#also soulsilver is baby i’ll update u guys when i have my little zubat following me around. my future crobat 🥺😭💖💖💖

[daisychainsandbowties]

🥺 i started pokemon soulsilver again today & it just hit me out of nowhere how growing up i used to always pick literally any name aside from my own because i hated when i’d see it on the screen. but now without hesitation when that keyboard and the little flashing cursor and the _ _ _ _ _ _ blank space for a name appears i reach for my real name without hesitation.

that’s one of the ways i figured out that this was the right name for me. i wrote it in the crook of my elbow with a blue ballpoint pen every day and i also played pokemon with the game calling me casper over & over & every repetiton was like being pulled out of the fire it was like the kind of kiss that happens so fast it leaves you blinking, craving, swaying onto your heels. it’s just one of those things that makes me feel so unexpectedly seen, now - the way i type out my name when i’m asked for it without thinking, because i finally have one that doesn’t hurt to hear