#also shut out to my doc which gives me prescriptions with blank dates so i can refill anytime

[dracoryss]

ADHD meds have this funny loop that when you have been on meds for a bit, you start to question if they really help because being dispersed, distracted, etc is still a thing, starting shit still takes effort and doing the things you wanna do are still kind of a struggle, but in the end, you are still managing and it's not entirely bad, like, but could still be better. You think about a dosage increase, but you also think against it.

And then, maybe you spaced out between refills, maybe you think you can try going without for a bit, or maybe like me, you can't always afford the refill on time, or the shortage is making it harder to find and pricier to buy, or whatever. Since you usually take weekends off them, you know a day or two are still manageable only this time you actually gotta have shit done, and Thursday is not supposed to be as slow as a Sunday, and if your usual routine already includes watching/listening something in the background, now you find yourself half listening to a yt vid while scrolling a different feed opening more shit in the background to watch/ignore later, and only now you realize the tv is still on with the sitcom you put on to watch while you started the day and since you just laughed at a joke maybe you are not turning it off, but still you open some streaming site to check if there are new episodes of that other thing you like (there are not) so you go back to yt and close the thing you were (not really) watching because it's it's actually kinda boring, next video is actually good and interesting but makes you want to keep watching that anime you have in pause so you next video is it, which turns out to be the perfect video to listen while playing/doom scrolling on your phone, and this keeps going on untill it's 10 pm, the iPad has ran out of battery from having a blank canvas displayed the whole day, and you are already tired and sleepy and hating yourself from not doing the 1 thing you were supposed to do and well fuck, the meds did work.

Anyways, I'm SO happy I got my refill for the month 🤞 wishing more meds for all of you who also need it (specially American fellas where it seems hell to get a prescription and where I definitely could not afford it)