#also sam is the one with masochistic tendencies canonically so i feel like he’d really be into mild painplay but again only with dean

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honestly besides the fact that sam canonically doesn’t want to have physical control over dean (he prefers to be controlled by dean for many reasons, most of which come from his trust issues with himself & his masochistic tendencies) i also won’t ever be able to get into top!sam dynamic simply because aesthetically it’s so much less appealing to me than bottom!sam. when jared said “the idea that sam doesn’t use his brawn and size to save the day but he wants to restrain that power - that was very attractive to me”. he gets it. there’s something so delicious about the fact that sam doesn’t use his physical power to his advantage, and even more than that, some part of him craves the feeling of being restrained, the feeling of being small and maybe a bit helpless. and dean is canonically the only one with whom sam can allow himself to be vulnerable like that because dean is the only person he trusts unconditionally. and it drives me insane