#also realised while drawing this that i'm working on the same tablet as the first version

[jupitersflytrap]

god almighty, weird at last!

redraw of a genuinely awful piece from nearly five (!) years ago.

[rosieuv]

I have just realised that it's new year's eve.

Well, staying up past midnight is easy for me as my sleep scedule's a bit of a wreck. I don't have anything that I'm really thrilled about for 2024 (apart from deltarune chapter 3 and 4 possibly coming out that year) and I'm ending on a really lame year art wise as I still don't have my computer and I don't want to have to reinstall drivers and stuff. At least I have the excuse to make the 2024 drawings folder on my backup USB.

I like having things in chronological order.

Anyway, here's the first and last drawings from each year because why not.

2019:

This one only dates back to the 20th July as this was before I took art seriously as a hobby. I drew this in MS paint for a roblox game I was making.

This dates back to the 25th December and I drew this in ibis paint x on my dad's old phone that me and my brothers shared. To play music in the background, I would have youtube as a window at the top and listen to the same 5 songs on loop. This took a considerable amount of time for some reason.

2020:

This dates back to the 18th January and I drew this on my phone as I just got it at this point (the same phone that I still have currently). I had no idea what I was doing and it shows.

This dates back to the 29th December and it seems like I've discovered undertale. This was when I started using my crappy laptop again and I drew this with the touchscreen it had (it was one of those hybrid laptop-tablet things) with my finger and autodesk sketchbook.

2021:

The first one is technically the first of 2021 as it dates back to the 16th of January, but I've posted that one a lot whenever I redraw it every year so here's the drawing I drew the day after. It was for an animation meme but I saved it into the folder anyway for some reason.

I was trying to model in blender for the first time towards the end of 2021 so the last picture is a boring sketch of anatomy from the 31st December to be used as refrence. The last actual artwork was a day before and at this point I had a little drawing tablet and was posting art on Newgrounds. I also started using medibang paint pro as autodesk sketchbook stopped working.

2022:

The first drawing I have in my 2022 folder was technically from 10:30 PM on the 31st as I got impatient, but I put it here anyway. It's a gif but I made it into a png so I can put it on a tumblr post. Technically the first one was this drawing I made about 12 hours later on the 1st January. On newgrounds it's regarded as being in 2021 as it's in EST and my time zone is a couple hours ahead.

The last drawing I have dates back to the 27th December where I was experimenting with art styles as I had just gotten a new idea for a game (what is now known as Roboska LV).

2023:

Both of these date back to the 1st January however the seccond one was exported 40 minuites later according to the meta data. The first one is another redraw while the seccond one is a character profile and I just realised there's no shading on the hoodie.

This dates back to the 9th December and I haven't been able to draw anything digitally since my computer's botched surgery on the 16th. I have drawn some stuff in my notebook though, so here's the "final" drawings of 2023 (basically anything in my notebook since the 9th). The dates are in the bottom corners. I didn't bother with fixing the lighting.

I drew that picture of Kokichi Oma in the dark with only the light of my phone torch as I drew it while a film was playing in my school sports hall with dominos pizza. The last 2 I drew on the last day of school while completly ignoring everyone partying in the form room.

I got a book on how to draw in a manga art style so this is me trying to figure out how to adapt the tips into my artstyle to make it not suck.

This is technically the last drawing of 2023. I drew it on the 26th. It also featured in the post about my personal best pencil drawings of 2023 too: https://pearlhikara.tumblr.com/post/737810429204643840/best-drawings-of-2023-notebook-12-and-13

Looking back, I don't think my change in art style from 2023 is as stark as the other years. I don't like how my art keeps changing and I want to just keep it at a consistent "very very good" and leave it at that as the little changes annoy me as I like consistency.

In terms of actual new year stuff, I'll probably just rewatch "who framed roger rabbit?" and go downstairs when it's near midnight to watch the fireworks on TV.

[galactichelium]

Man. This is the least I have drawn in like, at least 10 years. I don't know why I've been lacking in ideas. Though, admittedly, on the 1 or 2 ideas I have been able to come up with, due to not drawing for so long, now I've lost my rhythm with drawing and nothing even comes close to looking right. Augh. I really hope I'm able to get back into drawing eventually. Because I really do love drawing.

Extended ramble below the cut 😭. It wasn't supposed to be so long but it just kept getting longer. Basically, tl;dr: There are SO many fucking factors that have seemingly contributed to this. More than I realised before making this post, even.

I think probably part of this also is my chronic pain, because I think I first got into this art block back in December 2021. Of which being when my chronic pain started getting really bad. Though, back then it wasn't as bad as it has become. Up until around August 2022 I was still for the most part making a drawing a month. But since then, I've only drawn 2 drawings. One in December, and then one in February. And I didn't even post the February one.

Another potential factor is that, well, my art blog url is "officialkarkat". At the time, it did feel like a proper expression of me, as I tied a lot of my sense of identity to this character, but. Around the same time my chronic pain started getting worse weirdly enough, was around the time when I began to realise that while initially doing this did help me figure out a lot about myself, at this point, it felt more like something I was hiding behind. Not being my true self. (Not that I'm not a kinnie anymore, I am, but yeah.) But then I've been stuck on what to do, because I've HAD that url for 2 or 3 years, and I also still can't even think of anything better lmfao.

There's also the fact that I did get a job in October 2022. While I have very little hours, it still does get in the way because I always have work on Fridays. Almost always exclusively. So the rest of the weekdays I get stuck in ADHD "waiting" mode, waiting for work at the end of the week. And the weekends feel like a recovery period.

I also am now using a completely different art program as of December 2022. Because I've been trying to switch computers, but wanted Linux on my newer one, but I couldn't get CSP to work on it despite my numerous attempts at different methods. So while I have completed 2 drawings using my new art program of choice (Krita), and have become more familiar with it by messing around in it every now and again, it still doesn't quite feel like home. Does that make sense.

And last potential factor. My newer computer is a desktop computer instead of something like my Surface Pro was, which, in hindsight, was a kick in the foot. I thought it'd be better because I could get better specs for cheaper with a desktop. And I thought that getting a graphics tablet would be all that I needed to get right back into it. But I didn't realise just how essential being able to pick up a pen at any time and just start drawing was, to my drawing process. Back then this was true, but even more so now with my chronic pain, of which gets worse with inactivity, thus making big drawing sessions impossible. Though when I got this desktop (June 2021), that was yet to be a big factor. I mostly only even got a new computer because well... my surface pro, at the time, was 8 years old. Now it's 10 years old. I got it second-hand 5 and a half years ago from eBay. It could now probably fall apart at any moment. I'm surprised it hasn't already. Though there are a lot of problems with it tbf. However all this being said, having my desktop computer has helped with chronic pain in a different way. Y'know, having more proper posture. But it still comes at a cost with how accessible drawing is.

But honestly, out of all of these. The two biggest factors getting in the way right now I feel like are the fact that I'm very out-of-practice, making it harder to get back into it, and the chronic pain. But. Augh. All of these different things happening all at once 😭

[butterbeeryuta]

warning: smut content

‘Thank you so much Yuta, I really appreciate it’ you said, stepping in his hotel room as you tightly held on your clothes, ensuring your undies (yes, undies) won’t fall off as you head towards the bathroom.

‘No, don’t worry it’s fine. Did you call the reception though? We’ll be here for the next 5 days so maybe it’d be best to ask.’ I turned my head towards him, taking a slight step back at his appearance. God, why is he so pretty? His dark hark lightly draped over his doe eyes, enhancing his tanned skin as he slightly tilted his head to the side, making him more ethereal than he already did. At the same time, he looked so comfortable and soft. His oversized shirt and his beautiful smile certainly did not help me, considering I was planning to use his bathroom where I will be naked... and he will be outside. I hope it will be fine. I hope.

'Oh, y-yeah. I called them 3 hours ago, and they did say that they'll help me. But that was 3 hours ago.' I quickly said, mentally scolding myself for looking at the man... in a very specific way that we shall not talk about. I excused myself to the bathroom quickly before he could say anything about my flustered state. What was going on with me?

'Hey thanks for letting me shower, Yuta. Though not gonna lie, their shampoo sucks so I guess it'd be better if we buy one from the convenience store later instead.' I said, drying my hair with the crappy towel provided by the hotel.

...

Why is he not responding?

I lifted my head, only to see the man to be looking at my state. OH.

'I swear I'm wearing shorts underneath this long ass shirt, I swear I'm not trying to do anything inappropriate' I immediately covered my mouth the moment I rambled, internally hating myself for being a mess. Yuta's eyes quickly looked back to my embarrassed state, clearly unsure of how to respond from looking at his face.

'Oh yeah, no the shampoos here do suck. We can get them tomorrow after we come back from the lingerie store. And u-uh, yeah no you're fine. Pants can be uncomfortable so I--'

'I am wearing shorts, you pathogen'

'Pathogen?'

'A disease causing organism? You know like a virus or bacteria--'

'Yes, I know what a pathogen is. But why?' He asks, furrowing his eyebrows. Oh boy. I giggled instead, making myself look more like an idiot.

'I give interesting names to people. But no bad intentions of course. Anyway! I was thinking we can maybe start designing and coming up with fabric choices for the new blush collection?' I asked, hoping to divert away from why I called him a pathogen.

'Uh yeah sure.' He awkwardly replies, taking a seat on his bed.

Why am I so dumb?

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'So I was thinking that we can maybe use a mix of cotton, lace, and silk so that it can be both comfortable and stylish. And we have a good connection with one of the cotton production companies in Seoul, so financially speaking, we really shouldn't have that big of a problem.' I said, sketching a few designs on the digital tablet.

'I feel that the design should depend on the fabric. We don't really want something innocent-looking with lace do we?' He says, pushing up his glasses to see the drawing a little more clearly. 'Like this one, this seems pretty innocent and for people to feel, I guess submissive? The design will nonetheless make people feel baby-ish, so we should maybe stick to either cotton or a mix of cotton and silk.' I looked at the design he was pointing at; it was a simple and plain lingerie set that was in nude pink.

'I don't know about you, but I think you are allowed to feel whatever you want when you wear anything. You don't necessarily have to feel submissive or baby-ish when you wear simple or plain lingerie. And besides, lace can also give off that innocent vibe as well. For this design specifically, how 'bout we keep the base as cotton, and have white lace covering both the bra and undies?' I suggested as I drew the lace material on the sketch. And for the second time, he was silent.

'Did I say anything wrong?' I asked, putting the tablet down. Yuta looked hesitant at first, which could easily be observed from the way he was biting his lip and avoiding eye contact with me. After a few seconds of silence, Yuta sighed, finally looking at me.

'No, not at all. It just amazes me how hard-working and open-minded you are. I still feel sorta like trash when I came into the company, thinking I was one of the best employees. That was of course until I met you. So yeah, it's just an eye-opener for me I guess' he said, scratching the back of his head. It took me a while to comprehend whatever he said, but I was affirmative of the fact that he said something nice.

'Well I do not know about you, but I do not think you're trash. You fucking cried with me about climate change— that's some wild ass shit to do. You may have been a dick in the beginning for insulting my outfit and doing what you wanted to do before listening to the company's motto and beliefs, but that's all okay now. You're not really trash Yuta. You're maybe... recyclable?' He laughed softly at my last comment, making me feel somewhat relieved that he did not take my last comment seriously. But as per the rest, I definitely meant it. Yeah, I did not like him at first, but he has gotten so much better and is surely way more tolerable than he was before. As our laughter died down, our eyes slowly met each others. Oh my fucking god am I gonna f-word? Y/n get your shit together, and can you please stop being a chaotic meme for once in your life, and actually be serious or at least civil—

Before I could potentially embarrass myself for the 40th time, Yuta's hands reached up for my face, gently holding it in both of his palms. 'Can I kiss you?' He asks, eyes glimmering as he waited for my response. I nodded at him, his lips moving forward, eventually closing the gap between us. My hands unconsciously reached up to the back of his neck, pushing him closer to me as we continued to kiss. His hands slowly left my face, dragging them down to my waist as he gently lifts my body on his, intensifying the moment. I pulled apart, breathing heavily, dark, lust-filled eyes staring at one another, completely unsure of whether or not to take it to the next step.

‘Do you want to do this?’ He asks, thumbing the sides of my waist. Probably looking like a complete idiot, I nodded at him immediately, only to earn a cocky smirk from the fashion graduate. He reached down to tug them hem of his shirt over his head, only to reveal his toned upper body. Before I could stare and most likely drool, he leaned down to meet my lips again as his hand slowly made its way inside my oversized tee, reaching up for my bare breast. His long fingers took the hardened nipple, gently playing with it only to earn low moans from me. Yuta broke the kiss, and trailed kisses along the side of my neck as he continued to toy with the nipple.

‘D-do something please’ I whimpered, hips unconsciously meeting his, yearning for more of his touch. I could feel his lips smiling against my neck, his hands slowly dragging down my stomach, slowly slipping into the band of my shorts, making contact with the sensitive nub through the fabric of my underwear. Soft moans escaped my mouth without even realising, my hands immediately covering my mouth from embarrassment. Why are you like this y/n?

Yuta's lips left my neck, his breath fanning over my hands as his hands continued to rub my clit. 'Please don't cover your moans' he says breathily as his lust-filled eyes looks down at my vulnerable state. My hands slowly left my mouth as low whimpers and moans escaped as his hands continued to work. The pressure against my clit gradually increased, the speed of his fingers slowly increasing as well.

'F-fuck Yuta' I whimpered, hips furiously grinding up in the air to meet the sweet release. As if Yuta knew what was about to come, he inserted one finger in my velvety walls as his thumb continuously stimulated the sensitive nub. He placed his head beside my ear whispering, 'cum for me princess.' Just like that, a rush of pleasure ran through my body, the immensity taking control of my body as his fingers slowed down. The gorgeous Japanese man chuckled at my fucked out state, and my eyes caught a slight smile on his face before my eyes shut its eyes closed.

Laces and Things

crack, fluff, and smut corporate au; lingerie designers!yuta x fem reader

taglist: @neocitytevhno @mapleeleafmark @thealexalcala @my-chaos-in-stars @cscarletred @lavellanfriendliness @boinkhs

part 12 / masterlist

[codename-bewareofthefangirl]

Heyy can you pair me up? I'm a 21 year old girl, INFP, Gemini, 5 feet 1, short and loud and also rather sensitive. I look a lot younger than I am. Hangs more with guys and the momfriend that people come to for advice; but also easily angered and really impatient. Loves to sleep during free time, plays video games and draws. Booksmart but can't do sports for life. A procrastinator with a fear of failure. Loves food and would eat anything. I hope this is enough and thanks!

Oops just realised I should’ve specified that I hope to be paired with BNHA and Haikyuu boys, also adding that I’m doing chemical engineering in uni (I’m the INFP, gemini 5 feet 1 girl)

Hey, love! Thank you so much for your request, I hope you’re happy and satisfied with your matches! 

In the Haikyuu!! Universe

Kuroo Tetsurou would love you for eternity.

·        Kuroo would take advantage of your height and tease you all the time, nothing too relentless or hurtful, just little, playful teases while standing to his full height and leaning back further and further as you continuously try to kiss him, and if he ever did accidentally insult you, he’d apologize right away and snuggle all the insecurities away.

·        Kuroo isn’t unfamiliar with noise, he has Bokuto as a friend, after all. He’d love to listen to your voice, so be as loud as you want! He’d find pleasure in hearing you rant or fangirl! He’d sit and listen for hours, just to hear your voice.

·        Looks aren’t really a deciding factor for this boy, but he’s definitely not complaining, he loves how young you look! He adores all your lively features and compliments you daily, always kissing your cheek as he does so. He’s the kind of sap to just get lost in you, gazing lovingly at you from across the room as you get ready for the day together.

·        You two are similar when it comes to being the parental friend. Kuroo has his team to look after and the new addition of Lev revealed a whole new level of fatherly tendencies and behavior. You and he would undoubtedly be dubbed “Mom and Dad” of the Nekoma volleyball club and watch over all the younger members.

·        Kuroo would love to see you teach some poor fool their place, but if you get too fired up, he’d gently wrap his arm around your waist and start pulling you in the opposite direction, all the while chuckling fondly. Same when you get too impatient, he’d silently pull you into his side and caress your arm to distract you as you two wait.

·        He’d honestly sleep right there along with you during free time or whenever, really. Kuroo is practically a cat as it is, he’d have no problem cuddling you to his chest, snuggling you in under his chin and getting some shut-eye.

·        He’d love to sit back and watch you play your video games or even join in if you’d have him. You’d have so many competitions, and don’t put it past him to play dirty! He’d try all kinds of different techniques, tickling you, blocking your view, playful shoving, anything to distract you from your mission, and he’d defend his actions by smirking and declaring “All’s fair in love and war, love.”

·        He’d love to watch you draw, as well. He’d be right over your shoulder, resting his head on you as he watches you place each stroke carefully and with great patience. He’d be enraptured with your calm determination as you effortlessly paint what he’d deem a masterpiece. He’d buy you all the supplies you’d ever want and even a graphics tablet if you decided to go digital. He’d ask your permission to hang the pieces all over his room, so he could look at them and think of you even during the infrequent and short times you are apart.

·        Kuroo is a bookworm when it comes to science, as well. He’d enjoy studying late into the night with you.

·        He wouldn’t force you to play volleyball if you really didn’t want to, but he’d love to share his second love with you, if you’d allow him. He wouldn’t care if you weren’t the best at the sport, he’d be so very happy and content if he could just share his dream with the love of his life.

·        He’d push you to not procrastinate so much, for fear you’d stress yourself out when the workload gets too much or you have no choice but to rush. He’d have little work sessions throughout the week, much like your study sessions, where you get together to work on whatever needs to be worked on and he’d slowly push you to complete the work earlier in the week, before the due date, and he’d bait you to keep it that way by taking you out on the weekends you’d usually wouldn’t have open if you had procrastinated. He’d reward you for your hard work that week with movie nights, dinner dates, and the like.

·        Kuroo loves food, as well. He’d take you out to a nice restaurant for a lovely, romantic dinner or, if you prefer, you two would stay in and fix a nice dinner together, but watch out, Kuroo would likely eat the ingredients needed whenever you turn away. You’d be explaining the recipe as you move away and when you turn around, he’d have a half-eaten carrot in his mouth as he stared frozen at you with big, innocent eyes, daring you to blame and reprimand him even as the evidence was so very obviously there.

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Hi dear! Sorry if we’ve made you wait! I hope you’ll like your matches!

In the BnHA Universe

Kirishima Ejirou is your sunshine!

-Kirishima likes a cheerful and noisy environment. Your voice, music, people chatting…he feels at ease, it means people are alive and happy around him. He’s the type who screams from the balcony to greet you when you arrive home or to join you from the living room when you sing under the shower. If you get excited and scream, probably he’ll get excited too and make as much noise as you do. (Bakugou sometimes has to threaten the two of you to shut the fuck up)

-He loves that you’re so small! It means he can easily hug, carry, poke and tickle you as much as he wants. He loves draping himself over you and nuzzling against your neck.

-The only moment he appreciates quietness is when you are sleeping against his chest and he can stare at your calm, beautiful face. He stays still, rubbing soothing circles on your hip or brushing gently your hair.

-You both love eating and that’s fantastic because you don’t have to be shy about how hungry you are. Things get more complicated when there’s only one slice of pizza left: tickle and pillow fights ensue.

-He likes to be a gentleman and to pay for your food, but if you insist sometimes he lets you share the bill.

-You’ve fun cooking together, even if neither of you is really good at it. You try new, strange mixture of ingredients or play with the food. Playing around in the kitchen is a must-do for you.

-You’re the first one he searches for when he doubts himself or get stressed about hero-things. He feels better when he has your opinion about it too and trusts your advice completely. Obviously, he’s also there for you when you need him and tries his best to be of help: he gets very firm and serious when you blame yourself for failing at something or for a mistake; cuddles and kisses arrive only after you’ve recognized you’re worth even when making mistakes and it’s not a catastrophe.

-Kirishima being a ball of energy who wants to do, do and do, you really don’t have the time to procrastinate! Even when you’re not in the mood, he bribes you or stays with you whatever you’re doing and motivates you with food or kisses. He doesn’t like to force you, but he knows how stressed you get when you procrastinate too much.

-Thank goodness you’re book smart because he needs someone to help him. Between you and Bakugou, he arrives at the end of the semester with (soon or less) ease. Sometimes he feels very stupid for not being “brilliant like you, SO!” so you have to scold him or kiss his worries away that he’s not stupid and even if he has difficulties studying he has many other perks.

-He likes dragging you out to do sports! He knows you’re horrible at it, yet he doesn’t care. Krishna just enjoys being there with you and trying to teach you how to play, joking and playing around. He also thinks that it’s the perfect excuse for a bit of skin-to-skin contact. Half of the times you end up rolling in the grass and laughing.

-He’s protective of you, even if he knows perfectly that you can kick ass by yourself. He’d never admit it but the first time he saw you angry he felt intimidated (and a bit turned-on).

-Your video gaming nights get heated quickly. When Bakugou joins you, everyone in the Dorm doesn’t sleep ‘cause they can hear your yells and curses as if they were in the room.

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