#also stan not revealing how bad his homeless years got during tots still gets to me

[nenoname]

me: im soooooo normal

also me: do you ever think about how the doors to the mystery shack's living room and the lab are literally side by side. one door leading to the place where stan feels so at home that he chooses it to be where he sacrifices his mind. the room he transformed from a cluttered mess of a brother trapped in a horror story to a cozy home where his odd found family constantly gathers to. a home where he lost himself in and then was found again by those he loved.

the other door leading to the worst mistake in his life, to the only thing he believed that was capable of redeeming him, of proving that he could be loved again, his self-imposed prison he entered every night for his sisyphean duty, the place where his hopes were crushed again and again and again, where he was told he was trusted, where he spilled so many of his buried secrets to a betrayed family, the bittersweet feeling when the first time in decades he didn't ever have to return to that place--