washing over the gold of his nature... and IT'S STILL THE WRONG CHOICE. no matter what he does he can't save the person whom he loves the most, not in a way that matters. then what can he do? then why is he still here? 😭😭😭😭😭

i imagine félix really would try everything except what he actually needs 😔 from avoiding disaster to preventing it to bringing it on himself... running away together... adrien doesn't understand that félix just wants to keep him safe. would they fight about it? would adrien recognize the desperation, félix's and his the same? i'm sure he'd tell adrien something was going to happen to him. but how many times it had already happened? it's not in his nature to communicate.

GOD YOUR LAST PARAGRAPH YOU'RE ACTUALLY KILLING ME

i think the funniest thing would be if he actually finally did that great healthy time loop ending thing of talking about your problems and learning to accept help from others and it still ended up the same. then, like, two catatonic loops later, it gets fixed without him doing anything and it turns out it was just an akuma or a glitch in the time stream. LMFAO fuck him up why don't we 💘💘💘