#also sorry i think youre referring to my post that says he isnt even the 5th most interesting in a show w 5 mcs? correct me if im wrong

[claudiablogger]

youre absolutely right btw. Im tired of Daniel and Im tired of these fans obsession with whiteness. Would stan a fencepost if it was white indeed and considering theyve invented a brand new personality for him to fit into their headcanons and dumbass dm fics so they dont even like him as presented either 😭

screamm literally the worst part is i (show enjoyer who happens to have read iwtv only) love the premise of dm their hunger their jealousy their t4t slay. the version presented by most lovers however that involves armand haplessly pathetically in love w him and sticking by louis for no greater causes than convenience and cost benefit analytical rationality while daniel's the secret love of his life is soooo ldpdl voice BORING you are so Boring dull nights dull weeks dull months dull as fuck !!!! armand doesn't need daniel in fact it's kind of sexy how he inadvertently engineered daniel wrecking his life and he had to first hurt him then kill him to get back at louis bc he presented himself to louis as the anti lestat and his form of punishment hence must involve guilt tripping and blame and the threat of violence knocking on their door like an intruder like it isn't armand's hand raised on full purpose. anyway i started talking abt armands evilness and got sidetracked sorry i also hate how everyone makes daniel submissive to armand against his will or w/e like in thrall to his maker. like ok we already got that guess yr just antiblack and stupid ! plus as if it isn't his vileness in part at least for which louis loves daniel <3 not only is he a masochist louis is also FUNNY <3 and they banterrrr. danlou fucked once in daniels bed after he was turned give each other weekly mental health updates he told me himself. who said guys and girls can't be friends

[luvseisagi]

— flowers for you.

ft. nagi seishiro x reader wc. 2.4k

summary. romance with your boyfriend doesn’t need to be grand —sometimes it’s just a flower field in minecraft and a cozy evening together. content. gn!reader, no pronouns used but reader is referred as mom once (as a joke theyre not a parent). fluff, fluff, fluff!! crack (i tried), stablished relationship, nagi might be ooc, also he has a secret villager farm underground... author's note. im not used to write fluff so i hope this is good, tried to make it as cute as possible - just like nagi is :(( also, inspired by a tweet i posted a few days ago (in the header !!)..

𝜗𝜚 english isnt my first language, so any corrections or advice are highly appreciated, as well as feedback (please) ! enjoyy

you wake up to a soft buzzing sound. 

the fluffy blankets covering your body wrap you in a very comfortable warm, and the pile of plushies under your head, serving as your pillow, adapt to your movement when you change positions and end up facing the other side of the bed. 

where you expected to feel an arm, a leg, or a wide back to hug, however, you find nothing but more fluffiness and softness. 

still half-asleep, you open one eye, frowning. in the place where your boyfriend should be, there’s nothing but the huge stuffed seal he won for you at the last spring fair. 

a soft chuckle escapes your lips as you move again, stretching your arms above your head and then yawning. you are more awake now, but you stay in bed, adjusting your position next to the stuffed animal —you wrap your arms around it, and rest your chin over the seal’s head.

the room is dark, illuminated only by the dim light of the monitor. the only sounds you can hear, apart from your breath, are the clicking of the mouse and the keyboard keys being pressed. there’s also the buzzing that woke you up, coming from your boyfriend’s pc —he’s sitting in front of his setup, fully concentrated on the screen.

“you awake?” he asks, whispering in case you’re still sleeping. he doesn’t look at you, his greenish-gray eyes focused on the game his playing.

“mhm.”

you stay in the same position, small smile in your face. you have a perfect view of your boyfriend from there —the white, disheveled strands of his hair slightly toned by the blueish light of the screen. his bangs cover his forehead, some of them so long they brush the tip of his nose. his eyes look tired, as they always do, but his big grey pupils seem concentrated on whatever he’s playing. you can distinguish some traces of green that appear on his eyes only when he is excited, or planning something.

“i put shiro next to you when i left the bed” he says suddenly, taking you out of the trance you were in while looking at him “in case you felt lonely. i didn’t want to wake you up.”

a warm sensation grows inside your chest, slowly spreading throughout your whole body. you can't contain the smile that appears on your face, nor the cuteness aggression that hits you when imagining nagi taking shiro, the stuffed seal, and tucking him under the blankets at your side.

you hug it tighter.

“so” you start, giving your full attention to your boyfriend. he’s wearing a white shirt with some silly illustration on the front, his toned arms practically still, since he is only moving his hands and fingers to use the keyboard and the mouse “what are you playing?” 

he moves his gaming chair a little to the right, giving you space to see his monitor. on the screen, there’s a geometric world you know very well. 

your voice sounds indignant when you exclaim —“sei! you’re playing minecraft without me?” 

you can’t get angry at him, though. especially not when lets out a soft laugh, finally looking at you, puppy eyes asking for forgiveness. you are so cute when you pout, he thinks.

“you’d have complained if i woke you up from the nap” he says, instead. he doesn’t sound very sorry, an innocent grin on his face “you wanna see me play, tho?” 

still pouting, you nod. however, the screen isn’t positioned well for you to see it without nagi having to move constantly, and he wouldn’t be able to play like that.

he solves that rather quickly. before letting you move, or change your position to see better, he stands up and takes your laptop from the side table beside his bed. he’s then sitting on it, taking the place shiro was filling before.

“hey!” you exclaim, moving shiro to your side so he doesn't get crushed by the weight of your boyfriend “be careful. this is our child.” 

nagi laughs again, as softly as he is, and pats cutely the stuffed seal’s head.

“sure, sure, im sorry, kid.” he apologizes to shiro, while he’s waiting for his laptop to turn on “it seems like mom really found my replacement.” 

then he points to you arms, still hugging the stuffed animal tightly. you let out a sigh and roll your eyes in mock exasperation, but you can’t hide the smile creeping up on your face. nagi’s too cute even when he’s acting all dramatic.

you stretch your arm, your hand finding his over the keyboard of the laptop, and it doesn’t take even a second for him to intertwine his fingers with yours.

“nope. no replacements. shiro’s fluffy, but not as comfortable to sleep on like you are.” 

nagi rises his eyebrows, fake indignation in his voice.

“oh, so i’m just a pillow for you?” 

you nod.

“white and soft.” you state, solemnly “and warm, too.” 

he lets out a short chuckle, but his attention is back on the screen of your laptop. half distracted, looking for an specific app in the desktop, nagi tightens his grip on the hand you gave him before, and he brings it to his lips. then, he places a peck in your knuckles.

you feel your whole body melt by that delicate, intimate gesture. and you wish you could kiss him back, but you’re too comfortable lying on the bed to sit up and reach him, so you settle for caressing his fingers with the tips of yours.

“here.” 

nagi gets up, and you look up at him. you’re so used to seeing him sitting in front of his set up, or laying on the bed with you, you sometimes forget how tall he really is. so tall it makes you sigh. 

you’re so down bad it could drive you insane.

“i’ll stream my screen now” he says, walking to his desk and sitting on the gaming chair again. “so you can watch me play.”

the bed feels now colder without him, empty, but you move shiro to the place nagi just left to fill it. and just behind it lies your laptop, discord open on the screen —he just called himself so that he could stream the game to you.

your boyfriend’s not looking at you now, but you pout again, heart warm as you look at him. he does this frequently —small cute gestures, acts of service, anything to help you be comfortable at all times. 

nagi’s always had the reputation of being lazy, of not liking to make any effort, but that is a lie. sure, he might not be very passionate for things he isn’t interested in, but you know he would do anything for your comfort —maybe not with physical things, but he loves spoiling you.

he is very spoiled too, of course, but that’s fine for you since you love making little gestures for him too —cooking him lunch, playing with his hair, reading the mangas he likes, or hugging him in your naps or whenever you slept together.

that’s why, in your opinion, you work so good together as a couple —you do for him what you’d like him to do for you, and vice versa. you just had the luck to find someone with the same interests and needs as you. in this case, in form of a very tall, very handsome and very cute white haired video game and napping geek.

“yn, are you watching?” 

his voice startles you. you had been staring so focused at him that you had completely forgotten the stream on your laptop.

“oh, sure i am.” you say, your head immediately turning to the screen in front of you again “you are… why are you in my house?” 

he lets out a giggle. in the game, as you can see from his pov in the stream, he’s in front of a little house next to a lake.

“don’t you dare setting it on fire again, sei!” you complain, scared of his next actions “i got lost so many times looking for the same wood i used when i built it the first time, i’ll kill you if you destroy it again.”

he then sets the pov in third person, and starts moving in front of your house with a bucket full of lava on his hand, teasing you. that makes you complain again, this time louder —which seems funny to him, since he can’t stop laughing now.

“actually, i’m the one who went to collect the trees the ‘i-need-it-to-be-this-exact-wood’ princess wanted” nagi refutes, smiling.

“ah, still, i see that lava in your hands” you raise an eyebrow “don’t you dare doing nothing you might regret later, nagi seishiro. i know about your secret places.” 

“oh? which secret places?” 

you scoff, grinning.

“did you know that keeping villagers locked underground so they can breed and sell you things is an illegal activity and should be punished by freeing them when you’re not online?”

nagi gulps, and your grin gets wider, knowing well that you won this one when he changes the lava bucket on his hand for a cooked potato.

you usually play together in the same server, since it’s the only game where you don’t end up insulting other people online. you’ve been building your cooperative world for weeks now —he would mine materials and build farms, and you would constantly build and rebuild your house, because he loved to burn it down when you weren't on the server just to watch you pout when you complained after discovering it.

you got distracted by looking at him again until his voice broke the silence of clicks and pressing keys.

“come on, yn, look at the screen now.” 

“i swear, if you are trying to find more creative ways to destroy my- oh.”

instead of half a burnt edifice, you see your same little house from nagi’s point of view. he then sets the stream to third person pov again, surprising you with a very pretty scenery.

in front of the porch of the wood-made building, there is a wide variety of all kinds of planted flowers. it is like a colorful blanket under the sky, now growing darker, tinted by tones of blue, pink and lilac.

“sei.” you pout “this is so cute.”

you move your gaze up to him, who is already looking at you. he smiles.

“i might not be howl, or have a moving castle, but i can gift you a flower garden anyway.” 

that leaves you speechless for a bit. you aren’t the type to cry very easily, but you swear you could start sobbing for how cute he is. 

for how good his love is.

“i think that’s the most romantic thing you’ve ever done for me.” is the only thing you can say, and think of, as you move the laptop and shiro from one side of the bed to another. 

“yeah?” he asks, looking at you as you get up and walk to him “even more romantic than sacrificing myself for your sake in among us?”

you nod, now standing in front of him, and he separates his chair from the desk to leave enough room for you to sit in his lap. you two fit so well like that —legs intertwined, his arm going automatically to your waist, your fingers to his hair. 

you place a peck on his cheek, and he lets out a cute pleased sound. 

“more.” he requests, like a baby.

that makes you smile again —he doesn’t need to say it twice.

his face is now covered by your kisses, and he giggles under your touch. his soft laugh reminds you, again and again, how lucky you are to have him —truly the love of your life, you’d say.

and he believes that too, as he watches you fixing your posture on his lap and facing the big monitor of his set up. he lets you take the controls, the mouse in your right hand and the w-a-s-d keys under your left fingers. 

although it’s his avatar in the game, he smiles softly as you run across the flower meadow he just planted for you. it’s night in the game already, and you need to kill some zombies and spiders, but you’re so cute when you’re playing he doesn’t mind that you’re wasting his enchanted bow’s life by shooting arrows that never hit their target.

he rests his cheek on top of your head, the height different making it easy for him to be comfortable like that. and you don’t complain, so he keeps watching you play —hands on your waist under his hoodie, the one you use as a pajamas whenever you stay at his house, lips and nose so close to your hair he gets lost in your scent. 

he loves you so much it could drive him insane.

nagi’s attention goes back to the screen the moment he sees you open a supposedly secret door. he frowns, but he says nothing, waiting for your next move.

and then you are right in front of his villager farm.

“wait, what are you doing?”

he can’t see your face from behind you, but he’s sure you’re grinning evilly. 

“keep calm, i’m just visiting your friends.” 

“i’m doing nothing wrong with them, yn.”

you scoff.

“oh, yeah, I’m sure the villagers love being trapped underground by you.”

nagi’s lips twist in a cute pout, his arms hugging you even tighter under your hoodie. you almost feel physically weak when he moves his head lower, his chin now on your shoulder, and he speaks softly.

“they are not trapped. they are…” his lips tickle your ear while he talks “i’m giving them the great opportunity to create a family and live from a worthy profession, as commerce is.”

you shake your head, not convinced by his answer.

“this is not the life they deserve, sei.” you say, your voice tinted by exaggerated empathy “and i’m gonna be their savior.” 

he’s about to laugh, but then he sees the inventory at the bottom of the screen. nagi raises his head, alarmed. 

“wait. wait, yn, what are you trying to do?”

your answer comes in a confident exclamation. —“im freeing these innocent people for being forced to procreate only for you to have any item you want!”

he extends his arm, in panic, and points to the lava bucket now in your hand.

“by burning them alive?!”

masterlist.

pls lmk what u think in the comments, reblogging, through messages, asks or wtv!! feedback is important to me in these first posts and i'd appreciate it a lot 🤲🏼

﹫luvseisagi, april 2025.

[gentaro-kinniecom]

༻Zipping up a dress/shirt trope (unit leaders + Wataru)༺

Characters: Madara Mikejima, Rei Sakuma, Wataru Hibiki, Keito Hasumi, Rinne Amagi, Shu Itsuki, Chiaki Morisawa, Nagisa Ran, Natsume Sakasaki and Eichi Tenshouin

Cw: suggestive, tbh just detailed backstories (in some cases) before the actual trope of the characters helping reader with their zipper, maybe ooc characters(?), wataru and rinne doing the opposite of this post, (long post 😭) Malice Mizer reference goes hard in Shu’s part 🤭, almost forgot to tag Natsume’s pet name for the reader (kitten) as a warning help-

A/n: hi guys! Sorry for the long break i had on tumblr 😭 kinda lost motivation to post but i’ll try to keep doing this throughout summer vacations now that i have time for it so..yeah! The making out + hcs posts will continue and there’s about 4 left ;i have also received some requests so stay tuned!! (Edit) I FORGOT WATARU ISNT A UNIT LEADER HELP MEEE i mean theres the Träumerei temporary unit in which he was the leader of but still 😭

"Hey babe, can you help me out with this zipper? I can't seem to reach it"

Madara Mikejima

One to always refuse taking you to his ‘missions’. Obviously, he knows some of these missions could cost his life, and taking you to one and for something to possibly happen to you, makes his heart shatter. But, tonight was his lucky day, your 2nd aniversary. Madara had booked a reservation in one of your favorite places. He entered the room with his usual smile, holding your waist before zipping your outfit, kissing your neck

“It looks good, though I think it’d look better on my floor”

Rei Sakuma

You were both running a tad early to one of his concerts in the city, but of course, getting there is all it matters. As soon as he heard you, he went to the other room of his dressing room, lets say a complementary room for it, but anyways; his smile was the highlight of your day, he didn’t mind helping you out, after all, Rei loved it when you trust him in simple things like this. When he finished, he quickly gave you a kiss before speaking

“I’ll always be here whenever you need me to”

Wataru Hibiki

He’s very helpful, well, at most times. He likes to be playful mostly when you need help, in cases were it wasn’t serious, but in this one, he simply smiled as he went towards you and started unzipping the dress

“Uh Wataru? I said i needed help with zipping it..not..the opposite..”

Wataru simply laughed and zipped it, letting you admire yourself for a bit as he wrapped his arms around you

“I couldn’t resist~! You’re just so perfect, I prefer seeing you without it. Your body is a masterpiece, I can’t help but admire it”

Keito Hasumi

He simply goes towards you and helps you out. He’s really not interested in anything else so your attempts to “seduce” him are not going to work so easily. Keito is a very reserved man and doesn’t get bothered at ‘insignificant things’, or does he? This time however, as he made his way towards you, your outfit caught him off guard, it was the one you had worn during your first date after being together for 3 years, he felt himself tear up as he looked at you

“You always look so beautiful in whatever you choose, even without it, your beauty never ceases to amaze me”

Rinne Amagi

Somewhat similar to Wataru’s except…well he’s Rinne, what do you expect? He had suggested a date for all his hard work with Crazy B and the tough week they’ve had, of course, he reserved a decent restaurant down the street, nothing too formal, but still enough to impress. While you were having trouble with the zipper of your clothes, he decided to approach you after your “cry for help” which was just a simple statement for assistance, as Rinne entered the room, he whistled, checking you out and hastily unzipping your outfit

“Rinne..! I said i needed help zipping it, not unzipping and taking it off my body..”

He all but chuckled as he turned you around

“Who said anything about going out? Actually, i might cancel or we do have a bit of time before it, no? I seriously cannot resist you a minute longer, c’mon~! Let’s have some fun, okay?”

Shu Itsuki

He’s used to helping you get into anything he crafts, whether its a dress or a shirt he made thinking about you, he’s used to helping you put your outfits on if they require assistance. This was one of those days where Shu had finished another beautiful creation of his and decided to lend you a hand, zipping it carefully and taking one look in the mirror as he saw you admire yourself once more

“It’s absolutely perfect, you’re perfect. I feel honored having you wear the artworks I’ve created for you..ma chérie”

Chiaki Morisawa

He’s so sweet and helps you even when you don’t require any assistance, he’s just like that. A charming and caring boyfriend like Chiaki always makes sure you’re well, in every aspect. So it’s not rare for him to help you always, this time, when he heard you, he was just around the corner, rushing softly to your shared room and smiling as he saw the outfit, it was one of his favorites. Chiaki placed his hands on your shoulders after helping you out and spoke

“Look! We match! Isn’t that cute? We should get going for our date before it gets late!”

Nagisa Ran

Used to formal attire that requires assistance, especially from their loving partner who Nagisa loves seeing them in such outfits; like today. Nagisa had a rather important event with Eden, and he was allowed to bring a plus one, like usual, and of course he always brings his partner to these. After hearing your call for assistance, Ran didn’t hesitate to go to your shared room, taking in the beautiful outfit you wore as he smiled brightly

“Of course my dear, anything you need me to do..I’ll help you. How about we go for dinner after the event? I’ll make sure to reserve us a nice table ahead”

Natsume Sakasaki

Even though he’s somewhat always focused on his potions and magic stuff, and his unit, Switch on top of that, Natsume cherishes every moment of your relationship to the max, although he would never admit that out loud that is. You’re his comfort zone, his one person to go to whenever he’s feeling down, happy, or anything out of the ordinary. However, it’s not usual for you to request his help, when he entered your room, his flirtatious persona became into a nervous one, the outfit you wore was absolutely stunning, accentuating your features and leaving him breathless. He tried keeping his calm and helped you, thats what he came for after all right?

“Natsume are you alright? You look a bit red..”

He smiled, nodding as he rested a hand on your waist, sighing happily before speaking

“Of course kitten, why wouldn’t I be? It’s nice to see you getting arranged for our date today”

Eichi Tenshouin

Being heir to a very prosperous family and head of the student council had its moments where Eichi was overloaded with tons of responsibility and work. Sometimes getting very sick due to his condition, and he’s glad to have met someone like you to complement his life so positivity. Events like family dinners or special events in general are usual to him, especially with helping you put on one of the many outfits he had bought you for dates or anniversary gifts, even birthday ones. Today was like those other days where you would have romantic dinners or went to an important event. Eichi smiled as he entered his room, watching you struggle a bit with the outfit he had bought you, without thinking twice, he approached you softly, his hands on your back, zipping the outfit slowly. After he was done, Eichi smiled, a genuine one for the first time in a while, as he spoke

“I’m glad to see you ready, shall we get going?”

[hakugreenfinch]

Ooh Mouthwashing discussion! It's so weird how the fandom went from hating Jimmy to hating Curly!! And the the weirdest thing of all to me- the people who go "well if Anya had just told Swansea about the assault and not Curly, Jimmy would've gotten his ass kicked!" And it's like... no? Part of the point of the game is that nobody would've done anything! Whether it's because they're the captain, too new, or just doesn't want to get involved, no one was going to help Anya. It's wild to me that people can villainize Curly and Jimmy but not Swansea.

ok so uh sorry anon this ask has been buried in my inbox for like to months ToT

but yeah the way especially among fresh new fans there seems to be a need to have a "good guy" and a "bad guy" has been kinda fascinating to me. im going to just ramble with some excellent posts from other people who i think have the biggest brains if you dont mind!

so i will never deny that i fell for most "first play" tricks, especially because the insane replay value is one of the games biggest charmpoint to me. i will also never deny that i first became interested in mouthwashing because i saw post-crash curly's design and ti amo started playing in my head i was hooked on his design immediately because hey what happened to this guy? does that not hurt him? however i will say that despite having been told "he deserves to burn in hell" i did avoid that one thing. i could not imagine anyone deserving to go through all that pain and abuse. so now planning my 9th run and looking back it is even more fascinating how far some people will go to demonize curly, ignoring every circumstance that he couldnt help and that stopped him from thinking rationally or doing what we think he should have done. its actually quite ironic, people censoring jimmy's name and refusing to see him as anything but an inhuman monster while doing the exact thing he did and blaming curly because "hes the captain".

now, about swansea. there is also an irony to how people want him to be a savior to anya and to untangle this we need to understand that the tulpar crew is not a group of friends, they are coworkers, two of whom happen to have been friends for a while. and because of this it is very important that anya asking curly for help wasnt an act of friendship but an employee reporting abuse to her boss. the irony here is that people are hard on curly because he is the captain and he should have done this or that while also saying anya should have asked the mechanic of the ship for help and not her superior. and then theres also the part where anya does in canon ask swansea for help, to which swansea very likely gives a negative response (anya is crying when we find them in the cockpit) and a month later gives jimmy the axe, not lifting a finger to help anyone until daisuke gets hurt.

and im glad you hint at daisuke also probably not being as willing to help as we want to think he would be because mhm! mhm! i think this is the point to say that i very dearly love all of these characters. their writing is brilliant and i wish they all got the help they needed with their problems. but trying to sort them into boxes of "good people" and "bad people" is ultimately a misunderstanding of what the game wants to say about human nature and morality. daisuke wouldnt have helped not because hes a bad person but because this isnt something he can or should deal with on his own. when your coworker is being weird to you, you dont go to the student doing dishes for $30 a week, you go to the manager.

all this to say, i dont think swansea (or daisuke) should be villanized, just like how curly should not be villanized. heck, i kinda dont like it when jimmy is referred to as a "villain" because that to me implies an intention and motive that he doesnt really have - but thats another tale for another day when i dont fear people reading things i dont mean into my words. my point here is that yeah, it is ignoring many aspects of who curly is as a person and swansea's complexities that make him one of the most brilliantly written characters ive ever seen. which is a shame, this story is supposed to be turning our gears and forcing us to make peace with our favourite characters making mistakes and hurting those around them and suffering the consequences.

[wing-dingy]

Remember when I said I wasn't gonna post fanfics? I lied. I'm gonna post just this one as an excuse to have some Johnshi in my life but also because its rare I write a fic that isnt a self indulgent oc fic

This is just a lil fic where Kenshi comforts Johnny after a stunt on set leaves him with an injured ankle, mostly cute banter. Also sorry if the formatting looks weird, i dont normally post fics to tumblr so idk how to space my paragraphs like I do on google docs.

Click. Step. Click. Step.

The Hollywood actor carried himself on his crutches across the room, from the door to his living room couch, where he saw Kenshi waiting in anticipation.

“Honey, I'm home,” Johnny announced in a parody of those old movies, how he loved his dumb movie references.

“Doesn't sound like good news. Are those crutches?” Kenshi asked, judging by the sound and the patterns of the sound. Though he usually relied on Sento for sight, he hardly ever felt the need to in a casual setting, so it rested in the mantle above the fireplace.

“Yeup. Doc says I'll need ‘em for a few weeks, a month at most.”

Kenshi crossed his arms and leaned back on the couch. “Was that stunt still worth it?”

Johnny snorted, “Totally, the shot came out perfect! You may not know this, but I do all of my own stunts. Impresses everybody when I tell them that!” He dropped a small paper bag of his prescribed painkillers on the coffee table and sat next to Kenshi, wincing as he lifted his ankle to rest it on the same table.

“Aren't stuntmen used so the real actors don't get hurt?”

“I mean- yeah. But don't worry, they're just gonna film everything else until I come back, which should be in no time. I'm just built different.”

Kenshi could just hear the cocky smile, causing him to shake his head in disbelief, but he couldn't hold back the small bit of laughter at Johnny’s pride and confidence. “Alright, but it looks like it's my turn to take care of you again.”

“Don't sweat it, Ken doll, I can take care of myself. You've already helped me enough, and you've got yourself to look after,” He noted all too seriously. Obviously there still rested some guilt in his heart over Mileena's rabid attack that day.

“That ankle needs to rest. That movie needs you and you need the money from it.” Undeniable. Johnny was still getting back on his feet (not literally now) after a messy and expensive divorce, he needed whatever work he could get at the moment. “You just let me know when you need something.”

Johnny sighed as he looked down at his injured ankle. These next few weeks were going to be the most boring while of his life.

Kenshi seemed to know Johnny wasn't feeling so good by the sudden quietness, not even a silly request from his offer. When Johnny of all people was quiet, there was a problem. “Johnny? You alright?”

“Yeah… I've just never been good at sitting still and doing nothing, you know? Now I can't even use my own pool in my living room,” He complained, as if having a pool in the living room was a normal thing.

“Come on, Johnny, you still have a whole mansion. Unless your attention span really is that small, you're not gonna get bored,” Kenshi lovingly poked at him. “It’s not like you're alone either.”

Johnny noded with a small smile of comfort. “That's right, I've got you, my best friend, boyfriend, and assigned FBI agent,” Johnny joked. Gods, not again with the assigned FBI agent meme. “And hey, maybe we can invite Kung Lao and Raiden over to hang out. You think Liu Kang would wanna drop by?”

Kenshi gave an amused smirk. “Probably not, but Kung Lao, might.”

Johnny looked down at the table again, spotting a marker. He groaned and wheezed as he leaned over to grab it, trying not to move his ankle off the table as his finger tips barely touched the marker.

“Johnny what are you-” Before he could finish his question, he felt a marker tapping against his hand.

“You wanna be the first to sign my cast?” Johnny offered, trying to play it off cool but his excitement was slipping past in his voice.

“You mean Hollywood’s megastar wants my autograph?” Kenshi teased. He took the marker into his hand, and Johnny guided his hand down to his cast. Confidently, Kenshi began writing his name.

“Not bad writing for someone who can't really see,” Johnny complimented, meaning it obviously and trying to make it sound like that rather than a mockery.

“I still know the motions of writing, that's enough to get by.” Of course Johnny hadn't seen Kenshi's messier writing at his job and maybe it should stay that way.

The real surprise was the small heart he drew right below his own name. Kenshi wasn't so into PDA, nor into cutesy stuff like that, so it caught Johnny off guard to see the small display. It wasn't like people didn't know they were dating, Johnny was way too into showing off their love and too loud to keep that secret, but it was rather that Kenshi was a more subtle lover when it came to their relationship, preferring to keep things behind doors. Still, it was a nice surprise, and at least now it made the cast way better to look at! Of course Johnny was already pulling out his phone to snap a photo of it to post to his socials.

“You're posting your cast, aren't you?” Kenshi reasonably accused.

“Gotta let the fans know production might be on hold.”

“Is that it? Or are you bragging about us again?”

Johnny snickered, meaning Kenshi was right. “Okay, you got me, but how can I not show you off? You're the coolest! A blind swordsman? Dating Hollywood's biggest hit? We're like a power couple!”

If Kenshi still had his eyeballs, he'd be lovingly rolling them, but admittedly it was kind of cute seeing how enthusiastic Johnny was about their relationship- and kind of funny to think about considering they were previously rivals over Sento.

Kenshi leaned in to press a kiss to Johnny's cheek, and he could feel the wrinkles of a smile under his lips. “Looks like you're feeling better about that ankle.”

“As long as I have you by my side, this injury is gonna be a breeze!” Now it was Johnny's turn to lean in, this time leaning to rest his head on Kenshi with closed eyes and a content smile. Kenshi reciprocated by wrapping an arm around Johnny to hold him. “Shit, that medicine they gave me is starting to catch up.”

“You get sleepy off of a couple Tylenols,” Kenshi playfully quipped, making Johnny laugh.

“Just saying it's a good excuse to nap on you! Unless you're gonna tele-fling me to bed again.”

Kenshi shook his head. “Maybe when your ankle isn't as broken. Right here is fine, just keep your ankle up.”

“Sweet,” Johnny happily murmured as he felt himself starting to doze off. Damn, Tylenol really did knock him out.

[addisson0124]

"H3Y, 1T'S M3, BLUUDUD!! TH3 B3ST STR34M3R 4R0UND!!"

OKAY SOOO THIS IS INFO FOR RPING WITH BLUUDUD!! (cuz that's what I do sometimes, I'm just that cool)

Events list:

before I put anything I'd like to say, proshippers, get off my page. I do not tolerate any of you at all and I WILL block you. (Only saying this because a lot of proshippers have been interacting with me recently :[ )

CURRENT EVENT: Corruption

he didn't listen. he trusted him. he shouldn't have. this is your fault, bluudud. its always your fault.

WARNING! This blog will contain mentions of gore, torture, trauma, swears and other stuff

ALSO, SORRY IF MY BLUUDUD ISNT EXACTLY 'IN CHARACTER' (I'm pretty bad at identifying the character of someone if that makes sense)

Also, I have really bad anxiety so I'd prefer if people were to interact with me first, but you may see me interact with blogs occasionally :]

ABSOLUTELY NO NSFW OR SHIP ASKS!! (The only exception for the shipping stuff is related to guest 1337, and I'll delve into that in a few)

bluudud refers to himself as a streamer, even though he rarely streams! To him, almost everything is like a video game!!

I use letters in the way he talks, an example of this would be: "H3Y, 1'M BLUUDUD! WH0 4R3 Y0U??"

I sign off my IC posts with: "-bluudud, join tem bluudud today!!!!!!!!!!!"

(bluududs design with my headcannons is basically the same, but with a pair of headphones hehe)

HEADCANNONS!! (these may or may not be relevant to rping)

12 yrs old (canon)

He/him pronouns

G A Y

he gets annoyed very easily by c00lkidd, but they do have a brotherly bond :> (aww how sweet!!)

AUTISM

Wields a giant lollipop!!

He stims by shaking his hands

he has somewhat of a celebrity crush on guest 1337, but guest just thinks that he's some weird kid and he doesn't like bluudud AT ALL

He was obsessed with Hadestown when he was younger (I'm projecting because I'm obsessed with Hadestown) and the only reason he watched was because he had a crush and Hades and Hermes

People he likes!! (Platonically, except for guest)

pr3ttypriincess (bluudud likes having tea parties with her :>)

Guest 1337 (duh!)

1x1x1x1 (he thinks he's really cool!!)

C00lkidd (they can bicker a lot though)

118o8 (that's his mom, he loves his mom ofc!!)

People he DISLIKES!!

007n7 (he was the one who raised that annoying little red guy)

Jason (bluudud thinks he's weird)

John Doe (he really creeps bluudud out)

Chance (he owes bluudud money)

Taph (HIS BOMBS ARE HELLA ANNOYING!!)

specifically Cupcakes C00lkidd (...)

1eggs rp blog

@numberonechefoftheforsaken

TAGS

#s33wh0w4ntst0d0n0! -IC

#c4m3r40ff! -ooc

ORIGINAL OOC INTRO!!:

(DM me for discord link)

I'll probably add more to this, but this is it for now!! :3

[ladyazurith]

hi!! i came here from your dreaming of me is free fic and i have no words, i love it so much. naturally i started scrolling down your blog, and i came across the birthday cater posts! this one in particular!! (https://www.tumblr.com/ladyazurith/774492382085464064/cater-my-heart-watching-him-badger-and-pester?source=share)

i literally love his card so much its so cozy and i didnt even REALIZE that he didnt get a midnight text message but he waited up to text rook. im sobbing this boy deserves everything.

in my heart, catervil get together after this, and vil is always the first one to wish him happy birthday. and one time, when vil is away on set and absolutely cannot get away, cater is at their apartment, his birthday steadily approaching, and vil is on the phone with him, and theyre talking and talking and the clock is at 11:58 and theyve been talking for three hours, and cater knows vil is keeping him on the line so he can wish him happy birthday at midnight, but then he hears the front door opening, and he heads out, confused, wary, trying to keep a light tone not to scare vil, phone still by his ear--and vil is there and vil is throwing his arms around cater, and hes saying happy birthday.

ahhh didnt mean to get that long! sorry! but yeah i love that post so much it made me think things--though, i do think (and im not trying to be rude or mean or bash on you! or even disagree!) that saying vil is just a nepo baby, diminishes all the hard work vil has put in to his career as well. which is the same thing vil has been doing to cater. and i think reducing vil to just a nepo baby isnt exactly--fair? in that, everything about vil, his book, his vignettes, his voice lines--they all show that vil IS someone who puts his 110% percent into everything he does, he is someone who values hard work and expects that same hard work to be put in by other people (which isnt fair to others at times, and also ironic considering how cater is someone who puts in the work but it isnt noticed by vil) and, in the tapis rougue event, we see that vil, as young as 5, hid his relation to his father in public and asked his father not to help him, because he wanted the work to happen on its own merit--and not his father's name. vil himself acknowledges his blessings as his fathers son as it is his dads money that allowed him access to opportunities, without consequences like, going in debt, struggling to find a place to stay, etc etc.

so while it is fair to say, yes vil is a nepo baby, in that, it was his fathers money that allowed him things like, for example, dance classes, transportation to auditions, etc etc, it was vils own work and dedication to the arts that got him his Name, his fame, his roles. so while i see what youre saying, i do think saying "vil is just a freaking nepo baby" is unfair, the way vil saying cater never puts any hard work in his influencing is unfair---sorry if that came out rude? NOT my attention at all!

I'm sorry I didn't mean to just be dismissive of Vil, I do love him. But that was mostly in context to him implying that Cater doesn't deserve the same level of fame when he doesn't work as hard when that's simply not true. And even if he didn't publicly use his connection to his father, he still had a leg up over just about anyone else in the entertainment industry. His father is a veteran in the industry and could help him navigate it.

I do believe Vil works incredibly hard to get to where he is, but he is still coming from a place of privilege that other people looking to break into acting just don't have. So saying his hard work alone is why he deserves his fame over Cater is why I referred to him as a Nepo baby in this context.

And worse Is I think he honestly believes Cater just doesn't work hard for what he wants. Not seeing the effort he puts into his magicam account. It's like your boomer parents telling you you're just not trying hard enough to get a job, and you must just be lazy and want things handed to you.

At the end of the day he does work hard, very hard to get what he wants, it's just his hard work can take him farther than most people thanks to the opportunities he has in his life.

[desire-mona]

dead poets society chars but i assign them random things ive seen happen on the internet / random videos or posts i remember (not based on anything it is genuinely at random):

neil - tony crynight's fnaf animation series which i dont entirely remember the plot of but i'll try to describe. so basically its fake mangle lore to say that mangle is the way they are (all broken and shit) because Mangle kissed Foxy and Chica got jealous so she took a Machete to Mangle to Mangled them. and then the gang tries to save mangle or whatever

todd - fluffle puff, someones pink fluffy mlp oc who was in lesbians with chrysalis (i think thats her name, i never watched mlp). mosy notably known for the animation to pink fluffy unicorns dancing on rainbows. also the creator is a pedophile i think

charlie - sorrow tv and his entire existence. sorrow tv was a youtuber who made videos reading out reddit videos in silly voices. there was a whole posse of youtubers who did this, and he was the most popular just bc his voice acting was rly good. i still watch him every couple months even tho he hasnt posted since 2021.

cameron - does bruno mars is gay? i think about cameron man door hand hook car door every day, so i obviously need to point to my third favourite silly trying to be serious sentence. most ppl know this from game grumps but im not linking a game grumps video on here. rumour come out!

knox - venturiantale, the youtube channel usually consisting of 4? siblings playing gmod together usually. the channel itself was ran by this guy named jordan i think? and his siblings has their own channels. i knew them best for their fnaf gmod videos and their fanmail videos. turns out they were all very christian? and the whole family was abusive and way deep into said christianity if i remember correctly, one of the siblings who left first made a video on it. the venturiantale channel hasnt posted in like 2 yrs and the slow death was kinda sad to see bc he (jordan) blamed it all on The Algorithm.

meeks - that one nagito komaeda kinnie back in Whenever it was cutting off their finger to. i guess prove that they were a nagito kinnie frfr? if u dont know danganronpa lore then nagito gets his hand cut off and replaced with junko enoshima's hand because sheeeee got... executed? i wont lie i dont remember this part of the games story sorry. but essentially that one person was like I Gotta Do That........ anyway im jk the audio was faked and nothing actually happened + the person is fine LAWL

pitts - the key of awesome's parody of tiktok by kesha called glitter puke. theres no lore to this the key of awesome is / was ? a silly little song parody channel. this video was made in 2010 and it kinda shows in some moments but other than that it holds up. just checked and the key of awesome is Not still going, it ended 6 years ago and the last video was actually rly good and genuine

keating - onma island is buried a treasure chest. ok so basically mr beast made a video talking abt a private island and he buried. a treasure chest for a viewer to find. during the video he said "on my island is buried a treasure chest" but it sounded like "onma" which this one youtuber (pinely) found rly funny. it became an inside joke with his friends (one of whom got a tattoo) which then became a lowkey meme. mr beast even tweeted it so. good lord thats a lot of links sorry there isnt a know your meme page or anything

chris - i dont have any links for this one sorry, im just gonna tell the story and u have to believe me when i say i swear it happened (its very a believable fandom story im sure you will). so back when the genshin impact was still in its fairly early days (late 2020-early 2021) the phrase "hear me out" to refer to characters n stuff started becoming popular I THINK at the same time. so people in the genshin fandom were like hear me out with increasingly more heinous shit. started with characters, then npcs, then enemies, then bosses, then weapons, the stamina bar at one point, etc. a lot of these were jokes or straight up bait but back then (maybe now too - i havent been part of the genshin fandom for a LONG time) people took bait far more often than they didnt. so it became a "genshin fandom bad" gotcha to point out That One stamina bar post.

ginny - $300 junko enoshima wig! sorry for double dipping with danganronpa it was just the first fandom i actually started like. on purpose noting fandom happenings with + a lot of shit happens in that fandom. this one cosplayer who at the time was called snowthesaltqueen / badguyincorporated started selling pre-made (and styled) junko enoshima cosplay wigs for $300. which WOULD be fair (i think? idk how cosplay commissions work) if said wig was styled well or quality at all, but what was ACTUALLY provided was a rly basic wig base and few clips with no note or no nothing, and rly flat. like on purpose. like that was "the styling". also you may recognise this cosplayer for 1) getting in trouble when they did a cosplay photoshoot (danganronpa cosplay funnily enough) in a graveyard, posing ON a gravestone. 2) KILLING SOMEONE. they were screwing around with a firearm and fake pointing it at someone and then they accidentally shot them.

i could do this forever like actually. i have SO many internet stories in my brain its actually bad.

[caramsels]

tell me more about this "mono isnt a human" theory thats really interesting

Thanks for asking! A few people have asked for my thoughts on Mono’s identity, and because I will take any opportunity to ramble about Little Nightmares, I wrote up my (hopefully intelligible) interpretation of Mono, and why I think he was always a Resident of The Nowhere, instead of a kidnapped human child like most of the LN kids. This theory is super connected to a few other ones I have, so I’ll rattle descriptions of them at the start for context. Also this post is insanely long I’m sorry

The Nowhere

The Nowhere is its own world that real children get kidnapped to, it feeds off of humanity and kinda functions like your local mall. A weird amount of emphasis is put on jobs in The Nowhere, Residents are often referred to solely by their job titles (The Janitor, The Doctor, The Teacher, etc. etc.)

Besides having a job in The Nowhere, a Resident's proximity to humanity seems to give them a higher status as well. In a LN1 interview, it was said that ALL residents wear masks (as opposed to just the Twin Chefs); we even see in LN2 that The Doctor makes and presumably sells these masks. A humanoid appearance is something that most Residents want. The more humanoid a Resident looks, the more powerful they are perceived to be (not always, because of The Ferryman, but he’s just chill like that.)

Kids and valuable teens/adults (like the circus performers and Otto from the podcast) feed The Nowhere kinda like how animals feed humans. Some Residents are given jobs to maintain this system. Some jobs require more power than others however, typically these are the jobs that require a Resident to keep control over an entire area, which leads me to…

The Cycle

The head honcho Residents like The Thin Man and The Lady are more humanoid and more powerful than the others, this is because they are handpicked and raised from birth to inherit these forms that are passed down over time. This one is super important to most of my points about Mono, so I’m going to spend some time defending it.

The Lady (prior to the Six stuff) had 4 predecessors, each represented by a different mask/hat that you can collect in VLN; This means that The Nowhere (at the time of the first loop in LN2) is on its 5th cycle. The Thin Man is also a mantle that is passed down, we see the previous one interact with Mono before Mono has even entered a time loop in the LN2 comics. This Thin Man, when datamined, notably wears a different hat than Mono’s iteration.

Furthermore, when asked if Thinny Lad is a mantle that is passed on or Mono in a timeloop in an interview, the devs had this to say:

The Pretender (VLN) is a good example of what I think Mono is supposed to be, and what the child forms of the 5th cycle Residents were. The Pretender is a humanoid child with supernatural powers and a strong sense of loneliness. She has her own mansion and Resident servants. The Pretender is the heir to a currently unknown position. She has a portrait of her and five past iterations on her wall, followed by another one of her and her two Resident parents. The Pretender is native to The Nowhere.

But… who is the boss of all the Residents? Who assigns these jobs? Who creates the natural Residents and brings others into The Nowhere?

The Eye

(you could argue its the ferryman but i think he works under the eye too. employee of the year)

I think most fans agree on this one so I won't spend too long on it, but basically I think the Eye is the unseen overall antagonist of Little Nightmares, overseeing everything and everyone in The Nowhere all the time. The Eye feeds off of misery and has a fate planned for everyone, it is not happy when anything throws a wrench into these plans. I don’t think we are meant to know The Eye’s motives, not yet at least, but if I had to guess; they have something to do with an extremely misguided and angry feeling of loneliness, as that is a prevalent theme in an insane amount of Residents. This finally brings me to Mono.

Mono’s Familiarity with The Nowhere

Mono is very familiar with Pale City, he is much more aware of his own fate, abilities, and world than he’s given credit for.

In the door/boat cutscene, Mono watches every TV in the water until it exits the frame. This early in the game, Mono already has an inherent connection to TVs.

Before Pale City comes into frame for both Six and the player, Mono is already standing, he is familiar enough with the route to Pale City that he knows they arrived without even having a clear view of their destination. This is because Mono has been to Pale City before, in the sixth episode of the LN2 comics:

In this comic, Mono met (and wasn't killed by) The Thin Man shown earlier. So to list off the amount of things Mono was already familiar with at the start of LN2: His connection to TVs, his connection to The Thin Man, and how to navigate Pale City. Mono having a lot of experience living in The Nowhere is demonstrated somewhere even more prominent too:

Kickass Character Design

Six’s character design intentionally makes her not fit in with her environment. While the color scheme of The Nowhere and its residents is mostly bland, monochrome, and washed out (sans the lighting), her jacket is highlighter yellow. This represents that Six does not belong in The Nowhere, she’s from the human world.

With this information to ride off of, Mono’s design becomes interesting. Mono’s design is a beige button up, tan trench-coat, and tan pants: A monochrome, muted outfit that fits in perfectly with the aesthetic of The Nowhere. Mono’s outfit including a key ring and a useful color scheme for camouflage further implies familiarity and experience with the way The Nowhere works. If Six’s simple, bright design represents her not belonging there, Mono’s muted, practical design represents the fact that he does.

His Mask

We actually know why Mono wears his mask, we have a direct answer:

You can interpret this as a representation of Mono being shy or insecure or a combination of multiple things, but I think it’s mainly meant to represent, as the description states: Mono hiding from The Nowhere, Mono running away from his fate. The Eye wants Mono to grow up and be the next Thin Man, but he doesn’t want to. Mono’s mask represents his fear, his refusal to use his Thin Man powers, his refusal to do anything that connects him to the world that hates him and wants him to fail; he wants to hide from that world, his future, and the reality of what he is. But ….

(straight up a post of Mono running from his fate)

Unexplained Powers

Mono’s OP reveal was the moment that shook me the most when I first watched my sister play the game; I’ve honestly always been shocked at how little it’s talked about in the community. To me, it was a reveal that told us we Did Not REALLY know much about the character we had been playing the entire time, and that was exciting.

When Mono fights the Thin Man and contorts the structure of Pale City, it is with ease. This is not his first time doing any of this, his body language does not match that of someone who just discovered/unlocked a new ability, him busting out the moves is framed more like a choice that he decided on just before removing his mask. The Thin Man boss battle is easy on purpose; because it's not too hard for Mono in universe, all he does after is wipe off his head nonchalantly and then he proceeds to warp reality. The ominous boss theme that plays during this fight isn’t even for the Thin Man, its MONO’S boss music. The Thin Man is the one who helps control The Signal Tower’s influence, Mono is the one interfering with it, he is the “Signal Interference.” The theme continues even after he’s defeated The Thin Man, further hammering in that it is his.

Mono has his own ominously powerful boss theme and the abilities of one of the most powerful Residents at his disposal; he is not a normal kid.

Mono even shares a power with the established Resident heir that we already know; The Pretender.

When The Pretender sees RCG eavesdropping on her crying, she yells so loud that it physically hurts RCG, causing the screen to glitch. I don’t think this is just a visual effect to show how loud it is to the player; I think this is an in universe ability. You know where else we see a powerful child amplify their voice on purpose to harm an enemy with a screen glitch/distortion effect? Mono in Chapter 5.

Mono and the fifth Thin Man

I think that Mono ran away from wherever it is he’s supposed to be, (probably the Signal Tower) and The Eye/ Thin Man want him back; this is why Mono is not killed by The Thin Man in the comic, just pursued by him

Loneliness

I don’t think I even really need to dissect how loneliness relates to Mono’s character, but he’s not the only character who deals with it. A huge recurrent theme with Residents is loneliness; the sense that they need something, they are missing something. The Lady has a bunch of dolls, The Janitor has.. a bunch of dolls in his own way. The Hunter too. The Pretender runs off to cry when her human doll friend gets messed up at her dinner party. The Resident we meet in Chapter 3 of the podcast is the most direct example so far of intense loneliness in a Resident, and not so coincidentally, it has a ton of parallels to Mono.

Narrative

For the rest of this post, I’m going to focus on how I think this theory fits into the story; because I think factoring in the cutscenes and storytelling beats is important when putting together something’s lore.

A little chatter about Mono

Mono is often characterized as a shy little boy who plays the straight man to Six’s feral goblin who loves eating rats, which is a whole other can of worms, but with this characterization I feel like some fun and interesting parts of his character are neglected, such as: The fact that Mono is an ominous little weirdo. His attempt at trying to save and comfort someone is to hack down her door with an ax with no warning, then proceed to chase her through the house she’s been trapped in; Mono is not too familiar with human interaction. Mono isn’t really a dashing hero who tries to save every kid he comes across either. In the comics, Mono finds an area that is away from the monster killing all the kids, but it’s not like he tells the other kids or tries to bring them with him or anything. I don’t think that this means he is a toxic manipulative character or anything because he is. 9 or 10 years old. I think if anything, this is a trait that experienced characters in The Nowhere have: RCG and Mono both know that indifference is the way to survive in The Nowhere, good deeds usually get you killed. It’s the way things are. I think overall Mono is a well meaning boy who just talks and acts ominously, because that’s what he is used to; he’s an eldritch overpowered being who lives in hell if it had a 1940s aesthetic.

I think that Mono doesn’t start the game a sweet perfect little boy whose ending is sad because he gets betrayed, that’s not a character arc. I think Mono starts off relatively morally gray out of necessity, mostly helping Six out because it was kinda his fault she got captured. He develops into someone who is willing to fight his fate, fight the Nowhere and stop resorting to the escapism his mask provides, only to get crushed to rock bottom in spite of his growth. After all, the villain of Little Nightmares is The Nowhere itself.

How this creates character conflict in the plot

Anytime Mono goes into a weird TV trance, Six is horrified. Her body language tenses and she moves away from him. Six has seen first hand that even the kids like her in The Nowhere cannot always be trusted or relied on (RCG shutting the door on her). Some kids like the Pretender aren't even normal kids, they have powers they use to kill people. The one person Six is starting to trust, and he’s showing signs of possessing supernatural powers? Terrifying. Mono notices these reactions, they give him more cause to hide what he truly is from her. Residents scare and disgust Six, he doesn’t want to lose the only person he has.

This conflict leads me to another point; you know those moments of Six being sadistic and angry towards Residents? How an ominous music cue plays when she kills the bully and breaks the mannequin’s fingers? Earlier in the game, when Six first catches Mono, his part of Togetherness II plays briefly to show his feelings in that moment, which implies that the music cues we hear when a story beat happens are Mono’s reactions. I don’t think these scary music cues are because Mono is scared of Six being creepy, Mono himself likes to beat up Residents. I think that Mono is scared in these moments when he sees the extent of Six’s hatred towards Residents, because even though he doesn’t like them either… Imagine how she’d react if she knew about him.

It is only the Thin Man fight when Mono is finally pushed to the point of using his powers, because in the plan to get Mono to the Signal Tower: The Thin Man took Six as bait. Six was constantly pulling Mono out of his TV trances, Six was supposed to die back at The Nest, Six has been a problem for the Eye since the start and now it’s time to kill two birds with one stone, to sentence Six to her new fate and to crush Mono’s spirit so hard that he finally resigns to his.

The drop is its whole own debate, but whatever you think about it, I think at least one factor in Six’s decision is that from her perspective: Mono has revealed himself to be an entity she cannot trust, he didn't tell her either; he's been hiding it this entire time. Why didn’t he use this power to help them all the previous times they were in danger? What are his motives? What IS he? This, mixed with other factors, causes the drop. (a lot of manipulation on the part of The Nowhere is involved too imo but this isn't a Drop analysis)

Mono is crushed, he loses Six and any true feeling of empowerment that he had before. Rather than The Eye trapping him in the Signal Tower and forcibly transforming him into a resident, I think Mono actually accepts his fate because hes just. That depressed. He actually ages pretty normally for most of the sequence (except for being straight up like 12 feet tall, the podcast confirmed that Residents are just super super big as opposed to the kids being really small, bros got Resident genes) This sequence from the art book leads me to think that Mono knows what the hat entails, Mono chooses to run the Signal Tower like The Lady runs The Maw. The chair sequence is not actually him sitting in a chair for that long, I think it just represents his resignation more than anything.

BUT! Mono is an “uncommonly single minded boy,” who also has control over time, i.e. Mono Thin Man slowing down time in his chase just to fuck with you or the clock sounds in The End of The Hall. Whether you think he goes back for revenge or to stop the downfall of everything, he goes back in time. I think it's on purpose, I think every TV in the background of the first scene implies that Mono has gone back to this point in time over and over again, failing repeatedly, leaving a new TV behind and forgetting the past attempt each time.

This could all be wrong, maybe Mono is just a really badass 4th grader from the human realm who got his abilities like Six, just off screen. But one thing I love about LN is all of the different, creative and interesting interpretations of the fans. So here’s mine regarding Mono lore. Sorry this was so long and I write posts weirdly it is 4 AM. I hope you enjoyed

[xxacidrain39xx]

this is probably like. the stupidest tging to post on new years eve but i need to yap about it.

so uh theres this game i really like, its called OMORI & its a psychological horror rpg (not super scary to me but the characters are beautifully written & the story is sad as fuck). in its fandom theres quite a lot of shipping & theres one ship that really confuses me (sunny x omori aka omosun)

its like pseudo selfcest???? not really since its some guy (sunny) x the manifestation of his shitty ass coping mechanism (omori) that happens to be suspiciously his pre-trauma self shaped. but the thing is, this ship kind of fucks up the main plot of the game (not in an enjoyable, au way).

to make this a bit more clear to others since i mainly post about mcr,(+ in my more active days in the OMORI fandom i only had pinterest, now that i have tumblr the fandom is kinda Dead! ngl) in this game, sunny has gone through a highly traumatic event, which made him not leave his house for approx. 4 years & create a very rich inside world (accessed through his dreams) where his life is Still Perfectly Fine & he goes through some silly fun adventures with his friends while his brain suppresses the memories of said traumatic event & basically anything slightly related to it.

this reality also has a way more idealistic version of his friends, looking over their flaws & struggles. in this dream world (referred ro as headspace in the game), sunny isnt exactly the one going through these silly shenanigans, but rather omori, an idealized version of him that also symbolizes a fuck ton of stuff ill get into a bit later.

in OMORIs storyline, sunny ends up leaving his house to say goodbye to his friend kel (hes moving out of his town in a few days), and he ends up having to deal with the fact that his friends changed a lot ever since the last time he saw them, which consequently leads him to slowly figure out what happened that made hm traumatized & fractured his friend group, and that also makes him confront his very way of coping (also confronting the manifestation of that, omori).

omori as a character is very weird because hes more composed of symbolism & metaphors rather than being an actual tangible guy? even sunnys trauma demon is more normal than this guy. like not only is he an idealized version of sunny & a manifestation of his way of coping, but the way he despises sunny and wants to kill him is also a metaphor for how sunny just fuckinh hates himself and wants ro die????? who is this fuckin guy????? like yeah it makes sense that omrois going to further sunnys character but hes still weird. not like thats a bad thing though

the reason why omosun really confuses me is that if you were to make sunny & omori want to make out or something, youd not onky be completely fucking up their character dynamic, but youd qlso kinda disregard the games whole story.

like i guess if you wanted to portray this ship as a toxic ass relationship to symbolize how sunnys coping mechanism is only really messimg him up i guess thatd be interesting (wouldnt appeal to me but is still a solid concept ig) but from what ive seen of it peopel juts genuinely think that its cute & want to see them make out or do even more things…. also theres always some dynamic where sunnys an uwu soft boy & omori is like an alpha male that protects him?????

also the way omori was portrayed in the fanarts ive unfortunately seen was just l*libait. he would not fucking act like that hes not 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 hes a freak as in he is creepy & weird & will kill you stop drawing this guy thats already physically 12 years old as someone who looks 9 in sexual situations youre gross i will find you and send you to the deepest, darkest pits of hell Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge style.

if anyone actually read this i just want to say sorry for this situation i just needed to get this out of my system

uhhh have some silly mcr pics thatll probably make you feel a but better

[soudakuwunmoment]

expressing my take on dream is how i finally get cancelled but tbh im ready.

so i just watched the moistcritical video on whatever bullshit happened on twitter regarding him.

i wanna establish that im not exactly a dream fan. i dont watch videos of his or really anyone from that part of youtube. i dont think hes that great of a person necessarily.

also, i want to establish that i am an idiot 18yo boy. ight? im not some kind of expert on this shit. its literally just my take. its an opinion. and im putting it on the internet. as people tend to do.

okay. recap. dream allegedly sent snapchat videos of him moaning to a minor. there is zero proof that the video was from him, and zero proof that it was sent to a minor. then the fight between dream and gumballva. oh my god. guys. god i cant even with this bit. alright alright ill get to it

im gonna completely fuckin disregard the snapchat thing. theres absolutely no proof. innocent until proven guilty, as it goes.

about the fight between dream and gbva. holy shit stop taking sides. both of these men are immature man babies whos fame got to their head. "it was a physical fight!!!!!!" believe it or not, drunk slapfights happen sometimes. just because the fight was between two famous guys doesnt make it any more important or significant.

gbva was referring to himself as Michelangelo. he was saying how dream is "miniscule compared to him" like the worlds most pathetic dick measuring competition. he mentioned his "intellectual stature" guys. my friend told me about how the gumball va TOTALLY BURNED DREAM and DESTROYED HIM so i had high expectations. but no. the guys just stroking his own ego and shittalking some other guy, and people are hype about it because the other guy is dream and OOOOOOO DREAM BAD GUYS.... and because gumball is pretty well loved as a show. he called dream a slur. like on one hand, it is INSANE to me that a famous guy called someone a slur and twitter cheered. on the other hand its actually not that big a deal. yes, slurs and homophobia are a big deal. but let me reiterate that this is literally just two drunk dudes trying to roast each other and failing miserably. a slur isnt going to end the world. like it isnt cool that he said it, he shouldnt have said it, but honestly what the fuck ever. people are being killed in mass rn and this is what we're arguing about and im part of the problem so WAHOO.

and then theres the fact that dream recorded it. guys its not that fucking weird. im sorry to burst your bubble but recording arguments or recording when someone is aggressive towards you isnt abnormal. was it a little bit dramatic and incredibly childish to post it on twitter? yeah!!! duh!!! this is dream we're talking about. dramatic. childish. but the thing is, and hear me out, hes allowed to do that. insane as it may be, humans are allowed to be dramatic and childish. humans are allowed to brag about their "intellectual stature" in a cab after a night out. humans are allowed to be flawed. no, i dont think he was recording it due to feeling unsafe. i do in fact believe he was recording it to start drama. i believe whole heartedly that dream recorded the argument hoping his teenaged fanbase would run to his rescue. and you know what? who gives a shit!! are you actually surprised? are you REALLY? because dream very obviously has something wrong in his head. im not saying that the shit he does is okay because of it. but i want everyone reading this right now to imagine how you would realistically cope if you suddenly became famous during the fucking plague at the ripe ass age of 21 in the span of a month and then spent the next 3 years being either worshipped by children in mass or brutally harassed by literally the entire world. because believe it or not, 21 year olds are immature and are not normally equipped to deal with a situation like that. its entirely possible that dream already had issues, and its also entirely possible that he FORMED issues in the past 3 years due to the intense stress of his situation. dream is fucked up. dream has issues.

but listen to me. as far as we know, dream is not a pedophile or a murderer or a racist or a homophobe or any of that shit. sure, hes awful at babysitting each and every one of his bajillion preteen fans, but thats kinda not his fucking responsibility??? if a kid is going around doing awful shit in the name of some guy, blame the kids parents. its their job to teach their kid how to act online and around other people. and sure, dream is very very likely a narcissist and seems to be incapable of criticism and needs attention constantly or else he keels over like a scared gerbil and dies. hes kind of a shitty fuckin guy!! BUT GUESS. WHAT. so is like 70% of the population!!!! most of us are fucking awful!!

i know i cant change shit, i know id get bodied by even a single dream anti. i just wish people would stop giving him attention, leave him the fuck alone, and let him get therapy or spend a year in the woods or smoke some fucking weed idk.

seeing the reaction people have to literally just some schmuck makes me TERRIFIED of putting myself out there. can we all just accept that everyone is flawed and sometimes good people have shitty takes or do shitty things. if you had the same exposure to the world that dream did, how quickly would YOU get cancelled? im just. im fucking begging you to look at this guy (and other equally underwhelming schmucks) with a critical mind and context to why you may see them the way you do.

im not tagging this shit i dont hate myself that much. i dont mind if no one reads this i just wanna rant. just leave the guy be.

[sammygender]

hi! disclaimer that i haven’t read through the entire spreadsheet (tho i have read a lot) and i’m just looking to ask about specific instances that have been left off, especially in regards to the ‘body keeps the score section’ and the ‘gender police’ section. am engaging in good faith despite i will admit i have a knee jerk of ‘wtf’. i love dean’s character a lot and can emphasise with wanting to correct canon misconceptions despite the fact i think we see a lot of things differently. that being said this is just about canon moments. this is an extremely long post so sorry abt that!!!

so as i’m sure you know it’s extremely heavily implied to the point of essentially being canon that sam was raped in the cage. 7x02’s “you’re my little bitch in every sense of the word”. 7x15’s “the rapier wit, the wittier rape”, said by sam’s own hallucination of lucifer in reference to his torment in the cage. either sam was raped in the cage or sam considers whatever unimaginable thing happened there to be rape. it’s even more evident once lucifer is released again: “top bunk? lower bunk? do you want to share”, “solid B on the tongue action” (around 11x14/12x15)…… however as far as i can see none of these instances are counted as references to noncon or sexual violence. you're also missing sam being assaulted by the woman in white in the very first episode and toni bevell making him think he's had sex with her in s12. i understand that due to personal preference/caring abt dean more you mightve just missed these so im just pointing it out!!

im also wondering about the fact that soulless sam racks sam up a LOT of negative points just by generally being a dick with no empathy. but he’s. you know. soulless. sam insists that soulless sam was him, but dean just as strongly insists soulless sam wasnt him, so who are we to believe? and i don’t think it’s far that soulless sam’s actions are being given equal weight to normal sam’s, especially considering that demon dean doesn’t rack up any infractions at all. if you’re including soulless sam in main sam surely you need to include demon dean in main dean. a better solution is probably to exclude or separate both (which i know u do make a note of when its soulless sam in your 'gender police' section, though hes still included in the general overview).

i’m also concerned about your “gender police” section. sam expressing incredulity that dean likes kids is there, despite there being no way to prove that assumption is whatsoever gendered? meanwhile, ‘take a walk type’ (from gordon, evident from the context surrounding man’s the way he says it that it’s supposed to be mocking calling sam gay/a girl) isnt there. sam in 5x14 saying it's weird dean isn't going to a bar on valentines isnt gendered, its a brother expressing disbelief at something he thinks is irregular for deans personality. whether hes right about that or not is a different conversation but the fact remains is that hes certainly not 'gender policing' him, especially since sam isnt exactly going to one either...

sam saying "so you never even tried" when he gets back from hell and dean is still hunting isnt him expressing disgust that dean isn't following gender roles enough (and in what way is hunting Not extremely masculine anyway) its him saddened that dean broke their promises to Get Out and live a normal life. getting out is a Good Thing. hunting is an extremely dangerous life. sam didnt want dean specifically with a wife and kids because he thinks its #Normality, he just wanted dean Out and thought that was what dean wanted - in fact lisa is used in the show to show dean's ideal life inside his head in 3x10. a happy ending being conflated with a wife and kids isn't a sam-specific issue, it's just in the writing of a homophobic show. you also have sam making fun of dean for knowing about the titanic which... how is that gendered? thats just sam being a bit of a dick. and in the same episode 'making fun of him for being excited about a cowboy outfit'... cowboys are extremely masculine??? in general a lot of the lines sam says that are defined as 'gender policing' are very heavy reaches and often can be attributed to sam just teasing him/being a bit of a dick in an entirely non-gendered way. im not gonna go on and on and keep listing specific moments - im just wondering how you define what is a moment of 'gender policing'. for example, something like the fact sam is the feminised “bitch” in bitch/jerk from the very start of the show is never mentioned.

i also think youre missing a lot of moments wrt to jack's parenting (but id need to rewatch the show to check) and certainly in the insults and self worth section for things dean says to sam - an episode like, say, 4x04, is full of fucked up things he tells sam that really upset him, and it isnt even on there. i get that ur approaching it from a deangirl lens and are therefore just not as interested in sam's moments which ofc ur totally entitled to do and is morally neutral - but i do find it dangerous to portray it therefore like an unbiased examination of sam vs dean, when it's really more a lot of data on dean's treatment within the show. i really respect the effort thats gone into this however & again am engaging in good faith not as a 'dunk'!!

ever ask yourself how many times do sam & dean actually apologize in supernatural? who's more conscious of money and getting food? how sam & dean's feelings about john change over the course of the show? is sam actually more scrutinized for gender expression than dean? who most often disposes of corpses? WELL! I've finally finished my incredibly, long, in depth rewatch notes document! And it has the answers to all those questions and more!

[tiredtriedfailures]

hiii i’ve been collecting stupid takes about the beef and i want to share them here’s my list so far:

it was manufactured for publicity. yeah makes sense. drake had been getting FANTASTIC publicity since the beef i can see why he’d engage with something so beneficial to his career. it’s for the pr 👍

it was a distraction from palestine (if you’re able to let anything fully distract you from a genecide then oof you need to do better 😬)

kendrick / someone associated with him got a kid to artificially increase streams of not like us. as if there’s a reason,,, or a need for that. drizzy glazers stay coping POORLY.

kendrick is fake / performative because he had dre (only one of the biggest and most influential figures in west coast hip hop) up on stage with him. even though he’s a bad person.

just a moment ago while scrolling through the kendrick tag i came across a post saying that he’s dumb if he doesn’t release his most commercial / digestible album ever. to capitalize on this situation. also suggesting that the reason kendrick went after drake was because he wants to be him. or something. i um. damn. okay. i mean the op did admit to being team drizzy. so.

just the general misunderstanding of the whole thing especially the pop out. i mean there obviously is an element of hatred and hostility but if you actually listen to the lyrics and the message behind everything kendrick has done in the past couple months then it’s clear there’s much more to it. hating drake and what he stands for (or rather lack of what he stands for) seems to have become more of a rallying point and a genesis for love and unity and culture as opposed to the ENTIRE point ykwim? i don’t think it takes a lot to recognize it’s deeper than kendrick being a hashtag hater. kendrick is an incredibly deep and intelligent man and if you think he put on a show like the pop out just because Hater™️ then you’re not paying attention.

kendrick is one of those artists that just has so much substance and intellect behind his work that the general public doesn’t Get ykwim? yet there’s the dichotomy of being one of the biggest most popular hip hop stars ever. artists like that are interesting and i feel bad for them.

anywayyyyy sorry this is really long i just keep seeing tiktok ass opinions and i want to COMPLAIN 🙌

this is valid and an awesome ask cuz i HAD been bitching about moat of these lemme put my hating cap on.

1-this fight had been coming a long time, drake sneak dissing and kendricks possible references to drake and how back to back opposites they are on how they live, maybe drake thought itd be good pr in the first songs but it was just kendrick grabbing the chance by the balls to kill a man who is everything he stands against

2-palestine distraction stuff was weird as hell. people dont see hiphop and black artists as respectable so they cant grasp the importance of the moment, what it means for the entire entertainment industry.

3-just lies lmao kendrick doesnt move like that + that song is all natural

4-okay so dre. i talk myelf in circles about this so let me summarize it into a single sentence: I THINK, kendrick taking up the mantle, the torch, the favor of people from these men and giving it new life as the successor, better, kinder, smarter in his art, is objectively a good thing. it doesnt have to go deeper.

5&6 okay so kendrick ISNT going commercial and he ISNT the fucking dmx interview reference. you spend all your career explaining you think of your art as a tool for betterment, help for those who need it, how you were saved by community and god and self inteospection and you believe in loving yourself and your people into healing and freedom and people still say stupid shit. hes deep when hes on a radio hit and hes deep when hes on a poem. leave him aloneee

fuckkkk all these made me remember how mad i was on twitter 24/7 lmao people are addixted to being wrong about him youre so right tho, mwah

[garak]

@marblekuchen: thank you so much for the extensive reply! I appreciate your thoughts and its inspiring to read such a raw take on him :) good luck with your work, if you feel like it id be interested to hear what you think about kkgai after the 4th war, but no pressure.

you dont know the demon you're awakening asking me to talk about kkg ive been thinking about them on and off for literally a decade now. again i know ill run long so my thoughts on them post 4th war under the cut

i have to be honest i have only read/watched konoha shinden and some small snippets of boruto in terms of the canon timeline (although i guess konoha shinden is filler lol) so my understanding of what actually happens in canon is much blurrier here. if there are small moments of them in between sasuke fighting a dinosaur and jiraiyas evil clone plotting against konoha or whatever i really wouldnt know it because i honestly dont need to know. im sorry im a fake fan i like all the side character kids but i cannot find it in my heart to love boruto the boy. he pisses me off.

that being said i loveeeeee them in konoha shinden i think their relationship is so beautiful. in my mind theyre in long term domestic partnership that no one is willing to really say anything about because technically theres nothing anyone can actually do about it because hes literally the sixth hokage lol. which still blows my mind what do you mean we went from hashirama senju to fucking kakashi you know back in those days having kage-level power actually meant something... ninja society is cooked. but still i think its beautiful that they have each other in the aftermath of everything like i know they were both struggling hard af those first few months especially gai (kks too i guess but whatever none of his students died in fact one came back so he should count himself lucky). that theyre still doing their weird gay rivals thing even after all these years... it brings a tear to my eye. gai put in the effort for all those years even when no one else cared and at the end of the day he won because you know what that rivalry WAS eternal.

i think what strikes me the most about them in konoha shinden is how open kakashi is and how willing gai is to accept his limits, both being things that they often struggled to do in their youth. gai surviving the 8th gate but it permanently disabling him is lowkey the perfect ending for him because it forces him to actually confront his flaws and allows him to retire and pursue his true calling: writing a book. one thing i love about gai is that hes sort of a commentary on a certain kind of almost campy heroic archetype and part of that is his over the top speech patterns and penchant for poetic language. anything that metatextually references that trait makes me smile and i also think its fun that now he and kakashi are both connoisseurs of trashy books. that and teaching at the academy are such perfect jobs for him idk i honestly think gais got it made this is the best ending for him. kks... i imagine being hokage wasnt exactly the best fit for him seeing as he really has no talent for politics and would rather be sitting in a tree reading porn. but seeing as hes retired now im sure he has plenty of time to do that alongside dressing up like another person and pretending he isnt himself. honestly im glad that kakashi is still his weird depressed perverted self well into his 40s its inspirational. but compared to the kakashi of yesteryear boruto kakashi is a little more willing to talk about his emotions outside of combat scenarios which for someone like him is massive progress... i love konoha shinden im sorry im getting emotional thinking about how far theyve come.

for my thoughts that have no basis in canon yet i find in my heart be true. i fully believe that theyre living together and are essentially married but kakashi never bothered to actually legalize gay marriage and now hes putting off telling naruto to do it because he knows the conversation is gonna be really awkward. in a more perfect world i.e. the boruto i made up in my mind they would be married and they would babysit metal when lee was on missions and gai would be wayyyyyy too involved in the PTA at the academy and kakashi would sit on gai's back every day in the morning when he did his pushups and eventually he would pick up the habit of writing from gai and would write his own series of trashy porn novels under a pseudonym but they would flop and have no impact and only after he stopped writing them would it come out that he was the author and suddenly everyone would want to talk to him about them because they were highkey crazy like 50 shades of grey helicopter crash crazy. technically this could still happen in boruto theres still time but im not holding out hope

id be so happy to hear more about your thoughts on Gai, I've been trying to picture him outside of the wooby fandom lens more o7 regarding the breathing exercise example I can imagine he'd perhaps even yell at Kakashi to get a hold of himself ( could be out of panic reasons but also bc of gais standards for excellence. gestures )

ok this is gonna get long and jumbled so its going under the cut

first off in regards to the panic attack thing lets be real here he would punch him in the face. if he was willing to do it to 12 year old lee to snap him out of distraction he would be more than willing to do it to kakashi.

this leads to my first point of contention with gai's characterization in fandom which is that hes like a well adjusted person. gai is not necessarily better adjusted, its just that he (ironically) is able to channel most of his frustration and anger into things that are more socially acceptable, or rather, things that benefit the status quo. i'm not going to get too deep in the reeds on ninja society and its evils because i assume anyone who follows this blog is already well aware of what i think about the village system and the necessity of violence to keep it going. gai is not in any way exempt from his role in that. i think that what people fail to understand is that while kks and gai are very obviously opposites and foils to each other, they are also very similar especially in their relationships to the village. gai honestly is worse than kks in this way because hes an 8 gates user which is explicitly a suicide jutsu, but both of them have committed themselves to being weapons first and foremost which is an inherently unhealthy relationship to have to one's own body. gai's obsession with training and pushing himself past the limit as well as the whole idea of the self rule (literally self-imposed punishment) is unhealthy! him pushing these same ideas onto lee to turn him into a weapon as well is unhealthy!

his relationship with his father and with lee i think give us the best idea of gai's true character and beliefs. i'll go over lee first because i think he gives us the best sense of how gai thinks about himself. gai obviously sees lee as a mini version of himself, and thus we can assume the things that he tells lee are generally the same things he tells himself. this is most important in regards to his self-worth and reason to live being directly tied to physical ability and rank as a shinobi. gais insistence that lee get the surgery after the chuunin exams despite it possibly being a death sentence reinforces the idea that it's better to be dead than be disabled or even just not a shinobi (the first part he eventually rescinds while the second seems to still trouble him). while he does positively reinforce his students at times and does not punish them for their failures, he does feed lee the idea of the self rule which means lee will automatically punish himself for failure without gai's intervention, and he does physically punish at least lee when he steps out of line or disobeys him. this is played for laughs but still shouldnt be disregarded as an important part of the way gai's entire life revolves around physicality and violence as well as his belief in hierarchy and obedience (like i said, reproduction of the values of the shinobi system). he also teaches lee the 8 gates which is such an obviously crazy thing to do that even kakashi (who famously taught his friend killing jutsu to sasuke and then got mad when sasuke tried to use it to kill his friends) calls him out on it being reckless, saying he lost respect for gai because of it. gai sticks to his guns, of course, because self sacrifice is gais whole thing even when not strictly necessary.

this brings us to dai and the 8 gates more broadly, which also ties back into his parallels with kks. i think people often gloss over the fact that both of their fathers killed themselves, albeit in very different ways, because naruto often frames purposeful self-sacrifice as noble in a way that suicide is not when those are effectively the same thing. but the 8 gates is a suicide jutsu there is no way around that, it is a technique that allows you to become powerful at the expense of your health up until it kills you and you have to choose to open the 8th gate thus choosing to die. this is the technique gai's father teaches to him and that he teaches to his (surrogate) son. dai i think plays a big role in gai's whole ethos of silent suffering since he teaches gai at a very young age to respond to any detraction with a smile. i do think that gai is a genuinely upbeat and high-energy person, but some of that exuberance and positivity is def an act (or at this point an automatic response in the face of a world that still doesn't respect him). gai comes off as very confident, but we can see through his rivalry with kakashi that a lot of that is just bluster and that he really does desire approval and recognition, which is in part because of his father's reputation and also because of his own shortcomings in ninjutsu and taijutsu. i wouldn't say that gai is insecure, because i think in general he is very proud of himself and sure in his abilities, but rather it's that he never stops feeling the need to improve himself because even as a jounin people still don't really respect him. he's sort of like naruto in this way.

okay this is getting out of hand i've lost the plot of what i was trying to talk about. as an easier way of formatting my thoughts HERE is a list of important gai traits:

competitive

dramatic

emotional

loyal

off-putting to most people

self-sacrificing and self-punishing

dislikes showing negative emotion (crying not included)

strict with his subordinates

determined past the point of reason

poetic and verbose

obsessive over improvement

will disagree with kakashi whenever possible

kills people with his hands for a living

here is a list of things that gai is not:

unaware of how he is perceived

always positive

always honest

emotionally intelligent or perceptive

stupid

impatient

good at talking to people in a way that reaches them

well-adjusted

insecure (especially about his body lol)

a quitter

gai is one of my favourite characters of all time despite his many shortcomings and the fact that hes mostly comic relief so i apologize for running long but thats how you know i care. theres more that i could say about him especially in regards to how him and kakashi play off each other thematically but i didnt want to go too deep into the kkg stuff because i think sometimes his relationship with kks clouds the way people see him as an independent entity. he also undergoes actual character development multiple times so its important to think about where he is in his life when thinking about how he would act lol. i could go on with more examples but i won't for now because i have actual serious things to work on that need doing but hopefully this serves as a decent survey of some of my thoughts on gai

[thatdeadaquarius]

m thinkin abt the “blunt vs flowery” language thing and…… in the year of our lord 2023, i don't even want to imagine how far back we'd have to go in genshins timeline until we see ‘hey shawty' written on a cave wall-

you try to be better about it, sometimes, using only the fanciest words and the most floral of tones, but all you ever succeed in doing is giving zhongli flashbacks to the archon war-

in the same vein: modern humor. would literally make them think "is this some sort of divine joke im too mortal to understand?" except even the archons need to cite sources on why a piece of bread falling over would be funny- maybe you slip sometimes, but you only ever get halfway through like “i’m neurodivergent and a minor” before you realize they don’t know what that means— “what if i had blue hair and pronouns” but they’re just sitting there like… doesn’t everybody have pronouns….? and kaeya has blue hair- are you implying he’s divine? what about chongyun?? xingqiu??????

anyway um. this is me bringing up my unfortunate (but very funny) habit of saying “i’ll boil you like soup” whenever i’m mildly inconvenienced and hoping it triggers Thoughts about the casual/slang threats we make and how they cope

sorry if this reads incoherently it’s 1am for me rn— also i’m debating becoming a regular anon here, are your applications open? 👉👈

SORRY IF I RAN U OFF BY NOT REPLYING QUICKLY!! BUT I’D LOVE TO HAVE LABELLED ANONS! I’ve already added some taken name I could see in my mailbox so check the pinned post and choose whatever isn’t taken! phrase or emoji, etc.! :)

this isnt super long bc ur stuff seemed chill on its own/idk what I could add! So I just focused on one aspect

gif is literally everyone reacting to you trying to speak “flowery” like them lol

ALSO u guys probably dont remember bc I took so long but I’m still writing/going to post that Blunt Lang. AU Fanfic One-Shot! so here’s some quick headcanons ill add on ive got anon!!

No TWs/Content Warnings. SFW.

so this was gonna be chill but-

BESDIES RANDOM SHIT LIKE MEME REFERENCES

THAT WONT MAKE SENSE TO THEM BC INHERENT INTERNET/DIGITAL UNDERSTANDING NEEDED

WHAT IF ALL UR JOKES OR REFERENCES ARE QUITE LITERALLY, ANCIENT??

like anon said about even the archons having to pull out sources/cite your stuff to understand it, like finding really old tablets/scrolls/carved wall words 😭

u giving Zhongli a history lesson/brush up LMAO

If ur annoyed at them u just need to make more jokes, leave em scrambling for their pocket notes LOL

I like to think since you sound the OLDEST

that the ancient shit like Phanes/Four Shades/Seven Sovereigns are the closest in speech

(look theyre all alive and shit for my genshin, goddamit i still gotta tell u guys abt my genshin fill-in lore au)

and they’re closer to the “beginning of history” in teyvat so theyd get more references

theyd literally understand u the best and they like, all in the Abyss or like deep in Teyvat,

so u just casually strolling up to Azdaha’s place instead like

“How’s your day been Azhy?”

“Same as the days many before, my lord. How are thee?”

“Good enough, hey, why don’t I bring some food from my old world by that I’ve made for you to try out? Something new, y’know?”

camera pan left to see Zhongli looking up, then back down as he scribbles notes trying to better understand, Xiao has crossed his arms and is squinting, Ganyu is behind Zhongli and is trying to peek over his shoulder, Cloud Retainer and other adepti have like hidden nearby to overhear lol

♤

FLASHBACKS FOR ZHONGLI-

HE’S OVER HERE LIKE

“Please do not disturb your countenance my Wànsuìyé, the vernacular is pleasant to mine ears and sufficient for speech.”

“I shall, uh, try my best Zhongli, thought I know ye have- wait- thy have? Whatever, accepted it, I shall keep attempting to better match thee!”

HIS FACE-

He’s literally just → 😰😣💀

(flashback to at least 1 really ancient/old god he had to fight for his life against, they were the hardest battle he’s ever faced, and Azhdaha was helping him by that point too, so it wasn’t even like he won alone… rip zhongli got ptsd)

He keeps trying to subtly stop you from practicing it, he also desperately discourages others from helping you 😭

(Zhongli was about to be called Rex Lapis again when Venti was trying to get on his last nerve by constantly encouraging you to speak fancier, but in the incorrect way, at dinner with them one time)

Like that last content with them pretending not to kow each other but 5x the tension and Venti is fooling around even more so than usual lol

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hi zak! I saw the tags you left on a reblogged post about Luke and suffering in relation to catholicism and that made me think. one of my classmates used to mention "the catholic guilt" (particularly about having desire), and I just thought it fits Luke so well. He felt so guilty about loving Rosa (and leaving her alone...) for so long T-T. Also, I'd love to hear more of your thoughts about catholic and filipino luke if you'd like to write about it!

irt to these deranged tags i left on this post abt suffering as salvation and luke forever ago, screencapped below for reference

hello hello! sorry this response took Ages but now im finally down to answer this so....

//steeples hands.....is luke pearce catholic coded? to Me, yes, and ive been casually throwing around this concept ever since 2021 HAHA. the filipino bit is actually just me projecting, so i wont go too much into that, but the religious bit Is something i wanna talk about. and i apologize in advanced for how long this response is gonna end up being

quick disclaimer b4 i start tho: im Not a theologian or an expert in religious theory, im just some guy who went through over a decade of catholic school and lives in the philippines, a primarily catholic country. this whole response is not saying "catholicism bad." it's more the institutions from where we experience catholicism from can twist it into something harmful, and i got to experience that first hand and how it affects one's view of themselves

ANYHOO, LET'S START FROM THE BEGINNING

like....the Beginning beginning

part 1: in the beginning, adam and eve did an oopsie so now we're all saddled with original sin (i swear this is important to luke pearce, bear with me)

quick recap on those who are unfamiliar: in the book of Genesis, god told adam and eve not to eat from the tree of knowledge. and then they did. this was the first ever sin in the history of humankind, and it is inherited by all humans through birth. so like, yay, happy entrance into the world, newly born baby child! you are guilty of sin already. this original sin is most usually absolved though through baptism, so it's not too much of a problem. but what im interested here is less of the nitty gritty semantics and more of the concept this all puts forth:

that under catholicism and similar denominations, a child, somebody who has not done any wrong at all, is inherently tainted by sin

now, the Good reaction to sin or any wrongdoing one has done is to recognize it and to atone for forgiveness. and within the "recognition" part is where guilt lies. functionally, guilt has a purpose. it makes us realize that we had done something wrong, it makes us feel remorseful, and it adds motivation to atone, to turn a new leaf, and to be better. in healthy amounts, guilt is useful and a natural part of being conscious over the things you do. and in unhealthy amounts, guilt is agonizing.

but thats for stuff you actually Did.

if the thing you are guilty for isnt actually something you were responsible over, the guilt cant do anything to make any of it better. you cant be a better person from it, because you didnt even do it. it just sits there, making you feel horrible for something that was out of your control. but because guilt is a Good thing to do, it doesnt matter if it's functional or not. it needs to stay. because it's Good, and the sin youre saddled with (whether or not you were responsible) is Bad

now let's bring in luke

luke's parents died when he was very young. this led him to living with mc's family, and a huge insecurity and fear he had from the beginning was that he felt guilty for burdening them, for stealing the love and care from mc's parents when that shouldve been for mc alone. the story SSR Shape Of You goes into this particular childhood experience extensively (and i highly reccommend it to anyone who hasnt read it yet), and tells us that his guilt was so bad that he wanted to run away and even erase himself from existence.

but luke didnt even do anything wrong

at the time, he was a child. he had no bearing whatsoever in the accident that killed his parents, he had no sway over who wouldve ended up looking after him, he had no control over the situation. like a newborn baby born under catholic doctrine, luke finds himself inherently tainted by and guilty for the circumstances that landed him to where he was.

this kind of pattern is going to follow him for the rest of his life, and the concept of inherent sin and inherent guilt begins to evolve. if luke can find himself guilty for things out of his control, then he can also find himself guilty for things that arent even sins in the first place

key example: love

like you said, luke feels immense guilt over loving mc. but why? love is the opposite of a sin, afterall.

it's just a sin when luke does it. because luke sees himself as inherently bad, and sees mc as inherently good. he sees himself as unworthy of her or someone who will just bring pain into her life, and causing pain someone you love is bad. if love is the knife he uses to hurt someone he loves, then that love is bad. that love should not be realized, and luke should feel guilty for even yearning for her.

by this point i think it's obvious that original concept has become twisted and overly punishing, even cruel. and thats because:

a lot of institutions teach catholic doctrine in an unhealthy and harmful manner. this is why many catholics and lapsed catholics experience The Catholic Guilt(TM). what was originally a pretty reasonable thing gets blown out of proportion from the places we learn these things from, and then getting exposed to this for majority of our lives lets it worm its way into our brain where it'll tend to stay

and if one's brain also has a tendency for self hatred and/or mental illness........well. it all gets worse.

it's clear in canon that luke is uhhhh not the most mentally well individual. his guilt is so overwhelming that it's the driving force in so many of his choices, stories, and experiences. which is big reason #1 for why luke just seems so catholic to me, because of the sheer intensity of his guilt and how he sees himself as inherently bad and unworthy.

but in the roadmap of sin, thats only the beginning. because the process goes:

sin (bad) -> recognition of the bad aided by guilt (good) -> atonement to become better (good)

which leads to big reason #2

part 2: suffering, pain, and misery as atonement

it's important to note that catholicism does not posit that "suffering is good", but there is a clear pattern of veneration for people who endure suffering under noble causes. many, many people in catholic history have been martyred (and many also sainted), one of the biggest examples being jesus himself.

pain is not good, but someone who chooses to take it on for good reasons (self-sacrifice, martyrdom, putting others above one's self) or stays good in spite of all the pain they experienced (unwavering faith, a heart of gold), well, THAT person is good.

however, like a lot of stuff in catholicism, things get twisted into extreme variations because of how it gets taught or experienced. it doesnt take a genius to see how "people who endured pain for good reasons were brave and devoted people" can transform into "to experience pain is inherently noble" when you take into consideration that many sins (like, of the seven deadly sins variety, pride, sloth, lust, etc etc) are variations of indulgence.

specifically over-indulgence, yes, but there's a dichotomy now. here, in the list of Good Stuff are things that feel not-so-good, and over in the list of Bad Stuff are things that do feel good

bad stuff is a sin, and from part 1, sins are things you should be guilty for

and now, to feel good is also bad, so you should be guilty for that. which reinforces the concept that to feel bad is good.

congratulations, you've unintentionally glorified suffering and demonized pleasure! //sad trumpet noises

you can see this kind of thinking pretty clearly in luke pearce. there are the big examples like the previous one i brought up, where he feels so guilty for his feelings for mc. but it appears even in smaller casual situations, like in his 1st birthday event story. this moment was seared into my brain

"can i look forward to this?" is indicative of hesitating in the face of happiness. even something as mundane as anticipating a birthday surprise is something to be approached with caution, feels too good to be true, to be allowed, because feeling good is bad and luke doesnt see himself worthy of it

but okay, we're all guilty now of the horrible sin of enjoying life. what comes next? atonement, becoming better, growing from the bad to become good, right?

and what better way to cleanse one's self from the sin of feeling good but through the nobleness of enduring pain?

luke is guilty over the sin robbing burdening mc and her family -> thats okay he's leaving for college anyway! wont be able to burden them there -> oopsie the NSB happens but hey at least this lone wolf suffering is a great way to atone for his past sin -> oh god the guilt of abandoning mc though -> oh GOD the mission that killed everybody but him -> NEW ACHIEVEMENT: SURVIVOR'S GUILT ON TOP OF THE CATHOLIC GUILT! -> oh GOD he's even guiltier now of his feelings for mc because of his illness, he'll only bring pain to her, how selfish of him to have feelings like this, bad and wrong -> the best way to handle this is to stay away from her to let her live in peace (lacking the pain that luke will bring) and deprive himself of her who brings him joy (inflicting pain of separation onto sinner as punishment) -> the path to salvation (to being good, because only in being Good is someone worthy of love) is through constant suffering and endless self-deprivation

kinda insane how luke's self-perceived sins and self-inflicted sufferings gain compound interest of misery, but his spiral into self-loathing is littered with this kind of nonsensical "because i did [THING], i should deserve pain/NOT deserve happiness"

for luke, suffering became the mode of atonement, it became the solution for sin and guilt.

part 3: conclusion

to wrap this all up, i wanna make it clear that i dont necessarily think luke is like, catholic in the story. nor is even it a headcanon i have. it's more that the intensely self-punishing thought patterns luke has in relation to guilt and suffering are very, very familiar. it resonates in a way that is horridly relatable to people who have experienced these specific catholic experience woes, but it can also resonate in completely different ways to other people as well.

but given that....yeah. based on my own experiences, all this //gestures at too-long response, is why i keep using catholic language and imagery whenever i talk about luke. it's so familiar. he's so familiar. luke would not be out of place in a filipino catholic high school crying during a 3 day retreat

thanks for the ask!!!