#also please do not perceive how much i've went off the deep end the last 2 months

[thevikingwoman]

WIP roundup

Tagged by @coldshrugs thank you!!

tagging @myreia @roguelioness @galadrieljones @lilas @wickedwitchofthewilds @janzoo @redinkofshame @hylfystt

rules: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it!

So, I don't really have a WIP folder, as I spilt up things by fandom (and continuity as needed). I'm trying to be better to a least move my completed fics to a separate folder, but - I also keep a lot of old fragments around, and very old stuff. For this I've picked mostly FFXIV stuff and a few other old Dragon Age pieces - that I still hope to one day complete or remember what was about or just had a bunch of words!

infidelity (DA AU, solavellan)

BSDM AU: bsdm au, bdsm 2, bdsm 3 (DA AU, solavellan)

pirates, pirates 2, pirates 4 5 (DA AU, trevelyan/Solas)

after roadtrip (FFXIV, meryta/emmanellain, meryta & alphi)

another tansui tryst (FFXIV, meryta/tansui)

emmy grief (FFXIV, meryta/emmanellain)

home (FFXIV, meryta)

magnai hien (FFXIV, magnai/hien)

predawn (FFXIV, meryta)

Shb next lightwarden (FFXIV, meryta/tansui, meryta & alisaie)

tansui roleplay (FFXIV, meryta/tansui)

threesome im not writing (FFXIV, mertya/hien/tansui)

[what-if-nct]

hey bestie so tbh I have nowhere to go w/this cuz I don't have a lot of friends but I was wondering...what are your thoughts on pretty privilege?

I always felt it was true even if I didn't know the words to describe it. *pretty privilege is when you get special treatment solely/mostly based upon how good looking you are*

I feel it to be truer having had experienced being on both ends of having pretty privilege and not having it (never had it growing up, got it way far into adulthood so in adulthood is weird to be reminded how shallow ppl can be). But would love to know what you and your followers think if you want to talk about it? If not, is OK to ignore this ask ♡

Also** don't feel guilty if you never get pretty privilege or if you feel you did get special treatment for something shallow. Don't see your self worth or confidence through this lens! Acknowledge it exists and do your part to make all femmes and queers feel beautiful (is my motto)! 🌈💗

Hiii! And I absolutely believe it is true as well and it also goes hand in hand with thin privilege. Sadly if you are thin and conventionally attractive the world is kinder to you. I haven't really experienced pretty privilege. I don't consider myself pretty. I think I'm cute, sure. But not pretty just adorable and I'm fine with that. Though I have noticed that when I present myself a certain way I do get treated differently. And it's sad when you actually think about it. I grew up absolutely hating myself as a child because of how I was treated vs my sister who is thin, and light skinned and has longer hair. I've never felt pretty and was constantly reminded of it. Though at home my family did make it where i didn't feel that way at home, by the time I was ten I did not want to go to school. I loved learning but I didn't like being around people because of how I was treated.

But when we saw extended family they'd always tell me how pretty I was so I just only had a problem with school. As an adult for me it was more just being ignored which I'm fine with I do not want to be perceived please leave me alone. Also I always forget that I'm covered in deep visible self harm scars so it's kinda sad that when I notice people staring at me my brain automatically goes its cause I'm fat, ugly, I shouldn't exist and not oh I'm covered in visible scars , that never is a conclusion I have. It's obviously only about the way I look in a negative way. Growing up as the ugly one and being treated as so does really fuck up your brain. That as an adult I noticed that if you dress in alignment with the male gaze that's when you get more positive male attention. Vs when you dress more aligned with the female gaze it garners more positive female attention. And at first you do seek that validation that you've never had but you kinda end up going too far and you learn that outside validation is worthless and you were better off without it. And I'd rather just be ignored and here a woman yell your cute once in a while then bend over backwards trying to have people who don't matter find me pretty. It sucks pretty privilege exists, but others validation is not important. What other people think of you means nothing. Only your opinion of yourself matters, as long as you love yourself inside and out that's all you need.

One last thing I noticed is if you're not conventionally attractive but you are with someone who is the looks you get is actually insane. I remember I went out one night with this guy very very sweet he was actually only 2 days older than me. But he was tall, thin had blonde hair and blue eyes. And I'm a plus size black girl with pink hair. And I noticed so many women looked at us with such disgust it was something I never have experienced. I pretty much only date outside of my race but I never experienced anything like that. I could have just been anxious, but like I just remember it and I cannot explain it but it felt just so bad. I did have an anxiety attack later in Starbucks and he was really nice and held me but i just never experienced those kinds of looks and energy. My friends told me it was probably just in my mind but it was just repeated and apparent and I never experienced that before. It could have been my mind and anxiety but i know what I saw and felt.